#stuck with u part 2

[gooperts-gunk]

im so crazy over the tragedy of everything q!bbh does being under a demon pretense even though he's a fallen angel.

do u think he just accepts the demon label because it's easier. do u think he believes it too, and catches himself in his thoughts with "oh, right. im not exactly that". and maybe he believes that he did this to himself? do u think what he did was to protect himself or someone? no matter the fall, he still has so much kindness to give and his brain just isn't wired the way a natural-born demon would be, he can't hold back instincts when time demands it, maybe that's why he fell in the first place.

and when he's finally bad, not good, it's treated like the end of the world, without empathy on why he would act out. do you think this keeps happening? the same scenario, multiple times, every timeline? he has to be used to it. so he has to take it in stride. he's good until he lashes out under extreme pressure, and suddenly he's called demon. and once again he's what heaven made him out to be. what he made himself to be, his brain would ruthlessly provide...

i don't think he wants to be that, though he hides secrets behind secrets of which neither identity is a home... but i don't think he wants to have to change, either. and i don't think that's wrong of him.

...you collapse atlantis ONE TIME and all of a sudden YOU'RE the bad guy and SURE it was FUN but REALLY now,--

#lots of expansion on this in tags beware #this is a draft from 2:40AM the day before i just felt something within me and i needed to write about fallen angel q!bbh angst NOW #this post is brought to you by q!bbh in purgatory and post-purgatory i will never forgive you purgatory 1 #no one can bear to have a healthy conversation about q!bbh's behaviors let alone TO q!bbh. BUT IF Q!BAGHERA WASN'T STUCK ON THE ISLAND... #i miss u bbh + baghera interactions let me see u soon pls #he isn't impossible to communicate with ur just not jiving with his autism right u can get through to him i swear BUT TOO LATE he DIED #now he doesn't remember!!! (unless that part of the library is recovered) u lost ur shot!!! (ur issues with him will rise again) #now every time bagi goes “'cause he's a demon” with bbh i go OH MAN SHE DOESN'T KNOW IT'S MORE... it hurts how flippant it is sometimes #because WE KNOW OH MAN WE KNOW IT'S MORE and this concept of him being fallen adds SO MUCH CONNOTATION to EVERYTHING he does #it isn't just DEMON THINGS it's GOD MADE ME THIS THINGS and i just can't wait to know WHY what did you DO!!! #your instincts are to be nice though cautiously detached when your life restarts so WHAT DID YOU DO IF YOU ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD??? #goopert talks qsmp #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo

[deus-ex-mona]

starting the year ✨wrong✨

#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa) #i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao #first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice #and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads. #rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried #that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning #b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language #so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part ​esp s o bs #and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off.. #well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨ #(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese) #(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig) #a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week #b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge) #and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig #so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa #idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh #i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o . #ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :( #speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)… #is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him??????? #our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory) #felt cute; thought about retiring early idk

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[munadyke]

ok. sometimes I just want to listen to people talk abt star wars but the youtube results are all men and I refuse to do that to myself. found myself on a reddit thread of good sw youtube accounts/podcasts and it's like....for one dollar name a woman:/

#CRINGE or whatever #but like i am thinking abt themes of fate and agency and the way they change across series and how certacertain characters exist outside #the narrative etc and i just wanna talk abt rebels and how its such a fantastic follow up to tcw/the prequels in terms of its core cast and #the fact that their only commonality is that they chose to be a part of the rebellion as opposed to the characters of tcw that are stuck in #this perpetual loop of following orders and uplifting those in power & feeling as though everything in their lives are destined meanwhile #there were so many opportunities to stop the end destiny (if u will) of the prequels if only they werent so blind etc but at the same time #you have characters like maul and ahsoka who exist outside of these power structures (one by choice and the other not) and when it comes #time to change anakins fate together ahsoka cant do it bc shes refuses to see the truth #and then this is directly paralleled at the end of rebels s2 where it takes kanan being literally blinded for him to see ezras pull to the #dark side bc until then kanan (the last remaining jedi) still clings to the beliefs and structures that raised him. he cant see/understand #ezra bc he refuses to view the world outside of the lens of his jedi training he has to be blinded to see the world around him in a new way #ofc this is all happening while ahsoka and anakin meet again and we see what could have happened had kanan failed to change #idk something something the illusion of choice under capatalism & 2 party systems leading to facism #something something rebellion/change comes from the ability to question authority and find individual purpose #noooo idea where im going with this shit at the end i promise i understand facism #see this is why i need to listen to other people talk abt it i am just spewing nonsense in my tumblr tags!!!!

[mirrortouchedsea]

For fic mash-up!

"Stranded Due to Inclement Weather" and "The Missus and the Ex" for characters of your choice! (Maybe Wataru and Tsumugi? I wanna say Tori and Ibara but you've never written them.)

Ask game

I ended up going with Tori and Ibara because my first thought was Umineko AU and so I had to consult my local Umineko expert, Shannon Junescapes2 on some of the details* for this

(Screenshots posted with permission)

I don't know how much you know about Umineko but the very brief gist of it is that the Ushiromiya family (the Himemiyas in this AU) are very rich and waiting for the head of the family to croak. They have an annual family meeting on the island of Rokkenjima to discuss plans regarding the distribution of the will and family fortune among other things.

However, the 1986 meeting is different. They are having the meeting as normal but the topic of the Witch comes up repeatedly due to a newcomer to the island (Battler in the game...I'd have to play more to figure out which enstars character to put here. Thoughts are Izumi and I'd be fucking with a lot of weird family dynamics anyway so its up in the air) asking about this big fuckoff portrait of her on the staircase. There's a strange epitaph along with it that describes several nights of terror or Twilights.

The first and most relevant Twilight involves the deaths of 6 inhabitants of the island (Yuzuru being one of them in this rotation) at random. Is it the work of the Witch, or is someone on the island plotting something sinister? Tori and Ibara must team up to try and solve the murders of their family and friends before its too late.

#message in a bottle #clockworkspider #ignore the part about wataru and mugi that got cut off its irrelevant to this #also not to dig at mugi bc he is an interesting character but he just. doesnt have the wherewithal to survive in umineko #if u know anything about umineko characters youll probably understand #im assuming yuzuru was the intersection for tori n ibara though #the servants in the ushiromiya household were pulled from orphanages and like #some of them (kanon was the one mentioned here but shannon and uh. i cant remember his name. fuck.) #have like. more training in magic and fighting than the others so i think its an apt comparison #ibara i imagine also wears the one winged eagle crest though #also im in the car atm and very tired lmk if theres anything that needs clarifying? #im 40 hours into umineko and still have barely made a dent in it. im on episode 2 (of 8) #enstars #tori himemiya #ibara saegusa #ill probably come back to this au eventually too #ALSO THE INCLIMATE WEATHER THING. THERES A MONSOON TRAPPING RHEM ON ROKKENJIMA #I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT THATS HOW THE STUCK DUE TO INCLIMATE WEATHER PROMPT FITS IN #theyre trapped on the island due to this magical monsoon that just wont end #okay thats all i think.

[mejomonster]

Coming up with ideas for writing 💜💜💜

Actually writing ;-;

#rant #ToT #upside is i have solved some lore loopholes which. if u know me u know how rare i actually didnt alreayd have way too much worldbuilding #decided on. but finally nailed down a bit of worldbuilding i was foggy on. #also i am SO hype for magic to come into the story #downside: i have 40k words to write before i get to be writing that part ;-; #also? idk if yall are like this. but like whatever i Actually write always comes out significantly different than The Plan #like. fact: i have every single major scene in my summary to write. #reality: at least 70% of those scenes will likely be different than the summary once i actually write them out. #leading to possible new avenues ill utilize vause they work better/more theme cohesive/more in character #so like. i love my summary abd im clinging to it for dear life #but also terrified in the knowledge reality will be way more complex #like. i wrote this week what SHOULDVE been a simple scene #but upon actually making it. the characters chemistry was so AMPED up i feel i pretty much need Some relationship development in the scene #even tho i didnt plan that in my summary. but even if irs just AWARENESS OF LUST these bitches are dripping chemistry #also the scene turned out way fucking funnier than i planned. so like. to not fully utilize the comedic execution would be #throwing a gift away. #so im now stuck tryjng to Add Onto the intended summarized scene. since i didnt plan #to write 1 an almost kiss/desire to kiss 2 embarassment the likes of which only this dork couldve created for himself

[p0th]

one day im. going to finish this (said day will most likely never happy but we can hope!!)

#guys i can paint in a clean style too!!!! no way!!!! #usually i dont like postin wips but this thing has been in my files for 2 months & i chip at it every now and then #i kinda just stuck to the torso and havent moved onto any other parts so everything else looks fucked up T_T #u can tell i was studying the torso when i was rendering it #face especially is very bland lookin right now #i have a love hate relationship with it honestly #wip #splatoon #my art

[fourteenthz]

Every time I open my shakarian playlist I get more ill but also I need.... need more old sad songs... i need to collect them all.... where are they

#yeah my playlist is filled with Out of touch + Two of us + Mayonata no door + and stuff that sounds like that (night we met for exemp) #and i have to both have this feeling and make it made sense with shakarian which is hard bc they are not toxic just difficult. hard times. #which is kinda good bc old songs normally have that feel but like 90% of mitsik songs feel off for me in that sense #BUT I NEED THEM FOR THE VIBE... GOD.... can u tell I take playlists seriously? and they aren't even public??? #i saw that when I have like 3 mitski songs there but I try. also I REALLY don't line Lana but man if summertime sadness isn't about them. #“i think ill love you forever” part is GENUINELY SO THEM and no one else. i swear. #like 10% of the songs on that playlist are from artists i like and usually listen to but that mostly bc im not a moody sad old songs kinda #of girl and i just caN NOT choose anything else for shakarian. like i swear I can picture shepard showing that kind of songs for garrus #and garrus listening to most of these on thr 2 years gap even before they get together..... bc he heard her listening once #in the normandy and it stuck with him bc... u know... reminds him of her... im gonna throw up #“smoking gun's hot to thr touch” from out of touch reminds him of their meeting like the night we met entire song #but it doesnt gets him more than “none of you” from the chorus. and by the time me3 comes they are sooo Local Natives coded #When am I gonna loose you + I saw you close your eyes ESPECIALLY #its also insane how I can go into akiangel playlists and get songs from there tbh... i never watches csm and NEVER WILL bc really not my #thing. but man akiangel stans know how to do playlist and they are the exactly same feeling i get with shakarian #sorry for the akiangel playlist makers who I have liked the playlist and listened to it on repeat. i was thinking abt shakarian while doing #sorry for the SUDDEN txt post about my spotify playlist.... i spent the morning doing university work and I accidentally #changed from my xiv playlist to the shakarian one and it went downhill from there........ anyway miss my babies..... enough rambling now #ALSO theres this thing were skip The night we met bc its my go to ardbert song LOL but THAT'S LIKE... ANOTHER SUBJECT ANYWAY #kelly says #dl #i forgot to mention For the first time by mac de marco which i like... ultimate shakrian song with Out of touch..... ANYWAY ANYWYAYA

[cocolacola]

might have some free time soon so i have to brain storm: how the fuck do u write grellerin

#my rant in tags #the hardest part is coming up with a good premise #cuz like if i dont like my own idea i cant really sell it #ok picture this and stop me if this has been done to death: #(takes place before madam red dies for context) #(so before/during the jack the ripper stuff) #mey rin is up one night and sees something she's not supposed to aka reaper!grelle just existing #and she has. no idea it's grelle she doesnt recognize her #so the next morning she goes up to her and is like #''it was the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT and i saw the most BEAUTIFUL WOMAN ever but alas.... i may never see her again #'' sorry i forgot 2 finish the quote #and grelle is like ''OH HAHA NOO SHE WILL DEFINITELY SHOW UP AGAIN U SHOULD TALK TO HER BTW!!😅😅'' #and she inadvertently becomes her own wingman. #drama and conflict ensues from all the confusion and misunderstandings and keeping secrets and whatnot #and grelle gets stuck in a mey rin love triangle with herself. lmfao #holy shit #what's wrong with me #anyways thoughts #grellerin

[volfoss]

heads up i got volfoss downloaded and i'll probably start playing tomorrow :)) i am SO looking forward to it since i've wanted to play it for a while and i'm excited to share my thoughts with you

FUCK YESSS feel free to dm me or anything :) when i finish getting the manual scans uploaded on the archive, i can send you a link since there is a LOT of helpful info there :)

#asks #literally so so so excited :) the early game tosses a LOT of info at you esp when youre getting your footing with all the locations and ppl #so if you are stuck on something or unsure of a translation feel free to lmk :) a lot of the place names get sooo bad. ikuaipe is the WORST #by far but shalvas' name gets mangled sooo bad. but im also replaying to put the finishing touches on parts of the guide so. im here to hel #♟ #if u want 2 exchange discords or smth im down for that :) i am sooo excited for ur thoughts on dajece. he has 5 million issues

[cerbreus]

i will.... find a good workout routine this time.... i will spend way way way way way longer than necessary keeping it low intensity and focusing on building core muscles so i don’t hurt my back for the 5th time in 2 yrs... willing this into reality..😣

#it has been 2 years of me trying to go slower and lower intensity every time i start back up #and still straining my back and being stuck with the herniated disk pain on level 7 for 4-5 months #the worst part about having a chronic back injury is like #the only thing that makes the chronic back injury and pain better is regular exercise #and building up core muscles/muscles in general to prevent it from getting strained again #hopefully when i have consistent healthcare for longer than 6mo i can approach a dr about getting some pt #and maybe xrays to see just how bad it is #it feels bad #nothing helps except waiting #living in fear of the day waiting doesn't help anymore #personal stuff #whatever u do don't be me if u fall and hurt your back like immediately go to the dr and get it taken care of so it doesn't become a chronic #injury like what happened with me.... this could have been avoided if i could have gone to a dr instead of just bearing the pain

[thatone-highlighter]

the nice turret (the one that tells you her name is Caroline) is sooo very bestie,,,, I love them so much.

all the turrets are sooooooooo bestie theyre so much fun

#ngl i am not 100% sure what ur talking about i Think i remeber a nice turret #but i believe u i trust u #and all the turrets are so bestie so #im starting to think i dont know as much about portal as i thought i did i thought caroline was a person #i know like the basic plot and like what you Do in the game and certain parts where the puzzles killed me #the enviornments in 2 especially are so much fun all the broken down stuff #but i dont think i actually know much of the lore most of the lore dump i got stuck on for so long i coulnt piece it together properly #or i might just Not remember #Tree Man Posts #asks #portal

[cordrot]

if you’re reading this this is your sign to play tlou

#act ii: ooc. ── eat my ass spirits. #me to my 2 followers: please play tlou and join me in the brainrot x #and join me in loving (1) tess #thank u for coming to my ted talk mwuah #yes i have been playing all evening and yes i am stuck on the same part i always get stuck at so WHAT ABOUT IT

[lipstickontheglass1985]

star trek tng s5e5 disaster would be such a beautiful name for a babygirl btw

#HUGE fan of putting those guys in situations and this ep has truly delivered on that front #everyones so beautifully out of their depth. picard cant do anything cause hes stuck in a turbolift with 3 random kids #worf delivers keiko's baby (featuring the lifechanging line 'u may now give birth'). data is decapitated. #beverly and geordi start a plasma fire in the cargo bay and almost get vacuumed out of the ship while putting it out. #the only people with access to the bridge are deanna chief obrien ensign ro (who had just joined the enterprise crew like 2 eps before) #and another ensign who gets like 1.5 lines in total for some reason. deanna is technically in charge #but somehow has no idea how the ship works despite being a senior officer. idk that felt so weird tbh she must have had required training #plus shes surrounded by this stuff all the time and shes really quite smart like i cant believe she wouldnt have at least some idea #of whats going on. like ro literally knows way more than her so at least it doesnt stand out so much as an 'haha woman dumb' thing #however i do admit that the part where they had to spell out to her that the ship is gonna explode if they dont do anything did deliver #in terms of comedic effect #these tags r way too long and im sure no ones reading em anymore anyways but yeah. tng s5e5 what an episode ! loved it so much <33 #thots

[lazaruspiss]

Thinkin bout the first reviews i saw for gk boiling down to "this isnt like the arkham series" like yeah i fuckin hope not. The npcs dont spend half the game talking about harleys tits for starters.

#i enjoyed the first game and what i managed to play of the second (got stuck at a boss fight and quit) #but the third... arkham knight im so sorry i hate the bat tank so much #and replacing the normal riddler collectibles with racetracks. i fucking hate it here. #the collectibles were legit my favorite part of the first 2 games #i stopped playing when they made bat tank a necessary to progress gameplay mechanic #i did not come here for a driving game u insufferable bitch #asylum was probably my fav bc i could lean real heavy into the stealth aspects

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok so if i wanna do a phd in the uk im prob gonna have to try for some scholarships #so now im stuck staring at the stupid very competitive scholarship listings #and like i mean ill go for it i guess but there is no fucking way im gonna get then #bc the 2 thst would cover the whole thing are either fulbright or the one specific to the institution. which is an prestigious uni so like #also super competitive. and then i look at what they want and of course they want leadership qualities #and i just. im like god. someone else deserves this more than me #im an awkward anxious person. i could say that im trying my best to walk toward a place where i could me a leader #that could be my angle. like overcoming my stupid dyslexic brain and inability to be a human #and like. going to the uk was part of what forced me outta my shell and kinda changed my whole life #so i mean. i guess that's something #but like i just feel horribly embarrassed when they ask for like community outreach or whatever bc im like hhh i go to the lab at weird #times so i dont have to interface with ppl. i have nothing to contribute to society. sorry for taking ur time. goodbye #but ugh i might as well go for it i guess. it just feels real bad to have to present ur merits as a person like thst when u dont have much #to put on the table. i mean ive got my school stuff. ive done things. but does any of that have any value other #than occuping my brain? idk #sigh... i need to find more labs. and im meeting with a guy Wednesday. hopefully thst goes well. then i dont have to think abt this... #unrelated