#now I’m failing math :)

[strawbabysweet]

How I feel rn :3

#🐰ྀི yapping #I had to go job centre and it started to rain #and I forgot a jacket #and then I forgot my glasses and couldn’t see shit and almost missed my bus #then at the job centre I got given a diffierent job coach and she tried to get me to be a teaching assistant #like babe I failed maths and don’t like children thats not happening #then I had to walk home in the rain with a broken umbrella from the bus stop #and it was a 40 minute walk since my house is like in the middle of butt fuck nowhere #and I saw my ex with his new gf #now I’m gonna rot in bed and try to just not exist because I’m gonna cry

[fantasythetrashywriter]

I’m free! Finally. My periodics ended. Now I can just…WRITE AND MAKE MY MIND WORK… (Edit: I’ll FORCE my mind to work. I want to write and it is not cooperating completely.)

I expected Math to be the hard one but BOY, Science was the one I took the most time in…I can’t believe it even expanded to Filipino–

At least I finished Filipino quickly…

Now I just have to pray I get good grades. NICE. (Holy hell, I am so nervous for Computer I think I flunked on it–)

#Fantasy talks #Science was…not too hard but took a lot of time #I’m more terrified for Computer personally… #OHHH BOY. #God I hope I don’t fail oh my god #…NEVER AGAIN…I HATE GEOMETRY UGH #I still love math. I just hate geometry now. It’s not the same thing right?

[wedefyauguryy]

Hey are you alright?

haha no

#it’s complicated #well #not really #it’s a combination of 2 things #academic stress and body image issues #the former is mainly caused bc of a uni admissions test that I’m studying for which is not going well #and some of the problems that I can’t do will be in my school final exams #which are super important #and just generally the last year of school is super stressful #and i am losing all my joy for learning and doing math #and I think I’m stupid bc I keep making super dumb mistakes #and I’m scared I’ll fail uni math since I’m so bad at this math #also I have built my entire identity upon being smart and being good at math and now being bad it makes me feel worthless #the body image issues actually are kinda complicated bc I’ve been struggling with eating properly since 4th grade #and have cycled through many reasons for these issues #atm it’s mostly a mix of hating how I look and not feeling like my health is worth the time/effort/money it takes to make and eat food #and also I kinda crave the attention that not eating gets me from my friends #bc if I see that they worry abt me it means that they care #I know it’s silly #I know all of this is silly #also i feel like a terrible friend for a variety of reasobs #on the bright side I haven’t had suicidal impulses for pretty much exactly one month #so that’s good ig #anyways in summary I hate my body and my mind #i am in a constant state of guilt for eating/not doing work #and feel totally overwhelmed and useless and like a failure #sorry this was so long and entirely in the tags

[icecream-and-gadreel]

Keep practicing the thing. When you begin something new, hearing “practice makes perfect!” can be so annoying. Trust me, I understand! But keep doing it.

Time will pass no matter what you do. Do you wanna feel sad about the thing you abandoned practicing years ago, or do you wanna look back at your progress and go “Oh shit I’m much better at the thing now!!” Do it. Do the thing.

Keep drawing. Keep writing. Keep acting. You don’t have to be the next Samuel Jackson or Picasso. But you WILL get better.

#motivation #noodle talks #you wanna know what this is about? #im terribly bad at math #like tragically so #and I just kinda decided that I was gonna keep being bad at math #I’m working on my degree right now and testing out of courses #math came and you know what I did? #I tried #I wrote math equations everywhere #I cried during quizzes #I fucking failed and didn’t understand why #and thennnn #I tested out of the math course with an 86% #because I tried and tried and tried #what do you know! effort pays off

[dreamertrilogys]

i’m SO good at directions i could never ever manage to get lost on the way to a library i’ve been to many times in an area i’ve been to even more times

#help. #i was gonna take the subway bc i’d already payed presto fare for the next two hours to get on the bus right. but it said the next train #would come in 13 mins and it’s only a 10 min walk (THEORETICALLY APPARENTLY) so i decided to walk. ummm #so first i exited the subway station on the wrong side (i’ve exited thru the dollarama side many times i know what’s on the other side of #the exit idk why i did that). then i walked towards the wrong road bc i couldn’t properly see the street signs. then i finally got to the #right INTERSECTION but then i walked around for 5 more mins increasingly confused until i was just like fuck it and put away google maps #and just jaywalked across the main road to get into a building which was not the library but was connected to the library #anyway hi i’m here now. yes it’s the middle of the school day but ummm. if i wrote that math test as it is i’d fail so i uh desperately need #to study for it #.txt #support group for geographically challenged people when

[salsflore]

going to sleep soon ～ let me get some things off my chest here.... my eyes are super itchy again (fell into the trap of snuggling my cat even when i swore i wouldn't do it again)

#cw vent #this is bc i have a math exam tmrw I’M SORRYYY i feel some kind of way about that #this is the first exam where i am near confident i will fail. and its just kinda sucky #my mental maths is really poor and due to the fact i skipped grades (unable to afford Education) i don’t know a lot of things my peers know #my results as they are right now? theyre genuinely ok. not bad. but theres still gaps made by the years of missing out on school #this is one of them #its so embarrassing having my classmate look at me weirdly when i ask her about something that should totally be obvious or #something silly like that. i don’t know. its especially hard for me to be interested in maths because my old maths teacher has #literally fucked me up i’m so intimidated by every math teacher ever and i just hate the feeling of being stupid or whatever #i don’t enjoy being comforted by A+ students bc theyre like cmonn its totally fine!! i relate i got a 39/40 :( #or my friends who make jokes about how stupid i am and its just aghhh #its already been almost a year since ive enrolled in school again but i still feel so out of place #so miserable i could just die #so miserable i think i SHOULD die #and i'm just nervous about getting an absolute 0. failing my first test made me want to literally kill myself #sorry for being dramatic but when you have a sister whos awards and certificates fill your house shelf its kind of like........ #aghhhh!!!! maybe i should just accept that i'm good for nothing at all!!!!!! #not that great with numbers or formulas. probably not that great at writing either. nor am i as eloquent as i'd like to be ～ #not artistically inclined. science is a bore. not ~ naturally ~ adept with neither languages nor history! psychology! economics! sports! #forgive me for not being able to do anything good at all ... zzz

[victory-cookies]

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#vent #i really thought I was doing better #I’d been feeling ok. Not good but ok. #and now I’m back in my fucking rut #I had a panic attack last night #and I’ve spent most of today either crying or stuck in executive dysfunction #and I haven’t studied nearly enough for my math final and I hate myself for it #I feel useless #and I’m stuck sitting here knowing that even if I get through this it’s only gonna get worse! #I’m going full time next semester (the thing that. yknow. made me suicidal the first time) and winter break doesn’t seem like a reprieve #only a delay of the inevitable #and it doesn’t even feel like Christmas anyway so what’s the fucking point #I’m a worthless idiot who probably isn’t gonna fail math but is gonna do just poorly enough that it’s embarrassing to be struggling so much #why do I want to die. I have an 80. I probably won’t fail the class #but I’m not doing bad enough to justify the way I feel and that makes it even worse #anyway sorry for venting I’m gonna go try to cbt myself into not being depressed #I just needed to get things off my chest #See y’all in a couple days

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

the list of things that are going to trigger a mental breakdown this weekend is getting really embarrassing actually lol

#holding it together rn but the second i see my mom it’s over. #you know how when you were in middle school and your mom would pick you up after school after you’ve had the worst day ever and you just #immediately begin to cry and tell her about how your friends all suck and you’re failing math and you’re on your period and your outfit #wasn’t as good as you thought it looked in the mirror last night and your hair sucks and you have horrible acne and you don’t know how to #like move in your own body and your friends are the worst and you are literally going to fail algebra because you don’t know what slope is #you know? right so imagine that i’m halfway through that day right now. #beth.txt

[lightningmcqueenstan]

feeling very “i want to be great or nothing” atm

#shoutout to little women (2019) for emotionally obliterating me with one line #is this about my current grade in math? yes #am i being dramatic? probably #but i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore i keep failing at the one subject i’m supposed to be good at #like #i am supposed to be good #and i’m not anymore #and now i don’t think that what i want to do in the future is feasible and i feel like i’m falling behind everyone #and i’m drowning and i can’t keep up and i just want to scream #but yeah i’m just being dramatic dw abt it

[iulianfawcett]

x

#i just got my tentative timetable for next year and fuck dude it’s the worst thing i’ve ever seen #bio and physics first quarter with the same teachers i had this year who i don’t like #like. that’s setting me up to fail #religion with the worst man ever i need to get that changed #my math class is with someone i do not trust to teach math like jfc i trust one teacher to teach it and i didn’t get her #and they enrolled me in a class i’m already in right now???? #fuck dude #they said we can come in at some point next week and get them fixed #so god i’m doing this as soon as i can #en

[moss-is-a-frog]

The subject I want to study in university has one of the highest unemployment rates of any degree and I’m not even very good at it

#although I think recent studies show that physics and maths have higher rates of unemployment #the subject I get highest marks in is RE and English language wich like what am I meant to do with that #I deeply want to do history #I failed one test and now I’m convinced I’m failing it #but even if I do it or even RE or English language or something like philosophy I’m getting fast tracked straight into becoming a teacher #or I could do politics but omg do I want to #my A level plans are politics history and religion #if I can even get the grades for history #I used to think I could do 4 A levels LOL NO #what if I pivot right now and try to go to the county agricultural college #I’d be so bad at that it’s not even funny #ooh writing isn’t a realistic job let me go get a history degree. YOU IDIOT #but also no money in the world could convince me to do any kind of science or business

[solace-seekers]

hindsight is so funny. literally just like. damn. how’d i not notice. i should be better. and then you never are

#this sounds more serious but it’s really not #it’s just like. i know everyone told me there’s a college adjustment period but when i was in it i was j like. im not adjusting im chill #but now looking back i very much was adjusting and struggling and failing at having balance #but now i’m like chilling. i’m doing something fun for myself every day instead of only on weekends #and yes it’s just the beginning of the semester basically. but i didn’t do Anything for myself ay the beginning of last semester so. progres #it’s just crazy how looking back it’s like. oh wow. i was very much struggling and adjusting. how did i not notice #also it’s crazy how having more credit hours but more classes is so much more chill than 3 five credit hour classes #like. yes i’m spending a bunch of time doing things. but i am spending it on things other than j coding chem and math #idk i’m feeling reflective tonight it’s crazy

[art-student-rants]

talking to your parents about things is funny because they’re like “you know it’s not normal to need to check your alarms all the time, right? most people just plug them in and that’s the end of it” like i can’t even imagine doing that.

#it’s funny because i’m sitting in front of my co alarm right now #because that’s the only place that feels safe to sit #and everything’s fine everything’s cool when it’s just at home with your silly little routines that you’ve been doing since 5th grade #but then you can’t concentrate in class because what if what if what if #and then you can’t concentrate anywhere and everything is too much #and i never talk to my parents about being anxious but it got so bad this year that i had to #because i cant handle this anymore !!!! i cant handle any of it #(also i’m gonna start failing my classes if i dont do something) #focusing on anything other than anxiety makes me feel so guilty #the second i start to really get into solving a math problem or doing smth on spanish or whatever i’m like #wait. i should be worrying. i’m going to die because i forgot to do this this this this this #ITS SO IMPOSSIBLE AND SO NEVER ENDING AND IM DONE WITH IT #thoughts

[crowcryptid]

Spent about 10 hours in total trying to figure out my coding homework and I think I got it completely wrong because my teacher wasn’t clear about what he wanted us to turn in yay <3

I have been barely holding on in this class but this week completely lost me. YouTube tutorials sort of helped. But I feel like we just skipped 3 weeks of material and no one knows wtf we’re doing anymore. This was supposed to be a beginner class :|

#in the off chance anyone following me knows c++ I’m ​not actually asking for help #because I straight up don’t know what he wants us to turn in #he had us make a uml diagram and then didn’t specify if he wanted us to actually add the functions to the program or not?? #he didn’t reply to my emails either and I had to turn it in already :) #basically we are making a math tutoring program for like elementary level kids #which started off really simple #but now we’re adding the ability for teachers to create their own quizzes n shit #and he didn’t explain it at all.. he was just like. ok make this #right. #anyway. he goes over the homework after we turn it in so I will find out if I failed or not 😀 #anyway I can confidently say I do not like coding #it gives me the same feeling as math. everything becomes a blur after a certain point. #I only took the class cause it was the only one available for part of my requirements #really doesn’t help that looking up anything brings up a 10 year old forum post in which the answer is ‘are you stupid? this is all wrong’

[malphurisms]

ok so things that covid took from me:

- possibly some of my cognitive ability/energy

- the chance to drop out during my fresh/somphmore year instead of feeling like i should drop out as a senior

#talkz #amongus venting #AGAIN #these new in person math classes are impossible because i should’ve been failed out of my prev classes #and now i’m worried about waiting ANOTHER quarter

[xyztrio721]

Does anyone else hate Pearson, or has the site convinced me I’m a dumbass.

#pearson #mylab #I LOATHE this God forsaken site #I once took a college math class using Pearson’s MyLab #And I got dangerously close to failing the class towards the beginning of the semester #And I don’t think it’s because of me being bad at math #I never failed a math class in my life #Hell I even had a 100 in Algebra I for an entire semester in my freshmen year of high school #And now I have to take microbiology through Pearson MyLab #And I feel like a fucking moron #I normally do very very well in anything related to medical science because I have an interest in the subject #So either I suck at microbiology or Pearson is gaslighting me into thinking that I’m an idiot #I feel like it’s the latter #College #Oh and also I would prefer to not support a business that had the idea of turning textbooks into NFTs #yes that was an idea Pearson actually had #Yes I’m just a disgusted as you are