#sorry if you follow me it will get worse

[opikiquu]

(rocking back and forth in the corner of an empty room) save me white boy save me white boy save me white boy s

oh my god. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS . BOY.

#my first reaction was ‘what? his eyes do glow!’ and then i proceeded to cry #★ arin rambles #sorry i need to let this out #AVENTURINE. AVENTURINE oh dear #IM DR RATIO YOOHOO #HEYYYYY HEY HEY HEY HEY PLELASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEE #IM BEGGING YOU. IM BEGGING YOU #im getting a job so i can e6 him /j #Yall im obsessed with this man i have to have him kill me #like everytime i see him my eyes pop out like those ugly stupid pens with squishy animals on them #i think my body mustve sensed him or something #i literally woke up at 7 am in a cold sweat #im not gonna be normal #IM NOT GONNA MAKE IT #5 DAYS IS TOO LONG YALL IM NOT MAKING IT #IM GOING TO THROW UP #aventurine pleade aventurine please aventurine aventurine save me #AVENTURINE. #Please babygirl what i gotta do to get a suicidal blonde to kiss me around here??????? #sorry if you follow me it will get worse #he a masterpiece . he changed my life . he a work of art……. #aventurine honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #AVENTURINE #OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OH MY GOD PLEASEEEE P #PLEASE ONE CHANCE ONE MINUTE ONE SECOND JUST A GLANCE #im gonan thriw up IM GONNA DIE #tears in my eyes

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe... #...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him... #...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed... #...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that... #...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

[melobin]

i do believe you all followed me because of writing sorry you have to deal with the deeply mentally ill girl that comes with it.. slight rant in tags ? i guess ? ily all anyhow

#this year has been so horrible LMAO #every other week something new is popping up #like i thought it couldn’t get worse and then it does #idk how i’m coping (im not)!! #but i really wanna be here and be able to post and write and give you all the good content you followed for but i do genuinely feel like #i’ve been lacking a lot lately and i’m sorry for that #i’m talking to my doctor about upping my meds and going back to therapy #and just trying to do things to make me feel better rather than offing myself #melo will be okay i’m sure of it but im trying my hardest i promise #✧ melody posts

[hopeinthebox]

taehyung à paris: texts from last night [vol.2]

#just when you thought it couldn't possibly get any worse... voilà #i really couldn't do this to any of them except taehyung and i don't know what that says about him. or me. but here we are #anyway the point is that one day i will kill that man and the world will thank me for it #@original anon - what can i say? thank you doesn't seem enough!! also sorry. sorry doesn't seem enough. #obligatory tagging of the favs as follows: #trackofthesoul #tusermanny #boongietrack #shirleytothesea #heyryen #annietrack #userjeonqquk #usersky #networkbangtan #dailybangtan #dailybts #taehyung #source: tfln #...i'll see myself out #textsfrombangtan

[superkitten-poison]

how is she the most gorgeous woman alive

#heartstopper #hstv #imogen heaney #rhea norwood #if you follow me and you werent expecting the heartstopper posting happening the last few days im sorry. it will get worse

[derpinette]

easily the ugliest years in fashion of all time have to be the 2010s (post-recession stagnation, embracing Poser attitudes, the [beginning of the] end of Sovl -> business casual, athleisure...)

#not even the 70s polyester craze comes close #& as much as the 1980s make me feel nothing most of the time (SORRY but i have been coming around lately...) #like there was so much originality & experimentation Waht da eff were people doing in the 2010s other than Nothing (ugly) Artifice #by the late 2010s it was the start of the current culture of trying to rehash everything almost completely as it was yet worse -_- #like obviously there were cool people & their calves&followers but that will always be true like anywhere #i do think things are getting better Doe 🦌 lately ^_^_^_^_^ so yay !!! #it just pissed me off as a teenager caus i spent the latter end of that decade as one & everything was just so ugly all the time #which explains why people look to the past now more than ever before #& i know those two things i listed existed before in the 20th century IDC at least there was some variety then #& they looked more interesting than they would later on decades later obv through repetition you lose the Essence & such

[pbnmj]

actually you know what the mcu was absolutely evil for introducing spider-man and immediately making him follow iron man around and then ALSO using him as a prop to make iron man look cooler meanwhile peter barely gets a faithful story of his own IN HIS OWN MOVIES

#sorry that it takes like. one textpost to get me writing a paragraph wall #THE FACT. IRON MAN . IS A MASSIVE PLOT POINT IN HOCO AND ALSO IN FFH. BROTHER I DO NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT THIS GUY #DO NOT GET ME FUCKING STARTED ON THE SONY MOVIES . I AM SO . FUCKING . INSANE RN #I MISS HARRY SOOOOOOOO BAD I WANT PARKSBORN CODEPENDENCY NOWWWWWWWWWW #PERSONAL #THE FACT THAT HOCO IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes' #AND THEN FFH IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes' #AND THEN NWH IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes' #DUDE WHEN DOES HE LEARN. WHEN DOES HE GET CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT #ALSO THE FACT HE JUST . EVERY MOVIE HE FINDS OUT TONY IS ACTUALLY AN EVEN WORSE PERSON THAT HE PREVIOUSLY BELIEVED AND #NOOOOTTTTHINGGGGGG IS DONE ABOUT IT #the fact it took 3 movies of fucking around and it ended up with the mcu implying he's going to be more comics accurate. or at least less .. #like that.... #like you have a trilogy to do something with spidey and also an EXTENDED UNIVERSE and nothing happens #the nymcu (new york marvel cinematic universe) where its just daredevil and spider man and some select avengers that i like is very real to #me. VERY real to ME #we also seriously have to lower the stakes i'd love for him to be a friendly neighborhood spider-man #im not joking. why was he even in england. like just write any semblance of plot so peter feels responsible and FOLLOWS beck to england #because he literally cannot leave it alone. because it is his responsibility. because he cant help but think this is his fault #mostly a joke cause i dont love england but still. #SOMEHTING LIKE THIS PLEASE. PLEASE PPPPLLLLLEEEAAAAASE (the sniper on the opposing rooftop takes the shot and kills me) #edit: excuse me everybody i am not hating on tasm i love andrew garfield so much i can look over its issues #i AM hating on the weird little fucking spiderman universe theyre making without a spiderman. LMFAO #like what is sony thinking . WHAT. #morbius and also the kraven movie i have so little hopes for you its insane #and i very much enjoyed the venom movies but theyre also soooo fun as a standalone #where eddie is just going a widdle batshit

[kyouka-supremacy]

Mmmhh...

#(Basically rant on my last two posts) #I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoying– #but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind. #I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happen‚ #in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spaces‚ #especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable. #Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11 #(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have) #and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worse– #in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work. #If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow. #Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!! #It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now #I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blog– #and that's a little too much even for me. #On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blog– #when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share #On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully. #Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to invest– #in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything else– #for everyone to see... #The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day) #((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.)) #That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out #Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog #Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them

[opikiquu]

im going to be so annoying all week

#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH #★ arin rambles #BRO BRO PLEASLE #PELASE #my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will #get #actually no just Unfollow entirely #ITS THE ADHD #PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW. #I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH #I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE #HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER #aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy #actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life #i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now #‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him #im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak #Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool #Hes so pretty im so happy #I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP #I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE. #i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling . #like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor #its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am #DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM #i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma #this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony #i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier. #HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL. #oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.

[plushie-rater]

Can we send requests of our own plushies for you to rate? :)

Thanks so much for asking first of all. I’ve been thinking about this a whole lot (even before I drew the first plushie here) and I think I’ve finally decided that at least for now, I won’t be taking submissions for plushie ratings. Without getting too serious, the main reason is that I’m afraid that it will stop feeling as fun as it does now. I also really enjoy how happy people seem to be when they see a surprise rating that they weren’t expecting, which would happen much less often if I was spending time drawing submissions, too. I really hope that everyone understands

#I love seeing all your plushies regardless and you’re always free to show me them through asks or dms #I wasn’t able to draw for a few years without it feeling very stressful and I think the anxiety of drawing for others made it much worse #im sort of taking baby steps while I get used to drawing again and this blog has been a huge help #everyone ive interacted with so far has been very kind and I have almost 100 followers already! which is super cool #if you’ve already submitted a plushie or were planning to im very sorry. I hope you understand #I really love drawing and am so happy that it feels fun again after so long #I’ll hold onto my current few submissions in case this ever changes someday #sorry for getting all serious gvutfd5fuq #I love you guys a ton! thank you for all the follows and reblogs and kind words #i see all of them even in tags and appreciate all of you so very much #not plushie #mouse answers #mouse speaks #mouse rambles

[d0d0-b0i]

it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

​what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :) #i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery. #idk. i wonder if things will be even easier? #i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :) #sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

[euphor1a]

So, do you guys ever feel like your life is a social experiment🧍🏽‍♀️

#🌺; aleyna rambles #lzkdhsjsj #sorry for dipping i have my finals going on lmao #the hardest part is over tho ☺️ #anyway i’m tired and miss jungkook 😔 #rewatching his lives are not helping as much it used to 💔💔💔 #how are you guys it’s been a while a feel like 😞 #also about my life being a social experiment #it’s like you’d think it can’t get worse than this. there’s no way. #and then it does 😭😭😭 like FUCJ IM TRYING MY BEST HERE WHY MAKE IT WORSE #2024 going horrible so far and january alone felt like a whole year with everything going on 😖 #ok enough of that i hope everyone is hopefully doing well and if not i’m sending you a big hug and the comfort food of your choice 👍🏼 #i shall answer some asks and queue some posts 👯‍♀️ #also hi to anyone new here 😊! sorry if this is the first post you’re seeing from me after following #we struggling in this house 366 days 😩

[bmpmp3]

the epic highs and lows of trying to read an ongoing shounen manga

#for me it uh. tends to have more epic lows than epic highs. im very unlucky with shounen #occasionally a few years after something i start reading it'll turn out to be good #but any time i follow something from the beginning it starts getting. worse #is it me? am i doing this? dont tell me to read your favourite shounen i'll turn it bad #did i ever mention that one manga. the moon is beautiful but first die #a mouthful of a title. it started kinda goofy but i really adored the main character for some reason #im still a bit attached to him. he cleans so well that he got the magic power to see real good. and now he can matrix bullet time #hes just like me for reeeeeeeaaaal hflkanjvdkfljfds but yeah that manga was. weird but fun BUT THEN #it got so wack you guys you dont understand. the first like one or two volumes? fun #everything else? god knows JHKFDJFDK i still read it all tho. i was invested in my guy with seeing real good powers #and im sorry to say. unfortunately it seems. a certain manga with a big tv adaptation that is pronounced oh she no co #my curse. its started. although that ones very much a epic high and epic low situation like itll be so so wack one minute #and suddenly get good again and then plummet back down HFKJDSBHJds we will see how it goes on #i started getting annoyed with the writing after the stageplay arc because they kept like. time skipping over so much #which i thought was a bit of a waste because there was a lot of interesting potential in a lot of the showbiz storylines. but we shall see #thats not shounen tho thats seinen but my curse applies to some seinen too LOL but most seinen i read is already finished #and shoujosei is spared from my curse. i think just because most i have the opportunity to read in english just tends to not #be drawn out or have weird scheduling things messing with the pacing. are there any weekly shoujosei magazines out there #i dont think weekly manga is good. for a lot of reasons mostly the mangakas health but also i find more weekly stuff i read #that isnt like. 4koma stuff suffers in its pacing a LOT. but again that might be my curse. the second i lay my eyes on it. the curse #(sorry ive been catching up on a lot of manga recently LOL ur getting my manga thoughts now)

[phoenixfeathersinfall]

If people don’t start tagging their hate, I’m going to chew glass 🙃

#it used to be Etiquette when I came on here that if you were being negative about something you tagged ‘anti thing’ or ‘thing critical’ #but nobody seems to do this anymore and so it all ends up in the main tag #or worse they don’t tag it at all and you’re just following someone and get slapped with their screeching in hatred about something you lik #and before someone tells me to blacklist I CANT if it’s not properly tagged! #and I don’t want to have to keep unfollowing people whose blogs I otherwise enjoy #anyway sorry it’s rough to like things that it’s trendy to hate on #dove talks

[martyrbat]

tumblr users love not tagging flashing lights its their favorite thing to do

#god may forgive you but i won't. fucking tag your shit. #don't know if its worse when people are just thoughtless and dont tag it #or if people DO tag it but their system is so fucking bullshit that it doesn't filter through #like sorry but your // tw flashing // doesn't fucking help anyone i shouldn't have to know your unique system to not see something that can #cause me to die or have severe pain or distress lmao. #like you obviously know it can be a trigger why you purposely using a unique tagging system #‘its for my followers!!!’ okay but posts get recommended? your followers may not know how you tag shit? theres no excuse!!! #its vastily inconsiderate to the people youre trying to protect!! #i have over 100 tags filtered and still am forced to risk getting intense migraines or having a seizure because you wanna be quirky #okay. ransom angry hour over. i got a migraine and my hands are twitchy and am going to bed now lmao. #ransom note

[sunlightfeeling]

gonna maybe be away for a lil bit (I say maybe because it really depends on my brain’s temperment)

currently fighting some darkness atm that won’t fucking stop (I’m okay, though, I swear, but its been all fucking day and I need to sleep and I can’t because thoughts)

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#i might stop in to like and reblog random things here and there #but ill probably stick to dash rather than digging through blogs like i usually do #anyway #autism adhd and c-ptsd is such a fucking shit hand like cash me tf out ON FUCKING- #like already have emotion regulation problems that gets worsened by it #(it being ptsd) #adhd already brings an endless monologue so ptsd goes ‘oh hey..gimme da aux for a bit’ and plays THE MOST VILE SHIT #ON REPEAT #also the impulsivity omfg #im already terrible and use it to distract whenever i can #but its like im also telling myself i need to because i need to get away from this #but instead of buying things i feel like i want to do something ‘worse’ and i…like actually don’t wanna #anyway idk im really sorry for all the negative posting lately #ibut also this is my home so :( #i started a side blog to actually scream in a void but its kind of odd still tbh and that’s a tangent anyways #im still holding myself to shipping things tho! so I will be reaching out to y’all when i get material wooo #(hopefully next week or the following~) #im hoping that this is just pmdd flaring my ptsd #because then its temporary #BUT OMG WHY WONT MY MEDICINE WORK I HATE YOU PMDD 😭 #oh…yeah…sorry #beeeeep