#this isn't really a planned post so it may see edits as i just woke up lol

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Hanako was working to destroy the yorishiros since the beginning, we know this. Now the real question is: what was his wish originally? Because I'm positive he did not care at all whether Nene lived or died in the beginning, at least not enough to ask god for a wish about it

*shaking you by the shoulders* I DON'T KNOW!! Its the best question ever! This single panel complete shakes everything we know about Hanako, and his relationship to Tsukasa's plan, and what he's been doing this entire time

Tsukasa, the chessmaster of all of this who we would assume is playing him under the table, is confused and surprised Hanako is aware of the mechanism he's been feeding into. He assumed Hanako had to be ignorant to be going along with it. He didn't think Hanako would agree to any of this directly until certain factors. Tsukasa's been very patient and keeping himself at bay, assuming he had to do that.

So, doesn't that mean him and Tsukasa have been working together, willfully, for an unknown amount of time? Spiritually, I mean-- they never communicated-- but it would seem as if Hanako perceived what Tsukasa was doing, recognized it, and went along with it, long ago. He wasn't being tricked into destroying the yorishiro for arbitrary reasons. THIS Hanako is now cast into more suspicion than he already was:

we know this Hanako is already familiar with Urabon, already familiar with what the mysteries do, already knows the short time limit til Urabon, which was egregious enough ... Tsuchigomori is right to call this extreme, as much as the Clockkeeper calls Hakubo's measures extreme..... (and Hanako agrees with Hakubo's measures)

.....but if he knew about the wish from God, that destroying them returns the power possibly to the original God..... then he does have another motivation. And I agree: I don't think he was considering saving Yashiro until as far as Picture Perfect, yet he was agreeable to this plan from early on. I think his revelation and fear over valuing her life, as it manifests in him, is honest..... so his motivation wasn't that.

If I were to be right about Tsukasa being functionally the God, is Hanako aware of that...? Is he completely being cheeky here, happily referring to his brother's blessing on all he does....?

He's a smart boy, and he isn't ignorant of the mechanisms at play like Nene or Kou.... he could observe that Tsukasa appointed a mystery, and went from being so weak as to be dispelled by some water thrown by Yashiro, to being strong enough to defeat a mystery in their own boundary. Pretty far back, Hanako could have known what Tsukasa was doing, and played along ....

he's just.... at the very least, not a victim of anything Tsukasa's doing, at this point. He has his own agency, his own agenda.

For the record there's also no reason I can see for why he can't blip himself to Nene after Tsukasa blips her to the innermost reaches:

However, if Hanako was with Nene, she'd just harass him to help her not harm Sumire, and Hanako doesn't want to play a harsh tyrant.... sooo... Tsukasa's choice to leave her stranded alone, to force her to make her own decision, to feel trapped and helpless, is smart, and probably something Hanako understood, after a moment, as actually important....

I have no idea what he was doing playing with Tsukasa's plan.

Maybe he was simply feeling 'over it'? At around the time that woulda been dawning on him, he said he's indifferent to people living or dying, after all.....

.....so maybe he saw Tsukasa's machinations, knew the general shape of things and the ultimate boon for him, and said, "ah fuck it, lol. I've been a mystery for long enough.... if you say it's over... then, okay. Sounds interesting. I'll go along with it, and see if anyone can stop us." Maybe he was feeling frivolous. Maybe it was as simple as just having no real attachments or motivation to resist it more than a bit for show.... Hanako is amenable to being killed... if anyone meaningfully rose against him and Tsukasa, maybe he could just see it as 'time's up'. or 'ohp, that's that then, ah well, it was fun for a second' Maybe the possibility of it turning out in their favor is just, interesting enough to permit, after all these years of feeling little and caring about nothing.

I've always thought about ah, how at the start, Hanako's concept is to destroy yorishiro just to figure out who's doing the shenanigans. At that point in time, I think he's... maybe legitimate. Maybe.....

However....! Once he does know it's Tsukasa.... the original reason he was doing any of this is forfeit. He knows exactly who is responsible. He's had no reason to destroy any yorishiro after that, but he had a good cover/excuse to do it anyway, and now it seems, he appreciated that cover Tsukasa provided. If he's known it was Tsukasa from early on, and he knows the consequences, then it's been Hanako protecting Tsukasa for a long time, to not alter any of his behavior, and to continue with his front. Mutually beneficial.

Hanako makes his gesture to un-appoint Mitsuba when Tsukasa appoints him, but after he's flung out of there the once, he completely stops bothering to show any effort towards doing that (I'm sure he also just doesn't want to bother fighting Yashiro about it, on top of Tsukasa....). For a long time now I'd say Hanako's efforts as a mystery have been 'for show' and very half-hearted.

#avvy's JSHK #this isn't really a planned post so it may see edits as i just woke up lol

[notsocheezy]

A Messy Attempt at a Writeblr Intro

This is way overdue, but as my one-hundred-and-first post on the hellsite, I'll go ahead and tell you a little about me. Too much, perhaps. No matter - that's what I always do.

I'm Cassandra Erica, local girlish-shaped thing carrying she/they pronouns under each arm (despite how much more difficult it makes grocery shopping). I'm traumatized and so are mostly all of my characters, and they deserved it just as much as I did (none) but that's the cards they're dealt. By me. I swear, I tried to stop writing about childhood trauma, it just didn't work.

"So," you're wondering, "what have you written so far? What are you working on? Are you going to keep up this weird reflexive second-person perspective?" To answer back-to-front: no, many things, and not quite as many things. Here are some lists!

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RELEASED ON NOTSOCHEEZY.COM!

The Real Me (2022, Short Story)

There's something a bit off about businessman Mr. Shirley Jones. What's he hiding?

Three Takes on Death (2022, Short Story)

What might happen when we die?

Pink Bow (2022, Novella)

Who knew trying on one dress at the mall could change a person's entire life? Chris - or, uh, Kris - certainly didn't. Was it just a dress inside that box with the pink bow, or was it something more?

Plus some other things, don't worry about it.

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BRAIN CURDS

Brain Curds are lightly edited flash fiction - practically first drafts - posted daily and sometimes written with the express intention of being terrible… but, you know, in an endearing way. Here are some of the greatest hits!

Three. Two. One. (#31)

The Characters V The Author (#28)

The Frank Program #1 (#13)

Passable. #1 (#30)

Government Man #1 (#4)

The Heart Wants What It Wants (#39)

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WIP!

Anthill Theory (Short Film) Post-Production

An exploration of free will through a time loop that the protagonist doesn't know he's in.

Mercy's Ocean (Short Story) Awaiting Feedback

Alternate opening chapter for a Novel written by my high school English teacher.

Blue Rabbit (Short Story) Pre-Final

Sequel to A Covenant of Rust (see below). I keep telling myself I'm going to finally finish this one.

One Late Night Easter Morning (Short Story) First Draft

A chance encounter at a bar leads to late-night musings about humanity.

The Order of the Degenerati (Novel) Outlining

A secret society was formed after the tragedy of the holocaust to make sure it never happened again. Unfortunately, nowadays the most they can do is make YouTube videos go viral.

It Goes Up (Never Never NEVER NEVER NEVER) Complete

You will never read it.

Memories Retained (Novella?) Outlining

Ever had a dream where you were back in high school, before it all went to shit, and you decided to do something differently? Ever woke up and found out it really happened?

Dominic of the Darkness (Series?) Brainstorming/Partially Written

The antichrist is about to celebrate his sweet 666th birthday by breaking hell - that is, going to live on Earth for a week. Fan favorite for those in the know.

And MORE! THERE IS ALWAYS MORE!

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MY BOOK!(?)

Publishers don't seem super interested in collections of short stories, and I'm afraid a collection of short stories and novellas may make a literary agent's head explode, so expect to see Tales from Starved Childhoods as a self-published debut! It includes a fully rewritten new version of Everyone Has Their Price (2017); newly revised versions of Next Day Delivery (2017), The Real Me (2022), Three Takes on Death (2022) and Pink Bow (2022); and all-new stories such as:

A Covenant of Rust (2023, Novella)

A newlywed couple moves into a 1950s prefab home in early 2020, but finds more hidden beneath the surface than the floor plan could reveal. Will forgotten secrets and isolation bring them together, or tear them apart?

AND SOME OF THOSE WIPs UP THERE! THEY'RE WHY THIS ISN'T OUT YET!

Tales from Starved Childhoods is set to be the physical manifestation of my early career as a writer, so stay tuned and look for it someplace books are sold!

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If you'd like to be one of my readers or vice versa, don't hesitate to reach out! I'm always happy to have more eyes on what I'm making and I'm always happy to read something new. It helps with the burnout. I'm open to most any genre - I don't really think much about labels when coming up with ideas.

If you work for a publisher and you see something you like, send an email to [email protected]

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(Edit: there's a lot here that would take too long to explain. So I am going to attempt, and largely fail, to reign in my scatter brain. You can comment on posts in Tumblr right? If so, drop comments, questions, observations idk in the comments below. That's something bloggers say right? Also, comment on what you want to know about: typical meals and times, my students. Idk. I will do a "day in my life" Insta style "Emily in Paris" type thing eventually. Crap, even this edit is getting off track.)

Hi. Phew. I think my life might hopefully be calming down. Except school, that will always be a den of chaos, noise and exhaustion. I've accepted this. In fact it's Sat, I woke up and realized I had nothing to do. It took me WAY WAY too long to get up and out. But I did make plans like try to find a free museum, looks like they're all tomorrow, except the art museum which isn't bad but I went last week.

The first stop was a bazaar where I spent too much money, but also got a shoe organizer for my room. Also, being an elementary school teacher, and it seems like I am with how much Bea's been out, you can totally justify buying an adorable buckbeak hippogriff plushie. Then I went to a fruit stand that's two blocks from my place. It looks slightly bigger than the one a block away. I dropped my stuff off and went down the hill to grab something quick to eat. I honestly just kind of wanted a small baguette. Like literally just a hunk of bread, lunch of champions. It's 2ish now, so I think that's lunch time. Spanish have a lot of words for meat between bread, including sandwich I think. The main one I see is bocadillo, which is literally part of a baguette sliced in half with meat- I'd say typically tuna or sausage (many kinds, look like salami? I don't know that sounds wrong) the bread is coated with olive oil, and sometimes tomato. I saw my roommate make one by rubbing half a tomato on the inside of the bread. There may be some cheese, idk, still learning. It's not uncommon to have these for breakfast, I see my students with them all the time going out for recess. Breakfast here is around 10:00. So my students might wake up eat something and go to school but I honestly don't know what that's called, that meal. Maybe like a snack? Their "breakfast" is super small too. Like a bocadillo or an apple.

This pictured is a flauta, or so the sign says. It is a lot smaller than a bocadillo, made on smaller bread. This one was made with jamon iberico and was more than I should have spent and kinda needed more to it, but was really good. Not knowing what to do, I jumped on the metro and am now wandering aimlessly in port Olympic where the games were in like 1996? I should read that tour book. Anyways, hope to write a lot more here, and show some pictures.

Cheers!