#stress migraines my BELOATHED

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

I have a migraine and, unrelated to this, am rapidly re-entering my Casgirl era due to... really some of the reasons ever* **.

*I am having so much fun with the Dialogues of Solomon & Saturn (Kemble Translation)

**and discovered yesterday that my hair, which is usually dusty brownish, is growing out very dark for some reason

#academia #college #studyblr #stress migraines my BELOATHED #make it stoppppp #next semester starts in ELEVEN DAYS how the fuck #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #supernatural #anglo-saxon #dead languages #solomon & saturn #medieval studies #history #archeology #linguistics #i COULD stop but WILL i #Learned what “Marc/Mearc/March” means and lost my shit

[sketchandsneeze]

man fuck the american grading system

#sketchandsneeze #grades my beloathed... it's annoying and just so confusing??? #I keep getting called smart and shit and like maybe it's cause school fucks with egos in general and being mentally ill and neurodiverse #keeps fucking it up even more. but gods #I'm just standing here bud. #I get good grades only when I turn everything in it's just a fucking nightmare of trying to organize when my brain disagrees and works #differently than what they want out of me. I have like A's in all my science and only get lower grades in things I suffer in (English tbh) #or when I forget to turn/do things. like fuck man I'm just standing here and the second you give me something that can't be easily done in #class there's like a good 70% chance of it not ever being turned in after that. and gods I hate that the assignments just entirely #lock up after a while and It's hard to just go up to teachers about this shit #this is like the second time in a row I've cried late at night about shit like this. my mom probably is pissed that I keep ending up lying #to her too about grades. which I hate doing too but she scares me when she gets upset and she gets more annoyed by that #legit sorry to my friends if ya'll see this I do not like talking about my issues even when I want to. my brains denies all chance to and #pushing it can make it worse or just makes me worry that I'll stress others out +whatever my brain wants to make up to keep me #silent as always about this shit. #anyways goodnight for now #I have a migraine from crying and how late it is..