#sorry i just needed to vent

[safety-pin-punk]

Seriously, if your idea of a good time on the internet is to belittle, bully, and spread hate, you need some sort of help in your life. Cause thats just sad.

What is the point? Does it somehow make you feel better about yourself? Idgaf if you agree with the other person or not, if your only intention when you get on this site is to judge other people without any care in the world for the consequences of it, then you need to sit down and take a long, critical look at yourself.

Fucking christ. Learn how to be a decent human before you decide to get on the fucking internet again.

#sorry i just needed to vent #i need to get a banner or something with a dni for ‘big’ posts #but oh my goddddddddd #the amount of hate and bullying I witnessed JUST GOING THROUGH THEM TO BLOCK THEM ALL

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me: sits down to write feeling full of inspiration

chronic pain: no 🙃

#sorry i just needed to vent #UGH #i mean obviously having a chronic pain condition is never fun #but when it decides to sink its teeth in when i just want an evening to capitalise on the inspiration that’s been building up all week #it’s just so frustrating #getting to sit down in the evenings to write is one of the few times i get to feel peaceful and comforted #and i’m just so done with my body taking that from me too #sorry i will resume my usual flaily milex posting soon i’m sure #but tonight i’m just feeling sad and a little bit scared of my own body #and my flatmate and best friend are otherwise occupied #so apparently i’m venting about it here instead #chronic pain #lulu posts

[rwdelady]

You know what's very specifically infuriating about MK? But more about Miles?

After more or less 10 years, in which, they spent over half of them being the main voices in the writer's room since Monty's passing, they STILL dare to pull the "Oopsie, sorry guys we're still learning about how to write our own show, and we made boo boo again, please be patient :3"

And their stans still buy that shit up!! 😬😬

And I don’t understand why people keep giving them leeway, as if they don't know how to be writers, because just we're clear, I have problems believing this was EVER true, even during the first 2 volumes. They weren't amateurs or recently graduated or anything, they had been working for YEARS in RvB, there's a world of difference between being unfamiliar on how to write for a certain genre, and not being able to write, period.

They kept pulling shit like "we had no idea how to do x", specially about the ship teasing and the queerbaiting, and I believe them, because I'm not saying they are evil masterminds or something either, that would be giving them way too much credit, I'm mostly talking about that saying of how suficiently advanced incompetence is indistinguishable from malice.

They are incompetent writers, to the point of being downright malicious and sometimes even hilarious. And whether they themselves are aware of that or not, they pretty much keep pulling the same incompetency excuse, when people point out rvbby's writing flaws, and then turn around and repeat them :/

#rwde #rwdelady talks #sorry i just needed to vent #but yeah

[petrxsolano]

im just…… i mean even before it released i knew netflix was not gonna renew warrior nun i was already resigned to that fact netflix literally set up the show for failure, it went years without mentioning it, it released the show in a hurry without zero promotion and despite all that we got the numbers and still wasn’t enough this so called golden age of television is just fucking trash and I’m tired

#sorry i just needed to vent #i am very mentally drained today and this did not help #these news* #warrior nun

[thatrandomlemononyourcounter1]

TW: vent

I feel so useless.

I feel annoying.

My brother, my mom, my dad, and I were watching a movie and after the movie, we were talking about a video game. (I have ADHD btw so my brain often goes zoom) I really like this game, so I went to go start talking about it, and my brother [in a joking manner] cuts me off and says: No one cares.

No. One. Cares.

Yeah, so that hurt a little bit. But I just...on top of everything else in my life, I feel so useless.

I was at Drivers' Ed today and I went to answer a question, having the perfect answer in my brain, but as I tried to answer it, what came out was a huge ramble of words instead of the three word answer it should've been.

And it sucks you know, because all the time I just wish I could be normal??

Like why do I have to think so much about things. And why do I have to have paralyzing anxiety.

I was sitting next to this girl in drivers ed and I really loved her hair, and I wanted to compliment her on it, but I just couldn't get myself to. (It was literally so pretty. It was shorter (mid-neck length) and brown with rose-gold streaks in it.)

I forget everything all the time, and then my dad gets upset and I feel bad because he has so much going on and all I'm doing is burdening him?

Like why can't I just remember to do the dishes. Why do I act so strange?

it just kinda feels like no one in my life genuinely likes to hear me talk.

So then I think, well I'll just go non-verbal.

But then everyone asks me why I'm being weird when I do.

why can't I just be normal?

#sorry i just needed to vent #vent #tw vent #tw rant #adhd #adhd sucks

[bloodydeanwinchester]

the thing that i don’t understand is that my manager knows i have so much stuff to finish this week that im likely gonna be working 11-12 hour days as it is and even still am going to struggle to finish my work and yet they STILL came to me this morning to give me something else that needs to be done today. like there are 15 people in this department and many of them would have time to do this. i worked 6 hours yesterday just so that i could free up more time today but nope now im gonna be doing this instead and it’s not even MY THING. god im gonna fuckin scream

#sorry i just needed to vent #this is NOT going to be a great week for me

[abigail]

if you have nice hands/nails literally kill urself <3 peace and love <3

#sorry I am just feeling UPSET !!!! #im v tired of being embarrassed about my hands/skin issues … #I wanna have pretty nails so bad #and there was like a brief moment (like.. a year… before lockdowns lol) where I would do get my nails done #and it boosted my confidence sm with it all #but now I’m just too ashamed/embarrassed again ……. 🗣 #I’d go get my nails done again but I wouldn’t wanna go to the same place as before b/c they were kinda mean #so idk where I could go…. and I also don’t want to have to explain why my skin… looks like that… #and I know for a fact some places would just not want to do my nails b/c the skin is so damaged lol #also I simply can not afford to get my nails done ……. hmm……… oh well #anyway ! #sorry I just needed to vent #a

[creative-time]

Hot take: the dhmis fandom kinda sucks rn I really don't like all the new fans who like. Don't really know anything about the show or franchise and act like they do. And are all entitled and shit. I can't wait for the excitement to die down in a few months lol...

You know, I was kinda gonna disagree with you

Like there are some people that really need a reality check and need to learn boundaries when it comes to stuff because I have seen way to many posts complaining about how other interpret the characters

But recently things have just been getting taken way to fucking far and I have to unfortunately agree

People are getting worked up over every little thing, they complain about everything! Like who gives a shit if people see Yellow Guy as a child? Who cares if someone makes their human Tony skinny?

And when I try to say something about it, these people try to educate me?? Like don’t cite the deep magic to me witch I was there when it was written

#they have broken through the ice at this point #ask #anon #creative answers #some people just bitch way to much like cut it out it’s not worth getting so worked up #sorry I just needed to vent

[just-a-little-anxious]

I don't know what to do. My dad has been trying to help me study for my chemistry test but it always results in me having a mental breakdown for a few hours. He said that it's because something in me just doesn't want to learn and understand it, but I do. I feel like a failure. I can't do chemistry. I told my dad maybe I could make a step-by-step plan so I know what to do, but he refused and said I need to understand all of it. So I ask lots of questions to make sure I get it, and then he insinuates I'm stupid for asking the questions and not knowing it yet. Even if I do know it. I just ask the questions to make sure.

And before my chemistry test today, I met up with my friend, who comforted me and helped me. And in that short time with her, I already understood more than I did with my dad. And bonus, I didn't even cry.

So I came back home after the test and told my dad that. And he got angry. Said that he is a biochemist and my best friend isn't, so if I can't understand his explanations, that doesn't mean he's bad, that means there's something wrong with me. And he called me incredibly ungrateful.

I don't know how to fix me. His help almost never helps, and he's probably right that is it because of me. And I would appreciate his help, but it always results in me crying for hours, and that makes me unproductive for the whole rest of the day because I can't stop crying and I'm too emotional. He called me a brat for being so ungrateful. Am I? I didn't mean to be. I'm trying my best. I just want to get a good grade. Why can't I get a good grade? Why am I too stupid to understand? I don't know how to be better.

#tw vent #my posts #sorry i just needed to vent #i done know what to do #i keep hearing my dad's voice in my head. calling be stupid. and ungrateful. and a brat. #over and over again. #and i currently don't really have anyone to talk to #i don't even have time to really cry and have a mental breakdown like i am having right now. i should be studying for my next test

[despite-everything]

im

just going to write this out because i need to get it out somewhere and dont know where my little audio recorder is. i know its hard to live with parents for a lot of people, and i knew it'd be hard for me but thats really hitting right now.

today wasnt the worst, but it also kinda sucked. some geriatric asshole stopped his working vehicle in the middle of the street for no reason, and nearly got me t-boned because of it, then i got an energy bill for a place i dont live despite cancelling the policy in july, then i got a message from my insurance agent saying my policy would be cancelled if i didnt pay (but nothing was due?) and then when i tried to call i learned that this house often doesnt have cell signal in the afternoon. i eventually managed to talk to the insurance people and got that sorted, but i couldnt get through to the energy people, so that's still unresolved. im still rattled from the car thing - i was almost killed in a car last year, so im very sensitive around crashes and near-crashes (no flashbacks today, though, so thats better than the last near-incident i dealt with). tomorrow my dad and i fly out to visit his aging parents - his dad is basically wasting away and his mom is losing her mind, so its a bit of a lets-visit-one-last-time thing. i havent seen them since 2018 and rarely talk to them, but i know theyve fallen down this horrible fox-news-christian-conservative hole lately, and before that they werent great, so i have a horrible feeling this trip is just going to be painful and sad. i know that best-case-scenario, we talk about nothing meaningful at all, and they dont comment on my appearance. but they're going to hate it. and if they actually knew me, they'd hate me, too. and i feel bad leaving my cat behind to live in the basement for 3 days - my stepmom will look after her, but she's going to be very lonely. so there's that, too.

but honestly i needed to write this out because my dad and i were driving our dog to the park to let her run around and we were listening to the radio. he asked me why i dont always use my radio voice, and i told him its because it takes extra effort to stay low and smooth for the persona and the microphones, and that after a few hours its tiring. he said he knew that, but then basically asked again - i tried to get him to clarify, but he didnt have the vocabulary to explain it, so he tried to mimic my voice (i guess?) and it was fucking mean. like i felt my heart drop and almost teared up immediately. i said something like "haha i don't sound like that" and he doubled down and said i did. and the thing is like... i know my natural voice is a bit nasal. im from texas and was raised with a mother and an aunt with nasally, high-pitched southern accents, and i inherited some of that. i HATE my natural voice. for years, any video taken where i spoke at all, i hated rewatching it. i thought i sounded annoying and could barely fathom people wanting to be around me. i hear any recording of my self earlier than 2021 and i want to turn it off and erase it completely. i don't think i'll ever get over that hatred. but as i've gotten older, my voice has dropped a bit. and i make a conscious effort to have much less of a texan accent (some words still trip me up - aisle, line, fire, wild... "i" is hard to not sound texan on), and i try to sound "smoother" and more pleasant. but i know i don't always succeed, especially if im excited. and the thing is, my excitement is always too much for my family. it's annoying and immature and overwhelming, apparently. so my entire life i've tried to tone myself down, but sometimes i fail, and sometimes i'm so wound up and anxious i fail then, too. and i know it's annoying, but jesus christ that imitation hurt.

when i tried to express that, my dad got pissed and was like "thats just what you sound like" and i said something along the lines of "you don't have to mean about it" and he got more upset and was like "im not being mean you just sound like that. but fine. i just wont bring it up ever again" and im sitting in the passenger seat thinking... what am i supposed to do? what am i supposed to say? if i cry, he'll get even more upset and think im overreacting and being immature, but todays already been hard (to self-regulate earlier, i bit my arm so hard i accidentally drew blood, and screamed so loud in my car my hearing was temporarily dampened, but while that helped, it didn't fix anything), and i could cry any moment. and my mind just loops back to the impression of me, which was startlingly similar to his "whiny voice" he uses to mock assholes. it just felt fucking awful and yet i felt kinda crazy because he keeps saying he didnt mean it in a bad way, and he isnt the type to play mind games but my mother did that sort of thing all the time, and i was tired and upset and wanted to go back home. after the park, i tried to continue the conversation, but never really understood what part of my voice or cadence he was referring to,but i think i smoothed things over enough. but it just sucks so much.

im living with him and my stepmom right now as i look for a job, and im more than an hour away from any of my friends. while i could drive to see them, it doesnt make sense to waste that gas when im unemployed and heading for the airport in the morning tomorrow. and i dont really call my friends. i could, but its not a thing we do, and i honestly would just want to say what this post said and then move on. i just wish i had company. but im outside trying not to be eaten alive by mosquitoes but theyre getting me through me jeans, so i just have to suck it up and go inside to wash the dishes.

#sorry i just needed to vent #today sucked #i just wasn't expecting my dad to be mean like that #if i were living with my mother and she did that it wouldnt hurt because id expect it from her #this just totally blindsided me #tree talks

[forbaesa]

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#today is one of those days where if i could eyeroll into another dimension; i would be long gone now #i am so salty and bitchy today #and i just checked flo and GUESS WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROW?????? yup yup yup #rant / #sorry i just needed to vent

[cherry-aqua-blossom]

   I was at Best Buy and this one employee in his 30′s came up to me and complimented my angel wing clips. I thought he was just being nice, but then he just kept talking to me, ogling at my dress and stuff and flirting with me…my mom was nearby watching protectively and got me out of the situation thank god. We both got bad vibes

    A bit shaken up even though it happened hours ago. I feel like I’m overreacting. I don’t want to say my age, but I’m pretty young and he was bigger then me.

Fuck…

#personal #sorry I just needed to vent #I wanted to leave so badly #my dad wasn’t there thank god he would’ve gone batshit #I walked by the Best Buy later and I was so freaked out he would see me #He deadass implied he was watching me from across the store #which is like….yuck

[glassflowerstudios]

Am I the only one who feels like my mom likes my little bro better???

My lil bro takes after her side of the family (strict, not very affectionate, kinda disrespectful) while I take after my dad's side (loud, chaotic, big personality, affectionate) but I'm really responsible and adult (lots of ppl keep telling me I'm very mature for my age) so it really pisses me off that my bro gets all the attention when he's a brat (and he's only a year younger than me! Being the baby is not an excuse for him!!)

And its not even that obvious that mom favors him, she's rlly subtle but I just know she likes him more.

Keeping in mind that both my parents come from dysfunctional families, (my dad from a really big family with everyone yelling all the time and my mom from a small family that is distant and doesn't know how to be together) I'm not surprised that our family is kinda messed up too.

And even tho I kinda like dad better, I still don't have anyone. As of now I'm technically "out" to my mom, but I think she kinda just... Tolerates my LGBTQIA+ identity and existance

And my soul twin (much higher ranking than a BFF) actually relies on me for help with thing he feels he can't talk abt with his family and I just.....

Haven't got the energy anymore. I'm so depressed I've become so apathetic that I can't even feel feelings anymore. I'm on the opposite side of the world from my extended family and it's killing me.

It's killing me.

#Sad #Sorry i just needed to vent #Family issues #Depression #I don't think I can stand life anymore #Feeling suicidal again

[thelastharbinger]

how do people who work social media jobs full time not get their souls sucked? asking for a friend.

#i have to manage the ig page for my internship and it makes me want to suddenly collapse dead #LOVE when a supervisor says they want one thing so you work on it + present it to them #and then they act like the thing they said they wanted never happened #and the whole let's stick to using one color palette till the end of time bc simlicity is best and #we don't want to confuse people by throwing in the color orange or purple??? #seriously who decided that uniformity is the way to go? i get bored looking at any page where the posts all look the same #and also never forget to tag anyone #fuck ig #fuck instagram #i hate social media #save my soul #i can feel myself about to type passive aggresive texts to my boss everytime they ask me to make edits to a post that has already gone up #when they also have the sign in for the account and can just...do it themselves. it's always the fucking caption #sorry i just needed to vent

[moonlitwalkss]

my brother in law's dad just straight up told me me and my siblings upset my mom so much to the point that she got sick and died, and my sister wonders why I don't like to spend time with him, like, I already feel guilty enough about my mom's death for him to just say that even if he ment it as a joke

#and the asshole looks at me and tells me hes serious and then starts laughing #like wtf sir #this ia only like the third time i hang out with him also #the first timed he was also a jackass to me and i told my sister that i didnt want to hang out with him anymore #and she got upset with me #but like hes not doing anything for me to start liking him #it just gets worse and worse #sorry i just needed to vent #c

[wideminded-dreamer]

Either I need a sabbatical from work or a new job because I’m about to snap

#the amount of bullshit I have already dealt with today and it’s not even noon? #and it’s always the same people too #im just so sick and tired of it like I am RAGING inside #and in an overall awful mood because of it #sorry i just needed to vent