#tell me u get what i mean tho.

[bisaster-energy]

i am...falling, yeah

vampire empire, big thief // castiel

just because i understand you doesn't mean i understand what you want from me

@butch--dean @thepondstogether hey guys! i made another thing rq

#i have a detailed explanation for every lyric/screencap pair so if u dont get smth i will dump an entire explanation on ur lap with gusto #i don't believe in show don't tell i will show u and then tell u exactly what i mean <3 #lyric edit #supernatural #castiel #destiel #cas feels yanked around by dean even tho he's supposed to me this unshakable untouchable being #he gets dean in a way other people don't but still. he cant quite understand him #especially when it comes to what dean wants from him #outsiders can see very clearly what he wants but cas? not so much #big thief #vampire empire

[deoidesign]

me: whoa why arent I focusing today this is so weird I've got very tangible tasks to do today??? why cant I get anything done???

me: oh

me: oh....

the dr pepper I didnt drink: is there someone you forgot to ask

#guys dr pepper is keeping me alive right now I swear #the only time I get any work done is when I have dr pepper idk what it is #dr is right this shit should be prescribed cause what the hell #I'm really hoping that once I start taking the wellbutrin the doc prescribed me it helps #I dont wanna start yet tho cause I'm about to go on a family trip and I wanna have drinks #and you can't drink on it #so #yeah #idk why I'm posting this #probably cause I can't focus ltierally at all #I've drawn actually straight up nothing #it always feels so silly #like oh well then what did you do #yeah so thats the thing #just cause I didnt draw does not mean I did something in its place #days just gone idk what to tell u

[lemongogo]

me admitting that i dont hate ast*rion after all .

#like him.even . maybe. #i just drew him and i was like teehee~kicks feet and giggles and thenni remembered who this was and #my face morphed in2 thousand yard stare guy #IM SRYYY IM SRRYYYYY #IM FALLIBLE !! #wat do u want from me. if its good taste in characters wwll. u r in tha wrong place . #though i do think its bc like . like tell me why he has 90x the content of anyone else #if i hear wyll say well met one more time im gna blow up our camp.IM SOOOz give me something anything pelase please #like he’ll have nothing for 30 long rests save for a line here or there #but astarion will just want to chat u up every night like can u equal it out please pls ❤️ karlach even . #anyways . i hate gale tho HATE GALE . GALE HATERRR ☝️☝️☝️☝️ #idk if its because i found him last or what but atp i dont care to get to know him #this game is legit saur fun . the exploration especially #like i spend 90% of my time opening every vase and crate and reanimating the dead on every1.talking to all the animalz #speak w the dead* i mean #also just rhe potential 4 the funniest mistakes ever #when auntie ethel disguised herself as mayrina in fromt of my eyes i didnt process it and killed her indtead of ethel HAHAAGAHAHAHAHHA #like the sjock of messing smth up so badly but u cant do shit abt it like ok!i guess ! #karlach pushing 1hp shadowheart in2 firepitcon accident and killing her . happy family❤️🫶 #bg3

[silenthillbunni]

._.

#no to be mean but sometimes i just dont have the energy to make myself like reply to ppl nd try to interact #continiously ppl block me bc i dont reply fast enough or etc etc #nd it's just like damn i tried just to get blocked???? 🥴🥴🥴 #also funny thing in my experience it's mostly girl mutuals who lose patience nd block me #hmmm inchresting 🧐 #anyway im wording this clumsily but like im just so exhausted nd my heart's tired #im tired of building some sort of light online attachment to someone #just to feel crushed when i notice they've blocked me nd i dont even know why??? #also wanna be clear that im referring to ppl i've talked to. not just interactions. sksks 🥴 #i know not everyone will block me nd i know there r nice ppl here but like i dont have the energy to sort thru it all #or take chances bc im tired 😭😭 #i feel bad bc there r ofc very kind ppl who reach out to me nd stuff but in my bones im dejected #like what if i actually do start talking nd i start feeling affinity to u nd slight healthy attachment nd then boom one day u block me??? #i feel mean nd oversensitive complaining abt this but idk 😣 #i liked this mutual nd talking to them but they blocked me nd idk whyyyy what did i do i always do smth y'all gotta fill out a form telling #maybe if i had irl friends i wouldnt care tho im aware im a loser

[lorephobic]

hey guys. wanna say that im SO SORRY that i posted on my barry stan blog about how i was disappointed that his character in a tv show that is supposed to be entertaining was given a lackluster death. i should have NEVER called out the bad writing. and i DEFINITELY should not have joked about killing that man i hope u know that i would NEVER disrespect the militargkxhsgbkx($,!.)(!$

#mota #<- is this like a main tag or smth #i thought we were using masters of the air #but if mota is the main tag then i guess i get ppl being mad about my posts which were only ever supposed to appeal to other barryheads #like im a huge proponent of not shitting on media in the main tag because ppl should be allowed to have fun #even when the media they stan is well. bad. LOL #cwazy to vague me tho instead of just telling me directly to shut up LOL #what do u mean the show that exploited barrys popularity for advertising purposes #while barely giving him any screen time #and wrote his CHARACTER. IN A TV SHOW. THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE ENTERTAINING. badly #is getting criticized by barry stans #barry stan found stanning barry #fork found in kitchen etc etc

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Being high energy while sick feels insane. Like my brain is telling me I should lay down and rest but is also telling me I should run around in circles and break things.

#i think im getting better tho. i mean i still can feel my warped sickyness but idk my hormones maybe have me all fucked up #but like i told my mum i get these insane little hypomanic-esque episodes and she was immediately like could b ur hormones #i know a number of ppl like that. and i was like YES. thats obviously what it is but nothing comes up when i try to google things abt it #so there must b others out there. and it also implies that theres sometimes fucked up about my serotonin receptors bc when im like kinda #positively disregard i feel happy and i never feel happy. my typical emotional state is indifferent and apathetic #and then dips into light misery and very miserable but not like clinically depressed. but i was even like that while on vacation so even #removed from the stresses in my life i still am not happy. which is y its so hard when ppl r like do what makes up happy. relax #and im like. ok but like nothing works??? its either fucked up hormones or my lantent anxiety just keeps me from being happy #but whatever. im gathering so much data. when i go see a doctor im gonna pull out a spreadsheet and graphs and notes like a lunatic #bwahhh i wanna run. i have too much energy. fuck being sick. fuck having to work on a day off. fuck this #also fuck my menstrual cycle for being so short. like so short its sometimes not listed with the healthy range but only sometimes #just to make me think. i should probably talk to a doctor but. like its probably fine. its consistent so its fine #annoying. annoying. got u can tell when out of wack bc i post too much and cant shut thr fuck up lol #unrelated

[blog--witch]

Okay!!!!!!!!! I watched GO2!!!!!!!!! I’m once again feeling insane

#good omens #I’ve been busy but I finally watched the whole season #screaming and cheering at the end lmao mean!!!!!! I was like ok based on how everyone’s being they’re gonna be separated at the end #and Christine and I were like ok is aziraphale gonna be offered a job. and is he gonna take it. 🤨 #but I did NOT think there was also gonna be a whole ass Crowley confessing his feelings scene where he Kissed Him On The Mouth #they’re insane for this #Christine: well we are in a post-ofmd world. me: I forgot about that. I’m still trapped in spn mindset hell #what do u mean the two pale coconuts actually jumped together on screen #*bumped #anyways. I get it guys #also tho I’m so excited lol are they gonna be nemeses next season???????? that’s my dream!!! I always want to see friends etc that then #become foes bc of Circumstances #but also tell me aziraphale wasn’t already like Oh I Fucked Up by the end of the ep #how long until he tries to go back to Crowley and this time I think he’ll actually have to do any amt of work to earn Crowleys forgiveness #which he rly has never had to do before lol #but that man Fucked Up “I forgive you shut up!!!!! 😭 #also the blatant amount of dr who references. yeah I remember he’s the doctor thank you for reminding me!!!!!! #I saw a tiktok that was like all my teenage girls in their 20s rn are like BARK BARK BARK WOOF MEOW about David Tennant rn and it’s soo true #The Eternal Tumblr Sexyman #ANYWAYS AGAIN #I’m just dispensing all my thoughts here bc I don’t have time to scroll through a tag and feel insane and I don’t need to barf all these #onto someone else’s post #so here we are #I need to find something else to think about today bc every time I remember crowleys face as he was trying to eek out an I Love You I feel #physically nauseous #what am I supposed to do after that! #sorry to anyone who read all these tags I didn’t mean to

[hiphopcherrrypop]

my coworkers are having a laugh together or smtn like TELL ME THATS THE CASE bc why TWO of them start trying to flirt w me yesterday 😭😭

#like omg i get it…. ur conspiring together this js. a prank #pls #im literally the driest person ever idk how u could see me almost every day for months and then think ya i want that 😍 #im telling u looks do not even carry i am uggo too like if u both are fr WHAT r u seeing exactly #‘u looked rly cute today’ girl u are lying to my fsce bc i was in jeans i havent washed in 2 weeks and a cat tshirt #i realize i didnt even text him back for that and i think hes also on shift today URGEHRHH 😭😭😭 #let me just maybe. not take painkiller today #chug large coffee while im at it #then cry my waawaawa can i go home early tengo colicos 🥺🙏 before he shows up LOL…… uwhrghh… #even tho i have pulled that like twice already this month OOPS!!!! #it has been true though + i prob need to see a doctor or smtn 😞 #but in the past these kind of situations have resolved themself #which means that soon circumstances will align for me and i will be out of there 🙏🙏🙏 #(sounds of a delusional person coping)

[nostalgia-tblr]

If I could do Fics With A Plot I'd probably attempt An AU Where Lauffey Dies And Odin Goes "Oh Hey, Frost Dudes, I Had Your Heir All Along :D He's Urs Now :D" Except Because This Is A Shit Plan It Does Not Go At All Well. Because it does bother me. Because I worry too much about fictional monarchies having the 'wrong' rules. D:

#this of course means odin has also has to tell his son “btw we lied to you. GUESS WHAT THO!! I GOT U A JOB!!” #and he sends Thor along because a) characters need other characters to talk to and b) he does in fact expect trouble #and I reckon after some sort of tense Confrontation about how if Lauffey wanted rid of his son he should have the guts to make sure he died #instead of leaving it to fate like a COWARD #Loki would - by power of poshness alone - manage to convince one or two Jotuns that he does indeed count as the heir #meanwhile: existential crisis D: D: D: #but hey free kingdom nothing to sneeze at eh? let's go! we can do this! #except (obviously) no. you can't. there is NO WAY there's nobody out there with a counterclaim. #and if your WORST ENEMY raised your new king (who has a questionable claim) you absolutely manage to find a third cousin from somewhere far #off who also has a shaky claim but - here's the thing - he's not an obvious attempt to impose Odin's puppet on your realm #and then Plot would unfold which is why i cant write this despite my Weird Niche Interests being aroused (NOT LIKE THAT) by this idea #also i would answer the “was there no mother involved? did she not mind the infanticide thing?” (could go either way on that really) #essentially Loki does have Scheming Politician energy but sometimes the task really is just impossible #but perhaps surprisingly the ending is a heartwarming reunion and maybe - MAYBE - some sort of vague apology #because that really was The Worst Fucking Plan Of All Time #okay someone stop me making a new file (you-and-whose-army.rtf) and writing the extensive notes i've now got in my head D: #(but an AU so not really!) #do you want a civil war on jotunheim because this is how you get a civil war on jotunheim #...oh no DO you want a civil war on jotunheim?! D: D: was THAT the plan??? D: D: #i'd totally throw in an Ambitious Consort Queen because those are my jam <3 <3 <3 #fic-related #thor movies

[boxchewr]

im not really a homestuck fan anymore nor do i ever have the patience or time to reread it properly but. i will still fight tooth and nail for the fact that there's still a lot of value to that comic

#text #it lands solidly in 'good' category to me it does a lot of things i like but a lot i can't stand #what it does well it does so so well and tho it's very obviously a thing that started in 2009 by someone from newgrounds #and by the end you can tell everyone was tired of it going including the author #and then the fucking. shitty ass followups that seem to actively mock and loathe the fact that theyre homestuck followups #i think the meat and potatoes of the comic itself can be incredibly good more often than it's bad #its Long As Fuck but you know every facet of the significant characters. you grow and bond with them so much #absurdly long stretches of nearly pure dialogue back and forth between characters on a page #and then the next page with even more dialogue back and forth them just talking going on rambles and making jokes #but its so natural and most of the main cast feel super real like these are just some kids having a conversation on skype or smth #also it's still one of the funniest things i've ever read no cap. some of the jokes still stay in my mind forever #its not at all for everyone. not whatsoever. its 85% dependent on you liking these characters enough to see more of them #and just wanting to spend time with these little losers and their dumb overly complicated game #but i did like them! i think abt these characters a lot in my random life still despite not interacting significantly with it in years #and i feel like people are kinda a bit too mean abt it nowadays. acting like it was all a waste of time and there wasn't anything good #when no i still like a good amount of it up until beginning-middle of act 6 onwards when it just gets too confusing to keep up with #i still suggest reading it if you have time. can look past a lot of the early acts saying slurs and such. and have interest in it #at least try to get to act 5 if not beginning of 6 and then go thru 6 until u can't stomach anymore of it or if u reach the end #bc yeah act 6 being a nightmare confusion world is a lot of why i think ppl think it sucks #plus the first acts being a bit. 2009 newgrounds core #but even in those acts there's still some good stuff i wish ppl didn't shrug the whole thing off #Just give it a try see if its for u or not #it was one of the biggest Things on the internet for a while for a good reason #and i think it's a shame that it's mainly just considered. something shameful to like and stupid and has no inherent value to it #when there really is still a lot to like #give it a whirl see how you feel #i'm still never personally touching it again bc of. Generally who i was when i was hyperfixated on it #so. lmao

[boxwinebaddie]

im sorry you’re so worn out from your job </3 if it makes you feel better im a senior in hs and am also severely depressed and struggling!! so we’re both just having sm fun rn :)

awww, my love!!! :( i am ALSO so sorry you're having a rough time.

seriously: high school is hell school. but ur almost there at least!! <3

and that's the thing i guess, is i totally get it, you know? high school sucks and its super hard and SUPER stressful! getting all your homework done, parental pressures/not having positive adult influences ( which is why i try really hard to be one but!!! haha!! crying <3 ), figuring out what you want to do after hs, and...oh my god??? i can't even imagine how awful it must be to be in school w/ all the new social medias, like i would be crying every other day bc of cyberbullying/how you are perceived online/that level of anxiety.

( all i know is that even without the feeling that people/my peers are talking behind my back, being perceived online made me v unwell )

but for me, at least, i try to be as kind and gentle as possible w/ those students bc i know how horrible being in high school is...which is why its heartbreaking & pretty humiliating for me to b that vulnerable and just get none of that back at all? </3 but then, teaching is a thankless job. it pays dirt and its a lot of work. it is, however, worth it to me, to get regularly disrespected doing my job...bc i care a lot about kids getting the education they deserve in an environment that is safe and respects them...even if they don't respect me...like literally at all. yay :)

but enough of me bellyaching ( i'm not that girl i promise ), there is always a silver lining, my peach. i did...roll up to help the lil people w/ their backpacks and getting on their bus with my eyes all puffy and mascara busted up from crying and i got soooo many hugs <3 a girl gave me a cookie from her lunch...she is absolutely seeing heaven.

and you will too, my dear! you are much stronger than i. being a hser is Also a thankless job that you unfortunately, do not get paid for. and i am v sorry for that. but its my hope that you heal, my dear darling. and know that if you are struggling, you are always welcome in my box, which is the same thing i tell all of my students, i am here to support you. <3 i am not just a fanfic writer, but a warm presence?

i sincerely hope so at least...idk i'm trying my best. thank you for your kind message, i really needed it...i was not doing very well, lol. ;-;

-real crybaby fake teacher uncle nina <3

#this was seriously so kind #thank you thank you thank you #literally hs sucks dude!!! its rough!! i just wish my students would return some of the kind energy im putting out & maybe not roast me #but like...either way...i love them and i care abt them so much like every single one even the kids that are mean to me #bc they deserve to have someone in their corner...even if theyre not in mine id rather make their lives easy even if it makes mine hard </3 #and thats whats depressing tbh is not bc i dont care but bc i care very much and none of that comes back but again! its ok its my passion #i'm sorry ur going through it tho darling high school was very hard for me too there is so much on ur plate #just take it easy -- which is easier said than done but all i can say is that if you need help please ask my love #even if its from me which x2...clearly im not very good at my job but i will always listen and support u all no matter what #if ur going thru it please keep going and know im in ur corner #i am extremely proud of you and i am so happy you were born #as a small request tho uh if u see someone like me wandering around ur hell school getting their shit kicked in #please be nice to them for me bc wooooow when i tell u i cried so much my chest still hurts whEW!!!! thank god im going home to see my cat

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

i want ike to be in three houses

for science

#DCB RD Run #y'all know what i'm talking abt if u follow me lmao #ike rly does say all the most perfect shit but most ppl don't even get to see it these days #bc intsys won't make the games accessible and they cost hundreds of dollars for a used copy jfhsagjdg #BUT ALSO this line? REALLY fuckin wish they said to zelgius too with someone anyone even if it wasn't ike #would've been really awesome tho for it to be ike who said it so that zelgius couldn't uwu my teacher his way out of being a villain #what is it with them making ppl be like uwu my teacher and that suddenly make them not a villain fhajgdgsj #like WHERE WAS THIS LINE WHEN IN REBIRTH 2 #we had tibarn with us! ranulf! shinon! oscar! SOMEONE could've said it!!! #hecky schemcky if OSCAR said it? that would be like DAMN u fucked UP tho #if OSCAR couldn't forgive you for something? d a m n sonny that one would cut d e e p #but also?! shinon! being calm about it! and just telling him outright! look! nah! you did all that shit! and now you want to uwu us to death #nah! what you did was unforgiveable and you kept doing unforgiveable things! #i mean come on there's a line out the door of ppl who wanted to get or deserved to get revenge on that guy #YES I HAD TO LET IT OUT AGAIN I'M STILL MAD THAT SEPH GOT THE WHOLE NO U DID BAD #BUT ZELGIUS DID ARGUABLY WORSE BC HE DIDN'T DO IT AFTER LOSING HIS ENTIRE FUCKING MIND #AND HAVING HIS ENTIRE FAMILY SLAIN AND HIS FOREST HOME BURNT TO DEATH #LIKE. COME ON. SEPH AT LEAST HAS A LEGIT REASON TO HAVE LOST HIS MIND BUT ZELG? #siiiiiiiiigh. anyway put ike in three houses so he can teach all the dumb stans how to be a proper mc #yeah that's right i said it A PROPER MC #blorbo is in the corner hiding bc he doesn't like these tags. see his bow? see it? it's poking into the pic #ALSO HOW COME REYSON DOESN'T GET ANY LINES WITH SEPH ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENED POST BATTLE #this post has gone in three entirely different directions in the tags good for me good for me

[nomaishuttle]

oh my god ive been on tumblr for nearly a decade. guys i have to get some bitches Now i cant do this anymore

#not rly its likee. i joined 2016 or 2017.. so only like 6 or 7 years #but ill tell you what Still way too many years to be on this site 💀 #its ok. my upcoming life rebrand (when i get my apt (which of course will be perfect and exactly how im imagining and it wont disappoint #in any way and my life will be 5billion times better (bc moving ALWAYS means moving to a better place and a better life (as the past year #has proven for me (that was all sarcasm (i forgot how many parenthesis ive done now. hold on...))))) (nailed it) #will proooobably be so awesome and make me so happy and normal pilled that i wont ever feel the urge to use this app #sadddd ill miss u guys but also i want my life to be good enough that i dont have to be on tumblr DJFNFJFNJG. #i will probably still use it im just hoping i use it Less... i have been using it a lot less recently methinks tho