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trollslimes · 1 year

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I can't fucking concentrate and this is all due on Tuesday... hlep

#I've managed an essay outline and a page or two of notes on some references for that bit of work #And I'm like #30% done catching up on all my lectures for the thing I have a test on #but goddamn my brain is reaching the end of it's ability to concentrate #about now would be a good time for some goddamn adhd meds #but I keep putting off getting diagnosed for the adhd #because of the adhd #it'd be salvageable if I could get extensions for any of these deadlines #but none of my modules this term have made that possible for fucking anything because my lecturers want *presentations*#starts screaming and doesn't stop

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pickled-flowers · 13 days

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Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus

#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok #and his two kids were screaming arguing #at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone #one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction #my guy something is seriously wrong with you #your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn #theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone #anyways #ive never seen smt like this #and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids #idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids #dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention #also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller #and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE #FRONT OF THE STORE #the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i #i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there???#i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady?????????#i see lots of cute interactions of course #like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖#i basically work in a book/toy store #theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it #idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing #like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior

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bylertruther · 1 year

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society if the duffers had gone through with their original plan to have mike go to the upside down in s1 to find will

#byler #it's enough for me to know that he WOULD but i still would have liked to see it........ but i guess there's still s5..... sniffles n cries #when will's ankle gets caught in a vine n vecna goes YOINK n u just see mike's eyes go crazy wide as he starts sprinting after him faster #than he ever has tripping stumbling falling in a very mike fashion but he keeps going n he doesn't make it in time but it doesn't matter #it doesn't matter bc he's NOT going to lose will again he's NOT going to lose him on HIS watch a-fucking-gain he won't he CAN'T #and maybe it's a party affair so he looks back at lucas n dustin who are almost there and they're screaming after #him BECAUSE MIKE WAIT STOP MIKE WE DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT WEAPONS but mike just furrows his brow and goes in #bc he's the heart he's the paladin he's going to lead them and he's going to save will because will needs him but also he needs will #and. and um. well. then i fucking die of course #OR COULD U IMAGINE IF will goes on a solo mission and he thinks he's managed to sneak away but mike pops up like 'what are you doing? 🤨'#bc he always sees will and he always knows when something is up and it's a crazy plan but they did say crazy together and that they'd be a #team no matter what and that they would kill vecna so liek. do u see what im saying are u seeing my visions are u feeling my insanity rn .#they get surrounded or trapped somewhere and will casts fog cloud n saves the party like he did in a previous campaign. etc etc #dustin is their bard who has snacks n keeps things lighthearted mike leads the way n will is at his side n lucas is their eyes n ears n it'#almost like one of their campaigns bc the show started with that and those were their roles when will was missing and now it'll end #like that and so on n so forth. nods mhm mhm #takes deep breath ok back 2 studying i go byeeee

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kraviolis · 11 months

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i can tell when the author of a fanfic im reading had a peaceful childhood

#krav talks #not to pull the 'i have actual ptsd from a traumatic childhood' card but im gonna be real #i dont think some of y'all understand exactly what hunter's childhood was like #belos also most likely was not the verbally abusive type of parent. he was physically and emotionally abusive FOR SURE. ABSOLUTELY #but theres no shot he'd just yell at hunter. he doesn't get angry like that #case in point: What Happened To Caleb #hunter isnt gonna start crying from someone yelling at him out of anger. he'll get triggered MAYBE #hunter gets fighty if he gets triggered by ANY older authority figure. kikimora and lilith werent exactly kind to him either #the only way hunter cries is when his friends are around bcus he feels so safe with them #you know who would cry over being yelled at like that??? amity.#sure later in her life she probably got into screaming matches with odalia #but if u think even she wouldnt burst into tears if she got yelled at by any older female authority figure in her life #then u r wrong. sorry #hunter was not allowed to be vulnerable. it was too dangerous to be. he also had NO ONE while under belos's thumb.#amity had her siblings. they probably gave her safe spaces to cry it out after getting verbally abused by their mom #if lilith lost her patience and raised her voice at amity (not in a mean way bcus lilith would literally Never but no one is perfect)#amity would start crying for sure. and then lilith would feel like the worst person in the world. scum of the earth.#and god forbid hunter sees this exchange. he'd rip lilith a new one even if she'd already apologized #he wouldnt stop chewing her out for even daring to speak to The Amity Blight so disrespectfully unless amity physically pulled him away.#and then he'd threaten lilith and flash step amity away and immediately call luz #now if a MAN tried to yell at amity she would be three seconds away from throwing hands #but she wouldnt even need to worry about getting her hands dirty bcus hunter would already be shoving the man to the fucking ground #and threatening to end his entire life if he even stepped foot into hunter's field of view ever again #this is why its hard for me to imagine hunter living with darius post-belos... darius wasnt kind to him at first either.#and i think hunter living with someone who had actually had a role in his traumatic childhood would make him. regress #he'd fall back into old behaviors without even noticing. im not entirely sure darius would notice either #i love darius and i love darius & hunters bond so much #but it makes so much more sense and would be so much better for hunter to live with the nocedas for a while #not permanently. camila did great with paying for 6 kids under her roof but she was one emergency away from financial devastation #and i dont think hunter would want to live in the human realm permanently either

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cidnangarlond · 3 months

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sorry for posting this again but it's going to drive me insane

#*starts screaming and doesn't stop*

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lloydfrontera · 2 years

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lloyd canonly being an angry crier gives a lot of potential moments of both vulnerability and endless teasing, ngl 👀👀

god it really does, i know it's not very realistic but i keep hoping one day we'll get to see him get into a full blown fight with someone and that particular characteristic of him will pop out at a very inconvinient time hjashdka

also i'm so glad i finally have someone else confirm that trait i was kinda scared i had exagerated it ajkshdka

lloyd would probably get so frustrated, because he's not sad! he's not hurt! he's just so mad it feels like everything it's bursting at the seams and he can't even talk because there's a knot in his throat and if he blinks he knows he's gonna start tearing up and he! hates it!!

it's one thing when it't just javier bickering with him and cornering him to a point lloyd doesn't have a good comeback and it maybe a stung a little more than normal and he got a little bit angry and ok so he's tearing up but that doesn't prove anything! shut up javier!

javier starts carrying a hankerchief with him and offering it to lloyd with a smug smirk when he notices him tearing up which makes lloyd get soooo mad. sometimes he'll just stop their bickering by being like "i don't want to upset master lloyd to tears like last time :/" something lloyd also detests with his entire soul but he can't actually deny and he hateeees it

but it's another thing completely when he's actually angry and he actually wants to make a point and he wants to scream because he can feel his chest start getting tight and his vision is getting blurry and he hates how pathetic it must make him look, how easy it is to get under his skin, how vulnerable it makes him feel when he can't help but cry out of anger. it frustrates him to no end knowing the person he's arguing with probably thinks they already have the upper hand just because he can't help tearing up when he's enraged.

and i think javier wouldn't be able to handle this actually, if he saw that lloyd was getting genuinely upset with him to the point where he was full on crying, even if he knows it's more likely out of anger, he wouldn't be able to help worrying that there is actual hurt underneath and he'd start trying to defuse the situation. or at the very least it would shook him enough for his own anger to slow down.

and if he saw another person pushing lloyd to that point, they probably wouldn't live for very long lmao

#tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #hey i got an ask #lunacurse #ahsjdhajk sorry this got away from me again asjhdka #also also also #i loveeee the idea of lloyd and javier getting into their usual bickering except maybe they're both a little raw because of recent event #(still don't figure out what exactly but y'know what i mean)#so it gets a little more intense than normal and before they know it they're full on arguing and lloyd starts tearing up but this time #javier doesn't stop because he thinks that's just lloyd being his usual self and it's not until they're both screaming at each other #that lloyd just. breaks down. completely. full on crying and sobbing. that javier realizes this was a lot more serious than he thought #and then he just. stops. because he never meant to make lloyd feel like that. and lloyd notices and it infuriates him even more so he just #storms off because the last thing he wants is javier pitying him #and then later on when both of them have cooled off javier quietly sits besides lloyd and without saying a word offers him his handkerchief #and lloyd just sorts of scoffs but can't help smiling a little as he accepts it. and then they make (out) up <3 #javier asrahan

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chancellorxofxtrash · 9 months

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the one thing i did NOT expect from Blade, for KenHaji to kind of scratch the itch AnkhEiji left in my heart

#they are not the same obviously #but i can see some... outlines #foundations from which later Ankh is built from what Hajime starts #and they are also making me scream so much #the season-long exploration of the relationship between a human and a monster who doesn't understand humanity #a monster who you can't be sure is friend or foe #kenhaji is way less codependent #therefore kenzaki constantly has to choose to go reach out to hajime #and hajime slowly stops pushing him away #kenzaki was not the first hajime got attached to and yet #gahhhhhh

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derpu-doodles · 2 months

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(pats the top of his head) this guy can fit So Much Sadness in him

whoops I popped off in the tags

#KURAMA. SWEETIE. BABY. YOU POOR SOUL #it's so funny because I did Not like this motherfucker when I first started playing Monark #I was like YOU LITTLE SHIT at him 24/7 #BUT THEN AS I SHATTERED HIS IDEALS I STARTED TO LEARN MORE ABOUT HIM #AND MY POOR BABY!! JUST WANTS TO MAKE SURE NOBODY DIES WHEN HE COULD STOP IT EVER AGAIN!!!#BECAUSE WHEN HE WAS LITTLE HIS BROTHER/BEST FRIEND DIED BY GETTING HIT BY A CAR WHEN CROSSING THE STREET #AND HE BLAMES HIMSELF FOR IT TO THIS DAY #BECAUSE HE COULD'VE WARNED HIS BUDDY OR HELD HIM BACK #AND HE H A T E S HIMSELF FOR THAT #HE DOESN'T EVEN WANNA LET HIMSELF CRY ANYMORE #HE DOESN'T THINK HE DESERVES TO #HE THINKS HE DESERVES TO SUFFER FOR IT INSTEAD OF LETTING HIS HEART REST #AND THE LYRICS TO HIS BOSS FIGHT SONGGGG #''if I reach out my hand I can see your face again #so full of love and wistful pain before vanishing away #if I just close my eyes would it bring me peace of mind?#playing pretend behind a righteous mask of makeshift justice''#LIKE!!!!!!!!! SCREAMING SOBBING SLAMMING DESK #aNYWAY #Monark #Monark game #Monark Kurama #Kurama Hitotsubashi #I thought the DR3 Council tag was bad but I think I'm literally the first person ever to post Kurama on Tumblr #or at least tag him

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michinaranja · 5 months

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listen to music without thinking of the blorbos challenge

difficulty: impossible

#this time is juan gabriel's #i can't keep this up #i'm gonna start screaming #the song doesn't even have anything to do with them #(guess who)#ngl i prefer this to missing her... juanga is her fav artist and i stopped listening to his music for over a year now #perdóname mi amor por todo el tiempo que te amé. te hice daño!!!#te amé demás y fue mi error. que soledad. ESTOY SIN TI LO ESTOY PAGANDO!!!!#alright yeah i miss her #and what of it??? 😭😭#DESEO MI AMOR QUE SEPAS TAMBIÉN QUE TE AMO!!! QUE SEPAS TAMBIÉN QUE TE EXTRAÑO!!!!#openly crying in the tags cause no one here knows spanish

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the-cat-at-the-theatre-door · 1 year

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trouble is her only friend a demeter fanmix [listen]

#i gotta stop doing this in a mania at 8PM at night #Demeter #fanmix #my fanmix #okay so technically you should be sad doesn't make sense because she *did* have a baby BUT it's the surrounding context #it's...a progression i guess?#because i like to read demeter as started in the tribe - maybe had issues with anger and such #rebelled all that stuff #left because [insert reason i think of here]#got caught up with bad crowds #got seduced into a worse one #fell in love with macavity but shock surprise he thought of her as a possession - macavity loves macavity and pretty things #met friends - struggled - fell in love maybe - suffered more - had jemima - escaped #went back home suffered there but is starting to heal #etc etc etc #ends with her family and that's what she really wanted all along isn't it?#popped in the anxiety train from time to time so warning #for screaming and pops of electronica #but that kinda entwines her with macavity #blah blah blah no one cares jemi #popped in *my* favourite ship in there because i can #also since catnip as a drug is canon in the 2019 film you think macavity is a drug kingpin #?#(i'm kidding but also...not?)

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sherlock-is-ace · 7 months

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#i had such a horrible melt down today... god i just need this week to be over!#i burst several blood vessels around my eyes temple and nose from crying too hard and for trying to do it in silence #and i also figured out that my big smart plan of hitting myself in the head as to not leave marks nor break things doesn't work #because i now have a fucking BRUISE ON MT FOREHEAD #goddamnit #i can hide it with hair but i really need to find a different way to cope...#i used to throw shit around but years of being screamed at for breaking toys or whatever i had in my hand at the moment has forced me to #turn the destruction upon myself #cause at least i'm not breaking shit other people paid for #but damn my head still hurts and now i have to hide the stupid red spots in my hairline #if my mom finds out she will most likely kill me ahnfjsng (not really she will just scream at me and call me stupid for hurting myself #which in turn will make me hurt myself more probably...)#it's a hard thing to admit i self harm. and i never really thought of it like that but it's getting worse so i need to stop #it started with scratching myself when i was too anxious and it turned into full blown out meltdowns...#i had to fight the urge to hit my head on the wall which is scary #like it took all of my willpower and the realization that people would hear me and maybe i would draw blood which would be harder to hide #that's what made me not do it... not the fact that self harming is bad and doesn't help...#like that's a scary thought to have...#i can think about it rationally NOW but in the middle of the mess? nope hitting is the only solution #i'm exhausted and so fucking embarrassed about it #i hate living with my messed up brain #i have to leave the house tomorrow... and because i mask still the only thing vissible will be my fucked up eyes with red dots around them..#that's gonna be fucking embarrassing as hell?!#not worse than when i gabe myself a black eye tho #that wasn't self harm that was just me fainting when sick and falling face first to the floor lol #anyways... i'm off to bed i just needed to vent ahfnsjf i'm fine now #and i'm gonna do my best to find better coping mechanisms i promise #angel talks #personal #tw self harm

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navree · 2 years

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the thing is that the idea that dragons can never fully be tamed isn’t something the showrunners made up out of nowhere, the entirety of dany in adwd is about how dragons cannot and should not be tamed and subdued, not just the dragons themselves but the dragon inside of her, the dragon that she spends so long shoving down for the sake of peace and compromise with the slavers, only to realize at the end that she should let that dragon free, that she cannot control the dragon within her, just as she could only barely control drogon until they’re in the dothraki sea and she’s cast off her “floppy ears”, just as quentyn definitely can’t control rhaegal and viserion in the dragonpit with disastrous results. these are sentient, fiercely intelligent creatures, and the idea that two teenagers can’t operate them the way one would a model airplane is not that hard to believe nor something new to the narrative of the franchise

#personal #house of the dragon #this may not make sense i feel like it doesn't make sense #but i actually quite like that change #i like that it was a mistake that neither could control #and that they both tried to stop #the way they both were saying 'serve me' once things went awry #that lucerys was yelling 'no' as arrax tried to flame vhagar #and aemond was screaming 'no' as vhagar started retaliating and then fucking ATE lucerys #it works i think it really works #you cannot control dragons #whether they be actual dragons or targaryens with the blood of the dragon

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casekt · 7 months

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#audio #putting my head through a wall saturday #this song makes me think about a few things but rn I'm thinking about LR on top of n beating the shit out of FP (their illegitimate father)#maybe he'd even be interested to know that his child has his explosive violent anger despite them never having met #maybe he'd be proud #it would at least make him smile #LR would be so fucking angry. they're 22 n he's 58 so it's a possibility they could win if he couldn't reach his gun #which he usually carries in a holster the front of his pants so if they're sat on top of him he can't reach it #idk if it would be a blind rage of punching him till he stops moving or a screaming crying spitting clawing thing #probably depends on His reaction #if he says anything. like in the middle of the violence he goes ''you really are my kid'' LR would likely start crying #and get sloppy so if FP really cared to live through that situation he could probably throw them off #but frankly I think he'd find it pretty fitting his adult child he never knew existed would be the one to catch up to him #and he's lived a satisfying life by his standards #this would all be solved if he gave a shit n gave them a hug though lmfao #but he doesn't care #beyond the brief entertainment they could bring him. esp since he could hold power over them #eugh what a guy #love my characters they're personifications of my issues lmfao #and the fact that they have identical eye colors and very similar eye shapes. sheesh.#like looking into your own eyes

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thislittlekumquat · 7 months

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We've arrived at the part of the weekend where I try to compose a note in my head that doesn't sound shitty that I leave for my neighbor asking them to PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD STOP GROWING WEED IN THE APARTMENT BELOW MINE.

#i fucking hate waking up in my own home that doesn't even share ductwork with these fuckers #and being like #huh cool guess ill start the day with a headache #i dont want to get them in trouble so i have been STRUGGLING to think of a way to very firmly and politely be like you need to stop #i have lived here for a year and a half and there are only 5 other apartments in my building two of which have had turnover since i moved in #so i am like 99% sure i know exactly which apartment it is #i want to cry i just want my windows open to enjoy the cool temps #also if anyone has any advice i would gladly take it #i dont even care if they smoke sometimes or are high a ton i just cant stand the smell it gives me an instant headache #that sometimes becomes a migraine #they can even continue having their fucking screaming matches and their front door that's engineered to slam #it's JUST the smell i can't tolerate #☠️☠️☠️☠️#when will they invent a weed that DOESN'T SMELL LIKE FUCKING ASS

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whoviandoodler · 10 months

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oh the places we would be as a society if people stopped saying 'this thing is fake and stupid because it doesn't work for me/doesn't apply to me' and acknowledged that things can work for others even if they don't work for you (your experiences aren't universal dear god when will we all learn that just give alternatives without bashing something)

#dan talks #Vagueposting but the person who rb the post that annoyed me isnt a mutual #So its fine they wont see it #It was tone tag bashing btw #'omg so stupid i didnt get what gen meant for ages it helps no one' SHUT UP #shut UP SHUT UP it helps me and my friends (some yes some no)#Why are YOU the arbiter of Correct accessibility just shut up if u cant be normal abt things #That help others and not u #'this harmed and confused me so its Bad' tell ur friends not to use them w u!!#And as for strangers #Stop expecting them to use exactly what u want and need when something else works in their circles #Or for them #Is it SO hard to just say 'hey this works for some but not all. Heres an alternative if it doesn't work for u'#But no lets just keep on screaming on the internet abt how everything sucks #So tired so tired leave ppl who do no harm alone. Why must all notions start by hating on someone

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haitanirindo · 2 years

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rindo, kazutora, and mikey are good at singing

#because i said so #mikey being a talented singer is basically canon #kazutora being good at singing literally came to me in a dream #and rindo... i'm going off vibes tbh #sometimes rin drags ran to karaoke bars and ran puts up with it because he'd do anything for rindo #and they won't admit it but the normality of it all feels nice #at first mikey only sang for emma but draken walks in on him belting while working on a bike #he hid his (mild) embarrassment behind arrogance and made a show out of it #kazutora will straight up sing while walking down the street. he doesn't care who hears #he doesn't even care if he's good (even though he is)#he's just having a good time #(brought to u by my dream in which tora started screaming along to 'face down' while we were in a cafe)#ghost sounds #i literally woke up 10 minutes ago and couldn't stop thinking about this thank u

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