#so noise was not her issue

[silenthillbunni]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[michaeljoncarter]

i think kyle and kory might have THE funniest and most chaotic history of any 2 characters i’ve ever seen. they’ve spoken all of like 3 words to each other in total, but literally EVERYTHING about the couple interactions they’ve had has been so insane in so many ways

the very first time they met, kyle tripped all over himself and told her he used to have a poster of her in his dorm room while donna was introducing them, then went with her and the rest of the titans to try and save gar, where kory very dramatically revealed she was possessed by raven. everybody’s like “my god!!” and kyle is just. standing there. in the background. absolutely no idea what the hell is going on or who any of these people are

and then in THE SAME ISSUE, tamaran gets destroyed right in front of kory’s eyes. she’s like on the floor having a breakdown, and kyle, who literally just met her 5 minutes ago, is still just in the background like 😬

the ONLY other time i’m aware of them really interacting is those couple pages in wonder woman where they stop a xenophobic dude from attacking an alien and kory says something like “god i’m so sick of humans” and kyle’s just fully like “yeah same sometimes i hate humanity as a whole and think this entire planet was a mistake” and starts to go off on a whole rant about empathy but gets cut off because a villain flies in out of nowhere and TURNS HIM INTO A FUCKING GOAT, knocks kory and jen out, and then the scene just ENDS.

i don’t think this was EVER ADDRESSED like was he still a goat when she woke up?? did she stay with him until the goat curse wore off? were she and jen running around with goatkyle trying to find a way to fix him offscreen? did she just abandon him to his fate?? take him to a barn??? i have SO MANY QUESTIONS like this shit was SO HECTIC FOR NO REASON

god and ALSO while afaik these are the only two times they’ve actually really talked, there’s also the fact that kory was both best friends with donna and got pretty close with jen while they were on the outsiders together right after her and kyle’s messy breakup. she has almost certainly had to sit through multiple rants about him from BOTH of his exes

she literally only knows him from 2 incredibly short, incredibly hellish interactions, and they’ve never really talked to each other, but also she probably knows more about him and his personal life than 99% of people including his closest friends. more than she ever wanted to know. WAY more.

like what the hell would her opinion of him even be?? i think about this all the time and yet i have absolutely no idea??

she barely knows him but also he was there for one of the most traumatic events in her life and also she knows every single weird thing he’s into and has seen him turned into a barnyard animal. how the hell is she supposed to feel about all that. can’t even begin to speculate. what the fuck. i’m obsessed with them

#long post #koriand'r #kyle rayner #ETA: the new titans 128 & wonder woman (1987) 174 respectively #idk why i didn't put that to begin with but those are the two issues! #hitting u wth 2 longass posts at 10am on a thursday #i think about them so much its so fucking funny #i really think they only ever interact in group settings and every time kyle’s like #“oh god oh god what does she know she must hate me she must think i’m such an idiot” #but kory looks at him and there’s just nothing #like every time she sees him or tries to think about him her head just fills with static #just white noise with the occasional flashback to goat kyle #its like a trauma response. rayner-induced dissociative episode

[brittlebutch]

tbh Zelda's "I think I just need to freak out for a little bit" line in Belles of the Baronies might be one of my favorite lines from her; peak "I'm not fine but it's fine" phrasing

#N posts stuff #I especially love it in its context which is that she's at a fancy party and getting wigged out by all the people and SPECIFICALLY #that she says 'this music is kind of stressing me out' about whatever run of the mill music they'd play at a party like that and so she goe #to put her headphones in to go mosh out to her usual metal -- so many people will rag on you for liking that kind of music when you #also have sensory issues 'oh if you can handle That noise i'm sure you can handle this [noisy situation] fine' WRONG #but i love that Zelda is allowed to put it as plainly as this and no one calls her out like it's some kind of contradiction #ESPECIALLY love that this line is Direct response to Sam asking if she wants to go out somewhere even quieter like the stables #and offers to have like Sending queued up so that they'll be able to get her right away if they need her -> not only not making a big deal #about her having to leave Immediately after they arrived but also being more than willing to Accommodate her in that wholly #they're so sweet and i love them. samzelda gang forever. anyway i think i want to make a shirt with some art of zelda on the front #and then that line on the back in some unintelligible metal band font i think it would be So dope if only i could get the energy to do it #dimension 20 #d20: seven maidens #d20lb

[trainingdummyrabbit]

despite all my rage or whatever the fuck..... (+1 nothingthere under th cut for bodyhorror purposes)

#pikart #pikocs #projmoon #ive neverdrawn nt before so bear w me ✌ just a silly lil bupy. dw bout it :] #idk if a doodle Counts as bodyhorror but . raises hands in air. #anyway this is [NAME PENDING] but iwill just call her cocoa. she has every disease <3 #why deal with your anxiety and anger issues when you can [LOUD DIAL UP NOISES] #shes part of a horribly dysfunctional little group and iam so attached 2 them <3 where to fucking start tho fr...

[figureofdismay]

G-d it's really 3 different times that mulder has almost certainly had to launch protracted 'getting scully to eat' campaigns, after her abduction when she was 'maintained' who knows how for 3 months and had to get back on her feet, with the cancer and treatments and recovery 2 years later and again with the gut shot 2 years after that. How many times do you think he sat by her bed and tried to distract her while she struggled through a protein drink? Did the 'oh I just accidentally made too many sandwiches or pieces of toast or they put in extra fries or "free" dumplings maybe you'll take these off my hands' or planted them in a diner until she ate some soup and crackers or a plate of scrambled eggs or a milkshake while trying not to seem to insist too much, ie enough to trigger an "I'm fine" and a stalking off. No wonder he's hung up on the non-fat yogurt cups and salads with a teaspoon of dressing after multiple times of joining in to will her back from half starvation in order to get her strong enough to recover from near death experiences. Like, we have done this when it was unavoidable due to miserable circumstances, why are you doing it yourself on purpose?? 😥

Though perhaps that's a reason for her, the familiarity of completely utilitarian food that's always 'safe.'

#txf #msr #tw disordered eating #character theory: scully #i have both sensory issues with food and history with an eating disorder so it's an aspect that stands out for me #but it's interesting #and I would love to see more of mulder being there for her and trying to help manage her sub clinical medically induced food issues #like I do appreciate seeing it show up in fics but I mostly see the dramatic signs of failing health version #instead of them dealing with the background noise of the long slow slog of recovery #the oh g-d i just don't want to I'm tired of dealing with food again mulder/cmon just take half my sandwich you can't live on peanut m&ms #of it all #i bet he's also good at the hey let's sit up and watch this movie together (with snacks)(the distraction makes digesting easier) maneuver #because eating and sleeping are both easier when they aren't on purpose for some reason #and he would very much know that

[chipistrate]

Making the very real true and correct statement that getting the Freddy plush in HW2 is actual hell and it's all because of Plushbaby and she needs to die in a fire, fnaf 6 couldn't come soon enough for her

#Chip Chatter #I literally can't throw the balls high enough to knock her down from the roofs WHAT IS YOUR ISSUE!!!! #I TRY SO DAMN HARD BUT I CAN'T THROW THEM THAT HIGH #AND SOMETIMES SHE DOESN'T EVEN MAKE ANY NOISE INDICATING SHE'S NEARBY #She's manageable on the first two levels and fucking impossible on the third #“oh but it's supposed to be harder” HARDER DOESN'T MEAN IMPOSSIBLE!!! LOSING MY MIND!!!!!! #whatever I don't even care #HW2 spoilers #Help Wanted 2 spoilers

[yuridovewing]

ivypool is like sandfire to me. the version of her i made in my head is fantastic and i love her. and yet canon is so disappointing

#i like her as this person who’s let bitterness and paranoia run her entire life and now shes lonely at the top #bc she burned so many bridges and now yearns for what she had. bc no matter what she did it was wrong. she got help from all the wrong place #places #she was failed at every corner and now. whats left? #just like. dovewing tries to escape clan culture and ivypool fully embraces it. and now look where they both are #its tragic. i love her as a tragic character #but then canon makes fart noises and goes ‘’erm actually ivypool redeemed herself by believing in the code and shes such a girlboss #and she was sooooo logical and good for keeping twigpaw from her family over her unrelated issues with her sister #and that drags it down for me. let her be tragic

[practically-an-x-man]

so so so tired of my mom telling the same exact story of how awful her hospital stay was to anyone who will listen

#i'm sorry it was such a bad experience but she's told this same long drawn-out story to easily 6 people now #complete with saying she 'feels so bad for this lady' who was making noise across the hall but still whining about how she was making noise #it really has just been continuous complaining about this same thing for weeks and it's absolutely draining #especially going back to the fact that she never acknowledged my medical issues but will go on and on demanding sympathy for hers #vent tw #vent post #vent

[rhinoyo]

zaid <3 and rf3 girls

#artz #rune factory 3 #rf3 #rune factory #rf3 zaid #rf3 micah #rf4 doug #SORRY sakuya daria carmen n shara for leaving you out i was tired i love you i promise youre also in the weird girl squad #AND EVELYN. !!! #i LOVE zaid he needz to have brother/cousin/whatever shenanigans with doug <3 #remember that one quest where you look for treasure with him. n that part where he says there r too many monsters/noises so he can’t focus #*whispers* i think he also haz sensory issues but you didnt hear that from me #anyway rf3 has the best cast i love them thats all. <3 #everyone should tell me your favorite rf3 girl ill start her name is ma

[mydignityisinflames]

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#i hate my neighbour so much #i know its bad cause she's got mental health issues but im so fucking fed up of the constant noise #and i don't want to say to her her radio is too loud at night (again) cause she has anger issues and whenever she's manic she harrasses me #even though the last time i asked her to turn her radio down was 2 years ago #and i never ask her to keep it down during the day despite her constantly playing piano/violin/radio #like im not exaggerating #every hour between 8am-11pm she's playing one of those things #and even on quiet nights sometimes she snores #ive tried ear plugs and headphones but they hurt after a while #and ive tried white noise but it has to be so loud to drown it out i never sleep well #i just want to be able to come home and have a but of peace #sometimes i consider moving but my flat is so nice and ive put so much effort into the garden #(which she threw 2 of my plant pots over the wall last time she was manic hence why i don't want to get into conflict with her) #and i know id never find a nice flat in this good a location again #ugh #vent

[akirameta84]

i wish there was a polite way to tell somebody to fucking close their mouth while they eat

#i wanted to sit in the living room and i have a bjg issue with certain noises like chewing cause misophonia #my mom happened to grab a bag of chips right as i got comfy and she eats with her mouth fucking open #and that makes it so much worse to listen to #akira yells into the void

[apologydanceenthusiast]

aa fantastic! i hope your london time is/was (dk when you’re done) amazing :)) sorry about the stressful time though

Got there today, actually :)

The entire day was less than pleasant tbh,

(had trouble at the airport and then the flat we booked apparently went out of business two months ago and didn't contact us, so when we arrived at the flat on time and called them, we found out we don't have a place to stay and had to book somewhere else)

but at least the three mental breakdowns I had today because of this disaster

(I really do not handle stress and spontaneous plan-changes well, I wish I was joking, but I broke down in the middle of a café)

Sort of hardened me up

(and tbh it can't get much worse than that. I literally talked about both of these possible scenarios w my therapist and she told me i was worrying too much [WHO'S WORRYING TOO MUCH NOW, HUH?!], those were my nightmare scenarios)

#let's just laugh about this🧍🏻‍♂️ #maybe i have psychic powers that make me prepare for realistic but bad experiences #either that or my therapist is bad at her job of reassuring me bc stuff like this where i could go “TOLD YOU SO” #have happened far more than once #might delete this later if i think it isn't entertaining enough for the 2 ppl following me #We're at a nice hotel now though #it's sort of an upgrade rlly #did i mention i have really bad noise sensitivity and sensory issues (i hate big cities)

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

i still can't get over my roommate implying i was autistic and my friend pulling out her phone to show me the "i'm like if a beautiful woman was an autistic little boy" meme that she'd been saving for the occasion someone acknowledged it

#HELLO #guys i try so hard to be normal how the fuck are people noticing #ALSO WHY ARE THEY ACKNOWLEDGING IT #my other friend who is actually diagnosed with autism is also such a little bitch about this #if i flinch at noises or say something a lil too blunt he pulls me aside and goes 'are u having a tism moment' cause he's terminally online #just the audacity of people to point out that ur being weird when ur being weird. HELLO RUDE #my roommate and i had a long convo about this because she's Implied this multiple times #and the first time she said it in front of people. after we went home i was like 'do u really think im autistic' #and she went 'well you know i think it's a spectrum and you're def on it but also i know lots of autistic people who have happy lives!' #and girl what the FUCK. why are u so comfortable talking to me like that #i just got very very agitated because someone's phone was ringing for a whole fucking min and they were just ignoring it. what's WRONG WITH #HER. and im allowed to have sensory issues without it being autism ok shut the fuck up #anyways. i truly don't know how im supposed to react if someone says something like this. because a. im not diagnosed #b. people are far too comfortable armchair diagnosing me. like im not Trying to be different from what's socially acceptable leave me alone #c. but i also don't want to make a big deal about it because they're just jokign around but also the joke is that im constantly weird #can someone tell me how im supposed to react to this #honestly im kinda scared to post this on the autism website. #please don't be too mean to me

[florietiae]

@spring-lxcked come get your girlfriend, she's manipulating ppl and starting chaos --

#𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 — and they said 'speak now.' #don't mind me titan.s issue 8 dropped & i'm feral #anyway. #if you're confused. so am i honestly lmao. #but let me try to take a stab at context. #seems like raven took a trip to he.ll at some point. ( just normal things lmao. ) #and the part of her that is d.emon escaped. trapping her human soul in the gem she has on her forehead. and now. #that part of her has control and is actively manipulating her friends. ( which is interesting & i think i might use it oop ?? ) #the confusing bit is the use of r.achel vs. r.aven tho. #as if r.achel is her human heart now rather than just an alias. whereas 'raven' is her d.emon consciousness ??? confused zenya noises. #anyway my point is !! #screaming crying bouncing off walls etc etc. #banging pots and pans abt demon!rae! #tbd.

[bijouzen]

actually gonna cry over twyla rn /pos

#i love her sm #this means so much to me #if you didnt know they canonically confirmed and stated on the new monster high series that twyla is autistic #and has sensory issues with regards to loud noises #and its so #as someone who has adored twyla since i was a wee bean this means. so much #monster high #mh twyla #twyla monster high #twyla boogieman

[bugsmoocher]

urgh :((

#i am now going to whine about my living conditions #if my grandma screams either at me about my husband or at my husband one more time i think im gonna go ape shit man #fucking calling me to make sure i cry before work and making living utterly unbearable is such a great way to annunciate the fact she would #rather have us live in a hotel for 80+ bucks a night than let us exist in her house #we dont even talk to her. we dont go upstairs. we dont make any more noise than we have the past few months #but suddenly its worth threatening to kick us out over #and we think she might be on cocaine again #i dont know man #oh yeah it aint even her house i lied. its her boyfriends house. her boyfriend that has never brought up any issues with us. #genuinely everything she talks about being so worthy of her disrespect and hatred is either a lie or straightup from MONTHS ago #shit that was resolved #and blown out of proportion mind you #idk. i need to fucking kill myself in front of her. i need it to be a mess. im so horrible mentally and im not even the one taking all the #abuse rn #next time she does this i might be going to federal prison guys 😳😳😳😳