#the sound makes it 10 times better

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[prismit]

cool, so i'm literally never gonna get this lucky ever again in my life!

#tboi #ITEM DESCRIPTION MOD MADE ME THINK CONJOINED PROGRESS WENT AWAY IF YOU REPLACED THE FAMILIARS #THE TAINTED ISAAC SOUL OF LILITH FREE TWISTED PAIR INTO CONJOINED JUMPSCARE???????? #(btw the last clip is just showing off the final state of my kit. which actually lagged my game a little for the first time lmao) #(also uhh ignore the long emptiness at the end whoops. editing error) #also yes i made a dead cells music mod..... didn't even check if there was one in the workshop already bc i got too excited lmao #i have a bunch of terraria music mixed in too but i guess i only get lucky enough to clip things when the dead cells music is on #and of course i have a bunch of funny sound and resprite mods lmao it makes me enjoy the game 90000% more #like it's already great ofc but it's way better when every explosion is the deltarune explosion #takes it from a 10/10 to a 15/10 yknow

[capaldiera]

i think it would be great fun if clara showed up again and made thasmin worse

#making thirteen worse is a fun idea in itself but making thasmin worse sounds better #partly bc thasmin needs to be more insane (tho that could happen on theirown if the show wasnt so busy with 10 otherrelationships and plots) #but mostly bc i want to see what would happen if you add clara to the mix. #yaz would not understand what was coming bc thirteen doesnt talk about anything ever #if she knew what clara was like ahead of time she would probably be wary and not really like the idea of her but she would not know. #i think it would be so interesting to see clara and yaz together bc of their very different relationships to their own attraction to women? #the trio would be so fucked up as well bc clara knows sooo muchaboit the doctor (possibly incuding vague memories sometimes from those other #claras?) whereas yaz kind of knows fuckall. idk what would happen with that or if it would improve things or make them worse. #but it would be interesting #me.txt

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Mr Gatto, do you like doing your job? Is it something you enjoy doing?

(Also take care of yourself Mun! :D)

Even after everything... I don't think I will be changing my job anytime soon.

#identity v #aesop carl #identity v embalmer #identity v ask blog #identity v the embalmer #gatto event #hi anon thanks for the concern XD #im doing alright i just have this insane depressive block that has been impeding y creative processes #so ive been trying a lot of things to get out of it #one option is to wait it out but im miserable doing nothing. so i will force it out and feel slightly better that at least i did something #i probably should have spaced oout my posts i clear the inbox really really quickly #ill try to get some stuff out while i can. since im free for the month before work resumes n i disappear again #seriously though its frustrating sitting down staring at a blank canvas for 10 mins with 0 ideas and low energy #and then resigning myself to going back to lying down and mindlessly scrolling twitter or whatever #every single time i try to do something i end up back on my bed. for days on end. it makes me want to throw myself down a flight of stairs #at least with asks i have something to work towards and thats so much better even if i do end up back on the bed afterwards #this sounds like a very pathetic show of begging for asks. which i guess it is??? #its just that. i used to have so many ideas. i used to draw so many comics. i want to cry every time i compare that with myself now #has work killed off so much of my creativity? probably. but i just really want it back. so im trying my best #i didnt mean to get this emotional in the tags but this is really something ive been struggling with a lot right now #so if u have the time to spare. just drop something dumb in my inbox. it helps a great deal. much greater than i can express #but anyway if ur reading this im still very grateful for the support u have shown to the blog in one way or another. #so thank you very much n i hope the day will treat you kindly #less than three

[le010n11]

أحببتُ عينَاكِ و برشلونة

فخذَلتْني عيناكِ و لم يخذُلنيِ برشلونة.

#translation: #I loved your eyes and loved Barcelona. your eyes have failed me but Barcelona did not fail me. #it's sounds so bad in English help #but honestly a barca win is all i ask for #it will make my life 10 times better #fc barcelona #barça #leonfutbol

[screamingsquamousthings]

anyone remember that teenage kraken movie that came out literally this month and was so boring and cliche it made me viscerally angry or is that just me

#i could predict every twist to such a degree i was surprised it actually went exactly the way i dreaded it was going to #dreamworks should hire me i could make a way better movie #didn't help that the theater was janky and didn't have a good sound system and the seats were uncomfy #and the concessions were egregiously priced even for a movie theater #0/10 theater experience id rather see atsv for the third time id rather see atsv a million more times

[floral-hex]

Thought I’d get out for the night, so I’ve been sitting in this gaming lounge for the last hour and it’s… meh. Ordered an overpriced milkshake, just kind of hanging out. Honestly, I’d rather play games by myself at home than deal with whatever’s going on here. Well… it was worth a shot 😒

#haha this sucks #it’s hot and boring and I’m annoyed #only came bc my therapist has been bugging me to get out and try to be social #but… like… I’m a hater. I’m about to hate on some people… even if I wanted to be social there’s no one here I would ever talk to #the dudes that hang out at places like this are not the kind of people I make small talk with #tbf talking to dudes irl is majorly unappealing to me #what do we talk about? their favorite marvel character? guns? vin diesel? I dunno. I’m lost. #also ordered a milkshake that took them 30 minutes to make which I mean I’m amenable I’m cool and relaxed #but it’s literally just me getting anything to eat or drink back here the whole time so I dunno 🤷🏻‍♂️ #dropped my brother off here so he could play in a Smash Bros tournament so it’s not a total waste #god I’m whiny #I need to just leave #I’m sure I could have had a better time but tbh I’m tired and already had a negative outlook on this before even showing up #video game lounge sounds cool but it’s like $10 an hour #and I dunno I have no desire to spend cash to play some new game I’m unfamiliar with in public or whatever #now if it was an arcade I would be so psyched. but no it’s like rent an Xbox for an hour kind of deal #just gonna go home get fucked up and play fallout and I’ll be so fucking content l #writing all this down so I can remember what to whine about in therapy next week #ok yeah this was doomed to not be my style. that’s fair. maybe look for a D&D group in the area or something instead #okay lemme stop complaining and just leave #I love you. I’m bored. and I’m dying. and I’m bored. #goodbye forever #text

[waybrightgender]

google how to get someone to stop reading about crypto and using degenerate

#jesus christ. i tried to move them over to tumblr to get them off reddit but they just go back to the tumblr subreddit every time. #if i tell them to do something they do it but then they put a new and fascinating /neg spin on it #like i told them to follow more ppl on here and they followed about 50 ppl that seemingly never post and i told them to make their cute #little project a sideblog so they can rb stuff but they made it their main and cant rb anything now #i tell them to be vague about the details of homestuck so that their mom doesnt stop trusting me and they decide its a better idea to keep #calling it a cringey bad old webcomic that i really love because i have bad taste #i tell them to stop using degenarate because its a nazi dogwhistle but they decide thats just stupid i guess and keep using it #i think theyre gonna become a crypto bro they have like 5 books about it #they've been on reddit since they were like 10 i dont think i can get them out of there but they should at least go on better subreddits #instead of r/iam14andthisisdeep and r/tumblr and r/whitepeopletwitter and r/nonpoliticaltwitter and who knows what else #its especially the r/tumblr part that i dont get. because they literally have a tumblr account #if theres a specific user that you see making posts you like on the subreddit go follow them! scroll thru tags of things you like and follo #all the blogs! be annoying and put out a post asking for mutuals tagged with fandoms you like! #oh and they rlly like r/nosleep i wish i could get them to go on the creepypasta wiki instead because at least thatll give them some shared #references with the wider internet and ppl their age. their mom has literally no pop culture references whatsoever so im trying to help the #but its honestly really hard when they dont do what i tell them to do. jesus i sound awful dont i #real sasha waybright moment. “you are going to follow 100 more blogs and turn off algorithm stuff now. end of discussion.” #it's not like they have a community and friends on reddit they dont even have an account theyve been lurking for years #they dont even have the app they use the mobile website. ugh im being so bitchy rn ill just shut up #maybw if yall see that this is how i think then youll realize that im not exactly worth interacting with #sorry for spiraling on ya. im pmsing. #and i have a whole disorder about that so

[rosicheeks]

😬

#OK #my first ever package is shipped!! #I’m actually terrified #it’s all out of my hands now #I feel bad cause the package is not as pretty as I wanted to make it #all I care about is that the paintings get the customer safely #I literally put so much bubble wrap in the box #and then taped that shit upppp #so all i can do now is pray and hope that it gets there ok #to the wonderful person over on Etsy #I wish I could hug you and give you a huge smooch #I hope if this Etsy thing starts to ya know pick up #that I’ll be a lot better with shipping and packages and everything #but with moving and the fucking snow #I didn’t have that much time to make it all pretty #😓😓😓😓 #I was trying to figure shipping out allllll morning #woke up at 10 and now it’s 4 #but I finally did it (I hope???) #now I’m gonna smoke cause fuckkkkkkkkkkk that sounds amazing #shut up rosie

[minamotoz]

just peeped the first episode of school spirits on paramount.....i fear my theory is correct, spencer macphersons career peaked with the role of hunter hollingsworth

#this sounds very mean i think spencer is a very talented actor #but the few times ive sought out content w him in it he just plays a generic hot guy with Hints of 'cool loner' #theyve never been able to compare to his time on degrassi #im probably just biased but hunter hollingsworth is just so amazing hes hilarious and over the top and unhinged #ive just attached that mans face to the absolutely deranged actions of the character he played in degrassi #so everytime i see him in something new i just get upset when hes Not hunter #but tbh his talent is being wasted when he plays generic hot guys #he shines as a completely deranged freak. he put his everything into making hunter as offputting and weird as possible #now i cant make too many judgements based solely on the pilot of school spirits #but i checked out like half of astrid and lily bc he was in that #and his character in SS and A&L are near identical😭😭😭 MAKE THAT MAN INSANE !!!!!!! #he needs to find better roles or else im afraid his career peaked with degrassi next class season 1 episode 10 #actually the one role i saw him in that compared to the glory of hunter hollingsworth #was this short film he did w jamie bloch where his character was literslly just Hunter but he was a drug dealer and said swears #it almost compared to the real thing but it wasnt enoigh to help me cope w the loss of unhinged hunter post-NC3

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

help i don’t want to change my header banner thing for my blog but i refuse to change my theme and my avatar picture thing even more but i want one of the things to be of sweet so that my blog reflects the things that i post and it’s still mostly iron maiden so i just want to change one thing and leave everything else iron maiden

the gif of bruce and janick on my header is adorable and has been there forever but it’s the only thing i can think of to change

#me #i know i said help but i guess i don't really need help because i'm probably going to change it regardless but i feel bad removing that gif #and i want everybody to know the pain i am going through over it #i mean i still have to figure out what to put there anyway #it has to be a black and white picture or gif #there are multiple options #if my thing with sweet is temporary then i'll probably just put the bruce and janick one back anyway #but it doesn't FEEL temporary at the moment #i have upped the number of my boys from 6 to 10 #or maybe 7 to 11 #because normally i refer to the current members of iron maiden as my boys but clive is still one of my boys too #actually sweet were my boys before anyone else ever #maybe they never stopped being my boys #maybe they've always been my boys this whole time and i just wasn't giving them the proper attention that my boys deserve #maybe i actually upped it from 4 to 11 years ago #that sounds about right #sweet i am sorry for the NEGLECT but i'm fixing it now #they have always deserved BETTER #and all of my followers are going to either suffer through me making up for it #or they will enjoy the new adventure that my blog is going to start #or has already started i guess #oh i almost forgot about pins #i also refuse to change my pinned post right now because it's bruce mashing his nose on the microphone #like how could i change that?? i have to leave it there for at least a long while

[mockiatoh]

My biggest frustration with the left has always been the inability/unwillingness to work on making progress inside of the system while advocating for greater change.

I remember the first time I came to this realization.

I was nineteen, pregnant. We couldn’t afford to heat the house because we couldn’t afford the deposit to turn the gas on. It was miserably cold. The duplex we were renting was old and rickety and drafty. The window frames were messed up and there were cracks you could stick your finger through that were open to the elements.

Just, like, to give you an idea where we were financially. And this was better than we’d been doing before!

Anyway, I had recently started going to DSA meetings. And that month, they were talking about how a moderate democrat had successfully gotten a small increase in WIC benefits monthly. It came out to, like, $10 a month.

The members talking—mostly male, almost all doing decent—were scornful. The democrat should have pushed harder and gotten more, refused to accept anything until everyone else caved to their demands. I remember sitting there, quietly drinking the latte in the smallest size they had that I had bought with scrounged quarters, listening. Wishing it wasn’t held in an indie coffee shop because it was a luxury I really couldn’t afford, but it would be rude not to. Enjoying the coffee anyway.

I was one of the lucky ones who was getting that additional $10 a month through WIC. Even more exciting, we were now getting a voucher for the farmers’ market. I casually mentioned that WIC recipients would now be getting farmers’ market vouchers, too.

The guy who organized the meetings was a hard worker, passionate guy. Did something in tech.

He was like, “That’s the thing! These people don’t want farmers market vouchers. They want—” and he went on to describe a bunch of pie in the sky desires. That, yeah, sounded good.

But one. I was one of those people! A lot if the tamiles were super excited about it, myself included.

I had never been to a farmers’ market before. I tried arugula for the first time, a piece pulled from a bunch by the grower as he explained the flavor difference. I hadn’t known before then that different lettuce greens had different flavors, that it was more than just the texture and shape. I tried pesto, which delighted me. Goat cheese. I got three full pounds of strawberries for two dollars, since they were closing soon and the old man selling the berries got a kick out of me.

Anyway. It was like, you have a decent life. Not great but decent! The things that are life changing for me, for us… you already have.

The ten dollars at the grocery store made the difference between a meal of broken-noodles-with-some-half-horrible-pantry-scraps and a meal. It kept me full and healthy! And the additional farmers’ market voucher was world changing for me.

The democrat who worked for those things barely got them through. And it was means tested to hell and back. They weren’t able to get everything they wanted. But what they got made such a huge difference for me, for people like me.

[jeahreading]

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#honestly sounds pretty good #heard you could clean blood after the murder #might recommend to a friend of mine #the first respectable ask which I've received that isn't someone calling me a bitch #or asking me for money #is a cleaning product ask #fantastic #makes it 10 times better than it is

[eggmeralda]

drowsed and drugged out on migraine medication and for what. music sounds the same

#my opinions on every drug depend on whether or not they make music sound better #never forget the disappointment of my friend saying the first time he smoked weed he was watching the simpsons and the theme tune #sounded amazing apparently. and i was like that sounds unreal ykw first time i get high I'm gonna listen to all my favourite songs #and then when i did get high many years later it just made time slow down so i'd get like 10 seconds into a song and feel like #why has this song been playing for like the past 7 minutes they haven't even got to the chorus yet #i was sooooooo bored in my bedroom couldn't listen to music couldn't find any show entertaining and also i couldn't go downstairs bc #my friend was in the kitchen having a weed panic attack and had thrown up in the sink and i didn't wanna be near him lol #(there were many people looking after him dw i wasn't just Leaving him down there to deal with it himself) #but anyway. so all i could do was lie on my bed for what felt like 5 hours waiting to get sober #then i watched russian ark and it was like the best film I'd ever seen but other than that. dead experience #I've never tried any other drug except add medication and migraine medication but they were both prescribed and like #i was taking them for their intended purpose but like. idk the migraine medication is making me all hwjhehhwhowoho in my bed #but music sounds the same #not even high or anything #i can't be bothered to take any drugs tbh i just feel like i'll either get bored or anxious or somehow both and like. idek #alcohol #i can't be bothered to type anymore i'm on migraine meds #but yeah i'll stick to alcohol i know where i stand with her #ramble #drugs tw