#this is real im not lying... this is the true

[koetjingwarrd]

You're my baby, say it to me...

#gundam witch from mercury #gwitch #wfm #sulemio #suletta mercury #miorine rembran #i bet on losing dogs as per gwitch current story progression aka ep17 do you see my vision... #i have particular mixed feelings on ep 17 most of which i feel that the story is done a bit sloppy i think it started around ep 16 or 15 #i really need to get this out so i could study damn it !! #first of all with miorine with the one who's losing a lot by being complicit with prospera's quiet zero significantly trapping herself furt #er in the cycle of revenge and also losing the friends she has come to cherish and also... at the same time knowing hal truths of what real #ly happened prospera true plan. vanadis. aerial and suletta true nature. earth as a spacian battleground. and the whole lot #i feel like she's rushing thru her birthday to eject sul asap from prosperas plan and now whats done is done i feel like she underestimate #what conviction on how suletta values what family means to her. prospera lines where she wonders whether sul will give aerial up #easily is giving vibes that its possible for suletta to take drastic measures to get her family back. miorine grows up on a world that #is defined by strict rules but suletta does not... that is after she's starting to get over her heartbreak i think... #whats interesting about gwitch is that although it considered utena as one of its base material it mixes said materials with how gundam sto #ryline works while simultaneously keeping up with today's themes. so honestly... when this happened today im a bit pissed #another thing that even though on a surface level suletta plays the role of utena with miorine as anthy they are also anthy and utena #respectively. suletta and utena with their kind hearted and naive self with a sense of justice left behind the insidious plot of the school #anthy and miorine titled the bride who adored their respective partner up to the point of deception and betrayal for their own good #SULETTA AND ANTHY GOD THE WITCh. red motifs. i find it funny they both have siblings okay this is messed up. the character shrouded in myst #ery. SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS THE CHICK WHO IS YET TO HATCHH !!!! RAHHH #insert utena student council theme somewhere around here #and lastly utena and miorine. the “princess”that is ready to take on a world that is threatening her loved one. both are only child god no. #this is my personal feelings but i will find it heartbreaking that despite everthing suletta will runs to miorine no matter how much she #push her away... but i also want and find it interesting where despite loving and believing in her suletta will slowly will ALSO despise #her for letting them drift apart kind of like anthy and utena on the akio apocalypse arc....... do i want this to happen...? do i....? >yes #regardless augh what a heartwrenching lovely episode despite me knowing it will happen at some point during the show #im like the surprised pikachu meme with tears in my eyes

[ear-motif]

anyways will begging hannibal not to lie to him as he drags gideon into his house. yea

#such a brief scene but very real #the juxtaposition of knowing theyre lying and hiding the truth from you #and begging them to tell you cuz you cant stand not knowing anymore #but also praying that its not really true. that there is a reality thats softer #but that softer reality can only exist in a world in which you cant trust yourself #so what is the better outcome? #fic ref #since im clearly projecting at this point that scene lasted 4 seconds

[sarahjacobs]

you know what really gets to me. is how jack loosens up david’s morals. like how david starts off as a staunch pacifist because of the Optics and strategy of it all, but then later he kicks a cop in the face and threatens him with a swing + tries to punch jack when he scabs. and both instances occur specifically because he cares so deeply about jack. But also there's this tidbit from the 91 script

it's like. up until now, david's interactions with jack have largely consisted of david being openly skeptical/confrontational whenever he detects any kind of bullshit. and while he immediately clocks that all this stuff about santa fe is a lie, for the first time, he decides to let it go. Because there's a kernel of authenticity to the statement, though the authenticity doesn’t lie in factual truth, it’s in how jack desperately "wants it to be true". because. this is david's first time seeing the soft underbelly to jack. because david IS charmed by jack despite not really trusting him

#newsies #92sies #javid #id in alt #* #i say all this knowing that in the finished movie this scene doesnt really read as david knowing it’s a lie #However i also think it’s interesting how david’s perception of jack and lying shifts over time #like the shift from ‘the names kelly. jack kelly; you think im lying?’ ‘well you have a way of improving the truth’ -> ‘you didnt even tell #me your real name!’ #and if we’re taking the script direction to be true. whats stated in the screengrab -> ‘you lied about your family being out west’ #so clearly at some point david decided that he DOES trust jack and what he has to say #sorry this is kind of like a ‘yeah the sky is blue so what’ moment. but i think #crutchy confirming that jack escaped the refuge via roosevelt’s carriage really went a long way in building trust #and of course starting a strike together. lol

[skunkes]

current thing i keep trying to convince myself of is that making one bad drawing does not mean that im bad at drawing. The big doodle pages have helped with that. They do kind of Harm when i go back and see i was making Better art x months ago but im also a believer of If You Can Draw It Once, You Can Draw It Again so it helps to have a bad doodle surrounded by art i didnt scrap (+ consider "good").

Also trying to just accept sometimes things are left in the past.... I do think if u draw something once u can draw it again but im trying to convince myself its ok if i can never get back the art style(s)/art style elements i had in the past.

In the same way we age and have to accept we look differently than we did when we were younger and That Was and Is Us, but we wont look like that ever again. <- This is a little hard bc i also have trouble accepting/dealing with this comparison example LOL

#this is just copium bc i know its like Not True but the other thing i am trying to convince myself of is like #im at a point where i Cant make a bad drawing. ykwim. like this isnt true right of course i have huge flops i have to scrap all the time #but its more in line with what i mentioned in the post... like *lying* i cant make a bad drawing. and if i did itd just be one out of lots #of okay ones. ykwim. its not Real but i need to overcompensate to make up for the usual mindset #talkys #now i just need to get past my bizarre fear of like. #what if someone who's never seen my stuff's first interaction with my work is a Bad drawing. and so they think all my stuff is bad #but its out of my hands so i guess i jst have to find a way to stop runinating about random strangers whenever i make art #*ruminating

[hearty-an0n]

sheldon i have Never bad mouthed you Ever. know this

#<3 #leafs lb #this is real and true and im Not Lying guys

[doodlebloo]

Tubbo mentioning he wants to make an SMP that's got lore to it..... The ZSMP will be real within 30 days

#for context the zsmp is an smp i dreamed was real and then the moots and i created lore for it #and now its coming true 😊❤️ /lying #seriously though if tubbo does make his own smp with lore and such im going to have to break out the lore straightjacket again #doodle.txt

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#i still havent been able to get the pic of my entire family celebrating the holidays together out of my head. #my parents ruined every christmas they could. every holiday. every birthday. everything. there could be nothing special #w/o my dad calling my mother a fat pig or my mom interrupting his dinner prayer to call him a lying hypocrite. #w/o police getting involved&having to explain why my dad had my mom in a headlock or my mom had punched him in the face. #we could have nothing bc their need for misery outweighed their desire to give their children any fucking joy #every fucking time. #but i have to sit here&wonder if im in the wrong bc im being gaslit into missing a family+memories we all know damn well #never fucking happened. i blacked out half my fucking childhood&still know thats true. #i have to wonder if maybe-- just maybe-- they would actually apologize for everything they did if i ever called or wrote. #if maybe they would welcome me back w/o expecting an apology From Me. #but then i remember how the first thing my mother said when getting in touch w me after two years was how disappointed she was in me #for not thinking to tell anyone in the family that i was homeless. how selfish i was for it. #how she only contacted me after getting my email address-- the same one ive had since high school-- from family #bc shed been crying to our entire extended family about how worried she was about me so they managed to find my gofundme #&not a single person in my family donated to it-- but they all had a lot to say about it. didnt they. #&somehow i know that theres nothing for me w any of them. nothing at all but more disappointment. #&photos of all of them smiling that i have to remind myself are definitely not real. #bc how many of those exact photos had i been in? no matter what the answer is i dont remember a single one being real.

[blueberryblogger]

just a reminder for you guys that Vivienne Medrano, creator of Hazbin Hotel & Helluva Boss, is notoriously transphobic to transmascs & nonbinary people. there are many workplace allegations regarding intentional deadnaming & misgendering by her & her staff at spindlehorse towards transmasc and nonbinary employees, insinuations that they were not 'really' trans, that they were 'trenders' etc.

and nothing was done about it because her head of HR is just her best friend, who always defends her & does not seem to have any real experience in axtually being an HR manager.

#that and the fact that nobody in fandom spaces seem to give a fuck about transphobia #when its directed only at trans men #because it cant possibly be real or true right? because trans men can't ever be victims right? #im not bitter (lying)

[transfemzedaph]

joe creampied iskall 👍

#original post tag #true real statements #and im literwlly not lying

[skyllion-uwu]

They should invent a me that feels real and doesn't self sabotage

#sky vents like amogus #im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo normal (lying) #legit i dont know what im supposed to do with myself. i dont see a future for me but i dont want to die. i just exist #i think about this one sci fi story a lot where the guy finds out everyone in the world is him and he is everyone in the world #reincarnated across timelines and bodies and every single person ever from good to evil has always. been. him. #i wonder if im that guy. why do i treat my current body and my past and future bodies so bad. do i even deserve to since so many of them #have the capacity to hurt themselves across history too. do i even try to break the cycle at this point. #or sometimes its like. im not real but everyone else is. i just inserted myself into this world and one day ill wake up and theyre all gone #if i found out that was true would i even do anything about it? could i get the courage to live knowing that it doesnt matter in the end #because i dont fucking exist. or would i just keep existing as i am now miserable because it doesnt matter in the end im not real #i feel like im gonna cry now. i thought too much #i dont wanna be needy and bothersome but. augh

[gaystardykeco]

not ready to go back to work tomorrow but luckily im so not ready that my brain isn't letting it fully process and so im just kind of numb except for little moments when the panic breaks through again

#feeling more and more like a robot and less and less like a person the emptier my life gets #the future is so empty like its just work and isolation forever #i have one thing left at the end of this week and then after that its just work and family and alone #and i think numbing out completely is really the only way ill be able to cope at all #i didnt used to really be able to do that but maybe now im to the point where i just have to so its become an option #idk i also might just be lying to myself and be about to get hit really hard with how bad this all is tomorrow #job interview friday. but plausibly i dont think i can take the job even if i get it bc i just dont think i can move to nyc #i just feel like ive hit a dead end #like i was a side character in someone elses story and that person has moved on so im just like floating in stasis #bc my part of the story is over i wrote myself out of their lives so i don't really exist anymore #idk my brain is telling me all these things that i know are silly but feel so true and i just am tired and empty #sorry to be dramatic and complain again just dreading work so bad #i just dont see any path forward thats not this forever loop like i cant make or have real connections with other ppl #and thats whats supposed to make a life real and worth living #but ive never had the capacity to connect right and ive never had passion for anything and ive never been able to really love and be loved #and i dont know how to fix any of it bc honestly i dont think any of its fixable #ill always be an emotionally harmful drain on anyone i think i love and ill always be left when they realize that #and then ive just hurt another person and i dont want to be a person that just hurts people so i cant be around people anymore #but its so empty and its so lonely and i hate myself so fucking much #anyway. i sound like a pathetic whiny teenager lmao sorry i know how stupid it all is i promise

[joelletwo]

umineko is r07 begging his audience come play toys with meeeeeee ill make it fun if u make it fun and in this way me and him are the same

#UMI 🤝 ORV FORCED CONSCRIPTION OF THE READER BUT WITH SO SO SO SO SO MUCH. GOOD HOSTING ETIQUETTE..... CARE #<- not the same thought just thinking abt it #AND THEN MUCH OF HIS AUDIENCE REFUSED TO PLAY TOYS WITH HIM. crying peepaw made 8 episodes for his grandkids and #im the only one who showed up <- fucking lying. hotarubi is the real thing this is true about

[likeperfectrhymes]

funniest time possible to be a swiftie and a 1975 fan

#listen sorry but i hope its real i think it would be fun #chaotic? yes! but its so funny seeing everyones reaction to this #for the record! im p sure theyre not a thing #but i’d be lying if i said i didnt hope it turns out to be true lmao #my post

[harrowharkwife]

tbh i feel like we're all maybe forgetting that 6A was kind of destined to be a little bit boring or slow-paced from the get-go because of how 5B ended so *perfectly* with everything tied up in a neat little bow. i mean 5x18 was literally called "starting over," and this is a show that (for better or for worse, this specific post is not pro-911s-pacing or anti-911s-pacing but a secret third thing, confused-and-trying-to-make-sense-of 911s-pacing) routinely and consistently takes right around ~10 episodes to cash in on big narrative plot points. not situational or episode specific or more technical plot points, like madney going from unsuccessful house hunting to finding a place within 2 episodes, or buck agreeing to be a sperm donor inside of 1 episode- those are typically resolved pretty quickly, within an episode or two. the show scaffolds these more-quickly-resolved plot points together into larger, more character driven arcs that typically always take around ten episodes for the full emotional fallout and significance to play out. 911 has always been a show where what happens matters a hell of a lot less to the story than how the characters feel about what happens, so because this is such a character driven show, inside of those ten set-up, pawns-on-the-chessboard episodes, it can be pretty difficult at times to figure out what they're angling at, or where they're planning on going (buck! where the hell are you going!), or how any of the plots are going to coalesce into something useful, profound, and cohesive. typically, the B season ends with at least a *couple* of loose threads that carry over into the arc-resolution-conclusion phase in the following A season, giving us an A season that's like 70% setup for new arcs and 30% wrapup of old arcs- but 5B ended on a true blank slate, so almost *everything* in 6A (with the exception of the conclusion to hen's super-drawn-out-but-very-realistically-paced med school arc) has been... scaffolding from the ground up.

and scaffolding looks pretty unimpressive and odd and boring on its own, like a big pile of ugly junk getting in the way of everything, but put it alongside the Sistine chapel ceiling it was built to accomplish, and suddenly it seems a little more worthwhile.

#this is just some food for thought! I've felt that 6a was good but kinda boring at times #thinking about how much of a blank slate starting over gave us was rather illuminating #911 #911 meta #again! this is just me making sense of things it's not me trying to throw stones in any particular direction or make any kind of assertion #this is just my hunch #here's hoping 6B delivers and i have a feeling it will!!! #6A being 9 episodes really just feels like edging lmfao nyfxtnrnsbtd like cutting us off right when things are about to get crazy #which makes me think 6x10 is like. A Big Pivot Episode that couldn't hang on its own for 4 months with no followup #bucks leg injury -> tsunami -> lawsuit -> rejoining the 118 was like 7 or 8 episodes #eddies panic attacks -> ana breakup -> quitting the 118 -> therapy -> breakdown arc was like 11 or 12 eps #(also can we talk about how that arc started with him lying to buck about his mental health and ended with buck helping him with it) #there's more examples but im tired and need to go make dinner so. anyway #a 9 episode A-half coming on the heels of a wrapping-everything-up B finale #just kind of left them with. very minimal runway in which they could pull off any real satisfying conclusions to narrative arcs #while staying true to this 10-episode rhythm they seem to have settled on! #again: for better or for worse! like it or not this show is consistent in *how* it is written. when it comes to like. methodology

[candydos]

i am genuinely so unmedicated (babygirl)

#vent #long one in the tags below #had a series of breakdowns over the past 4 days.. lowkey struggling with delusions and hearing things that aren't true/real #and straight up dissociating to the point where i dissociate when i drive (it gets dangerous when i can't See cars but i know they're There) #was freaking out the other week because i kept hearing a sweeping sound but no one is sweeping but it's so loud in my hear #and like someone's whispering while i practice guitar at night or i feel paranoid #i had to step out of class the other day for 1h+ because i was having some episode #i wake up and i cry but i don't know why or what for #i think everyone's lying to me.. i know we're all friends but everyone is lying to me #i feel like an imposter in someone else's life.. and i'm unable to live up to the standards required #i've been physically sick for the past month (cough and colds) #i'm perpetually tired.. i've started to have more violent thoughts and it scares me #oh sometimes my brain forgets how to read.. #it's all quite terrifying i don't know how to act normally when life is frightening to live #i'm losing touch with everything i once enjoyed.. drawing and making music are harder for me now and i miss that feeling #im sorry i'm quite out of it.. #i have a report due in an hour.. i will go finish that #I am not happy with who I am. i don’t know who that’s supposed to be anymore

[avephelis]

i KNEW pink would be a great team i SAID THAT when i saw that announcement REDDIT DOUBTED ME!! THEY SAID THEY WEREN'T GOOD ENOUGH!! THEY SAID THEY WEREN'T FAMILIAR ENOUGH WITH EACH OTHER!! well i WATCHED those goldenduo vids from back in the day i SAW that old ass oli + tommy practice vod and i KNEW they could BREAK THE CAPTAIN'S CURSE!!!

#teams catering specifically to me win its real and true im not lying #mcc #THEY DOUBTED BUT LOOK WHERE WE ARE NOW