#so many things so little money

[treewithabark]

Just an unnecessarily long post about dog gear I want- scroll by if you don’t want my ramble

So in feb I’m gonna have a treat yo self month because it be my birthday, and I may have a lil extra spending money from working a bunch of overtime during Christmas (I am knackered but I needed the cash and work needed my assistance)

And seeing as no-one likes buying me dog gear as Christmas/birthday gifts I’m gonna buy myself these nice things.

I wanna get Juno a lovely leather collar, nefjas person sent me a link to a German company who make elk leather collars in a martingale style??? Absolute perfection. I’ve been a sucker for martingales for a couple of years now and am reluctant to turn back.

What a delectable collar. So chic. So stylish. Fancy collar for my non-fancy mutt to strut about the town with (no flooded field walks for that collar)

Gonna pair it with a brand new cute dog tag because Juno currently wears Hana’s old one. I think after a year she’s earned her own tag, don’t you think?

Lookit!!! So cute!! It’s not Juniper tree but it’s close enough (don’t tell my partner, the tree surgeon, I said that). Would look so good with the collar.

And since my mendota lead is looking real ropey (haha, because it’s a rope?) I’m gonna treat myself to a new one. It’s served me so well but I did not look after it. Now it smells and is fraying and the leather by the clasp is loose. It just looks a mess. Love my mendota lead, don’t love that I’ve destroyed it. I did dabble with the idea of an adjustable lead but they’re all flat and I’m sorry but round leads are superior. I’m not ready to go back to flat. Mendota so comfy, mendota so röund, medota have goldish clasp to match tag and collar ring.

But do I stop the spending there?? I’ve been gagging for a ruffwear backpack but my lord £100 for a backpack??? I know it’s quality, built to last, and most importantly designed to minimise injury but it’s a rather frivolous spend.

My reasoning is that added weight to some walks may help reduce some pulling, she’s so much better but still gets excitable. It can be useful if we wanna go on longer hikes once my partner and I have time to do some weekends away. Carrying water etc. I really want to do a camping getaway at some point and having her carry her own food is adorable and practical. But also it could be useful on days where we want or need to be a bit lazier. Dog needs exercising but we’re burned out/ill? Cool, mile and a half sniffy walk with lightly packed backpack. If I wanna tire her out because we have plans and need her nice and calm? Boom, backpack walk.

Also, backpack cute. Backpack could have patches. Backpack bring joy to look at. Backpack make chronically ill days much easier.

Backpack.

Oh there’s also an adorable martingale collar on Etsy that I want. An unnecessary purchase but I so rarely find a martingale I really really like (I’m picky okay)

But there are things that I could spend my money on that is (arguably) needed more. Waterproof longline, new treat pouch, new walking boots because mine are leaky, dog toys that serve a purpose more than “it squeaks and can be thrown”. I also need a haircut and new prescription glasses but it’s more fulfilling to spend money on the dog.

GAH! Maybe I’ll win the lottery on Friday and I can buy it all. But until then I gotta budget and make informed purchases.

Anyway I just wanted to rant to the void because I usually do all this in my head but I wanna get more active on tumblr and sometimes airing these thoughts helps make decisions. And if you suddenly see me posting Juno in 4k completely decked out in new gear in the mountains? I’ve won the lottery, quit work to travel with dog that has a whole new wardrobe, captured on a top of the line point and shoot 😂

#so many things so little money #but also my February paycheque lines up perfectly with rent #long story short the way the dates line up I don’t have to use any of my feb pay to pay rent #a rare but very welcome occurrence #I’m so used to being broke but I can allocate myself a lil bit of spending money to get at least the top three things #but the backpack would be completely frivolous #i do have an Amazon voucher from my mother for Christmas and I could use it to cover some of the cost if I order through there #she doesn’t have to know that I still used Christmas money on dog things #and at this point I’m sure she knows I do it

[money-and-dandellions]

adding on the silly headcanon, Lester has permanent tremor in his hands which gets worse when he is stressed

he is stressed most of the time, which makes it even harder to do anything

it gets so much worse at night because he can't hold a shit and he can't control it at all and they just shake and hurt a little, aching

#lester papadopoulos #toa #i have so many hcs about his issues #meg would notice #and get him some sort of a fidget thing at the next stop #(and then understand that it doesn't really help and feel a little guilty because she just spent essetial money on shit that was useless) #lester would smile and do not have courage to tell that the thing not only useless but also worsens the situation a little #but he would be so grateful that someone cares and tries to do something #meg mccaffrey #sunflower siblings

[twilight-deviant]

Telling content creators it's wrong to explore artistic freedom and be independently funded by fans, and they should instead continue taking advertisement revenue from google* is

NOT

the anti-capitalism stance actually.

*(Yes, google owns youtube.)

#Watcher #This post is specifically and exclusively about the people who seem to have the capitalism bit wrong #It's almost fascinating how no one is hearing themselves speak #I feel like some of you don't understand WHY we support small businesses and are anti-monopoly #I've seen multiple posts saying “Shane is so anti-capitalism there's no way this was his idea.” #So... you think it's pro-capitalism to start your own business instead of relying on pennies from the exploitative mega-corporation? #Guys... we support small businesses KNOWING it will cost the consumer more #Stop thinking you're entitled to someone's product #That's what got us in this mess #I understand $6 is a lot for many many people but that is what makes certain things a luxury #Nothing used to be this way #Nothing used to be “free” so you can be monitored for your viewing habits and sold to advertisers #If you see a little guy trying to leave youtube/google and you paint them as the capitalist??? You. have. taken. a. wrong. turn. #I don't know how many more ways I can say it #It is better to support someone (if you can) than to pressure them into taking money from the trillion-dollar corporation #so that you can have what they put all their blood/sweat/tears into for free #If you want something badly enough you're going to have to pay for it #Them's the breaks #If you don't want it that badly then maybe it didn't mean enough to you personally #Thinking otherwise is how corporations like youtube take over and squeeze out small competitors #btw on monopolies: having almost every single video content creator (outside of tiktoks and video game streams) on youtube is BAD #You understand that's bad yes? #How tf are we going to diversify unless SOME CREATORS leave youtube??? #It's almost the responsibility of larger creators to do so #Ironically what I said is backwards #In its ideal state‚ capitalism is supposed to inspire innovation and new business‚ giving every person a chance to succeed #But I think we all know that's not the reality we're experiencing #I just went with what everyone means when they say it

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[wraithsoutlaws]

you know i had a fun little vp idea i wanted to do for the cyberpunk anniversary but i haven't had the energy to even touch it recently so i'll just settle with saying that this game impacted me in ways i never thought it would when i first picked it up 3 years ago. i knew i would enjoy it, i had been looking forward to it for a long time, and despite a ~controversial~ launch, i had a fucking blast from day 1 (on ps4 no less). regardless of bugs and memes and public dunking, the story grabbed me like nothing else could at the time, and it reignited so much of my passion and motivation for art that i had lost in the clutches of mental illness and i'll always be grateful for that. it introduced me to so many wonderful people (some whom i carry very close to my heart), and maybe most personally surprising, it gave me an outlet to understand parts of myself that i had been too afraid to acknowledge for a long time, the courage to accept and embrace myself as non-binary, and allow myself to just BE without trying to convince myself i'm crazy. that's not what i expected from the get-go but it's been a really fun journey to be on ngl

#yeah this fandom been a little rocky in places but i would be lying if i said this community here wasn't special to me #so much love and passion and creativity to be around and be inspired by #so many people who have been impacted by this silly little heartwrenching game #devs who have poured their heart into it to deliver something genuinely incredible #its one of those strange things that really did fully change the trajectory of this little leg of my life #to think that until 3 years ago i hadn't even touched art in a decade #now there are lovely people who want to spend money on my work #3 years ago i bought my first (and only) refurbished ps4 to play this game and now im sitting on a fancy gaming laptop #ive said it before but vp has been such an important creative outlet too #its allowed me to live my dreams of being a film director. a cinematographer. a writer. #the whole game has let me be so damn self-indulgent sometimes i feel like a kid again just unashamedly playing barbie #finding the JOY of just. creating. #i learned so much about myself through an OC because of this game #it went from 'huh what is this feeling? gender envy?' to being like full blown 'oh yea. i get it now.' so much of my life makes sense kfslf #and i met people who mean the world to me on top of it all #woof anyways #i know i say it a lot but genuinely thank u to yall who have encouraged me and supported me and who enjoy the things that i make #youve made such a difference in my life without knowing it!

[maggi-cube]

What can you even say to this?

TWs for death, child death, blood, and things of that nature. I’m not sure what other tags would help

#There are so many stories here so many tragedies some I didn’t hear about before now and some that have stayed with me. #i think about Reem when I try to sleep #And I have to do the little I can and continue to live while there’s so much happening daily #every second another life is lost and when we are crying out for the world to see their humanity they go aww :( so sorry we must kill them #i am in a warm bed and they are not #i have food and they do not #i am safe and they are not #my friends are alive and theirs are not #my family can find me and they don’t know where theirs is #i am not trying to make this about me but it’s like. living is a reminder that others aren’t even surviving #and when I ask what could possibly merit this kind of horror there’s no reason that makes sense #i feel like I’m going insane #i am donating i am boycotting i am buying secondhand at best #i spent my last bit of money on esims #i just. god why is there such suffering for a people who have done nothing but live why is there always pain for those just trying to live #why is it so hard to live quietly? why can’t we make things right right NOW #tw death #tw child death #free palestine

[rithmeres]

they’re gonna kick me out of bible study

#i am not even joking acts 4:34-35 says there was not a needy person among them #for as many as were owners of lands or houses sold them and brought the proceeds of what was sold #and laid it at the apostles feet and it was distributed to each as any had need. #the american church is doing an abominably poor job at being a church. letting americanism (heresy) and the party line gut the bible #i can already tell what the discussion is gonna be. the leader is gonna reassure the group that this doesnt mean socialism #and just encourage everyone to give a little more money to charities :) #how about we become radically sacrificial and anti materialistic instead. #stop buying thing stop consuming things cancel your amazon subscriptions and welcome a struggling family into your giant suburban house #wealth and materialism are so so evil :) and i see christians praising them all the time :) you cannot serve god and mammon :) #put away the gods of your fathers :) or else :)

[crimeronan]

my fave thing about the neopets economy post is how many people in the notes are naming their own mmos with severely broken economies. here's to hoping all the devs of your fave games get wind of how successfully TNT has revitalized the site by killing the economy & implement similar measures in their own shit 🙏🕯️🙏

#i've seen So Many People say things along the lines of #'oh now that the game is playable again i'll pay a little bit for the premium subscription that kid me always wanted' #killing the neopian billionaire class is great for their actual real money revenue. making the site fun to use again!!! #i'll never be able to see democrats so easily and effectively reshape the USA economy overnight so watching this unfold is #a special power fantasy. every crytyping whiner with a legacy account on the boards rn is bezos to me. #neopets

[chitaquagirl]

feeling dire

#definitely mostly pms but also other things . SCARED!!! #lots of stuff happening to create Perfect circumstances for me to have a very bad time #and generally. i am FAR more prone to depression than anxiety but atm i am a ball of nerves #meds on back order. Scary!!! makes me feel like i need to ration my current supply (i rly don’t) #SCHOOL. RLY SCARY. didn’t go to class today. So many assignedments to work on and they just keep piling up!! #need to meet w my prof abt research. SCARY!! bc i have been slacking like crazy 🫠 #and the biggest anxiety inducer. Money!!! which is DUMB!!!! bc objectively i don’t need to worry!!!!!!! #but unexpected thangs are in motion so i am having to pay > $700 more than anticipated a month #which again. this is manageable. Not ideal but given my jobs i can handle it #i just wasn’t expecting it and now feel very out of sorts #since i was a little kid ive had this weird truly unreasonable and irrational anxiety abt money #and this is unfortunately triggering a lot of that again #which is bad bc it makes everything else spiral. ex. need to save -> buying less groceries/policing what i eat -> ed relapse #just feeling very very stupid and upset 🥴 #pers

[sorcerous-caress]

Who needs sleep when you can just pop more painkillers to sweep the headaches under the rug so you get to stare at a screen for 6 more hours

#♡other #I'm only on day 4 too #this shit is getting too real Artemy wtf #like it's not even the food or water OR the money. I'm good. i have everything maxed and stashed #BUT THERE IS SO LITTLE TIME I'M BARELY GETTING TO BREATH #WHERE THE FUCK IS ALL OF THAT TIME GOING #I NEED TO DO SO MANY THINGS I NEED TO COLLECT HERBS THEN SELL MY JUNK TO SHOPS THEN BUY SHOES AND BELIEVER IMMUNE BOOSTERS THEN SPIT ON DANI

[non-un-topo]

Talking to my sister can be one of the most aggravating experiences

#just allowing myself a few moments of self-pity today #because i'm a little overstimulated/sick of people talking AT me #i have begun to notice that i'm never asked anything... not a single thing. no questions about my life or interests or how school is going #no questions about my partner or our anniversary and no acknowledgement of the big haircut i just got #no questions about my BIL's wedding. none about my health. #every day it's just people talking AT me. kind of tired at the moment... #and this is made worse by my sister's holier-than-thou attitude about literally the smallest and most insignificant things #like washing clothes? and cooking rice?? idk she talks like a housewife now. #and i get to listen to her complain about her 35 year old boyfriend and not say ONE kind thing for 2 hours straight #not a single question for me. not a single nice thing. and i'm talked over constantly #it's not like i don't raise my voice or speak my mind lol #it's just that. between my family and my partner's family. it feels like no one knows just how smart i am and how much fun i can be. #my partner is perfect in so many ways. my best friend and the kindest and most compassionate person i know. #but i really could brag and boast like my sister does over absolutely nothing. because i have actual achievements. but i don't #because who does that lol. fucking annoying and rude people. #maybe my family just thinks i'm okay and so they never ask me anything or call me. ever. #but see.... i don't talk to them because i want advice or help or money. i talk to them because they're my family #and i would very much like to feel cherished and loved by them #/ end angst and self-pity boo hoo

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc. #especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you. #who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!' #like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

[irregularbillcipher]

also found a doodle of kryptos’ “suspiciously unmarried uncle” who i mentioned in my post yesterday. dont think he’s ever gonna show up in my fic proper, but he has been mentioned twice so far, and a few times in future chapters— he’s the one who sends andy birthday money

#rene is a character i think about a lot tbh even though he will never make a physical appearance in my fic #he's the only positive famliy figure andy has but he also like... never comes over and (understandably) spends as little time as possible #around his horrible father and horrible brother in law and less awful but still not very kind sister so he just avoids the entire family #so he also just... doesn't spend time with his nephew and doesn't realize just how much kryptos needs like. a nice family figure #he sends birthday money and is actually genuinely affectionate on the very rare instances andy sees him #but he's not even close to being a constant enough figure in his life for him to be an actual trusted adult #he's also a doctor who deals with irregularity so there's that distance because andy doesn't... particularly trust irregularity doctors! #rene himself is like... more compassionate than the average doctor who 'treats' irregulars and attempts to be as 'decent' as he can be #but that only really goes so far y'know. especially when you're still working within a horrible system #which rene very much is #and it's genuinely great for the occasional patient whose life he improves but he is also complicit in SO many horrible things #and kryptos is just.. aware of that so there's always been that bit of distance especially since he befriended bill #my art

[laniidae-passerine]

honestly even if I’m in misery over this week’s elimination I am living in hope we see Jarvis on Titans because he is so stunningly talented and his comedy is hilarious! and he has the perfect brand so if he could believe in himself like the fans do, you just know he can take over the entire world

#although technically I suppose it’s Jules who needs to believe in Jarvis? or believe in herself while he possesses her? #I’ll let them handle that one I think #this is a quiet plea to come to ldn and perform #but seriously yea the ghost is hot. I am (unlike himself) but a mere mortal #but I genuinely respect and admire the talent and skill and the entire package Jarvis served this season #yes it was serving a little bit of thing 1 and 2. but it served!!! and the lipsync extermination was BRUTAL #that had never happened before and suddenly it was them versus JAYKAY??? ouch. a valiant but futile fight #I just love everything their drag encompasses and provides and it’s amazing!!! #it’s really energising too like I love drag and Jarvis reminds me why #especially in a time period when so many drag races and other competitions are flinging performers at you #and some just blend into sameness #s5 dragula is presenting so many talented varied performers and Jarvis is my fav of them all (even though I love so many of them!!!) #anyway Jarvis merch in the UK when????? haunt an international delivery truck sir just get that here and I’ll hand over the money #this season is so good!!!!! wow. loving it #dragula #jarvis hammer

[asparklethatisblue]

kinda cute to be raised on “only your family will truly love and support you, and they will show their love via money. Physical and emotional abuse means nothing because at least you will never want for anything!”

and then have your parents randomly and smugly tell you to never ask them for anything ever cause you have a job

#i asked for the equivalent of a Christmas present which I didn’t get last year fyi #and now they keep reminding me to not expect anything from them #and the thing is? I don’t NEED anything #but what about emotional support cause my rent is increasing? I just want to be told it’ll be ok I don’t want money #but i can’t even bring up money anxiety cause they WILL be cruel about it #or tell me to move back home which yeah ok I’d live there for free but I’d also kill myself so haha #anyway when you were taught to measure parental love via money… #Not to MENTION that we were poor when I was little and my baby brother gets??? So many fucking expensive toys now??