#she'd hate it but look so good

[strawberry--sodas]

fin fin come and see her, okay ? shes your best friend

#kenny talks #my art #fin fin #fin fin on teo the magic planet #also do i tag this as rtvs i feel like fin fin is kinda tied to it cause of wayne LOL #i guess ill do it and if u hate fin fin sorry ? give syou a rock. you know what to do. #radio tv solutions #rtvs #wrtvs #wayneradiotv #it's hard to tell cause my artistic abilities arent to the point of copying styles too good yet BUT #shes inspired by 2000s chibi style garage kits #i drew her with the idea of this being an anime figure in my head #and now im sad i cant make her real GAHASDFKSHD #if this was a real anime figure... #she'd come in two colors! fin fin blue and fin fin teal! #and there would be a little fin fin with her #either he's just a little figure you put on her stand next to her or he'd be on a stick you put in her stand so it looks like he's flying! #the design on her float tube are lemo fruit! with actual colors from the game + the forbidden blue lemo fruit from the wrtv stream! #i took a beach/swimsuit theme cause dolphin! #but the star is there after my friend suggested and i thought it fit cause teo the magic planet...space! #her shoes were inspired by ochako mha but then i remembered the kagamine twins do it better for how i imagined it! #so its like the leg warmers? but theyre connected to the flip flops! #ALSO!!! SHE HAS FANGIE! im not the best at doing full rows of teeth so i only gave her one fang #but believe me if this was a real figure she'd have front and bottom teeth no flesh pit for that mouth #sharp teeth! like a real dolphin! #sorry for the rambling i enjoy anime figures a lot and fin fin a lot and drawing cute girls

[rtlstuff]

JKR Writing Fleur Delacour: So this french bird is super sexy but she's also incredibly shallow and vain and snooty, y'know how the French are. She's high fem which is a bad thing, tomboys are the best. She's also just incredibly annoying and full of herself. Constantly making herself the centre of attention even though nobody likes her and they call her phlegm behind her back. Hilarious, right?

90% of Fanfics when Writing Fleur Delacour: At first she comes off as entitled & full of herself, but as time goes on it's clear she's actually incredibly kind, compassionate and loyal. She also has a keen sense of matters of the heart. For the younger characters she takes on the role of a wise older sister. She's loyal and nurturing and and will always be there if you need someone to talk to. She is from a noble matriarchal race of fierce warriors and will fight tooth and nail to defend what is hers.

#harry potter fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #fleur delacour #veela #in almost all fanfics with Weasley bashing Bill and Fleur are usually the reasonable ones #if someone gets kicked out of the Burrow they usually go to Shell Cottage #I've read the synopsis for a couple of queen bitch Fleur fics #but I think all the fics I've read have her as good and kind #such a departure from her 2d depiction in canon #the rich irony that JKR loves tomboys and hates high fem is so great #just look at the main female characters #Hermione Ginny Tonks are all tomboys to a degree #I do wonder if she's actually deeply closeted ftm #she often talks about how she'd be turned trans if she grew up now #like it's a perfectly cis thing to want to be the opposite gender #personal #i'll stop rambling now

[treesbian]

BROOOO i was telling my mom about an anime that my manager was recommending to me the other day and how she explained like the basic plot of the 1st episode to me (it's cinderella but subverted to where cinderella is the villain. basically she victimizes herself and has everyone in her community believing her stepsisters are forcing her to be their servant even though they aren't) and my mom goes "oh sounds like [younger sister's name] haha" and I said "that's really mean" and she went "but am I wrong?" and i said again "That is mean." and my godsister backed her up. but like. how pathetic do you have to be as a parent to just find any reason to insult and bully your child -_- you're the PARENT!!!! she's never ever ever been on the top of that power dynamic!!!! maybe she embellishes to her for sympathy (everyone wants sympathy sometimes especially when things suck) but like. you do suck a little bit. sorry. maybe she makes herself a victim of ppl she has equal standing with (like her siblings...) but you know what you never effectively talked to her about that and now she's grown. unless you want to actually give her support and advice shut up!!!!!! you're the mom you're the parent you have the power in this dynamic. why do you have to be such a bully!!! NO MORE SCAPEGOATS!!!!!!!

#talk tag #also nonsequiter i think my mom likes our godsister better than us. #like i dont think its on purpose and i don't think she'd admit it but she likes her better than us. #one day i told my godsister that and all 3 of my bio sisters went 'yeah she does she likes you better' #and she didn't believe us lol. i mean she relatively recently got out of a situation where she was being straight up emotionally tortured #like that family for real hated her. so i understand the suspicion but like. it's obvious to me.... #she likes that my godsister's situation makes her look like a good parent probably #oh also. while im complaining about my mommy. #the way she slutshamed my younger and older sister for having sex by 16 #told them they were throwing away the most precious gift they could give!!!!! #to then shaming me for NOT having sex that early bc 'most girls lose it by 16' #ma'am. i am a homeschooled lesbian in rural texas that lives with my parents and can't drive a car. yes im not fucking!!!! #no i'm not asexual stop THEORIZING about that thats weird!!!!!

[monards]

i know hoyo is setting up rhine to have good intent and whatever in her trying to 'save' khaneri'ah or whatever; but i REALLY hope they stay with the cruel persona thats been built up for her. because it would be so wonderful to see a character who had good intent in the beginning just get absolutely corrupted; with the inability to ever go back to that prior state purely because of what had happened. also because there is NO way in her turning back after all that shit

#sorry. i dont think theres any good and plausible explanation for rhine to still be a kind or gentle person in general #she can (and SHOULD) have her moments. but it'd make so much more sense (and be much more impactful) for her to be inherently cruel #because look at all the stuff thats happened #i love the indomitable human spirit trope. dont get me wrong. #but rhine has that in the way she WONT stop her research till shes either dead or murdered. she is not gonna be gentle kind and optimistic #she watched all her kids (that she was SHOWN to care for) get very brutally murdered. #had to then go and kill her next creations that she didn't consider perfect (which most certainly fucks a women up. no matter what you say) #made the 'perfect creation' and the way she treated him was obviously a HUGE contrast to how she was before (being gentle and nuturing) #and left him (albeit with what we can guess was good intent) with NO goodbye just #a recommendation letter. a text. and his final mission #she could have good intent #and still care for others #dont get me wrong!!!!!!! #but shes. human??? #humans can be (as much as i hate to say it) a tad selfish when it comes to survival #and being antagonized demonized AND shunned by teyvat and even her own people. having to survive multiple gods wrath #isn't. gonna be good for the human psych #and it isn't gonna be something fixable #look at how furina progressively faltered over a hundered years WHILE being adored #she already started waning in her ethics and morals (as someone immortalized as a human WOULD) #with exposing lyney and all of that when it was VERY clearly the morally wrong thing to do (which her as a human would know) #and being relatively pessimistic and clearly spiralling #(no hate. i love furina with all my heart.) #if thats how FURINA started going #imagine rhine who has nobody (save maybe alice. but i doubt she'd be constant given her spontaneous nature and refusal to sit still) #shit man. even I'D go crazy and be horrible. #its okay and natural to be bitter #and its not as if anybody was there to help #hexenzirkel has a ton of women who survived their own nations falling yes #but not ONE of them (from what we know) has had circumstances any where near rhine's

[katierosefun]

oh there's something particularly painful about my mister in that dong hoon tells ji an that as long as no one knows, it's no big deal, and there's something particularly painful about how ji an tells dong hoon that sometimes, i want [my secret] to play out on big screens for everyone to see, and there's something particularly painful about how the second dong hoon meets the loan shark tormenting ji an, he starts screaming and yelling about how she's just a kid, how could you do that to a kid, and there's something particularly painful about how dong hoon doesn't even let ji an know he did that, but ji an knows. she knows because she was listening in the entire time and she just starts crying because someone actually knows this ugly, sad part of her and still took her side, and something particularly painful about how my mister started with as long as no one knows, it's no big deal but really concludes with there is so much risk in having someone know who you are but there's also so much comfort and peace to be found in that, too and maybe you shouldn't isolate yourself and maybe you should reach for that kind of comfort in being known and loved anyways

#caroline talks #my mister #if this is incoherent. it should be #rewatched the first 2.5 episodes of my mister last night #felt like crying my eyes out the entire time tbh!! #every time i watch this show there's just something about it that hurts me more and more and there's something that makes the messages #in this show feel more and more relevant #idk. thinking a lot about when ji an talks about how sometimes she wishes. sometimes she wishes #that everyone knew what she'd done and what had been done to her. #something about how ji an can't ever bring herself to connect truly with another person because of how much she hates #the feeling of people realizing what her past looks like #and not wanting to withstand the pity and also horror. like. okay. #something about ji an sobbing by the bridge when she listens to dong hoon pummeling that loan shark guy #and how i used to always cry at that scene but now i tear up just thinking about it #because you know! there's that shock (that firstly: someone knows your miserable secret. and secondly: they're still on your side) #and then absolute heartache because you don't know what to do with that information. you didn't expect it. #you're sobbing at a bridge because someone knows who you are and someone knows the scars of your past and still gets angry and sad for you. #and you still feel like you don't deserve it because you know deep down you are not a very good person (or so you tell yourself). #and. oughough. lee ji an holds such a place in my miserable little heart

[killerchickadee]

I feel like you walk into a record store and IMMEDIATELY forget the name of every musician you've ever liked in your entire life.

And then you remember one or two and they don't have the album you want in stock.

Anyway I got The White Album and Rubber Soul.

#but i was looking for fleet foxes and pink floyd #almost went with fiona apple but i dont think she'd sound good on my little record player #anyway i know this is the hating the beatles website but i love them so whatever

[oscill4te]

one thing i dont like about Christmas is how you're expected to broadcast all the gifts you get for someone in a setting with everyone watching. some gifts (like marijauna for your sister) should be private smh. (my familyisnt chill about that stuff). its no ones business anyway.

#im not gonna look good this year but i only want to get stuff for my sisters anyway. dont care abt anyone else in fam rn #cept my aunt i think i get her something too but thats it idk. #i really dont want any presents either it just feels like landfill fodder yknow #i hate it its all so overwhelming and fake and materialistic i rlly do understand the Grinch... he was onto something #txt #i feel like i should clarify that my sis id of age and she asked for marijuana lolol. its a gift she'd actually enjoy bc #legal marijuana is expensive as helllll over here its a genuinely decent gift lol

[moe-broey]

Honestly a dream hobby of mine (ESP as I've been getting more into Making Things with My Hands -- from pins to jewelry and ESPECIALLY clothing modifications) is doll customization. ESPPP inspired by Dollightful on Youtube, where her projects get So Involved sometimes she's woodworking she's sawing off limbs she's using clay and sanding it down to reshape the doll's body to fit her vision. AND ofc any doll custom involves a new face (watercolor pencils or paints choose your fighter) and new hair (doll hair BUT I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT the way of making doll hair/wefts Out Of Yarn‼️‼️ THAT'S SO COOL) and a new outfit (sewing and crafting and ESPECIALLY considering "Okay, What material would work best to achieve the goal I'm aiming for? How does it sit? How does it flow? And most IMPORTANTLY How Does It Work!!!!!")

Like maybe it's the alleged not officially diagnosed ADHD but I GET. SO BORED. If I'm not Working With My Hands (I literally CAN'T draw digital anymore because IT'S BORING‼️‼️ IT'S TOO CLEAN ALSO‼️‼️‼️ LET ME BULLSHIT AND GET MESSY AND TRY WEIRD THINGS THAT MAY OR MAY NOT WORK ‼️‼️‼️ EXPERIMENTAL‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️)

#in highschool my ABSOLUTE DREAM was to make a lillie pokemon doll #and i would make all her different outfits (ESP from the anime she has SO many cute looks) and hairstyles (AGAIN SAME THING) #the hairstyles would likely have been wig caps made of yarn wefts (easier styling/shape holding) #and i could switch em out like nendos. #but current day the current fixation is fire emblem so i would probably exclusively just make fe charas For A While LMFAOO #BUT ESPPPPP WHEN IT COMES TO MONSTER HIGH DOLLS.... AND ALL THE VARIETY............. #could you imagine!!!!!! esp w how i treat non-human/not entirely human charas as creative exercises LMFAO #A NOWI DOLL. WITH MORE NOTICIBLY DRAGON/CREATURE FEATURES. #nowi makes me want to bang my head againts the wall tbh bc I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HER DESIGN. #I EVEN LOVE HER CANON OUTFIT SO MUCH. I JUST HATE!!!!!!!! THE PROBLEMS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #i ESPPPPP LOVE her color palette too IT'S SO FUCKING GOOD. ALL OF MY FAVE COLORS. TBH. SHE WOULD BE SO FUN TO MAKE #AUGH‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #in any case sharena would be my test run bc i love her dearly AND i think she'd be fun to make too (esp the gradient in her hair) #ALAS..... nobody get their hopes up bc. money 😔 (like i do know there's ways to start out #like on a budget. but. even then it seems so daunting. esp as someone who never has collected dolls)

[zhuhongs]

i am so painfully american in so many ways that I never even realized,,, like the Pain. Today I went out with my friends mom who doesn’t speak any english and oh my god was I a deer in the headlights all day. I feel soooo bad, also like she refused to let me pay for anything and gave me sooo much food and drove me around all day. I really don’t know how to thank her enough. I tried to give her a gift and she returned it to me without me even noticing... oh my god. ms. huang.. rlly.... TT thank u also I’m so sorry i’m so painfully timid and awkward

#i've never eaten like.. so many kinds of meat bc like.. yk.. americans only really like the "desireable' parts of the meat. so yea.. also i #have like a fear of swallowing bones.. long story. if u were here u were here for it. if u dont know .. its a Story. but yea so i was like. #this is... a painfully awkward meal. also i dropped my chopsticks TWICEEEEE.. pain. also I've never had shirmp with the head on so she #put one on my plate and i was like... uh.... i dont know how to eat this but I just looked out how the ppl around me did it so i got used t #it.. kinda.... god yea. and then she really kept giving me food but I have a small appetite due to the aforementioned fear of bones thing #it was a spell of disordered eating in hs. left me with a damaged throat and a reduced appetite. not body image related but trauma related #etc. etc.. so yea. i felt so bad. I was so full. she bought me so much. im sooo sorry.... but good news is i wont need to buy food at all #tmrw... and then sometimes she'd ask me a question and I'd legit have no clue how to respond. I;m so used to speaking multiple languages #with my classmates and my roommates so if i ever forget smth i can just use a diferrent language to explain and its.. so much harder to #speak only one language than i thought and hhhhh. also sidenote i COMPLETELY understand why my friend is the way she is... like yea no she #IS her mothers daughter hundred percent.... forceful. kind. not afriad to bargain. overall big appetite for life and yea no.. it makes sooo #much sense... i understand it ALL now...also her little brother is so rude.... god i don't like him. i see why she doesn't like him #like id never blame someone for hating their family but yea no i get it #hhhh so yea.. it was rlly fun but also.. a lot. super super grateful tho. #🐌.txt #also i am so tired.. what not getting enough sleep for a week will do to a mf

[raveartts]

i told my mom i was busy painting, and she asked if she could see it when it's done....i really hope she forgets about it entirely...

#rave ramblees #...this might turn into a bit of a vent #but i just hate showing her my art #i used to show her stuff with pride #and...usually she compliments it so whatever #but other times #usually when it's a drawing she specifically asked me to do for her #she immediately finds something wrong with it to point out #not even a glaring mistake just...'i don't think it looks how i think it should look' #or it's 'not as good as i expected from you' #and then she realizes her mistake and tries to quickly compliment it so i don't feel bad or anything #....like perhaps you should just keep comments to yourself in the first fucking place #honestly i think the negative comments are still preferable to that hemming and hawing as she sees a drawing she doesn't like #and the awkward attempt to make it sound like she likes it afterwards #when i gave her her birthday card today. i'm aware it looks pretty crap. i'm not great with charcoal. or foxes apparently #but i was honestly a bit shocked that she didn't even say it looked weird/off #...which i think is a sad expectation to have #but nevertheless i just don't want to show her anything i make anymore #she doesn't DESERVE to see it if she's gonna act like that #it really does piss me off that I can make something incredible now that she'd dislike and criticize #when as a kid. i could hand her a pile of dogshit on paper and she'd act like she adored it #it's so stupid to be jealous of the way kids get treated probably. but i think i still deserve to make shitty things and not get hate forit #if something i drew as a kid could be complimented. anything i draw at the same level now should get the same reaction??? #why must I be absolutely perfect and talented simply because i'm a little older? #i sound like a boomer but Kids Have It Too Easy and im jealous and could i just have people love me unconditionally even if im not perfect? #children get loved for fucking existing without being good at anything #i only get what i want if i go above and beyond...even if i'm already better than everyone else at a baseline level #it doesn't fucking matter if i tried hard or put effort in if the end product isn't perfection #i tested this once. giving my mom a drawing perfectly replicating my childhood quality/style #only for her to be extremely disappointed and laugh at it

[emometalhead]

Made an appointment with a doctor to discuss my anxiety and possibly get medication!!

#I've been too anxious to try to get meds for my anxiety which is a fun irony 🙃 #finally got up the courage to suggest to my mom that I want anxiety meds #she's mentioned before that it would probably be helpful to me and that she'd take me to the doctor for it #the appointment isn't for another month but this feels like a good step #I hate doctors though. I'm so stressed but it'll be worth it #I just hope I don't have to do like a physical and stuff #I'm also worried because I know they'll weigh me and I've been trying so hard not to fixate on my weight so that might lead to bad thoughts #ugh #this was supposed to be a happy post #sorry yes #I'm looking forward to hopefully being able to better manage my anxiety or at least being able to regulate my heart rate so I'm less shakey #this has been such a long time coming #I've been thinking a lot about therapy lately and I'm definitely not stable enough for that yet so baby steps #ashley rambles

[themthistles]

feel like beyond evil stage play would actually work really well because of how every character is already constantly performing

#dongik is performing insanity juwon is performing perfection #kang jinmook is performing harmless fool do haewon a dedicated mother han gihwan a stern leader #jeongje is thrust into the role of a victim since childhood #jaeyi thinks she doesn't care enough to perform anything but unfortunately for her that indifference is also a performance #juwon is so bad at it that dongsik figures him out right away but dongsik is so good he fools even himself #love love moments where characters know they're both acting and just let it happen #juwon and jaeyi do that a lot #they go idc about anything lol! i'm fine and both know the other is lying but let it happen #and dongsik and jinmook are always acting with each other post ep2 up to ep8 even when they're alone #this show is about appearances and deceiving but also about how being genuine is a struggle for everyone #we all do a little act #also ALSO dongsik would 100% talk to the audience #flirt with the audience #juwon would never look at the audience but in a way where it's obvious that he knows it's there and is terrified of its presence #jihwa would fucking hate the audience lmao she'd notice dongsik interacting with us and go stop that right now

[glasseswearingrabbitdetective]

これ、どう思う？https://twitter.com/abcsub_1/status/1560886332183875584?t=J0xSkKQlj9s2HiK_rByYlg&s=19 😔 mzen嫌うわけじゃない！ただ、公平なストリー欲しいだけ！ニーゴって４人、２＋２でわなくて。

#prsk #ニーゴ #25時、ナイトコードで。 #25 ji nightcord de #project sekai #NO HATE! TT #eng Tldr; clpl pushes mizuena too much that some things arent consistent :'D #fyi i dont hate MizuEna- by far!- but i do wish the writing would be consistent and not so ship-orientated!! #WHERE DID KANADE GO??? TTT i thought she'd have a more present role ngl... #i gotta finish my own read thru aa... its not looking too promising on the niigo side of things tho #WE STAN MIZUKI'S ONEECHAN THO!! THAT SCENE WAS GOOD!! ONEECHAN-SAN ILY!!

[imaginarianisms]

1 day i will make a meta of sansa's dynamic with her metaphorical champions/suitors & how that correlates to the ashford theory (i.e sansa being betrothed to joffrey baratheon, then promised to willas tyrell, then being married to tyrion lannister, then being married to harry hardying then married to aegon vi targaryen & aurane velaryon but it is not this day. lmao. when i make that meta it'll be so over for y'all.

#out of the galaxy. || ooc. #just know that. she never marries after aurane. btw lmao #like if he like g-d forbid ever died before she did she'd like. literally never marry or love again like. thats it lmfao #but anyway like. she has a complicated relationship w/ all of them tbh & reflects on them sometimes. #she obviously hates joffrey for him abusing her but like. she can't help but feel sad for him at times bc like. he was so young. #if he had the right people around him maybe he would've turned out okay eventually. but it didnt happen. she never met willas but sometimes #she wondered what it would've been like to be lady of highgarden but she hopes he's doing alright. her dynamic w/ tyrion is. complicated #like. he was never like openly cruel to her or anything & she's grateful to him for saving her life & standing up for her but like. #there's always that grief surrounding their families & i think she resented & mostly afraid of him at the time but in hindsight she's+ #grateful that he never hurt her or forced himself on her. harry she hardly knew unfortunately but like she disliked him at first #but then he actually seemed to warm up to her & she had him tied around her lil finger but she knows that she wouldn't like to be married+ #to a guy who actually has children w/ sb else. like. she's seen how that played out & while she wouldn't be mean it makes her uncomfortable #but especially surrounding aegon bc like. she's not naive enough to say she loved him but like. she actually LIKED him #like. while she was wary of him at first she warmed up to him & genuinely respected him as a person & most importantly aegon was her FRIEND #they got along rly well due to their similar upbringings & what they had to do to survive & like. he's actually a decent guy in canon. lmao #he's handsome & was chivalrous & honorable & sweet w/ her but also like batshit insane in a good way. like. #he was the golden prince she always wanted since she was a little girl; the prince that joffrey was supposed to be but never was. #he gave her a future as queen of westeros that was originally HERS. so when daenerys eventually executes him she has mixed feelings about i #aegon was good to her & she'd vowed not to betray him & she actually intended to keep that vow. to her she was forever in his debt+ #he gave her a future from her isolation & suffering @ winterfell bc of how much everything changed & he waited for her to love him back. #he actually showed her respect & gave her a solid future when she felt alone & abandoned & led her gently into a world of his own making+ #& gave her back her honor & a future. esp when the north was divided between jon rickon & herself. most preferred jon or rickon over her. #without aegon's intervention she probably would've had to marry some northern lord below her station. the winterfell succession crisis wild #but aurane velaryon? that's the love of her life. her bold captain. he taught her how to love & coaxed her in the sun to bloom & freed her. #freed her from the chains of her family obligations. he taught her to break the rules of tradition & follow her heart & trust her instincts #he was there with her in her darkest hour. he quite literally saved her life & defended her honor when no one else had the balls to do that #no one looks @ or touches her the way aurane does she loved him madly truly & deeply he took her girlhood in his stride but when autumn cam #she escaped & had to push him into the deepest recesses of her mind in the name of survival & pragmatism but she never stopped loving him. #& his sweet memory brought too much heartache & bittersweetness for her. she lowkey waited for him for years. & they EVENTUALLY reunited ! #he fought & got legitimized for HER. she's. so genuinely happy w/ that man. he's one of her best friends & the father to her children.

[fondocampo]

mh

#i don't know how many times i've told my mum that zverev is an abuser and that i hate that he still plays tennis #yet she keeps ignoring me ? girl. i don't care if he's good at tennis. abusers shouldn't get to go around playing sports esp on big stages #this is so frustrating it's not easy to talk about this w my mum so i just try to avoid it but it's so. #she was telling me earlier aw did you know tsitsipas and zverev have always been friends :) #well no and it doesn't surprise me particularly but i don't care and i don't think we should be looking at that rat as aw his buddy! cute! #i wish she'd just not mention him ever if she's not gonna care that it makes me uncomfortable that she doesn't have an issue w him lol #whatever #delete later

[starlingskulls]

also one of the cats i work with really fucked my shit up last shift and i feel very upset about it One because uhmm. rude. but also because ohhh that's deeper than i've ever gone and it didn't hurt that bad .. very interesting information

#🐦‍⬛posting #mostly just stung yk. didn't bleed too bad either #and like .. yk when the cvts look pretty or whatever LMAOO it looks Nice. like I'm so fucking pissed but good work little dude #downside is I keep looking at it like hmm...... could make more! #if anyone is reading this rn could u tell me if it's dangerous to cvt on the upper thigh. like High up the thigh #bc that's where I've been doing it but I think I remember someone being like hey. Don't Do That. like don't cvt at all but #Especially Not There #but also like goddd that's the only place I can hide it #I can't do arms I wear jackets a lot but also I wear this one shirt a lot and its like. those tiny tiny straps I forgor what they r called #and I'd simply rather die than tell anyone in my life abt this #even though their guilt Would be fun <- hate that I want it though #like I hate it BAD. makes me feel fucking evil. but god I want ppl to feel bad for making Me feel bad #but then also I'm terrified of ppl feeling responsible for my stupid actions like that yk ? #fun me lore I was on Tumblr at the ripe age of 11 #in a tiny fandom #and managed to befriend this woman who I Knew would cvt and was suicidal or wtv #and ofc she didn't Know how young I was till I finally confessed at like 15 but. well that is a Lot of pressure for an 11 year old #Especially bc she'd vent like. every fucking day. I felt bad of course but that much? for like 4 years? #draining!!!!!! and if I'd so much as hint to it she'd make me feel guilty. not on purpose. but it still happened ! #nowadays I feel so fucking guilty for every little thing I do lol. which is why I can't tell anyone abt this #if I ever made Anyone I love feel that same way? that's it I'm done I'm dead #so now silly and curious strangers get to read my yapping ! #hiiiiiiii !