#this isn’t a diss against mental disorders just against people who use it as an excuse to act shitty

[sylargrimm]

I think a lot of people who analyze Technoblade tend to forget that he canonically suffers from what is basically paranoid schizophrenia. Voices belittling him, telling him to do bad things, telling him things that didn’t really happen(hallucinatons). These are real issues for the character that explains so much of his mindset and struggles.

Whether it’s a mystical version or an actual disorder is unsure, but he still has it. It’s a miracle he’s as functional as he is in a world where there isn’t really any kind of medical help for that sort of thing.

No I’m not trying to excuse him, but it is still something to really be considered.

It’s sad and he shouldn’t be treated like a full on villain because it’s not all his fault. He didn’t choose to be this way(ignore the non-canon convo Technoblade has about whether or not he will choose to be a villain for the sake of story) It’s not like Schlatt or Dream who make choices to be evil of their own free will.

As with all mental illnesses, some days it’s easier to fight against it than others. And there are things that seem to naturally calm the voices. Philza, Carl, farming potatoes, etc.

Sure he could “fight” it and not give into the bloodlust, but it’s not easy to do that when you’ve got so called friends calling you up wanting to use you as a weapon. Everyone was putting these things before him when they started the revolution, causing him to spiral. No I’m not saying Willbur and Tommy are all to blame, but they certainly had a hand it. They should’ve left Techno alone where he was- somewhat at peace with the voices.

He was honest with them when he told them his plans and Willbur, in his own deteriorating mental state, egged it on. He practically made Tommy and Techno fight in the pit. He became one of the voices. Still, Techno thought of them as his allies. People who weren’t the voices. People who didn’t feel like they were constantly mocking him and telling his secrets to others. And he wanted to free them from their tyranny just as he was free. Then they just go and start a new government right in front of him. The voices go wild. How could they do this? How could they betray you? It’s a madhouse in his head. His strength to fight the bloodlust is utterly shattered.

I wouldn’t be surprised if Techno actually just straight up blacked out. Because afterwords he just walks away and keeps walking. He had no idea how far he walked. Everything was a blur. He builds a new safe place. He finds peace again. He can’t hurt anyone else if there’s no one around. And then, just when the voices start to become just a distant hum and his mind is starting to clear and he’s himself again, the butcher army shows up and destroys it. They don’t even give him a fair trial. They go out after him with the full intention fo killing him. (Not so much Tubbo, but the others that were using Tubbo as a puppet.)

Techno getting charged with War Crimes is the same stupid thing governments do nowadays to cover up the people they mentall broke down and turned into weapons. They used him and when he did exactly what he said he would do for them, they branded him a war criminal. He’s a scapegoat. Tubbo was just as much a part of the revolution as Tommy and the others. Yet he gets to be president.(not dissing Tubbo. Love that kid) but it was government propaganda to blame everything on Techno. Yes he made it easy by spawning his withers to attack Tommy. He was hurt and betrayed and the voices overwhelmed him. But everyone took that opportunity to blame Techno with all the brutality when Tubbo and Tommy where just as much apart of it.

Should Technoblade have blown up the city on revenge alone? No. It was an overdone response. But honestly, how else do you keep them from rebuilding? He already blew it up a little before. Now it’s time to make sure it never comes back for good. In his mind he’s freeing them. He’s doing good for them. It’s twisted, but it’s his perseption.

No Technoblade is not a hero. But he’s not a Villain either. If you have to label people I would actually say he’s an Anti-hero. He has a moral compass he follows and he thinks he’s doing good, but he also believes the ends justify the means. He’s such a brillaint complex character and I hope he never dies.

Ever watch any anime? He’s that side character that is always 100% cooler and more powerful than everyone else. The one you wish could be the main character.

Well, now he can be.

#he is the Sesshomaru of DreamSMP and you cannot change my mind #watch more anime #his character will make way more sense #technoblade #dream smp #minecraft #sylargrimm #I should be asleep #not overanalyzing a minecraft roleplay #but I miss Mianite

[sanderssidesfanfiction]

We’ll Carry On - Chapter Thirty Two

We’ll Carry On Tag

General Content Warnings: Sympathetic Deceit Sanders, Substance Abuse, Abandonment, Minor Character Death, Transphobia, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Dissociation, Bullying, Homophobia

July 30th, 2010

Roman looked at the scene in front of him with awe. The sun was beating down, but there were people with colorful umbrellas and blankets everywhere. Sand as far as the eye could see to his left and right, and directly in front of him, was a giant ocean. “This is cool!” he exclaimed.

“This is the beach,” his mom said. “Let’s figure out a place to go sit down and then you can play in the waves or collect shells, or build sandcastles to your heart’s content.”

Roman’s jaw dropped open. “And we get to be here all day?!” he asked with pure excitement in his voice.

“If that’s what you want, my little knight,” his mom said, smiling.

Roman nodded. He couldn’t believe it. The beach looked so magical!

August 4th, 2019

Roman was having the time of his life. Their whole family had gone to the beach for a vacation, and he was currently swimming at the edges of the ocean with Logan, who was floating on a cheap boogie board. “You really like riding the waves, huh?” he teased Logan.

Logan rolled his eyes. “It’s nice to float rather than tread water, and if I get to ride a wave to the shore, it’s just that much more fun.”

Roman turned to look at the shore. Virgil and Patton were building sandcastles, and Dee was drawing letters in the sand. They had taken the weekend off, and while it had only been two days, this had been some of the most fun Roman had the whole summer. Vanellope was being pet-sat by one of Logan’s friends in the neighborhood, so they really had nothing to worry about for these two days except what they wanted to do next.

A huge wave took Roman by surprise, and he and Logan were both tossed toward the shore. Roman rolled unceremoniously right up to Patton and Virgil, laughing his head off. Logan gently stood up with a smirk. “Not gonna diss my boogie board now, are you?” Logan asked. “It kept me from eating saltwater.”

Roman spat out what saltwater had made it to his mouth and he stood up, jabbing a finger in Logan’s chest, just above his sports bra. Roman was quickly proving that he grew faster than Logan, and would probably be the taller of the both of them. Already, Roman was only an inch shorter than his older brother. “I will always diss your boogie board. It’s a boogie board.”

“That doesn’t even explain what you have against it!” Logan exclaimed.

“It’s made for kids, Logan,” Roman said.

“So are cartoons, are you going to make fun of Dad for watching them?” Logan challenged.

Roman huffed. “No. But you still look like a dork.”

“He always looks like a dork!” Dee exclaimed, just a little too loud to be a normal voice.

Everyone turned to Dee in shock. He frowned. “What?” he asked, still using his voice over his hands.

“You’re speaking,” Logan said.

“Without being sarcastic!” Roman added.

Dee frowned and shrugged. “I can do it. It’s just harder than signing, so I usually don’t. But you guys weren’t paying attention to me waving, so I decided to talk.”

“Your voice sounds kinda flat,” Virgil said.

“I know,” Dee said, rolling his eyes. “One of the reasons I don’t like talking. Because I can’t use tone right. I can barely hear it unless you’re being sarcastic. That’s the only tone I can use and recognize.”

“But...but you can talk and it’s in full sentences! That’s...that’s like, really cool!” Patton exclaimed.

Dee frowned. “You guys did it when you were my age.”

“We didn’t sign almost exclusively until we were six and a half,” Roman pointed out.

“I’m still gonna sign most of the time,” Dee said. “‘Specially at school, ‘cause if I talk there the principal will take away my translator. But yeah. I can talk.”

Logan nodded and gave Dee a thumbs-up. “I resent you calling me a dork,” he said.

“I resent you implying that you’re anything but a dork,” Dee said, voice deadpan and without missing a beat.

Logan’s jaw dropped and Roman howled with laughter. Dee had a huge grin on his face, and fist-bumped Virgil when Virgil offered his fist out. Patton was giggling and Logan just stood there, shell-shocked. When he finally returned to himself, he said, “Well played, Dee. Well played.”

Dee signed, “Thank you,” and promptly went back to writing letters in the sand, and Roman recognized some very basic words, like “the” and “and” and a few nouns like “dog” and “cat” and one even went so far as to say “cookie.” Roman rolled his eyes at that. No doubt Patton had taught Dee that one.

Roman walked back to the edge of the water, wading in until he was about chest deep, and just let the water wash around him. Logan came up next to him and sighed. “Do you ever feel lonely?” he asked.

“What do you mean?” Roman glanced at Logan.

“I mean, Patton, Virgil, and Dee are about the same ages. Patton and Virgil are twins, and Dee is only two years younger. They could have been born into the same family. But between you and Patton and Virgil, there’s a five-year gap. And there’s an eight-year gap between me and the twins. I’m a whole decade older than Dee. Sometimes it just feels lonely, being the only one who’s close to where I am mentally, you know, developmentally. You’re the one who’s closest, and you’re just hitting puberty.” Logan shook his head and sighed again. “I don’t have anyone in this family who’s my age, who understands what I’ve been through. I’m the trail-blazer of our generation of the family. And it just feels...”

“Lonely,” Roman filled in, nodding. “I understand a little. You’ve already been thirteen, so you can help a little with some of what I’m dealing with, and we’re going through the male parts of puberty almost at the same time. But there is something about that three-year difference that feels like an invisible wall is put up. And with the twins and Dee, it’s almost like a physical wall. I definitely can tell it’s always there, though.”

“Yeah,” Logan sighed. “It’s less with you, but I still feel a certain degree of separation.”

“Yeah,” Roman agreed. “I don’t like it.”

Logan looked over and nudged him. “Eh. It’s not the end of the world, and we both feel the loneliness, so at least we can be alone together.”

Roman blinked. “That’s a song reference, isn’t it?”

“Fall Out Boy,” Logan confirmed with a nod. “Twenty thirteen. Save Rock and Roll. Good album.”

“You’re such a dork,” Roman laughed, shaking his head and turning to face the waves. As one crested and Roman jumped while Logan floated with his infuriating boogie board, he sobered a little. “But in all seriousness, I’m glad to have you as my brother.”

“Same here, Roman,” Logan said. “Same here.”

When they were done with the beach itself, they wandered the boardwalk. There were plenty of arcades to look through, and quite a few restaurants to try. Roman went for the infamous fries of the area, while Logan elected to try a piece of huge pizza. Patton got chocolate ice cream, Virgil got orange sherbert, and Dee tried his very first corn dog, and proceeded to eat the entire thing in the span of ten minutes.

There was a small amusement park area full of rides, and the younger boys were immediately looking around at it in wonder the second Dad and Ami said they could spend some time inside. Roman and Logan hung together, less interested in the carousel and the bumper cars than the others. “A haunted house,” Roman pointed out.

“Not open until five,” Logan replied, pointing at the sign hanging above the entrance to the line.

“Those swing things,” Roman offered, pointing at the giant swing that acted like a carousel.

Logan shrugged. “Those can be entertaining, but we both just ate.”

“I guess that means the Tilt-a-Whirl is out of the question,” Roman said with a grin.

“Completely,” Logan said.

“The Viking boat?” Roman asked, pointing at the swing in question.

Logan paled. “Those have a fifty-fifty chance of sending you completely upside-down, and I’d rather not find out that I’d be doing loop-de-loops by sitting in the ride.”

The swing picked up speed and Roman and Logan watched as the swing reached its peak height, before flipping completely upside-down. “Okay, maybe not,” Roman said, voice strained.

“Definitely not,” Logan agreed.

Roman looked around. “There’s not a lot of rides designed for older kids and adults,” he observed.

“Amusement parks rarely pander to adults, which is a shame, if you ask me,” Logan said, pulling at the drawstrings on his board shorts. “The bigger ones have rides that adults can enjoy, but smaller ones, especially at beaches like this, pander more towards children.”

Roman made an unamused sound in the back of his throat. Patton and Virgil started yelling and headed towards a small ferris wheel. Roman and Logan trailed behind Dad and Ami. “I just want to ride something that’s made more for adults,” he sighed.

Logan looked around and pointed to something a little to the left of the ferris wheel. “Would that be something you like?”

Roman looked at the ride. It looked like a Ferris wheel, except the seats weren’t enclosed, and there was a safety bar holding you in your seat, but that was it. The whole thing was tilted at an angle, also unlike the Ferris wheel. And it moved fast, both forwards and backwards, Roman realized, as it slowed down before spinning in reverse. “Could be fun,” he allowed.

Logan offered him a smile and dragged him over to the ride, calling to Dad and Ami that they were going to check it out.

The line was almost nonexistent, and they got to sit down almost immediately after the ride let the other people off. One by one, people got in the cars, and one by one, the ride moved them further and further up, until they were heading down the other side of the ride. Once every car was taken, as more people started forming a line once they saw the ride open, they started it up with a jerk and Roman laughed nervously.

Quickly, they picked up speed and went in circles, going forwards and then backwards as they got halfway around the wheel. Roman laughed as the wind swept at his face and the people waiting got bigger and smaller at near ridiculous speeds. Logan was laughing next to him, right until they stopped at the top of the wheel, and then started swinging in the reverse direction at the same fast speed.

The ride took maybe two minutes, but it left Roman and Logan breathless as they laughed and jumped out of the car when they were at the bottom and the technician undid the safety bar.

As they walked out of the ride and to the Ferris wheel, Dad waved. “Have fun?” he asked.

“Yeah!” Roman exclaimed.

“We could hear you guys laughing from here,” Ami chuckled. “It must have been a good ride.”

“It was fun,” Logan said. “The wind rushing through our hair and the quick change in scenery was amusing.”

Roman rolled his eyes. “You talk like a college student’s essay sometimes, you know that?” he asked.

Logan shrugged noncommittally. “Whatever,” he said.

They turned to look at the Ferris wheel just in time to see Virgil, Patton, and Dee wave at them. Roman waved back and Logan just laughed. They watched the Ferris wheel go around twice more before Patton, Virgil, and Dee were let out of the car and they bounded over. “We saw you guys on the really fast one over there!” Patton exclaimed, pointing. “Was it fun?”

“Yeah,” Logan said. “But probably not a good idea for you guys yet.”

“Yeah, no, we were just wondering if you liked it,” Virgil said. “We didn’t want to get on it ourselves.”

Dee signed, “Speak for yourself.”

“You were scared when they got on and you know it!” Patton exclaimed. “You’re the one who asked if they’d be okay!”

“Boys, play nice,” Ami reminded them. “Do you want to play in the arcade for a while?”

“Sure,” they all said.

Roman and Logan immediately gravitated towards the skee-ball games while Patton and Virgil played more with the lower-stakes games that still gave out toys and tickets. Dee played the crane games and quickly figured out he was surprisingly adept at it. He won all of the others small stuffed toys, and got one for himself as well.

Logan and Roman pooled their tickets together to get some of the larger prizes, a lava lamp for Roman and a teddy bear for Logan, which caused him to blush when questioned and mumble that he had won a bear exactly like this one at another arcade when he was younger, but his ex-father had made him get rid of it when he turned twelve.

Patton and Virgil got smaller toys, little wind-up animals and finger traps and a few other things that amused them to no end. When they got back to their hotel room, and packed everything up for the ride back home, Roman was already yawning. The second they were in the sun-warmed van on their way home, he was fast asleep, a small smile still on his face at the memory of the whole day.

#we'll carry on #sanders sides fanfiction #roman sanders #logan sanders #deceit sanders #our creations #danger gays

[succorcreek]

What is a Strong Women???? GOT knows http://bit.ly/2UX7EzH Well, I'm not a woman. But, I am a feminist and functioned in a heavy face time role with women as a clinical therapist for 35 years. Now, retired, I tend to write about that lots, because: 1. I don't see the plight of women having improved much in that time. In fact, there's an incredible campaign to disse women, patronize them, joke about them. It does come in many forms, that may surprise us all: It shows up still in job pay: women are forced to handle two jobs or suffer in lifestyle, while men relish their entitlements It shows up in our schools and groups, in kids athletics where boys hear the downing of women by the phrase, "Ok, lets get going Girls, or are you soccer players". It shows up when we see what a president does to women (how he directs his wife's thinking and frequently calls women fat, slobs, insane, weak, mental, losers (and plays into our own acceptance of these words as we have no reaction or shock). Indeed, this leads to the acceptance that the PLACE and VOICE of women are discounted, ignored, and often laughed at. Do you sit back and accept that "norm" or see those reactions as "normal" and tend to ignore them? If you do, and you ignore one neighbor, co worker, or EVEN a Feminist dissing comment by a female Fox reporter, then you've allowed it all! (isn't that shocking, women selling out against women**). If you allow it once, yes, once, without confronting and standing, then you've allowed, and then promoted it, because: Your Silence Speaks UP for Your Acceptance of The Idea or Joke Bullies. Your silence makes you one... 10 powerful women moments in Game of Thrones: Women Not Having Balls, but Soul...Not rampant greedy aggression, but powerful even hidden forces..... : https://abcn.ws/2Paoe9Q Carl Jung, great psychoanalyst, and bullied by Sigmund Freud to the point of insanity and suicide, reclaimed his life. He then said that only the Feminine Energy and Very Roles of Women could save a society given to rampant male energy of destruction, entitlement, and personal greed. If he lived today, he would have more social, world and environmental information and would also now pair this with: The plight of women is a metaphor for ALL of society. As women go, so go all other matters. And, only the energy and roles of women can save society and even the world: Women would have equal leadership in all social, government, and business roles.....and bring forward their forces and most importantly, SOULS, and 1. lead people away from the culture of violence, punishment of social outcasts with mass shootings (or taking out anger on innocent adult or school children). 2. find ways to not just stop global warming, but promote healthy environments and expanding greens: every person deserves they're vacations in Nature, and healing cities (there's been several articles out this month on pollution hindering child development, causing teen psychosis due to poor brain development, leading to much more.....whether that is Denver or Mongolia). It's this energy of women that is connected with: The Humanity of All The essential need to protect Mother Earth Are men totally off track? People tell me that every day. But, I think it's that men reject the inside feminine part. It's not a part that acts feminine, it's this mysterious Goddess within role. It's like Yin and Yang: without both parts, each human is just a Half person. There are vast books on this, including older books often ignored now, by Robert Bly. These are short books, an easy read....get one and then pass it on to a male you know..... Robert Bly was a progenitor of the US Men's movement, which eventually became laughed down by rampant male force and joking men. 3. How we function together is changed by the force of women. It becomes cooperation, understanding, and mutual solutions. For instance: a. this force would look not at a Paternalistic, Military Jet, aggression approach of attacking the Palestinians and upping aggression by moving an embassy to Jerusalem: it would look at the plights and needs of humanity....... each person deserves to live, be healthy, AND THRIVE in PEACE. Wow, as I follow world news daily from many resources.....the world is at great tension due to rampant male aggression. In fact, the last 10 years proves that male energy alone doesn't develop, evolve, mature: we've seen some of the worst world genocides in history this decade. So, this becomes a new paradigm for local and distant problems: 1. why are Africans in revolt today? If you follow African news, this is very pan-African.....there are wide spread protests, revolts, mass shootings, and bombings TODAY from top to bottom and East to West Africa! (there are two groups, as I see it, there are the disenfranchised always trying to get to a place to live, but then there are the psychopaths and angry PTSD victims that are ok with the killing of others because they have: psychopaths: have no sense of humanity, remorse, or compassion in their brains the PTSD Victims: have sold out to violence and anger, and the portion of their brain that produces senses of compassion, understanding, remorse, and fairness has been inhibited by their PTSD brain disorder 2. What is the plight in Guatemala that is causing the flood of refugees? It is murder, lack of jobs, lack of food...... Donald Trump cuts off aid of food to Guatemala and Honduras hoping that will punish them and stop the flow. But, the female force asks What is the problem? Then, what answers may fit? 3. Male energy can be this impulsive, vindictive and revengeful role. It's the elephant that never forgets a slight.....while the female force is completely different. The male force is like: a. Donald Trump in teen-age punishment manner is going to send refugees to Sanctuary Cities: punishing American cities will be a first event for a President, who's role is actually supposed to be one of the "shepherd" to cities. b. Trump moves on years of snubs from gays: uses a method from our playbook, listed at http://bit.ly/2VFEIKe to Divide and Conquer all via different methods, like Start Small and then keep under attach. (See the above for male methods of war). This comes from his pandering to South East States far right fundamentalist Christians of how to Divide and Conquer. This is also the methods of the gigantic Koch Brother's foundation of getting legislation passed. Trump moves against gays this week in Transgender Military Restrictions, the first steps in a "campaign" to come, in order for him to shore up votes from that conservative religious sector. Well, I could go and and need to mostly stop here......you know I can keep going on, typing, adding...... **But, I'd like to address one other matter with Strong Women. THE CURRENT CULTURE EITHER DISSES WOMEN OR PROMOTES WOMEN THAT ACT LIKE THE PSYCHOPATHIC MEN. That is, as a movie recently said, "Woman, you got one big set of balls". When women don't own their power, they can be conned into become this male energy only force. Then, they are decisive, angry, and directive persons, who just like many men these days, is soul-less......a vampire among vampires. I see this lots in Idaho where a women with full balanced male and female forces is not accepted. But, women who act aggressively and with rampant force, get things down, steam rollering all: men and women our legislation, agencies nature, forests, reserves, city parks rights of others needs of the marginalized: blacks, Hispanics, all races, LGTBQ, children, and hey....me, the elderly Muslims, atheists, agnostics, and more Women with Soul and Power, or Women with Balls? Game of Thrones knows: both good and bad female roles are demonstrated. Those with powerful feminine force accomplish, those with big balls male narcissist force....eventually succumb. Now being into rap, I still follow the trends of what they talk about......here, an example of the rights of all, including the forgotten Indigenous: divine feminine, equal rights, feminist, native americans and world indigenous http://bit.ly/2PaoeGS

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Thoughts about Ruler: Master of the Mask, Part 11

Me last night: *over the moon because of songsong couple* *watches secret forest to avoid impending disappointment with rmotm* *browses instagram* *sees _____* *SCREAMS AHHHHHHH I AM WATCHING*

I’m on breakfast duty today, so this entry is early. Hehe.

Raw version of my feelings/thoughts while watching--

Episode 33:

Let me just say how sensual (This sounds better than hot, yes?) Mae Chang appears to be. I love how she can fluidly she could shift from one role to another. (Yes Deputy Park, your googly heart eyes got it right.)

(Insert head shaking because Hwa Goon just dug her own grave. I'll return to their twisted family dynamics later.)

(Insert screaming because MAE CHANG AND DEPUTY PARK FINALLY MET WITH THE PRINCE AND CHUNG WOONOH MY GOSH HUGS EVERYONE)

If there's one of the older characters that remained pure throughout the series, it's Bae Yoo Ram's Deputy Park. People may see him as comic relief, but not for me.

This episode is Mae Chang's episode as much as anyone else. When she saw the kids who used to work in the fields,

You know, over time, I just got tired of Hwa Goon reiterating how the real crown prince is her life. (I'll try to speak objectively about this later.) No girl. Your life shouldn't revolve in one person.

But then I was right -- there's no way Hwa Goon will live to see the end of this. As we all know, Dae Mok's twisted sense of justice stops for no one.

Dae Mok is so evil. Wow. You are a monster, indeed.

But really, I feel bad for Hwa Goon's dad. I also hate that they sidestepped his character. Psh.

When the kids finally returned to their parents, goosebumps. I'm such a sucker for family reunions. (And I have things to say about this ugh).

And that Woo Bo-Crown Prince-Chung Woon reunion. TEARS.

Healing crisis = that sounds a lot like adaptive immunity in an overdrive (This episode actually reminds me to catch up with 60-pages worth of immune system disorders).

GON </3 </3 </3 "You do not know how to cry, do you?" AWW GON. Gon stealing everyone's thunder by not holding Hwa Goon's hand.

I really appreciate Hwa Goon and Gon's untouched love line.

At this point, I'm just hoping Gon will be rehabitable (Fully, now simply out of Hwa Goon's orders.)

I like how Hwa Goon's father stood up against Dae Mok. I think that's the more dignified way to end his role.

Now Dae Mok has nothing to lose. Be afraid, people.

Ga Eun is finally speaking up (about time, writers!!). She is all for the people, and she has an inkling of Lee Sun holding hands with Pyunsoo Group. With Lee Sun fighting fire with fire, we all know this isn't going to end well.

Oh my gosh, Lee Sun. I'm going to strangle you!

It makes me sad how angry the crown prince is for feeling undeserving because of his father's crimes.

I like the exchange between Ga Eun and her nanny (Lee Sun's mom), because it gives us an insight on how much they've trusted each other through the years. I love how Ga Eun wouldn't leave her nanny and Kko Mool behind, knowing that family is the real deal at the core of all this mess. (I LOVE HER OKAY FIGHT ME)

I missed Woo Bo at the height of his mental game. I missed the happiness and optimism he brings about to the characters of the show.

People dissing Ga Eun for not mourning. Ya, are you kidding me? I think she's handling her grief well instead of being paralyzed by it. Life goes on, no matter how painful it might be. People depend on her, and she would be disrespecting them if she sabotages them just for the gratification of her feelings. But she never forgot -- even the smallest of triggers (The flowers, in this case. The fireflies, taking in reference the previous episode I missed.) brought tears in her eyes. (KSH don't stop really I like crying with you) 

AND WHEN YOO SEUNG HO APPEARED LOOKING AT THE SAME FLOWERS AND THEY SAW EACH OTHER I JUST CRIED WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME

Episode 34:

Letting myself be dragged by the feels train WEEEEE THEY HUGGED SHE SAID I LOVE YOU THEY KISSED I LOVE IT HEHEHEHEHEHEHE

I love that the Queen Dowager is back. MY CRAZY IS BACK HAHA.

They're fighting I LOVE IT HAHAHA.

Lee Sun is receiving the brunt of my hate right now (Hwa Goon is dead so hehe). For L to go head on against Kim Sun Kyung, respect dude. This role is really good for .

I MISSED KKO MOOL WHY IN THE WORLD IS SHE BACK JUST RECENTLY

I love Kko Mool, really. Her innocence, most especially. I love how simple her wants are.

MY BABIES HOLDING HANDS

MY BABIES BEING PRETTY DATING PEOPLE

I love, love, love how Ga Eun expressed her thoughts about her lover's legitimacy to be king. (I will dissect this later, I swear.) I love how she emphasized how leadership/kingship is not simply out of blood, but out of love for those we serve. That's a very democratic perspective.

SHE REMEMBERS THE CROCK/PLACENTA JAR

And he finally lets her do her thing because she has the power to do so. YES MY GIRL IS IN HAHA BYE EVERYONE.

Could I blame Lee Sun's mother for siding with him? Ahh, the parents in this story.

Oh Lee Sun. Head ache. HEAD ACHE. FUCK YOU AGAIN. WHAT DO YOU THINK ARE YOU DOING.

GOOD LORD THE DREAD ON MY BABY'S FACE

Now we know what will force the crown prince's hand.

Thank you Gon, for being the voice of reason. For being a really smart dude.

There will be a purge within Pyunsoo Group. Wow. Oh Dae Mok.

MY BABY IS SO GOOD AND SO CHARISMATIC COME ON

I'm still squealing. I shall provide a more coherent entry in a while.

#spoilers #thoughts #ruler master of the mask #ruler: master of the mask #kim so hyun #han ga eun #lee sun #yoo seung ho #kim myung soo #kim hwa goon #yoon so hee #this episode is soooooo good #i love it