#then u get kicked out Lmao

[reineydraws]

Hi hi! For the spotify wrapped art game, can I suggest akataka with 56?

oh, i think i was doomed before i began

56 is special girl by dodie. a particular fave, so im glad u chose mishanks for it since they've been on my mind. :')

wrapped 2023 game

#wrapped 2023 #mishanks #akataka #dracule mihawk #shanks #akagami no shanks #red hair shanks #one piece #one piece fanart #got carried away with this one pals lol #i was just so excited about it :')) #btw if it's not clear: they were dueling and then shanks just dropped his guard to kiss mihawk cuz he couldnt take it anymore #and mihawk (probably freaking out) kicked him to get him out of his personal space lol #btw i positioned this as shanks pov but an argument could be made that the song in general is more of a mihawk thing #depending on how u write his backstory #might revisit this tmr and remove the white square lmao im always more ham-fisted with my symbolism when im tired

[lovesickeros]

☆ decadence divine [ act I ]

{☆} characters arlecchino, neuvillette, furina {☆} notes yandere, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings yandere content, stalking (implied), kidnapping (implied) {☆} word count 2.3k

ARLECCHINO

Arlecchino was wont to leave social gatherings to her subordinates– the private meetings were where she thrived. It was so much easier to lure your prey into a trap when you didn't have prying eyes and ears waiting for the barest hint of blackmail.

She clicked her tongue in distaste, her eyes narrowing beneath the mask of the fox as she set down her cup sharply. It was difficult as it was to draw them from the safety of their bubble– at the slightest hint of danger, her quarry would run. A chase would be fun, but she couldn't risk getting caught here. The political nightmare it would cause..it already gave her a headache. She had to be discreet.

They weren't making it easy, however.

Which is why she never liked crowds. But this chance didn't come by every day. She wasn't going to simply let it pass by because of a little danger. She'd have them eventually, it was just a matter of how. There were already numerous of her own lingering in the crowds, hidden beneath the masks that every patron bore. It was difficult to stand out amongst the flurry of masked patrons constantly shifting around the room, moving from one conversation to another, gliding from one dance partner to another.

Her heeled boots clicked sharply against the tile as she stalked through the crowds, keeping a wide berth yet always lingering nearby– she was sure they could feel the vague sense of being watched, but with the huge crowds..her lips quirked into a grin with the barest flash of teeth. There were a great many ways to break them in– she'd spent a great amount of time and mora to get anything she could for blackmail, if she so wished. She had the backing of the Fatui as well if she played her cards right– it wouldn't be difficult to convince them that they were a valuable target, and none of them would dare to question just what she did with them afterwards.

Perhaps a bit of play, first. Test the waters. She was familiar with playing the polite gentleman, despite her status as a Fatui Harbinger. Stage something for her to intervene, perhaps, to look the hero. The look of shock when she revealed the wolf beneath the wool..she could see it already. That wide, doe-eyed look as they realized the monster they've followed blindly like a lost lamb..she was beginning to see the appeal.

All it took was a few hushed words and subtle signals before the tiles started to fall in place, her hand gliding along their lower back as she leaned over their shoulder with a thin, predatory smile. She'd have to organize for the agent to be released later, her eyes following as the Gardes dragged him out of the room in a flurry of curses, but for now..she tilted her head to peer down at them, polite and almost apologetic.

"You aren't too startled, are you? Now now, there's no need to look so..scared, poor thing. I won't let another lay a hand on you," She cooed in a sickly sweet tone, the husky rasp of her voice whispered in their ear like dripping honey. "You have my word. Now, why don't we get you some fresh air? Come. Allow me to escort you."

Her lips pulled into a jagged grin at the relief in their eyes– the blind lamb following the shepherd as it led them into it's maw. Just a little longer, and she could finally have her own caged bird– a pretty thing to admire, to protect, to possess.

Something no one else would ever touch again. Something hers.

NEUVILLETTE

Neuvillette was not one for parties. The intricacies and delicate handling of public relations he oft left in the capable hands of Furina, rather then himself. It was only at her behest he even attended at all, but he still felt rather..out of place amongst the bodies constantly shifting through the ballroom like a constant rush of water from one end to the other, no rhyme nor reason to the flow. The only thing that kept him afloat among the tides was the mask of the deer obscuring his face– even if it was exceedingly difficult to truly hide himself among the crowds, most passed over him without second thought.

Though he had to be honest with himself, even if he couldn't bring himself to admit it to Furina despite her insistence that his attendance was mandatory. He had his own reasons for coming– selfishness that left a sour taste in his mouth. It was purely by chance he'd seen the briefest glimpse of them prior, and he..was intrigued, that was all.

He refused to let his thoughts linger on the sleepless nights he spent prying every piece of information he could from loose tongues and obscure documents, every moment he managed to squeeze in between trials spent lingering in their most favored locations– cafes, stores, restaurants, the like.

Now a masquerade.

He tried not to let the guilt gnaw at his conscious, but it lingered like an age old scar that still ached.

So he relegated himself to simply residing in the further corner, nursing a goblet of water like a fine wine, trying not to let his eyes stray to the brief glimpses of them through the ever moving bodies filling the center of the room, dancing like puppets in music boxes.

Still, his hand twitched in an instinctual desire– a need to clasp his hand in their own, to touch his lips upon their knuckles, to indulge in a moment of reprieve and unshackle himself from the mantle that bears heavy upon his shoulders. He seeks reverence, worship, but not of himself– but towards the one who had drawn the eye of the dragon amongst the waves of humans he'd seen come and go for a great many years.

No one could compare, he is certain. None have left him as breathless, as hopelessly infatuated, as the one who made him wish only to kneel at their feet in senseless reverence until he could no longer speak. A hopeless man, indeed, if he has never even truly met them.

Instead he's spent his time prying into their life from the shadows. Caution, or simple cowardice?

He dares not ponder.

Yet in his ceaseless pondering he'd blocked out the world without, failing to notice the figure stepping up beside him until their hand brushed against his elbow– just the briefest touch, but it had his pupils narrowing and his entire body tensing like a coiled spring. That touch..bliss. It left him breathless and lightheaded as he tilted his head to regard them, his lips parting in a shaky sigh. They are as beautiful as he remembers– even with their face obscured beneath the mask, he would never forget them.

"Greetings, Monsieur– I hope I didn't frighten you too much." Their laugh made him feel rather faint, just the sound of their voice making his hand tighten around his cane. "..Not at all. I was simply lost in thought." He admitted apologetically, trying to reign in the urge to cup their face between his palms. A dangerous thought. He didn't want to scare them off when they'd provided him a priceless opportunity.

"My apologies, you must have needed something. It was rude of me to have been so absorbed in my thoughts to have ignored you." He continued, gently turning to set his goblet down– offer them his full attention, be a gentleman. The words rang in his skull like a ceaseless alarm, blaring and rattling his thoughts as he gently took their hand in his own. It was a split second decision– an indulgence, but he could simply not help himself. Even with his gloves between them, he felt like he was going to lose his composure just from such a brief touch..

He truly was a hopeless man before an altar, praying for a salvation he intends to bury deep beneath the waves– to keep it hidden in the darkness of the depths that only he can reach. A selfish man, he must be, to even think of it, but it is an itch that he cannot scratch. A need that must be satisfied. He cannot allow any hands but his own to tend to them, to know what it feels to touch them, to hear their voice and see their eyes as he prays– prays like a man starved, devotion born of desperation.

"I hope I did not make you wait too long." He smiles, soft and affectionate, like the bloom of spring beneath the winters chill– yet just as deadly, only masked by the sweet fragrance of flowers.

He had waited too long.

No longer.

FURINA

Furina was right at home amongst the crowds– where the masks obscured the identities of most, it was impossible to not recognize the charming banter of the Hydro Archon beneath the mask of the lamb as she graced the masquerade with her presence, speaking with a silver tongue to any who would listen. A truly enthralled audience fitting for the grandest of performers in Fontaine.

But her eyes lingered not on the people who's praise dripped from their lips like honey– yet so very bitter upon her tongue. Even the mask obscuring her expression did little to hide the longing that had her visibly deflating like a popped balloon. She hated all the eyes on her, really– it was suffocating. She was only putting on a show in the foolish hope that they'd finally pay attention to her. Just her luck, she supposes, that instead she's had to throw herself straight into the role of Archon without a pay off..

They hadn't even spared her a glance! It would be infuriating if not for the fact she couldn't even keep her composure just seeing them across the room. They didn't even have to look at her and she could feel the heat rush to her ears as she forced another smile at the crowd gathered around her. It was unfair how easily they could fluster her without even knowing it– her heart was thumping so hard against her ribcage she felt like it might burst.

Her only solace was the fact none of the patrons seemed to realize she'd clocked out of the conversation, her thoughts and eyes lingering on the distant figure– what a lovestruck fool she makes..it was a chance encounter she'd seen them during one of her outings. That was all it took to enthrall her, evidentially, try as she might to have ignore it for months.

They never left her mind for longer then a day, in the end, and she had to face the fact they had managed to enrapture her so deeply she felt like a newborn lamb learning to walk whenever she so much as thought of them. What an embarrassment! She..she was the Archon, she had a reputation to maintain, she couldn't be seen fawning over a human.

But oh, she still longed for it, beneath the veneer of a God. She'd watched them more times then she'd admit even to herself, wishing to find herself in place of those who'd hands were cradled so casually in their own– to hear their voice, their laughter, as often as she pleased..like a fine delicacy she so badly wished to taste, yet so far from her reach.

Would they think her pathetic for her infatuation? She pursed her lips at the thought, trying to bury the sour mood beneath her faux image of the Archon. Yet it lingered, and with only the quietest of excuses, she slipped into the crowd like a ghost– she needed to leave before she did something..stupid. Neuvillette would surely have a few choice words with her if she did, and she was inclined to avoid such a fate.

She..she just needed a moment to collect herself was all. That was it. She could go back to playing Archon for a little longer, she just needed a moment to herself. At the very least, the balcony had been regarded as off limits so late into the party– which gave her an opportunity to slip out of the public view for the briefest of moments. A welcome reprieve– she was starting to feel suffocated amongst the crowds.

Perhaps on instinct, she reached for the mask, lifting ever so slightly away..only to let out a startled yelp at the touch of a hand on her shoulder, the mask slipping back into place far too easily. It made her lightheaded, even now, but she dared not to dwell on it.

But when she turned sharply on her heel to chew out the person who'd followed her and had the gall to scare her..oh, she was done for, her ears flush with heat. The brief glimpse of their eyes beneath the mask, the curl of their lips as they smiled– her heart stuttered in her chest, and she was certain it had stopped all together when they clasped her hand.

"Y–you.." She wanted to be angry, to brush them off and leave with her rationality in tact, but the warmth of their hands on her skin rendered her speechless. She was no better then a fish on land, struggling to fill her lungs with air as she drew in a shaky breath. "Ahem, you caught me off guard. That's all. Surely you do not make it a habit to sneak up on people?" She huffed in indignation, trying to mask the fluster that threatened to break through her carefully crafted facade.

Ah, what a cruel twist of fate..she'd slipped away to escape their allure, but here they were, dragging her back into their orbit without even knowing how deep her infatuation ran. They were alone, too..it was a chance she wasn't sure she'd ever get again.

Maybe, just this once, she could do something for herself rather then everyone else.

She buried her guilt, the fear– buried it beneath the need to be seen.

"But if you want to make it up to me.."

#genshin impact #genshin impact yandere #genshin yandere #neuvillette x reader #yandere neuvillette #yandere neuvillette x reader #arlecchino x reader #yandere arlecchino #yandere arlecchino x reader #furina x reader #yandere furina #yandere furina x reader #fic tag #pats neuvillette this noodle dragon can be so pathetic #aiming for pathetic desperate and slightly guilty. it gnaws at him knowing he's keeping you like a bird in a cage #esp if you react extremely negatively hes like a kicked puppy #not outwardly but internally hes a MESS. sobbing crying wailing #furina and neuvi sopping wet kittens u found in a cardboard box in an alley #vs arle thinking abt all the crimes shes going 2 commit in the process w/o an ounce of guilt. blackmail? check. kidnapping? check. #a little murder for flavor. as u can see im coping horribly w being practically snowed in rn i need 2 be put down #its like 4 degrees out rn (fahrenheit) and getting colder ueueueue i am dying.......... #only thing keeping me going is my furinameow plushie coming. eventually. staying strong just for her................. #also needs 2 be mentioned all the stories r separate ksjfkhdsf #no not everyone in fontaine is yan and trying 2 kidnap sorry for getting ur hopes up.. #yet #anyway u cant convince me arle isn't bribing (or just straight up forcing) her agents into doing stupid shit so she can “save” you #and make you owe her #two silly goofy little creatures vs the personification of gaslight gatekeep girlboss (heavy on the gaslight) #also split this up in 3 parts bc. lol. lmao. im not writing 9 characters at once goodbye #also all the masks do actually have significance i have an entire essay on why i gave each animal to specific characters okay

[sapphireluci]

NiGHTS into Street Fighting 😍😍😍😍

#my art #nights into dreams #nights #reala #nights art #nights into dreams art #they shall kill you 😍 #imagine you’re just dreaming and then u get kicked in da head #nights finally decided to work out lmao #Reala is sick of their nonsense as usual

[spaceratprodigy]

💋 Cybill and Iris 💋

@grimreapersbutt — it is mandatory Looking At Them hours btw

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#cybilliris truthers come get ur food #actually if I don't draw them being in love and smooching 87 times in a row I'm going to blow up in front of everyone #if I become relentless abt reblogging these it's because I'm kinda obsessed w how they came out #they are. so soft #they invented love. they invented romance #having a blast creating ngl #but alas my other wips are glaring at me rn lmao #also bestie. my friend. the art u sent me the other night. I hope u understand I have not been able to stop looking at it #Them. oughhhh. I am rattling the bars of my cage I am barking I am zooming in on every detail it is so good #kicking my feet twirling my hair #can you tell I like drawing the blorbos from our brains #okay everybody clear out. they need their privacy #<3 #cybill x iris #my art #sole survivor #friend oc #fallout

[b4kuch1n]

1/ this bout of comms almost done and 2. spawndate in 3 days so I have! been fixin up some stuff for the itch store. that'll go live on the 29th! right now there Is a pack of the lineart stuff I did last year for folks who found that agreeable, still free to grab! for practicing coloring, or if you wanna mess around with colors when ur not feelin like doing lineart, or if you wanna try to figure out colors in a drastically different style than what you usually go for. or if u just wanna look at it that's cool too. small announcement that is all see u in a few

#bakuspeech #update on the situation: is mostly contained. it'll take a fair bit to make up for how much it's kicked us in the nuts #but it's doable. just Very annoying and tedious and sudden and overall it just sucks #esp. like right up close to my birthday lmao. like if it happened earlier this year I'd be like alright. sucks shit but par for the course #this year has already been so fucked up. this might as well happen #but since it's happened in december it really brings on the feeling of like. fr bitch? #right in front of my cake? me the birthday boy? the specialest fucking boy? #but well. theres a Thing around here that's ur birthday usually being the unluckiest day #but also we're the kind of folks who track death dates rather than birthdays. like up until very recently #all four of my grandparents have unspecified birthdays. their birth years aren't even correct. on paper they're like #a few years older than they actually are #and my granddad on my dads side was even from a family of some means so it wasnt even a class thing #man. last year Something was happening around this time too. idr what but it also sucked #mmm. well. what is really just is. and I've already taken a hammer to it anyhows #I'll do the same for the birthday thing. it Will be fucking good. I take a hammer to it #I'm very glad I still get some commissions even tho it was practically right up to noel #you guys are very generous. I don't say it as often as I should I think but I'm very very thankful for the support #glad to hang out around here still. glad to have the folks I have here. thank u for chillin with me #please look forward to the itch store update. got a new thing along with the old things ported over. stay tuned

[byanyan]

headcanons i need to write down in more detail when i have the energy to get into it: byan not responding well to quiet anger. byan genuinely panicking when someone they care about shuts down in anger. they had at least a few experiences with foster parents who did this, but the most significant was a foster mother who would go completely silent when she got angry, who would almost completely ignore them, making the entire energy of the house uncomfortable in the process. it would make them feel nervous and guilty and unsafe because she would inevitably snap and yell at them with no warning over something completely unrelated that happened to tug at that final straw. they never knew what it was they did wrong because she would never explain the actual reason behind her anger. instead, they were always left in a state of uncertainty, walking on eggshells at all times. and, of course, it was eventually after one of these moments of quiet anger that they were removed from her care by her own request. to this day they still don't know what it was they did that resulted in her getting rid of them, but it's certainly left them with a complex as a result. there's an instinctual fear of approaching abandonment anytime someone gets quiet and/or distances themself from them while angry.

#they'll like. almost desperately almost CHILDISHLY start begging at you to just yell at them or at least tell them what they did wrong #like they'd genuinely prefer you physically attack them than not say anything to them #it kind of puts them back in that headspace they were in at that age #they feel like they're seven again and they're scared and desperate and they h a t e i t #not all the abuse they've suffered has been physical (': #they don't give a shit if ur just someone. why should they care about you being angry at them? #but if ur someone IMPORTANT to them........ that's when the fear hits. that's when the trauma kicks in. #actually u know what i might not need to write it out another time this feels pretty thorough #i guess i had the energy to get into it tonight lmao #anyway. fun stuff. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made. #ask to tag.

[sochilll]

The PJO show is definitely not BAD, it’s very fun and cool, but tbh I dislike almost every single change they’ve made from the book lol

#disclaimer this is not about the casting I do not care about them de-blonding anyone annabeth I love u #it’s about the plot changes! I don’t like or don’t understand the point of most of them! #sally doesn’t tell him about the gods! #Percy doesn’t get mad at Grover! At least not like this! #he doesn’t get riptide back until they leave for the quest! #also the change of why he gets kicked out wasn’t like worse but I didn’t really get why they did it #and juniper???? in book one??? #but the biggest thing is Gabe. I really don’t like the way they made him like wimpy? #he’s literally physically abusive in the book. he steals Percy’s money the second he steps through the door. #he’s dangerous and sally is kind of scared of him in the book. she doesn’t yell at him and demand to go away and threaten his food #idk maybe he’ll get worse later but as of now: does he deserve to get kicked out? absolutely. does he deserve to be killed? not really? #also Clarisse looks too well groomed lmao that’s NOT my war daughter #and she just makes other people bully Percy? no way. she was the one shoving his head in the toilet!!! give her her violence back!! #ALSO! where is annabeth? she’s supposed to be obsessed with him bc she thinks he’s the one to get the quest and he’s been here like two days #and she is nowhere to be found???? #anyway not putting the show tag on this it’s just personal rant time #mine

[lllsaslll]

What's your Elvisona?

#💀💀💀💀 #lmao ok but for real the pet names #i wonder what mine would be #if u apready have a nickname would he overwrite it #elvis has universal veto powers #elvis #elvis presley #elvis nicknames #petnames #i still get a kick out of the see see rider thing so i think id get something based on that or idk babydoll is cliche but it gets me #sunshine or sunshine girl also hit #elvisona

[coolingrosa]

hihi it's me again >u>

i just wanted to say thanks for publishing the transfem dream au-- it's helped me with my personal headcanons for them and for other dream aus too !! i've realized i'm so much more comfortable with potraying the octobros as genderfluid characters as well as dream having all pronoun usage [i still consider her agender but then again pronouns don't equal gender hjjgrj]. it's definitely let me widen my creative circle while exploring these awesome characters! i've been here for three years nonstop and i'm still getting more and more familiar with these beloved characters :'D

thank you so much!!

Hello Nash!! Great to see you here again!!

I’m so glad that my silly hc has helped people feel more comfortable with their own. I feel like the Undertale fandom had a lot of trouble with that in its early years and it makes me so happy to hear that I’m giving people more confidence to step outside of the box. Sexuality and gender expression was something that was also pushed away in this fandom, and though many argue otherwise, just look at what the fandom did to Kris, Frisk, and Chara. Canon non-binary CHILDREN characters whose identities were ignored in favor of sexualizing them. Gross. It’s good to see that the fandom has realized a lot of its mistakes, but it’s still has a ways to go. I’m very glad to bring more attention to the different ways people can express themselves through these silly skeletons!

Trans!fem Dream has become very important to me. She’s not just a fun Headcannon anymore, but encouragement to also ignore what others may think and make these goddamn skeletons pretty!! Lol

Maybe one day I’ll get around to posting my interpretation of all the Au Sans’s sexuality’s and gender expression. For people like Cross and Fresh (one is canonically bi and the other is canonically non-binary) I’ll stick to the canon. But for those who are left ambiguous,…well. I’ll just fill in the gaps!

#undertale #undertaleau #undertale multiverse #dream sans #transfemdreamsans #cooling rosa answers silly stuff #Rosa talks about controversy LMAO #stop making Frisk and Chara female its blatantly ignoring their identities IN CANON #FRISK’S WHOLE STORY ARC IS ABOUT THEM BEING SEPARATE FROM CHARA SND THE PLAYER. THATS WHY WE KNOW THEIR NAME. #they are also children so stop #shipping them #with grown ass adults #looking at you Fran’s shippers. get out of here #nashdoesstuff #also many don’t know that Fresh is canonically non-binary! #how cool is that? #also with the frisk and chara thing— if u make an AU that’s separate from original Undertale #make them female or male ig. but if it’s just for shipping then ur true intentions are clear #if you just wanna have them be a guy in ur au for kicks #I don’t have an issue with that #it’s when people blantly ignore original Undertale canon and claim Frisk and Chara aren’t canonically non-binary

[albatris]

honestly whatever nat and marián have going on in book two is ten times h*rnier than whatever nat and quinn have going on in book two at the moment and I should probably change that but whatever

#when nat realises he can technically feed from ppl without killing them it opens up some new options for him #but if ur gonna try and do it consensually the best way to up your chances of getting a ''yeah sure go ahead'' is #to maybe hook up w some ppl who have raging vampire kinks #enter marián and millie #the first time they uhhh Hang Out is basically just them getting each other off while Nat bites them and drinks n then #he's just kind of like Ok Cool that was all I'm here for you can kick me out now if u want but they both just #go to town on him lmao #it's what he deserves #idk if I'm gonna actually write it bc uggghhh sexy scenes hard but it's dumb and fun to think about #anyway. sorry for h*rny posting LMAO

[lvllns]

odysseus in this musical like “please don’t make me kill the infant” like my good dude you are the one who launches astyanax off the wall in most of versions of the mythos

#reed.txt #i DO think it's a very interesting take on him and this specific situation #because there are versions where neoptolemus is the one who kills the infant #but i like. deciding on this specific characterization of odysseus here because it gives another dimension to his character #yes he is desperate to get back to ithaca to see his wife and son after two decades #but choosing to write and portray odysseus as just a man who had to make this absolutely HORRIFIC decision #to murder an innocent child to preserve the safety of himself and his family #zeus telling him he WILL have blood on his hands he just gets to choose whose blood it's going to be #because people WILL die. either hektor's infant son or odysseus and his family and potentially citizens of ithaca #zeus TELLS him that astyanax will grow up and be bent on vengeance for his father and his city and his family #'you have a choice but it's not really a choice because it's one infant weighed against your wife and son and citizens' #'this is the will of the gods' and odysseus is once again kicked to his knees #zeus here.....athena.....poseidon because he's a dipshit who doesn't kill polyphemus and instead gives him his full name and address #i dunno i just think it's a very interesting narrative choice that does a lot of good to give odysseus some dimension #and round him out as more than just. quick of wit. silver tongued. smart and whip quick. #ESPECIALLY with the follow up with athena where she's like 'the fuck dude have u forgotten that i was making you #into a powerful warrior?! stop FEELING and start THINKING.' #the bartering with zeus like 'i could do this' and zeus is like 'lmao nah bro' #'how many times have you listened to this album reed?' yes. #thank u for coming to my tedtalk about the odyssey musical i have many thoughts

[nvrcmplt]

Like for an Olu related thingie ~ ♥

whilst i go sneeps o///

#will get back to ya in the mornin'! I need to rest my wrist lmao she did a lotta work today #the heat is kicking up again too so imma go roll out like a starfish #mwah mwah! #pre-estabs can be made here too - lemme know in the replies what vibe u want xoxo #» ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ʟɪsᴛ

[wovenstarlight]

every so often yoojin will say somethign so tragically unreliable narrator that i have to pause and drag my hands down my face and groan YOOJIN AH............ and just take a minute before i can get back to work

#star.txt #hyj voice yoohyunies definitely out for sigma's blood because sigma was fighting him trying to get him to hand over my body #huh? eh i dont know that me saying that he kicked the shit out of me+grabbed me by the hair+dragged me off to forcibly do surgeries on me #(surgeries that yoohyun specifically has had incredibly traumatizing experiences with in the 5 minutes hes been awake since we've been here #has That big an impact on this decision #tllb #nsglb #my sranks spoilers #bro he could not care less abt the shit that happened while u were dead. sigma hurt you personally #like is anyone gonna tell him . #sorry for half my liveblogging being in the tags. i love to talk at 80% opacity. #also its a bad anxiety day lmao

[louismygf]

just recently watched this is us with my college friends

#tbqh i found it kinda boring 😭 #the louis clips were so not enough #ive watched some clips online prior to actually watching it (for the first time might i add) #one of my friends had a cousin who was crazyyy ab 1d so she dragged her out to the cinema to go watch it when it came out and in 3d lol 😭 #the 3d schtick is so funny 2 me lmao 😭 #my friend recalls freaking out in the movie theater bc she was a major niall fan at the time. she said 3d niall was so close 2 her face lol #anyway. ab how i watched some clips online prior #i was actually waiting for the louis n his sisters part or the one where he visits his school or smth #my friends.... they literally don't know a thing ab louis personality-wise so they didn't really get much from it #UGH i should download aotv and make them watch it that was way more interesting (but idk? smth about it feels like it's made for fans only? #but... i'll suggest it the next time we get together 🙏🏼 #anyw back to my review. #simon cowell's face was a jumpscare what can i say. it was so evil how nicole scherzinger was just. completely written off #im from the future i Know things #<- and like. about this. i felt kinda bad being cynical about the movie when i know my friend is Still an ot5 at heart #i think i broke her 13-year old heart a little 😭 #it's so weird how the movie keeps singling out zayn about him getting kicked out or him talking solo music etc kskdj. feels v pointed Lol #they really just documented the 1d-mania & madness they ensued huh.... i think 2 of my friends (bts fans) weren't as impressed LOL 😭 #they kinda flamed their performances and stage outfits which is. yeah i agree. kpop idols do WAY more than just.... that (1d) kskskd #i guess i'll make them watch the extra clips next time (o haven't seen all the clips yet i think) #OH and 😭 why was martin scorsese in the film that was hilarious #didn't have a lot of realness to it. is what i thought of the film. yeah. this is(N'T) us ✊🏽😔 #maybe... i am too much of a hater #i liked... the... um. it's hard to highlight things i liked ab the film when im Not a 1d fan 😭 like im a louie ONLY idgaf ab 1d 😔 #the part ab louis audition.... im sorry babie the editors did u dirty but it was so funny........😭 #<- though i imagine it solidified people's (wrong) opinions about him :/

[b4kuch1n]

hi it's me. bulletpoints

job has concluded! barring sudden expansion on the project I think that's gonna be it for my work here. six character cards in total! this leads to

wrists are bit fucked. I'll be putting that thang (creen tablet) in da closet again for at least a month while trying to hold as few heavy objects as possible for the time being

why one month deadline? well it's bc I made an artfight account. I'm fucking doing it this year on god I'll kick anyone's ass I'll kick my own ass. I'll post a link to my acc a week or so before the event starts, meanwhile I'll keep updating my roster and cleaning up this cardboard box I arrived at their door in. do u guys have a spare pair of suspenders I have a really funny joke to make

will be doing it on the creen tablet, unless I make enough to get a new graphic tablet that works with SAI2 inbetween. on that note

ink comms should come back sometimes next week babeyy I need to get back into da groove! miss my G pen it feels like I was close to something last time. I wanna get back to it. but also

I'm writing a fic now. tis the season it seems this happened last year too. but I'll try my best to not disappear off the face of the earth for 3 months running again lol I'll do my best to pace myself, since this is gonna be one of the heftier writing things.

sk8 people and another very specific subset of people will be pleased to know it's a sk8 Real Steel AU. if this means nothing to u carry on. have a good day. to the five people still here I'll probably be brainposting abt writing this so don't be surprised if that comes up here and there

circling back a bit I'm currently 120 USD away from the graphic tablet I wanna get, so that'll be what the ink comms are going toward. otherwise if u enjoy my art and have a spare doller to buy the baku a coffee I'd absolutely appreciate ur support! not mandatory but I'll definitely be very thankful! especially bc

I'll probably phase out the redbubble store some time in the future. at the very least I'll probably stop uploading new things on there while looking for alternative. ohh baby they are doing some wild shit and I want off the ride please. please

but yeah. that's the current plan for things. I've accepted that comics happen when they want to, and I have faith they still want to see the sunlight some time this year. meanwhile we keep busy keep training keep recovering! thank u for ur patience. have a good night take this sharp object

#bakuspeech #boy oh boy. its been a Month #hi. I received a sticker sheet and a clay pin of frogs today. its been good #art wise Ive been on day three of drawing break. and day. something. of writing this fic #I! kind of! know how itll end! but if nothing I know I am so willing to improv this shit to the bitter confusing end #you guys dont get to see the proof of that sorry. but my friend yumi specifically u know. u know #at least nobody died graphically ten thousand years ago in space this time #this year has been real fuckin topsy turvy so far art wise. but I have learned a lot! including to fuckign pace myself. and I am practicing #straight up had at least three unrelated art and art-adjacent breakdown in the last three months lmao. its so. this is so #well. Im better now. I am so smart and I kick my own ass so well. we good! we are good. dw abt me! #hope ur having a good day. games official ship date now lands in october. my art will be out there in peoples hands soon...... #ah. well right now I need to sleep. or finish ryan chongoshows hifi rush stream series. whichever applies first #have a good night lads! do a twirl to skip this level

[aeide-thea]

oh right i forgot the real reason i stopped listening to broadway clips was that i've got this whole enormous miserable knot in my chest abt having been too socially anxious to do anything with my once-upon-a-time-very-gorgeous voice once i got spat out of the safe little nest of my high school, and like, most of the time i forget that knot even exists, but when i listen to the sort of music i used to be part of making (proper opera but also showtunes) it's like. this whole fast-forward feelings journey thru 'oh right that didn't actually go away, it's still right there in my throat, just calcified' to 'oh okay we tugged the loose end and it's unraveling and actually it was keeping contained a whole rush of tears like aeolus' bag of winds in the odyssey…'

#like i decline 2 actually cry abt it but. sure am on the verge of it lmao. thick sore throat and all #i always forget that when i'm actually happy i sing to myself. it's been a long time since i did that #i mean also a big problem with voice was like. the gender thing #conveniently being a mezzo is ALSO a gender thing which did more work for me than i realized but #was listening to a jeremy jordan medley ft. on the street where you live from my fair lady and had a sudden flashback #to the year i was like 'what if i sang that for our musical theater showcase' and my voice teacher was like. noooo not a Boy Song 4 Girl U! #but i used to sing that to myself all the time. also‚ hilariously‚ the girl that i marry from annie get yr gun #which is just like. literally i still thought i was a straight girl tho. the sheer level of doublethink this required. #what was happening in my brain. #(i mean obviously what was happening in my brain was that like. i knew the limits of acceptability) #(and so i couldn't know anything else abt myself.) #(like i've said this before but i do strongly wonder what else my brain isn't allowing me to know bc i still live with my dad) #(which is like. SO dumb bc honestly i'm not sure there's anything i could do that he'd kick me out/disown me over) #(certainly not anything sexuality or even gender related idt) #(but it's like. i know where the discomfort line is and emotionally i just. can't bear to exile myself out beyond it!) #(even if my doing so might eventually shift the line out to where it embraced me again!) #(sometimes learning yr own deep unacceptability in childhood 4 adhd reasons) #(and also 'yr mother is so depressed nothing you do will ever please her. have fun trying tho!!' reasons) #(makes you just. totally incapable of deliberately rendering yrself less acceptable as an adult even when it would be good for you) #(anyway like. thinking back to the K in old home videos who was like. confident that they were an engaging delight) #(and like. what a charming jeremy jordan of a performer they could have made.) #(if only my whole upbringing hadn't then happened to me and crushed all the unacceptable self-expression out of me.) #anyway. shh don't look at me it's fine! it's all fine. 🫥🫥🫥 #formative #feelingsblogging