#thats gonna be ur tag from now on

[b4kuch1n]

siren

#bakuspecial #cw: nudity #cw: body horror #monster #siren! I think. they're bird to me #I think this has been brewing since that stream mim did of drawing dnd monsters only from official text description #and when the official art for the sirens were shown I was like. oh thats just a woman with wings #lmao like. granted. its an official dnd book available for all audience. you cant make it too Bad To Look At #(I do not agree with this but it wasnt about me. if its about me its gonna be about very few people lmao) #but yeah. after that I got slightly too into the idea of putting more bird into birdwoman #but I also do genuinely love monsters that are Rearranged Human Parts so. I couldnt commit too much to the bird scales Im so sorry #I wanted the fleshiness. the feel. textural experience of holding her hands and being like oh that's a human #even when ur eyes tell u otherwise. mmm #...I looked to my right as I was typing these tags and saw. the fucked up pikmin I tried to sculpt the other day along with the pin #and got startled #its so. its so fucked up. gods. dusty white naked grainy parsnip #I used to have that one doll I butchered wanting to customize in a box next to me and thats way less upsetting than this. man #its perfect actually I will never throw this thing away. anyways #now. now I go to bed. its sleep time for the baku #have a good night lads! you CAN have it both way easily you just need a big bat

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[kasumikoujou]

daily pivot no9... whuh?

#TUMBLR USER PIKESPENDRAGON67 IF THIS REACHES YOU LISTEN UP #the sumi art #pivot arnancy #re:zero #tales of the abyss #jade curtiss #okay now tbat i put the tags. everyone gather around for a story time in tags. cause its gonna be like one of those only on tumblr stories #dear pikespendragon67 #you once rbd one of my daily pivots and tagged it with jade #now i may have ruined your day to rb your rb and say ermm thats actually not jade #but hear me out you may have changed my lifes trajectory forever #after that case i looked up jade on google and i was like huh i can see how you mixed em up. also hes kinda hot #so i went to his wiki as you do and read about him. and he seems so similar to pivot to worrying degrees #pivot also seemed extremely similar to another fav of mine aka christo from d5 and they were all so copy pastes of each other atp #so now i came up with my schizo mental theory that theyre all the same guy reincarnated in different universes. #and picked up tales of rhe abyss. and im havjng fun with it too. this is insane #only on tumblr someone will wrongly tag ur doodle post and change ur life forever for the better (probably) #ps i love jade so muhc now and i will probablydraw him as well thank you dear tiumblr user

[reel-fear]

Honestly, every single time the whole 'poppy playtime is a bendy rip-off' stuff ever shows up I find it all extremely unconvincing and silly.

For one thing, rip-off usually is meant to imply that it's a cheap lazy copy of a better more polished thing, and uh. Sorry but even from chapter 1? Poppy Playtime is a better game than Bendy, it has a simple but understandable story, the game manages to be thrilling, creepy, and very intense at times... I mean that Huggy chase in the vents ALONE puts it way above Batim for me.

I mean BATDR had the most slow stupid chase I've ever seen [and every other encounter with the ink demon is text telling u he's there and then a timer goes down and u get jumpscared] and batim's chases were either silly or just not nearly as theatric or terrifying as that.

When making the vent sequence I mean not only is it absolutely horrifying to realize how fast Huggy is in there but also it's so theatric and cool? The fact that you round a corner after thinking you escaped only to see a terrifying animation of that thing crawling toward you is awesome! I wish Bendy had stuff like that!

And all the stuff it shares with Bendy are generic things Bendy ripped from other horror games/media anyways. I'm not saying Poppy Playtime isn't inspired by Bendy I for sure think it is but Bendy is such a generic story that somehow fails to do tropes 100 other horror games have done any comparison only makes Poppy Playtime look better.

"It has employees being sacrificed for their company" That is not a concept Bendy invented, literally look at any of the sci-fi horror series Bendy is very inspired by. This is literally a twist in the original Alien.

"It has a scary woman forcing you to do tasks for her" Once again, not a concept Bendy invented, a scary mysterious person forcing you to do fetch-quests is a concept found in tons of horror media. And at least Poppy Playtime gave you a chase with her and let you defeat her, look at poor malice. She's barely on screen for more than 10 minutes before she gets stabbed.

"It has a cult worshipping the monster" This is something tons of horror games and media have done too. I mean In The Tall Grass has a guy who worships a giant magical rock in the middle of a grass maze, Bioshock [which Bendy has only been taking more and more direct inspiration from while failing to grab any of the compelling parts] also had a lot of themes of religion and cult-ish behavior, almost every horror media franchise has at one point done a cult thing.

Bendy couldn't even come up with a reason Sammy worships the ink demon, the best motivation we've ever gotten is just that 'he's crazzyyyy the ink made him insaneeee'. Who is the cheap rip-off here?

At least Poppy Playtime gave their cultist a motive for worshipping the monster + a proper boss fight that feels intense and looks awesome! Bendy didn't even let you kill Malice [she got stabbed in front of you and then just collapsed on the floor how thrilling] meanwhile you get to kill three of the villains in Poppy Playtime and the gameplay and action in those scenes have only gotten better as the game went on.

I mean Sammy walks into a room and goes "AAA SCARY I'M BEING MURDERED" then later shows up and for NO REASON sees a normal human man and assumes it's the ink demon before once again someone else kills him for you. In Poppy Playtime you defeat Catnap as he floods the world with this horrible nightmare-inducing gas that intensifies the color palette and his design. Fight off versions of him that are illusions that you need your flare gun for, then watch in a wonderful animation as he mistakes the monster for his savior before getting killed by it, in a brutal way I might add, which game are we accusing of being cheap, lazy garbage again?

I just find this argument to be people who Really Really need to find a reason to hate Poppy Playtime which I think is silly. The devs being weird, shady people is already enough reason to dislike the game, you don't need to invent reasons why secretly every part of the game is malicious or bad. But esp when I see Bendy fans saying they don't support Poppy Playtime or dislike it bc of its devs or even saying its cringe ummmm.

I have bad news about the fact Bendy's devs are worse and it took not one, but TWO over an hour long videos to cover it all. Plus the Bendy games are just the worse games in every aspect, if I could sell my batim copy for a copy of Poppy Playtime I wouldn't hesitate at all.

Saying this as a bendy fan, we have no right to be super judgy towards Poppy Playtime. If Poppy Playtime is embarrassing cringe, Bendy is too and is way more embarrassing of an interest. We shouldn't spread misinformation just because we all want to hate Poppy Playtime, you can dislike Poppy Playtime without making up a bunch of nonsense to justify it.

Honestly seeing people just blatantly be unfairly mean to Poppy Playtime only makes its critics look worse and makes it hard to take any backlash to the games seriously. Because surprise surprise if you spread misinformation to make a point people will quickly stop listening to Anything you have to say bc they won't trust you're telling the truth anymore.

#feel free to reblog but Im not gonna tag this its way too rambley at least for my taste to go in the main tags #ramblez #also man can I say I didnt want to make this post super long but theres so many other points I could make in poppys favor #the fact we got to see the hour of joy and it was terrifying we dont even know if joey actually killed anyone anymore #the gameplay itself is more diverse and fun then batim which is a walking simulator that pretends to have fighting n stealth mechanics #at least Poppy n Missys friendship gives u a reason to care for missys safety before shes put in danger #Missy can actually express unlike Boris who sits there looking cute with no proper expressions until he gets yoinked and ur supposed to car #bc he was uh adorable? And therefore you spend an entire chapter tryna get him and get an extremely bad boss fight in return- #also soundtrack wise I like poppys tracks more theyre unique and fun and you can tell which part of the game they come from #bendy has so many dramatic reveal stingers and tracks that are really hard to tell which part of the game they come from #bertrums boss fight has my favorite theme bc its so specifically crafted for him and unique and meanwhile Norman has one of the worst imo #a lot of Bendys soundtrack if I played it for you right now it would be hard to guess where its from bc it all kinda sounds the same #the reveal music for the machine for bendy land for heavenly toys for alices domain all sound the same x_x #its just so frustrating but yeah my point is can we all stop making up new reasons to shit on poppy playtime its just kinda dumb #it feels less like actual criticism and at this point just feels like elaborate justification for cringe culture which I hate #okay thats it bye sorry this is 10 pages long-

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[sovaharbor]

what did i do to deserve an ibs flare-up at 11 pm.......

#i mean i went way too hard at dinner for someone whos getting over a migraine. so. thats probably it #also i wasnt really feeling the snack i ate but i made myself eat some anyway bc i was getting Weird Anxiety so. exposure therapy. #however the exposure therapy kicked my gastrocolic reflex into high gear and now. here i am. #sittin on da bathroom floor. heating pad on my tummy. mourning that stupid stupid idea to eat peanut butter crackers #summer's text tag #also if u want an inside look into how insane ocd and emetophobia can be: #two of our cats puked tn. it was 100% from the cat food they both ate for Their dinner. #but for some reason my brain has been like 'no... no. it was actually the chicken u ate tn.' bc ONE of the cats who puked i gave a teeny bi #of my chicken tenders to. and so. yah. my brains like welp. even tho ur other cat didnt have ANYTHING. u gave em both food poisoning #and now YOU have food posioning. and ur gonna suffer for all of eternity now. this is the worst thing that could ever happen to u #or!!!!! my brain has ALSO been telling me 'you got cat saliva on ur hand from one of the cats that got sick from their food so now YOU are #also sick. from their food. from a single POTENTIAL saliva hand. and now u will suffer. this is the worst thing ever for u.' #but blah blah blah blah i am strong i am brave and even when im not brave im actually still brave for being scared [like rn] #i just wanna finish in here so i can go to BEDDDDD

[earlyspringtranscendence]

Hello..

#from Bryce's twitter #2point0 #bryce remsburg #was gonna tag cole but now im not so sure thats him and in any event i dont think he was ever at chikara right? #not that this is nec chikara.... #anyway. something something angry bc someone else ks dancing w ur crush at the school dance #matt menard #angelo parker

[synth-spinner]

can i get another random fact about your superior spidey? and a headcanon about ps4 peter ? :3

OMGG YAYY YAYYYYY OFC U CAN :3 !!💙🦋 ooo I'm literally gonna be insane with this avert ur eyes YIPPPEEE YIPPPEE YIPPEEEE

Im gonna hit u with a big very delusional one ^_^ This is more of a silly thang that could or could not be seen in universe BUT superiors eyes flash either green amber or red (sorta like some animals' eyes in the dark) when he's feeling rlly intense emotions ^_^

Green is when he's a little malicious and he's got more of his old villain-y vibe going on, usually when he's like reaal annoyed or frustrated but in his arrogant petty evil genius way :3 usually nothing bad ACTUALLY happens, but when he's like this he goes a bit more extreme/suspicious with his methods but its always a ploy or a trick to get the badguy to back off, like threatening an innocent or being mischievously unpredictable >:3 it flashes briefly like when authors say characters have a mischievous glint in their eyes ^_^ I'd say this is triggered by more negative emotions like frustration and anger

Amber is when more of the. .Spidey side comes out, very empathetic and protective of innocents and also usually a big worrier</3 its usually when he sees someone in imminent danger and he goes full hero mode doing things he would normally say he finds illogical, like having 0 self preservation to jump into action to save someone !! :3 or going out of his way to do more than he would usually see fit !! While usually his more logical approach to saving people results in the least damage or harm to all parties, this helps in situations where he really has no time to think, but always ends with him getting more beaten up than usual </3 it flashes for longer than the green and usually lingers throughout whatever heroic action he's suddenly had the urge to take <3 I guess this is more positively charged since its his desire to help others and keep others safe? Its based on love for others I guess ^_^

Red is my most insanest idea because its all my own weird take 💕 Unlike green and amber where its some aspect of his thought process having more influence than usual in emotionally charged situations, red is uhhmm I'm a bit silly ok get this . So I had an idea before I read the comics that since he is able to access the memories of peter parker and they were like, not very spiderman-focused, the essence of "spiderman" <-strong capable and confident 'great power', is seperate from the peter parker stuff, which is the 'great responsibility' and all that.. so,, in like legitimately. Insane. Emotionally supercharged situations with high stakes.. things get funky... Now otto used to be very good at handling intense negative emotions (with violence) but with the new morals factoring in and the way its affected him I feel like even he would get overwhelmed in some situations. And in those most horrid scenarios bestie... he just is not there!! the superior spiderman is acting purely on that 'spiderman essence' but without the restraint of peter parkers compassion or otto octavius' logic.. its a little scarymode because its like unhinged strength and impulsive action, and of course backed up by intense emotion. Is it negative or positive ?? We doesnt know at this point!! It's all so overwhelming that he goes a little nuts with it.. definitely a combo of both tho. Maybe intense fear but with millions of lives and his loved ones at stake!! Obv comic superior would probably be able to handle it but like my superior is some poor little meow meow who has trouble dealing with the whole conflicting personality thing. Uhm anyway I'm normal💖💙🦋☝️ it is super bright and stays like that for however long it lasts like straight up animal staring at you in the dark core. He says almost NOTHING when he's like this and is tunnel vision on his goal(which may or may not be good) HAS THIS HAPPENED BEFORE ? answer is NO !! but its smn i think abt sometimes ^_^

But ofc none of this can be seen under the mask so whatever. <- will rip his suit so much just for this

Anyway that was very normal of me ! Onto MY BLORBO BUNGUS PETER PS4 PARKERR !!! Honestly my ver of him is pretty close to canon! A headcanon I do have tho for both the actual game and for my little au is that yknow at the end of the 2020 game miles is able to drink upside down and that shows him settling into being a fully fledged spiderman.. I think abt that a lot because its so cute.. anyway I think that that end scene is not the first time he's done it in front of peter and the first time he actually did it they celebrated SO hard. U can tell miles was really into it cuz during the montage with ganke he was practicing and failing and dropping his cup silly style </3 HES SOO SILLY I THINK ABT THIS A LOT. PETER PROBABLY MADE THAT A PART OF THE SPIDERMAN TRAININGS AFTER HE CAME BACK AND FOUND OUT MILES WANTED TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT !! He probably ended every session by treating miles to some yummy drinks and teaching him how to get comfortable drinking upside down.. and they probably got soo excited when miles finally got it they went to show ganke and miles got too excited and just dropped the cup again and they all had a great time giggling abt it ^_^ and when he finally successfully does it in front of ganke, ganke LOSES IT because that's SO FUN AND HES BEEN TRYING TO DO IT FOR DAYS

#JUST WANNA SAY UR SOOO EVEYRTGING #auagiagdogdhl u are EVERYTHING!!!!! UR THE BACKBONE OF WHIMSY UR THE WHIMSY SPIRIT THATS WHAT THEY CALL U!!! LOVE UUU!!💥💥🦋💙💙💙💙🦋🦋 #glad i get to share this ^_^ very silly stuff from the corners of my mind!!!! #im actually maybe gonna post abt anotehr idea seperately someday >:3 thanks to UR AWESOME FRIENDLY MODE SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT #if nobody got me ik the silly spiderman tumblrmutual got me<33333 #superior spidey #u know what if i ever officially name this i will call it somewhat synths superior spidey based on that one tag u left bcoz its so good #ALSO FOR THE RED EYE THING.. THERE WAS ONE PART IN THE COMICS WHERE SUPERIOR TRIED TO MAKE A DEAL WITH MEPHISTO TO #REVERT HIM BACK TO EVIL DOC OCK MODE SO HE COULD DEAL WITH A BADGUY??? #i hadnt seen it and i still havent but #i somehow interpreted that as. well if theres things he used to be able to handle (albeit evilly) that NOW he cant??? #means he is more prone to being overwhelmed cuz he isnt that unhinged anymore

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Hbvnfyvjv can you tell I watch game theory- I love overanalyzing stuff I'm not surprised it was a little inaccurate- “there’s also just some things i wanna keep secret for now…” I'm very intrigued 👀 also dumb question, how do They eat with no mouths? Do they just absorb the food? Do They need to eat? If you threw a packet of biscuits at them would they eat it plastic and all? I have questions but they're not the right ones probably- -🌟

hehe 😈

hmmm well for now i'll just say that it has no mouths on any of its' faces, and len monitors it in case it needs anything

lmaoooo i mean it would be hard to miss the fact four of your fellow students went missing, everyone starts talking about it after it gets concerning how long they've been gone

she did know them before their disappearances, but obviously wasn't as close to them as len b/c, well, they were len's friends mostly and not hers.

len has a lot of different reasons for not wanting anyone else to know abt his experiment, but you can only hide so much from your sibling lol; rin isn't stupid and knows smthn's going on, yet it's also a matter of how much information can i piece together before he knows that i know

she does eventually go down there though yeah, and you'll see what happens when she does :P

#ask #i gotta tag these for logging/consistency but i still have no name for whatever tf this shit is AUGH #the more i think abt it wow this is... really messed up. LIKE LMAO not the worst fcking thing but it is kinda dark #thats a per usual w/ my shit tho lol my longtime peeps that know me shouldn't be surprised #questions but not the right ones is still good questions!!! even aside from voca bs in real life thats smthn so useful #i know so many kids here that landed research projects b/c they asked a kinda dumb science q and researchers were like #'... huh. never thought of that even tho it seems obvious. wtf. ur gonna be in charge of finding out the answer to that now' #composite au #ollie the star anon

[soulsilversprings]

finally setting up a fic rec tag!! so long overdue. but, wow - y'all should check it out. so many talented folks :')

((btw the tag is just #fic rec))

#basically this was just me trying to dig through every fic ive reblogged so far #bc i have learned that the tumblr search bar doesnt always work the best #and - i wanna have somewhere to point to like 'look! u should read this!" #also if ive commented / reblogged on ur fic but its not showing up here i probably just couldnt find it during my first search #so lmk if thats you!!! #gonna set one up for art too methinks #or maybe one for my friends/mutuals' art and another for general art #idk! #still learnin how to use le tumble #im also realizing now that the tag is mostly fics from close mutuals #and i wanna branch out more and actually start searching ao3 tags again! #sleepy rambles w/ ira #fic rec

[martyrbat]

forming parosocial relationships with the people in the medical book </3

#okay so. #its from 1917 and very dated but its so fascinating hearing the theories and practices #and then it having photographs and illustrations based on the writers experiences and exposure to different cases #and i got a little habit forming of just... mentally thanking them #like a subconscious 'thank u my friend' #for their involvement and how thwy played a factor and part in the advancement of science and knowledge #like even if its just a fraction of a sand grain in the vast dessert. its a fraction that influences all around it. #like !!! thats all lives ! long gone ! but it was actual lives that were here and played a factor and influence ! #i hope they knew theyll be remembered even if i will never know their names and story. they were important than important now #<- this is all said from someone who would sneak out at 13 and walk to the nearest graveyard to talk to the forgotten tombstones #because i was terrified at the idea that ghosts can exist/some consciousness and theyd feel lonely or forgotten #everyone deserves a friend u know? leave some flowers to a stranger. tell another u hope theyre at peace and are well. say hello & goodbye #its 10 pm. still tired. still constantly in love with humans and strangers and friends and eventually the mirror #i want to take everybody by the shoulders and shake them as i yell that i love them #alive or dead. the dead that feel alive. the live that feel dead just !! #i love you ! i love you ! i love you ! i know you and i love you ! youre a stranger and i love you !!! #these tags are all over the place #and doesnt make sense but ur all used to it by this point #im gonna read and get a shower and tuck myself into bed. remind myself i love myself too even if i dont rly believe it (yet) #crypt callings #probably delete later #depends how embarrassed i am on this word dump and oversharing hehdh

[ihatebnha]

hey pretty, I just wanted to tell you that it's not your fics that makes this your blog, it's you!! so don't feel like to be here you have to be "working" or "posting". you're you and I love u for that. really, I love it when you answer asks, you're so polite, gentle and funny, it actually makes us wanna talk to you. but!! if one day this whole thing ever overwhelms you it's okay baby. just wanted to let you know that you alredy give us so much <33 you are amazing in indulging our thoughts, you give us tiktok content and amazing dad headcanons for all the characters!! know you're doing great, you really are active here and we love you 💗❤❤

#cries for literally 100 years #thank you so incredibly much for this anon :(((( truly truly truly #hardly know how to express what i wanna so i have to stay in the tags so i don't end up blubbering all over u adslfjkjasnd #no one has ever ............... said anything like this to me before #at least about ... my content and how active i am and stuff #i always feel like im never doing enough. ALWAYS. even when i post a lot i just wish i could post more #and maybe its just cuz im comparing myself to my old self #but it makes me sad bc i just feel like u all deserve more than whats happening now #and usually im reassured by the fact that like... something IS better than nothing... esp w/ quality over quantity #but at the same time... idk. all my content seems so. rudimentary #so it's like. when i cant produce a lot of it... what am i even doing? #and honestly i think my burnout mostly comes from the fact that im sick of doing homework and the prospects of relaxing this summer #are just too good to give up (making even focusing on this blog hard) BUT IDK #it triggers my performance anxiety... like what if ppl hate me if i do bad... or am not the way i used to be... you know? #anyway thats just mostly to say... I REALLY APPRECIATE THIS. TRULY. i don't think ive ever been complimented this way #and i appreciate it beyond. words. #not sure how im gonna feel in 2-3 weeks after i settle myself for the summer but. as long as u dont mind the fact that im slow... #that's enough for me <3 just need to find my spark again (which is funny cuz im watching bnha s5 rn and its really got me like... HUH) #ajfdjalsjdfj sorry to talk ur ear off tho bc what u said is really so reassuring... i just AHHHH and want u to know i love u lots #forever and ever and ever #ask #anon #caitie chats #fave

[luck-of-the-drawings]

HOW DO YA LIKE THAT DARK DOG??

BEEN REAL ENAMORED BY THE 'SORRY' BOYS AND THEIR ODD ESCAPADES LATELY. I THINK THEY COULD DO A LOT OF GOOD THINGS WITH THREE GALLONS OF 'FAKE' BLOOD.

#sorry boys #sorry fanart #cw gore #cw body horror #DEAR GGODODDD I HOPE I TAGGED SORRY THE RIGHT WAY #PLEASE SORRY FANS IM HHEERE IM HERE AND IM CRAAZYYY GODDD PLEASE FIND MEEE FIND MEEEEEEEEE #GONNA BE HONEST IVE BEEN FLOPPIN BACK N FORTH ON THIS REAAAALL HARD LIKE. IM NOT SURE IF I LIKE IT #BUT EVERYONE WHO SEES IT SAYS ITS COOL! SO IMM GONNA TRUST IN THE WORD OF MY FRIENDS!!!!! THANK YOU FRIENDS!!!! #i tried to fit in as many things in the video as i could into his vile chest cavity. im rly proud of how jumbled n messy n fun it looks! #SOME THINGS TO NOTE! i painted over the bg of a specific shot from the video. painted over a portion of that LIGHT FIXTURE #BUT I Had to improvise the rest and im PRROUD LOOK AT THAT!!! WITH A MOUSE TOO BTW #DREW THIS WHOLE THING WITH A MOUSE. took some time but i think im gettin the hang of it #ANOTHER DETAIL: ranboos lil wires behind his mask. teeehehhehee i rly liked gen loss #i like this weird combo i do of cartoony and photo realistic. not sure where my balance is yet with that but im havin fun!! #ughghgh what else can i say abt this piece... other than it kicked my aASSSSSSS!!! #adding highlights in blood is always SSUCH A FIGHT for me guhhh it takes so much wrestling to make it look right.... #ggbbhhbbgbh thats all thats in my brain for now. enjoy my art and enjoy my notes about my own art. enjoy ur day aswell if u can

[dreamcast-official]

fuck it. fuck it. i dont care. i dont actually care

#vent in tags #im gonna add some filler tags bc this is the first time i think a vent in tags is actually. serious and might be upsetting. so. ur own risk #idk whens good enough. fuck it #its gonna be my abusers birthday in a few days. #and i heard that she mightve killed herself last year #i dont know. not like i fucking kept tabs on her. i didnt care. #but my friend who used to be a mutual friend with her said her last post on social media was very depressed. and in may of last year #and i know what type of person she is (was?) #she. might be fucking dead #and. i dont. know how to feel about that #on the one hand. i dont give a fuck anymore. she hasnt been something i think about since her last attempt to stalk me #on the other hand. idk. i guess she still has some power over me. because i feel like its my fault. #i heard from someone that everytime she posted on her whatsapp status it was about me and how *i* ruined her life #idk. i cant help but feel like. if she really is dead. it was all my fault. i know thats not true but. god it fucking feels like it #why do i still care. she fucking ruined my life why do i care if shes alive or not. #for a long time i said i wanted her to be dead. that i wished she wouldnt bother me anymkre #but now that thats an actual possibility. god i dont know what the fuck to do #and i cant talk about this with anyone because i never told anyone about what she did and i dont think i could #i guess she finally followed through with all those times she threatened to kill herself because of something i did. #to be honest. good fucking riddance. fuck you julia

[reel-fear]

I think you guys are losing it with the Earthspark critiques now actually like at first I was on board but now it feels like u guys have forgotten we've only got one season so far and 99% of what we have seen was clearly set up for later pay off like calm down a little-

#if u replace these words with other words this is fucked up #and someone replies #ramblez #I joined in on it for a sec to talk abt how I personally view the themes #but now going in the tags is kinda a minefield suddenly all from one blog #and its like guys this series JUST started #not to mention a lot of the takes just feel. In really bad faith or purposely reading too deep into minimal stuff rn #like sure maybe the cybertronians are supposed to be symbolism for immigrants and stuff but I think they could also just be #symbolism of poc or other races in general? Considering what they've expeirence isnt purely xenophobia but other forms of racism too #and we dont exactly have enough info to know how the cons are gonna be treated what route the villains go down etc etc #ngl some of the takes feel like that tweet where some guy was like yea did u just figure out changing words in a sentence changes its meanin #the same is for stories #we dont yet entirely know what the terrans symbolize in all of this #what they are going to do with the cons the villains and everyone else #so yeah if u decide that certain characters n such symbolize something different than the intention [which we dont know yet #] u can make a story fucked up and problematic but thats not good critique thats how u make X character is secretly dead and this is #the afterlife theories abt pokemon and shit- #u cant just be like 'if you take this character and read them as symbolic of a thing thats never really mentioned or suggest by the story #then their story is actually very fucked up' and not provide more elaboration- #reminds me the tfa transphobia post that was like 'tfa clearly shows modifying ur body to be evil and dehumanizing #in terms of the characters upgrading' AND LIKE DID U EVEN WATCH THE SHOW OPTIMUS UPGRADES HIMSELF TO #TAKE DOWN MEGATRON... YOU KNOW... THE VILLAIN #LIKE YEA IF U TAKE THESE CHARACTERS NOT CODED TO BE TRANS AT ALL AND SAY THEY R SYMBOLISM FOR TRANS PPL #U MIGHT SEE THE STORY AS FUCKED UP BUT ITS NOT THE STORIES FAULT UR SCRATCHING OUT WORDS AND REPLACING #THEM WITH OTHERS- #reminds me of the nightheart shit too #nightheart isnt coded to be trans hating nightheart isnt transphobia its common sense #and yea if u take him as symbolism for being trans suddenly every woman in TC is transphobic now but thats not the storys fault #thats yours for putting concepts in the story and projecting ideas onto it that it does not hint at nor care to explore

[prismartist]

do u know where to find a spamalot revival slime tutorial? :3

oh noo ani haha i cant possibly do that, thats illegal yknow haha...

#u could try asking through a tumblr post in the tag! might take a while for someone to answer... if at all... but its worth a shot #a more effective way is thru a subreddit like r/musicalbootlegs or r/bootleggifts #orrrr you could go straight to the source :D #the only video of the revival available so far afaik is akwardjewishtheatrenerd's #u could find their website and the listing of the boot if u search them up and go to their masters #ur gonna have to pay. but yknow gotta respect the masters #a longer shot is goin on encora.it and making an account and stuff but thats a whole process #(oh. u could also ask for the kennedy center version. thats basically the version thats on broadway right now but from earlier this year) #(sorry if u knew all this i wasnt sure) #anyways godspeed ani #ask #Anonymous