#so proud of bnd

[kissohee]

I keep thinking about you.

i keep thinking about you. loser!ex!friend!taesan x popular!fem!reader ☆ nsfw ; wc : 8.7k+ ☆ one-shot mdni! synopsis; taesan never would've believed that there would be a time where popularity would get in the way of you and him. but it wasn't just popularity, it was also your boyfriend. so when you needed an escape from your boyfriend, you found yourself with taesan. the problem is taesan is attached, and you have attachment issues. warnings; referring to taesan as dongmin, cheating, toxic relationship, mainly written in his pov, its literally just sex again and again, angst, oral sex (both m and f receiving), cum eating, both protected and unprotected sex, use of pet names (baby, pretty boy, angel, good boy), i know im a small dick taesan enthusiast BUT he has a big dick in this, taesans very vocal, cockwarming, taking virginity, dry humping, making out, male masturbation, jaehyun and leehan cameo, itty bit of crying. a/n; almost fully based on taesans self composed song "i keep thinking about you." a lot of inspo for this fic came from that, so thank you taesan! if u read the lyrics of the song, a lot of things in this fic might make a lot more sense 😭 listen to his song here ♡

For as long as Dongmin has known you, he believed you were an angel in disguise. And there was a moment where you two couldn't be separated. Every little thing about you was perfect, and he was so lucky to be by your side.

Until you drifted away from him. It was fully your decision,, Dongmin would never give up being close to you for anything. But there really wasn't anything he was able to do about it.

You had started dating this guy, and he became the number 1 man in your heart, Dongmin knew he couldn't be mad at you over it, you had found someone that you took interest in, and for the years Dongmin has known you, this has been a first. But him no longer being in your heart wasn't the problem. The problem was that you had gained popularity and started to pretend you didn't know him. He knew he wasn't popular like you, and he had little to no friends, but he never would've thought there would end up being a time where you would just give up on your friendship without hesitation. You met your boyfriend. And suddenly you were gone. Your entire friend group shifted, you only became friends with people who were just as popular as you, and you had started to also tolerate when your new friends made jokes about him or other people. He had no clue what happened to that angel he once knew. Dongmin especially felt his whole world collapse when you had found out that he liked you. He had watched your contact disappear from his phone, as well as you blocking him on all the social media accounts that you had owned. He believed life was out to get him, So instead of getting over you like every other human would do, he watches as you and your new friends have a very loud conversation in the library. He's sitting at a table alone, writing down whatever comes to his mind every time he steals a look at you. "What a slut." He overhears one of your friends say, "I mean she's practically slept with everyone." He assumes they're talking about some girl who probably doesn't deserve it, because it's all he seems to notice you guys do. "Well not everyone..." One of your other friends raises her eyebrows and tilts her head towards him, everyone catching him staring. He  immediately looks down embarrassed, fixing his headphones to pretend like something was playing. Your friend responds to her, "No one would sleep with Dongmin." She jokes, "He's really quiet, I bet he's a secret perv." He sees you laugh from the corner of his eye,,, you would never laugh at people talking about him like that. Well at least the old you wouldn't, the new you absolutely would. "Alright guys," You grab your bag from the library seat, eyes glued to your phone, "My boyfriend says I have to meet him at the lunch hall in less than 10 minutes or else he won't buy me food." You make quick eye contact with Dongmin and rush out of the library. Your friend looks at him one last time before rolling her eyes, "Can't believe she was actually friends with that guy." They both laugh about another comment made, and follow you out of the library. The library returns to being peaceful. Dongmin was very good at pretending like he couldn't hear people talk about him, which happened more than he liked. Your 'friends' also constantly make fun of you for ever being friends with him. He wasn't strange in the slightest, just kind of a loner. But you always used to tell how cool he was, and how you'll never be friends with someone the way you're friends with him. He hated the term friends. And if there was one thing Dongmin couldn't do, it was that he couldn't stop thinking about you. You have a boyfriend, and you treat him like shit, but you still occupy so much space in his head. How could he forget you so easily? How could you forget him so easily? He starts playing music in his headphones, looking down at the open page of his book, only a few words written down.

He finds himself writing yet another song about you.

Making songs was Dongmins therapy. Which is why he's hunched over his computer, trying to get rid of any thoughts of you from today. And it seemed helpless considering every lyric he wrote down today traced back to you. Somehow he was able to hear the doorbell ring, despite his headphones being on full volume. He places them on his keyboard, leaving his room to open the door. And the last person he expected to be there, was standing right in front of him. "What are you doing here?" You smile at him, glad to finally see his face up close for the first time in a while. "What? I can't see you anymore?" "Aren't you like banned from ever being in the same room as me?" He says sarcastically, not moving his body an inch. You look up at him before looking at your shoes, "No.. Well yes. But I'm willing to make risks." He takes a deep sigh, knowing he'd most likely regret his actions but he moves his body out the way and holds the door open for you, welcoming you inside. Once you enter, he locks the door and heads to his bedroom. You follow him after taking your shoes off, "Are your parents home?" "They're never home, you know that." He responded without looking at you, which you take as a sign to be quiet. You close his door behind you and look at his computer before he slams it shut. "Were you making a song?" "No." He shakes his head, closing his lyric book before putting it away. You tilt your head, "Cmon you can tell me, I know you have a passion for music. I support you.!" He looks at you with a straight face, "I was just messing around with the app." "I don't remember you being so secretive." "That makes two of us." The silence was getting unbearable, Dongmin watches as you fidget with your fingers, knowing this was just as awkward to you as it was to him. "Why are you here...?" "He cheated on me." You blurt out. You weren't sure who else to go to about this, "He doesn't know that I know. But I found out." Dongmin's face softened as he approached you, wrapping his arms around your body. "So why don't you break up with him?" He asks, "Why'd you come here instead?" "I don't really know.." You look up at him and let out the cutest giggle he's ever heard, "I'm not upset, I mean I'm not even surprised. Guess I just needed to tell someone." You both stand there, his hand now caressing your back, "You still care about me right, Dongmin?" Now it's his turn to laugh lightly, "I don't want to. But of course I do." "I'm such a terrible person." You frown thinking about the way you've disregarded him. He wasn't sure if you were trying to gain pity from him, you didn't need his pity, you had him no matter what. "No you're not." He lifts your face up so you can see him. "Your boyfriend is. He's a very unpleasant person. I don't know why you're drawn to him." He smiles at you, "And don't pretend he's not, we all know he is." You stare into his eyes and hold back a smile, "He is, isn't he?" Dongmin just nods back, taking glances at every feature of your face. How are you so beautiful? You place your hands on both sides of his face, "Can I kiss you?" He wants to, more than anything, but he hesitates, "What about your boyfriend?" You lean closer to his face, staring at his lips, "Let go of him right now, it's just us." You place your lips onto his, immediately noticing how soft they are. This is everything Dongmin has ever dreamed of. Maybe not in this particular situation, but the kiss was just as perfect as he imagined it. He wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you closer into him. He pulls away and your eyes softly open before you're staring into his eyes, "I want more."

Anything you want. He places his lips on yours again, this time a little more desperation shines through, you're backing him up to his bed, sitting him down so you can sit on his lap, all without breaking the kiss once. His hands are exploring every part of your body, still unsure if this is actually happening or not. What if it's just another one of his wet dreams? When you bite down on his lip, he's more than positive that this is actually his reality. The bite making him let out a moan. "You sound so pretty," You chew on his lip, "My pretty boy." The pet name sent shock waves all throughout his body, forcing him to freeze. He dreamt of the day you would say something like that to him. He had dreamt of a lot of things. "Don't say things like that." He whimpers, "I can't handle it." You run your fingers through his hair, feeling his bulge grow underneath you. "I can tell." You tease him, moving your hips against him to see his reaction. "Oh fuck.." He holds your hips, covering his face on your shoulder. It's embarrassing for him when he gets needy like this, especially in front of you. "How far are we going?" "As far as you want." You smile at him, looking down at his boner. Just the thought of fucking you already had him up, "Do you have condoms?" He presses his lips together, holding onto the hem of your shirt. "No." "Buy condoms next time." You brush the hair out of his face. "Next ti-?" He's cut off with you grinding against him, shutting his eyes closed. His nightmare would be cumming in his pants before even getting to third base with you. "Dongmin, have you ever had sex before?" You ask, not stopping your hip movements. He shakes his head and you start feeling bad. You'd feel horrible if you took his virginity when he was hoping to lose it to someone he had a relationship with. "Hey, than maybe we shouldn't do th-" "No." He puts his hand over your mouth, "I want to." You take a deep breath and nod. Your lips are back on his as you proceed your grinding on him. Dongmin is starting to get impatient, the grinding not enough for his painful boner. He starts unintentionally thrusting up against your clothed cunt, and a whimper escapes from his mouth with each thrust.

Your boyfriend is nowhere near as cute as he is. You can tell he's starting to get more desperate with his humping, trying to actually gain satisfaction out of it, and that's when you suggest you both remove the clothes in the way. Finally seeing his cock outside of his pants made reality really sink in. He's bigger than most cocks you've seen, and it surprises you. But you're determined to get genuine pleasure so you line him up with you. Dongmin's very lucky that his first time is raw. The second he enters, you immediately feel like his dick was made for you. It was the perfect size, bigger than average but not an uncomfortable size. "Oh god you're so big Min," Your grip on his shoulders tightens and he moans from the compliment alone. You adjust yourself to a comfortable position and look in his eyes, "I'll do the moving since this is your first time, okay?" He nods, resting his hands on your waist, he's so excited that you feel him twitch inside of you. You lift yourself up and down, taking notice on his facial expressions and noises, unable to stop yourself from smiling, "You're so cute." His cheeks become a shade of red, his cock twitching again. "You respond to compliments huh.?" "Not on purpose.." He says, trying to rid himself of embarrassment from being unable to control his cock. "I know," You pat his head, slowly feeling your energy go down as you get closer to your climax. "But it's okay because you're being such a good boy." And just like suspected, his cock twitches again. "So cute." You whisper under your breath. "Are you getting close? Cause I am." He doesn't respond, but instead starts lifting his hips up into you at a faster rate, taking control over you both. His hips twitch, and you feel it. His cum inside of you. And the thought of it brings you to your own orgasm. You moan his name out, and grip onto his hair. Hearing you say his name in such an explicit way makes him cum a second time. For the first time in months, you actually had a really good orgasm. "You're so much better than him." You touch his cheek softly. Dongmin almost cringes at you bringing up your boyfriend after just having sex with him.

"Break up with him, please." He whispers.

Dongmin won't lie and say he wasn't heartbroken when he saw you with your boyfriend again the next week. His arm wrapped around your waist, as you talk to your friends. He couldn't understand how you could happily continue going out with him even after sleeping with Dongmin. You cheated on him. Granted he did cheat on you first but still. Despite all that, you stayed. Why? He's only watching you from a distance. He wants to approach you, or at least just wave, but he can't move. So instead he's creepily watching you and he only then realizes it's a problem when your friend nudges your shoulder and points at him. Now he's more than aware this could turn into a problem. So he waves, because he thinks it might be able to justify why he's looking. Instead of waving you back, you take a deep breath, raise your eyebrows at your boyfriend and look back at him. Dongmin starts biting the inside of his cheek, opting on putting his headphones on and just walking away. This isn't the first time something like this has happened, and yet it's still just as awkward as the first time. And he's about to leave before he sees you speed walk his way. "Can I help you?" You look at the ground behind him, playing with the strings of your bag. He shrugs, now feeling awkward, "Just saying hi." "Yeah well don't" You respond quickly. He's back to biting the inside of his cheek, stuffing his hands in the pockets of his sweater. "I'm confused on why we can't be friends.." "Friends don't sleep together." You say, face deadpanned as you make eye contact with your boyfriend, far away enough where he can't hear you. He sighs, you've put him in such an odd position. You're not his friend but you're also not his lover? "So that's it? You sleep with me once and I'm not allowed to talk to you?" He looks back at your friends who are staring at him harshly, almost burning a hole in his skin. Your boyfriend however is on his phone, trying not to get too upset over the fact that you willingly wanted to talk to Dongmin. He hears you sigh loudly and you stand in front of him so he's forced to look at you, "It's much more complicated than that, okay?" You copy him and glance at your friends too, "If it was up to me, things would be different." And that's all you say before walking away from him.

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Dongmin's just had the most boring class of his entire life. Mainly because he was yawning the whole time, trying his hardest not to fall asleep in case the professor decided to say something worth hearing. There's no one to blame Dongmin's tiredness on except himself, he hasn't been able to sleep well these past few days because of you. Every time he closed his eyes to fall asleep, the exact same moments with you would replay in his head. Thus, lack of sleep. So he's pretty happy when the class is finally over, he can go home and maybe, hopefully, take a nap. So he grabs his stuff in a hurry and walks out the classroom, all to see you standing there with your arms crossed on the other side of the hall. Maybe he's hallucinating, or maybe you're waiting for someone else, so he just walks away, not willing to embarrass himself anymore. "Dongmin? Hello??" He hears you call out to him, until eventually your arm is on his shoulder. So maybe you were waiting for him. "I needed to talk to you." He's not upset in the slightest, in fact he's actually really happy that you actually want to talk to him. "How'd you know I was in that class?" "Oh uhm." You say, taken aback by the question, "I asked around to see if anyone had any classes with you and eventually someone did and so yeah uh.." You had gone through all that trouble, for him? "Look," You start, "I really needed to tell you that I did enjoy that night with you. And you know, if you're down, maybe we could do it again?" Again? He swears his heart is going to explode. "When were you thinking?" "Tonight,,, maybe.?" Your voice had a little shake in it, exposing you for being a little nervous about asking him if you guys could sleep together again. Dongmin smiles softly with a nod, "Sure." He does his absolute best to play it cool in front of you but the thought of you and the past few restful nights finally coming to end makes his heart pound. And so the moment he gets home he's kicking his feet over the thought of you coming over again. Deciding on ways for the time to pass by quicker, he decides to clean his entire room. Like yes, you've seen his room at some of his messiest times, but that doesn't change the fact that he wants to be impressionable on you. But even cleaning his room didn't take up that much time, and he finds himself looking at the clock every minute. He probably should've asked you for a more specific time. He's just really excited to have you with him again. He's willing to get hurt if it means being able to be close to you somehow. He wants you any way that he can. Why was it taking an hour for each minute to pass? It must've taken another hour of staring at the ceiling before the ring to his door was pushed. And it took a lot of self control for him to not run to the door to see who it was, despite knowing it's most likely you.

And you it was. "Hey." he says, trying his hardest not to smile super hard, opposite from you, who is smiling. "Hey you." You poke his shoulder, walking into his house. "I couldn't stop thinking about you." He couldn't be happier. Dongmin closes the front door, motioning for you to kick off your shoes so you can go to his room. "How about we continue that hm?" He says before leaning slightly down to kiss you. Just like expected, you return the kiss, making sure you can taste every bit of him. "Your room, now." You say against his kiss and he nods slightly, grabbing your hand and walking urgently to his room. You automatically sit down on his bed and wait for him to close the door so he can sit down next to you, which doesn't take him very long because he's just as needy as you are. His hands find their way into your hair, and you're as close as you can possibly be to him. He breaks the kiss to be able to place them down your neck, "Careful about leaving hickies." You warn him, earning a groan from him against your neck. It doesn't stop him from pulling your shirt off so he can plant kisses across your chest, some getting close to your tits. You're holding onto one of his arms so hard he feels like your fingerprints will be engraved on it. "Did you get condoms?" "Not yet," He looks down at you, "I'm nervous to buy them." That part's entirely true, he's way too nervous to have someone actually watch him buy a pack of condoms. Like yes, it's normal but that doesn't change the fact that he's also way too scared.

"Okay so new plan." You sit up fully, confusing Dongmin, "I'll suck you off." His ears immediately go red, and his heart starts racing. His lack of words make you nervous, "Only if you want. I don't have to." He shakes his head semi-violently, feeling his cock react to your words. "I-I want you to." His response makes you smile, unzipping his jeans so he can get out of them. You're eventually face to face with his boner, which makes you happy, especially when it moves from just you looking at it. You barely even touched him at all and he's already super hard. He moves his hips closer to you, hinting at how badly he wants to be touched, "Relax Dongmin, I'll get to it." You pat his thighs softly, making him thrust up into nothing. "Oh? Are you sensitive there?" He doesn't respond, slightly embarrassed by it, but you think it's cute. You place a hand over his covered bulge, rubbing his cock through the fabric, as your hand travels up and down his thigh. "I need you to be a good boy okay, Min? That means no moving, let me handle everything." He nods, resting against the pillows on his bed.

The moment your hands touch his bare cock, Dongmin swears he won't listen. He wants to do what you ask, but it's hard when you're inches away from his cock. Your hands travel up and down it, pumping him in preparation for your mouth. He's biting his tongue so he doesn't make noise too soon. But when you lick his tip, he groans. Probably the deepest you've ever heard him yet, so it's obvious that you're driving him insane. And you enjoy that, which is why you lick around his tip, just slowly. His fists ball up, and they clench even harder when you take him entirely inside your mouth. "Oh my god," He moans,, what did he do to deserve this from you.? You don't respond but instead bob your head at a pretty reasonable starting pace. He's struggling to keep his hands in one place, moving them anywhere he can but nowhere seemed comfortable for him. That is until he places his hands in your hair, trying his absolute hardest not to move your head any faster. Dongmin can't believe how close he is already, but considering the circumstances he's currently in, he's surprised he's lasted this long. He's starting to feel more sensitive, which doesn't get better when he feels your tongue travel down the slit of his tip You know you're driving him crazy, and you're enjoying every second of it. His hips start twitching from how hard he's trying to not let them move like you had asked, but ultimately finding himself unable to when he thrusts up into your mouth. Nothing comes out of your mouth about it, knowing he can't control it which is why you let him push your head down with his hands. His head falls back and his eyes are shut. You stare at him in awe as whimpers pour out his mouth, some mentioning how he's close and can't hold it even if he tried. He looks back at you, and the sight of you looking up at him with his cock in your mouth sends him over the edge. His hips twitch as loads of cum gets shot into your mouth, and he watches as you swallow it all, making him moan.

You knead his thighs softly as he calms down from his orgasm, and when he finally regains consciousness, he lays you down in his place. Neither of you exchange words and yet you understand him entirely. It's your turn now. "No panties?" He comments when your pants are fully off. "None for you." You smirk a tiny bit, sinking into the mattress of his bed as he spreads your legs open. Dongmin starts feeling nervous when he looks at you, he's never given a girl head before. What if he messes up, or what if he isn't good? But he also wouldn't know unless he tries, so with a deep breath he finally places his tongue on your pussy. You wiggle into his mouth, liking the feeling of his hot spit on you. "Dongmin, please.." Your small beg for him, gave him all the motivation that he needed. He licks your clit until he's more comfortable exploring the rest of your pussy. Attempting to cover any places that might bring pleasure to you. He feels your fingers in his hair, similarly like how he was with you, except you don't move his head, you're just keeping them there for support. And so he goes back to sucking your clit, doing his absolute best to make sure he's able to give head right. Dongmin loves the way you're a moaning mess because of him, praising him while also babbling about how good it feels, and he's taking pride in that. Everything sent blood right back to his already aching cock. You feel the bed rock slightly, realizing it's because Dongmin is moving his hips against the surface to the pace his tongue is moving. And just on cue he moans into you, sending pleasure up, making you moan loudly as well. You've officially lost it when Dongmin uses his thumb to draw circles on your clit while using his tongue inside of you. You've never felt so good in your entire life, not with anyone else at least. He's doing his absolute best to focus on you only, so he doesn't even notice that he's unconsciously humping the bed until he feels another orgasm creep up. But he wants to get you there before him, so he speeds up his pace against you, watching as your back arches in a way he hasn't seen before. Your grip against his hair tightens, which makes him moan again, and you swear you're seeing stars. And before you know it, you're cumming against his mouth, rubbing against his tongue as much as you can to let the feeling last. Dongmin cums practically right after you, holding onto your thighs as hard as he can until he's cumming for the second time in an hour. He licks up all of your cum around his lips, smiling at you after. "Oh my pretty boy, that was so good," You smile back at him, voice low from tiredness. His heart pounds extra loud upon hearing your praise for him. He lays down next to you, exhaustion catching up with him, and with the way your eyes flutter, he can tell exhaustion caught up with you too. He takes an extra long look at you beside him, your eyes finally rest shut, and he moves a piece of hair out of your face and behind your ear. He's so lucky.

He's kissing you again. He swears he's addicted. Whenever you aren't with him, his lips feel bare. You're like a drug to him. He just can't get enough. He can't get used to the feeling of your hands in his hair, tugging on a few strands as you dig your tongue into his mouth. A small whine leaving his mouth as he brushes his bulge against you desperately. "Eager pretty boy?" He's unable to respond, so he just moans into your mouth, just the thought of entering you again makes his stomach churn. "I finally bought condoms," He says between breaths, "Took a lot of courage buying them." You wrap your arms around his neck, unbalancing him so he's laying down with you above him, "I love you." You love him.. "You know I love you too," His hands snake up under your shirt, lifting it off. "You're so good to me.." You say, kissing his neck, feeling his hips lift up into yours. You hold onto his hips, rubbing down on them, the friction between clothing causing Dongmin to moan. He loves any contact with you, just the feeling of you pressing against his dick makes his tummy flip. He's not sure what to do with his arms, eventually placing them on your thighs, feeling your body shift above him. You start undoing his sweats, gently pushing them down as he watches. You keep eye contact with him as you remove your sweats too, having less clothes keeping you away from his bare skin. You were feeling too lazy to actually remove the rest of the clothing so instead you just remove his dick from his boxers, and pushed your panties aside. Without breaking eye contact, you held his dick in your hands before sliding his tip against your folds. His eyes flutter shut, hands returning to your thighs. You circle your clit with his tip, your chest rising and falling. Dongmin letting out whimpers from the torturous movements. "Condom." You tell him in a quieter voice, you need him inside of you now. You watch as he messes with a box on his nightstand, pulling open the package. "You wanna do it?" You nod and grab the condom from him, slipping it onto him quickly. You take a deep breath before sinking down on him, biting your lip. Feeling Dongmin's hands tighten on your thighs, holding you down on his dick as deep as it can go. He pushes up into you, feeling your hands quickly hold him down. "Wait," You stop him from thrusting up into you again. "Let's just stay like this for a little bit." He doesn't respond, but he holds you tightly, as if you were about to float away. "I want this to last forever." It can. He can make that happen. "Angel.." Dongmin starts, kissing the top of your head, "I'm waiting for you.. I want this to last forever too, but I'm not sure if that's what you want.." You close your eyes, feeling the wetness from your tears, "It is what I want. I want you. I only want you." Dongmin's never been so conflicted. How can you want only him,, but not accept it when he's giving his all to you? He doesn't respond, he just does his best to ignore the aching pain coming from his dick, trying to enjoy the only intimate moments you give him. He's not sure how much more of this he could take.

He unclips your bra and slips it out between the two of you, loving the feeling of your tits against his chest. A tear unknowingly falls down your cheek and onto his chest, which he felt, "Are you okay?" "Mhm." You nod, face not showing in his direction, "You can,,,, go now." He thrusts up into you, placing kisses all over your skin. You whip away any leftover tears, and sit up. You put your hands on his chest for support, whispering his name under your breath. He's also moaning your voice, his senses heightened whenever he's with you. "I'm yours, right?" Dongmin continues to thrust into you, "Tell me I'm yours.." "You're mine baby." A small smile appears on your face after looking down at Dongmin, his cheeks are red and his eyes are glossy, "All mine." He's determined to make you cum first, holding in his orgasm for you. You're his priority, you're his #1. "Min I'm close-" You say, now grinding on him as he thrusts up, looking at the way he's breathing heavily. "You're close too aren't you?" He nods, not opening his mouth or else he wouldn't be able to control his words. He's now slamming his hips into yours, closing his eyes and opening them just in time to watch as your entire face mirrors the intense pleasure of your orgasm. He came too. But he hardly noticed over how focused he was on your effortless beauty. You got off of him, laying down right next to him as you kissed his lips softly. He's staring into your eyes when your phone starts ringing. "Fuck," You get up and grab your phone as he watches, "Hey babe. No yeah I'm on my way." You hang up and go searching for the close sprawled on Dongmin's bedroom floor. He's just looking at you, watching you gather your clothes. "He needs me to come over, and he sounds pretty angry too." You smile at Dongmin before placing a kiss on his cheek. "Do you know where my panties are?" You frantically look around his room for them. "Leave them here." He holds himself up by his arms. "You don't need them." You look at him and tilt your head, "What if he finds out I was here with you?" "So what?" "Dongmin.. He can't find out." Dongmin's such a fool.

If he's left with his thoughts anymore, he might go insane. It's been going on for 4 weeks, but it's been 6 days since he has last seen you. According to you, your boyfriend suspects something is up, but Dongmin's the last person on earth he'd think you were cheating on him with. You weren't responding to his texts or calls either, he's starting to wonder if he's lost you again. You kept posting about being at parties with your boyfriend for the past few days, you told Dongmin you couldn't see him cause you were busy with school workload. Dongmin offered to help you with work, he even told you that you'd do it for you, and you still said no. He needed to fill that empty space you had been occupying, which is why he's standing in front of the door to a classroom that was currently holding the school's 'aspiring artist' club. He's been meaning to attend for quite a while now, but never had the actual courage to show up. He just needed something, anything, to get you out of his head.

When he opened the door, the classroom was empty. Did he have the wrong time? "Hey man, can you hold the door open for us?" He turned around to see two guys rolling a cart of instruments towards the door, he immediately moved out the way for them to get into the classroom. "Thanks. Are you here for club?" Dongmin just nods, the other boy putting the instruments in the back of the classroom. The first boy holds his hand out with a smile, "I'm Jaehyun and the one back there is Leehan." Dongmin opens his mouth to respond but Jaehyun continues, "It's only us here today because the other members had other things to do. But you're welcome to stay!" "I'm Don-" "Are you here cause you want to make music?" Jaehyun looks at Leehan, "We also want to make music! We love composing and all that, do you like composing?" "..." "You seem like you'd be more into writing lyrics, maybe even both." Jaehyun tilts his head, "Not much of a talker are you?" "He's not talking cause you're not letting him," Leehan playfully pushes Jaehyun out the way, "And I'm Donghyun not Leehan." The two of them stare at Dongmin, waiting for him to say something. "I'm Dongmin.. And I do enjoy composing and writing." Jaehyun looks like he could explode with happiness, "Would it be too invasive of me to ask if I could hear something?" Dongmin doesn't like showing people his music, not that he has many people to show it to, but what if the people he's showing it to doesn't like it? What if they're too judgmental? Thankfully Jaehyun and Leehan were very nice about it. They both had to cover their mouths from opening and made many comments about how talented he was, and that everyone should listen to it. "The girl you wrote the songs about is very lucky hm.?" Jaehyun attempts to make small talk. It would've worked literally any other day but Dongmin was here specifically so he didn't have to think of you,, and now he's forced to think of you all over again. He smiles at Jaehyun, helping set up the drum set they were unpacking, "I guess," He shrugs, "She has a boyfriend." "She has a boyfriend and you're writing a song about her?" Leehan raises an eyebrow, "Does he know?" Dongmin looks up at Leehan, "Her boyfriend? No he doesn't know.. But she does." Jaehyun and Leehan exchange a look before Jaehyun puts the parts of the drum he was holding down and grabs his computer, "I think you should upload your songs." Jaehyun opens the soundcloud website, "Make an account." "Why?" Dongmin asks, taking a seat next to Jaehyun. "Look man, you clearly have unfinished business with this girl, and we can't help you with it." He sighs, "But the music you're making about her is actually really good, and you may be able to benefit from your feelings if you upload your music." Dongmin takes a seat next to Jaehyun, staring at the website, "I won't be able to upload them right now." "So do it later," Jaehyun pushes his computer towards Dongmin, "I just don't think these songs should be for our ears only." Maybe Jaehyun's right, Dongmin has always wanted to make his music private, but he's always been too scared to. This was probably a sign that he should, and so he puts his artist name as 'Taesan,' creates the account and makes a mental note to actually do something with the account later. "You're like a male heartbroken Avril Lavigne," Leehan mentions, cleaning up the mess of instrument cases, "Maybe except a little more heartbroken." Dongmin actually smiles at that, sinking in the uncomfortable chair. Maybe he's a little glad he met Jaehyun and Leehan. And who knows? Maybe he'll go famous and you'll fall in love with him then. -

The moment he finished uploading all his songs onto his newly created soundcloud, there was a knock at the door. And when he opened the door, he couldn't be happier. It didn't even take you two seconds before you were shoving your tongue into his mouth, slamming the door behind you. "I have 15 minutes." "Only 15 minutes?" Dongmin repeats between kisses, guiding the two of you to his room. You remove your hoodie, holding his face in your hands, "I have a date." He holds your hands in his and presses kisses down your neck, "Yet you're here.?" "I've felt very Dongmin deprived." You let out a low groan when Dongmin kisses the sensitive spot on your neck. "Yeah cause you haven't seen me in a-" He's interrupted with you moving your hips against him. He mimics your actions, hands moving to hold onto your ass, "Just shut up okay?" You say quietly. And he listens, because he will always listen to you. Your arms are wrapped around his neck, leaning on his shoulders for stability, still grinding your hips on him at a comfortable pace. He closes his eyes, just focusing on the slight release he's feeling from his cock because of you. You kiss all over his neck, sucking on a spot under his ear, feeling his hips hit up into yours. Feeling more desperate, you speed up, earning soft moans from Dongmin. You keep looking at the time and right as he's reaching his orgasm, you stop. "Fuck, I have to go." "Are you kidding??" Dongmin groans as you get off his lap, picking up your hoodie from off the floor. "I'm sorry," You pout, palming his bulge once before kissing him, "I can't stay longer." You check the time one more time before quickly making your way out of his room. "Why can't you.?" He follows your hurried body into the living room, watching you put on your shoes, almost losing balance and falling. You search for your purse, "Because we are dating." "You're cheating on him." He brings up. "Don't start with that." You flare your nostrils, "That's not fair." Dongmin's voice gets smaller, "Yeah well it's not very fair on me either." "I thought of you while having sex with him." Is the last thing you say before opening the door and walking out. He could just die. For multiple reasons. 1, you left. 2, you just told him a piece of information that he will think about every second of every day. and 3, his cock is still hard. And he never got to cum. He's patting himself on the back for keeping your panties that one time. He also has zero intentions on returning them. So maybe he is a perv. He takes them out of one of his drawers and drags his thumb across the crotch of it. So thankful he never gave them back to you. Just looking at them made him remember that night, the way you looked, the way you felt. All the thoughts flooded back to his cock, pressed against the cotton fabric of the same sweats he wore that night with you. You. That was all he could think about.

It seemed like all he was doing was thinking, even as he was ridding himself of all clothes in the way of his cock. Laying down on his bed, wanting you on top of him like you always are. He wraps the fabric of your panties around the tip of his cock before moving it in circles, his hips immediately jolting at the feeling. "Fuck.." Your panties feel really nice against his skin, especially when he starts thrusting into his hand, releasing moans from his throat. He's desperate for whatever release he can get, especially since he's only been relying on you for the past few weeks. You. It's all he can think about. It's all he's imagining,,, He's imagining that you're the one surrounding his cock, and not your panties. He's imagining that you're with him. Knowing it's your panties touching him only makes his dream feel real, and he speeds up his, knowing he's been wanting to cum since he was with you. The way his hand moves around his cock causes him to breathe heavily, noticing his long awaited orgasm approach, making him go faster. He's repeating your name in-between 'sorries' as cum shoots out of his cock. His chest falling as he opens his eyes, reality setting in. He stares at your panties in his hand, now covered in his cum. He really hates your boyfriend.

Dongmin knows he can't keep fueling this. He knows cheating is wrong and yet he's helping you cheat. His heart doesn't know any better. At the end of the day, he's the one making you cum, he's the one taking care of you, so he really can't understand why you just wont end your relationship. I mean you let him cum inside of you the very first time you guys had sex. So obviously it meant something for you.. His brain just can't seem to overpower his heart no matter what he does. He could honestly just cry. He's starting to feel bad for himself. Your words don't match your actions, and he still doesn't exist to you outside of the privacy of either one of your bedrooms. But he keeps doing this to himself, he keeps entangling himself with you. And he's about to do it again. Your boyfriend just left, and you had asked him to come over. Normally people who know they're in a bad relationship, or whatever you can call this, would say no and turn around, and maybe even go home. But he's Dongmin. Someone who is so in love with you that he would do anything. Even if it meant just being a fuck buddy. Even if that meant helping you cheat. It takes you a moment to open the door, smiling at the sight of him. "Sorry, I was just tidying up a bit." "For me?" He can't help but smile, especially when you plant a kiss on him right after too. You make a small pout with your lips and softly caress his cheek, "Of course for you, silly. Who else?"

Dongmin loved everything about you. But if he had to dislike one thing, it would be the way you lead him on. How you pretend like you like him, but only when it's just the two of you. How you acknowledge your boyfriend is nothing compared to him, and yet you stay with him. Why? "I've wanted you so bad." He says, wrapping his arms around your waist. You look up at him, smile slowly fading as you stand on your tippy toes to kiss him again. Not speaking back, just responding with your actions. And he knows you've wanted him just as bad when you bite in his bottom lip so you can sneak your tongue into his mouth, earning a groan from him. "How badly?" You finally respond, batting your eyelashes, not taking your eyes off his. He leans in to kiss you, "So badly." He whispers before placing his lips on yours, holding your head up with his hand gently. You manage to wrap your legs around his waist, feeling his hands come to hold you up without breaking the kiss. He could kiss you forever.

He carries you to your bedroom like this, placing you on your bed as he stands between your legs. He wishes he could kiss you forever. You grind your hips against his, feeling his cock grow against you when you grab his hair. He's kissing you as if he's never kissed you before. Like he wants what he can't have. He can't have you. So he takes whatever time he can get with you, through all the obstacles in his way, even if it's a secret. As long as he gets some of you,, a little piece of you,, at least. He removes your clothes slowly, admiring you again, dragging his fingertips across any part of your body he can touch. Your hand grabbing his, "Dongmin." You snap him out of the trance you put him in, and he realizes he's the only one fully dressed. But he's frozen. He can't move. He doesn't want to move. Normally you would tell him to snap out of it, but today you don't feel like doing that either. Instead you help him out of his clothes, placing a soft kiss on the middle of his stomach. "Come on Min," You shake his arm, speaking in a very soft tone, "I'm sure whatever you're thinking about can wait." You. It's all he can think about. It's all he's ever thinking about. "Sorry," He let's go of your hand, heading to your dresser for a condom. He knows all too well about where you keep them. He pumps his cock a few times before sliding it on, going back to you. "My pretty boy..." Is all that you say before he's entering you, making your back arch. Your pretty boy. He will always belong to you. He holds onto your legs as he thrusts into you, watching as you hold onto your bedsheets, your fists balling up. Despite his head making him unable to think straight, he's still keeping up good momentum. He notices a tear fall from your eyes, voice breaking every time he thrusts into you. He doesn't know why you're crying,,, how could he know if you don't even know.? Yet it makes him cry a little too. And he still doesn't know why,, but the air in the room today is heavy, almost suffocating. Why does he feel like he's losing you? He thrusts into you with more force, but not at a faster pace. He's taking his time. Moving his hands from your legs to your waist, so that way he could look at you from above. The way every part of your face reacts, the way your eyelashes look with your eyes closed, and even the dried up tears on your cheeks. Those dried up tears. He's sure his tears dried up too. You start grabbing at his arms holding your waist, fingers digging into them. "Oh shit, Dongmin." You open your eyes, wanting to look at his face while you approach your orgasm.

And he's approaching his too, with the way he's speeding up his hip movements. Watching as he bites his lip really hard,,, he doesn't feel like making much noise right now. He only wants to hear you. You both reach your climax at the same time, feeling his cock twitch inside you. Remembering the way you moan his name every time he makes you cum. He swears the sounds only get sweeter and sweeter. He rubs soft circles on the skin of your thighs, comforting you through the intense feeling after your orgasm. Waiting until you're breathing returns to normal before pulling out. Dongmin removes the condom and makes an attempt to throw it right at the trashcan in your room. And he puts his boxers back on before collapsing on the bed next to you. For the next few minutes you just lay in comfortable silence, your arm wrapped around his stomach. Your grip on him tighter than he's ever felt, and you look like you're contemplating saying something. "Are you Taesan?" You finally ask, watching as his face drops. He doesn't even look back at you, "What?" "Are those songs about me?" "No." He lies. That's the first time Dongmin has ever lied to you like that. You sit up, placing a hand on his, "You can't lie to me, Taesan." Now it's his turn to sit up, "Who told you about it." "A friend of mine. She found it and sent it to me," You play with your fingers, "The lyrics were oddly familiar." "I can't deny it.." When you don't say anything, he continues, "You know I'm in love with you." You quickly respond, "You can't be." "Why not?" Dongmin says grabbing his clothes, handing you yours, "I know you're in love with me too." You take the clothes out of his hand, putting them on, "I'm not." "Yes you are,, You can't lie to me either... I know you are." Dongmin's voice gets slightly louder, a small quiver appearing. "I can't keep waiting for you." You place your hands on your face, "This was such a mistake." "What?" You try to talk but all that comes out is a deep breath, "I'm sorry Dongmin. This never should've happened." He can't believe this is happening. You stand up, opening the door to your room and leading him to wear his shoes are. "But it did. It did happen. Multiple times." Dongmin says following you, "And you liked it. That's why you still slept with me just now, knowing I wrote songs about you, knowing that I really like you." He sensed this the moment he walked through your door. He knew something was wrong, that's why you cried. That's why he cried. He somehow knew it would be your last time together, but he didn't even realize it. You open your door, watching as he puts his shoes on and steps outside, looking back at you. "You're right, I did know.. and I did like it. I loved you." You look down at your feet, sniffling, "I just wanted to be with you one last time." He's unable to say anything, his throat is clogged. He has so much more he wants to say, yet he's scared. "I'm sorry. Goodbye, Dongmin." You make an attempt to smile, not being able to hide the tear falling down your cheek. He went from looking at your face to now suddenly staring at the front of your door. Out of the 8 billion people on earth, why him?

© kissohee this fic is deep in my heart, hope u enjoyed it as much as i did. (not sponsored by soundcloud), i also cant write endings so im sorry 😭

#in honor of how? release #so proud of bnd #boynextdoor #boynextdoor smut #taesan #taesan smut

[kim-woonhak]

"I tried to write lyrics that capture exactly how it feels to live life at my age. I’m really glad I’m 17 when it comes time to make music. That’s why I don’t want to let go of being a kid just yet." (via Weverse Magazine)

#boynextdoor #woonhak #kim woonhak #bnd #bonedo #*ambiv.gif #forbnd #useroro #oorieri #higabi #userbbie #words cannot express how fond and proud of him i am #the part of the interview where he talks about his grandpa made me so emotional :( #anyways i'm testing out some new sharpening settings.. will make a verdict after trying them on a few different types of gifsets #quality-wise theyre a little worse but theyre so much faster to make lol

[starryriize]

this love | leehan

a/n: ahh my first bnd post! please enjoy :) i think i'm pretty proud of this one, but as always let me know what i can work on 🫶🏼 on a side note, i love leehan so much it's driving me insane😭

summary: leehan confesses that he would like to take you on a date

"god. you're so in love with her." taesan rolled his eyes, sighing as he watched his best friend stare at the girl across the room. leehan scoffed, sighing as he retorted, "And you still haven't given me any ideas as to how to confess." leehan's heart nearly melted as he watched you fall over laughing with your friend over something that she said. he would not call this a crush or unrequited love, rather, he was convinced that you were his future. leehan loves many things from his friends to his fish, but he adores you. just as leehan got lost in his thoughts, taesan suddenly shrieked.

"what?! why are you so loud?" leehan rubbed the side of his head, wishing that taesan hadn't interrupted his thoughts. he turns to taesan, curiously asking, "Have you finally got an idea so i can confess? i think my heart might actually fall out of my chest if i don't confess, man." taesan playfully slaps leehan before placing his hand on leehan's shoulder. "listen," taesan began, "just walk up to her!" leehan turns to face taesan with a face that said you honestly think it's that easy...

there you were looking so beautiful, like a Disney princess that his older sister would tell him about when he was younger. gathering all of the courage left inside him, he began walking towards you, rehearsing what he wanted to say. okay, the walk was a little shorter than planned, he thought to himself.

"oh, leehan! hi, what's up?" you smiled at him. upon noticing he was staring at the ground, you tilted your head under his, catching his line of sight. "o-oh. uhm..." leehan scratched the back of his neck nervously, his eyes shifting everywhere but toward you. how was he supposed to be confident?

"well...ithinkyou'recuteandi'dliketotakeyouonadate." he spoke, all too fast for you to even comprehend what he said. you laugh, the kind of laugh that leehan wishes to hear every day for the rest of his life. smiling to yourself, you tease him asking, "Sorry, could you repeat what you said?" you caught the jist of what he said, but you simply wanted to hear it again. how could you not tease leehan when he's so adorable when he's shy?

before he could say his confession again, you took his hand in yours. staring into his eyes, you smiled saying, "yes, you can take me on a date." you didn't see it, but at that moment, when you took his hand, leehan's ears flushed pink. it wasn't from the cold.

and so began your relationship with leehan🫶🏼

#laur’s thoughts 🧚🏼‍♀️ #bnd leehan #bnd imagines #bnd fluff #boynextdoor imagines #boynextdoor #boynextdoor leehan #boynextdoor taesan #bnd taesan

[jaemified]

last christmas | part 2

“this year, to save me from tears ; ill give it to someone special.”

❆ pairing ; strangers to ?? park gunwook x fem reader

❆ genre ; fluff, slight drama +(ft taesan/jaehyun of bnd and yunjin of lsrfm ^^)

❆ warnings ; swearing, and kinda toxic relationships

❆ wordcount ; 2.4k

❆ synopsis ; beginning your second year of college and you feel youve hit rock bottom. on your own after your ex kicked you out, and taking on a seasonal job at a christmas shop to pay off student loans? everythings gone to shit. but then, you see him for the first time. and you realize there really was a little light in the darkness — your someone special.

♡ kona speaks ! - vaguely follows the plot of the film last christmas (2 part story)

read below the cut !

you cant say you were all to proud of yourself now.

sure, you were a pretty incredible student by high school graduation, with a 3.9 gpa and all (not to mention making it to seoul national university with your beloved boyfriend).

but, that was a year ago.

who wouldve thought it was possible for your life to go so far downhill, in just a span of roughly over 12 months?

your parents had found a better job opportunity in london, but your mom wanted you and your brother to be nearby.

meaning doing so without running it by you of course, which led to her enrolling you into imperial college as a foreign transfer student.

your boyfriend was pretty upset, but nevertheless, followed you despite your best efforts telling him not to (which meant him forfeiting his scholarship at snu).

once your family first heard he would follow suit to london, they gave you an ultimatum. and stupidly, you chose love over family.

they never approved of him anyway.

it was fine for the meanwhile.

at least until you broke up, and he decided to place the blame on you.

it was your flat you bought with your own money anyway. what did he ever do for you? how dare he kick you out of your own home!

-

you watched while gyuvin pulled your luggage out the closet, pushing it towards you.

“what the hell are you doing!” you exclaimed as he began to pull your clothes off hangers and throw them towards your direction.

“helping you leave.” he muttered.

“what did i even do? you just wake up one day and decide its my fault you followed me to another continent despite me saying you shouldnt? i told you not to leave your dreams behind, and you chose to ignore me!”

“well maybe you didnt try hard enough! i just know that i dont feel the same about you now as i did then.”

“so thats it?” you scoffed. “you realize this is my apartment? i pay the rent. you just practically live here for free. you cant just kick me out of my own home!”

he only ignored you and shoved piles upon piles of clothing into 2 separate suitcases, before gently escorting you to the door.

“gyuvin. gyuv! kim gyuvin! you cant just leave me here!” you begged.

“im sorry y/n. but its over. maybe if you hadnt taken all that mattered to me we couldve worked out.” gyuvin spoke before slowly closing the door, leaving you out in the cold wearing only pajamas.

“what the fuck am i supposed to do now..” you whispered to yourself, thinking of the only possible places to go.

sure your number of options was minimal, but you began with the only person you thought you could count on anyway.

“what the hell are you doing here?” taesan expressed in shock while he stared at you standing at his front door.

“need somewhere to crash.. surprise?” you shrugged jokingly, trying to lighten the mood as you and your brother werent on the brightest terms.

“goodbye y/n.” he sighed as he turned to lock you out.

“han taesan you let me in this instant! you cant just leave me to die in the middle winter!” you exclaimed, stepping through the door frame so it couldnt close.

“wheres gyuvin?” he scoffed. “i mean, youre the one who left me with mom and dad to buy a house for him anyway.”

“we broke up. blamed me and said i was the reason he lost everything in seoul or whatever. and he still kicked me out of MY home.”

taesan let out a heavy breath, looking around before pushing the door out more for you to walk through.

“..you mean it?” you pondered hesitantly.

“i suppose. i know we warned you about him and all, but youre still my baby sister.” he half heartedly grinned, pointing his head in the direction of his hallway as a gesture for you to come in.

you knew he was still mad at you despite not showing it, but knowing your brother, hes still someone who you could rely on in any situation.

“yeah. and uh- just a heads up, i still live with jaehyun and leehan, plus we dont have an extra room so.. we’ll just figure it out later.”

“thank you.”

-

a week later and you were doing better than before. though it wasnt easy to forget the incident, you still managed with the new living situation and all.

you woke up bright and early the following morning for work, ready to sell christmas ornaments for the rest of your life under your boss, huh yunjin, as you were now on break from school.

considering jaehyuns bed wasnt all too comfortable, you still slept pretty well. youre grateful he took the couch for you during that first week. ‘maybe ill get him something as a thank you.’

“what are you doing up so early?” taesan asked, holding off on the toast he was about to eat as he watched you rush downstairs.

“got work. not like dads willing to pay student loans anymore right?”

“the christmas shop, still?” jaehyun asked from his seat on the couch.”

“cant have a full time job as a full time student. it just worked out while im on christmas break.”

your brother nudged you in your stomach, motioning for you to thank his friend for his deed.

“-oh and thanks for taking the couch. i owe you. if you want food or anything ill cover the cost and pick it up in return.” you continued.

“its fine. i get it, the last few days were rough. dont worry about it.” he smiled.

-

after a quick 10ish (or so) minute walk to the street side store you worked at, you realized you were about 5 minutes past the time you were meant to clock in for your shift.

walking into the store, it was no surprise it was already crowded by 8:36am seeing as christmas was 2 weeks away now.

“y/n! y/n get over here! where is your uniform?” yunjin questioned as more of a whisper yell.

before you got the chance to reply, she quickly cut you off and said, “nevermind that. just please hurry to change and come help me with all these people!”

you wave off her dismissive behavior, and speed walk to the bathroom, making sure to pass the lockers to grab your uniform on the way.

“i forgot how itchy this was..” you grumble as you slip on the ugly elf costume yet again before leaving to the front desk.

“welcome in! please let us know if theres anything you need help with!” yunjin smiled as another person walks through the door, putting on her customer service voice.

“guess you dont need me anymore?” you asked jokingly, noticing there was no one within a 10 foot distance of the check out line.

“why must you take so long to change? i only had enough time to help half those people. the other half left after mr smith came in to return all the ornaments he broke again. he really knows how to hold up a line.” she sighed, moving in the direction of a huge box of broken material.

“you cant keep letting them return damaged product. we are losing enough money as is, santa.” you gestured to her new character change yet again as you realize where a good chunk of the budget went. “what was wrong with the reindeer costume?”

“it didnt make it clear that im the owner. the shop is called santas workshop dont you know? cant call it santas workshop if theres no santa.”

you laughed brightly at yunjin while she picked up the box to bring it to the back, just as another person walked in.

“welcome in!-” you call out, before cutting yourself off as you caught a glimpse of his face.

he was pretty gorgeous, you couldnt lie. from what you noticed, he had shortish black hair and big eyes to compliment his soft lips (not to mention his build was pretty insane too. he definitely works out).

the very same guy who caught your attention came to you shortly after, seeking some assistance on picking a gift, so you were happy to comply.

“im not sure what she’d like. its hard shopping for a 14 year old.” he said.

“what’s your relation to her? just like so i know how close you are so its easier to help.”

“my younger cousin. we arent that close, but its our first family gathering in a while and my mom wants me to get something for everyone. but shes always been.. far from an open book. so im lost”

you thought long and hard about what your cousins around that age like, before coming to a final decision.

you attempt to reach for the legos, but you almost fall over as it was just barely out of reach, sitting on one of the higher shelves.

carefully, he steadies you by holding your arm and reaches to grab the item you were aiming at.

“this?” the guy questions as he hands you the orchid lego set.

“yeah! im not sure if it suites her or anything but you cant go wrong with legos. the price isnt too bad and its suitable for anyone at any age for the most part.” you shrugged.

“that actually.. makes perfect sense. youre really good at your job, no? thank you.”

“no worries. if theres anything else i could help you with, weve got a new selection of stuffed animals your girlfriend might like.” you spoke like it was nothing, acting as if you werent just trying to get information.

“i actually.. dont..i don’t have a girlfriend.” he chuckled awkwardly as he brought up a hand to rub the back of his neck.

“oh really? im surprised someone like you doesnt have a pretty girl on your arm.” you said nonchalantly while you attempted to hide your smile (as if you were going to make a move).

“oh stop!” he waved off when you pointed out how red his ears were getting, assuming you only were trying to boast his ego (hes so unaware)((please get the hint)).

you walk back with him to the register so he could pay after realizing there wasnt much more he needed. “that’ll be 45 charged to your card.” you smiled.

“thank you, ms..?” trailing off as he notices he never actually got your name.

“han. y/n han. glad to be of assistance.”

“oh and- one more thing?”

“sure, what else?”

“what time does the store close?”

“10 at night. extended business hours every saturday.”

“surely youre joking? theres no one else here but you and the owner! thats in like 13 hours. youre working a 14 hour shift?”

“yeah but i get paid way extra so its fine, i really do need it. and yeah we are beyond understaffed but its alright.” you laugh, masking your exhaustion and dread with a bit of your lighthearted energy.

“really? i could never, must be so tiring.”

“it is, beyond imagination. but we do what we can.”

“get home safely then alright? its scary leaving that late especially considering the predators go after pretty ladies.”

“youre a tricky one arent you! how dare you mask that as an attempt to flirt.” you gasp playfully, “ill be fine, its not that far of a walk.”

“walk? youre not really walking home are you?” “well yeah, its not like i can drive when i dont have a car myself.”

“by any chance, might you need-”

“y/n! leave the poor man alone! i need you to stock the shelves in the ornaments section!” yunjin calls out from the storage room and interrupting the conversation.

“ill get to it.” you call back.

“well, i should get going then. it really was lovely meeting you.” he smiles.

“thank you, take care!” you reply, waving as he leaves.

it only hit you many hours later (quite literally an hour before you clock out) that you never got his name, and you regret it oh so much!

even yunjin felt pity for you, multitasking and listening to you ramble about the mysterious man despite all the work she had going on whilst you both sat in her office seeing as there were no customers beyond 9:30pm.

“why cant we close early if theres no one coming past a certain time? its not like anyone needs to be christmas shopping at.. 9:49 at night.”

“its just in case theres anyone who needs something, we cant miss a chance to make more money when we’re low on rent money.” she reminded.

“its only 11 minutes though.”

“and where do you have to be in 11 minutes? you live with your brother and his two roommates with no boyfriend and instead worry about a man you just met.”

“ouch, you need to go out more.”

“y/n you know i love you but i have no time for that nonsense. i need to have fun, yes, but money is essential. clubbing and drinking does not get you there, we both know that.”

-

finally, the dreaded 11 minutes were up and it was time to lock up after a crazy long shift. though, you cant say you were looking forward to walking home after standing in heels all day.

it was all most as if your prayers were answered (or just by a really strange coincidence(?)) that someone on a motorcycle stopped in front of you as you crossing the street.

“heard you needed a ride?” the guy from earlier said as he took off his helmet.

“what are you doing here? its late out.” you replied, acting calm as if your heart wasn’t beating out of your chest.

“cant leave you to walk alone in the dark, can i, pretty lady?”

“youre smart, ill give you that.” you smile when you feel your cheeks go hot.

“ill take you home. come on.”

-

maybe it wasnt the best idea to give a stranger your address, but he seemed nice enough, and pretty trustworthy to say the least.

you sat behind him as he drove through the streets, with your arms wrapped around his waist, your chest flush against his back as you wore the helmet he let you borrow.

he was so naturally warm you felt his body heat through the sweater he wore, thankfully keeping you from being to cold.

soon enough you were home, and he was walking you up to the front door.

“thank you for today even if it wasnt all that much, i had a lot of fun. you made my work day more.. bearable.” you smiled.

“of course, you can always call if you need a ride or anything. dont want you getting sick when its storm season.” he reminded before slipping you a postcard with his number on it.

“id love to get to know you more, but i just broke up with my boyfriend last week.. give me some time?”

sure you technically were the one who found him attractive first but, you never actually thought about initiating something more.

he smiled without a second thought, nodding his head slightly. “of course, i understand. just know ill be here, waiting.”

“wait! i never got your name?”

“ill see you later y/n!” he called out as he left, driving off in the opposite direction.

you sighed and unlocked the door with the spare key leehan gave you, and notice him sitting next to jaehyun when you walked in.

“you have a boyfriend and you didnt tell me? how could you! i thought we were friends.” leehan expressed dramatically from the couch as you took off your shoes at the door.

“not a boyfriend, just a friend. why were you even- whatever. wheres taesan?”

“in the bathroom.”

“thanks. uh- jaehyun is it okay if i change in your room since i left my clothes there?”

“go ahead.” he reassured. “oh! also, by the time you come back the pizza we ordered should be here too.”

you close the door behind you and pull out the index card from earlier to save the number as a contact. however, you couldnt help but smile as you read what it said below.

“your personal uber when you need it! +44 28xxx0xx29 -xoxo gunwook park :)”

#kpop imagines #fanfic #zb1 smau #zb1 x reader #zb1 #gunwook x reader #park gunwook #zb1 gunwook #gunwook fluff #kpop scenarios #zerobaseone x reader #zerobaseone gunwook #zerobase1 #zb1 imagines #zb1 scenarios #zerobaseone #gunwook imagines #le sserafim #boynextdoor #gunwook smau #gunwook icons #jaemified

[taehyuncult]

what do you think are the top 3 kinks of bnd's legal line 🤭

ANOTHER QUESTION I WAS WAITING FOR!! these are in no particular order and my own silly lil opinion so!! i started going in detail but i got scared so i deleted it but if you want me to elaborate i can <3

18+ stuff under the cut. mdni.

sungho: strength, praise (giving), being like a pleasure dom (???) i do not know the specific kink name for it but he’s a giver over all else, feels so proud when you cum so hard & it feels too good that you beg him to stop kinda thing.. maybe overstim?)

riwoo: marking, praise (giving + receiving), free use (receiving)

jaehyun: mommy kink/domination, edging (receiving), praise

taesan: choking, size kink, ownership (not in a toxic way!! in a hot sexy consensual way)

leehan: body worship, dirty talk, eye contact

#admin.kisa <3 #kisa’s hard thoughts #boynextdoor hard thoughts #boynextdoor hard hours #bnd hard hours #bnd hard thoughts #boynextdoor smut

[haknom]

moot game! ship your moots with an idol and give them a trope!

I’m gna do the mutuals i talk to most and know most about… 😭

@hoonvrs + sunghoon from enha: are we shocked cs i’m not!!!! they would def be like golden retriever x black cat ykwim LIKE saints cigs smau but kinda diff LMAOO their love story would definitely have a silly and happy ending and their goofy climax/downfall would be ummmm OOO they promised to play msp each other but the other forgot 😂😂 LMAOO OR ENEMIES TO LOVERS CS SAINT IS ALWAYSSS FIGHTING ON MSP SO SHE WOULD DEF BEEF W SUNGHOON ON MSP 😭😭

@joomiu + mark from nct: my fave ‘canadians’ (inside joke 😂) they would be cute don’t even. their trope would be friends to lovers for sureee. LMAOO remember when saint was trying to make u a tag nat and went “boy to my shirt” (i still laugh at this) That would def be their way of asking each other out “mark would u be the boy to my shirt” BUE no cs if they had a story abt them i would def read it in one sitting ……..silly x silly It’s perfect.

@weoris + dk from svt: as much as i HATE to say it…. they would match pretty well. their vibes r similar and their energy is also the same. they say the most random stuff yet everyone starts dyinggg of laughter (I’m everyone loud and PROUD) their trope would be rivals to lovers w their friends playing matchmake. Like imagine their friends all decide to hangout without each other knowing they’re both gna be there (?) and when they meet up the two r like Um wtf! def became rivals in the stuco i do Not make the rules 🙏

@soov + kai from txt: are we shocked it’s not jungwon?!?!?!?! anyways they’d be like umm classmates to lovers (?) Like they attend the same orchestra lessons (IS THAT EVEN A THING) and js admire each other from afar. LIKE THOSE POETIC AND FORMAL LOVE STORIES AWW and they’re shy when it comes to each other Ooooo hear me out. rei would def be the one to make the first move tho Idk how she’s so bold (i don’t think she is 😭 LMAOO)

@hanniluvi + jake from enha: now this hear me out. academic rivals to lovers okay Okay? one of them is like “okay guys!!! time for my academic comeback” and is going sooo well until the other shows up and ruins their whole streak LOL like that would acc be cute idc what anyone says. Imagine their love story was a smau…. they’d def argue in variables at some point ☠️☠️☠️☠️ Yes soph i’m starting the very very smart soph agenda TRUSTTT ur number one fan 🙏

@flwoie + hyunjae from tbz: OOOOO they remind me of one of my olddd fics where they were strangers to lovers and fell in love at first sight. walking their dogs (sona do u even have one…) and Maybe sona’s dog (i swear u do Not have a dog) starts going ballistic and runs to hyunjae and his dog making her spill her coffee on his shirt!!!!! she’s apologizing like crazy and he’s js saying it’s okay and stuff and they’re both js chatting trying to come to a mutual agreement of how to deal w the incident while their dogs r js playing together. Then after that. they both go home and text their friends like there is NOOO tmrw abt the person they js saw 😂😂😂 their dogs would def be playing matchmaker LMAOO

@jongsie + riwoo from bnd: i feel like riwoo would be HELLA good at arguing w people and so is rae when it comes to fighting me istggg 😒😒���� so therefore they’d have a lovers to exes to enemies to lovers type trope DANG THAT WAS LONGGG. they’re bickering and shit and when their friends are like “js kiss already gosh” and yes they get flustered and ‘disgusted’ at the thought when in reality they wouldn’t mind doing that….LMAOO! i think me listening to yours by raiden, chanyeol, leehi, and changmo is doing something…

@yenqa + jay from enha: OKAY! final mutual and i’d say their trope would be strangers to lovers and guitarist x pianist like think abt it they’re both musical geniuses who enjoy to play instruments in the abandoned music classroom at their school . They also had many chances to meet each other but were always one step delayed/ahead of one another sooo they never met Until they did!!! and hit it off immediately ykwim??? idk if that made sense but. they would def be greattt friends at first and the time either of them (leaning more towards jay) fall in love is when they watch the other (yen ofc!!!!) play at their school’s festival cs they look amazing and the tune sounds beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(bye i’m gna write all of these. they were acc such good ideas wth TIME TO MAKE THE SYBOPSIS!!!)

#🎧 — k’s asks #🍧 — k’s mutuals #enjoy reading ur love stories guys #all written by haknom 😘

[liquorisce]

updates and musings from ris-land (lol)

2024 has begun. it began 30 days ago, but i still find myself referring to the past (2023) as 'earlier this year' and all the grandiose plans for the future as 'next year' (2024). i am generally a grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side kind of person so i always start the new year feeling very excited for all the things that i will supposedly accomplish in the coming year that i never truly manage to do. this may sound defeated and cynical, but im not. i am still stupidly hopeful about all the kilos i will shed, the places i will visit (the only type of promise to self i have managed to decently come through on, over all these years), the friends i will make, the stories i will write and finish, the books i will read, the courses i will do.

now into the still-unravelling 30th year of my life, i have still magically sustained this enthusiasm regardless of the empirical evidence that attempts to prove to me otherwise. delulu is the solulu, etc etc. my greatest achievement so far is in making peace with the fact that i will only accomplish about 10% of what i want to do this year, and that it is okay. i occasionally even feel pride about these things, instead of sinking into the incurable feeling of self-loathing and dissatisfaction that was the trademark of my early twenties.

anyway!! on to my grand plans, i love talking about my plans:

this year a couple of us are producing an eremika erotica zine and i am thrilled to bits about this. i do not know the first thing about zine production, but i am carrying along with the hope that enthusiasm for good stories and art will probably result in a final product that readers will enjoy. i will finally, finally, finally, attempt to put forth all my feelings about priest eren and church girl mikasa in a lengthy oneshot that will find its home in the zine.

i will continue exploring boy next door eremika and learn a new way of expressing character dynamics that i am obsessed with, and hopefully finish a story that manages to make my own heart flutter. every story i write is uniquely designed to satisfy me, but bnd is special in that: in all the 40k words in my draft, every single word in its incomplete, chaotic, honesty make me feel terribly emotional. i am proud of this. i am no literary genius, nor am i a quick study, so i have simply been fooling around with words for so many years, in different patterns, trying to figure out what i like and what i don't. i am so happy that now i have figured this out. kind of. a little bit, lol. it also helps that i have extremely smart and talented friends who consume a lot of literature and teach me things. i feel very grateful for this!

i want to return to my romance-novel roots and finish i dreamed i left you, because i know in my heart of hearts that i am trash. i like trashy romance. i want to write trashy romance. (i want to publish one someday, so what better way to start than by finishing the goddamn fic).

amidst all this, frustratingly, an original idea is calling out to me and nagging me like a whiny baby wanting to be heard. i don't ever want any children of my own, so i will probably learn to take care of my original novel at some point. i have 5k+ words so far, but i am at the stage with it where i am so emotionally confronted by it that i cannot look at it for too long without seeing too much of me reflected right back. i generally don't like to write about myself unless it is in very carefully disguised little pieces hidden away amongst several thousands of words, so this is new for me. perhaps this too (personal confrontation, deep introspection, etc) is a turning-30 thing, and i am not ready for it. maithreyi and veena (the main characters of my book), however, seem ready for their story to be told, so we are currently figuring out this disagreement. maybe my goal for this year will be to "figure it out." we'll see.

unfortunately, however, i cannot afford for writing to be the center of my life, even though sometimes i delude myself into thinking so, so i have other goals that feel less negotiable because of time pressures and expectations from loved ones, or for the basic truth that i still consider them more 'important' / 'tangible' than my writing goals. (i just let out, a huge, disappointed sigh.) these goals include: developing fluency over the national language of the country where i reside, doing some culture and language exams for integration, and seriously contending with the fact that i might give up the nationality of the country that i was born and raised in. again, i have feelings about this that i haven't fully processed, but frustration with the religious and communal politics of my country remind me that sentimentality for belonging may not be worth it. the gap between what the world (the west) considers as a developed nation and a developing nation is too vast and i dont see it being overcome in the prime of my life. if the privilege of belonging (at least on paper) to a developed nation is so closely within my reach, then it seems only smart to grab it with both hands. but feelings are not smart, they are powerful. so we will see how everything plays out. i will hurtle towards these goals because it is what the child-me wanted. it feels simpler to think of it that way.

i'm not sure anyone is really reading this lengthy ass post, but if you are, i wish you a wonderful 2024. <3

#personal

[kickthecan-revolution]

I mentioned it here before, but I ended my therapy relationship with Elaine several weeks ago. I found myself more annoyed that she would frequently not remember people in my life who I bring up a lot, and she had this odd way of laughing at me that was triggering. At a certain point I asked myself, why am I doing this? I was afraid to end it which meant I needed to. I was kind of afraid how I’d do but I’ve honestly not missed a best - I had people over last night after they went to the Giants game, I’m very focused and centered at work; I’m ok. I’m good. And this opens the door for other kinds of coaching or support. I’m proud of myself and I’m grateful that I had the chance to maintain that for so long but it’s time to move on. We have a check in this week, but after that I want to be done, some.

BND and I chat maybe every few weeks? He mostly initiates it. His sweet cat is nearing the end, I knew her when she was first a kitten and he has to let her go. I’m so sad for him. said I’d be there with him or be there with her if he can’t- he’s taking her on lots of walks in the garden this week, and then we’ll see. I loved what his vet said, that in the later years, it’s helpful to think of our pets in terms of human yeas as they age. - she’s a 98 year old lady and it’s time for her to rest.

[aprilszn]

Your girl keeps winning. TXT's Taehyun and Hueningkai performed Endless Rain with Yoshiki at yesterday's MAMA AWARDS along with BND's Jaehyun, Riize's Anton, and ZB1's Han Yu Jin.

This is one of the best stages yesterday it's so good. TXT's vocals never miss. I'm so proud of them 😭 love the part where the audience sings with the choir. Gives me goosebumps

#My two worlds colliding once again #This is wild like #Txt #Hueningkai #Taehyun #Yoshiki #Mama awards 2023 #Aot #Snk #Youtube

[slytherinshua]

DID U SEE BND REACHED BILLBOARD TOP 200 & 2ND WIN ?!?!

yes i did omg im so proud of them ^^ i wonder if they'll win roty?? tbh i thought xikers would be the top contender for it but now i feel like bonedo might win??? tbh most of the rookies this year deserve it <33

#zanna answers the inbox!! #anon ⌦ .｡.:*♡

[kissohee]

bonedo & giving/receiving legal line!bnd x fem!reader ☆ nsfw ; wc : N/A ☆ mdni! warnings; oral (m/f)

☆ receiving: leehan is kind of obsessed with the feeling of your mouth on his cock. how you moan on him, sending vibrations up him, making him feel so close. he'll put his hands on your head, fucking into you, and it turns him on knowing he can take control of you. he also just loves the sight of his cum in your mouth or on your face. he finds it very erotic. as much as taesan loves making you feel good, he can't lie and say he doesn't prefer receiving oral. he might not be a head pusher, but he will entangle his fingers in your hair, and he'll drop small praises. always cums much faster when your mouth is around him, he just can't help himself. after he will make sure to whip your tears and clean up any mess he made on your face. ☆ giving: when it comes to sex, riwoo can have a lot of energy. and when i say a lot, i mean A LOT, even when giving you head. so much so that while others find giving oral draining, he actually finds it fun. he also likes seeing you fold from how good he's making you feel. your hands in his hair, your moans of pleasure, all of it makes riwoo wish he could do it all day. sungho just wants to do anything that makes you feel good. it's all about you. he'll drop anything to eat you out if it's what you want or ask for. he'll even skip meals, cause why would he eat food when he could eat you? he would do it all day, every day, if you ask him to. ☆ both: jaehyun finds pleasure in anything so he really doesn't mind either. if you would rather feel pleased, he's got you, if you want to please him, he's just as happy with that as well. when you give him head, he's very squirmy. he finds himself unable of staying still, and he might even cry a little from how good you are. when he gives you head, he'll feel proud of himself when he hears moans leave your mouth. might get so needy during, that he'll rub himself in the same pace so he can cum with you.

ill start writing more for bnd i promise, i have a taesan fic is in the works! - 🐠

#boynextdoor smut #jaehyun smut #sungho smut #riwoo smut #taesan smut #leehan smut #bnd smut #bonedo smut

[lunicho]

hi bunny!! happy bnd comeback day and congrats on reaching 600 followers u def deserve it<333 i hope you’re having a good day today!

side note: i’m having major thoughts about subby riwoo with an oral fixation<333 but ik you’ve got ur new side blog for bnd and riize so i could maybe bug u there about it sometime?

im super proud of bnd and their new comeback<333 haven’t listened to the whole album yet but “our” is soo good i love it i love it

- 🍑 anon

hi peachy 🥰 tysmm, im having a pretty good day!

please do stop by my other blog omg!! i would love to hear your thoughts :o i need to get that blog up and running so that would be really nice actually!

when u listen to the album let me know what you think!! i loveee so let's go see the stars so much it might be my new favorite bnd song 🥰

#⋆ ˚｡⋆౨ৎ˚ bunny chats <3 #🍑 anon

[wheeboo]

yuyu 🤝🏼 rania — a weird relationship with sleep

omg ur getting into kpop story is SAAURE CUTE ☹️☹️ it reminds me of my younger sibling , i was watching the music video for candy by nct and he just went " oh who's that " now he stans nct svt exo bnd 🫶🏼

and your music taste - it's so aaahashsh i cannot explain but you know the album cover for that cardiagan song by Taylor ? The b/w one in the forest ? You're the epitome of that 🤭 you're mysterious and magnetic in a rather soft way ? i can't explain I'm sorry 🚶🏻‍♀️

- yuyu 🎀 유유

SERIOUSKT EYGSHS. okay but guess who actually had decent sleep last night :D hehe i’m proud of myself

no pls that’s so cute 🥺🥺🥺 passing on your obsession to your younger sibling like it’s genetics atp LMAOOO

omg really ?? 🥺 cardigan is def one of my fav songs from that album too i’m glad i give off those vibes ^-^ hmmm for me i would say you’re definitely like the cover for her Lover album cuz you’re so bright and sweet and colourful !!! 🫶🫶 and just a chaotic sweetheart to talk to BAHHSNSHSB

anyway !! how has your day/night been so far??

#유유 anon #answered

[minkkumaz]

BLUSSHING im glad u agree!! bonedo is so wave to earth coded.

AND THE TAESAN ONE U THOUGHT ABT? so true. all the edits of bnd ive seen on tiktok are just wave to earth songs so i got really inspired ><

ive also been listening to ALOT of 8turn. their ost they made for the kdrama was actually SUPER SUPER good. i love 5th gen boygroups so much its so hard to think abt a possible roty from them.. i seriously cant stop staring at minho whenever i see a video of all of them.

8turns so so so good im gonna have to read ur 8turn fics soon 🤞🤞

-🍉

YESS OF COURSE YOUR WAVE TO EARTH CORRELATIONS WERE SO GOOD ><

and omg hearing that you've been listening to 8turn more makes me so happy! they're truly my pride and joy and i love talking about them hehe. none of my friends besides jordan are that into 8turn, so i feel like a bottle waiting to explode LOLL also minho is so valid like he is just so handsome omg

though i am extremely loyal to yungyu >< if i had the chance i would be dropping paragraphs about him like im just THAT passionate about that man.

i'd love to hear any of your thoughts on my fics <3 unfortunately i don't have any works for minho up as of now (as well as jaeyun and yoonsung :,>) but i totally will in the future! and don't worry, i don't have much angst and all of them have happy endings except for this haemin one! stop im about to recommend my own fics bc im so excited.

i remember you saying you found seungheon quite pretty, so this fic i have up for him is something i feel you'd enjoy! it's super fluffy ^_^ but my personal favorite (AND NOT BECAUSE I'M BIASED) is this yungyu fic is my all time most prized thing i've ever written as of right now i'm so proud of it! i really like that whole adventure time series in general, idk if you've seen that show but it's very special to me and my childhood <3

OBVIOUSLY THIS IS NO PRESSURE FOR YOU TO READ THEM RIGHT NOW BUT THESE ARE JUST SUGGESTIONS OF WHAT I THINK YOU MIGHT LIKE AJAJA

#∞ ₒ ˚ omi's chats #༊*·˚ anonymous peoples #🍉 anon ·˚ ༘ ✎

[guigz1-coldwar]

'Next moves' : New chapter for "Always for the greater cause..." is out !

Chapter Summary: Two days after Bell could get introduced to her teammates and having decrypted the important file from Rebirth, the next moves of the team are planned...

To read it on AO3, click here!

Taglist: @snowgoldwaylon , @clxudtea , @efingart

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23rd February 1981

Yirina 'Bell' Grigoriev, Ex-KGB, Perseus

Perseus safehouse 'D8' in East-Berlin, East-Germany

The day was seeming very normal for me in the afternoon since we were enjoying some peace for the moment but only for the moment as Wraith & Stitch were soon going to come back to the safehouse to make the briefing of our next mission, still wondering where my first operation after coming back in the living world was going to happen so for the moment, me, Knight & Bellamy were enjoying the moment in the main room.

Right now, I was in fact looking at Knight doing his exercise with his own punching ball and helping him too to train while our Bellamy....well, as our guess, he was still at his desk, listening to some rock or metal music as we managed to hear a little but this time, he was well awake and only one earset, letting his right ear free as he was working on some paperwork that Stitch gave him to do.

"This is how the Irish fight, Bell," Knight spoke up, stopping to punch the punching ball to look at me.

"I can say that I'm impressed," I stated to him as I was leaned against a wall a few meters from him, arms crossed. "I'm pretty sure that the MI6 got some teeth to repair each time they're getting in your way," I added with a grin.

"Of course, either broken teeth..."He stopped himself to move, grabbing a little towel on his desk to clean up the sweat on his face. "Or dead bodies, the latter more often," He proclaimed, winking at me and throwing the towel back to its place after he was finished to clean himself up.

"Chaos & destruction," I whispered, remembering the reasons for his presence in the Collective.

"Ain't doing charity with those guys, our work is to kill every fucker in our way," He exclaimed, looking at me as if I was a newbie but I took it well as he was just joking at me. "MI6, CIA, and even the fucking BND are just in our way, we kill them," He continued, breaking a laugh out of his mouth.

"You prefer to kill MI6 agents, right, Knight?" It was Bellamy's voice, earset off his head, put on his desk and looking at Knight with a curious look.

"Why wouldn't I like to kill those British scums?" He asked him back, turning around to look at him. "Guys proclaimed to be loyal to the scumbags that we call 'royal family', no wonder that I left, those guys aren't the ones I'm liking," He gave up his opinion on the MI6, silently laughing at his words.

"And yet, you can't kill one perfectly, remember last time?" Bellamy raised his eyebrows to Knight, crossing his arms. "It was her that pretty beat your ass up until I arrived to save the day," He told him, sounding proud of what he has done as I was just curious of what they were talking about.

"What are you talking about?" I asked both.

"The time where I & Knight were sent to get some intel on an MI6 operation, ended up badly for our Irish guy over there," Bellamy replied, gesturing towards Knight with his left hand and I could see Knight roll his eyes around.

"Big talk, even you didn't manage to get her, so don't put the blame on me, please," Knight scoffed in a half-serious tone, gesturing with his hands to Bellamy to...shut up.

"Ain't my fault either if she succeeds to have back-up, almost beating me up too before we could flee in safety," Bellamy said, spreading his arms away. Seriously, I was looking at two children inside adult bodies. "Maybe if you weren't using your Irish way to fight, we could have got her," He told him.

"And you, fighting like an idiot," Knight joked, causing Bellamy to got up from his seat, looking upset and causing me to move away from the wall to get between the two, not wanting to have a fight in here, breaking the good mood in here.

"Hey, not fight in here, okay?" I stepped, spreading my arms towards the two of them, Knight has not moved from his spot, my left hand touching Bellamy's chest. "You two maybe need to chill out, each hour, it's looking like you want to beat the shit out of each other," I suggested, looking at both of them.

"Bellamy doesn't know too much the boundaries between what's funny and what is not, to be honest, Bell," Knight tried to explain, keeping a cool attitude as I was keeping Bellamy to not do this for the better.

"Oh, fuck off," Bellamy cursed to Knight, trying to take a step forwards but stopped by my hand. "You know, I can tell you both a lot of things about Rebirth Island and the gulag, we'll see if you're going to laugh," He raised up his voice against him & me too, surprising me.

"Uhm...I was there, you know," I spoke up, also surprised that he was thinking as if he was the only one to suffer from the gulag in here. "You don't know to tell me that," I added to him.

"Uhh...yeah, you were there, of course," Bellamy said, getting off my hands and looking somehow more relaxed and calm than before he tried to punch Knight. "I'm sorry, just...forget about it, might be my no-funny personality coming in," He apologized to me before he sat down back on his chair, giving me some freedom to get my arms along my body until then, the main door of the safe house was getting open.

I peaked eyes up as the door was just at my sight perfectly to see Stitch & Freya, both dressed in casual clothes, Wraith wearing a light red sweater and black jeans as Stitch was having a very dark leather jacket and a sort of cotton beige sweater, not masked at all and it was obvious, we were in the middle of East-Berlin, no needs to walk around in military clothes. It was the big silence when the three of us were hearing them coming in, prompting us to stay silent too as the two were stepping inside the main room, a little bag in Wraith's hands.

"Well, it seems that you three aren't talking a lot," Stitch implied, looking at us and we all exchanged glares with each other, agreeing on our faces to faint to agree with Stitch.

"Yeah, we all enjoy a bit of peace without talking a lot, you know," Bellamy was the first one to speak, talking to our place. "Apart from that, anything new?" He asked the two in a serious voice.

"Of course, we're going into our first mission tonight," Wraith replied to him, taking out a big file in her hands out of the bags she was having with her when she entered the safe house.

"Tonight? All perfect from me," Knight claimed, knowing that he was going to be in action soon...chaos & destruction.

"And for that, we're just going to cross the wall," Stitch revealed to us, gesturing in a direction that was supposedly where the Berlin Wall was, making my eyes go wide. "Wraith is going to explain everything, go on," He then turned around to look at Wraith who was putting on a little dashboard near Stitch's desk, a few pictures.

"Thanks to Bell's decryption of the file, we succeeded to have a name from it: Zasha Smirnov;" She started, pulling out a picture of the file to put it on the dashboard, seeing on it a young-looking person, dressed in a suit.

"Wait, we're talking about THE Zasha Smirnov?" Bellamy moved away from his seat, apparently knowing that person. "The very traitor that defected to those tea drinkers?" He added as Stitch nods at him clearly.

"They were one of us?" I asked to Stitch.

"Yeah, used to be one of the main cryptographers before they decided to defect, taking their brother with them and joining the MI6," He responded, giving me details about that person in particular. "We called them Krypto...or traitor for Bellamy," He continued, giving me this as an additional bonus.

"Anyway," Wraith purposely coughed to get the attention back on her. "Smirnov is actually in West Berlin to meet up with an Ex-KGB agent named Katinka Goodman, it said that she's having in her possession documents about a confidential CIA operation but also about Greenlight," She told us, everyone staying silent and even Stitch was attentive to her.

"The two agreed to meet up in a small bar near the wall, our first target is going to be Katinka," Stitch took the lead, staying near his desk and looking at us. "Even if the two are going to meet in that bar, we might think that things could change, making her put the priority on her to give us the location about where Krypto could be hiding," He clarified, telling a risk for that mission.

"So, we're like following her until she got us to where this Smirnov is, we may take them away with us and those documents too," I suggested and Stitch & Freya nodded simultaneity at me.

"They're going to meet tonight so the rest of the day is for preparations," Stitch exclaimed, removing himself away from his desk to get up. "Knight, prepare the necessary equipment: listening devices, everything," He ordered.

"That's good to me," Knight complied before he starts to walk away from the main room towards a side door, leading to the armory of the safe house

"And us?" Bellamy demanded, gesturing me & him with his fingers.

"You're preparing yourself, Bell, needs to talk with you too," Stitch responded before he gestured that it was the end of the briefing, making Bellamy looking back at his desk to 'prepare himself' while I was staying up, looking at Wraith & Stitch, the latter getting approached by Wraith.

"We got agents ready to move on him, we just need to get Krypto alive and it will be good, we had to get them alive," Wraith was seeming to suggest something to Stitch who only looked at her as he was going to sit on his chair.

"Your suggestion has been noted, Wraith, you can go now," He simply said, prompting Wraith to walk away from his desk to join hers as I was walking now to see Stitch as he asked me a few seconds ago, wondering what he wanted from me. "You're okay, Bell?" He asked me.

"Yeah, I'm good," I said, reassuring him as he was sounding a bit worried. "It just that me & you didn't talk too much since I woke up," I stated, having not seen him a lot since I was installed in East-Berlin.

"Got no choice, I had to go around the city to meet with people," He defended himself about it, understanding the position he was in now. "Anyway, I needed to talk you about some little things," He revealed, getting my attention and staying focused. "At first, you might need to know that you're important in here, that's why you're going to be one of the main actors of the mission,"

"I understand, it's part of the job," I told him and even if I was out for a month, I was looking somehow great & good to go on a mission. "I didn't forget what happened in Rebirth Island for nothing," I reminded him of that, a normal voice from me.

"Yeah, you did," He muttered, slowly tapping his left fingers on the desk. "And the last thing, I need you to stay focus...to stay pro-..."

"Hey, Stitch, got a call from you," Bellamy's voice interrupted him from across the main room and I turned around, seeing him holding a phone in his hands, showing it to him. "It's Perseus," He added.

"Fine, you can leave, I've got a call to make," Stitch sighed, going up from his chair to join Bellamy's desk and leaving me alone.

It was always like that with him, always something that's interrupting our discussions like yesterday must be something I shouldn't try to not do this much if I don't want this to happen and then, I was trying to find something to do until my eyes went on Wraith, sit on the chair of her desk, crossing through the big file she was using for the briefing and checking it fully.

In me, I was suddenly urging to go talk with her about the mission and maybe other things so I took a deep breath...or two...or three before I decided to gather myself around to walk towards her, hoping that I wasn't going to rebuffed or interrupted by something outside. I then arrived near her...not even saying a word out of my mouth.

"Bell, you want to talk?" Wraith sensed my presence near her, turning around to look at me on her chair, seeing her for the first time with glasses on her eyes.

"Uhm...yeah...you're looking pretty with glasses..." I complimented even if it wasn't the thing I wanted to say to her...dammit...it's making me blush...

"Oh, thanks for that, I'm glad to hear that," She said in a good voice, holding her glasses on the side with her fingers. "But I'm sure that you don't want to talk about it, do you?" She presumed.

"Yeah, it's about...the mission: why do we need Smirnov alive?" I asked her, wondering what was the goal of having them back to our side...by force. "It's not seeming risky to do?"

"Stitch is maybe thinking that Smirnov needs to die but we can persuade them and their brother to reevaluate their allegiances," She explained, checking up the fingernails of her right hand, her thumb on her ring finger. "Having them alive is better for me," She added.

"Understandable, I'll try to see if it's possible," I agreed on this choice despite the danger of it. "I'll try my best for you," I affirmed to her and she nodded to me with a smile...that smile was making me blush for the sake...

"Good, I didn't know that you got a soft side," She commented, pointing out to my blushing, making me blush more than before. "You're very special, Bell and you might need some rest," She advised me in a clear voice.

"I'm good, I didn't work too much today," I reassured her, gesturing that it was fine for me, not even feeling tired at all, last day was more into resting than working.

"Then, if we're still alive after that mission, maybe you will be open for a drink then?" She demanded at me, forming a grin on her face, looking curious to know my answer to it.

"Oh...I...why not?" I replied to her, not sure of it as I scratched the back of my head. "I'll see how it goes to talk about it, you know," I said, mixed between saying yes or saying no, causing me to say that I was going to think about it, it was better to tell her that.

"I understand," She smiled at me, not even removing her eyes from me, as if I was like someone important to her. "You know, I'm really meaning it..." She spoke her, putting her hands back on her lap to check me on from top to bottom and that thing did make me blush again...& again...

"You're really special for someone like me...I like that..."

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Hello! Love your Tumblr. I'm curious about something. Don't you think since OMD Peter's general attitude towards sex changed? It seems he is almost like a prude now, because for me in the comics back on 70's and 80's it was subtle understood he even engaged in casual sex. I mean, between the first kiss with MJ and their first time there wasn't even a date. And his first time with Gwen (Spider-Man: Blue) they weren't even in a relationship. What has changed?

This is a super interesting question because I never thought about it like that but I think you’re definitely onto something, although it’s hard for me to put my finger on what, and in writing this I’m not sure it’s a shift with Spider-Man specifically as more just how Marvel has shifted on the whole. As the world’s foremost Spider-Man-centric sexologist, I wouldn’t call Peter a prude post-OMD exactly -- he definitely was still having no strings sex with Felicia on multiple occasions, including some apparently frequent sexting:

(Web of Spider-Man v2 #11)

Which, like, two consenting single adults, nothing wrong with that. He was also definitely sleeping with Mockingbird during their brief relationship, especially when their connection is summed up at one point as purely physical. He has a one night stand with his roommate, Michele (of apparently no relation to MCU Michelle even though the name is RIGHT THERE), that ends disastrously. And while the circumstances of his relationship with Cindy are not the best (read: creepy as fuck, Dan Slott), it’s not like you can deny the sexual component to it. So I think the disparity on how Spider-Man comics treat Peter and sex pre- and post-BND kind of narrows down to two things, just spitballing here.

First is how odd his relationship with Carlie Cooper is compared to his other long running relationships. Not only were they extremely slow to get into it and even to simply kiss, it took ages for them to get into bed after that, which isn’t exactly Peter’s style traditionally. (I wouldn’t say he and MJ weren’t dating when they first slept together between Amazing Spider-Man #149 and #150, since we do see them go out on dates together -- like ASM #136 -- but I wouldn’t call them exclusive, either.) There’s a real lack of chemistry between him and Carlie compared to his other relationships, which, on the one hand, I think could easily be attributed to the fact that Carlie is the first serious relationship to follow on the heels of One More Day and so it was always going to feel unnatural because the pushback is just incredible: not only do the fans wants Peter back with Mary Jane, I’d say the very narrative spirit of Spider-Man wants Peter back with Mary Jane. This is his declared true love, his soulmate, the person he had a child with, someone with whom he shared a relationship so deep the devil wanted to own it -- and we’re measuring it up against his blossoming relationship with a brand new character with no established history, no previous reason fans should get attached. Both readers and the book, on a spiritual level, were just waiting with him to get back with Mary Jane, and so the relationship with Carlie just continually floundered because it couldn’t measure up to that level of history. It goes slow because the brakes are constantly being pumped.

(ASM #647) Also, when setting up your brand new Spider-Man relationship, it’s a little weird to feature their first kiss while she’s dressed up as his fan favorite ex, just saying. Not exactly setting up the clean slate insinuated by the text.

Then there’s the very first panel of the very first Brand New Day-only Spider-Man issue, Amazing Spider-Man #546:

What better way to confirm Peter is canonically single now than to have him awkwardly describing him making out with a girl in a club, huh. “It totally gives you the wrong impression” except, when single, Peter is a gigantic flirt, so. It goes back to rewriting the narrative of Peter as this nebbishe nerd and it’s just such a miracle he gets the girl -- the ultimate stereotypical comic nerd fantasy that you can be this unappreciated super genius who is also a slovenly mess, average looking at best, and through no effort on your own part, hot club girls are just gonna throw themselves at you. The relatable superhero recycled through the lens of comic book nerd stereotype. (Nobody should be proud about relating to this if they do. Women aren’t prizes for having been unappreciated all that time you were the smartest kid in 10th grade.)

I think the big difference in pre- and post-OMD sex scenes are they used to be fun. 

(Web of Spider-Man #36)

(ASM #298 -- frankly that they got this one past the censors is amazing.)

Now there’s always this frisson of guilt or wrongness attached: the weight of Peter’s previous relationships and his hidden identity with Carlie, who got his mask tattooed on her hip before their first time for Christ’s sake, his “I just can’t help myself” approach to having sex with Felicia while simultaneously keeping his identity re-hidden from her when we know that it actually did mean something to her to know it, the “spider-sides” dubious consent of he and Cindy, Lian using him for her own purposes, the fact that we knew things were never going to work between Peter and Bobbi. Even currently with Mary Jane, One More Day’s pact hangs over everything. It’s never just fun. And you can ascribe guilt to Peter in many situations, but having it hang over consensual sex I think sends a pretty dicey message. I mean, his actual affair with a married woman contained less weird moralizing than some of the above. So in writing all of this out I don’t think it’s that Peter specifically has gotten more prudish about sex, it’s that the series itself has. 

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