#the tap to continue thing

[3-aem]

thinking about my exit interview that was super informal but at one point i was like okay i will say something positive about the team and my ex manager was like okay

and then we both sat there in silence for a solid minute

#me:…theyre nice people! #my ex manager with suspicious eyes: #delete later #i wanted to try out my buildings laundry machines today #bc i was tired of using the portable one in my apartment #its big and clunky and breaks my tap everytime i do laundry #and i dont have a dryer so massive pain #but it cost me $5.5 and so i will continue doing it in my apartment ❤️ #tbf it wasnt even really an interview i just had to return my shit and was like hey do u wanna hear the tea and gossip #and he was like pulling out a notebook like yea #and then i went off for an hour #hes not a retaliatory dude so it was fine if anything im sure he just took the notes and then went off to figure out solutions or whatever #now i feel like i snitched #i didnt say names but he just kept figuring it out #i was like ppl dont like how ppl drop documentation in code reviews #and he was like is this about gordon and his use effect document #and i was like……………..*speechless* #and then i was like some ppl thing the environment has gotten a tad competitive #and he was like is that from henry #*SPEECHLESS*

[lloydfrontera]

touch starved lloyd who will lean into any gentle touch he gets without thinking about it, who never initiates anything but is also never the first to pull away, who sometimes flinches at unexpected contact but will gravitate closer to those he trusts so he's always withing arm's reach

#tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #i would say 'someone give that man a hug' but honestly marbella and arcos do that pretty often it's really sweet <3 #but like imagine javier noticing it and dismissing it at first until curiosity gets the best of him #so he starts slowly initiating small touches between them like a little tap in his shoulder to get his attention or maybe a quick pat #on his back as he passes by or maybe standing a bit closer than normal so his arms touch slightly #and it's nothing noticeable nothing lloyd could actually call him out if he even noticed it #but that's the thing. he doesn't notice. but he does start leaning more and more into every small touch javier dares to give him #sometimes even starting to stand closer to javier almost as if seeking the small presses of their arms #so javier starts getting a bit bolder. grabbing him by the sleeve and then the wrist to pull his attention to something. #sitting right next to him whenever there's a chance. subtly bumping their shoulders together when someone says anything dumb or funny. #in one notable occasion when he had to grab lloyd by the hip and guide him as they walked because he was too engrossed in his work #and also too sleep deprived to notice if he was about to walk into someone #and so it continues until suddenly one day javier has lloyd sprawled all over him and he's like 'Wait. why was i doing all of this for' #but by then is too late lloyd has become to used to javier constantly touching him and has subconsciously decided he's his personal plushie #btw this is all without lloyd actively realizing anything as far as he knows everything is perfectly normal #and he's doing great he's gonna get a good grade in being a Functional Adult something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve #i talk a lot <3

[dreemurr-skelememer]

I just wanted to say I'm obsessed with the few times I've seen your distaste towards canon dreamtale on my dash. I have really strong feelings about the writing and storytelling of the au and sometimes I feel a little bad about it, like "is it really so bad, am I the only one who thinks this?" "aren't I being a little hard on Joku?" but like you made me feel validated lmao /pos

i've always been incredibly opinionated about dreamtale since i was like. 16. and so many people have seen me be that!

while there are some things i do regret saying and doing in terms of that, i take pride in being able to say what i want about the media i enjoy.

people are allowed to say their opinions as long as they're considerate of the people around them and aren't total assholes about their opinions

you're allowed to dislike and criticize the work you consume :) be free, anon!

#(taps the sign) 'you can be critical of the things you like and still continue to like them' #it's free speech baby. just always be aware of your manners #Anonymous

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

every time im sitting here like "damn why am i suddenly really anxious and restless and irritable and its hard to breathe" and then i realize. oh. yeah. ive been wearing my binder for too long

#LITERALLY every fucking time i wear it without fail #i forget its there! #and then i go do strenuous physical activity and because im fucking stupid im like damn why am i out of breath so easy #head in hands. is he stupid? #yes . #anyway. taking it off now. cooking myself some biscuits. and maybe some shrimp #i need top surgery so bad #or like. a compression shirt or whatever that i can wear for long periods of time that doesn't do this to me #aauerghghghghg. #weighing the options of. dont want to take binder off because body shape is bad. have to take binder off or i will continue feeling worse. #its snowing biiiiiig fluffy flakes outside rn . man . #UGHGGHG. TW FOR SH MENTION COMING UP. #I JUST REALIZED I CANT WVEN DO THE “TAKE THE BINDER OFF WHILE STILL WEARING A SHIRT” TRICK #BC IM STUPID AND MY DUMBASS ARMS HURT WHEN FABRIC TOUCHES THEM . SO I HAVE TO GET UP AND MOVE AND TAKE MY SHIRT OFF FIRST. #hell world. everything sucks forevwr #this is the most baby thing to he complaining about. but again. taps the sign. ive been wearing my damn binder too long

[mer-se]

I vaguely mentioned in conversation the other day while making a sandwich how bread at the store has a bunch of gross shit in it and how fresh would be better whatever and I went to the kitchen and saw my dad made a loaf of sandwich bread today and it was on the counter…..made sure it was ready before I went down to make sandwiches for work………love is real.

#made me emotional actually lol #he’s not a super lovey huggy dad but he does really cute thoughtful stuff #was so pretty too I’m excited to go on break and eat #been a lot of stress and worries going on but been shown so much love lately #I’ve also had a lot of self reflection #like a lot of it #and I’ve been realizing things like actually letting them sink in #and making new private goals that for the first time in a while idk.. #make me feel inspired to tap back into parts of myself I feel I’ve abandoned #back to old goals but also new ones #last year was really bad and put my life to a standstill in a way and I’m kinda over it and myself being the same #I feel like I’ve grown a lot more than I did in year(s) and changed #in some ways worse in ways I can’t control but also better #it’s been no easy feat but I’m stronger #it's probably time to use that growth and I deserve to have my wants and goals and dream life to come to fruition #this isn't the year to be stuck l've wasted a lot of time #idk this year feels like it's going to be important #the growing pains are real #so for now l'll continue to be scared but brave and sad but thankful and stressed but motivated #I’ve felt all the things at once lately #but no matter what my eyes are more open than they’ve been in a long time #and there’s people who want to be apart of my journey whether it’s happy and fun or sad and hard #and everything in between #the rest is confetti

[forestofsprites]

holding you tenderly with my brain btw. also handing you a set of those jellycat plush mushrooms of various bolete varieties and the softest blanket on planet earth 💖💖💖 and perhaps a small frog

lovely anon! this was the last thing that i read before falling asleep last night, & while i may be biased, i think your kind words worked wonders :] thank you very, very dearly 💛💛💛🍄🐸🌲🐌✨️

#boletes are my absolute favourite mushrooms to go tapping! love to (very) gently thump a bolete #our squirrels love them too :") we find them strung in the trees allll october long #to think of those in a sweet plush jellycat format is simply world-altering!!! AND in the company of a small frog??! #thank you very much anon. this meant an awful lot last night & it continues to mean an awful lot this morning :) #i hope very sincerely that you were able to rest in a similar comfort to that which you wished for me 💛💛💛 #ask #lovely people saying lovely things

[chqnified]

If you ever feel dim. Don't worry. I set off the security alarms trying to open up the office building. Because i was tapping the fob on the aircon/electric unit and NOT the security alarm deactivator

#it was horrendous #i was SHAKING like a leaf. i thought police would turn up and jump on me #i at one point thought. fuck. maybe if i shut the door lock it and put everything back it'll stop #and then i'll wait til 8am when someone else gets here. but then i thought what if it continues. and then i have to redo everything again #and still have to find the disabler. so i just spent 5mins with alarm full blare tryna find where to tap this fob too #thing is. nobody and i mean nobody was going to be at the office for a further hour. #'it's obvious the deactivator will be on your right' well. obviously not. it was on the right but on a corner bit of the wall #not right next to the door like expected where the other unit thing was. #it's fucking hilarious telling everyone now. but flipping hell in that moment i was strESSED #i had a feeling it'd happen. i joked about it in my office the day before. like lol imagine i get to london and fucking fuck it all up #well. i did. #i think it was just an alarm. or i did it in under the set time before it called the police. #anywayssssss #another story to add to the what makes up my personality book #in my defence it's not my usual office and i've been there only once before. but that time someone else had opened up #apparently my usual office building is even more of a nightmare. not surprised. if a small building was that bad. dread to think our one #our one for context is like 10× the size because of all the floors it has

[yourstreetserenade]

What are your thoughts on The L Word if you’ve seen it?

I saw the original and the first few seasons were entertaining but I lost interest. I mean I watched it to the end but I wasn't really invested, especially those later seasons that went off the track. I liked Shane and Alice and Dana a lot though.

Not to say TLW wasn't good or meaningful or whatever but I never connected with it. That was probably mostly to do with its setting. Like it had this trendy, sleek LA vibe it was trying to project, which cool. But I kind of always felt more drawn to the working class setting of Queer as Folk. Everything was a little more dingey and real. Michael worked retail hell and Emmett had a series of unfulfilling jobs before finding what suits him. I remember when I first watched the show when I was younger I thought Mel and Lindsay were soooo boring but when I got older I realized how grounded they felt and appreciated them so much more.

So I'm not saying QAF is better or anything just that I connected to it in a way I could never connect to TLW because I could relate to the setting. For some people it might have been the other way around, to each their own.

#but yeah #remember when ilene fucking chaiken decided to make the last season of TLW a murder mystery because she wanted to do that prison spin off #which yes okay she was ahead of the game and could have tapped into that orange is the new black thing #but like this is ilene.. #she wouldn't have done it well lol #that whole murder mystery thing was such a disservice to the characters though who deserved better closure #i havent seen the new seasons so it looks like shane alice and bette and tina have gotten to continue their stories #hopefully they get better send offs this time around #also i know i said i cant really say one show is better than the other #what i will say is that imo mel and linds are better than bette and tina lol #mel and linds arent perfect and yes they both cheated on each other too #but unlike bette and tina they haven't broken up like 15 different times and expected me the viewer to keep caring #continually breaking up your characters is just such a sign of lazy writing

[sluttyten]

Reminder to take the batteries out of your light sticks if you haven’t done that!

#I did not leave them in my light stick but they have been sitting on my desk for a month #and I was just standing here in my room and heard a like tappy sort of noise coming from my desk area #and I went to investigate and I’m not positive that the noise was this #because sometimes if things are touching my wall and like our AC kicks on or if the wind blows or something idk you can hear it tapping the #wall ANYWAY I walked over there and moved the one thing that was touching the wall and the sound continued but when I rolled the batteries #from the spot they were laying in one of them had been leaking battery acid and had left a little like puddle/mark of melted finish on my #desk…. so yeah I don’t know how the fuck that happened… but I’m glad that didn’t happen inside my light stick #also the sound stopped right after that so I don’t know if the sound was like the acid eating the finish or if it was because the batteries #we’re touching each other or maybe because they were too close to the metal pen holder right there #I don’t know but just here’s your reminder if you have left your batteries in your lightstick #also you just in general shouldn’t leave your batteries in your lightstick

[dawningfairytale]

i am obsessed with ralf mackenbach as a concept

like. he won junior eurovision when he was 14 or some shit. continued in that industry for a bit. and then in 2019 he got a master's in nuclear fusion.

in an utterly parasocial way, this man is my inspiration and i wish nothing but the best for him

also, as of 2018, he could still tap, which i majorly respect.

#i have been laughing at myself the whole time while writing this post #he's never going to see this post at least i hope but like #you go sir #may you continue to have the most buckwild accomplishments in life #the tap thing is bc his jesc song was 'tap is cool' and idk as someone who used to dance im garbage at it now #so to see that he continued it is just like a nice good for him moment #i'm aware this post comes off. a little creepy. and for that i apologise. #idk heres some statement about pursuing a joys in arts and a career in academia #both are important and contribute to fulfillment #his wikipedia page gives me such whiplash (complimentary) #like his jobs are: singer dancer actor *plasma physicist* #one of these things is not like the others #it's actor btw

[bi-moonlight]

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#nura rambles #idk somehow it's easier to tap on tumblr post button and type in tags then open the journal and write there #my friend met someone and they r already talking serious topics like marriage and stuff and i'm happy for her but it's also a sign that idk #time is ticking and our lives are progressing and changing #and i am once again filled w anxiety and regret?? and thinking that i missed smth and am continually missing smth lacking smth #and also i finally accepted the idea of it being my choice to stay here and that the moving abroad ambition wasn't mine after all and now #that i'm past that i can see another thing that is and was anxiety fuelling and that's this constant not fear but just silent notion that #if my so in the future happens to be not a man there's a huge possibility of us moving abroad cause i'd want my kids to be able to exist #lmao i'd want to be able to marry my partner #but like it's out of my control rn so why am i worrying about smth that might not even happen and making it a huge problem and isolating #myself even in my thoughts uhhhhhh i haven't realised until now that it's been worrying me constantly tbh #and when i tried telling my mom about my anxiety framing it as time passing worrying me because i think our family's life hasn't changed in #the past 5 years at all and it's depressing and that it shocks me that my friends are apparently soon gonna start marrying and their older #siblings did and are having babies now while i'm a nervous mess only now figured i have sad and lost winter months of past few years to it #and my older brother is apparently stuck has been for 5 years #and my parents aren't getting younger and her takeaway was that i'm thinking of marriage and it terrifies me lol #yeah mom u should think of it when u tell me my character is difficult and wonder how anyone will fit me?? #anyways time isn't real and i think i'm a little baby #this week is so long jfc

[longeyelashedtragedy]

i bet my spotify top song this year is gonna be this song i’ve been listening to since high school hahaha

#i even have it on CD to prove this #i found a slightly different version than the one i always listened to #on spotify this summer #the vocal part is a little cooler hahahaha #continuing my stealth goal to have the top song be in a different language each year #the way i sit around on my commute home gently tapping out the beat on my leg cause you can do things like that in nyc god bless

[pleckthaniel]

A white guy who jokes about hating his wife definitely seems like the sort of person who can gracefully explore ‘the moments that unite us all, beyond race, gender, and class’.

#scout talks #jobposting #ive read so many of these things #also i appear to have been tapped to continue on as an intern in the spring because i emailed my advisor asking for my permission number to #enroll in my senior thesis credit and he was like 'oh were so glad youre staying youve been reading so well recently :)))' lmao #so now i need to reconfigure my schedule AND get my capstone credit permission number from him lol

[disillusionedjudge]

{Hero Archetypes: The More... something version}

The Fallen Hero You are the Fallen Hero, a tragic embodiment of betrayal, vengeance, or perhaps a heart-wrenching love story turned awry. Whether exposed to corrupting influences, manipulated by deal-makers, brainwashed, extorted, blackmailed, or witnessing the destruction of sacred bonds, your descent into darkness is marked by profound sorrow and loss. You might have turned for the sake of greed. Yet within, a lingering spark of hope remains, compelling you to reluctantly extend assistance to the newcomers. Motivated by the sincere desire to shield them from the same tragic fate you endured, you find yourself driven to guide and protect, despite the shadows of your own past.

tagged by: @tarnishedxknight tagging: anyone!!

#quiz #((*taps fingers together* I have;;; thoughts on this #so this isn't. quite accurate for Gylfie as she does have morals and does act for what is good #which is going against Vayne and fighting for all of Ivalice instead of continuing to blindly go with Archadia's expansion #because she knows Vayne will destroy Ivalice in his constant need for power and Archadia will devour herself before she's full #so Gylfie never fell in the sense of turning on what is right and following Vayne without question #or continuing to believe that it was the destiny of the Empire to conquer all #with that all said - I can see her having a corruption arc and I think that'd be fun to explore heh #but also this is accurate with how Gylfie sees *herself* #I really should write a post about this at some point lol #but Gylfie doesn't believe herself to be a good person whatsoever. She used to believe Archadia was the best of the best for *years* #and felt it appropriate for the Empire she loved so much to continue her expansion and that Rozarria was 100% the enemy #and... never thought twice about the smaller kingdoms caught in the warpath #her mother's criticism of Archadia slowly began to chip at that but she wasn't disillusioned until Nabudis because *that* #was something she absolutely couldn't get behind no matter how she felt about the Empire. it was a horrific and brutal act that greatly #disturbed her and really snapped her out of it #also Ffamran leaving did make her start to question things a bit but not quite enough #anyway my point is: Gylfie doesn't believe herself to be a good person. she believes herself to be a *product* of war #to be too much like her father to be a good person #and that she's done so much harm that there is no room for her to be good #with that said she doesn't necessarily see herself as a horrible person but. definitely not a good one #and ABSOLUTELY doesn't see herself as *any* kind of hero - she'd honestly just laugh if someone called her one #but she had been brainwashed essentially and she had witnessed destruction of sacred bonds #and she has acted selfishly and she has done horrible things in the name of the Empire #but she also tries so hard to do *right* despite it all. she *wants* Archadia to be better #she *wants* Ivalice to remain whole and she does what she can to see Vayne defeated and Archadia changed for the better #her goal of becoming Judge Magister changes from her believing it was her birthright to her wanting to be one to make sure Archadia #stays on track and continues to do better under Larsa's rule because she knows he'll make the Empire *better* #and she's willing to do whatever she can to protect him and protect Archadia's future #but with that she may have to do things that wouldn't necessarily be considered *good*

[arolesbianism]

The sadness and agony that emerges everytime I start a new oni save and am forced to remember what it's like to have a dupe without a hat only to put them in a hat because I think they'd look cute only to remember hats make half of them look bald but I spent this long maxing out a skill for them so Im too stubborn to back down and remove the hat

#rat rambles #oni posting #it wouldnt be nearly as much of a problem if dupes didnt all have the same like 3 faces that I suck ass at differenciating at a glance #the amount of times Ive mixed up my maes and nikolas makes me sad Im sorry mae no one should be mistaken with nikola #if I knew how to acess the animation files Id be tempted to make a mod to change it but I dont so Im not #but imagine how cute itd be if abe and nikola had their side spikes stiking out from the sides of their hats #couldnt save the super short haired ppl tho sorry ren ari travaldo turner ruby and probably others too #speaking of my ari I keep mistaking my hassan for ari even tho I dont have an ari yet sorry bestie #hes my main storage and cleaning guy which is the role ari is in my other save #anyways the new save is continuing to go well even if things have slowed down a lil #I managed to get my salt water guiser up and running even if its a very lazy approach of basically just cooling it in a tundra biome #but itll work for the time being until I can get plastic from either drekos or by tapping into my oil biome #Im going for drekos rn since I have a lot of them around but if I can get some atmo suits set up quick enough I might just dive for oil #mainly because I want natural gas for a gas range tbh especially since I started farming waterweed as well #along with duskcaps so I already have access to the ingredients for several high quality gas range foods if I can get one running #now that might be a bit hasty but also I havent actually set base on the teleporter planetoid yet and both the transporters are right there #and I managed to find the sender on my main planetoid so I could pretty easily send over high quality food as a nice start up #this mostly tempts me because theres also a distinct lack of particularly easy to farm plants in the immediate vicinity of the teleporter #which doesnt mean there Wont be food but it does mean that quite a bit of digging will likely need to be done #with is also made tricky by the lack of early settlement oxygen sources available #and while I could theoretically send oxygen from the main colony Id rly rather not until I can get a spom or two set up #which leaves oxyferns and rust as the main oxygen options there until reliable water is found #now one thing I could do is fully transition my main base to getting all its oxygen from a spom and then send the rest of my algae over #my main thing is just Im not rly sure where I wanna put my first spom #I just simply dont have as many options as Id like due to being surrounded by mostly swampy and jungle biomes #not that I couldnt build there or dig them out its just Id rly rather have atmo suits first #which since I am very early in my dreko farm will likely take a lil bit #which also brings up the problem of getting my metal refinery up and running so I dont have to keep using the rock crusher #Ill probably just slap one in one of my tundra biomes as a short term solution but long term Ill probably have to take a shot at a proper #industrial sauna once I get plastic

[irritablepoe]

It's so sad that asmr is nearly always associated with mukbangs and grosser sounding stuff (to most people at least) bc guys. there are so many nice other sounds in asmr out there, you don't understand!

#have you ever heard someone tapping lightly melted ice? or squeeze a plastic cub with crushed ice in it? #or very close fire crackling??? #i could continue to list things there are so many nice sounds that i love #ohhhh writing on paper? and like slightly whispering the words they're writing? that's so nice! #johnny's silly rambles