#plus i have to do some shit at work that i dont like

[psiirockin]

do you have any advice for opening commissions? i feel like you have them very professionally set up, and i have pretty bad social anxiety, so it might be helpful to hear tips for communicating with customers and such, or setting up a fair tos!

hi so, maybe i do have some advice!!! <33 thank you so so much for the kindness & seeing me as professional lol i’ve been doing comms for 2-3 years and i must say.. still getting the hang of a lot of things. you go through a lot of trial + error trying to figure out what works best for you, so remember theres no truly right way to go about comms! they should all fit the needs, pace, and benefit of you and your work ethic!

what i did personally is start off at some lower prices just to test the waters and get the ball rolling. i priced rendered characters at i think, $24 per character? possibly lower, i cant quite remember. and then i gradually went up as i started to progress in my art style more + had more people coming in.

with customers, i have a lot of anxiety as well! im autistic, so i never like making a customer feel like i dont truly care abt the commission by accidentally sounding too flat or anything. i tend to RLLY overthink it lol so we make sure we are extra talkative + kind about their comm! giving them compliments on the character, showing genuine excitement so they know theyre in good hands! (we love engaging esp when the customer seems VERY excited or enthusiastic abt the commission!)

a lot of irl turmoil tends to happen in our life which can make a comm delayed sometimes. could be severe mental health problems, just being busy w/ shit in general. its important to just keep your customers up to date, especially if its going to take a realllyyy long time or the customer likes frequent updates.

i used to be able to get shit done in like a night. but, with an actual line up/queue of comm work we progressively started taking longer and longer esp as we transitioned from a teenager starting out and into a busy adult with persistent mental health issues. (plus our art becomes more complex as time goes on, so that has to be taken into account) tbhs, depending on your availability and how much effort goes into your work, and as the demand grows, you need to charge accordingly and just be honest with your clientele.

as for TOS do what makes you comfortable! make your limits known and put your foot down when a request or any topic makes you uncomfortable. dont let your customers get inappropriate with you or try to make you feel bad if they dont wanna pay for what they ask for, etc. i also recommend requesting payment after sketch/half and half when starting out just so you can get some experience under your belt + assure future clients that youre professional n wont scam them! (if you plan on switching to payment upfront in the future)

just remember that u are not a machine, you are a human being making art for someone else. putting love n effort into your craft, time and effort. take your time getting the hang of comm stuff, things dont have to be perfect in your setup at first.

#asks #asks open #commissions

[hishoukoku]

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#I feel like I'm bothering ppl with my bullshit and i can't shake the feeling that everyone is fed up with me #I wish i could go live in a cave by myself sometimes #.....(let it be the 10k gods cave at least T.T)...... #no but for every hour of intense serotonin i get from things i love...I feel like a worthless trash the next few hours #Almost like i don't deserve it because even saying HELLO sometimes makes me feel like a bother #and that's to ppl /I/ consider friends #ive lost the ability to even realize who considers me a 'friend back' #not that i have anything to offer #plus i have to do some shit at work that i dont like #and it's taking a bigger toll on my brain than i thoguht it would #but its fineeeee cause I have the ability to bury myself in the things I adore to stop even the slighest real world thought from occuring #hyperfixations ftw #'cept SOMEtimes like now when im overwhelmed that i feel like i dont do them justice #I'll delete this later I'm just.. Tired.. #Ishidarambles #Personal shit #ranting in the tags like an OG tumblr user

[penguin--person]

Do you think they neuter mutants at the facility

you sent this ask to the wrong blog ❤️ the pafl confessions blog is here ❤️live laugh love

#ask #in short: no. in more length: #i think itd be too much work for the facility. too expensive too #plus i think they prevent any possible.. sexes..? not telling the mutants about sex at all #no sex education or the bare minimum of it #why waste budget on that ya know? #maybe if theyve got like. a sex mutation???? idk what that would be like. well i do but i dont wanna talk about that #and most of the mutants are kids. some Are adults but the mast vajority are kids #but if some mutant does get pregnant. well. i Have thought before about how thatd go actually #like. would the facility terminate the pregnant mutant as a whole? would they give it an abortion? would they make it give birth so they ca #study the baby? would they kill both/all the parents? many possible scenarios.. would they isolate this mutant to prevent #others from finding out about sexy times? #WOULD they neuter the mutants? no thats too much work. honestly i doubt they explain periods n shit to the mutants #in a better way than 'how to use pads/tampons' and nothing more. maybe at most birth control if they get older? idk #the facility intrigues me. i wanna be a cog in it so i can find out evrything about it #NOT tagging this so ferry doesnt see it. they CANNOT see this. ok. i anwsered your questions. heed my request

[curioscurio]

Yooooo you worked at Michaels too?

(Ex-Framing department employee here)

YEA LETS GO EX-FRAMING DEPARTMENT they never even got around to teaching me production it was all wrapping and taking orders :/ Idk how it is at other shops but we only had 3 people working the whole frame shop. One person did ALL the frame assembly and us other two handled everything else. Was absolutely not worth $11/hr. man fuck retail. FUCK Design Hub too, if I may

#id come in for my like 4 hour shift and would have to run + close shop which included wrapping #wrapping storing calling for all orders done plus get all yhe frames lined plus unpack and clean up all the new frames coming in all by #all by the end of the night PLUS frame shop had to clean the bathrooms every night #plus actually running the front desk and taking orders and sometimes ppl would take hours picking matts that would cut into the time i had #to have everything else finished PLUS if i for some reason had everything done on time theyd make me run sales floor too #it was insane all the stuff they had me learn for such shit pay like. and #never work michales but never do it around the holidays more important #you will never escape the glitter #all that and my framing manager never got around to teaching me how to assemble a frame. #at least it was nice to hide in the frame shop so i wasnt talking to customers 24/7 but still #customers treat you so horribly like i was sweeping once and this lady comes up to me like saying the bathroom was disgusting right #and i get it. it was always disgusting. but we did clean it every night. anyway its hard when you cant just tell people that 1. #1 we clean them every night so if theres a huge mess in it most likely it was another shopper who pissed on the floor just cuz. #and 2 they only give us a mop and some pine sol to clean the whole 2 bathrooms every night. dont blame me blame michals lol #everything else was just so stupid #i wanna know how many framing department ppl everyone else had because we had 2 part time and 1 full time and i was only there a few months

[boyybites]

god ive missed you sm

#wip #wip tag #finally working on this some more #after this chapter im going back to comic page format #feel like i put more of my soul in these when i do #webtoon format is ok i guess but its so commercialized and i dont get that same satisfaction #when i actually finish them you know? #plus itll be way easier to actually like...organize the file #at least in my opinion #espcially since i figured out how to do shit to print it since that could be an option down the line #ofc im thinking about redoing the prev chapters in comic page format #but baby steps #also for those that dont know i have a webcomic or two up on tapas #link can be found on the pinned #basically a girl now woman has the destroyer of half the world imprisoned in her #and it basically follows her and the two agents that were assigned to her and their little misadventures and such #not at the misadventures part yet but hey #we getting there

[whumpshaped]

cant stop thinking abt that reply to bram's post abt the abusive cluster b parents so just know if u were abused like that, first of all, samesies and it gave me cluster b pds as a result, second of all, i promise no one whos calling for understanding of cluster b ppl is invalidating ur experiences. if u feel like they ARE, i sincerely hope u realise u dont have to have a medical explanation for why others suck. if ur parents sucked, u can just say that, and its freeing, and focusing on behavioural patterns instead of diagnoses (which u most likely dont have access to when it comes to strangers) will allow u to weed out actual bad ppl and keep urself safe(er)

#i understand its easy and comfortable to latch onto labels especially when it comes to parents #i did it #then i was diagnosed w the same shit #that was my turning point i think #when i realised we have the same shit and yet i am actively working very hard to be kind and compassionate #i dont go out of my way to be mean #at some point u have to realise that some ppl r just evil and mean spirited #and pds arent indicative of how self aware or kind or polite or compassionate someone is #i'd argue most of us put in SO much work to know ourselves and our potentially harmful behavioural patterns #way more than a neurotypical who never bothered to look inward for even a second #'these stereotypes dont come from nothing' #no shit! my dad called me both borderline and narcissist as insults AND I TURNED OUT TO HAVE BOTH #but let me tell u smth #most of my symptoms? are fucking survival mechanisms i learned as a child to avoid getting hurt. because thats what the brain does. #u know what else didnt come from thin air? sayings like hurt people hurt people #plus my victim complex allows me to write banger complaint letters now so theres that #look around u and be very comfortable w the fact that ur probably surrounded by a bunch of cluster b ppl that u adore #bc we're just ppl too #and ur doing urself a disservice trying to spot us #cluster b ppl can be evil ppl just as neurotypicals but they can also be ur friend who struggles w insecurities and is a huge ppl pleaser #bc they read the ableist posts too and they know everyone in the mainstream world thinks theyre evil #and when if u told them 'well my cluster b parents were abusive' in a less accusatory tone #maybe theyd look u in the eye w compassion and say 'yea i know how that feels and im here for u'

[databent]

siiiiighs. curse of everything costs money all the time

#.pdf #rd #i was actually feeling excited to start putting some work into my aquarium hobby again after a year and a half of feeling too demoralized #(because of june 2022 when my air conditioner went out while i was away from home for a few days and i came back to 95 degree tanks- #-and a total loss of all the fish i had in them for no reason at all other than the fact that the ONE TIME my ac stopped working i was away #so i lost motivation to do aquarium stuff for ages after that. and i was just getting back into it and making plans to get more supplies etc #aaaand now it looks like im going to have to push that back a long ass while! because i noticed one of my cats has a few loose teeth and i- #-dont know how long theyve been like that and while i dont have money for this i DEFINITELY dont have the money to spend thousands later if- #-its left untreated and develops into something worse #but the cheapest place near me i can find is 50 exam fee plus 275 dental base rate plus up to 250 dollars for extractions. so. fuck me #especially if thats a per tooth extraction rate. and then including costs for bloodwork and medication and shit. god. #anyway. gonna call and ask for details about their dental rates and payment options soon i guess. wish me and oolong luck #(oolong is cat)

[todayisafridaynight]

me when i ship zhaohan 😔 there's next to no content unless i'm just not looking in the right spots

be the change you want to see in the world my man.... if i can trick people into thinking masadai is real then i know you can rally the troupes with them lovable goobers......

#snap chats #zhao and yeonsu ARE cute to me tho thats the thing. theyre so sillay #i dont have many ideas with them but i love drawing them together when i get the motivation #i love drawing zhao and joon-gi honestly since Like Ichi i draw them kinda differently from everyone else #/kinda differently/ zhao's a foot tall motherfucker #BUT NO with joon-gi i want him to be a bishounen protag... so it's fun giving him all those sparklies and anime energy... #tho it'd be more appropriate to go for a manhwa art style huh #something to practice me thinks... #REGARDLESS i believe in you anon..... get that propaganda flowing you'll gather a small group in no time... #if you're sick enough in the head <- me #oh but if you arnet confident or know what to do yet !!!! pixiv and twitter generally has a good amount of art for them #i know i happen upon zhao and joon-gi art when i scroll through twitter sometimes #of course you have to follow eastern artists but they ALWAYS have The Best And Most Delicious Shit #they never miss they're the only artists i follow on twitter im p sure LMAO #if you don't know what artists to follow on twitter though pixiv's your best friend #some people are scared of her but not me...... i'm too numb to everything... plus she does have a LOT of good stuff there #'趙ハン' is the zhaohan tag on there. there's 101 works but i know not every thing is tagged sometimes #like a lot of arakawa fam stuff isn't tagged 'arakawa family' or even 'arakawa'- just generally 'yakuza' or 'rgg' and stuff like that #just gotta do a lil digging my friend ! best of luck to you ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror) #seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy” #but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff) #walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ay ay ay. i dont wanna do my job so bad. it makes me so unhappy also i fucked up a thing by letting someone take part of a culture when i #shouldnt have. it happened so many months ago that i fucking forgot abt it and then the person emailed me abt when we received the stain and #i thought it was someone from another project so i cc'd my boss who was like. wait. what the fuck is this? and now its like oops sorry but #like wtf am i supposed to do abt it now? she askrd me to take some when i was rushing out of someone else's lab and i was like what? sure. #whatever i dont give a fuck i feel like im dying every second i stand in this room. i didnt even think to ask to share it which is what i #should have done. oops. cant do anything abt it now other than feel abt abt causing drama between labs. ugh. #i just wanna cut all ties with my old work. theres no joy there. only pain and anger. which makes it hard to work with it but the sooner i #do. the sooner i dont have to fucking deal with it anymore. ugh. also i really need to find a therapist but my insurance changes in like 18 #days so i might as well wait for the semester to start. ugh. like i can feel the pull of my bad habits trying to drag me down and i dont kno #how to stop them. like its weird. i noticed while my parents were here. they can just do things and enjoy stuff. and everytime i do #something i feel like im holding my breath the entrie time waiting for it to be over and for what? its not like i had other stuff to do #i just needed to kno when things were gonna end and i dont deal well with flexible situations. which makes it hard to do things. so its #like do i succumb to my control freak lil bubble of not doing anything and being miserable or do things outside my comfort zone and be #miserable? one of those things is way easier. plus i dont even kno anyone here so its like wtf do i do? #try to make friends with my sometimes roommate maybe. i just need to corner her and be like hey i need to establish a dialog with u so i can #tell u that if i seem like a weird hermit im not trying to b standoffish i just dont kno how to do human interaction well. can we b friends? #id like to b friends but if i dont talk now then ill get stuck not talking ever. which is whats happened with past roommates... god my 1st #roommate must have thought i was so fucking weird. ugh. point is. these bad habits must stop. and i really need to get work done so i can #never think abt that shit ever again. at least now that ive moved i can run up the side of a mountain when im frustrated #unrelated

[infizero]

just finished watching the og scott pilgrim movie for the first time fucking loved it

#it obviously has issues. but man ive never seen anything like this shit i loved it so much #its like if they made a 2010s youtube comedy sketch into a movie but in the best way possible #two main things. one im always a huge lover of incorporating animated visuals into anything. thank fucking god #and two i LOVEEEEEEE stories that take place in this kind of heightened reality #like its all normal everyday at first just with fun editing but then the fights start happening and its just like #yeah everyone here just does crazy video game boss fights and defeats ppl and they turn into coins and thats just normal and no #one questions it. THATS FUCKING AWESOMEEEEEEEEE i love shit like that so much #doing stuff like this is so much more fun when you dont have characters making wisecracks about the nature of their reality every two #seconds. this shit was great bcuz no one is like ''ermm so i have this health bar? sooo crazy lol. that just happened!'' #or whatever. this is just how the world works i love it #anyways i wanted to watch the movie first before i watched the new animated series. cause i want to watch that cuz it looks super fun #so whenever i have time next im gonna do that :D excited for that since ik ppl have been liking it a lot #plus i've heard it kind of addresses some of the more Erm bits from the story which is cool #i know its very different from the movie too so dw i know that going in lol #anyways i need to go to bed but yeah movie good #serena.txt

[izzy-b-hands]

Trying to make my brain do anything today has just been case after case of 'well, half-assed is better than nothing I guess.'

#text post #idk why i have such bad post-survey mental dips every time but I always do #literally last night before end of my shift was like okay brain. it's ok that we aren't working after this. this is fine. #there's another survey in two weeks (for ONCE they told us in advance) and in the in between other things I can do to keep making some mone #and I felt really confident abt that at that point! wish that confidence hadn't been so misplaced bc I did in fact spiral #was actually exhausted enough to just eat shower and sleep after work but the shower was just a big spiral w/crying and scrubbing lmao #whatever. did a mini vid in the new outfit i have for the side job and will do dishes tonight #plus I'll get my shot done bc that's a day late now too #prolific and cloud i got a bit done too and i'll keep checking those thru the night #i actually wanna play gta for a bit & try it with the controller but i feel guilty every time i so much as look at steam so. we'll see #i just need to do something else useful today bc tomorrow will be a full filming day most likely so. gotta make today useful too #I know it must sound like im not really trying to work with my brain on this but i shit u not #this is my brain when im actively employing coping skills and other things to try and counteract the 'work or die' mindset #i dont know how to make it any better and at this point I don't think I can #this was baked into me as a kid lmao bc even playing needed to have a point/story/some goal to achieve #or why the fuck was i playing with my barbies or metal toy cars or dinosaur and horse figurines to begin with #im rambling to put off doing the dishes ignore me lmao

[spacedlexi]

i just remembered that i designed an entire town and was almost done digitally lining my drafts before i just forgot it existed 🤪

#LOL. LMAO. OOPS #literally had one building left #its my own personal project that i work on when i dont have any other ideas #designing my own harvest moon farm sim but since i dont know shit about coding all i can do is design #ive been working on the whole thing for years now it kinda easy to forget just how much ive done #maybe i'll post little snippets of it #im not the kind of person who Needs to post everything i draw #ive posted some of the characters from it but i really havent shared much #i scanned like 30?? graph pages plus a couple dozen index cards #all of the exteriors are done and the map is almost fully drafted now im just working on interiors #ive been wanting to do some interior background practice with them but...they need to be designed first #but that means finishing designing and devloping all the townspeople #to fit into their little homes and work places #and uhhh theres a lot of them #ive got 3 interiors so far but its mainly public buildings #it speaks #wonder when i'll get back to that

[dullahandyke]

Good luck with the lc you'll be grand i believe in you :-)

o7 kiss ty anon <3

#im just in me room like DO I REALLT WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE #like i could always go back right #n i wanna be a copy editor but i dont quite know how id get therr #work experience was a wash but i think frsnkly id be just as happy in some office #n me mam has connections in the civil service or whatever so ? #like the course im aiming at is only 300 points plus i have DARE so like. ill do my exams fuck it sure #but also i feel like im gonna do worse than rhe mocks. lol. lol. lol #WHATEVER we can do nothing now #my secondary schoop experience ends not wirh a bang but a heem heem whimper #fucks sake i dont even give a shit abt the debs like. maybe thats just the 11pm talking tho

[vestboyfriends]

"you can't headcanon eddie as gay bc joseph quinn said he would have loved for eddie to find a nice girl if he lived!" bold of you to assume that what actors say about the characters they play is 1, canon, 2, not completely random at times and 3, impactful on the way i myself view those specific characters

#like okay joseph quinn sees eddie as bi or pan or anything else good for him. i dont though #plus he said this while answering the typical 'what would you wish for eddie if he were still alive' question #and he said he should get better clothes and a haircut along with a girl #eddie wouldnt be eddie without his style and his haircut and we all disagreed and ignored that part of the answer #so why cant i disagree with the girl part too😭😭😭 #i could understand if both the question and his answer would have been more... insightful #like when they asked gaten who dustin would choose between eddie and steve #gaten gave an extremely thought out answer that explained a lot about the characters #some sort of analysis if u want #there you could go 'okay this pov is good and it sits well with the characters so it could as well be canon material' #but joseph answer to this was literally just Yeah He Deserves A Nice Life #and heteronormativity fell into that like it tends to do #so sooo sorry if i shrug and walk past that and keep up with my silly little gay eddie hc that doesnt hurt anyone #if some of yall get offended by this post somehow just know that Im Bisexual so the old 'biphobia'/'bi erasure' card doesnt work on me #anyway this is just a rant i wont even tag as anything specific bc i dont want to upset ppl by accident #i just wanted to let all this shit out somewhere bc i needed it #big big rant #ves goes bla bla bla #yes its me im ves i think thats a funny name to go by hehe

[padfootastic]

Hello,

Please feel free to ignore this ask because it may contain sensitive topic to some people. What's your opinion about trans James ? In most fanon works , both art and fics, it is Sirius who usually is headcanoned as one. I have not seen many works with trans James or him being gender fluid , etc . Do you think it is because the way his character is described in the books , which in all honesty is not much or is it because Sirius had been described as really handsome? It doesn't do anything with handsomeness, I know , but the fandom works strangely like that 🙊

well, hello there, friend! so sorry for getting to this so late.

so, my opinion on this is really just my usual for identity hcs--i personally dont care much for them. that's not to say they're bad (i've seen some beautifully done stuff) just that it hits too close to reality for my escapist ass.

i see where you're coming from with the sirius comparison, tho! i think partly it's also because sirius is just...more popular? james is a pretty niche character, i'd say, even within mwpp compared to the others, so just by virtue of numbers, trans james doesnt get so much attention.

(there's a part of me that also thinks its also bc so much of the queerness in fanfiction comes from. wanting representation rather than caring about writing a queer character. and that means there's no deeper engagement than outward aesthetics. which means no real transgression is taking place. so u have repackaged cishetero norms circulating. but what do i know about that)

#i also have more thoughts re like. body types & identity headcanons #and what makes some characters so likely to be hc'd as something vs not others #but i dont think im qualified to say them out loud lol #it'll all be v anecdotal anyway #plus im nowhere near educated enough for it #also like the last bit--thats not me invalidating people who're writing it #i think its great it exists + dont think everything has to always be deep #im the last person to advocate for that tbh #but theres like this line b/w actually caring about something and merely providing lipservice #and i think a lot of ~activism in fandom tends towards the latter #(thats why im not a fan of identity hcs in my work. i know i cant do it justice and it WILL end up being shallow representation lipservice) #(and its just better to...not at that point ykno?) #which means basic norms and conventions are upheld #which is a bit. hm. when queerness is so inherently subversive ykno? #not sure how to explain it lol #but i do think its mainly sirius' popularity for this #the other stuff is just me speculating and thinking too much into random shit #pen’s asks