#or even really late 30s!

[maxwell-grant]

(SPIDERVERSE SPOILERS)

Something I always really liked about the first movie was the way Kingpin’s design, besides being a Sienkewicz homage and all, complimented the handling of Fisk as a character and the threat he poses, and it’s more than just him being big and terrifying especially by contrast with Miles. Spiderverse Kingpin is a hate volcano tearing open the city and universe in the hopes that doing so is gonna get him his family back, get the only thing that can fill the void inside him that they left when they died, and nothing else matters. Kingpin takes up so much space everytime he’s on screen that every second of screentime he shares with another character is overpowering by default, and the wholly black suit makes it so that everytime Fisk shows up, the movie’s colors and style and everything it has, it all gets punctured to leave room only for him, to the point that in the final battle with Miles, Fisk might as well be part of the background multiverse debris overtaking and suffocating everything.

Doc Ock and Prowler get to have the fun, of sorts, they get to have colors and styles and cool fights, the movie has no shortage of vibrant and lively and colorful characters, but Fisk himself is a walking casket and little else, basic and banal even compared to other versions of the character. He is the Sydney Greenstreet gangster of old blown up to astronomical proportions befitting a danger to the entire entire multiverse, not so much an enemy for Miles specifically as he is one to Spider-Man the concept, The Ultimate Gangster as someone who couldn’t deal with grief responsibly and has to make it everyone else’s problem (that also being kind of an apt description for Miguel O’Hara, who both triples down on the “all-encompassing grief as poison that harms not just you but those around you” part and is also a much more sympathetic character trying his damndest to do the right thing).

It’s only for a few seconds in his flashback that we see what he looks like with colors, and textures, and a little bit of warmth on his face in the life he had, before his family died running away from him, trying to escape The Black Hole Monster that he is. Figuratively, Fisk is not so much a person, as he is a a person-shaped hole in things, losing what little claim he has to personhood right when his family, and all the families he could ever have, leave him again and so he has nothing left but to take away other people’s families.

And I emphasize that figuratively, because it turns out they decided to turn that into a literally, for the villain in the sequel.

The first movie’s villain was a lifeless thug threatening to undo everything and everyone as collateral damage to try and fill the all-consuming void in his soul. The sequel had exactly that, except we got to see The Spot work to get there in real time and on purpose. And so instead of a generalized enemy to Spider-Man, the hero Miles is trying to be, we get the enemy to Miles Morales, the person he is.

The Spot, funnyman nerd sidekick to the previous villain’s number two, just a gag character without even a name to him that we didn’t even know was there, was pushed every step of the way by the frustration of being perceived and put down as a wannabe never-will-be, driven to uncover the multiverse and make himself noticed and respected by his peers, (like a certain someone who was going to define his entire career prospects around the possibility of getting to meet his spidery friends again, and then they did that to him)

turning out to be a anomaly that was never supposed to be and is hunted as such, their spite nipping at their heels to push them forward, twisting themselves to be free from the expectations and scorn of potential-peers-turned-enemies.

And so at the end, obviously Miles must face the worst version of himself, before he can face the worst version of himself, and it has to be right after he finally understands what he’s up against, his own nemesis, and it has to be right after he declares, after embracing himself as a fugitive and someone-that-shouldnt-be-but-will-anyway,

“I beat them all“

#spiderman #across the spiderverse #spiderverse #miles morales #spider-man #the spot #kingpin #wilson fisk #spiderverse 2 #it's been a week and i'll watch it again tomorrow #cannot overstate how much I've been talking about it with friends lately #i haven't been this obsessed with a movie in forever #also really cool of Spiderverse 2 to just sneak in the absolute coolest take on The Vulture there's ever been #and nobody talks about it because it's not even in the top 20 or 30 coolest and most impressive things about the movie #or top 50 even

[dmc-questions-anon]

Poll for whitebeakedraven

#I haven't particularly thought about the twins lifespan tbh #I think that full demons are immortal #I'm still working on demon lore but I think that demons grow up quicker than humans do and at a certain point stop aging #like when they're in a human equivalent of their mid-late 20's or early-mid 30's they stop aging and stay that age forever and can't die of #old age #But I'm not really sure about half-demons #The twins & Nero seem to be aging normally #Not rapidly #And Dante definitely doesn't appear to have stopped aging at any point? #I'd argue he even looks older than he really is #Maybe they can choose to age or not? #Or if they are immortal they stop aging later than full demons? #Or maybe they just have a lengthened life span but can die of old age they'll just live longer than regular humans? #Or maybe they have a human lifespan #I'm honestly not sure #I think Trish is immortal and that honestly makes me feel bad for her #I almost want to say they are immortal just for Trish's sake #But then Dante Vergil and Nero will have to watch the humans they care about inevitably be sweeped away by old age #Same as Trish #I'm honestly really not sure #Devil May Cry #DMC #Dante DMC #Vergil DMC #Nero DMC

[cerise-on-top]

How do you think Laswell met her wife? What's domestic life like for her when she gets to go home?

Have a lovely day!

Hello! A second CoD post today since I was able to write this fairly quickly! This is about how I think Laswell met her canon wife, but everyone can interpret this however they like! I hope this is enjoyable!

Laswell Meeting Her Wife and Domestic Life With Her

If we’re talking about someone inserting themselves into the CoD world, then I’d say it’d be however the person intended to meet her. However, if we’re talking about her canon wife, then I’d likely have to say through work. It’s not uncommon for someone to meet through work. Besides, I can imagine the CIA having a few women working there as well, a few more than just Laswell. So, there’s a chance another one of the women working there was also into girls. And that’s likely one of the main factors that drew Laswell to that specific woman.

Don’t get me wrong, Laswell doesn’t develop crushes easily, she doesn’t now, she didn’t back then, but it would likely be that feeling of unity, of not being alone, that would draw Laswell to her future wife. It’s not often someone would have come out back then, especially not to someone you’re not sure about, so she knows something like that is an honor. And it’s that which would make her subconsciously like that woman more than the other ones, wanting to spend more time with her, get to know her better. And in those years she’d have known her, she’d eventually fall in love with her. Laswell knows what she’s feeling, but she’d test the waters a bit at first. To anyone outside it would be obvious she likes that woman more than anyone else. Given that she gives her lots and lots of gifts to gauge her reaction, takes the time out of her day to spend with her and overall just compliments her, it’s hard to not think there’s something going on here. Laswell doesn’t realize this immediately, but she will eventually.

Afterwards I’d say it was probably her wife who asked her about that sort of behavior. And, a few days later, either of them would have probably confessed they like the other. And thus a few years of dating commence.

After a year or two, Laswell would have proposed to her. Although she sometimes did lie awake at night, thinking about what it would have been like for her future wife to propose to her instead, she was just that smitten by her. As she works for the CIA as well, Laswell knows her wife is just as capable as she is. Maybe she doesn’t know as many languages, but it doesn’t matter to her, once they go on vacation Laswell can play interpreter. And on vacations they went together. Not very often, mind you, since the both of them were stationed anywhere in the world, but they would try to see the nicer parts of the world together. Amsterdam, Kyoto, Vienna. All of that stuff. By that time, they had already long since moved in together.

So, it isn’t often the two of them get to see each other in general, but that’s why they cherish what little time they can spend together. Their love never falters, and when they’re alone behind doors it’s kind of sickeningly sweet how they treat each other. It used to be worse when they were younger, but they’ve since mellowed out a little bit. So, when Laswell is home, her domestic situation can be a bit lonely. But for the sake of this ask we’re going to say her wife is actually home this time.

She doesn’t like to cook very much, so there won’t be too many homemade meals. Her wife can only be convinced to stand behind the stove whenever Laswell eggs her on, promising her a small reward, such as going to the cinema together. Her wife never cooks alone, only with Laswell. All those other times she either eats out, grabs something that only needs to be heated up or orders food. It’s only with Laswell that she can get over her disdain of cooking.

However, other than that, the two of them will take turns doing chores. If either of them just came home from work, then the other will take care of cleaning, washing clothes, putting away stuff and so on and so forth. They usually do their tasks together. So one of them will clean the dishes while the other one cleans the kitchen. If all tasks are done for either of them, then they’ll help the other. Since they’re both aware teamwork is important, something they learned throughout their careers, they would never hesitate to do so.

Laswell’s wife is a more traditionally affectionate woman than Laswell herself. She loves to give her wife a kiss every morning and before work, make her coffee and maybe toast some bread while she’s at it as well. As she usually gets up earlier than Laswell, she usually gets those things out of the way immediately, but won’t wake her up. It’s usually the loud coffee machine that does.

Overall, the domestic situation between the two of them is very loving. They don’t see each other that often, but whenever they do, they make that short amount of time count. With a kiss and a hug from her wife here and there, Laswell never ends up touch starved either. However, the only thing that had been bothering her about her wife would be her nagging about her smoking. That’s why she’s trying to quit now, just to keep her happy. Happy wife, happy life, after all. Whenever Laswell gets to see her wife content, she’s happy as well. She’d go through all nine circles of hell just to protect her and make sure nothing would happen to her. And at some point in her career, she likely has done that already.

#cod #kate laswell #today is a very non-reader insert heavy day it seems but that's alright as well #I also got another request I'll be posting tomorrow. another one about Laswell! #people have been really loving on her as of late but I don't mind that in the slightest! she deserves it! #Laswell would be a very loving wife I'd say! not as cuddly or hug-y as other people but she loves giving gifts #receiving a lot of gifts from her is one way of telling she's into you so she's very affectionate like that #her wife is also a really sweet woman who knows how to put her foot down though #it's that sweetness and kindness that also drew Laswell in as well #they're also both about the same age even if her wife started working for the CIA a bit earlier than Laswell did #I HC that Laswell started when she was 25 so her wife likely started when she was 23 or so #Laswell has been working for the CIA for a long time now and so has her wife. but they're both very competent and know what they do #I also HC them both to be in their early/mid 50's as well so they have been dating for a while #I like to think Laswell got married in her early 30's and they got together when she was in her late 20's #lots of Laswell HC lore drop tonight it seems

[demadogs]

#round up so if youre 25 count it as late 20s even tho its not really #i saw someone say ‘cant believe im gonna be 18 when s5 comes out’ and it made me lose my mind #i love older bylers last summer a bunch of the people here were in their 30s and i liked it #now you guys are INFANTS #*​schmidt voice* youths!!! #rb this i want a big sample size #byler #polls

[omaano]

"He dreamt of his kerchief, long and winding into yard after yard of fabric. It became a billowing dress in the desert made from the interminable drape of it, a volume of hoops and skirts and ruffles that could swallow the world." 

 Lessons in Idle Ecstasies ch 4 - Scrophulariaceae by @brightmouth

I cannot believe that the first half of this project is done! Now onto the second part with a little more characters and quite a bit less landscapes (and a bit of unfinished extra that didn't mean the cut in the end under the read more). It is such a beautiful scene that takes my breath away every time in a few sentences, so I really cannot help showing my love somehow!

I really loved the colour palette and perspective on this one, but I ultimately decided that it wouldn't serve much of an actual storytelling (depicting) purpose as the 3rd panel, and the new 6th panel would tie in much better with how the scene/dream sequence goes on. I still wanted to show off that blue shadow tho. I have very strong feelings about that one.

#dincobb #cobb vanth #marshmando #din x cobb #my art #landscapes #the mandalorian fanart #star wars fanart #AU #lessons in idle ecstasies #western AU #8 more to go but I cannot count any more and I don't remember where the current panel count plan stands lol #happy birthday to me a day late with this one because apparently turning 30 finally granted me the barest of minimum of impulse control #I'll really need someone to sign up as my impulse control I can't keep doing this to myself out of obsessive and feral love or whatever #but it's RED and I've barely learned how to paint mountains what even am I doing somebody help #long post

[birdmenmanga]

awake. am I finally turning my life around

#just thinking thoughts... #it is 7:30 AM for your information. #lately I've been waking up at times like 3 PM which i really hate. i hope I'm turning my life around #I'm going to get breakfast as a treat. and clean out my sink #sigh. peace and love on planet earth. i might even get time to draw a little bit before my call

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

Answering (by far too many) questions about Phoenix to get a better feel for their character. There's no spoilers for 3 in this, either 💕 So the only thing there is to worry about is how comically long it is

Does your muse make decisions with their head or their heart? Perhaps a bit of both?

Phoenix doesn’t get much room to think with anything beyond their head on the job. And more often than not, they are on the job- or at least, they’re stuck in a similar headspace… That being said, during what little time they spend beyond their occupation, that completely flips. In the rare instances they’re allowed to be lax, they’ll be far more likely to let their emotional state guide their behaviors.

Would you say your muse lives up to their potential? Are they trying to, or could they care less?

They’ve surpassed their initial potential, really. They would never say it out loud, but Phoenix absolutely thinks that it’s only downhill from this point onwards. Sure, they survived a hell of a lot, but that doesn’t mean they know how they did it. They sure as hell would like to keep the reputation they’ve gained, but they don’t feel like they’ve earned it themselves. More like fate just tacked it onto them against their will.

Is your muse protective of those they care for? If so, how do they show it?

It’s been a while since Phoenix has even had someone that they’ve cared for. If you were to have asked them before they joined the Agency, they probably would have responded with a shrug. Nowadays though, the bond they’ve developed with their handler is probably the strongest one they’ve ever had. Taking a bullet for him is the least of what Phoenix would do for that man. Thankfully (for now, anyways), he hasn’t found himself in any sort of situation that would require Phoenix doing that.

Does your muse tend to judge others, or are they more open-minded?

No, Phoenix is absolutely a bit of a judger. Just about anyone who they meet for the first time, they’ve got some internal commentary stirring up in their head the second they lay eyes on them. It happens a lot with Zoraxis operatives especially. Normally it boils down to “ohhh, this guy’s weird”, while actively ignoring the fact that they, too, are very weird. They’re not above being a hypocrite in that regard.

Does your muse have any strange interests? do they keep these interests to themselves, or are they comfortable sharing them with others?

Straying from the somewhat obvious answer of their pyromanic tendencies, Phoenix has a habit of… ‘finding’ stuff out in the field and taking it back with them. It absolutely boggled the Agency the first few times they did it, but nobody stopped them while they had the chance, and they quickly made a habit of it. Sans the handler, they don’t really have great connections with most people in the office, so it isn’t something that comes up a lot. If someone asked them about it, they’d be happy to explain it, but more often than not they’d prefer it if people they didn’t know stayed away from their stuff. After SatL, Phoenix was devastated to learn that all of the souvenirs they collected were removed from the van- probably discarded somewhere by other faculty. Their handler was equally upset about it, though at the time that he learned what the Agency had done, he was still under the impression Phoenix was dead, so.

Has your muse ever been arrested? If so, what for?

Before embracing the life of an agent, Phoenix had gotten themself caught up in a criminal lifestyle far bigger than they were. They were on the hook for a lot of things, really. Trespassing, grand theft, breaking and entering, second degree murder, and, of course, arson, among a few other things. … It was actually the Agency who intercepted their arrest… Read over their files, saw their talent, and didn’t figure them enough of a threat to be against ‘hiring’ them for an agent position. Or maybe they were just looking for some cannon fodder who wouldn’t be missed. Phoenix didn’t really know. But between being an agent or going to jail, it was an easy answer.

Does your muse consider themselves a good person? Why or why not?

… It’s a question Phoenix thinks about a lot. They don’t really have an answer- though if they had to choose, they’d lean towards ‘no’. Their past certainly doesn’t help them think very highly of themself and their morality. They’ve left it behind, but that doesn’t mean they don’t think about it… They wouldn’t even be an agent without all the skills they honed during that time of their life. It’s inseparable from who they are now, whether they like it or not. Phoenix didn’t join the Agency willingly… Not really. Sure, they got used to it- maybe even grown to like it, in a strange sort of way, but they have coworkers who trained and dedicated their lives to their job because they wanted to help people. Because they wanted to save the world- protect the innocent. Phoenix didn’t have a choice. Do they want to help people…? Do they want to protect the innocent? They think they do- they’re pretty sure any rational person would. But they wouldn’t be here if the Agency didn’t snatch them up… Would they even care, if it wasn’t for them? It’s hard to consider being a good person when the good things you do, ultimately, stem from the debt that you owe.

How important is family to your muse?

Not very. They never really knew their mother, didn’t have a great relationship with their father, and keeping contact with him post joining the Agency wasn’t a very high priority for them. Add being an only child to the mix, and that doesn’t really leave much left.

Does your muse tend to blame themselves or others?

It depends, but normally it's much easier for the blame to fall on Phoenix if something goes wrong in the field. Originally, this was because when something went wrong, it usually was their fault- they touched something too quickly, or threw away something they actually needed, or accidentally gripped something too tightly with the telekinesis they were still adjusting to. Though they’ve gotten better at making less mistakes in the field, it's hard to shake the habit of blaming themself whenever things start to go awry.

What decisions have your muse made that they regret?

Regret is… a strange concept for Phoenix. Oddly, one they get particularly thoughtful about. Of course, they regret a lot of the actions in their past, but without it, they wouldn’t be where they are today… They’ve got a place to live they can call their own, an office full of people who… tolerate them, free lunch every day, and a friend they wouldn’t trade for the world. Not to mention all they’ve done since becoming an agent… They certainly don’t regret any of that. Ultimately, Phoenix tries not to dwell on things like regret to begin with. If they don’t think about the past too hard- if they enjoy the present for what it is, and leave everything else behind- then it can’t hurt them as much. Right?

What haunts your muse? Is there any event in your muse’s past that they can’t move past?

A lot… But to narrow it to just one, Rising Phoenix clings to them like a dead weight. Not because of the mission itself… Not because of Juniper, or the missile, or Zor (well, okay, maybe Zor a little bit)... But they can’t shake the memory of their handler crying out to them when the elevator cables finally snapped. With the earpiece tucked directly behind… you know, their ear, it felt as if the sound was echoing around in their skull. They could have died, then. And that wasn’t new, obviously- they nearly died just about every day that week… But having it sink in that even their handler didn’t trust their odds… It was a lot to think about all at once. That they might die. That someone else might care if they die. That his voice shouting their ‘name’ could be the last thing they ever hear him say… The last thing they ever hear period. Revelation after revelation hit in rapid succession, and plummeting to their would-be-death in an elevator certainly hadn’t helped matters much.

Does your muse favor nonviolence? Will they be violent if needed? Do they revel in violence?

Generally, if Phoenix can handle a situation without killing somebody, they will. Physical harm that doesn’t lead to murder is a completely different story, though. They’ll generally do just about anything short of murder to get someone off their back. Phoenix is a pretty big advocate for improvised weaponry, and partnering that up with their telekinesis is quite the dangerous combination. If it’s not bolted to the wall, you’re likely to get hit by it. Hope you have a particularly sturdy skull.

Does your muse prefer to keep the peace or rock the boat? Are they a mediator, or do they tend to make others upset?

Over the years of working for the Agency, they’ve certainly gotten better, but Phoenix has always been a bit of an instigator. It’s a habit they never quite broke. You give them five minutes and they can turn just about anything into an argument. It made them pretty unpopular during their first few months in the office. Nowadays, they’re a lot more playful about it, and they’ve gotten better about learning the limits of those around them (and they’ll only pass those limits if they’re a Zoraxis operative).

Does your muse have any specific fears? Is there a reason why they fear these things?

Phoenix has had a pretty bad case of paranoia even before they joined the Agency. Of course, turning to a life of secrecy pretty much only made that worse. They feel more comfortable meandering through the hallways of an Agency facility than they do walking down the street. They feel safer spending a late night at their office than they do in their own home. There’s a sense of security that comes from being surrounded by their peers that they only really notice once it’s gone… It’s one of the main reasons they’ve stopped asking for vacation days. Not like they’d be very relaxing anyways…

Is your muse happy with their job or career path? Why or why not?

When they started, they couldn’t have cared less about what it ‘meant’ to be a secret agent. They were onboarded to be a dispensable asset, and they knew that full well. Over the years, though, they’ve come around to it… They’re certainly proud of the work they have done (even if they barely know how they even did it), and the sense of community could be a hell of a lot worse. Not needing to fear for their life every time they wake up in the morning would be nice, but you’ve gotta take what you can get, you know.

Does your muse like to travel? have they traveled in the past? Where would they like to go?

Quite obviously, Phoenix travels for work a lot. Before that, though, they never really went too far from their hometown. The concept of traveling for leisure wasn’t really at the forefront of their mind at the time. They can’t deny, though, being an agent has sent them to quite a few gorgeous locations… Though they have no desire to recreationally travel as of currently, they can certainly understand the appeal.

Does your muse believe in an afterlife? If so, what do they believe the afterlife would look like?

They… try not to think about that. If there’s nothing left for them after they die… If everything just cuts to black, and they disappear into the thoughtless ether… Well, there’s plenty of worse things to wake up to, that’s for certain.

Is your muse cowardly, or courageous? what would it take for them to act heroically or selflessly?

It’s a complicated question. If you were to ask Phoenix themself, they certainly wouldn’t consider themself courageous, even despite all they’ve done. Just about every incredibly selfless thing they’ve done- the Death Engine, the stunt in Rising Phoenix, and everything else… Well, they were just about scared shitless the whole goddamned time. Some people would consider it brave to find something heart stoppingly terrifying and still be able to do it anyways. But Phoenix just considers it embarrassing. They don’t really… talk to other agents very much (they aren’t exactly the most popular operative, even despite their accomplishments). With their limited worldview, it’s kind of hard for the imposter syndrome not to creep in. Other agents would have probably done the same things they did, had they gotten the opportunity. And they probably would have done it faster. Probably wouldn’t have hesitated as much.

What are your muse’s most negative traits? How do these traits influence their lives? (ex. if a muse is aggressive, they may have trouble forming lasting friendships.)

Phoenix is an admittedly dangerous combination of standoffish and impulsive. They listen to themself, and act without thinking. Of course, they’ve been working on that a lot more after establishing a better relationship with their handler, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t come back to bite them in the ass from time to time. … It’s so strange that people actually concern themselves about them now. That when Phoenix acts too irrationally, there’s punishments beyond the short term physical, or situational. They get hurt, and their handler gets… scared. They’re not used to that. Even despite their bond, they’ve gotten into a few pretty heated arguments about the matter from time to time. Phoenix still isn’t really used to their actions having consequences for people other than themself. But the world has been relying on them an awful lot, lately… It’s quite the weight on the shoulders.

Has your muse ever felt trapped? by what?

Ultimately- no matter how much they’ve grown used to them, and no matter how much they’ve adjusted to their life as an operative- the Agency is, and will always be Phoenix’s cage. They’re stuck there. They owe a debt, and they can’t really leave if they wanted to. Luckily, they don’t really want to… They’re not really sure what they’d be doing, if not for this… But like most things adjacent to their past, they try not to think too hard about the fact that they’re stuck in this particular career. 

#ieytd #i expect you to die #agent phoenix #headcanons #ive been going kinda crazy on the feefee content lately. this is because of my innumerous diseases. #this was pretty fun even if it took an absurdly long time. maybe i'll do this again at some point #i really like my feefee interp.... swings legs and twirls hair. there's something special abt them (their illnesses) #COMPLETELY unrelated but these kids (college aged) have been out here rolling coins down the driveway hill for 30 minutes straight #its 10:40 right now #what are they doing dude......

[pocketdaan]

You've kept track of the characters on your kid's favorite show, but this one seems brand new!

^ without compression + chromatic aberration. Tried using an old indie animated kids show style! Ones with lineart rough at the edges, have choppy frames, and bleeding watercolors... I swear those exist 'cause I watched em, but I'm having a hard time thinking up an example lmao

As for the premise, like a Candle Cove thing 'cept some adults can still see it. Imagine a kids cartoon playing and one character is always digging at his pockets. Luckily for Pocketcat, his friendly attitude makes it easy to wave off! He's only looking for his keys promise.

#fear and hunger #fear & hunger #f&h #pocketcat #aart #inspired by a childhood experience haha. #Child-me watching late night TV with nobody else around. Suddenly in-between commercials a random masked man popped up on the TV #It was completely silent. Black & white high contrast. Camera only went up to his shoulders. #He did nothing but stare at the viewer for 30 minutes. Then a commercial came in. It wasn't part of the show. #By now I've realized it's some hacker trying to creep viewers out. It was a trend during the 2008s due to vigilante hackers #but child-me was CONVINCED it was a robber specifically and was distraught that nobody believed me.. #scared of masked men for a time after it ironically! #Really the only scary part was knowing I froze up. If it were a real robber I'd be even more helpless haha. I'm an easy target!

[riewritten]

i think i finally encountered a real life erwin

there's this professor at my university who's admired by literally everyone (especially in the acad field) & his charisma reaches my twitter circle (i even came across a fan acc from his former student 😭)

we only talked through emails back when i assisted in compiling research projects of their insti (and even wrote this to destress). let me say that despite the few moments i've seen and interacted with him i can say he really IS handsome, around early 30s i think—and a young smartass like him is quite normal in my circle so i ignored the hype.

but then yesterday when i went to my current professor's book launch and heard this handsome being speak, i had a bombastic side eye. for a man that young, he speaks like an old fart. LIKE u know the way seniors talk as if they're the oldest one on the floor? and the way he owns the floor?? and the way other speakers literally speak so highly of him??? AND he has books published as early as 2005. i see his name in my decades-long readings but i assumed it was his relative's work because someone THAT young cant be writing that good.

he is a literal TROPE. And for long i've been writing his type it never came to me that he could be REAL. OH MY GOD.

so after my nap i got curious of how old this man really is because i want to see if i could fantasize. i'll never get to do so once he becomes my professor after all (which is very likely bc he teaches one of my majors) i'll just end up dropping his subj 😔 AND MAGNSMSWJS 8 WHEN I SAW IT I CANTUEJW I II.....MMNMDN

he is as old as my father. HE IS AS OLD AS MY FATHER. HE IS AS OLD AS MY FATHEDJEJRJQDN A HTHW

edit because i need to move on from this...

#AAAAAAAAAHHJJJHHHHH #I WAS EVEN CONTEMPLQTING IF HE REALLY IS AROUND 30s OR JUST LATE 20s #SOMETHING VERY SAD SNAPPED IN ME #5 YEARS WOULD BE MANAGEABLE FOR ME #WHY DOES IT HSVE TO BE DECADES #HOW WILL I RECOVER!!!! #HOW DO I AVOID ENLISTING HIS SUBJECT TO SPARE MYSELF OF HEARTBREAK!!!! #rie blabbers

[martyrbat]

im so considerate.... (<- guy not ranting about a thing it hates before its friend is done with the media)

#can officially say i finished the arkhamverse. didnt watch anything about that suicide squad one but i read all comics #a d watched the complete story & side mission gameplay for origins asylum city and midway through my refresher for knight #the biggest takeaway i have is wow these people are weird about convicts and addicts and love their toxic masculinity #but the gameplay and nostalgia impacts peoples opinions on it. maybe an enjoyable experience but for the story or universe itself #its a complete failure in every regard i can think of—only having glimpses moments of quality that makes the rest of it #be frustrating because the potential can be there. theres interesting premises occasionally but the execution and payoff doesn't make it #even worthwhile to get to those premises because of what you must wade through to reach them #<- thats me being my nicest and most spoiler freeabout it btw. #my other big takeaway is that tim is canonically older than jason and i think a grown ass man saying fuck that kid is really funny #[SPOILERS LOOK AWAY CJ] #<- tim currently works as a highschool science teacher while jason was shown to be adopted and made robin at 15 #where he was then promptly captured and kidnapped by joker. he escaped half? a year later during asylum and AK takes place 2 years afterward #i think. the entire timeline for this shitty universe is awful and confusing. dick was robin for like 2 years its ridiculous. #and i think primarily so they can go noooo see bruce is a hot late 30 year old instead because you become dust at any older!! #but. back to the age thing. hes about 17 maybe early 18 during AK but because tim is a private school teacher he needs a bachelor's degree #and most people get it at 22/23ish and then theres the actual teacher application and being hired (or not because hes a nepo baby) #so hes early mid twenties or so. compared to a (presumably dead) teenager who he called a loser more or less.

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

[everrgrreeen]

not to get too existential on main or anything but like. maybe there isn’t someone for everyone, romantically speaking. maybe some of us are just meant to be alone. because just the thought of having to date people, having to open up/alter your home and your life for someone else in the name of romantic partnership seems so exhausting to me, especially after trying for so long and constantly being let down in one way or another. i have gotten to the point in life where i am SO happy being alone. do i sometimes crave intimacy like any other human being? sure. but my peace doesn’t feel worth sacrificing to maybe find someone i can tolerate most of the time.

#much to think about #and for the record I feel like I may fall somewhere on the ace spectrum so sex isn’t really even an issue for me #like I could go the rest of my life without having sex with someone and it really wouldn’t bother me #also as an otherwise heterosexual cisgender woman my prospects on men are just… Not Great #also I should mention I am not aromantic #I am very much romantic actually #but I just feel like I’ll be alone forever because I refuse to settle #and I also refuse to use dating apps and that is unfortunately where most people my age range in their late 20s/early 30s meet people #and I think they are dumb and I don’t want to do that #plus I am vehemently childfree so there goes a lot of men lol but ones I wouldn’t be interested in anyways

[todayisafridaynight]

sometimes my ass feels goofy bout my sawashiro photocard holder but my eldest sister just got here and she has a new photocard holder with her new anime boyf on it and yk what Very Comforting to know we're losers together

#snap chats #the mental illness of my 20-somn ass having a photocard of a late-30's bitch while her 30-somn ass havin a photocard of a 20-somn bitch LOL #she's never had a photocard. not since last time i saw her lmao timing funny as hell #she my biggest enabler for being a dweeb tbh. which is ironic cause she used to bully me for my interests #i mean she prob still would if i talked to her bout it but she's toned down like .2% #i'd never show her my sawa photocard cause The Bullying that would ensue but its good to know. being a loser is genetic HAHA #even if we're the farthest apart in age we're weirdly similar when it comes to how we interact with media #in that we're insane HAHAHA #i never really talk to her bout fandom stuff but sometimes she'll talk bout what anime or kdrama she's into #and i'll just be like 'ok cool. this is what i sound like to my brother' #its kinda sad cause her husband's like A Normal Southern Guy so he kinda bullies her bout her interests #but she's stubborn it doesn't get her down for too long #ok bye lemme stop blogging in the middle of my kitchen where everyone walking aaaAAAAHHHH

[captainofthetidesbreath]

It's insane to me people still go "people's complaints about the production logistics of C3 are valid" because the still-floating-around complaints about C3's production are just legitimately "polished production and high quality cameras means you're corporate sell-outs because REAL authenticity means jank production, crunchy quality, and scuffed work" and as someone with experience in production, that sentiment is insulting garbage.

I've yet to see a single legitimate complaint about production logistics of C3 that wasn't equating polish with soullessness (which is a fallacy) or wasn't filtered through 40 layers of nostalgia that forgot how unpleasant C1 often is to experience from a production and logistics perspective.

#Even early c2 is sometimes unpleasant from a production standpoint! #Also I've seen some episodes of c1 and it's not fun to watch Sam feel rushed and be super confused for 30 minutes bc he's late. #It makes me feel SO BAD for him. #'It's so charming when people would arrive late' it's not really bc then you can tell they're REALLY confused about what's going on. #CR #Critical Role things

[pennielane]

in my brief absence from here i’ve managed to fall in love with a man 11 years older than me

#i think i'm in my dear john era so pray for me #no but actually i've mostly been gone because my best friend is going through some really really terrible personal stuff and i've just been #Supporting Her #and also work has been busy (but good! yay!) #and yes #this 11-years-older-than-me man #he is my coach for a sport i do and i am.....in love (she says while she actually barely knows him) #(and she says while he barely knows of her existence [he DOES know i exist but there are so many of us he coaches so i'm sure i'm just one #face to him dlsiahfih;vdd]) #anyway tell me this...i'm late 20s and he's late 30s so is it....REALLY that bad #......??? #(yeah it's probably not ideal) #(i've been soliciting advice from my friends and they say i have the soul of a 100 year old so 11 years my senior isn't that bad but i still #think it's not....the most ideal) #no but i actually never crush on people so this is a Big Deal for me which is why i'm spiralling about it even though it will never amount #to anything :) #(anyway sorry for trauma dumping but hi! happy to be back on here)

[ifyourereadingthisblinktwice]

waking up early is the worst why do i always agree to help with things

#i’m helping with an estate sale today #so im up at 6am to be there at 7:30 #and then im there till 3 #and then i go to work 4-9 #what if. i died #staying up late > waking up early #like tomorrow i work 11-7 but even that is like. psh not bad at all cause i can sleep until around 8:30 #not really sleeping in but. whatever #me rambling