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hiddenclawsof · 4 years

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aesthetic tag game

tagged by @yutopiada (one of my fav ptg writers out there still notices me to this day im emo--)

rules: bold the aesthetics you relate to and add twenty of your own aesthetic qualities for others to bold.

@yunwoo, @wookikun , @hojinhoe (hi no pressure in doing this but if you want to do this you are welcome to do so ((: )

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swampgallows · 4 years

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im just exhausted by drawing in general because it feels like no matter what i do it will be reappropriated into a sexual context no matter what it is. it really disturbs me that i try to make a funny meme paintover and people retweet/reblog it to their ns//f/.w side accounts, so my funny or cute art of like garrosh with a wooloo or w/e is alongside a bunch of explicit p/or/n. it feels like a direct attack. i know garrosh isnt my character obviously, but it’s still my art, and it really scares and frustrates me that it’s forced into that context and there’s nothing i can do about it. and i mean i guess just by the nature of garrosh being a big muscular orc who’s shirtless all the time it’s gonna be horny art to people no matter what, but it’s legitimately keeping me from sharing my perspective and ultimately even wanting to draw in general, even to myself by myself on my own, because im afraid of what someone will think if they see it. (maybe thats leftover from my parents just grabbing my sketchbooks and “showing it off” to company to prove i was worth something but w/e.)

garrosh is my go-to any time i get an inkling to doodle, which rarely even happens anymore, and it just feels like it’s sullying one of the few things that makes me feel safe and happy and protected when people think it’s sexual.

i miss being a child because you used to be able to have a kind of disclaimer or a public shaming of like “yo!! this is a kid’s art!!! dont be horny on it!!!” and everyone would conduct themselves accordingly. but now it’s like “hey can you not throw my personal vent art into your pile of jack-off material? thanks” and instead i’m a prude or kinkshaming or whatever.

and it doesnt really matter if it’s garrosh; people have done this w my art no matter what i drew. a huge reason i stopped drawing my one and only OC is because, even before tumblr, people took this character—a character i created when i was 13 and being r/aped on a daily basis, who i imagined protecting me and looking out for me and punishing the people who hurt me—and put him into a sexual context, drew p//orn of him fucking me, told me it was weird that i didnt have a sexual attraction to him, and all that shit. and since my ex it was kind of the last straw (personal shit i dont really feel like divulging) and i just stopped drawing him altogether even though he’s so incredibly important to me, i dont even write or speak his name because he’s so important.

i dunno im realizing that im basically reliving trauma, i guess. im not gonna talk about it anymore, there are too many details i dont really feel like publishing online. i know i dont own garrosh obviously but i do own my art of him and it feels like people are violating and sexualizing me by extension when they make fetish material out of my artwork.

#blathering

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blaurascon-kzk · 4 years

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KZK Discord Digest [Week of Nov 22 - Nov 28]

SUMMARY: Work's still progressing on the LE Kirins. Some previews for the Aeterna (Time) one in this post! Kat's made a channel in the Discord specifically for posting quick WIP shots and previews while he's working. I likely won't be covering that channel in the Digests, given 1. there are a lot and 2. there are still WIP shots in Announcements, but we'll see. In the meantime, you'll have to check out the Discord to see em. Links in my SL profile. We migrated our databases to a new host the other day. The old host had been giving us fits for a long while, from downtime to failed purchases, but the recent streak of "vendors going offline and unable to come back online if we had to reboot anything" was the last straw. New host is much more robust than the old one - you'll notice this in faster purchase times, and if vendors need to reboot, they'll come back up faster. In addition, we'll be able to add item descriptions again! We weren't able to have these for quite a while due to issues with the old host. We'll get those updated soon as we have a bit of spare time. One caveat: If you happen to have any Vouchers left over from old events (e.g. the Sweetheart vouchers from Valentine's where you choose an avatar color), those will no longer work. They need to talk to the databases & don't have the right configuration now. You can manually redeem them from Kat if you need. Similarly, any vendors that we missed updating will no longer be able to properly talk to the item servers. If you happen across a vendor that seems to be failing to deliver an item, let us know so we can update it!

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Nov 22

KatLast Friday at 5:09 PM @everyone So one of the final 4 kirins to be release is Aeterna, the avatar of Time. Here's a quick concept doodle for it. It wears a mask resembling a ram's head, and the horns are notched like a gear or cog.

For the design, I wanted something that looked aged and wise, yet still had a regal air to it. its main colors will be bronze, gold, copper, and maroon.

KatLast Friday at 8:31 PM @everyone So tonight I was approached by a fellow KZK community member and friend, with a simple request to help them troubleshoot a rig. After trial and error, a solution was found and they were well on their way toward finishing a project that had been plaguing them for weeks.

And herein lies the problem. The individual, who will remain nameless, who rigged this model, seems to have taken umbrage to me assisting.

I don't understand this mentality. I don't understand why they're upset, or why they're taking it out on the person who asked me for help.

KZK wouldn't be where it was were it not for the contributions of many before me. Everything I've learned, I learned from youtube videos, forum tutorials, and industry leaders like Michael "Orb" Vicente, most famous for his 'Orb_Cracks' brush that basically every major game studio uses these days(I'm not kidding).

Im also not afraid to admit when I'm wrong, or when I don't understand something. Years ago, I didn't know how to make good LODs, until members of this very community gave me information that made it possible.

Point I'm trying to make is, and the reason I'm posting this: If you don't know something, reach out. Its not dumb to not know something. Its dumb to not ask for help, because it just makes you look close minded and ignorant. Don't punish others for your ignorance, because the files I worked with tonight were new territory for me. I had the missing piece to the puzzle and progress was made.

Art and progress can't exist in a vacuum. There's entire generations of others who came long before you did--And there'll be plenty more to follow in your footsteps and eventually surpass you. Its why I'm always so eager to help. always eager to teach, because someone else was kind enough to teach me.

This has been your latest 'Old man shouts at clouds', brought to you by Kat who needs another cup of coffee.

KatLast Friday at 8:39 PM @everyone Also, if you're new to KZK, or not familiar with this: Sometimes a topic will come up, or something will happen that sorta.. just sets me off.

I'm 'famous', at least as far as the furry community in Second life is concerned. I could use that power for evil, but I dont. Instead I use it to try and spread a message from time to time. Today's lesson just happened to be about 'learning to learn', a subject that's always been near and dear to me.

You can ignore these kinds of posts if you want, but if you do read them, Please take them either with a grain of salt, or to heart. up to you. Its just important for me to raise awareness for issues like this from time to time.

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Nov 24

KatLast Sunday at 1:57 AM @everyone Kinda dawned on me tonight that I wanted to make a channel where I could post updates and teasers to ongoing projects too minor/frequent to place into announcements(I don't like sending too many too often).

So, I've added a new channel to the General tab, called #teasers-and-wips. Reactions are enabled, but replies are disabled--you can share feedback in #general chat. Enjoy!

KatLast Sunday at 5:25 AM @everyone My progress for today on the Aeterna Kirin. I've got the rings already modelled, just need to uv unwrap them and get them baked out once I get some sculpted detail onto them. Then its on to the floaty bits of fabric, which should go quickly, and lastly a new set of fur assets to make this old soul look wiry and wise. I'm particularly tickled with the skull so far. While definitely not true to a goat's skull, as intended, I much prefer the visage this design gives and I hope you all do too!

The skull and horns (and all other parts), will be static(with a bento alternative tail included, per the norm), so you'll be free to rip everything apart and repurpose it as your heart desires!

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Nov 25

KatLast Monday at 6:16 PM @everyone Progress on the Aeterna is probably 95% at this point. The skin/body textures in use are not final(jsut using the chocolate textures so its not solid white), and I still gotta add the belly scales and make the asset for the maroon fabric hanging from the rings all over. I'm pretty stoked with how these hair assets came out. Also fun little side effect, when you remove the mask/horns, it looks like a cool kirin/zebra witch doctor kinda, so hey, some modding potentiall there for people.

Bonus: No mask

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Nov 27

KatYesterday at 3:37 AM @everyone Hey reminder that there's a snazzy new #teasers-and-wips channel where I post progress on upcoming projects! I've been posting my recent progress on the Nova, complete with some behind the scenes showing how I create assets that contribute to larger items. Its good fun!

KatYesterday at 4:35 AM @everyone At this moment, we're performing some server migration for our databases(We've got backups this time I promise!), so purchasing will be unavailable.

For those curious, we've had many vendors crashing and not coming back online in recent months. We originally suspected this to be a Second Life issue but it traced back to recent changes our host made, effectively crippling our servers.

We're migrating to a new host, and internal testing has already shown faster purchases, vendor boots, and the restoration of a long missing feature, item descriptions!!

We'll give the all clear once migration is done.

KatYesterday at 7:20 AM @everyone It is 7:15 in the morning, and Flame and I have powered through the night (although this is his day), to chase down a MYRIAD of issues that have been plaguing our system for the last several years. The crashing and failure to boot was definitely the nail in the coffin So this had to happen sooner or later.

BUT! We're ..technically code orange. The migration is complete, and as of the time of this writing, only the MAIN STORE KZK vendors and DIREWOLF Vendors have been updated to cache to the new server.

ANY Purchases made from ANY OTHER KZK vendor WILL NOT DELIVER at this time. I will be fixing the remaining vendors grid-wide once I've gone and copped a few hours of beauty sleep. This includes all KZK Multi-category vendors, and ALL Single prim vendors besides the Direwolves.

ALSO: If you are in possession of a voucher, they will no longer deliver items! There is no way to fix these going forward besides doing a manual delivery of the desired item(in exchange for the in-tact, unused voucher). All future vouchers going forward will use the new system.

TLDR: Only kzk main vendors work in Okarthel, as well as direwolves. Everything else is still fucked and im too tired to bother. I'll deal with those in the morning(after ive slept) (any purchases made to off-site vendors will be manually redelivered tomorrow as well, so if you wanna avoid failed purchases, just use Okarthel)

Flame SoulisYesterday at 7:35 AM Do note though that vendors and vouchers will continue to be recorded. All we have to do is re-add the purchase/item redemption to the newer system and your item will deliver.

So, in short, your purchase will be recorded if purchased outside the main store. It'll just be delayed until someone can update the newer system.

KatYesterday at 8:08 PM @everyone Took all day but I think I've managed to track down all active locations. All vendors, including the single prim stuff, has been switched over. In the event you find a vendor that fails to deliver properly, please let me or blau know.

Current vendor versions are 1.94(sergal and normal), and 1.51 for the stone pillar ones.

you are now free to move about the cabin. Now if you'll excuse me, I need more coffee and food. Stupid blood sugar @-@

#kzk-dd #kzk

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thunderstruck-edgelord · 5 years

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heya mun, im doing some research and i was wondering if u have a strategy for staying in character? :0

Hm… Ok, I may have some tips but most of the time I wing it - I’ve been an active RPer for over 10 years and I have a degree in psychology, so I assume some things I do by intuition aren’t as simple for other people.

Long post because I went overboard!

First of all, having nothing more but a general idea for a character isn’t a bad thing to start from. It makes it easier to stick to the character’s core if you have a solid one. Making too many details about them before you even start the story may make them feel more artificial - like a bag of colorful and interesting puzzle pieces that don’t necessarily fit together. I tend to keep learning about the characters during half of their existence and probably this is why many writers tend to say “I’m not controlling them anymore, they’re their own character now”.

This also goes for the writing - stuffing too many details too fast about your character would make them feel overwhelming and in a way, less real, so it actually helps to keep them interesting. Less at the beginning is better, so you don’t have to focus too much on this when you start fleshing them out.

Some major questions I ask myself about the character to find their core:

what are they afraid of? my fave (small things, big things, nightmarish things; sometimes it’s things they aren’t consciously aware of)

what are the most important people in their lives? (people that shaped them, bad and good people, dead and alive people)

what are the most important situations in their lives? (one short situation that changed their view or kept them on track; a longer time span when they did something or went through something that shaped them one way or another; something that kept happening and influenced their mind etc.)

what are their dreams/goals /long-term plans? (it doesn’t have to be something like “rule the world” or “be a captain”; something simple or a general idea works too; something they would want to have in the future)

what are the things they could do in dire circumstances but wouldn’t think of it normally? (attack people, lie, sell themselves, make a deal, kill somebody, run away, fight, break the law, become somebody else, overcome their weakness or succumb to the weakness, endanger themselves to save somebody etc) and why?

what are the things they would never do or doing those would break them? (same) and why? (i.e. person terrified of dying would be willing to do anything to survive a “live or die” situation; a person afraid of being alone would agree to things they don’t want to do just to keep loved ones with them)

Those aren’t questions you NEED to have answers for written down before you put your character in the story - I started my small OCs just by the general feeling, name and short description. It all tends to evolve along the way and at some point, you would be able to answer those with ease. I just think it’s good to have those generally figured out if you’re going to put your characters through hell like I tend to do.

The second thing is the feeling. Feeling the character makes it easier to write them consistently. You will feel when your character does something that sounds right for them and when they’re breaking out of the character. This is the part where I personally try to get into the characters shoes and emotions as deep as possible. Using mood boards, doodles, older notes, playlists (half of my feeling the character comes from making playlists for all of them) or whatever else helps you to get into their shoes would make it much easier to write their reactions and thoughts in character. Sometimes it’s a hard and overwhelming thing to do because some chapters are extremely stressful for the characters and I tend to feel that too.

It’s generally hard to describe because everybody feels and interprets those things differently and gets into the shoes of the character in a different way. But for instance, let’s take one general feeling a character has when I think about them: anger.

No angry character is similar to the other angry characters. One is burning with righteous fury but beneath all this fire there’s emptiness of doubt. Other can be using anger to cover something else - like broken trust or fear. Somebody else might be angry all the time out of jealousy or a generalized feeling of being alone against the world. Yet another one is angry at himself and showing this is a form of self-punishment.

For me, getting the feeling right is extremely important because then I can work on different flavors of that feeling and slowly make it evolve into something else as the story progresses - no jumping from feeling to feeling, only evolving.

Additionally, if you have a LOT of ideas for your character and situations they may be in, write them down. All of them. Even the shortest ones like a sentence or a simple reaction. Bear in mind that you won’t use at least half of those - and that’s fine. You wrote them when the character was at a different point so when the time for those awesome ideas comes, don’t be afraid to change them drastically or to even scrap them. But it’s good to have those written down in case you want to remember how you felt about the character at the beginning.

Talking about a character or showing them to other people is something that also helps. It could be a friend with whom you discuss the story or characters. It could be an ask blog where people can harass your characters with questions you wouldn’t come up with and you try to answer those consistently. It could be also writing some small parts of the story just for your own amusement. You don’t have to actually ask for critique or whether the character is consistent in somebody else’s mind (there might be some spoilery things you want to avoid after all!) - this is mostly for you to see the ideas in words instead of having them only in your mind.

Keeping things in mind and mulling over them sometimes isn’t enough. Having your ideas written, spoken or drawn allows you to look at them differently and additional questions your friends have might help you to come up with ideas how to keep the character consistent while solving a certain situation.

Lastly, because this is getting extremely long… Don’t stuff too much into them at once. I don’t mean you cannot make them a genius beautiful orphaned rich athlete with determination to fix the world or at least their closest surrounding that has many many friends that would die for them along the way (I’m looking at you, Batman). But it all happened over time, right? Allowing your character to actually have a few breaths between life-changing or relationship-altering events makes it easier to keep track of the changes they’re going through.

Unless you want to hit them hard with all you’ve got at once, then go for it! Break your child and build it up from the ashes again ;)

This all is extremely biased and from experience I know some things work for me but don’t necessarily work for other people, but I hope that helps!

Cheers!

#asks #mun answers #anonymous #long post #writing advice #i think???#hope it helps #I'm really winging it after all this time #i am also very eager to discuss characters and their motivations #so when in doubt my PM is usually open!

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lpfreakification · 5 years

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*clears throat* ladies + gentlemen, it's that time of the night again

No, not counting the remaining slices left to sell XD its another round of "wtf am i doing w/ my life?"

Art Wise:

Inconsistent. All over the place. Structureless. I have so many, if not, too many ideas + barely any energy. I keep complaining about so many unfinished wips. Atm, poses. Pages + pages full of poses + flour sacks in the doodle notebook. No matter how many i've made, i still feel unsatisfied. Dont get me wrong, they look good BUT the approaches dont give me that sense of fulfillment. Flour sacks, skeletons, basic shapes. Just... f***. Maybe this all depends on my mood too :(

Animation Wise:

A standstill :( i never did finish my "Nap 2 Hype" lip sync animation. I had other ideas as animating my OC, Trance to dance in place to study animating w/ proportions. Ceased bcuz of details (despite completing the hardest part: hair). I had an idea last weekend about animated Instagram Stories. Nope. Attempted but never came out the way i wanted :(

Job Hunting Wise:

... *sighs* i have completed + finalized thy resume... yet im hesistant. Not bcuz of future rejection. It's bcuz of leaving my comfort zone. I do have bursts or days that i wanna get my life sorted out. It worked but for a short period of time b4 i lose that spark + it all crumbles back down again X( i'm also afraid that wherever im sending my resume to, theyll be positions that doesn't match my interests or doesnt feel fulfilling. Im really scared of that last part.

Pizza Job Wise:

Now the notso-friendly coworker's gone, i'm working with people i like working w/ over the weekend. My fear @ work: becoming what i hated the most (the notso-friendly coworker). I'm trying so hard not to be like her + work w/ my weekend coworkers to establish a good team dynamic. I got Tuesdays down >:) need to work on Thursday's. Im not counting that stupid Bears game last Thursday. It'll be a fresher start. I'm nervous bcuz i dont wanna f*** this up that theyll hate me for being strict/mean or do nothing like the notso-friendly coworker did. I wouldnt call this a promotion or becoming"head honcho" as these two Tuesday regulars called it. I'll just think of it as more character development :P

House Wise:

Alone, lonely at times. I am often home alone throughout the day, whether its work or days off. Talking to siblings is scary bcuz i try so hard to either agree w/ them or say something w/o sounding dumb +/or often get ignored. Siblings have their own path + me tagging along apparently holds them back in some way. What i hate the most rn is talking down on each other. *gets choked up* at work, we're all positive bcuz we work so well together. Here at home... its a competition on who'll succeed the most. "Get a job! Get a job!" *tears up* throughout my college years i've been told that. Even after college + 2 years of serving pizzas, i'm still being told that. They never let me go on my own pace. I did so when i got the pizza job.

Parents Wise:

Eh... meh for mom + highly concerned for dad. Mom's been out + about to "church" almost every day. She believes the more she prays, the more good will become of us. I say its a little like the opposite. No mom = no food = starving, especially on work days. It's a little our fault too since idk how to cook that well. My excuses: too time consuming, laziness, saving strength + energy for work. Then again, i'm taking full advantage of Mom while i still live in this house. The dad, however, not in the best shape :( he was involved in a nearby collision that bruised up his right arm pretty good. Though he's okay + he'll settle this in court, i'm worried about his overall physical health *head aches* i have all these ideas of what he can do + when but doesnt act upon it... i feel guilty of this too. If he doesnt +/or we dont do something by his birthday in November, the thoughts of worse things will increase. It's a rough year for him...

Kickboxing Wise:

Really good! I always think that i'm my own superhero + training to become one. I've been going more in the mornings to help eat breakfast, which i struggle w/. I've established a routine to eat a bowl full of yogurt w/ sliced almonds, dark chocolate granola, + caramel drizzle. I eat that between 8 AM to 9:15 AM, leave the house at 10 AM, arrive at around 10:30 AM, + stretch b4 class at 11 AM. Monday was fun bcuz i punched quite hard during freestyle. It was something i never knew i needed that day but it worked! There are days that i cant give it my all bcuz of lack of energy, the music selection is meh, +/or everything's fine in my life atm. What i like about the morning class is the instructor's number one thing to work on: technique. Do i have fun? Yes! Is it easy? No! As long as i feel good at the end, that'll satisfy me well!

Wrapping Up:

Ok its 1:30 AM rn. I left my medicine in the kitchen. I need to get that. The headache's killing me rn. I did drink 2 strawberry coladas watching IT Chapter 2. Welp, let's do this. In the meantime, Nite Y'all!

#life

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jackaccletonfutureworks · 7 years

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DD2000 - Research blog for a path into industry

Portfolios and their importance

Now before we even get to the building up to our chosen job and how we get there we have to talk about arguably the first and most important step when going into any industry, a good portfolio.

A portfolio in definition is according to many sources such as google, the oxford dictionaries and the free dictionary

a set of pieces of creative work intended to demonstrate a person's ability to a potential employer.

Example: "she had a portfolio of crayon portraits"

now reading the definition you should get an idea as to why a portfolio is quite the important tool in any industry but allow me to elaborate, a portfolio usually contains all of your best and well presented work that you wish to show off to a future employer in the hopes that it will impress them enough to consider you for the role available and hire you into it.

Even if that doesnt happen they are important tools for ensuring people dont soon forget you, if its good enough your employer might talk to his co-workers about it and the work that was in it, might recommend you to other companies and give you an easy-ish way into the industry, not only that but if its up online somewhere it can allow none industry people to view it and get invested in the work you do, get invested in your ideas and anything to do with them and begin to support you and want more of your work which is hard to ignore from people in the industry.

But an important part of a portfolio is to make sure it fits the job role, its nice that its all neatly presented and stunning work but if your going for a modelling job and bring in cool doodles of swords instead they will more than likely enjoy them but dont cross your fingers for the job or even being well remembered in a good way.

Now lets take that Modeling job as an example, if your looking into that job there are some things that would work well in your Porfolio

What to include generally

Some well constructed and unique models to show your skill, talent and creativity. Make sure to have beauty shots (Three angles) a Uv render (Shows off the uv maps of the models showing you do know how to Map and texture) and a wireframe

some more bland models that everyone has but it shows you can model things of this type, guns, corridors things like that

all of the work should be finished and if not it should be a w.i.p showing of how the model developed or something you are working on recently and wish to say “this is my latest project”

Portfolio : About myself

Every portfolio for every job must be different and suited for the job role your looking to invest into. Now my portfolio will have me looking into narrative design so there are some things i do need to include when constructing mine and things i need to look out for

What i should include

Well written stories of varying length and style as well as on different matters and subjects to give a quick look at the range i can write at and my ability with different styles and topics

Character development if possible, Original character, fan characters and things like that, let people in the industry see the work and love put into them and how you created them from the ground up, even include the most trivial detail if needed it will show how i think about even the smallest things for characters and bring them to life

Same applies for world building, show worlds you crated and the living breathing atmosphere they have, show off head canons and theories about already made worlds if you wish

Show dialogue and scripts made, this includes roleplaying and back and forth between characters of your own and friends

Work done that is not narrative directly but does still link to it

Any writing done for games, this includes small projects and twine games

Now what have i done to go towards this portfolio as of writing this?

I have written many short stories and poems some better than others i cannot lie however i tend to struggle sometimes with motivation in writing longer tales if they are not split into parts either via working time or as part 1, part 2 etc, 3 twine games which could be improved but stand at a decent enough quality and i do intend to create more, have an entire blog built for role playing (character creation and building, dialogue, world building) this is where i let alot of my ideas roam free as well as some of my more out there character traits, this character has spawned off into his own story and world view from a character that had nothing to start with, he has spawned countless side characters and alternate realities surrounding him and all of them have their own stories and worlds not to mention many pieces of college work.

All of these very important in the portfolio especially for the job role im looking to enter.

General Examples of both good and bad portfolio's

Networking

Networking is in short terms the connections you make with people be them big or small, it forms a web coming from you of connections you made. If you meet David and David knows Susan but you dont know Susan, she is still now in your web of networking due to knowing David.

Networking is important to the industry at it is a key way to get into the industry and get yourself known to people, without the links to people it would be almost impossible to get a way into the industry without directly going up to someone and asking for a job or applying yourself.

Networking can also offer unexpected help from people inside the industry through simply talking to them.

But how can networking help my career path into a narrative games career?

More importantly what kinds of networking could help my cause?

Well the obvious one to start off in narrative would be social media, its a great place to store and write small stories or tales and build character/worlds. It is also perfect for getting your small tales out to a large audience of people very quickly.

Take tumblr for example, its blogging allows for quick short stories or grand giant multi-post tales to be re-blogged , twitter is also a good example here as many industry insiders use twitter and could be a great way to share your narrative ideas and work with them to get feedback and make yourself known to them

It is also a prime location to show off portfolio w.i.p work and gain interest in what else is inside your portfolio both from regular people and industry insiders which could lead to job offers or simply having you in mind when a place does come up

Another prime example would be Game conventions, they allow for examination of upcoming games as well as series of games with over arching stories as well as the idea of communication with industry insiders as well as games media about games and your general idea. It could also provide you with skills and much needed tips if your willing to buy some people a beer. Game designers are just people like you and me so most of them have no issue sitting down to talking.

There are a few that take place here in the UK :

EGX - EGX is a British made Gaming Convention sponsored by Virgin media and s currently set to take place in the Birmingham NEC arena on the 21st -24th of September

Play Expo - Play Expo is a British games convention set in Manchester England at event city.

There is one that comes to mind and does take place in the US

Ludem Dare - Ludem Dare is a game jam hosted this year in San Francisco that gives people a theme and 24/48 hours to create a game, this allows people in the industry to see how people work under a tight deadline and the quality of games they can create with minimal information. It also allows for the people involved to brush up on their skills or develop new ones.

Well i say one but you cant talk US and game gatherings without mentioning

E3 - E3 is a yearly multi company convention in which the biggest games are shown and revealed and many of the gaming industries top professionals visit to give their games that needed star power, a place like this is perfect to ask questions, build connections and show off work you had done in hopes of making an impression

One important thing to know about networking overall however is that you should never be afraid to talk to someone or ask questions to them, they are not some untouchable idol who will simply scoff at you, they are infact just as human as you are and i imagine they they have trouble talking to a person from time to time. Plus there is only things to gain instead of things to lose

The Ideal Work Place/Key Companies In My Field

When it comes to an ideal work place that generally comes down to preference, some might want to work for Bethesda, maybe you want to work for EA but this is in general terms which company would be the best suited for the field i would like to enter

The first company that instantly jumps put for narrative focused games would be tell tale who have generally been known to create heavily emotional narrative focused point and click/episodic games based on existing IP’s such as The walking dead, borderlands and game of thrones

https://telltale.com/ - 4000 Civic Center Dr, San Rafael, CA 94903, USA

https://telltale.com/jobs/

As of this moment in time they are only looking for a senior writer in the job field i wish however that doesnt mean i cant apply for another job they are in need of to work my way into a writing position for example they are always looking for q/a testers so using that i can wiggle into a narrative design or writer role by suggesting things that could improve the story experience or helping with the writing of scripts and dialogue.

An issue with telltale however is it is hard to single out a game from their library as more narrative focused or important than any other, walking dead offers a dark saddening take on the world where every option and choice you make will have an impact later. This is in stark contrast to say tales from the borderlands which yes does have a similar choices matter mentality however the story in that game is less serious and grim and more light hearted and lovely.

With tell-tale they cover so much ground in their narrative focused games its hard to single one of them out alone

Not a company that comes to mind when thinking of narrative but one that i would enjoy a job at would be gearbox, they are mainly known for creating the borderlands franchise and as of now are in the process of making the third game . Their narratives tend to be somewhat serious but have a lighthearted tone to them with alot of dirty humor.

Borderlands and its sequels probably are the most notable games they have created and do narrative in an inventive way in that it is both serious yet not at all serious at the same time i mean....the planet your on is in grave danger from a tyrant hell bent on wiping life as you know it off the planet with an alien doom weapon, but at the same time the villian mocks you with such childish insults and sarcastic nonsense its hard to take it seriously, even more so with some of the side missions like “shot this guy in the faace” which is exactly as it sounds.

http://www.gearboxsoftware.com/ - 5757 Main St, Frisco, TX 75034, USA

http://www.gearboxsoftware.com/careers/

Gearbox software have an odd internship program that allows people of all skill levels to join and it is called the cogs program, in their own words the cogs program is

“The COGS program at Gearbox Software is designed for future game developers to get a chance to start their careers by becoming embedded with the veteran, professional developers at our world-class video game development studio and actually contribute to a commercial video game project. It’s the real deal. This is the foot in the door. This is the chance to prove yourself.

The COGS program differs from a traditional internship because Gearbox Software will actually pay you during your time at the studio. What?! Did you read that right?! Yes, we’re going to pay you to prove yourself. We must be nuts.But forget about us being nuts for a minute – the COGS program is as real as Clap Trap’s malfunctioning artificial personality.

COGS stands for Contractors of Gearbox Software – you will get a contract and it will say that you have become an actual, official, paid professional inside the studio that is home of Borderlands, Duke Nukem, Brothers in Arms, Homeworld, Battleborn, and Randy Pitchford’s flamboyant shirts. The contract terms can be for as little as three months or as long as a year, depending on the timing and the role. During that time you’ll get free soda. Also during that time you’ll contribute to a real commercial product at our AAA development studio earning valuable experience and credit that will not merely be rewarding and insanely gratifying, but will also set-you-up to be very valuable and sought after by the industry. And there’s free snacks to wash down with the soda. Did I already mention the soda? It’s a cool deal.”

quote directly from here

This is all to simply prove if you deserve a job or not

Key people in my field

http://www.evanskolnick.com/games

His portfolio is rather well put together and lists all of his skills and accomplishments as well as any and all of the projects he has worked on it also seems to show his wide range of work as he has taken part in narrative roles on project such as mafia 3 which is full of gore and racial angles and tension to the kid friendly hi-jinks filled over the hedge game and movie.

This is a portfolio i should keep an eye on and learn from

https://twitter.com/evanskolnick?lang=en

Evan Skolnick is an american born writer who has previous worked on marvel comics as a lead writer and now has jumped into narrative video game design, his most recent project/job being the walking dead : a new frontier by telltale which makes him a key player not only in my field but a company based solely around the field i wish to work in

has a book out called : video game story telling, what every developer needs to know about narrative techniques

the description of the book and what it may offer

“With increasingly sophisticated video games being consumed by an enthusiastic and expanding audience, the pressure is on game developers like never before to deliver exciting stories and engaging characters. With Video Game Storytelling, game writer and producer Evan Skolnick provides a comprehensive yet easy-to-follow guide to storytelling basics and how they can be applied at every stage of the development process—by all members of the team. This clear, concise reference pairs relevant examples from top games and other media with a breakdown of the key roles in game development, showing how a team’s shared understanding and application of core storytelling principles can deepen the player experience. Understanding story and why it matters is no longer just for writers or narrative designers. From team leadership to game design and beyond, Skolnick reveals how each member of the development team can do his or her part to help produce gripping, truly memorable narratives that will enhance gameplay and bring today’s savvy gamers back time and time again.“

Edwin McRae isnt noteworthy due to the work he has done, though he has worked on many smaller titles and mobile games as a narrative designer and world builder. He is more notable due to his constant advice and tutorials on how to become a better narrative designer and how to build a living breathing world from scratch

He too like Evan has a book or two to be purchased and read which can be found here : https://www.edmcrae.com/books-and-comics.cfm

Another good narrative designer to take a look at would be Daniel Dick, he describes himself as follows

“ I'm a Narrative Director & Writer with over 15 years of industry experience creating, building, and implementing successful narratives (including multiple AAA titles). I also recently designed a narrative design and game writing course for the University of British Columbia's Creative Writing Program.”

Some notable projects he has worked on include

★ DEUS EX: MANKIND DIVIDED Narrative Director Eidos Montreal ★ HOMEWORLD: DESERTS OF KHARAK Narrative Director BBI / Gearbox ★ SPEC-OPS Lead Narrative Designer & Writer Rockstar Vancouver ★ BULLY Narrative Designer & Writer Rockstar Vancouver ★ SOCOM: TACTICAL STRIKE Lead Writer & Narrative Designer Slant Six / Sony ★ SOCOM: FIRETEAM BRAVO 3 Lead Writer & Narrative Designer Slant Six / Sony ★ NEED FOR SPEED & SSX Story Consultant & Contract Writer Electronic Arts ★ TREASURE PLANET Game Designer & Writer Barking Dog / Disney ★ THE DAMASCUS LETTER: A Spy Novel Author Finalist for the AMAZON BREAKTHROUGH NOVEL AWARD in 2011.

His portfolio on Linkden is also very well put together and will have to keep an eye on this one as well

https://www.linkedin.com/in/danieldick/

The skills i need

When it comes to narrative design in general there are certain skills you will need when entering the field.

Atleast basic knowledge on pacing and tone to a story, you cant have characters fighting an epic war then suddenly 2 seconds later have a clown filled tea party only to mourn their friends for a solid hour or two after that, it kills both the tone your going for and pacing. Keep it balanced and consistent

Understand character and world building, it good to create a world or character but if they are blank slates of boring with a side of boring pie then no one will care.

To create a breathing living world you must think about every detail and bit of history, what does this town do for the world, why is this ruin here, where do these enemies live etc. However be careful as you cannot make a game with backstory and word building alone and people do not want to have to sit through hours of lore.

Characters are harder to build, they can have preset fears and goals and motivations and even backstories however alot of the time they need to grow alongside the player and inside the events of your narrative. If a character loses something precious to them show it, if they are tried from a long battle show it, if they have been beaten badly and took a massive hit to their pride again show it to the player and in the character.

Script/dialogue writing skills and understanding what goes into creating them. Make sure every bit of dialogue fits who it is meant for perfectly and try to avoid repetition if possible. Ensure scripts are clear to read for the voice actors

Ability to take critique and improve from it, maybe someone thinks a certain aspect of your narrative is a bit off and wants to give feedback, it would be your job to take that feedback in and maybe change the narrative a bit to fit it.

Interpersonal skills, do you really think your going to be working alone....yeah no it doesnt work like that as you will be with a team of writers more than likely who will be throwing in ideas into this world or character and trying to make them perfect. Listen to what they have to say and work with them. Plus you will be working with other departments, maybe the environment designer needs specific dialogue for a fire area and you need to take a look at the area to gauge what kind of dialogue to fit into it, Maybe the character designer needs help figuring out how this character might speak and what they could even say

You have to have the ability to understand the genre of what it is your writing, cant have a kid friendly platformer suddenly have sexual jokes and decapitations now can we?

Organization in your writing is a good skill to possess as well as good motivation skills and time management

My work and evaluating it/General Evaluation

Now that i have mentioned the skills needed and the work i have done it is time to evaluate it bit by bit and see if i meet the standards set above and if not how can i achieve them from where i am now

My work

Short stories and poems tend to come to me in the moment and usually come from my already made characters, existing characters from movies/tv/games or from some random idea i had in my mind. However as mention before they tend to be a one time thing and rarely branch out and become longer, any longer story usually gets forgotten about due to motivational or memory issues even if broken into parts (For example i got 5 parts into a dark souls 3 story before forgetting it and never really going back to continue it). If i wish to get into narrative i need to work on long stories

The few twine games i have made so far are at a time where i have minimal knowledge of twine and one of them i cannot add to my porfolio due to content inside it. They are not nearly to the standard they could or should be and i should spend time completing and working on them to put them at the level i believe they could be.

The blog is personally my proudest bit of writing, i started the blog with a charcter based on an ingame mario enemy that had no backstory or anything, no personifcation or even personality. I took this enemy and gave it life and a soul, gave it wants and needs and fears and a personality, it has goals and a past now and as said has spawned countless Alternate worlds and ideas from it due to the story i have told with him. However alot of the writing tends to be very informal and dailouge based and the blog also has some informal and silly content to go through, will need to isolate the writing from this blog to show on the portfolio

As said he has spawned countless characters off of himself, from a sweet gentle shy king, to an evil dominating tyrant, a lonely yet wise last of his kind hunter, a sickening horrific yet lovable spider hybrid creature, a shy 1 limbed mechanic looking into necromancy to power his robotics to be honest this is stuff to include in the portfolio however it mention it here as no matter how many characters i do have i should continue to add more to the mix and develop them every chance i get to do so.

Skills and myself overall

In terms of skills i would like to atleast believe i own some of the needed skills for my job role, a basic understanding of pacing and tone, world and character building experience as well as interpersonal skills and abilities. Perhaps i do struggle a small amount with critique as sometimes it dont learn or go back to redo what is told of me.

Out side of skills to myself in general im a generally approachable and creative guy who could keep tensions low and ensure that everyone in the company is keeping themselves happy and destressed, i would also like to believe im willing to advance and learn even if it is painful.

But to evaluate you have to speak of the bad too, which is sometimes i can be very unmotivated and avoid/put off work for as long as possible even if i understand and know i have work. I can also get frustrated easilly with things that i cannot do or do not understand, if i wish to advance in my industry i willl need to put these under lock and key

My path into industry due to what i have found here

Due to the information i have found here there are a few paths into industry i can take

i can look for a indie or triple A developer looking for a q/a tester and work into the company from there offering the skills i do have to help construct the game and help any struggling member of the team during my none working hours, this iwll show them my previously obtained skills and allow them to remember me above all the other Q/A testers thus getting a foot in the door

I could also use my Voice acting talent and get in through that, voice a character and offer changes and help to the script as well as developing the character which again gives me a foot into the door.

another option is to wiggle into games journalism, this way i can write about and meet many developers as well as play some of the hottest games before anyone else and offer my opinion on them and what could be changed.

#FWDD2000

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floramodus-archive · 7 years

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==> Flora: Confess

floramodus raddddia i know im like

floramodus half hammered and the past 24 hours hasnt helped me much as a mentally stable individual but you know what? fuck it man i love you and not in a friend way though you are! one of my closest friends i just i love you alot romantically youre a hellfire in the arctic and i love you

tlmetravel im sure you think you do, sweets its the alcohol im not angry at you for relapsing, as a side reminder for later need help sobering up?

floramodus i need help for you to take me serious for once.

tlmetravel i am

tlmetravel im very serious about you needing to sober up

floramodus im already half sober because dean hasnt let me have anymore since he got home the point is: im not saying anything because im drunk. im not clinging to you because im drunk. i just had to watch my fiancee die, again, in full detail. im not saying these things out of of my ass, aradia, i love you.

tlmetravel you had to see that? on valentines day?

floramodus i made a choice to find the answer and i did, timing aside.

tlmetravel im proud of you for it im also sorry you had to see it oh, my poor girl, how you must feel happiness absent so strongly

floramodus ///I HATE HER MOIRA

tlmetravel //:)c

floramodus your avoiding the main topic and at this point i want dean to leave so i can go get moonshine because whats the point aradia. whats the point in dancing around it instead of telling me cold turkey? what do you gain from seeing me falter

tlmetravel im not trying to dance around it so much as give you the opportunity to take it back once youre more clear headed

floramodus thats almost painfully hilarous?

tlmetravel why is that?

floramodus because once again you arent taking me serious and i knew it would be this way for months. i knew sober or drunk youd find a way to make me regret speaking

tlmetravel im sorry if i have im just not sure what you want me to say

floramodus is it worth pursueing or am i barking up the wrong tree?

tlmetravel you have such a penchant for making yourself unhappy youve already dealt with enough serious, life altering topics think you might want to give it a rest before tackling this one give yourself a break

floramodus love in general? or love with you?

tlmetravel love in general is life altering

floramodus guess what! cock a doodle do my life is altered always! thats how we exist! thats how we keep sane! if you want to say no thanks than do it aradia ive been through worse.

tlmetravel you have thats why im not letting you have this discussion right now or make it into something trivial this is a battle for another day go to bed, flo

floramodus im not sleeping till you give me an answer i can sleep with

tlmetravel you are so endlessly cruel to yourself

floramodus i can sit on this couch all night and all day and die again and gain radia.

tlmetravel you do realize youre just proving my point

floramodus i dont care ///i typed that so loud every dog in my moms house just went off

tlmetravel regardless, im not what youve mistaken me for, flo im just happy and i think you just want to be happy too you have the right to be, at any rate //fck

floramodus just say it ///FUCK THEI R SCREAMING AND I PRESSED ENTER BUT ANYWAY

tlmetravel are you really so deluded as to think that just because /you/ dont care, the rest of us get a free pass as well? that well turn a blind eye to your safety breaches just because you throw a tantrum? you have /got/ to stop doing this to yourself you have /got/ to stop treating your life and everything in it with this kind of dangerous levity so no! you arent getting an answer! youre not getting anything until you tuck yourself in and let yourself /rest/ before taking on any more

floramodus ///I THOUGHT THat said fuck

tlmetravel //let dolly say fyck

floramodus well i guess this couch will be cozy while i sit here awake for as long as it takes

tlmetravel you will Not use your well-being as emotional blackmail not against me dave might let you and the rest of your friends might but you dont get to press on my moral values because /i have none/ and you will sit, and you will rot, and it will be for nothing at all

floramodus ///tfw aradia even makes me, the mun, feel like a piece of shit i love her

tlmetravel until you realize its pointless and let yourself out of this cage youve built out of whatever survivors guilt you brought back with you

tlmetravel //shes amoral and ppl forget and I love

floramodus you may have no moral values but ill tell you what i have thats less than that? the fucks i give about my place in the universe. i spent 7 years of my life questioning my existence to lose that existence and you know? i dont fucking care anymore. my life is mine to burn ///i like how u posted that and i sent the same screenshot 2 seconds earlier to joseph cause im living

tlmetravel //do u know how. pissed shed be at dave if she knew he let her go through w those amputation experiments? not v much bc shes incapable of being angry at him but shed Want to be and I,

floramodus ///asdfghjk

tlmetravel you dont get to play with fire just because you dont know what to do with yourself. you dont get to use your own life as a punching bag for your whims you dont get to keep expecting for these bridges to go up in flames when so many of us love you you dont get to look at love and call us stupid

floramodus i never even said any of you were stupid

tlmetravel then why do you keep treating us like we are

tlmetravel like well let this slide if youre loud enough

floramodus im not treating you guys anymore than the best i can ! its not my fault you take my life so personal! what do expect of me? to sit in a goddamn corner and suckle vitamins for the rest of my immortal days?

tlmetravel youre our /friend/! itll always be personal for us

tlmetravel wed destroy anyone who hurt you but, to our great despair, the only one keen on hurting you is /you/

floramodus im not hurting myself im doing what nature and common sense dictate

tlmetravel oh thats rich no, you are purposely doing what hurts you the most out of whatever misguided sense of survivors guilt but guess what none of it will make you feel better and it sure as Hell doesnt make us feel good

floramodus guess fucking what! the clouds told me bec lives! im doing something right with my life! even if i have to cleave my goddamn skull in!!! two!!!

tlmetravel youre making accomplices out of innocent people by not letting them help

floramodus you arent scientists. you arent magicians.

tlmetravel you are actively tying their hands behind their back because they love you too much to tell you any of this i dont care, flora and i dont pretend to and i wont pretend to just the same as you so blatantly dont care about /my/ good friend, i dont care about yours i dont give a flying fuck if your dog lives

tlmetravel non gratum anus rodentum it only matters to us because it matters to you

floramodus ///the acid fucking crashed my laptop

tlmetravel and your high-brow, dr frankenstein, 'oh im a scientist you wouldnt understand' act is not pulling the wool over anyones eyes youre self destructive bec just gives you an excuse to con us out of doing anything about it //God ™

floramodus //im not responding until tumblr boots back up cause she is nuclear moira

tlmetravel //good im not saying you dont honestly care for bec im saying he also doubles as a handy excuse

floramodus so what do you expect me to fucking do. how do you expect me to react to you saying the last goal i have in life is just that, a worthless goal. do you expect me to be gratify? do you expect to graciously bow to your ancient wisdom and sit in a bumbo and learn how to be "healthy" again for the sake of comfort.

tlmetravel yes

floramodus your goddamn right im self destructive i wont hesitant to tear my self apart for any goal worth it what are you gonna do about it? be content your fucking right? humanity believe a nuclear bomb would kill us all but that didnt stop them and it wont stop me

tlmetravel or you could just treat yourself as a tool, a means to an end, because god forbid you see yourself as a person, because you /know/ deep down that how you treat yourself? isnt how you should treat a person humanity really isnt the pinnacle of reason nor does humanity interest me, were talking about /you/

floramodus im human in theory but guess what? im not a person. im a god, a means of survival

tlmetravel does that flawed rhetoric make you sleep at night at least? because i really wish it would

tlmetravel because its good for absolutely /nothing/ else

floramodus i wasnt put on this earth to be comfortable ive been living in gunpowder since i was 6

tlmetravel you really dont want to start a sob story competition with me trust me you know why id be afraid, if you did love me?

floramodus despite my urge to tell you to shove it back in the textbook you crawled out of ill play your game. why

tlmetravel because youd put me above yourself and im historically against pedestals its a frightening thing to love someone who would damn herself in a second without looking over her shoulder death doesn't just happen to you, icarus, it happens to everyone around you your wounds are not just your own though they sting you most

floramodus icarus had one life. i have infinity

tlmetravel i dont care each one of your lives is as precious to us as if it were your last just because you /can/ doesnt mean you /should/ by all means, go on with this madness, tear yourself limb for limb if your heart is really in it just dont expect me to be quiet about it in fact, place no expectations on me at all hellfire, you called me hellfire, indeed

floramodus let he who has the match wick the bridge in flames

#ooc #logs archived #long /#blood /#suicide /#self harm /#gore /#drdp /?#ask to tag #plot #alcohol /#tlmetravel

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God, when you want to make a character, YOU DO IT. Can you talk a little about your process? Where you got the idea for Mother of Pearl, your jasper ame fusion, etc? Whenever you make them, you go by theme and intense detail. Ily and your art so much

thank you so much!! im gonna describe my design/headcanon process under cut because its kinda a wall of text with some pics of older versions of maxima as an example. hope this inspires and helps you!

HOO ok so like. when it comes to coming up with su ideas its like.... su is kinda my Special Interest and im so hyper-fixated on it i think about it very often, i analyze it in my head daily and i think up theories. inspiration can be everywhere, its hard to explain because often ideas just pop into my head... but the general process can be broken down to this:

1. idea. with the mothers it all started when i was wondering why the gems seem to have a disdain for organic life and why pearls are so low in the hierarchy. pearls are partially organic and this sparked an idea: a sister race to gems who instead of gems has mollusk shells. they were oppressors to the gems on homeworld long ago, but eventually with birth of the first diamond the tides turned and they ended up conquered and enslaved themselves. in this part i tend to doodle elements of characters when i have an idea for sth specific already. in case of maxima her crazy hair was one of the first things i thought of and i loved it so much it stuck to the final design.

2. research. the part many can consider boring but is extremely vital. googling and reading on related subjects. in this case i looked at pearl production, read on pearls, then read on species and categories of molluscs that make pearls, etc. this part especially helps with choosing themes and the general shape of the designs. personally this part gives me the greatest amount of inspiration and where i get basic but solid ideas that tend to carry the rest of the design. i also tend to doodle things here, its like writing down ideas for design elements.

3. first draft. i finally sit down and do the first drawing of a character that will serve as a base for the next step. this part is NEVER a final design. you will never get it right the first time, and if you do you only think you did. there’s always, always room for improvement. in this part a lot of new ideas come as you work, either as happy accidents or a sudden flash of inspiration. both feel amazing but can only happen once you start working and finish this first version!

4. the never-ending polish hell. ok so i got my first draft, awesome! but i can tell this can be better. many things are off and im not happy enough with it! so i make another attempt, i look for different solutions. is the silhouette strong? is the design clear and easy enough to draw n animate? are the elements and colors in visual harmony, do they feel balanced and fit the character? if no, i work and change and think until it finally feels right. what’s also extremely important and helpful is FEEDBACK!! SHOW YOUR THINGS TO YOUR ART FRIENDS!! ASK FOR OPINIONS!! send it to anyone you think can reply with a helpful critical opinion! dont be afraid of doing this. even if you wont manage to get feedback from one person there’s always a chance another one replies and will give you a game changing opinion or will inspire you! also, especially when it comes to palettes, try different shit! if you get suggestions for color changes, try them! you dont have to keep them but its worth to see if they work! my friends give me a lot of inspiration and help me improve the designs, sometimes also opening the path to further improvements! its really vital to get someone else’s perspective on your stuff while working. this applies to all forms of art, honestly.

oh, and something important: this will take time. you sometimes have to leave a design and come back to it later, preferably after working on something else, to look at it with a fresh eye. that was the case for me with many designs, but especially the mothers. i did the first version of the gold mom at the beginning of september 2016. it took me 8 months to get her where she is now. jeez.

so, let me show you how maxima looked like before.

^ this is her first version. it has so many issues. the transparent cloth generally shouldnt overlap for one. but its also too bland and the design elements dont click together well (that collar is attached in a very bullshit way lol) and it just doesnt look interesting in general (aside from the hair. i love the hair.)

^ and heres version two i drew quite some time later. its also not too good. it doesnt feel visually balanced, the top is too heavy. and she still doesnt feel like shes golden but rather yellow. also the pattern on her dress would be hard to animate. one thing thats also interesting that her personality evolved a lot. initially she was supposed to be a cold stone bitch, lmao. but i thought with how positive su is its a better idea to make her warm inside and keep a facade created out of pressure.

^ and heres version 3 which already is reminiscent of her final look. i was happy with the visual balance and the outfits elements felt mostly right. i ended up polishing this version. i made plenty of palettes for it and simplified some things, also made changes to some shapes (the shell and wavy fabric)

you know whats another really important step? 5. amaet for fucks sake stop polishing this and post it already this can literally go on forever

i still would make changes to her. i hate this feeling when i post it and i immidiately get ideas on how to improve or change it. in this case id try removing her collar thing to make her wondrous hair shape more visible. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#hoo boy i didnt even realize my process is consistent until i wrote it out #faq #artdigy #vox populi

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cinder-timber · 7 years

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i tried doing this on my phone and i got all the way to 75 before it didn’t save and now i have to redO ALL OF IT ON MY LAPTOP

but also im gonna answer these in 50 increments, just so there’s not a hug wall of text that takes forever to get through.

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?

my mom probably

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

shy. but ask me questions and stuff and im ok

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

anyone at this point. and by anyone there’s only like three people i even want to see

4. Are you easy to get along with?

i’d like to think so. I’m pretty chill, go with the flow. Sometimes too chill but you know. don’t wanna rock the boat

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

probably not

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

physical doesn’t really matter that much to me. I just like people who talk to me nicely. Like i’m a person. And who I can laugh with

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Zuma. Being a good doodle

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

not at all. You can talk to me in excruciating detail and im alright

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

idk i haven’t had a good, deep conversation in a long time. I really need one. But i’d probably say zuma, cause I talk to him the most so.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Okedoke” to my mom

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

idk im kinda in a music slump right now. I need some new stuff

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Y.E.S. people do not do it enough

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

yea

15. What good thing happened this summer?

i… went places. idk man there’s too many days between summer and now. I always enjoy visiting the dork

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

i have no past people kissed

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

yea

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

no. he’s a real piece of shit. i hope he’s grown up a bit, even though he’s older than me

19. Do you like bubble baths?

yea. but not a super long time

20. Do you like your neighbors?

eh they alright. dont talk to them much

21. What are you bad habits?

I have… a lot. The one I’ve had for the longest and do almost all the time is chewing/biting. Nails, lip, necklaces, phone cases. I chew on anything near my mouth

22. Where would you like to travel?

anywhere right now tbh. im so sick of my apartment

23. Do you have trust issues?

a bit

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

i dont have much of a routine. I guess feeding my fish. It’s amusing, helping him find his food

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

a lot of it, tbh. there’s like three things im not uncomfortable with

26. What do you do when you wake up?

stay in bed. check my phone. go over what i need to do in my head, several times

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

dont care

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

Zuma. Sibling. My dog. That’s about it

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i don’t have any ex’s. But if I did, I doubt that’d be a thing

30. Do you ever want to get married?

yes but no. Like, I want to get to that level in a relationship?? like, we get there and i’d be happy with or without. I just want that love, if that makes sense

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

a little baby ponytail

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

too much effort. no thank

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

use to play soccer

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

i can’t do without music. gotta have it

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

did you mean every time I’ve liked someone?

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

nothing. or i’ll try to think of a question to ask. not small talk questions. that’s just worse

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

they love me

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

idk i really dont shop shop much. Like Hobby Lobby and Michaels. Kohls is nice but can be expensive. Toys R Us. Hot Topic occasionally

40. What do you want to do after high school?

well im in college so

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

no, it all depends on the situation. That being said, you don’t have to give someone a second chance to forgive them

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

it could mean many things. im shy. im tired. i don’t know whats going on. I’m afraid I’m going to annoy someone by speaking (usually the last one)

43. Do you smile at strangers?

yeah. i try not to do that white smile but sometimes i slip

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Space. Bottom of ocean is too spooky

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

obligations. Like school or work. Or if i made plans for that day. I usually wont get out of bed otherwise

46. What are you paranoid about?

many things. Mainly, my relationship with people. It’s gotten really bad recently. The dark. I’ve gotten better about driving at night, though I still can’t have the review mirror where i can see it. I’ve got to turn it completely away

47. Have you ever been high?

nope

48. Have you ever been drunk?

sadly, nope

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

ooohhhhhh yeah. I’d feel really guilty

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

black. i am currently wearing it

#asks #anon #jesus it still looks really long

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