#thats my only excuse I guess???

[zandiiangelspit]

To the other ask that said "Sombra is Mexican tho"

She IS Mexican but that's only her nationality. Her race is native American since she has a meshika (aztec) skin. Do people not know that native Americans are from an entire continent and not one colonial country? 💀

Precisely~

#answered #I suppose not everyone knows the correct terms and usage #thats my only excuse I guess??? #I dont know them all and I could be wrong at times but if people could correct me and educate me I'll happily correct myself

[spotsupstuff]

How is Spore in off-the-strings au? (post asendtion)

worse but also better- so Orion and her got somewhat a little bit together again sometime after the MA, but not really to the same distance as what they used to be. like they don't chat daily, Spore is still sorta kinda uncomfy and restless while speaking to him, she would rather listen and trust Gem n Expiation than him. that sorta stuff

but well, this is their positioning on the map (Expiation is right southeast from the Root)

so whether she wants it or not, the Iterator who will come collect her is Orion

not that she actually Knows what's happening at all. her comms are kinda spotty so she doesn't get the broadcast that Boreas sends into the group disclosing that what's happening (puppets getting loose off of the umbilical arms and retaining consciousness) is a group-wide thing and that everyone shall make their way to the Root (with outer rim Iterators goin first n slowly collecting others along the way). Spore just sorta gets separated from her Hivemind, falls off her umbilical arm and is So shaken up from that separation that she can't move from where she fell and doesn't know how to deal with this. so she's just terrified

then Orion makes it to her and the funny interpretation of the scene is this

and the serious sad interpretation is that he cuts his way through the shroom forest to her structure, climbs all the way up and finally makes it into her chamber and finds her curled into a ball and shaking in absolute primal fear

he slowly comes to her, announcing his presence and she gets both spooked and relieved by it. she had No idea someone was coming. she is So happy to see anyone at all that any bad feels she had against Orion get thrown out of the window and the moment he kneels next to her, she forces herself up, legs limp, and just nose dives into his chest

so they just sorta sit there for a long while, Orion hugging and comforting her to the best of his ability. he then explains things to her, that this disconnect is happening to everyone and that they are expected to meet up at the Aeolus Root

the next cycle they set off on the road, with Ori carrying her on his back since she doesn't know how to walk yet. he helps her learn whenever it's safe to stop and they always sleep in shelters cuddled up together. there is still a blaring pain of loneliness in Spore's mind, right there where her existence as a Hivemind without an Individuality is supposed to be, but her elder brother hugs her tightly and warmly and it's not so bad like it was back in her chamber

this build up closeness on their journey to the Root is why they!

almost constantly stick together in the Root's village n don't have issues sassing each other. they get back to being close siblings, even though both of them are different than they used to be Orion should be technically within the Root with Boreas as the "second in command" while Spore should stay in the house they designated med centre, but Orion doesn't really give much shit about the shoulds when Spore is on the line anymore

anyway, Sparrows arrival made Spore happier! she gets to have a patient again!!!! she adores taking care of her and is honestly willing to come between Spars n Boreas to keep her safe. it feels like having a purpose again

but she's also worst off because Gem n Expiation are hanging around and ofc Gem won't let up on her manipulative bullshit and even when Ori tries to talk Spore out of staying friends with them, he fails cuz Spore is still desperate for companionship

then also she's still infected by the fungi. Sparrows as a Mechanic offers to take care of her and rid her of all that, but again. Spore doesn't want to be alone. so she says no and disregards any logical factual reasoning Sparrows brings up. ofc one day this will be solved and Spore gets cured while staying safe from isolation, but yeah

#spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #this poor bitch was introduced by her death scene and now im So emotionally invested in her actually........ for fucks sake. #Gen 1s just refuse to be Only filler characters i guess. oh no n theres supposed to be 20 of them in the Eo group.... #if Aftertaste of Disdain (5th ittie of Eo) ends up kickin my ass emotionally too i might flip a table at this rate #Gen 1s be like: Oh? you want me to not carry an emotional punch??? -takes hand of their buddy Gen 1- fuckin think again #Gem is so far the only one whos keepin away from doin that but thats just because shes overall an ass without any tragedy to excuse her

[mydetheturk]

oh fuck its's sunday six sentences time

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Vash did something with his mouth that could be considered, if Wolfwood were generous, a smile. Not a nice or particularly pleasant smile, but a smile. It was more a baring of teeth than anything else, a reminder that Vash wasn’t human.

Wolfwood slipped the rosary off his neck, pooled the beads on Vash’s throat. “Don’t move,” he said. The wooden beads clicked together, vibrating slightly as Vash made a noise deep in his vocal cords.

#trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #myde writes #i have been #working on this fic #for what feels like months #and its still only 1200 words #all i want out of it is wolfwood making vash come so hard he sees shrimp colors #thats all #maybe vash glows or sprouts feathers because of said aforementioned shrimp colors #also any excuse to write wolfwood having religious quandaries about having sex with an angel is always a good excuse #maybe i'll work on this on my day off this week #haha my tags are longer than my sentences #fuck me i guess

[robotsafari]

this has to be a metaphor. for something

#robo ramble #im just going to read this as a thinly veiled metaphorical critique for the writing of the guild in xrd. #the writers made him faithful to the DQ blue raspberry misty float. all of his character development thrown in the trash completely #missing the point of the entire guild's story in favor of the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float coming back on the menu. #people liked the taste of the misty float but never got the point of its creation. it was only the taste they wanted. you could've easily #recreated this taste but they sought to return it in the worst way possible. without getting the point either. #that misty float ruined the lives of the people around him. and yet diary queen missed the point in favor of genre defining puppet characte #they wrote him back in and just made everyone around him feel like i guess everything is fine now??? its horrendous. #they made venom continue to be faithful to the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float. they tried to convince him that he had saved his #life all along or something?? #like?????? the fuck. thats awful. horrible taste in my mouth-- LIKE THE HORRIBLE TASTE OF THE DAIRY QUEEN BLUE RASPBERRY MISTY FLOAT. #like if you wanted to make the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float playable again then just revive eddie and only eddie like tf?? you #could've come up with an excuse to make him live without a host. i mean you came up with bedman suddenly reprograming his bed in his final #moments what that doesnt make sense but ok.......... #its better than diary queen blue raspberry misty float #i did it. these gifs have officially made me go insane. please dont read these tags.

[kennythetrampvamp]

Everytime my cis friends are like "ugh men" "hating men lol" etc etc. I have to ahhhh I have to grrrrrrrr I never know quite what to say though

#its hard to know what to say when its a viewpoint born from trauma #the people i know who talk that way have had bad experiences with boyfriends and stuff and i dont know that experience #its hard when i know that its mean to be light hearted and jokey #that doesnt excuse it #but it makes it harder to know what to say to get my point across #especially with cis people cause they dont always inherently understand the idea of gender as a construct #its weird cause its one of those things that arent immediately harmful but it has an effect over time #how do i explain that seperating gender like this only widens the patriarchical gap #while still acknowledging the pain these women have gone through that makes them want to repeat this rhetoric #i guess thats how #its the patriarchy and the system not the inherant nature of men #and acting like it is just the nature of men ignores the bigger issue and isolates people from eachother #using tumblr like a journal again whoops lol

[sttoru]

can i ask why some writers have a whole separate sideblog just to reblog others’ fics / fic recommendations. . . 😦

#𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆. #genuinely curious #i do know some use it as a bookmark function & they reblog some fics on their main writer acc after they have read it entirely but #what about orhers… #if yall use the excuse of ‘i wanna keep my blog aesthetic’ .. boy. #like reblogging is meant to be so others who follow u see that specific post #thats how fics get more notes & spread on the app again #but when u only use a separate blog where like 10 ppl follow u instead of ur main with 1k+ ? whats the purpose #genuinely curious but also v much confused #anyways needed to vent a bit i guess bcs i see it happen a lot more

[kidfoundonstreets]

all of these thoughts wont stop

#vent #and of course ill go into the foulest content to 'cope' with this and i use that excuse #but obviously its only to feed into my self sabotaging self as well that i only listen to nowadays #and im so tired and im self absorbed and i dont want to do anything but i need to do something or ill die #why do you like me? why do you value me? why do you do it? how long until you get tired of me? im sorry. #i never say any of this or more outloud because my burden always overwhelms people with how negative and heavy it is #and im so hyper and usually going by what everybodys saying with my own silly commentary soijust #how long can i live likethis. how long do i need to feel like this ? buti cant change ebcausee if i do then i wont recognize myself #god im stuck im so stuck and i cant change and wont change I NEED A CLONE so i can put it on someone thats only me #thats the only way this can resolve peacefully and nobodyll need to deasl with it or leave me or have any doubts about it bc youre stuck #with yourself forever #i guess ill become worse and worse until then. #until im dead #suicide

[the-kipsabian]

done with the second worst part of cleaning, i have vacuumed

#i still need to clean some tabletops and wash the floors #but then im DONE #getting a bit too late to my liking tbh but lmao im dysfunctional. at least its getting done #oh yeah and then i gotta put the rest of the laundry away. pretty sure thats everything then #would have loved to take out more trash but they didnt empty the bins today so i cant fit more cardboard in there #you wouldnt believe the amount of boxes i have in this house.... and yet only one fits a human head! #which reminds i should probably put that one away for the checkup i dont. think i wanna answer any questions #the giant kip banner on my wall might already prompt some questions and im not ready for that. like they shouldnt come in to judge my place #its purely to check the quality of the apartment and if anything needs fixing etc #but excuse me i have anxiety and like a two meter tall kip banner on my otherwise empty wall LOL #anyways. gonna wash floors. clean counter tops. put away laundry. make really late dinner. and then see if im gonna write or just pass out #yay productive day i guess. tho i am sweaty and tired lol #sorry ramble tags i need to pour my break into something lol #night is an absolute mess on main

[androcola]

if you could see that you’re making excuses for yourself instead of opportunities we wouldn’t be having this conversation whatsoever. you post shit online and then when people try to help you avoid it. grow the fuck up and get a spine.

give me $9000

#asks #anon #bitch im not fucking making excuses did you Just Read My Post you dumbass???? #i just GAVE YOU REAL REASON. why i DONT DUCKING HAVE THE MONEY OR RESOURCES!!!!!! #im glad youre so fucking privileged!!!!!!!! #also im fucking VENTING!! im not asking anyone to fix my problems!! im just blowing hot air!!!! #god DAMN i cant stand people #i DONT have thw money. i DONT have the resources. i DONT have the support system. i DONT FUCKING HAVE ANYTHING!!!!!! #WORST OF ALL. I SUFFER FROM FUCKING DEBILITATING ANXIETY AMD AGORAPHOBIA!!!!!!!! #ALSO every god damn apartment complex in my town will just put me on likw a 5 fucking year waiting list!!!! #you dont understand not SHIT about my fucking situation!!!!!!! stop acting like you fucking know #wanna donate to me? i can make a fucking cashapp. put your money whwre your mouth is #no??? no????? pipe the fuck down then #there is NO available housing in my area. i DONT have the money for a car. i CANT afford to move out of town. I CANT DO SHIT #want me to work a fucking miracle or something???? leave me the fuck alone i didjt ask for your input in the first fucking place #literally the only real way to make any money thats actually enoigh to live off of is fucking sex work atp #and foe my own mental health im not doing that shit #whatever guess ill get on my andrew tate sigma chad grind or whatever. grindset. i dont fucking know

[arodrwho]

if i had a nickel for every time somebody read that tma fic of mine and felt the need to comment that most people have two grandmothers so it didn't make sense for that to be a point of confusion

well i would only have 2 nickels but it's annoying that it happened twice

#this is out of many more than 2 comments so it's whatever #but like. yeah! i goofed i guess! #i only have 1 parent so i only have 1 'real' grandmother! #i forgot that my experiences are not universal!! #(having said that i grew up with 3 grandmothers actually so it's kind of absurd that i just. forgot this) #also in my mind jon just kind of Knew they were the same grandmother #thats my excuse that i'm using

[gaydennisreynolds]

me following you on tumblr on a whim because I liked your posts only to discover at 2 in the goddamn morning that you wrote my favorite iasip fic of all time???? I’m having a crisis rn how does this keep happening

hi for the love of god hello. welcome. this is such an honor.....people saying nice things about my writing is genuinely SO impactful to me I keep all of my nice comments stored in my heart. so it means a lot to me that you'd take time out of your day to say this. can I ask which fic it is?

#my guess is world entire thats my only one with merit #btw i went thru and edited all my fics for grammar/characterization today if anyone needs an excuse to reread ^-^ #asks #fanmail #anonymous #c.txt

[strwbrymlkshake]

finished my normalcy phase returning to the horrors

#mine #HELLO HELLO whats up yanchamps i am insane again once more god bless. feeling like a yandere prophet returning to his followers #i havent been experiencing The Horrors quite as much still been having ups and downs but normal otherwise #but my brain has been tormenting me a lil bit so i figured i might as well post about it #so i got confessed to recently and my brain exploded out of my head onto the wall and it was like ketchup and everything #brain is unable to process it bc it was from a guy i am not 100% yandere insane over (yet?? maybe?) and its probably not the best decision #since i am not mentally stable or sure about it and other factors. but we are still friends he is very swag and cool i think and enables me #and my yanderism which i post ever so slight morsels of from time to time on main #i mean like it is what i asked for technically? to be loved? cherished even!?!? to be cared for?!?? #yet i still am fixated on a guy who treats me like a crumb. sad. literally that one meme #i cannot control which man my brain dissects daily why does it have to be the one who doesnt care about me bruh istg. i mean its not rly #romantic i am just more fixated on him than others? theres way more to it but only so much can be explained in tags. and both these guys #are too old for me anyways. hell on earth. well thats an excuse for me to try and improve more i guess before i rush into anything. #it really sucks that ive waited so long for a serious relationship and everyone who wants one is too old anyways. and those who DONT want #one. well i dont want them they are not committed to the yandere grindset #im getting way better at not being super sick in the head or making rash decisions but those were just some things annoying me<3

[allbeendonebefore]

each day the forecast says The Biggest Storm Ever and each day i have to creep around the garden doing hand to hand combat with every mosquito to water my plants because mother nature couldnt be assed

#wish me luck fellas im going to tend my thirsty children #and then i seriously for real need to decide about cooking or baking #i guess i will get groceries on my way home but will i feel motivated then i dont know #excuse me july could you rain already i have plans in august okay #in other news i brought home grocery store basil plant and divided it up #and roomie said we should name it sage #i suggested we name it oregano #the sage is the only herb i planted thats actually growing so maybe the sage can be oregano #WHY ARE WE LIKE THIS

[nithhaiahh]

After a whole year, me, the great nithy mun, has finally delivered the most demanding commission in all of my tumblr life. 3 full characters references.

And now... I shall deal with a broken heart...

#delete later #i finished the job but now... I've lost the only excuse i had for that person to talk to me... #good bye my best friend of 10 years... #guess thats life #we end up moving on we change we grow up and we forget... #i wish i could still call you or talk to you late at night as we used to but... well... fucking marriages... #with this i have secured that i do not want to get married anymore

[for-the-ninth]

Something that's rampant in school teaching, at least where I'm at, is the constant talking behind each other's backs and going over each other's heads (and it mostly happens with other white teachers if I'm being honest, which probably comes back to ws more than anything)

Like if you have an issue with something I did or didn't do then speak to me directly about it! Why is there a need to go over my head to a supervisor or behind my back to a colleague about petty shit like me utilizing a common space at a time that isn't convenient for you? How hard is it to just have a conversation like a grown adult?

I don't want to hear from someone else that I just need to make sure I'm being cognizant of the space because that's not even specific enough for me to address it! In what way do I need to be more cognizant? Should I move to a different area of the space? Should I use it at a different time?

If you have an issue then you're obligated to state it directly to the person you have an issue with and if you can't do that then you need to learn how bc I'm not in the business of fucking reading minds!

#this has been a rant #personal #i will take confrontational ppl over conflict avoidant ppl any day of the week #my guess is it was a kindergarten teacher who complained bc she sent in two 6 year olds to put her lunch away #and they were struggling to figure it out while i was in the middle of fucking teaching #so i guess i was supposed to drop what i was doing to help her kids do something she should've taken care of herself? #she finally came into the lounge to help them and my kids sit near the fridge bc its the only fucking table in there #so she had to ask one of them to move? and thats literally it like why are you bitching #just say excuse me be annoyed for 5 seconds and move on with your day like the rest of us #its honestly only child behavior lmao

[vagueiish]

if anyone has any examples of 30-something+ near/full NEETs eventually doing something worthwhile with their lives, that'd be greatly appreciated

#well meaning people give examples of people who didnt become famous til they were older #'harrison ford was like 40 when he started acting :)' #yeah and he had had a p good career as a carpenter up til then #he didnt have to claw his way out of the swamp of worthlessness. he was already somebody just in a different direction #all those fucking quote unquote late bloomers werent actually late bloomers #theyd just either bloomed somewhere else and managed to transplant themselves #or theyd already bloomed - even if just a little - and it took a while for them to bloom to such an extent that people cared #here i am at *coughcpugh* years old still in the fuckin seed packet bro #college drop out with no job skills. working a mindless skillless directionless retail job #a job i didnt get til i was almost 30 mind you. my v first job #one id been turned down for before but thanks covid! for lowering the hiring standards at (retail job) i guess #the swcond best time to plant a tree is now i guess #but the potential of blooming twenty fucking years from now doesnt help me now. especially considering all the ways shit could hit the fan #im still marveling at the fact i didnt have a job til a few years ago. lmao what a fuckin loser #it wasnt without trying. and tbf 18 through my 20s was....a lot of caretaking of family #but thats no excuse? people find ways to do both #anyway. yeah. it'd be nice to see that other people managed to climb their way out of the same-ish hole i gind myself in #but i doubt it 🙃 #everyone on here is like.... artistically skilled. or do shit with computers. or like.... are valued members of their friend groups #people are like 'youre not alone!' but idk man. i think im the only person who has been *this* worthless #to the void with love