#this is old and pre-covid!!

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[risingsunresistance]

i'm either losing my mind and forgot what tumblr looks like or they changed the way the activity page looks AGAIN (on desktop idk what's happening on mobile)

#also SORRY I POSTED ABT WANTING TO CHAT AND THEN IMMEDIATELY DISAPPEARED KJFGHDG #I HAD TO GO DOWN THE ROAD AGAIN ;-; my dad told me to go get new shoes #it's been a good uhhhhhhhhhhh 4 years? i think i had these pre-covid. goodbye old tennis shoes o7 #chat

[soldier-poet-king]

Love to be interrogated by my mother about the bad mood she caused. Love crying into my dinner until my nose bleeds. Love snapping and admitting one terrible grievance but forcing down the millions of others because I've learned after more than a decade that things dont ever change in this house, no one is willing to put in the therapy and work and develop any sort of emotional intelligence or even, God forbid, ADMIT that they were wrong and it wasn't just "oh I didn't mean to/I didn't do that". Love being blamed for being in my room all the time, as if that's the cause of all this and not just me desperately trying to survive and keep myself sane and not relapse. Love being the least loved child who is never more than a disappointment! Where a neutral response is the most positive thing I can get and more likely it'll be negative criticism or passive aggression! Not like my perfect brothers and brother's gf who is the better daughter my mother wanted! Love being stuck living with people who are so determined to be unhappy!

Apparently my workout was NOT enough to drain all my anger and hurt, but it'd have to be one hell of a workout to drain a decade and a half of this shit and I can't even do anything dumb and reckless bc I gotta go to work in the morning

#Franposting #how come i feel more support and love and approval from my boss #and from my friends mom who i see msybe 3x a year #than i do from my own mother #my boss is my mothers age. her kids are my age. she tells me im doing well and shes proud of me #and its pathetic but i am so desperate for parental approvak #and friends mom always chats with me and asks about my interests and congratulates me #and is just. we have nothing in common but she makes an effort because im her daughters friend #i spent a week with my friends family once. pre covid #and wept after in my apartment. because it never really occurred to me that families could love each other properly #they could argue and maybe things are rocky sometimes #but they never doubted each others support and love #i was 23 years old and i wept into my friends shoulder because it didnt occur to me that people were like that for real #and it wasnt just a front put on in public #isnt that the most pathetic thing youve ever heard? #ik ik im a baby and a grown ass adult and need to pull myself up by my bootstraps #bc so many have it infinitely worse. my parents arent abusive. i cant whine bc mommy and daddy hate each other and didnt love me enough #and i have the Duty to attend to #but sometimes i am so tired. and i dont want to pull myself forward on bleeding fingernails anymore

[nunap]

Some French stay should take one for the team and French kiss Chris for me at lolla and tell him he's beautiful

#i was watching pre 2020 skz footage p much around blond chan era and i feel kinda sad for him bc he looked a lot younger not as in age duh #it was the time in which he was healing bc his dream was his and sure he had responsibilities but perhaps less he looked more chill with #his surfer hair and chubbier cheeks and a book even. he used to read and make music and play for fun and ofc i don't fucking know him nor #know what he does irl but i can see his face now and i read that the he's always working always in need to do better overworked etc #he would never have a hiatus even sick he only had to bc covid is infective and i wish he knew that live fast die young is bs and that #he's amazing even if he rests or does nothing or delegate.he's not old or a father he's only a 25 yo dude that had his teenage years robbed #to him. i wish he was kinder to himself bc maybe someone out there is the same and they deserve to understand that u can still make it #without sacrificing parts of yourself bc that's how it is. it is how u make it

[daz4i]

speaking of tinder last time i used it i mostly saw 1. guys looking for something serious (my loves you will not find it on tinder i can assure you) 2. guys hiding their face bc they're closeted. mostly soldiers. which is fair 3. one guy who openly declared being a kinky furry 4. this:

#the one that got away. i should've slid right #not that i did anyone. i downloaded it. saw i got 40+ super likes in one day. got my confidence boost and deleted the app #p sure it was pre-covid wow that's old #I'm p sure this is what nudged me into realizing I'm ace lol i was like ''if i see someone truly attractive I'll slide right'' and well. #as you can guess. no one was. turns out I'm more than just picky it seems

[thelegendofmrrager]

Smoking that finely aged cart tonight

#your pre-covid cherry pie gold coast clear master wayne 🫴🏼 #thought my friend lost my pen in the move but it turned up like three months later. we ball !! #for now. let's wait and see what rammys hell hath wrought for me in the hours to come #lulyrants #EDIT WAIT. it wasn't pre covid it was 2020 on the DOT #so it's not as old as i thought. but jesus Christ nonetheless

[lopez-richter-fangirl]

He gives off full dad vibes in this old pic lol

And he knows it

#devastated by you calling this pic old though 😂 #chickie was barely pre covid

[zarafey]

Austria coming in with another masterful execution of law!

Now that the covid mask mandate isn't valid anymore we revert back to a law that got approved in 2019 I think... Its a law that prohibits you from masking your face! (literally just made bc of Islamophobia)... So now it's illegal in Austria to wear a mask in public! But also at the same time required to wear a mask if you tested positive! And when your in like a hospital and retirement homes! So now if you wanna wear a mask you need a doctor's note so that you are allowed to in public! :D

#Public includes stuff like trains and busses. University. Most Workplaces. #Not like it's still also a good idea to wear a mask even if you just have a cold or sth so you don't infect ppl etc #It's literally so dumb... Like last year it was still 'its illegal to not wear a mask' now it's illegal to do that?? What??? #The law was a dumb law from the start they should have just removed it or at least work on removing it #I really hope the votes next year get our politics more normal again bc it was just absolute chaos the last few years #One dude tried to sell Austria to the Russians or sth like that and then that other dude took over and #Then ppl said that dude is also corrupt so there was an investigation and stuff so someone else took over #And then I think they didn't find something so a few other parties called to get him out of office and then he just quit I think or was #Bullied out and then we had a vote again but the other parties all had shit candidates for chancellor #And I think in the meantime we changed chancellor again as well??? Like I literally have no idea who was chancellor since Kurz (2nd dude) #And then in the middle of covid our health minister also quit I think? 😂😂 #Oh and also a satire party (the beer party!) was really popular as well and that dude (Marco pogo) ran for president #Like he didn't get it but still he got like 3rd place with 8% of all votes #It's just all a fkn mess #OH RIGHT and then there was also a thing with an old Nazi song book that was used in the youth group of one party or sth like that #But I honestly can't remember if that was pre or post the Ibiza incident (selling to Russia thing) #Also I haven't fact checked anything in these notes. Be aware that it's 3am and I've been awake for 22 hours at this point. #And that my memory is bad so I might be conflating some stuff or miss remembering

[mifunebooty]

Stroking the bitches in the downton abbey a new era 2022 letterboxd

#cherry says #half the theatre was filled with people older than 40 just my crowd LKZJWLSINWLSINWLSOWJWLS #they all sat in the back my mom and i sat middle row #bro HUGGEEEEEEE FUCKING SCREEN THIS DUDE LIED ON THE PHONE SAYING THIS IS THE SMALL VENUE SCREEN BITCH????? #maybe its me i havent been since pre covid times #first a man who looked like a high school chemistry teacher with somebody #2 more couples in their 60s an old mom and a daughter who was younger but like adult #2 more couples but people in their 40s both husbands wearing glasses and a group of 3 friends yes they were cute old ladies #i dont care baby that shit was livid my mom went they were talking during the movie but we were too bc we got too comfortable at home

[arthur-r]

actual footage of the smallest dance imaginable. a hundred people bought tickets which is. not a lot for an entire seven cities worth of students in a school. and then there was maybe fifty people total in the building at the most filled up time cause so many people just used the tickets as donating to charity and didn’t even want to go

#was excited to come home and laugh at the dance and then it just got a little much toward the end #but i still think it was pretty funny. also there were so many songs that literally no one there knew?? #my friends begged the dj (social studies teacher) to skip songs no one was dancing to and they wouldn’t #the entire night was really funny before i started falling apart about everything it just became a little much #kind of this whole week combined. monday i tried to take the bus to school showed up ten minutes early waited half an hour it never showed #(first time trying to take the bus from the apartment. school said there’s a stop here but apparently no) #tuesday i tried to take the bus after school and it never stopped within a mile of the apartment. got dropped off at a trailer park #that was not mine. had to have my mom pick me up. and then go to work after like regular #then wednesday was a little bit normal i think. pretty much regular. but did have trouble getting home again!! just not as exciting #anyway then thursday was probably maybe normal?? except my sister came in to school to visit her old favorite teacher. who is my teacher #in economics. and knows me trans and i had to have a conversation with my sister. so maybe not that normal #and then on friday. my older sister had my key card and i couldn’t get into the apartment building. waited outside for my little sister for #twenty minutes in the cold and then we went in the lobby and had to wait for a stranger to get close enough to ask for help. bad experience #so anyway there’s been a lot leading up to today. and it makes sense that i fell apart eventually. but no longer crying so call that a win #hope you all are well. i’ll go to sleep eventually. just a lot to get off my chest. in conclusion wasn’t this dance stupid #we hadn’t had a charity gala since pre-covid so i think just nobody knew what it would be like. i’m the only grade who’s been before #if it wasn’t for the charity gala i wouldn’t know i was trans. somebody complimented my transition there and i was like sorry i can do that? #(had cut my hair short and was wearing a suit. considered myself a stag bisexual and hadn’t heard of transmasculinity /gen) #so i had maybe high expectations. anyway i’m probably running out of tags soon just. yeah. idk. today was a lot #friends only #delete later

[suenitos]

LOL

#idr if it was softwilly or isaacwhy who made a bit about dream in one of their videos pre fr? that quickly got really popular and i saw it #a couple of times here and there. i used to watch them pre covid theyre typical gamer humor and made discord videos back in the day #probably still do? no idea but #kinda more aligned to q's old content pre dsmp pre mc... definitely an audience of drantis in case some of you were genuinely wondering #about who the fuck these weirdos are. i wish i could rmbr the bit though but i refuse to go look for it. iirc it was kind of offensive #and they edited it out but take my words with a grain of salt my memory is shitttt #may23

[swannposting]

🦢swannposting goes out to the theater 🦢

#rat imagery #not pirates #i’m seeing a revived production of hamlet that i assistant directed pre-covid #excited to see what my old friends put together

[opalsiren]

anyway i think it would be sooooo cool for the loverfolkmoremidnights tour if taylor had a number of different setlists on rotation, like maybe for the us leg of the tour she'd focus more on folklore/evermore, europe would be more midnights-heavy setlist-wise, in asia it'd be more like a greatest hits tour with a smattering of the vault tracks etc. but i know this is highly ambitious and not very practical unless she divided the tour into different sections i.e had a north american tour, then took a few months off, then the south american tour would have a slightly different set list, and so on and so forth. i guess a more feasible alternative would be for her to do more secret songs that are deep cuts from lover/folklore/evermore/midnights plus the odd vault track on the b stage? i am Thinking....

#i mean i am getting way ahead of myself since the hypothetical tour hasn't even been announced yet lol #and it wouldn't surprise me if she only does a few dates in north america at least just to start off especially with covid #much and all as i'm dying to hear folklovermoremidnights live it would be sad to miss any songs pre-lover #really do not know how she's going to tour four albums + new vault tracks + her old(er) stuff and keep everyone happy but if anyone can do #it it's blondie #the other other alternative is taychella 2023 #the other other *other* alternative is she does medleys of songs from albums pre-lover. maybe even a mashup or two. but the tour is mostly #centered around loverfolkmoremidnights etc. #.txt #taylor swift #midnights

[heimonas]

Sundays are for hanging at the uni restaurant for hours with your friends

#angelic.txt #I miss the mornings in the old dorms pre covid #we would be having breakfast for over an hour #and now I ate with my friend and we were just talking for 1 and a half hours #just chilling in the restaurant