#the disastrous life of saiki k angst

[junosmindpalace]

STIR AND MIX!

pairing: kokomi teruhashi x gn!reader

synopsis: an unexpected invite from your friend has you hurrying to her house--only to find an anxious looking kokomi behind the island counter, hands preoccupied with a bowl and a whisk.

content: (wc: 1.7k) teruhashi stresses over saiki, reader stresses over kokomi. unrequited love (wooomp). some fun (+lovey) kitchen shenanigans despite the angst.

a/n: i've had this idea sitting in my drive for a while now and i thought it'd be fitting for valentines day...does any1 write 4 my girl...

You receive an apologetic text from Kokomi early Tuesday evening asking if you were able to drop by her house.

You look up from your phone and out your window toward the daylight; the sun sets a little later in the sky than it had for the past three or so months, and you had finished most of your schoolwork and extracurriculars for the day, so you saw no harm in the visit. Replying to Kokomi to hang tight for fifteen minutes, you dressed yourself and headed for her house. 

There was a somewhat urgent undertone in the text, despite her typical politeness and enthusiasm that was present even in her phone messages. It was a school night as well, which made the sudden invitation all the more unusual.

Nonetheless, you reveled in the February breeze as you promptly headed to the Teruhashi residence. Every step, every turn, was taken with enough familiarity to be mindless, able to allow your thoughts to drift and mull over the possible reasons Kokomi would want (perhaps need) you over, but came up short.

Though you’ve walked Kokomi home from school plenty of times, you’ve only ever been inside her house on a handful of occasions. You admired its stylish exterior, as you always do, as you climbed the porch, eyes darting around to take in the garden and the wood and glass patterns that made up the structure. 

Kokomi had followed up her initial text with instructions to locate and use the spare key kept beneath a garden statue just by the front door. Her parents tended to work late, and her brother was out of the country for work, so she was managing the house by herself. Perhaps she had been facing some difficulties living alone, and needed a friend to help her out. 

The lockset clicks and, turning the knob, you hesitantly push the door open. Upon taking your first step inside, your nose takes in a heavenly aroma. It’s a comforting, familiar smell that makes your mouth water. 

“Kokomi?” You call out her name at the front door as you step inside, trying to place exactly what was wafted in the air as you slipped off your shoes and placed them off to the side in the genkan.

A high, feminine voice calls out your name in questioning from a little further into the house, and what follows is a heavy thud! 

You quickly follow the noise, rounding a corner and peering to the right, only to be completely taken aback by what you find. The countertops are crowded with various sized and colorful bowls and bags, raw ingredients to some kind of crazed baking session spilled out in random spots. Kokomi herself stands in the middle of the kitchen, as if to handle accordingly any sort of problems that arise.

“Kokomi?” You call out again as you take in the mess, and the girl in question turns around in surprise, revealing a bowl clutched tightly to her chest in one arm while the other hand frantically whisks the mixture inside. She seems to deflate a little in relief when her eyes settle onto you.

“You’re here! I’m so sorry to call you out here so suddenly, I just--” 

She frantically tried to gather her thoughts into a coherent explanation as she placed the bowl on the counter beside her. “I’ve been quite busy baking all these desserts, and I could use some help finishing up…” she eventually explains somewhat bashfully. 

Your eyes fall onto a stack of small, sleek, white boxes, each secured by a pink ribbon tied neatly down the middle on the counter right across the island.

“What is all this for?”

The timer on the stove goes off the minute the question leaves your lips, and Kokomi quickly turns around with a little oh! before hurrying over to turn it off. 

“Don’t you know what tomorrow is?” she asks over her shoulder as she crouches down to pull open the oven and out a metal tray. She stares down at them with a little proud huff before extending them out toward you; perfectly sculpted red velvet cookies, all evenly spaced and baked to perfection.

“It’s Valentine’s Day!” 

How you somehow managed to forget was a mystery. The day has been the talk of your school for the past week, with students wondering if they would be so lucky as to receive chocolates and love letters in the cubbies of their lockers when the day finally came. Excitement was an understatement for the kids at PK Academy when it came to the holiday of love.

Talk about receiving gifts from Kokomi, especially, lingered in these conversations, each person hoping to personally receive a Valentine's Day present from the perfect pretty girl herself. And, of course, Kokomi would deliver--literally.

“How long have you been baking?” You ask her with a small laugh of surprise as you take in the perfect cookies, tempted by the aroma to snatch one up for yourself.

“Oh, I don’t even know…since this morning?”

“That long?”

"I only have a couple more batches to go through! But it really is taking me a while to get through, so I thought I'd invite you over! I hope...that's okay?"

And you want to curse yourself when your heart flips, when it sings of course it's okay. You wish you could say you were above the charms she was able to put people under simply by existing in their vicinity, but her heart was big, and she was putting in all of this effort. How could you say anything but okay?

And so you give her a determined smile, and ask what you are needed to do.

She demonstrates how to measure the ingredients, what techniques and combination of flavours and coloring help enhance the overall presentation of her desserts. Flour spills all over your aprons when you accidentally tip the bag over, and you can only stare at each other in horror and surprise for a moment before the day catches up with you, and you can only laugh at the absurdity.

She takes your powered hands in hers and presses them down against the cookie cutters, shows you how to carefully peel away the excess dough, and again you curse when you can hardly bring your attention away from the feeling of her skin against yours. She laughs a little when you fumble with the first couple of shapes, still trying to ground yourself from the trance, before staring impressively at the various balls and hearts.

It seems that you blink and you can suddenly see the moon shine bright in the night sky outside the kitchen window. By the time the final tray of cookies are placed in the oven, your arms and lower back ache and your stomach turns from the handful of chocolate chips and other cakes you tried mid session.

Kokomi sits at the dining table packaging a box with a particular amount of care; laying out pink tissue paper within the box for cookies and cupcakes to sit on, with a simple white envelope accompanying the treats inside. You watch her hands work precisely as she ties the pale pink ribbon around the box.

"Which one is that for?"

“This one's for Saiki!" she says as she finishes tightening the bow, a small smile lifting her cheeks. "I remember when we went out that one time, he seemed really into the desserts at this café we visited, so I went a couple of times and tried to emulate the recipes and—“ 

Her words quickly came to a halt, and she stares blankly at you for a moment before her expression turns into one of alarm, and she scrambles her words. 

“But it’s not like they’re extra special or anything!” she stuttered out with a nervous laugh, quickly trying to compensate for the fondness in her voice. “I mean, I looked into what everyone seems to like. Chiyo told me that Kaidou likes these cakes, and Nendou has been eating these sweets as of late, so, you know! They’re all tailored to each classmate!”

But Kaidou’s or Nendou’s boxes don’t have envelopes coupled with their treats, nor do they have pretty pink packaging, nor does Kokomi speak about them with the same amount of sweetness her treats hold.

The most you know about Kusuo Saiki was that he was a quiet guy in your homeroom. His aloofness infatuated Kokomi, his attitude toward her a stark contrast to the regular reactions she's been able to invoke from men and women alike.

Ever since failing to break that stoic character of his, however, she's been relentless in her efforts to reduce him to the same awed state she manages to reduce everyone else around her to. Somewhere along the way, she found her heart fluttering around him the same way yours does around her.

“What if he doesn’t like them...?”

Her face suddenly falls, and you can't remember if you let slip a doubtful comment or look toward her defensive reaction. Whatever had happened, your brows turned upward sympathetically.

“I'm sure he'll love them.”

“Do you think they’ll free his shy little heart?”

“Uh…well…that I don’t know…”

She groans as she buries her face in her hands in irritation. This was just the kind of reaction he often invoked from her, and even so, her face still tinted the color of the ribbon between her fingers, the determined fire in her eyes only burning brighter.

"Just you wait, Saiki...you'll be completely blown away by my treats!"

And suddenly she's squealing, and it's not directed toward you, but you smile along with her anyway, because she's content and worked so hard that it feels criminal not to bask in her satisfied glow.

Saiki was as much of an enigma to you as he was to anyone else. Would he reject the treats? Would he happily enjoy every last bite?

You hoped at the very least he would accept the box, with Kokomi's love and hard work presented in the things he loves most. At least take it home, at least have a bite of the cake she worked meticulously to perfect. Make her laugh that same way again. You think back on it on your walk home, and it's enough to satisfy your own heart, even if she'll never accept it in the way Saiki doesn't accept hers.

wondering what our hearts will bring...

back to masterlist.

#this is actually so lazy #Ill polish it up. Eventually... #the disastrous life of saiki k oneshot #the disastrous life of saiki k x reader #the disastrous life of saiki k headcanons #the disastrous life of saiki k angst #the disastrous life of saiki k fluff #kokomi teruhashi x reader #kokomi teruhashi oneshot #kokomi teruhashi fluff #kokomi teruhashi angst #teruhashi kokomi x reader

[skippersthecat]

I've been meaning to post about this for a while now but Saiki had a birthday party!?

This is back when Saiki still wanted friends in elementary school, so I'd guess that the party was his idea and not Kurumi forcing him to have one. The contrast of baby Saiki wanting to have friends so he invites his whole class to his party vs Saiki trying his absolute hardest to avoid his classmates throwing him a party because he doesn't think he can have friends is just so sad.

Also more of a side note but if Akechi met Kusuke, does this mean Kusuke attended the party as well? And I'd assume he acted normal because I feel like Akechi would mention it if Kusuke gave Kusuo a bomb or terrorized the children. Did he not resent Kusuo yet?

Was this party a snapshot of the normal life Saiki wanted? Having a normal party with friends and a normal brother? No wonder the classroom incident with Akechi screwed him up so bad. He lost everything he's ever wanted.

At least now he's allowing himself to have friends again that throw him parties and make him feel like he belongs.

#saiki k #saiki k angst #tdlosk #saiki kusuo #the disastrous life of saiki k. #akechi touma

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i hate when i get excited about someone posting about saiki k and then its just someone who only watched the first season and refuses to watch past that</333

#i dont actually care if u do this obviously but omfg they always act like theyre in the fandom- #but know absolutely nothing about saiki k and refuse to learn menakenrnsnns #'hehe saiki k is so silly and has no angst' '*sees saikechi* why r u shipping saiki with his brother....' RAHHHHHHHH #hits u with a truck #i SWEAR its the same people that go 'um🤓☝️that character is NOT gay so this is disgusting' on every mlm ship post #not even exclusive to saiki k #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[kusuokisser]

its my aroace duty to capitalize on aroace saiki angst. sorry folks.

we all know that sexual and romantic desires arent something saiki particularly experiences, but imagine him growing up waiting for that. hes always been told by his family (minus mama) that hes a monster or a freak or basically something inherently nonhuman. i imagine kid kusuo waiting to get a crush, waiting to at least have that shred of humanity that everyone else describes as being so vital. to have a chance at feeling human. but he never gets it, he's left in this entire other category of people who never get to experience falling in love or having a crush, people who dont get something seen as being so fundamentally human. he already knew in the back of his mind that hed never have a chance at being like everyone else, but imagine middle school/high school kusuo watching everyone around him fall in love and he is just waiting. he almost hopes he falls in love so that he can have a chance to be normal, a chance to be human.

his desires were never truly about romance or sex, but about being able to connect with the humans around him. they were about wanting to be normal. and of course he cant even have that, he is a monster after all, right? he was a fool to think he could experience the human emotion of love, right?

i can imagine freshman kusuo trying to force himself to feel anything romantic or sexual because he is so desperate to have that tie to his humanity that deep down he knows will never be there. not in that way. he knows he'll never be able to relate to his peers in that way, or any way really. he's so tired of always feeling different from the rest, but what can he expect anymore?

#five thinks too much #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #kusuo saiki #saiki kusuo #disastrous life of saiki k #saiki #kusuo #saiki kusou no psi nan #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #the disaster of psi kusuo saiki #angst #hc #teehee

[no-psi-nan]

Hey gang, do we think the ghosts in the Saiki world are affected by Saiki's yearly global restoration + mind control wombo combo or nah?

Discuss.

#if so do you think the ghosts are like ''lol okay sure'' or do they desperately try to inform Toritsuka every year with mounting horror? #this is for the angst girlies. have fun! #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #sknpn #the disastrous life of saiki k. #tdlosk #nopsi meta #mandatory audience participation

[akirameta84]

saiki falls down the stairs randomly because he gets startled by a bug or smt and hits his head really hard. so suddenly and hes spooked cause bug he didnt even manage to catch himself. he doesnt think anything of the incident or the horrible headache after because he has no reason to believe theyre related. he gets migraines from his telepathy all the time, and he surely cant be harmed by a simple fall like that, even if he DID hit his head really really badly

matsuzaki takes one look at him and he knows that the kid is very badly concussed and for some reason still came to school. hes dazed as fuck and stumbling and just very ill looking. its a miracle he made it to school in the first place

(of course saiki saw no red flags at all when he was forced to teleport because he was far too dizzy to walk to school. not to mention how tired he felt and how blurred everything-his thoughts and the literally things he was seeing-were getting)

#angst :] #saiki k #saiki kusuo no psi nan #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #concussion

[tobisiksi]

tw: suicide mention-emotional maipulation

I refuse to believe that kusuo never tried to lose on purpose in one of kusukes games

a lot of people say that he probably was too egocentric to lose but man, ku gives up on things without thinking twice just for the sake of the others

just like when he gave up on satou when he and hii got together (the only example I can come with rn but there is a lot more)

and don't get me wrong, kusuo IS egocentric, but he knows where to trace a line he has a moral code and the principal rule is "don't be an inconvenience to the others"

so there is no way he didn't tried before

kusuke saw through his facade?

kusuke is insane and a masoquist and he has some suicidal behaviour aaand

I can see him telling kusuo to never try to fake a lost again or else he will off himself

idk he just yk, he's emotionally abusive and he's too obsessed with the idea of kusuo and him playing deathly games

TOO obsessed

he even took himself as hostage and he also kidnapped and brainwashed one of his brothers friends

he would say something like that

but I also believe that he wasn't aware of the heigh of those words

(I believe that he isn't aware of the heigh of all his actions, he just have a really twisted view of what is wrong and right)

I see this kind of scenario happening when they were young, when kusuo stopped copying his older brother (the motorcycle, the little cardboard robot, rock papper scissors, guys he was copying his older brother cuz he thought he was cool) and started to feel some resentment or even pity towards him

kusuke wouldn't take pityness very well, resentment? dont care, being hated? kay whatever but feeling any form of empathy or pity?????

it makes him sick

so he would say something like that but the thing is that he sees his brother as a God who is superior to every other living being

so he thinks that it isn't a big deal because his God had more important things to take care of

wrooooong, your God it's your baby bro who is just a child who used to admire you a lot before you started to get more and more insane progressively and the thing you just said it's fucking up his head because the love and hate he has for you were the strongest feelings his baby brain could feel and now he cannot come up with a way to make you stop envying or feeling resentful cuz of his powers (that he did not choose to born with in the first place) without making you have a meltdown that will end up with you killing yourself

#its 6am and im having a lot of feelings #sorry if there is something that doesnt make sense i repeat its 6am #im still without wifi and i cant waste the eeeee #idk how are they called in english but in spanish is datos móviles #lmao #anyway i dont have anything else to say im just emotional about this two #kusuke having no idea of what its wrong and right and how much certain words could affect the others yaaay #its the autism combined with his sociopath tendencies #also here he seems like he doesnt care at all abt kusuo but he does #its just a toxic way of love combined with his envy and again his sociopath tendencies #but he do love him and admire him so much #envy its just a twisted form of admiration afterall #saiki k #saiki kusuo #kusuke saiki #saiki's brothers #angst #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki kusuo no psi nan #tw su mention #thinking thinking thinking

[ask-saiki-and-friends]

Aren! Is fighting actually fun and enjoyable? 👀👁👅👁

#mod banjo #ooOo angst #ask kuboyasu #saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k #tdlosk #saiki no psi nan #art #ask aren #aren kuboyasu #kuboyasu aren #saiki kusuo no ψ nan

[ljs-psychic-psideblog]

another doodle i cleaned up a bit. return of the wolf shirt cuz those are funny

#kubokai #kaidou shun #shun kaidou #aren kuboyasu #kaidou x aren #saiki no psi nan #the disastrous life of saiki k. #who hasnt written self insert angst ay? #my posts #my art

[theshadowrealmitself]

Saiki finding out his new ability is turning people to stone with his eyes, Saiki finding out he can’t turn back time on their body to fix them, Saiki accidentally breaking the person while they’re stone, Saiki being unable to fix them because he already turned back time to try and get them to not be stone anymore, Saiki finding out at the end of that 24 hours that getting broken while being stone is a death sentence for that person

#saiki kusuo #saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k. #my contribution to saiki angst

[mac33cheese]

Kubosai au, aren is one of the physickers but his only power is super strength, and because it's his only power he learned how to control and strengthen at a young age so by the time aren and kusou met aren was stronger than saiki (not by much tho) and waaayyyy better at controlling it

Anyways when they start dating, kusou opens up to aren more and whenever saiki gets really bad panic attacks or breakdowns aren will just hold him and make him feel safe

Saiki kinda trys to struggle at first but eventually accepts it and just sobs in his arms for a bit

#angst/comfort kubosai my beloved #kubosai #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki k #saiki hcs

[leavemeal0newithmym0ss]

I forgot to mention but do you think Saiki ever thinks about how his hair color doesn’t match either of his parents? Do you ever think a tiny part of him honestly wants to think his mom cheated? That he has an actual dad out there who will care and do things dads are supposed to do? And then immediately feels guilty because how dare he wish that for his parents? They are trying their best and he thinks selfish things like this?

#I think about how people’s hair changed to match with their families and none of the saiki’s hair changed to match kusuo #We only really see Kaidou and teruhashis family having the relatively same shade of hair #But I think it’s safe to assume this is the case for the rest of the population #Also here’s an angst headcanon just because lmao #saiki kusuo #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki k #saiki no psi nan

[ruuinxs]

do you ever think saiki gets worried that the world will go on without him? that he spent so long in this endless timeloop that those years and years have been engraved into his brain? and once it’s all over, once he saves the world and humanity, he’s going to get left behind? he has focused himself into this eruption, into the solution, into controlling the world that when he’s done he doesn’t know what to do with himself. will his friends move on? does life really continue after this? he hasn’t felt time stretch, continue, move forward in years.

Do you think he’s going to miss being a second year?

#sometimes i like to wonder if he ever feels alone #he’s a curled up little kid in the palm of the world and everytime he moves the ground shakes #he probably takes responsibility for so much #at such a young age too #he doesn’t know what it feels like to age #or grow #or progress through life #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #saiki k angst #the disastrous life of saiki k #tdlosk #saiki kusou no psi nan #graph rambles

[oceanwithouthermoon]

tbh i hate when people are like "idk how anyone makes angst or gets serious topics out of saiki k when its literally just a gag manga🤓" when the akechi arc, the cattank arc, the volcano arc, and literally every episode where he feels guilty about hiding his powers all exist????

#i get that a lot of things shouldnt be taken too seriously- duh #but there are also lots of serious things as well- also duh... #kusuo n toumas entire backstory is so depressing like wdym 'no angst in saiki k' LOL #to say that saiki k isnt to be taken seriously because its 'just a gag manga' is just objectively wrong #yea not EVERYTHING is to be taken seriously but theres a notable difference between what is and isnt serious #WAIT ALSO ?? THERES LIKE MAJOR SUICIDE THEMES FROM THE FUCKING GET-GO #(in the manga. they took that out for the anime.) #all of that is never treated as a gag.. sure those parts of the story have lots of jokes but that itself isnt treated as one.. cuz it isnt #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[kusuokisser]

i think that kusuo is really uncomfortable with any psychical contact and he feels super guilty about it. like if literally anyone touches him he gets this uneasy feeling and wants to pull away from it but. he doesnt. because thatd probably confuse whoever's doing it.

and like its one thing when its his friends but its almost worse with his family and he feels HORRIBLE. every time his mom hugs him he just wants to take a shower because the sensation just upsets him. he needs to get the feeling of contact off of him.

but he feels REALLY REALLY bad about it because like thats his mom. the person he loves most on this earth. his MOMS HUGS make him feel so uncomfortable that he has to WASH IT OFF. imagine how much that would weigh on him.

i bet you kusuke plays up his love for their moms hugs too just because he knows how it makes kusuo feel. every time kusuo sees his brother recipeocate his mothers affection he feels downright horrible, thinking hes a bad son for not liking it.

he feels so bad in fact that one of the few times he used mind control was so that his mother wouldnt think its weird that he always showers after she hugs him. he doesnt want her to know how he really feels because he knows shell be sad. he knows it would upset her and he doesnt want that for her.

#saiki angst hc bevausseee ummm #because i wrote a bit about it recently and i think that i want to talk about it here too #where im not bound by perspectives and making sense #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #kusuo saiki #saiki kusuo #disastrous life of saiki k #saiki #kusuo #saiki kusou no psi nan #saiki fanart #the disastrous life of saiki k #five thinks too much

[theodork]

Over

Character: Saiki K

Warning: Break up, angst, cursing

Summary: Saiki is not a good boyfriend. It weighs down on (Y/n) because she is in love with him, but most times he won’t even spare her a second glance.

‘Saiki communicating’ (or the reader and Saiki's telepathic coves)

“everyone else talking”

~Over~

My boyfriend, Kusuo, and I usually walked together to go to school, but lately, he has been leaving before me. I know he probably has his reason, but I would be lying if I said it did not upset me. Honestly, it seems like he goes out of his way to avoid me. 

I would understand if he would just communicate with me but he won’t give me so much as an excuse.

“(L/N) You look tired,” Teruhashi said, snapping me out of the daze I had put myself in.

I knew she wasn’t genuine, but her honeyed voice and soft eyes could fool anyone.

“Oh yeah, I stayed up late,” It wasn’t a complete lie. 

 I could see Kusuo’s vacant gaze fixed on me.  I frowned and looked back to Teruhashi

“Do you want to do something after school?” I just wanted to go home and bury my face in my pillow but Ku’s stare made me nervous. I felt like I had to avoid him at all costs. He would not approach me with Teruhashi near. 

“Um-” She was surprised. A pang of fear flashed through my nerves, she wouldn't say no. After all, she was the perfect pretty girl. I felt guilty for using her as a human-psychic- shield.

“It’s okay if you don’t--maybe we can invite Mera and Yumehara--I was thinking maybe a mall or cafe.”

‘Really? Teruhashi?’  I gulped. Why does he care who I hang out with in my spare time? It’s not like my boyfriend wants my company.

‘Stop being dramatic’

I rolled my eyes and put on my headphones. I couldn't think, and he certainly wouldn't hear me, if I blared music in my ears. I’d take them out when class started.

..................................................................................

“Mera couldn’t come but we could,” Yumehara said, Teruhashi was beside her and they both were walking towards me.

“Great,” I smile. “We should go to a cafe, There is a new one near by.” They agreed as we started to walk there.

“It’s so great we’re going somewhere together, It seems like Saiki takes up all of your time,” Teruhashi said in her usual angelic voice. I remembered why I was doing this.

Saiki. 

“Yeah, he always takes you on dates it’s romantic,” Yumehara said. She seemed to radiate sparkles. The girls giggled with each other.  Right. Yeah, our dates.

“He’s wonderful,” I mustered all the enthusiasm I could. I did like him, when we were friends he was almost perfect. Dating him was just lonely. It didn’t help that having a conversation with him was as lively as talking to a brick wall. 

We arrived at the cafe. It was small and painted roof to floor with warm neutral colors. A small piano with plants sat in the corner 

“It’s so cute!” Yumehara exclaimed, “Look at all the choices.” She gestured towards the menu. She was right. Many sweets and drinks, with an occasional l doodle, name-line the black chalkboard.

We sat at a booth in the corner as a waitress came by to take our order. I ordered a strawberry shortcake.

“Oh you must be thinking about Saiki~” Yumehara pointed at my delicious pink desert. If I was thinking about him I'd get a coffee jelly.

“Oh, yeah,” I smiled and we laughed. The doorbell chimed, snapping me from the conversation.

“Hey, Saiki!” Teruhashi called. He looked at our booth. Teruhashi beckoned him to come. His eyes met with mine as sat beside me, blocking me from leaving the booth.

‘You’re avoiding me,’ Saiki communicated to me. 

‘Yeah well, you do that to everyone else,’ I shot back 

‘What’s your problem?’

‘You’ was the first word that popped into my head. There was nothing. He said nothing

‘What do you follow me all the way out here to instigate?’ I asked. Still, he said nothing. A pit formed at the bottom of my stomach. 

..................................................................................

“You were very clearly following us,”

‘Yes, I was. I don’t know why you're making a big deal about it

I scoffed. A big deal? It isn’t too much to ask that my boyfriend cares about me. It’s too much to ask that he find my company unbearable. I bite my tongue and I want to tear into him. To scream in his ear what a douche he was. 

“I think we should break up,” I said. His face stayed the same, he didn’t move or even seem like he acknowledged what I said. It reassured me that I was doing the right thing. I love him but his indifference was too much. If he doesn’t want me then why should I waste any more time crying over him?

“Did you hear me?”I held back tears. Of course, he heard me; he’s a psychic. He hears everything. “ Why did you even ask me to be your girlfriend? To avoid Teruhashi? To get out of hanging out with your friends? How many times have you told them that you couldn't hang out because you were taking me on a date?” I raised my voice. Heat rose to my face, then he looked at me like I was the least interesting thing in the room. 

“We’ve only been on two dates, both I had to beg you to go with me! That was at the beginning of our relationship!  I stopped because you had no interest, and now I'm breaking up with you for the same reason!” Tears started marching down my face. I covered my face with my hands.

“I’m so fucking stupid,” I mutter to myself, “Saiki, Just get out of my room--get out of my house,”

“You don’t ever call me Saiki” Saiki Spoke. Of all time, now he opened his mouth and said something.

 I just want to be alone now. Why won’t he just leave?

Then I was alone. He teleported from my room. My legs were wobbly. I sat laid on my bed and looked at the ceiling. 

#kusuo saiki #saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k #fanfic #angst #saiki no psi nan #saiki kusuo no psi nan #saiki x reader #teruhashi kokomi #chiyo yumehara