#so little less than two weeks and a day

[cxpperhead]

Belated munday post but the little one is settling in nicely! He's taken to watching me when he thinks I'm not looking at him, horrible camera quality as the angle is wonky but the tank looks better/is more sizable than it appears from the side!

Unfortunately I forgot that flash was enabled and he slipped back into his cool hide after. Sorry for startling you, sweetheart. 😔

#🐍 || ooc #;; mun bullshit #He's been here just over a week and seems to be settling in quite nicely <3 #Loves his pinkies and is getting better with handling #The first two times he was quite a bit more flightly #Today he was calmer and just slithering through my fingers nicely #Gonna leave him alone a day or two so he can keep settling in and he'll get another pinky in another couple of days #I have no idea how old he is but think he was a bit underfed #Needs more than a little pinky every week sagsfsf #Sorry to have been quiet today was mostly recouping and resting up all day #Didn't have much energy beyond typical chores but feeling way less sore/exhausted now :D #Ror's an anery corn btw! #He looks so much prettier irl than the camera shows all these lovely greys and blacks and mochas <3 #Will try and get something done tonight now I'm feeling a bit better about writing

[redbootsindoriath]

Whichever anon sent me this today, thank you. There's no way you could have known, but a couple of days ago I suddenly and without warning lost a cat that I raised from the day he was born. When I saw this in my inbox I was confused at first, because what...checkmark...huh...but then I realized that it meant somebody had sent me something--out of the blue, just because--at a time that I really could use something good in my life, even something silly and fun. So, really, thank you. And green is my favorite "real" color, so having one of the checkmarks be green is pretty neat.

I've not really been able to draw anything worth anything lately, believe it or not, so here's the last picture I have of my Night Furry. He loved drives and walks, so earlier this summer on a road trip I took him to the top of the continental divide for a little hike.

(Yes, he's wearing a harness. He had an adventurous and independent temperament, so there was always a risk of him running off to explore someplace where he shouldn't go alone. I didn't just make him wear it because I'm a cruel and stifling cat butler.)

#yo somebody talked to me #/end classification tags #his name is toothless by the way #after the dragon in how to train your dragon of course #ALSO by the way #i would NORMALLY give myself time to actually process this sort of thing and recover because i'm pretty sure i'm in psychological shock #but i'm moving halfway across the continent in like two days (less than a week after he got sick) so there was no way to just #cancel that or delay it or something #so i'm having to just get over it or whatever #👍 #the car ride is going to be lonely but at least i have one more cat to keep me as good of company as she can #even if we've never been as close as toothless and i were #a VERY IMPORTANT note to all of the pet owners who follow me: PLEASE check your yards for poisonous plants #regularly and repeatedly even if there wasn't anything dangerous there before #even if you're only staying in the area for a little while #even if you only let your pets out under close supervision #even if you trust your landlord/landlady (if you rent) #because i was all of those and this still happened #check every single plant out there and be 100% sure you KNOW what each one is #did you know that silverleaf nightshade looks nothing like other kinds of nightshade? #neither did i because i never lived in this area before #anyway sorry for the dump y'all #i don't generally like to share a lot of details about my personal life but i think i'm not quite myself right now #poor little guy hadn't even lived half his expected lifespan so i wasn't ready for this to happen for years #i've been kicking myself over it for days even though i know the blame doesn't TECHNICALLY lie with me and it's messing with my psyche #he was a very special cat #in korean the term is 개양이 and google says the english is puppycat #a cat that is friendly and acts like a dog #i will likely never get a cat anything like him again and that's an awful thing to realize #i would go broke and risk my future to have him back which is stupid i know but he was really something else

[hella1975]

why pay for a gym membership when you can go back to the countryside and move bags of concrete for FREE 😍

#my life at home is so glamorous btw #so the thing about my mum is that we have almost 2 acres of land and obviously the upkeep of that is INTENSE #but her attitude - justifiably - is 'if i can do it myself then why would i pay someone to do it?' #so me and my sister have gone our whole lives used to just helping with the chores #like that's not a big deal i really think it's a bit grim how a lot of teenagers just Dont Help with the chores #BUT my point is for me and my sister 'helping with chores' isnt just like. washing up and doing laundry lmao #like we have LAND and ANIMALS and there isn't exactly a man about the house that does all the heavy lifting #so it's my mum powered by sheer rage and stubborness telling me and my sister what to lift and where to put it #and that's just how it is like we move bricks and poles and fence panels etc etc the list goes on #literally a free work out and it's then so funny bc my friends know me to be quite lazy when it comes to activity #like i dont do any sports and i refuse to go gym with them and i like my little bed etc #BUT when put in a position where it's actually shown i will typically be stronger than my friends #including the ones paying extortionate amounts for gym memberships LMAO #like me and two of my mates did ninja warrior not long ago and one of them is a proper gym lad #and i left her in the DUST and she was acc a bit fuming about it? like it made her really insecure i was like how fucking offensive is that #like she was basically insecure bc 'how can i possibly be less fit than [my name] when she does fuck all' LMFAOOOO #i giggled #it's me and my sleeper countryside build against the corporations #BUT since coming uni it has slipped a bit bc ive gone from doing an hour of intense heavy lifting at least every? two days? ish? #to doing fuck all for weeks on end and then doing short bursts of it when i come home #so doing it today was a bit sad bc i cant lift nearly as much as i used to. like i can still lug 15kg dog food bags on my shoulder #like a little farmer boy but icl i was SWEATING today with that concrete when normally i'd do it pretty easy #so maybe i'll get more into my fitness again idk. like as lazy as i am working out does give you that little rush of endorphins #and the kind of workout i do as well gives me that very human satisfaction of simple manual labour #like truly satisfies ten generations of factory workers and farmers in my bloodline lmao they r smiling down on me #hella goes home

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[dont-offend-the-bees]

We need better fucking care infrastructure. I should not be trusted with anyone's care ever 💛

#thing is caring for myself? I'm not GREAT at it but i can scrape by #i know my limits i know how much or little i need to survive i know that i can usually more or less bounce back after a tough time #i think if my life fell out from under me i could probably scrape it back even if i wound up doing a lot of couch surfing in the meantime #i genuinely don't know how I'll survive if i have to be fucking sole carer for someone #dad's on his way back now and he's been prescribed antibiotics and hopefully that's that #but at least a couple of times a year there's some shit like this #an awful cough or an infection or a fucking insane choice to like do some diy on the outside of the house standing on the windowsill #he fucking nearly chokes on his food once or twice a week #maybe he's just one of those cockroach type motherfuckers who'll never die no matter how the universe steps on him #but I'm fucking PISSED that he's taking that for granted and won't even sit and fucking talk to me about what happens when his luck runs out #I've been looking after mum alone for what four hours today and I'm already so tired and frustrated i wanna die #i am. a deeply impatient and unsociable creature. #i can be infinitely patient with friends! those are my fave people i chose to have them in my life I'd wait like a fucking mountain for them #mum and i were.... already sort of At Odds before all this started. #i'm the kid she never 100% really wanted and who never really 100% wanted to be here #and now we're stuck together and one day possibly sooner than any of us want it will be. just the two of us. #and i just. i don't know what that looks like. i really don't. #anyway. mental breakdown over hopefullly. #with a bit of luck dad and i actually fucking TALK before the next one #idk man. i never really knew what i wanted to do with my life but i thought I'd have time to figure it out #but maybe I'm just. the unqualified burnout with covid memory damage and a whole ass other human to care for #the exact thing i set out to avoid when i decided never to have kids #anyway. enough oversharing. #thank you anyone who's read my spiralling tag rambles in solidarity i love you #mr. bees speaks

[sneakygreenbean]

i dont fucking REMBER things!!!!!

#YES this is about the pinup challenge #IM SO MAD #well back to the drawing mines! hut hut hut hut #<- second time this week ive used that tag. its going well. #i wonder what i could do if i spent less than 40% of my spare time lounging on my bed doing very little #AND i have finals!!!! #someone PLEASE yell at me to study. #im sooo failing this course :) #IN TWO DAYS I HAVE A CONCERT #WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOINGGGGG

[greppelheks]

Identifying which things are incredibly difficult for me because of adhd, and deciding to no longer do them, instead of forcing myself to do them because I should be able to do them, is honestly so freeing.

#personal #The constant information that'd be put in my brain by texts and all the little emotional responses that come with it #Was so fucking overwhelming and infuriating so I've decided to just check my texts twice a week #And the constant information and stimuli that'd come with using certain apps is kinda exhausting so I've deleted most apps #And am gonna work on spending less time on the ones left #I'm now more aware of others situations I keep finding myself in that make me overdtimulated and exhausted #And I'm gonna hopefully just not do those anymore and find replacement activities #I was shopping with my sister and I was so overstimulated from all the people and sounds and smells #And having to have a conversation with my sister with music blasting #And it's like this everytime so maybe I should just not do that anymore #And I just went out for dinner with my mother and my niece and she had a breakdown and she always does in the evening 'cause she's Done #And I don't wanna do that either #I'm fully zoned out now because I got more stimuli in one hour than I normally do in four days #Painting with her this afternoon was perfect and quiet but God all those people and kids...... #Don't wanna do that anymore either am more happy to spend a few hours during the day with her #If only my sister didn't live two hours away I could #I'll figure something out #Personal #Everybody's always like God you're so autistic and like... maybe you're all just incredibly fucking loud All the time #Just ordered those loop earplugs and I'm gonna take some steps to start working from home more #'Cause my administration days are a huge struggle. I'm constantly being interrupted and bothered by people #I'm sick of trying to force myself to do the 'normal' thing. It's obviously not working.

[peridots-pixiwolf]

yknow I play a lot of hard games but usually not "took 73 days to beat" hard

#aka gUESS WHO JUST BEAT RAIN WORLD. AFTER TWO AND A HALF MONTHS #rain world #peridots-nonsense #i got into subterranean like a week ago but have been mostly hanging around by the worm grass shelter for 20 cycles #i went to every region (even if i only spent a couple minutes total in drainage lol). met every echo besides the farm arrays one. #got every passage achievement (every one besides dragon slayer/wanderer in outskirts and industrial within my first few weeks of playing) #and never used a passage anyway. three months!!! rounding up a little! for a game that can be beat in less than 20 cycles. #dh was twelve days (though i'd played through part of it years earlier). stray was seven hours. insc was only a couple days. #i've done two separate ultkill playthroughs so not sure which to count but both were less than a week #hk was actually just over a month. may 24 to june 26th. which is still so much less than this. bftes about a month too #i remember how even just a week into rw i felt like i'd been playing it forever...even just a week in i knew it would be one of Those Games #where i wish i could play it over for the first time again. boy was i right. it almost felt like a second life at times #i loved just running around in certain areas building up stores of food and spears and vulture masks #(what comes to mind are / HI_S02 / CC_S05 / SI_S04 / SB_S07. the first two felt like home!) #(* up in the sixth tag i missed the friend. i was relishing in hubristic bloodlust especially in CC so i didn't have much time for taming) #if the tags here seem particularly incoherent i only falsely apologize. i'm just. reminiscing. i don't think i can do anything else #my heart was pounding as soon as i reached the depths. after 325 cycles. 116 hours. two and a half months. it's over. #maybe a little dramatic but hey it took up an invariable portion of my life for a fifth of a year so. it's just interesting #anyway. a standard ''i took too long on this and now the sun's rising'' goodbye to you tag-wanderer

[samurailogic]

My BITCH film making teacher who I HATE

#''hey guys you have a BIG FINAL assignment that is due less than a week after the break so I'm gonna let you all rent out equipment over the #break so you can work on it!!'' #(doesn't come to class for the entire week before the break and doesn't direct the sub on what to do for renting out equipment) #I mean we all Know what to do to get our stuff in order. But the sub doesn't and has never heard a Word about borrowing stuff so ofc they'r #not gonna let us take stuff!!! #She's so awful she literally comes to class like two days out of every week and does fuckall #YES I know I'm seething on the internet instead of emailing her but omfg she's just so annoying and I hate her. #And I have my own video camera if I'm really that desperate to get to work (which I am.) but it would be very nice to have a tripod and a #nice modern camera instead of the janky little 2005 camera I have LOL

[seonghwasblr-moved]

Been doing garden work all day, and I'm so tired, but I have to write two pages for my thesis 😭

#maja talks #a little less than two pages to be exact #and technically I could do it another day but I kind of really want to submit it one of the first days next week #so I will pull through and do it

[sapphicautistic]

man if my childhood self knew someday i'd get mad over NOT being able to do chores.... she would not recognize me lmao

#chores were kinda torture for baby me cuz she didn't know how to do anything right #and cuz i was even more horrifically clumsy back then and even back then it took me way longer to do anything physical than other ppl #and i lived in a very chaotic home with lots of other kids and a very sick mom and there was just piles of stuff everywhere #it was v overwhelming and i had no idea how to start and like the idea of not having stuff on the floor was just unattainable then #now i have enough tricks and habits that i don't mind doing chores EXCEPT IT'S AGONY PHYSICALLY >.< #and clean spaces FEEL attainable now in a way they never did in my childhood but they're NOT and that's infuriating #bc if i was just a little less impaired physically they WOULD be like i'm begging just two hours a week of able bodiedness please #negative cw #updates on my boring life #god it would be so satisfying to end every day or even every week or month with a completely clean home #and a clean self

[orcelito]

Managed to write 300 words for discacc 👍 which is 300 more words than I've managed to write in the past like. Week.

Hoping to start making progress again. We'll see.

#speculation nation #discacc shit #if i can write enough prior to the 21st im contemplating splitting the chapter up a bit #so that all this earlier stuff is 41 and then the big scene at the end is 42 and THAT would be the anniversary chapter #just a celebration of them & their relationship #i worry that if the chapter is too big it'll get bogged down in everything. + if i Could have a chapter out b4 the 21st id want to #currently i have 3.1k written of the first scene. with 4 more scenes completely unwritten. #then 4.6k written for the final scene. aka why i think i could finish it pretty quickly after posting an initial chapter 41 #it'd mean two chapters in relatively short succession. of a more moderate (for me) length #as opposed to a giant fucking chapter to rival possibly even beyond that of Sol #this will all depend on how quickly i can write. if i finish the earlier stuff up only a day ish b4 the anniversary #then it'd feel a little weird to dress it up only to post another shorter chapter just after. #+ posting takes a good amount of time with all the editing and such involved in it. #but im gonna be pushing pretty hard to get all this written in time. i really want to make this work. #we'll see. i just gotta write a good 20k ish more words in about 3 weeks. less than that. #for me? that's Nothing in comparison to what ive done in the past. #20k in 3 weeks Ha Ha try fuckin 70k in 3 weeks. ive done it before and i can do it again #.... well not really the 70k. right now. not while im in school lol. #BUT i can totally do 20k. and i will. im gonna treat u guys RIGHT this month #.......hopefully

[asjjohnson]

I just had the thought of making a future fic updating schedule of 'once in a blue moon'. (Partly for the pun.) ...But then I looked up how often blue moons happen, and it's only about once every two years. So... that's probably not a good updating schedule. :(

(I have an existing fic with an update schedule of 'Friday 13ths and Halloween'. I like the semi-randomness. I would like to think of similar schedules. ...Though I'd missed the last two update dates.)

#...The 13ths fic is the only one that's currently active right now. And I haven't updated it in a year. #It was way too busy for me to write a chapter last 13th. It fell on a bad time of year. #and my computer's been messed up for the past few months so I hadn't felt like writing as Halloween neared. #Still don't know what's wrong with my computer but it seems to be less worrying now. Except I can't get Photoshop to work which is annoying #I could do 'once in a full moon' or 'once in a new moon' though they're a little too regular. #Hmm... looks like rainy days happen about twice a week when I try looking it up for my US state. #Updating on rainy days sounds interesting... for smaller-chaptered fics. Though I would need to write the chapters in advance. #When it's an event on a calendar it's easier to prepare for than the utter randomness of weather. #oh wait. my other fics aren't abandoned. DE is just the only one with a schedule right now. So... I don't know when to work on the others. #I might try updating 10/20 on full moons next year. ...If I can write its chapters quick enough. ...I might need a plan for a plot. hmm. #PD used to be updated very quickly but then I got stuck on a chapter near the end of the fic. I need to find time to reread it all. #Then there's the Gears universe... I wanted to try making the original oneshot into a comic. So I never wrapped up the oneshot. #And writing Another Gear would spoil the Gears oneshot/comic. #Dan fic 1 is... still not ready for publishing. I'd over-planned it. ...or under-planned it? I need to find time to really look it over. #...And the careful wording used in that fic is exhausting for me. #Hmm... there's a few oneshot holiday ideas I've had. #And the ficlets made specifically for this site (I think I have two unfinished ones—one about Vlad and one about Danny). #...For non-DP fics... They're on hold so far. I don't want to mix fandoms much or I'll get muddled characterization. #and my non-DP stuff doesn't get much attention here. Though I might should work on some Aladdin stuff for deviantArt. And BNHA for AO3.

[arthur-r]

guess who gets to have chipotle today

#it’s me!!!! the last time i had it was my birthday in april #and i keep asking if we could have it and the answer is always no and then. a couple weeks ago when i was at work #my dad and sister had chipotle without me. and that made me real sad #but today i get to have chipotle!!!! im so excited #chipotle and red robin are my two favorite restaurants not counting [redacted pizza restaurant] where i work #and i have a secret kids menu hack that gets me super cheap food at red robin but it’s expensive for the rest of my family #so we don’t go there often. chipotle on the other hand is still a special treat but it’s a more equal special treat #where everyone can feel like they’re getting their moneys worth and im always in the mood for it #and so im really glad we’re doing it today. i love chipotle so much #we’re just gonna go order takeout and then eat it at home but that’s better than sitting in the restaurant with lights and loud people #so this is the most ideal meal possible. my dad went a couple weeks not really feeding us anything but this is the second day this week #that we’re getting food as a family. i guess he’s doing that cause my mom and little sister are almost home so he’s making the most of the #last week. other things he’s taking advantage of being able to do: smoke weed cause he thinks i don’t know the smell so i won’t know #i do know i just don’t want to be confrontational about it. we’ve almost made it through this entire time with no fights and im really proud #so im not gonna mess it up calling him out on something like that. for vague context i live in a state where it is a crime. but i don’t #really care from that standpoint it’s just. idk i just wish that when he’s supposed to be a responsible adult he would keep his wits up #like. my mom told me once that when i was growing up she would smoke weed before she hung out with me and my sister so that she would be #in the right headspace. she would smoke weed so that she’d be more childish and fun to play with #which i guess i appreciate the goddamned effort but it didn’t work because as long as you still have power over somebody #any superficial idea of equality isn’t going to do anything. three year old me did not cry less when my mom got mad at me if she had been #high when she was taking care of me earlier. that is not how that works. so anyway i guess it’s a sore spot #he’s only smoked once the past couple weeks and now he is again today i could smell it when i went to the basement to do my laundry #and it’s just not a great vibe. hang on i heard the dryer song from far away im gonna go move my laundry #anyway this is actually a happy post because i get chipotle so um. sorry for all the weed talk i got distracted #drug cw #ok i’ll see you guys later i have to move my laundry and then im getting dinner!!!! very excited #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[myheartxmyman]

The You I knew seems to be gone.. Last year I tried to find the old you, I couldn't reach you anymore. Wasn't able to feel our bond the way it had been and I got more and more desperate.

Those last week's I am not desperate, I am truly unhappy, sad, feeling alone while being in 'a partnership', I am deeply hurt, and at the same time trying to get over those feelings I feel. Sometimes being with you is just too much, because I want nothing more than spending time with you, but I am not feeling it. It hurts. Sometimes being in your presence makes me feel so so lonely. Sometimes I have to be alone, because it feels like I am still fighting to keep my sanity after you did what you did. You ripped my heart completely open and gave not one shit. I am still suffering that much and I don't know how to make it stop.

Meanwhile I KNOW, you behaved in a horrible and cruel way towards me. Not just once but again and again and again. It seems like you don't even are aware of that. But that's one of the things I am trying to tell you. You don't seem to spend a lot of time even thinking about us, me, my feelings and so on. I feel like you're not reflecting yourself, it's more like you are running from something; and I think somehow it's you. I wish you would for once try to understand my feelings, put yourself in my shoes, see why your actions made me behave in certain ways. You broke my trust not just once or twice, how am I supposed to open up to you again? I won't talk to you if my trust level is that low. That's how it is. And at the same time this situation is hurting me over and over again. Because what we shared was something special, and now we're so close to losing each other. Somehow it feels like I am waiting and waiting for nothing, because we don't seem to be on your mind anymore. You want to talk to me, you're blaming me.. Why don't you listen to my words? When did you get blind? I am hurting, I am unhappy, I don't want to leave, but I fear 'this' is not going anywhere. We are standing still.

#Ich leide an Oxitocin Entzug #but with the feeling I got while being with you over one year ago #there is no going back in time #I am so so sad these days #I miss you #I would need your comfort #but the way it is between us meanwhile it wouldnt be the 'right' comfort I am longing so much #I mean if you would even try to comfort me #just realized that I don't know when you last put effort into being my light my comfort my partner #you don't seem to care #you are so distant and cold and I fear I am treating you the same #it's because I still can't forgive you #the last two days I was thinking about us and I was wondering if I did really feel a little less pain anger resentment hurt eg towards you #maybe I am just getting used to it #you will never understand the pain you infected on me those two weeks of end December continued by your spontaneous trip which really took #me out completely #I am still in shock when thinking just a tiny bit about it #the pain agony hell you made me feel #like I didn't matter at all #like I was nothing #not worth a damn #I mean you leaving spontaneous our of nowhere for holidays would have broken my heart already #and you should know that #but the country you went to shattered my trust my heart my whole being #and I am so hurt again #i can't get it out of my head #I don't understand how you could be so so cruel #you are not one bit of the man I loved so fast as a friend #than as my man #you are not there anymore

[berrymeter]

maybe the answer was to snack while reminiscing on how ridiculously bad anger management advice is online all along

#perth.txt #taking potshots at 'mental health' websites & booing everytime it says 'just calm down lol' #but this is more or less confirming my theory that my period this month will be far worse than usual. great. exciting. eugh #was wondering if it'd be the case two days ago bc boy i was so fucking upset & every little thing made it worse #pretty sure i cried in frustration it was baaaaad. bad. #so yea if i post like 'haha i think i'm dying' or smth in the coming days remind me my period's coming 💀👍 !! #it's done this to me once before where like. i get a very mild period w no pms then the next two weeks are hell. & THEN it hits for real #which is totally fine to deal with. & not at all a potential uh. ender of all friendships ive ever had or anything. #well anyway.