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[stealanity]

♡ . . DEAR ME W/ PICREW !

note : thank you to my fellow balloon @kurosism for tagging me, i really like the concept of this game 💗

dear child me : you've been through a lot, and i know how strong you've been. i know that your childhood was not the easiest, but i'm proud of you. you remained strong even in the worst moments, even though you grew up way too fast in people's eyes. but you proved many things to people who did not believe in you, and now you can finally breathe and release all the pressure that was weighing on your baby shoulders. i'm sorry that you suffered so much, but know that now, it gets a little better.

picrew link : here !

tagging : @justalildumpling @snuhee @koishua @kimsohn @halaboyz @lost-leopard-beanie @littleaprilcherryblossom @armysantiny and everyone who need to say something to their childhood self <3

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[stealanity]

according to hyunjae, eric will be back really soon and in a good health. i really can't wait to see him again, i miss my boy awfully much 😢 hope hyunjae didn't lie

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #the boyz #tbz #eric sohn #eric #sohn youngjae

[stealanity]

i know a lot of people have already done this, but if i open a new collab based on dramas (example : it's okay to not be okay, twenty five twenty one, weightlifting fairy kim bok-jo, etc) would anyone be interested in joining?

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #kpop collab #the boyz collab #enha collab #stray kids collab #txt collab #the boyz #tbz #skz #stray kids #txt #tomorrow by together #enha #enhypen

[stealanity]

i need new moots, i need some interactions, i need new friends because i really feel bored here day after day, i'm on the verge of leaving because i no longer find pleasure in staying here. it's very stressful knowing that i still have a ton of things to write because my head is full of ideas, but i have no more motivation due to the lack of reaction from readers. for god's sake, please, understand the writers who no longer want to write because they don't have feedbacks on their work, it gets annoying and boring. so if you want to continue to have content to read on tumblr, take a few minutes of your time to comment on what you read, it's extremely important

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[stealanity]

i think about the fact that it would not be a bad idea to open a blog to promote kpop ocs on tumblr.. i think all the ones ive seen are inactive 🤔

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[stealanity]

i feel personally attacked, sincerely

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #like hello???? can we talk about my day first???? #it's crazy #they're crazy #lee minho????? dude??????? #stray kids #skz

[stealanity]

there isn't a single day when i don't cry while listening to changmin's dandelion cover

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #and it's worst when i watch the video on youtube #im just a #river #i became a river yay

[stealanity]

Hey, idk what to say but I’m just feeling really down & like everything is pointless.. I don’t really have any motivation in life anymore & I feel like I’m reaching my limit. But I still love you and I want you to keep on going, even if I feel I shouldn’t. Don’t give up plz

hey sweetheart, it's okay to feel down don't worry, you don't have to be 100% all the time, try to take some time for yourself (really important), find something to take your mind off things.. and above all, don't forget that i'm here for you and that i won't let you down, never, i promise. you'll be okay, i know it, because you're strong and one of the kindest person in the world. i love you a lot lot lot, and i will always be here for you. let's stick together, okay? love you many many, and if you need to talk about nothing and everything, invite yourself in my dms, got it?

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[stealanity]

I just read ur Jay ff and :( I teared up cuz I hate that ur feeling this way, and I've been feeling horrible too, in fact I spent all of Sunday crying cuz school and life are stressing me out and making me want to quit everything. I just want u to know u aren't alone and we love you so much! And I absolutely love ur work!! I respect you if u need a break, just know we're here for u, care for u, and love u <3

Even tho it's hard and we feel like giving up, I know it will be worth it in the end to push through life. We never know what good is coming our way, so let's not throw our life away and miss the chances coming for us.

Also I learned today in class that like 90% of people say they're happiest in their 70's, so let's at least try to get to that point of our lives! It made me have more hope for the future and my life, and I hope that it will help u too

Again, I love you and a care about you<3 even tho we might not know eo irl, i just know you are an amazing person and there is so much goodness and greatness awaiting you if you just try. I'm always here to talk, I'm really busy but seriously I will drop anything for you if you need me to. Please don't hesitate to reach out, we can talk about anything you want. I can be a great listener, give advice, or just talk, seriously anything you need :(

the two doggies are just :( so cute i can't, it's us

gosh, thank you so much for your words? i don't really know what to say, except that im extremely touched by your attention, every word you said is now deep in my heart :( i'm really sorry you feel so bad too, no one deserves to feel like that. it's horrible because, even though you want to get better, sometimes you just can't? i'm at that point now, except that it's pushing me to the bottom and i feel like i'll never get to the surface again lmao

i know im not alone, and i will never thank all the people around me (including you) to be there for me and to do everything possible to comfort me and help me in this bad phase, my sister even decided to stay close to me most of the time so that i don't do anything stupid, but now i feel guilty for using all her time :'( but yes, you're right, life is worth living and i don't want to waste all the years i have left to live with the people i love and value. and even if i don't live for myself, i can still live for others and make them as happy as possible <3

i'll keep this anecdote in a corner of my head, and will think about it every time i feel like i'm losing it, it's a bit cute in a way, as a philosophy, can't wait to be old.. :D let's try to get there together, shall we?

again, thank you so much for everything, i love you a lot lot lot and i hope you know that you can count on me for anything and everything, i have the reputation of being a good listener, so don't hesitate to pop in my dms if you need anything. you're so kind and sweet.. i know that you deserve all the best things in the world and what life can offer you, you're a living angel, i envy the people around you, they're so lucky to have you, and i hope they take good care of you ! and if you ever feel like the world is turning its back on you, i will always be there, no matter what happen, i will always be there for you, and that's a promise i can keep 🤞🏻

also, i can't take a break from writing.. i mean, writing is my escape, i know i can express anything i want with words, so i want to keep this little piece of paradise that is writing for me, even if i feel like i'm writing just some shitty things actually. plus, i've been on a blank page for far too long, i have to get back to it now, or everything i've worked so hard to build here will be for nothing <\3

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #my answer is under the read more part #because it's.. you know #maybe triggering for some ppl #and i don't want anybody to feel bad #anyway.. thank you so much #you're so precious to me #you have no idea how much #thank you for existing #really you're just an angel

[stealanity]

Hiii! I changed my url from softforqiankun to seungkwan-s. Can you update this on your taglist for the so-called boyfriend? Thank you, lovely 🥰🧡

oh my god it's you 😭 no worries, i'll change it asap, i'm happy to see you're still here honey 💗

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[stealanity]

still obsessed with drunk-dazed's park jongseong

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[stealanity]

i miss eric

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #i really miss him a lot #and i just hope one day i'll woke up and he's all over the internet again #like #hello deobis miss me? ;) #and we'll all be like #YES IDIOT #and he will just go on vlive and everyone will cry and all yez #yea* #anyway

[stealanity]

hi matty !! how’re you? <3

hello liz sweetheart, i'm fine!! what about you? <3

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #letter from anon ♡⃗ liz !

[stealanity]

TXT ARE KINGS AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE MY MIND

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[stealanity]

if i have to be honest, i really feel like my writings are getting worse and worse, less interesting, less good. i'm never satisfied with what i write, to the point where i feel like i'm losing the desire to write, because i don't know if what i do pleases people. it's a horrible feeling and i feel it more and more. i'm starting to sincerely wonder if i'm going to continue writing here or not, i just wanted to share how i felt with you all, but you can ignore me if you want, it's nothing serious!

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[stealanity]

ANYWAY, song of the day is :

stan dreamcatcher please, they're literally the best 💙

#speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's talking ! #speakers on : ♡⃗ matty's jukebox ! #song recs #song recommendation #dreamcatcher #kpop #Spotify