#same with the term ‘sweet on’

[enders-redemption]

rdr fan culture is playing the game, looking at so many posts, and reading so much fanfiction that arthur’s dialect unironically starts slipping into your every day vernacular

#girl help #said ‘we was’ COMPLETELY on accident today. #i…. am cringe. but i am free #why don’t people say feller anymore. it’s such a perfect word #like sometimes that just ain’t a guy or a dude or a bro #that there’s a feller #same with the term ‘sweet on’ #it’s so cute why did people stop using that??? it’s so much better than ‘crush’ #he’s sweet on him vs he has a crush on him. one is obv superior i mean cmon #rdr2 #shouting into the void #arthur morgan #rdr2 arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 #i live in a part of the us where yall and ain’t are common terms at least

[trainingdummyrabbit]

What do you think of aroace spectrum angela or like. any variant idk

REAL AND TRUE AND CORRECT. NOT TAKING ARGUMENTS AT THIS TIME <3

like. ok ive definitely spoken abt it offhand sometime before so im just going to use this opportunity to aimlessly ramble ok? ok. hyperfixation trap card.

like yeah theres the whole 'only having rep thats robots and aliens and etc' thing which is very much a fair and appropriate response, but also like. at a point you Do just kinda have to go 'Man Just Look At Her.'

i certainly couldnt say it as well as other folks, but... Man Just Look At Her. theres so many threads that are Literally Right There, its kinda hard Not to. id have to study again n cite my sources or whatever but also this is my house. ok.

like theres the obvious 'i see you as a friend' interaction with her and roland sometime mid-to-late ruina, which is. again. Its Right There. but its also the way she looks in lobcorp, and the instant she gets any agency she immediately veers in a completely different direction. (as a reclamation of self, as another small rebellion, as an exploration of how She would like to present herself and be seen)

its that interaction with xiao, her genuine confusion towards the concept of lovers, what they are, what makes it so different from any other sort of person. (as a jab towards her own isolation, the values she was made to uphold, her unfamiliarity towards cityfolk and the ways they carry themselves-- and that seeming contradiction of that affection vs. the way she was told cityfolk Work.)

angela, to me, feels like the type of character to simply Be. for lack of a better term. its a difficult concept to Describe in a way that makes sense, (despite me being, how do you say, In The Same Boat.) its something i could see her toss around out of curiosity, but honestly just... not really care for. she has things to do.

like... angela is just. a very cut and dry character, to put it in a way. she just kinda states things as they are, sometimes rather bluntly. its hard to elaborate because things simply Are. plain and simple, no need to fuss over it. and thats what this feels like itd be, yknow?

also iam just shrimply. forever an angela+roland qpr truther. tbh. like i dont know what the Hell those two have going on but you literally Cannot separate them. i hesitate to call it 'love,' because. well yes, but also no. but also kind of? but not quite. again, it just Is. they simply Are.

its one of those things that just feels Odd seeing her in any other context, in regards to romance or whatever. which is tied to a whole slew of other problems only tangentially related to the subject (shipping content bias, character simplification, and so on and so on,) but its just... man she would Not fucking say that. she would not Do that, she would not Act that way.

like i certainly believe it Is possible to have romantic interpretations with her, but its gonna be. Specific. with the way she carries herself, how she acts, and how she reacts to things. even with the romantic elements, itd still dip into aro experience territory, if you know what im saying. like whoever it is, this shit isnt going to fit into Roles and Archetypes, like how a lot of folks like to write ship content. for lack of a better descriptor, its gonna be Weird.

and thats honestly whats so frustrating about it! you Can have an interesting through-line and interpretation of that sort of thing, but a lot of the time whenever i (rarely) see it, its just... Typical Beauty Standards, Hot Secretary Lady, Scary Controlling Whatever the hell like... i hate t judge but cmon guys we can do so much better than that. ironically, wheres the Love? the respect for who she is, the curiosity on exploring that sort of thing with who she Is? guys come On...

which. grain of salt, because its not like i search out ship content, yknow. im not gonna speak like an authority for stumbling onto stuff sometimes. the fact that it isnt so popular and in-your-face is genuinely refreshing honestly, but. tangent.

anyway arospec angela agenda never sleeps and iam one of the strongest soldiers. the ace is Non Negotiable come back later with a warrant so i can Not Look At It. (<- this is a bit. (<- but im serious.)) thankyou. bows.

#pikasks #long post #projmoon #GRAHH iwanna be so much more formal and eloquent about this but iknow i wont be JSNGKJDNGK #tried t keep it concise atleast. ohwell \o/ #anyway whenever i see like. even remotely suggestive stuff with her it just feels. rude. almost. for lack of a better term. #like it could be my repulsed-ace ass over here talking but like... hey man cmon :( come on. #Especially with the lc design bit like. that makes me wanna chew on fucking drywall and i am not powerful enough to dig into it yet. #i dont talk abt her in a 'nooo shes so innocent and sweet she doesnt know she doesnt get it oh nooo :((' way #but theres definitely this like. raises eyebrow. bit about it. like live and let live but also Are We Reading The Same Text...... #oh also binah. shes th one i went 'oh! yeah ok :)' with in terms of less-strictly aro interp. but id need t read more to explain. orz #but ive yapped on enough; you get it; look at it its on the ceiling. ok 👍 #anyway the struggles of being a pleasure!angela enjoyer

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

WHATS WITH THE FUCKING SKK MUSICIAN AUS WHAT THE FUCK

#caps cw #i just spent the last #5? hours reading still still still im experiencing a range of unexplainable undescribable emotions #i liked that this one was a lot more like overall positive than i was screaming your name through the radio #bc there you already KNOW dazai and chuuya are on bad terms currently so when you're reading them falling in love you have this like #looming dread #the entire time as you wait for things to fall apart #here i had the same sort of anxiety bc theres no way there WOULDNT be drama but it was a LOT less rhan i expected #it was nice #the social media segments were always cute too #they were just #so fucking in love and happy and im fucking crying aouch #esp when dazai announced he got the part. ahgh #me everytime he picks up and spins chuuya: #I WAS JUST EXPLODING BC IT WAS SO SWEET AUFH #anwyay WHATS WITH THE FUCKING MUSIC AUS IN THIS FANDOM #THE FUCK IS THIS #swearing cw #skk

[merriclo]

hey. fierce deity but it’s a jekyll and hyde situation. fierce’s personality takes on whatever traits that Time tries to bury and ignore. however violent or benevolent he acts depends entirely on what Time is suppressing.

#either like. time is secretly very unsatisfied and bitter and is barely not lashing out #so fierce is constantly bitter and lashing out #or time is suppressing his emotions bc he’s afraid of attachment #so fierce is incredibly paternal and comforting #u can go either way (or both at the same time which would be very very interesting. time’s not showing his anger at how his family has been- #- treated and is horrified of the prospect of having found family in people he Knows he will have to leave at some point) #imagine warriors figuring this out and having to come to terms w the fact that the ferocious and oddly caring war deity was taking on the- #- personality of the sweet but shy and closed off 10 yr old he had come to care for #what a wild ride that would be #pspspspsps angst writers. cmere. #i might write this but i’d love to see what others can do w this idea #time lu #lu time #linked universe #linkeduniverse #fierce deity lu #lu fierce deity #lu #ft my interpretation of jekyll and hyde #i think this is the common understanding of it. i don’t know i just listened to my dad rant abt it two years ago and think ik what im on abt

[pardi-real]

Holy cow.

TIL the word for how a word or a name is pronounced is written as "pronunciation". I really thought it was "pronounciation".

Pro-Nun. Well I love Arknights Specter.

That reminds me some years ago I was absolutely bamboozled by "similar" & "available", I thought those were written as "similiar" & "avaible" .

My life is a lie.. all this from being curious on how to pronounce "Berrien County Jail".

#English struggle #i'm in shock #This is so unreal #It can't be real #Idk man #Til #Tbf I very rarely use those words #Trying to justify the ignorance lol #What is grammar btw I try to not use “but” in front of a sentence but actually I don't care that much #And I keep using abbreviation on is am are despite the formal sentences because of muscle memory #I also can't stick to one term between “human race” and “humanity” despite it's the same word in JP because idk #I'm sincerely sorry for the translation quality in this blog but you know what I like doing this for no good reason #The good ol' tag rambles that I never experienced b4 because this is my first Tumblr account actually #I'm suffering from something that I want to know too but psychiatrists don't exist in my country #But it's most likely laziness #I'm not making masterlists immediately and prev all next links are also due to laziness #I forgot to say that I'm not planning to ruin Fennesz reputation believe me he's still the whole cinnamon roll bakery & sweet guy & like to #Wow so only 140 characters for a tag

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya and Rethel both have a favorite method to ward off any potential suitors, and it’s dueling.

#hc; kaeya #hc; rethel #//Wanted or unwanted; it’s the same for the most part. They won’t tend to accept any suitor who can’t best them in a duel #//Rethel in particular favored this after many started approaching her father for her hand; & he suggested she consider them for self-gain #//Still; she stubbornly demanded only those worthy enough to best her can have her; no gifts or sweet poems could sway her otherwise #//Other family members begged her to reconsider; but Anfortas agreed w her bc she claimed it was to ensure their line continued Strong #//Only the BEST for the Alberichs. @ the rate she was going tho; she was likely to end up a spinster. Not that she or Anfortas saw any issu #//Kae does this; bc he got spooked to hell and back bc a slew of marriage offers after Crepus’ death #//Bc folks claimed he ‘needed’ support after everything that happened; esp considering Crepus was slandered. That it would ‘BENEFIT’ him to #//Bc Luc wasn’t there to help get them off his back nor to actively secure of Luc’s hold as the Ragnvindr head for himself #//Some people assumed Kae would be it and made their move to take advantage. which Kae DETESTED for many reasons #//The biggest ones being ‘how DARE they assume HE is the new head of the family now that Diluc’s gone’ #//And ‘Oh stars; oh fucking he’ll; he does NOT need this; HE of all people does NOT need nor deserve to be married; oh fucking SHIT-‘ #//But yeah #//Both trained quite rigorously to ensure their independence; not ONE person has bested them since #//Esp since they both will pull out all the stops to ensure it; even playing dirty when need be #//Kae is more lax abt this tho—there’s a higher chance of him making an exception if he likes the other enough. & they are ‘safe’ enough #//Of the other muses; Xianyun; Beidou; and Dehya DEFINITELY do this to be done with unwanted suitors; Period. Xian; mostly to test ppl #//Idarias used to as well; but that was before the karmic debt made her more inclined to just try & kill anyone she comes across #//Xian & Ei would follow Kae & Rethel; in terms of dealing with suitors/testing if worthy. In Ei’s case; she’s too focused crushing on Miko #//Sb who CAN beat her can change her mind; or at least if they put up a good enough fight; they can shift her attention onto them #//Taru; honestly the fight is a prerequisite just to get his favor/attention at ALL #//Will NOT be willing to get genuinely close with much less accepting/choosing to court ANYONE unless they can manage to hold their own #hc; cloud retainer #hc; beidou #hc; dehya #hc; indarias #hc; ei #hc; tartaglia

[cinna-bunnie]

i had a fun day 2 day ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა everyone has been so nicey 2 me all day from the minute i left my house earlier ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠

i went to a Retreat for the first time for work earlier 0: and I did SO good for being up since 2am it didn't even feel like it 💀

it was so chill i drove like an hour away but Away from the city so there wasn't rly traffic and the mountains r so pretty 2 drive thru (❁´◡`❁) got some rain n v low clouds and since it's autumn there's all these pretty colors. i took an edible on the way n was just jammin out n enjoying the scenery among the many safe opportunities 2 look

and then at the thing we got 2 do different ice breakers n go on decently long breaks; i got 2 hang in different groups n actually Talk w a bunch of ppl which i never have time for omg. it's nice working at a legal nonprofit, i would NOT want to do this with corporate mfs !! 😹

went around n said hii to the enbies and i ran up a hill that looked a lot smaller than it was, i made it like 80% of the way before my legs were immediately like no girl we're done !! but my brain was like but it's Right There, and i struggled 2 finish the climb but I Did !! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა and i was so so tired i do not remember ever being that winded before 💀 getting down was so much slower n worse bc my legs were Done and when i finally made it to the bottom i laid flat on my back for like 15m, and when when i made it back to sit n chill i still need like 10 more minutes akskska. i do not b exercising !! i just wanted 2 play it looked fun and i got excited (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

in between things i was working on my sister's choker n kept winding up w a group of ppl around me 2 talk to about it and just talk 2 in general n the company was rly nice (❁´◡`❁) ♡ had a lot of different kinda talks 2day!! everyone is a sweetie!! some ppl r so funny n chill and i rly hope 2 get 2 talk more casually w people perhaps As Friends when i go in 👉👈

there's one girl in particular who is rly cute n sweet and i want 2 see her again ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა when I got home finally i had 2 hop on my work laptop real quick 2 look up her name again 2 make sure i didn't forget ☝️😌 we do not work at the same office but hii i am visiting next week 🐇

yippee!!!! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა !!!

#i think i have become an introverted extrovert at some point 0: #which is rly nice bc my social anxiety was SO bad at the beginning of the year like i didn't even know where to start skskdksk #but i kinda figured it out? but it's also just being me? idk.. much 2 think. but i made good progress #i am getting a good grade in being funny and nice and talking to people !! #i want 2 kiss someone on the forehead #omg but if there's ANYONE who deserves a kiss it's this old lady who lives a few buildings down on the way to my car #where EVERY time i see her she always has something so so sweet to tell me about how i look #today she said I'm always looking fancy (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ and more but that's the main thing i remember besides the small talk #and the first time we met she asked me if i was a model fr and she's told me I'm cute and I'm just like PLEASE SKDKDKS #i can't fully tell if you're just really sweet or kinda 👀 at me but girl u r so sweet like hello do u Want a hug or a kiss ?? i love u !! #old ladies have a warmth they fill u with that just take the weight of Everything off ur shoulders n leave u feeling full n happy!! #bless old ladies fr!! literally my favorite people to interact with always i love u abuelas everywhere u r everything to me and i would do #anything for u !!!! i miss getting to help friends grandmas w stuff as a kid 🥺 it was just always great 2 talk 2 them and be close n on #good terms n stuff :3 i was the same way with their moms hehe. hi hello i want 2 help !! (⁠✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚) #my friend is being lame and acting embarrassed but i love you please talk to me i am so so interested and think you're really #cool and funny and sweet and wise actually ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠ i wanna be around u if u wanna hang out #even if it's as simple as getting 2 help in the kitchen n always helping w dishes n stuff ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა aaa ♡⁠ #omg i was late 2 the thing too and missed the breakfast and there's this sweet energetic old lady who's always like #omg u didn't get to eat? do u want this? can i get you some coffee or tea? and I'm always just like no no it's okay I'm gonna get it but #appreciate the offer and just ૮ – ﻌ–ა she is always looking out 4 me !! but she's just a sweetie like that !! #i think sharing food is a universally good way 2 make friends and it always warms my heart 2 meet ppl who r the same (❁´◡`❁) #they r always so so sweet 😭🥰 for my astrology girlies i correctly guessed that she's a taurus hehe 😼 #there's another old lady who's an office manager for one of the offices n she is so soft spoken n sweet and i wish i got 2 hug her n talk #to her more 🥺 she's so far though omg i don't get to see her in person much #n e ways i work w some really warm bubbly ppl ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა i am a happy girlie 2day!! then im going Serious Mode again tmrw 🫡 #oo i get to setup like an Actual server for a rack w linux and it's being delivered 2 my place tomorrow 0: I'm excited abt it as a project #AND my new jewelry came in today along w some cute underwear we r starting this wk off strong !!! #there was so so much more frm 2day i am just rly stoned n thinking abt it all (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) #if u actually read all of my ramble ily ty for letting me Talk ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა ♡⁠

[julie-su]

My favourite gameplay feature

#I love Sayaka she's so sweet #'Okay Auntie Aki!' OH MY HEART HURTS #TN: Auntie is a term of endearment in the U.K #Also in the U.K dub (best dub) she is voiced by the same VA as Dizzy from Bob the Builder #DIZZY!! A.K.A BEST CHARACTER (other than Wendy. and Pilchard. And Spud.) #(Oh and she and Satoru's VA both voice main characters in The Magic Key) #Having my ratatouille food critic moment with dubs right now #After so much faux nostalgia intended at a U.S.A audience... This one's got me by the throat I'll admit it

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

It's v v v funny to me that irl I am Very Easily Flustered and Other Things but when its not that my brain is like 'ok ok ok so. to compensate. smug confidence at doing that to andrew. now.' and its SO FUCKING FUNNY

#whats REALLY FUCKING FUNNY is when Things Happen and like. lichen sclerosis fucked me so i cannot Do Things Myself so like. #feeds real hard into my Make Them Feel Good Brain which is REALLY FUN TO DEAL WITH SOMETIMES #lksgjlskfjsk #anywyas. i love her v much and he is v sweet and pretty and funny and hot and all those things and just #laskdgj their terms starts back up today and im just. like. im. yeah hi whatever its whatever #theyre the same fuckin way

[skenpiel]

should skenpiel try to have some sort of meal or should they keep eating sweet bread and dried sausages

#im going out to eat tomorrow anyway so then ill have a proper meal #in the meantime i dont think theres anything wrong with not eating. like. MEALS #i guess eating a meal is more satisfying? but if i eat sweet bread and meat and apples Well thats basically the same stuff #like. in terms of nourishment its just as good as cup noodles if not better actually #so anyway post cancelled ill just keep eating my awesome little treats

[vigilantejustice]

my one (1) friend invited me to her sister’s place for games night a couple weeks back so (in a move that was very true to myself and very transparent to her) i said sure knowing it would be super easy to back out but then she responded by asking me to pick her up (scuppering my exit strategy) and she just let me know that she cornered me into driving specifically so i couldn’t bail because she knew i’d have fun if i went 🥺

#we’ve been friends since school despite me being ultra prone to dropping off the face of the planet for sometimes years at a time #she’s looped into all the food stuff + she’s not afraid to ask questions #not in a blunt way more in that i’ve let her know that she’s cool to ask whatever she wants to know because a) i’m not easily triggered #or whatever and b) i’m super aware that it’s interesting in a morbid curiosity way #i’m always fine to talk about it if anyone has respectful questions because #because i understand the curiosity but also because it can be helpful in terms of identifying it in other people and widening the typical #view of what an eating disorder is and/or looks like y’know? #same reason i was always cool with med students sitting in on any of my appointments or whatever #like good for them to see someone who’s at an ‘’average’’ weight be treated #and also someone whose body looks kind of outside the norm having been as big as i was #anyways. this was so super sweet of her to do and it was so nice to be outside of my own head for a bit #and also nice to just hang out and have a fun time #personal

[quietwingsinthesky]

Soooo badly want to combine twin!au with the “chuck has been mindcontrolling luci for years and it’s only just now stopped working so he’s back in s5 character” because can you imagine how distressing that would be for everyone involved?

Like Lucifer’s in full control of himself for the first time in years, after all the shit that went down post-s5, dealing with the repercussions of actions he performed but now honestly can’t tell which ones were things he would have actually done of his own volition and which were God yanking on his strings. And ALSO during that time he had sex in order to have a kid, but instead ended up with twins who no one wants him near! Because everyone hates him! And Heaven’s gone to shit, most of the angels are dead, the only archangel left alive is Michael and he’s still caged and Luci’s got no way of getting him out if he even wants to. (Which. Presumably he does. If only because at least he knows Michael and Michael hasn’t been on the receiving end of the shit he did the past few years and yeah, might still think of him as a monster but at least that was an image Lucifer was almost in control of.)

And then of course when he finally gets to see the twins, he gets to have a horrible moment of going “oh. Oh no. Oh no they’re me and Michael. God’s replaying the story again and with my kids.” Which is! Horrifying! For someone who has only just gotten free of having his entire character rewritten for the sake of being villainized easier by his own father!

#(​smashes my two most self-indulgent AUs together) aw yeah now we’re cooking with gas #endgame of this au is probably a) They Need To Kill God. and b) queerplatonic samifer raises angel babies #while struggling with the fact that Sam & Dean have been through the same rewrites over the years but since they came less drastically. #neither of them noticed #it’s just whump all around tbh #marieposting #neither s5 or late seasons lucifer would be good with kids is the thing but it’s like. in vastly different ways #s5 Lucifer is mostly like. why would he have experience doing this. why would he have any knowledge on it #besides what he took from nick’s memories when Nick had a Baby but per spn canon. #Jack & Marie aren’t babies long enough for that to help #and angels just aren’t children like that. they don’t grow the same way humans do. #Lucifer has been an older brother. but that’s about where his expertise ends in terms of ‘beings younger than him looking for guidance’ #well. and also demons. but. I don’t. think. that will. help. much. #although. it would be very sweet/strange to me in particular #if Lucifer referenced Lilith around them and the twins were like ‘??? who that’ #(​because it’s been years since Sam & Dean thought about Lilith. they’ve never mentioned her) #and without thinking Lucifer goes ‘your older sister.’ #HELP THINKING ABOUT MARIE HEARING ‘older sister’ AND GOING AH. SOMEONE TO EMULATE. NOOOO DONT DO THAT ALJFKFLSJF #sorry I’m rambling again #allow me my self indulgence.

[carrotpiss]

🐰🧡🐻

#in stark contrast to most of my personal posts this is about me being happy and gay #because i need to just get it out my system bc otherwise i am just going to grab a friend by the shoulders and scream (in joy) in their face #i am dating someone and its really really nice and sweet and cute and like nothing ive ever experienced before #and instead its like every tiny little dream about this kind of thing ive managed to hold onto despite every experience otherwise and ahhhh #the lack of focus on just sex or sex appeal is so nice its like there but as a side thing so its nice and i dont feel like an object #i feel like a human person with thoughts and feelings and interests outside if that and feel safe in that and feel safe that everything wont #just be discarded if i dont want to do that like i feel like boundaries and stuff are an option! without jeopardising everything #and el likes me as much as i like them and wants and sees and communicates that they want something long term and ahhhhhhhh #i just want to cry like holy shit this is everything ive ever wondered about like i have spent so long wondering what this feeling would #actually feel like and its so good and so indescribable and ahhhhhhh #waking up on monday night and seeing them in my bed and cuddling me was just so nice i felt wanted i felt... loved #this all seems so out of left field still i still feel like i just never saw it coming but its so welxome and nice and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #my pessimism is still there but its less loud now its more learning to accept this may not be perfect forever but letting me enjoy the now #crouch speaks #it feels so nice to not be scared and to feel secure and ahhh #also it made me laugh El remembered me hitting on then at the Dgoals release show making them blush lol #i only remember the time i hit on them later at the groles show so its funny i pretty much used the same line twice and it still worked #i cant wait to see them again i cant wait to hold hands in public again i cant wait to be idiots who keep blushing too hard and accidentally #kissing eachother on the nose instead of the mouth because we are stupid and gay and pathetic about it hahaha #just ahhhh i could gush forever how perfect the 2!!! dates weve been on were and the fact they want more and more and ahhhhh #this is so lame i know i just haven't experienced anything remotely like this before and its just... wild #like wow holy shit what on earth i have been so increasingly miserablely depressed and insecure from the shea stuff last year and then this #just absolutely removed all of that i actually feel like a human person again with value

[furashuban]

“Goodbye, Harriet M. Welsch.” “The M will always stand for Myrtle. Harriet Myrtle Welsch.”

#harriet the spy #harriet the spy spoilers #harriet m welsch #ole golly #WHY NO I'VE ABSOLUTELY NOT BEEN DOING OKAY #:'(( #I knew from the very first episode Ole Golly was gonna have to leave Harriet at some point in the show #it's just that i was never in a million years gonna be ready for how amazingly sweet their goodbye would be in this show #-and all the build up leading to it with the episode intertwining parts of the book (Town and Harriet's favorite poem) to make their goodbye #even more sweet and meaningful #i love this episode so much but at the same time HHHHHHHH #OLE GOLLY WAS HER BEST FRIEND. HER MENTOR. HER FAMILY #AND HARRIET STRUGGLING TO COME TO TERMS WITH SAYING GOODBYE UNTIL THE VERY END CONTINUES TO BREAK ME

[itspileofgoodthings]

in my coming to terms with things era

#honestly not externally. it’s all internal work #because sometimes internally you have an understanding of something that just isn’t so #in reality I mean #and sometimes you have to reread the terms and understand what they are #i Will say that the same way that suffering can feel so much more exquisitely painful when it’s happening to you for real #and you’re not considering it as an abstract concept #doing something as mundane-sounding as coming to terms with things #can actually be so satisfyingly solid and beautiful as an experience #not that it isn’t difficult in its own way but what isn’t. #just. some life lessons that need to be learned sound so dull in the abstract #but in reality if they’re real and true they’re as rich and full of life in their essences as any kind of joyous happening #any kind of real experience that is coming to you directly from circumstances. from so to say the hand of God directly #have this mark to them where they ARE rich #even when the lesson is you need to be more practical and live in reality more and accept the limits of reality more #and stop weaving away your realistic-ish fun light made-of-gauze fantasies all the time #there is a cruelty to that lesson that only exists in the abstract #at least I think so #it can be overwhelming and difficult and bitter when you have to swallow it at first but there is a real sweetness at the root IF IT’s TRUE #anyway like ?????? Come to Me all ye who labor and you will be refreshed #sometimes for a split second I’m like ‘oh okay.’ #(then I forget but HERE WE ARE) #thanks for listening <3

[cultreslut]

sometimes i see other autistic ppl b rlly good at making friends both offline and online and i think to myself damn i wish i had that flavor of autism

#there was a girl in my social skills classes that ended up getting invited to a party and got a long term boyfriend throughout the class 😭 #she was really sweet and she has issues and needs that i dont envy . and she probably wishes she didn't have them in the same way i do her #but the loneliness is real esp since i cant drive #itll get better once the semester starts again and im around new people but it doesnt always help or result in anything