#otherwise it's a hard pass

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[milkweedman]

Not me putting off trying my wheel again bc im afraid that even on a 'good day' I might not be able to treadle. Hah. :/

Edit: OK either im not on a good day or else my good days are now hell, so I guess I will be avoiding the wheel out of sheer emotional self preservation

#man sometimes when i think about everything disability stole from me i get so fuckin sad #so many things #and knowing that unless something drastically changes i will continue to lose it all is um. hm. well it inspires bad feelings for sure #anyway i will try it and hope #spinning #disability #chronic illness #needed to go to the store to get groceries and got down one aisle with my rollator before i realized i was shaking so hard from the pain #of walking that i was freaking everyone else out #have never used one of the power scooter things in stores despite the fact that i would have benefited from it for the past decade or so #just very self conscious. also when you look healthy and like an able young man you get lots of 'how dare you' type shit #anyway i was going to pass out otherwise so. i did use it and i wanted to disappear into the floor the whole time #has been. a day.

[lastmurianwarrior]

Even if you never look at the rest of the manga, just look - LOOK...

...at this one page of Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story...

It is literally the most insane of the 3 interpretations of Star Force 2 [game, anime, manga] that I've seen.

#idk what to tag this cause it's canon to the manga but like- not the main muse here or whatever XD #dsdsflkadhfkjlda #have legit had the whole thing on hard drive for like 8yrs.... askldhklahfkla; read it to the best of my ability using translators ect #[saved that work to translate it also...] #can't really provide a link cause idk where or if it can be found anymore. But legit will pass it on if anyone wants it #original site it was on got taken down years ago and I haven't found anything more than the teaser for it since anywhere #back then I also found a separate 4pg teaser in Spanish that few ever saw as well and seems otherwise lost from the internet now. #it's where I get the headcanon that rogue likes fried cabbage. #manga rogue #burai #megaman starforce #Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story

[beyfaker]

yall gotta remind me 😭is there ever a point in s2 where ginga trains outside of the teamwork exercises that gan gan galaxy did in ep 17. . .it just feels like he and the rest of the team hardly train compared to the other teams from around the world asdhasjk

#i know masamune trained briefly before fighting chao xin again lol #hot take maybe idk but it didnt sit well w me how kyoya had clearly trained hard and come up with attacks #that were created in mind to counter pegasis. and then the battle ends in a draw bc in the end it comes down to a battle of willpower rip #i know pegasis is stronger now but like. i need to see ginga train more #otherwise some of these victories do not feel good lol #and the same goes for the rest of the squad #tsubasa gets a pass bc. he was fighting off constant heart attacks LMAO

[sysig]

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Teisel #Meme #I am on a roll with these lol #I knew adding Teisel to my list was only a matter of time #I am a weakwilled individual with one fatal flaw #Anyway (lol) #ZEX really has his work cut out for him with Teisel haha - it's very fortunate he's so determined and enjoys a challenge 'cause otherwise! #Teisel is hard to pin down - I mean Other Than That lol - he's an interesting guy :0 #Rough around the edges and a family man ♪ And if I get to draw long hair and big muscles then all the better hehe #And he has a cute nose! He has the bridge of the nose thing that I like so much!! Yes!! #As for the rest of him - hm! I've only had passing thoughts up to this point and getting into his head is...Something lol #It's well done to be certain it definitely Makes Me Feel it's just hard to ascribe a name to that Feeling just yet #Needs a bit more time to tumble smooth I suppose lol #One thing I know I like because it makes me sad - lol - is ZEX projecting some of his feelings about DAX onto Teisel - unexpected! #It's extremely interesting how despite his deep abiding love and fascination with Otherness he's gotten increasingly homesick #Finding things charming about humans that remind him of VUX! You can tell he's a bit desperate for the familiar :'0 #So isolated from even himself ah 💔 Hang in there ZEX! #At least he has some fun distractions hehe ♪ New things to learn and consider! Teisel keeps throwing him curveballs! #Both of them circling each other like ''? Isn't it your turn?'' lol #They both come off as aggressive in their own way and then swing-and-a-miss lol #And then there's how Teisel frames him as far as age goes - or really how everyone does pffft #It is So funny to me every time anyone refer to ZEX as ''old'' now that his age has been more or less established - at least pointed at #The fact that he might not even be in his human-equivalent 50s what is this who this lol he's not old! And Max /definitely/ isn't haha #He is the slightest itty-bittiest willowiest little twink y'ever did see pfft #I have been waiting to use that meme template for someone for ages I am so glad that I finally got the chance ♪

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[clits-and-clips]

Cat is in my lap now so I'll take a tablet when she inevitably decides I've betrayed her and gets up

#txt #i had too much sugar today so idk #i dont want to sit here all night until i get tired #im not crying all day anymore so im not emotionally exhausted enough to just pass out #my aunty is apparently addicted to sleeping tablets and i dont want to be like that #nothing on her at all #just saying #idk sleeping is hard and was hard enough when i had someone with me and cuddling me #being ignored today stung #even tho i said id give him space #what does he expect really lmao he was with me for 8 years so he has to know imma have shit to say to him #most of it was about booping and my laptop being broken #so #it just hurrrrts #he better be ignoring everyone else too otherwise it is personal #which is bad #if hes just ignoring his phone then whatever yk

[wispmotherr]

aw beans,

i feel like everyone is annoyed by my existence and every attempt i make at interaction with others is bothersome and unwanted and that i’d be better off crawling into a hole and disappearing forever again.

#i know it’s not true but it’s hard convincing yourself otherwise ya know? #it’ll pass or it won’t #either way i’ll be fine

[sludgeguzzler]

look i really dont mind having a pre t body with its little biological quirks but i have a limit and the limit is waking up at 4am with immense pain and a puddle of blood on my bed

#im probably most likely overhyping what t will do to my body but i cant wait till my periods stop #if they dont stop i will fr go after some way of stopping them im not kidding there is literally nothing good that i get from having them #its just. its just pain and blood and a constant reminder of how Woman i have to be. it makes me sad #like. all the good cramp medicine is like WOMAN PILL FOR YOUR SCHEDULED GIRL MOMENT OF THE MONTH [picture of a woman] #[venus symbol] [flowers] #and all pads come with th same thing too. like i get that its technically not harming anyone but please man cmon #my mood gets all janged up i cant think straight in the worst ways possible im always having breakdowns during them #and i have to deal with genuinely unbearable pain! and! a heavy flow! because my moms ovaries! are the most fucked ovaries ever! #hhg the only good thing i can think of is that if there was a death metal band of trans guys the lyrics theyd write would be sick #[hi this is me telling you im about to get a little gross so if stuff like this grosses you out uh. yeah] #like the gruesome symbolism of periods is pretty damn cool if im honest. i dunno #i genuinely really like the movements on normalizing periods and how they are not something to be ashamed of and happen with a lot of ppl #but. but. #it puts a lot of emphasis on how its a Woman thing when a lot of women (cis or otherwise) dont have them #and it excludes all the other non woman people who have them #re personal opinion but i think our image of periods really shouldnt be flowery beautiful woman moment that passes by in a blink. #i think we should talk about how it hurts and how it will suck a little too hard for some people and that #periods not always mean a symbol of feminity and fertility and other stuff (its 5am im tires) to everyone #like to me periods are misery and oain and dysphoria but i have a cis friend who sees her periods as symbols of her womanhood abd #*and like. shes not wrong but im also not wrong either #idk my head hurts and i wanna go bacm to sleep so bye #sg.txt

[thepoisonroom]

i wish i had a nice little quippy caption but i truly was just dumbstruck by how unrelatable this was to me on a molecular level

#tbh i like don't really notice people's body hair ever bc it's not something i think about much #but i can't imagine being otherwise attracted to someone then just finding their body hair so repugnant that it was #'a hard pass' for me #like that's op's right in a girl i guess way but i just cannot comprehend what it is like for this person #that's all #personal nonsense

[incendiorum]

io keeps their own private collection of various books and arcane items upstairs, in inter mundos's apartment. and in one of those many books is a hidden cache of news articles. some of them old, yellowed, and fragile, and some much more modern. all of them have something to do with col. a lot of them mention a maritime shipping company named venator, which is col's creation and operates even now as the oldest shipping company in the world. it provides funding for the hounds, and jobs besides hunting if they desire them. other articles might mention col when he inserted himself into various political or business affairs. all of his business and appearances always circle back to the hounds and what he does for them. but it's the only information about him that io can reliably get their hands on. a guilty secret tucked into one of their many bookshelves.

#⌜❝ 𝙸. we are never what we intend or envision. ⟩⟩ #𝙼𝙰𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃. and if you make it out alive hold that bloody head up high.❞ ⌟ #⌜❝ 𝙲𝙾𝙻 𝚂𝙰𝙻𝚅𝙸𝙴𝙽𝚄𝚂. how did we get so dark? ❞ ⌟ #i think it would be a weird discovery for someone who's mortal/unaware of the supernatural tbh #bc while col does what he needs to do to pass himself off as. not. immortal #that's an entire book full of evidence of him genuinely being the same person for CENTURIES #otherwise it's just... kind of a sad thing to stumble across I think #esp bc it's not hard at all to put together the pieces #there's only two people in the world with the name salvienus u know

[stardustedknuckles]

Idk I didn't see dogboy Bor'dor theories as reductive or a punchline. I just thought it made a lot of sense and liked feeling in on the joke Utkarsh is setting up if that's the case because I'm not usually someone who gets the joke (certainly not early) and it's just fun. I think it's a great character concept. I don't need the story to be about that. It's just not that deep I guess.

#It's really trendy right now to make fun of people who are going along with the idea #Which I know is targeted at people who refuse to take a story at face value and who very often do this with multiple characters #Like they refuse to engage with what's in front of them and make up something new and I get that can be frustrating to watch #But idk man I saw the theory and it held water for me and I liked feeling like I picked up something before 92 episodes had passed #It's really hard for me to get a 3d view of characters for like a really long time if I ever do #Spotting a possible concept felt like a shortcut and made me feel a bit less slow #Kind of sucks that the (admittedly understandable) response is just 'oh you're all being stupid' #Maybe he's not a dog #In which case I'll be glad to go along with the story presented #It'll be good either way #And I know that making fun of people who do this as a trend isn't the same as making fun of me #But my fyp and such feels kinda mean about it #I think the important distinction is the willingness to be just as content if a thing isn't true #But in the meantime it's just fun #Not an indictment of how 'boring' it would be otherwise

[orcelito]

Another morning another day

I've been thinking a lot about going to the animal shelter

#speculation nation #there r many cats there and i have an aching spot available for one #passively thinking about getting a kitten. just bc id enjoy getting to raise a cat for once #and i think tally would be a good big sister given how much she groomed cassy #at the same time tho i wanna adopt a cat that might not otherwise be adopted so quickly. aka an adult cat #& also like with tally. i very purposefully picked out the loud black cat bc everyone was passing her up #but she was YELLINGGG at me from the cage. and i was like 'oh alright' and took her home #and now shes my sweet darling girl. she just needed like a year to chill out so she is no longer a chaos demon lmao #it's also hard to know what youre getting with a kitten. and it's a lot of resposibility. so like. idk. #but also. Kitten Cute... 🥺 #i'll have to see what they have when i go there. still not happening for at least a few more days. #it feels too soon rn. but im thinking about this all to cope lol. i hate having only one cat. #i keep wanting to go out to greet Cat Number 2 in the living room. but. nope. so i go back to greet tally on my bed #she's a loving cat but she does Not like to be smothered. and im kind of smothering her lmao #that's another reason to get a 2nd cat. yes i want tally to have company when im gone at work #but also i need a second cat that is very affectionate bc I Want My Hugs And Kisses Dammit #idk when im getting his ashes back. probably somewhat soon. id estimate tomorrow? they were rly quick with sammy's #idk what im gonna do if they call while im at work lol. cry probably. #tho i havent cried in almost a full day!! been like 22 hours. i have been Trying to cope. mixed results. #ah well. c'est la vie and all that shit. #animal death ment/

[puppetlooselystrung]

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#i think im going to be taking a break. these never last so hopefully itll last longer this time. #i have things on queue so. ill probably be around now and again to fill more but. i dont know. otherwise. a break #the millionth one I Know #depression has been kicking my ass & ive been feeling alone and sad & like a wounded animal shoving myself into a hole away from everyone #its only monday and this week is already hard #and quite frankly im already convinced its going to be an insane hassle to even make it to the end of it. #sooo. if the queue runs out and im not back. sorry! #ive been debating about logging out of tumblr on my phone the way i did discord but its something to pass the time i guess #anyways. sorry to everyone who loves me and likes talking to me. hopefully ill be back soon ✌️ #but if its a while before i am. sorry. see you on the flip side i guess

[stinkrascal]

my writing hot take is that i hate it when writers give their characters names with too much significance. if the name sounds normal to the character’s universe thats one thing, idc about that and i think it can be a neat easter egg for those who care enough to look up that kinda stuff. but if your character lives in a universe of beths, susans, marys, and henrys and then their name is icarus because you’re writing about their hubris being their ultimate downfall in my head im just like who would name their child icarus except for crunchy suburban yoga moms who banned sunscreen and toothpaste from their household because it has too many toxins in it

#like idk it just feels unrealistic #especially when the setting is some random small southern town #as someone who grew up in a small southern town i promise you nobody has a unique name #if they do its because theyre trans and they gave it to themselves #if thats the reason why your main character is named after a greek god i give that a pass too. that makes sense #but otherwise im sorry but it just feels very baby’s first symbolism to me #and i cant go too hard on that either bc i also struggle with symbolism. but i dont pretend im a professional writer either so 🤷🏼 #my bread and butter is cheesy romances so you can see where my influence lies #what im trying to say is dont take this too seriously this is just my opinion and you should write whatever you like

[outoftheirdifferences]

about me!

rules: bold the ones that are true and tag 15 other people to do it too!

appearance:

i’m over 5’5” // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

hobbies + talents:

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

relationships:

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

aesthetics:

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

miscellaneous:

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

Tagged by: borrowed from @let-me-be-surprised (like a week ago, it's been sitting in my drafts ever since because no internet xD)

Tagging: Whoever wants to!

#ooc #tagging meme #mun rambles #about the mun #To clarify on my italicised points: #*1 - I wear glasses for computer work / reading but not day-to-day use otherwise #*2 - my eyes used to be more blue when I was younger now they're kinda an off-blue shade? it's hard to tell #*3 - I learned... the *very basics* of swimming at school but was never that great at it #and it's been literally over a decade and a half since I last tried it so who knows if I even still can? #*4 - depends very much on the movie / show in question: but all else being equal #I do prefer something that I can watch all in one sitting xD #*5 - *enjoy* singing? sure. am any good at it? NOT AT ALL xD #*6 - I'm sure I would... if I *had* any local friends at present! #*7 - haven't actively just sat and watched the sunrise but #I've seen it in passing a couple of times when I've been travelling somewhere and had to leave before dawn #*8 - depends on the type of rain. I enjoy intense heavy rain watching it from indoors #but kinda grey drizzly rain just makes me tired and uninspired