#this was rly long i have more but i had to shorten it lmao

[samwilsonsupremacy]

going to a fancy restaurant with the outsiders gang headcanons ( gn reader included)

a/n: i LOVE the outsiders, & a scenario like this has been swirling around in my head ever since i first read the book!! if u like this, feel free to give any requests for more!! ( also i literally cannot spell restaurant so if i forgot to autocorrect it once thats my bad LMAO )

this lowkey also turned out to be super long so sorry lol

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it had been a long day for everyone.

soda & steve were just comin’ home from the dx, darry came home from work, dally had been at buck’s and two-bit, johnny, pony, and you were just home from school.

usually someone made dinner. usually it was you and pony, sometimes it was soda and steve (and those nights, dinner was usually burnt or raw).

but today, dally had an idea. anytime he gets a glint in those light blue eyes, you know something’s gonna happen, and everybody’s gonna have to go along with it.

and today is no different.

his lips curl up into a smirk as he takes a drag of his cigarette, and darry just raises his brows, ‘cuz he knows something’s about to happen.

“  we should go to dinner.  “

okay, not as crazy as everyone was thinking.

“  at the fanciest restaurant in town.  “

now there’s dallas winston.

it’s not like it was a crazy thought. the gang did deserve something special, more so than the chocolate cake you and pony always made.

you all looked to darry for approval, of course.

a simple nod meant it was a go !!

however, the fanciest restaurant was all the way on the other side of town.

too far to walk, even for all of you, who usually walked everywhere.

“ i can drive. “

good ol’ two-bit with his trusty (albeit nearly ALWAYS broken down) car.

and when two bit smirks, it’s arguably more terrifying than dally.

but, nevertheless, it’s decided. you’re going to the restaurant, no matter what.

so everybody hops in the car.

well, more like shoves each other in the car.

dally wanted to drive. two-bit said no way. darry beat them both to the driver’s seat, so he’s the driver.

everyone is secretly glad, because dally really sucks at driving & two-bit always jokes around and swerves and then almost hits something.

that’s pretty much why his car is always broken down.

so you’re sitting in the middle of the backseat. soda and steve are on your right side, and pony and johnny are on your left. dally’s in the passenger’s seat.

two-bit is in the trunk.

it’s one of those cars where the trunk is open to the rest of the car, so he won’t suffocate.

he originally wanted to ride on top of the car, but darry dragged him down.

darry’s a pretty good driver. despite the commotion.

dally constantly turning the radio up, soda and steve shovin’ each other against the window, two-bit shouting random words in everyone’s ear just to make them jump.

you’re pretty quiet, and so are pony and johnny. they’re smoking out the window.

darry has to pull over and do a “if y’all don’t shut your mouths soon, i will turn this car around !!!!! “

but at that point you’re so close to said restaurant that it doesn’t even matter.

anyways, as soon as you park there, it’s obvious that you’re all out of place.

like REALLY out of place.

sure, it might be kind of funny, but it feels like you’re gearin’ up to be embarrassed.

but you know who doesn’t care about being embarassed?

two-bit mathews.

so he goes in, cigarette hanging out of his mouth, charges right up to the host & asks for a table.

two-bit being two-bit, of COURSE he uses a fake british accent.

“  excuse me, sir, could you be a good lad and squeeze me in for a little table ? i have... seventy people in my party.  “

a blink from the host. a blank stare.

“ hahaha! just joking, of course. i have eight little lads who are right hungry!! “

the host’s brow furrows.

“ no.  “

well, it’s not like it was unexpected.

everyone looks to dally, ‘cause it was his idea in the first place.

“ alright. your loss. “

and then he just walks out.

now THIS is strange.

dallas winston doesn’t usually just walk away from something like that.

however, as you’re all walking to the car, he pulls you aside, that old glint in his eyes once again.

“  lookit this.  “

out of his jacket pocket comes what must be at least twenty spoons, and three plates.

“  what in the.... dally, how’d you get that ? “ you asked, because it didn’t look like he left the group at all while two-bit was horsing around.

“ don’t ask, don’t tell, half-pint. “ is all you get in response, and with a wink, dally has sprinted up to the front of the group.

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hope you enjoyed! again, feel free to request scenarios! (no nsfw, ofc) i rly love writing headcanons lmao <33

#the outsiders #ponyboy curtis #ponyboy #sodapop #sodapop curtis #darry #darry curtis #steve #steve randle #two bit mathews #keith mathews #headcanons #dally #dally winston #dallas winston #johnny cade #johnny #this was rly long i have more but i had to shorten it lmao #requests open #the outsiders headcanons

[didderd]

Hi Alex! I was wondering what the boys would do if they were trying to go out with someone who's super oblivious (or maybe just thinks that there's no possible way that someone actually has feelings for them) and they just weren't getting the hint?

*pushes up my nonexistent glasses* heheh *starts clacking away at keyboard*

(gonna kinda mimic @/wishing-stones formatting style wif these sorta asks n harness their good writing energy)

(these got... super long, so under th read more 't goes. (fkn. Tou's and Snaps' take up my whole screen each. i have no self control lmao.) also jus a heads up. Snaps' mentions ~sexual relations~ lol)

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Tic is subtle and has a hard time being straightforward. He'd built up the courage to tell them several times, over several months. Each time, pushing himself to get less subtle about it.

The first few were mixed into bad jokes. "knock knock" "who's there" "a sphinx" "a sphinx who" "a sphinx I like you". Every time, they laughed and blushed, but then assumed it was just a joke.

The last couple of times weren't even mixed into jokes, yet they still assumed he was just messing around.

This time he goes all out. He brings them somewhere beautiful, maybe under a starry sky, and after watching the stars for a bit, he grabs their hands and tells them he loves them. And when they still don't believe him, he brings them close. Inches from a kiss, and tells them he's 100% serious. He shuts them up by closing the gap before they can deny it again.

Tac has been very obviously flirting with this person for about a month, but he guesses he flirts with a lot of ppl, so it's not too farfetched to think he's just like that, so he steps up his game.

He gets more romantic with it. He gets them flowers and asks them out. (He'd asked them out a few times before, but they thought he was just being his usual flirty self. Which wasn't entirely wrong, but doesn't mean he wasn't serious.)

When they think he's just messing around again, he pulls them in with a hand on the small of their back. He assures them that he's 100% serious, and brings them into a deep kiss.

Tou is already very physically affectionate with his friends. Anything they'll allow. Holding hands, kissing their forehead/cheek, friendship cuddles. But with his best friend/crush, he always lingers longer than with the others.

He's absolutely ecstatic that they like the physical affection, but he wants more. He kisses their cheek often, and wishes he were kissing just an inch or two over, but they just don't see what his constant physical affection and lingering touches mean, so he gets more verbally affectionate.

Tbh, his verbal affection was already strong too, so this doesn't do a lot either, but he'd thought if he's now constantly calling them cute, beautiful/handsome, stunning, etc, they'd get the hint.

One day he leans into them, grabs their hand, and calls them the most attractive person he's ever met. He thinks surely they'll have to get the hint now, but they still think he's just being nice.

He gets a little frustrated and picks them up, tossing them over his shoulder, and ports into his room. (He rarely ports outside of battle training.) He sits them on his bed and sits next to them, grabbing their hand and leaning in a lot closer this time.

He kisses their hand, not breaking eye contact for a moment. He tells them he loves them, and that he's not just being friendly, and once they finally get it, he brings them into his lap for cuddles.

Snaps honestly takes a very long time himself to realize he actually wants to be with this person rather than just fuck them. Anyone else would have realized he has feelings for them far before he did.

They've been friends with benefits for months before he realizes it (with some help from his boss).

Once he's done having a crisis about having emotions he was sure didn't exist in him, he goes straight to their apartment and tests the waters.

He makes them a nice breakfast before they get up (tics not bothering him this time, as he's too focused on making it good for them). He holds their hand while they watch TV instead of holding their thigh/waist. He kisses their hand before they leave for work, and sneaks in the pet name "honey" rather than the usual "bunny" as he sees them out.

All of this, they only seemed mildly suspicious of, or flushed at and waved it off, so he gathers that he has to go further with it.

When they get back, he greets them with flowers at the door, dressed well, in a nice button-up and some dress pants. (Tho, he's still wearing his fingerless gloves.)

He leads them to the table, where he'd set up a candle lit dinner. (Food delivered from one of their favorite places, bc he wasn't confident he wouldn't mess up a fancy dinner.)

When they assume he's just buttering them up to ask if they can do something new in bed, he chuckles and assures them this isn't about sex anymore (tho he wouldn't mind that after dinner). His eye light appears, and he leans in, grabbing their hands, and he tells them he wants to be more with them, that he thinks he loves them.

#jbkfgjnkgj 'm sorry i rly couldn't find a way to shorten tou n snaps' any more. they'r so long idk what happened lmao #n tou was supposed to be th one i have the most trouble with!! #rly i had the most trouble with snaps. but ig more trouble = more overthinking = longer portion kjdfnkj #tac's is the only one that's relatively short #idk how wishing stones keeps their answers to these so brief /pos #'s so hard to not jus let everything in my brain spill out into these things #i can't read over all this again 's too much. so i'll jus go ahead n post it hhh #tic sans #tourette's sans #tac sans #fell tourette's sans #tou sans #swap tourette's sans #snaps sans #killer tourette's sans #tourette's sanses #undertale #undertale au #didderd ocs #didderd writes #didderd asks #mushroomchildwithaknife #above read more: silly goofy. doesn't bother with capital letters and full words #under read more: proper. pristine. like u'd pulled sections out of a legit fic or book

[orcelito]

Ok but also while ladue starts on a softer note than it will get later in the fic I remembered that scene I put in literal chapter one which is an ongoing thing and now I'm kinda vibrating to write it

#speculation nation #ladue shit #me reading akeshu fanfic hoping to ignite the urge to write discacc again #accidentally ignites the urge to write chapter 2 of ladue #IT'S BEEN SO LONG that there have got to b some ppl who dont know what 'ladue' is lmao #for the sake of clarity if u didnt infer my references to the only other fic ive posted: libero a due. #shortened to ladue bc i love my strange short ways to refer to my fic #and yes i could say LAD but i like ladue better. that's a city apparently. xoxoxo to the city ive never been to #anyways i Did mention at the end of the last discacc chapter the possibility of me working on ladue next #and Yes i wanted to have a discacc update ready for xmas but like #this is My City. and if it's stressing me out to write the damn chapter maybe i shouldnt write the damn chapter! #the brain doesnt wanna write what it doesnt wanna write so i just gotta give it fuel and hope for the best #i think im gonna map out the ladue chapter. i had the opening scene and the closing scene in mind. middle is a vague Eh #lol at me going from april 8k chapter to whatever the fuck my typical chapter lengths are these days #i should try to not put it at over 10k words. but we'll see. #that kaewas art rly ignited the ladue spark again but i think this urge for Angst is igniting it even more #& i can look back on that art fondly. in accompaniment. violinist goro my beloved ❤

[wingfics]

HELLO !!! i am here and i wanted to know more about ff7r and crisis core !!! i have so many questions and they may be dumb but. i don't care. are they the same thing? are they different? when do sephiroth and genesis and angeal come in!!! do you have any headcanons or other details about them (or the game/games!!!) that you can share!!! i like hearing you talk about all these things and i like learning!!! -heavenshipped 💗

AAAAAAH LIV @heavenshipped YOU'VE ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD BUT IN A REALLY GOOD WAY!!! ok this uh. despite my best efforts is gonna get Really Long. i'm gonna probs put hcs in a separate post but even then i just KNOOOW this will b long despite that <3 I Just Have A Lot Of Thoughts And Love In Me Alright

SO!! some handy terms and abbreviations to know before we set off on backstory!

squeenix/squenix/squinx: square enix, the game developers

ff7: final fantasy 7! like last year or smth, squeenix put out the first part of the remake, aka ff7r :D the protag of the game is cloud and the primary antagonist is seph after he loses his mind thanks to an alien called jenova :/ angeal and gen r both canonically dead in this game, but i’m hoping for flashbacks ft them in the second part!

cc: crisis core, a prequel for ff7 that's about zack's time as a soldier! zack and cloud were friends and we get to see that in this game, along with that sweet sweet geal/seph/gen content, so it holds a special place in my heart for that reason :') side note: this game also makes me jealous of zack, bc aerith is set up as his love interest :^) we r Homosexualising

shinra: shinra electric power company, the company that founded and runs the city of midgar and the SOLDIER program

ASGZC: angeal, sephiroth, genesis, zack, and cloud, my BOYS,, can be shortened to ASG for the himbo holy trinity

SOLDIER: the name of the program AND the job title! angeal, seph, gen, zack, and i were first class soldiers before we did some treason bc shinra Sucks

mako: liquid energy within the planet that shinra uses to make power. it's. not a renewable resource, but they sure use it like one! it's also used to enhance the soldiers and gives them a sickass blue-green eyeglow

AIGHT let's-a go!! ⚠️ all of this is subject to change bc i am Just Like That! also the canonical timeline for ff7 is a mess so i made up my own dates ⚠️ so zack and i are bffs who met when we were 15 and had just moved to the centre of midgar in order to join the SOLDIER program! female soldiers r pretty uncommon and i wasn't too keen on living in the dorms, so after Just A Couple Months of knowing each other, zack and i got an apartment together. in hindsight we shouldn't have made it seven years, but somehow we didn't burn the place down ONCE. he's only Four Months Younger than me, so he complains whenever i call him little brother, but ik he doesn't actually mind :')

when zack was 16, angeal started mentoring him, which was the first time i met angeal! it's funny, i like. Saw seph and gen in passing, but never had any reason to talk to them ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯ when i was 17, an accident on a mission revealed that i had a real talent with magic, and p much right after that, genesis took me on! while this was largely bc he's renowed for his skill w magic and thus was the best person to teach me, it was also in part to save me from becoming a lab rat, and i'm still grateful that he offered to do that.

zack met cloud first when we were 18 and was like "can we keep him" and i am immune to zack's puppy dog eyes but not to cloudlet's! so he basically became the third roommate ^_^ cloud also wanted to join soldier, so he thought zack and i had the coolest job Ever (AND we had met general sephiroth!!! holy fuck!!!)

despite appearances, seph is the youngest of ASG. by crisis core, angeal is 26, gen is 25, and seph, the babey of the family, is 23. (he's only a year older than me and zack... cloud's still only 20 tho lol rip) why YES, shinra does in fact use child soldiers! why do you think we did the treason! 😊😊 seph is ALSO not immune to cloud, specifically how persistent and sharp he is, and decided to mentor him when cloudlet was 18 (after being a child soldier himself, seph's got some... reservations abt the concept lmao)

gen and i were SOOOO awkward and stupid around one another at first!!!! because we were so close in age that i was like yeah you're teaching me but i have friends who are 20. we're still in the Being Friends gap. and he took a hot sec to make up his mind and be friends. he didn't catch feelings until i was like. 20, but it was a STEEP and precipitous drop lmao

angeal 🤝 me: being The Semi-Well Adjusted Ones responsible for keeping our two other idiot friends alive. fr we bonded over years' worth of keeping zack from running off cliffs and falling into manholes. he also taught me how to cook. zack jokingly referred to us as mom and dad for years. we were the most likely to get into disagreements but the least likely to actually argue bc neither of us like. enjoys arguments that much. angeal literally refused to let himself have AAAANY feelings for yours truly until i was 21, which i appreciate thank u king

learning that seph was A SINGLE YEAR OLDER THAN ME was the Biggest twist of 17 year old me's life on g-d. and i took that VERY personally ngl like i INSTANTLY decided that as another member of the "consistently mistaken for a much older Adult person" gang, we were GONNA bond!!! and we did!!! i'm largely responsible for his taste in music and i am VERY proud of this, tyvm. he's also kind of a swords nerd (his sword has a name...) and that rubbed off on me over time. if u asked him he couldn't rly tell u when he first had a crush on me, but i can tell u that the pining had become obvious by the time i was 19 and he was 20 uwu

AND BECAUSE I CAN NEVER LEAVE WELL ENOUGH ALONE!! i threw in a one-sided bodyguard romance bc nobody can stop me. sorry tseng LMAO that's a whole separate spotify playlist tho so i will not include it here ffhshdgs if u would like to hear abt that feel free to ask tho!!

liv i LOVE u sm!!! thank u for letting me talk abt this i have simply been EXPLODING with thoughts, plans, and information about ff7!!!!! hopefully this was all vaguely coherent, bc i loved being able to share it with YOU!!!!! i didn't make that pink on purpose i just think my emotions got so strong that tumblr decided it had to be pink /j

#i lub u uwu #asks #heavenshipped #talkies #mine #hcs #my writing #glory and gore go hand in hand

[ts-2020-olympics]

Episode 7 - “I wonder why you're not liked” - Nicole (& Ben)

Glad I sat out on that one - really didn't know anything Survivor related. Darcy's score of 12 is a huge shame, but gives me incentive to vote him out. He tried, he flopped, that's how it is. If it's me going this round, GGWP. 

Oh yeah! So, Nicole returned to the game.... Grrreat. It was probably the worst outcome I could have, but honestly, I don't want to dwell on it too long. With Nicole and Jacob both back in the game and Juls out of it, my fate looks worse and worse each day, as my list of allies continues to shorten and my list of enemies only gets longer. I feel very scared for the future, and rather trapped as of now, trapped between millions of possibilities, none of which have me doing very well. But hey, hasn't that been how it's been since Day 1 of this game? I started things off on Sonkei, a tribe so quiet I couldn't tell if I was running the show or on the bottom of everything until like 3 tribal councils in. A tribe where every new enemy I made would come back from the arena with a vengeance, and things only got harder. A tribe where I consistently lost challenges despite putting in my all. Then I got to nuMIraitowa, and my time here has been incredibly hectic. A bumpy road, to say the least. It's been a journey of gaining friends and then losing them, knowing people are lying but not knowing why, and just struggling to find the tiniest crack so I can get off the fucking bottom and just... SURVIVE. It's really been tough out here, and you can see the game starting to wear me down. My insanity is starting to come through in the main chats and honestly I've just lost all patience and tolerance that I had at the beginning of the game, the real me is beginning to show through. The one who lashes out, and desperately tugs at every heartstring possible, and says exactly what he's thinking without giving a fuck who's listening or the repercussions it might have down the line. Who makes everything public. I KNOW that these things are not typically good for my game, and yet, I just find myself so inclined to do them. Even though they've never helped me win anything, I can't help but be true to myself. I don't know, I guess I just feel frustrated. I'm at a place in ORGs where I feel so helpless, like I'm the victim of my own personality. I know exactly what's holding me back but I can't seem to just get past it. I guess I just keep hoping that one of these days, I'll play exactly true to myself, 100% me, and people will like that person enough to want to work with him or be happy to reward him a win. But it hasn't happened yet and I don't know if it can happen here anymore. I'm really struggling to push through. But, if there's one thing I'll never do, it's give up. Even when everything feels like it's caving in and I'm ready to just collapse, like I was saying earlier - no matter how much I want to do something, the real me ALWAYS fights back and does what it wants anyway. And the real me can't give up. Deep down in my core I always fight back, I always stand up for myself, sometimes even when I'm wrong. I just can't stand letting things go, and I know it's a character flaw, but hell, it's also a strength, and it's something I'm proud of, in a weird way. I don't want to be the player who gives in, never reveals anything, or plays it safe. I want to play it my way because if I don't, then how can I enjoy a win? How can I be proud of myself for winning if it wasn't ME that won? I have to win it my way, and sure, right now it looks difficult. VERY difficult. Maybe even impossible. But I'm approaching on the Final 16, and maybe, just maybe, a swap is on the horizon. Maybe new things are coming and maybe this entire game is about to reinvent itself for me. I've got allies in Jordan, Eve, Pete... potential allies in Caeleb, Ben, Sammy, Kevin... Maybe I could fix things with Emma. Honestly, who knows what's ahead. I'm very scared, partly, if that wasn't obvious by this big emotional confessional. But I'm also kind of exhilarated, this is exactly what Survivor is supposed to be and I can't wait for the next stage of the game. These are the Olympics, so it's go big or go home. Let's do this.

Hello again, this is Darcy here reporting with more confessing.  So, for starters, I still have yet to find something at the Olympic Village, which is really nothing new at this point of the game.   Now for the fun parts, my tribe lost Immunity, which not really surprising, since that kind of challenge I felt whoever had gold medal won that challenge.   So, we get to enjoy another tribal, where I am hoping for it to be Ben, since Ben is the one I trust the least, due to hearing about Ben wanting to come for me last round if I lost immunity, assuming that was a true tidbit anyways.   I have a feeling this vote could be between Ben and I, but here's to hoping Ben targets someone else and not me woo!   I do have enough trust in my alliance with Beck, Tommy and Karen though that us four should hopefully stick together to just take out the common enemy in Ben.   Then Ben may come back again with a gold medal, but if he does, I mean good for him.

I'm back, babes! Okay, so regarding my last confessional...I guess maybe I went a little too hard on some people. But, I was angry and validly so. Nothing much has changed even though I'm really good at faking forgiveness. About twenty minutes after I dropped in the FOUR AND A HALF HOUR PRESSURE COOKER, Sammy messages me asking to call!

I'm back babes! So as soon as I got back after the FOUR AND A HALF HOUR ENDURANCE, people were all of the sudden really happy to see me -- which was a LOT different than 24 hours prior! I talked to my best ally Kevin first, of course! I really hope at the end of the game Kevin's confessionals aren't like "oh geez and then I had to talk to Nicole, she's so annoying" bc I will be crushed, as a person he is just so nice and I'm so happy we have been given the opportunity to become friends from this game! So I talk to Kevin, then Caeleb and then...whatta know! Sammy! Right to the rescue, he wants to call after 1) voting me out 2) revoting me out. Now, long story short I made significant peace with Sammy through the phone call BUT something did happen that really did not sit well with me. While we were calling he said he DIDN'T want to apologize because we both did things wrong. Hm. Well, Sammy! Okay! I would have had more respect and less wariness of him moving forward if he did apologize but, he didn't. He kind of said like "ok so i know i lied about the advantages I had in this game and gave you nothing to trust me off of, got mad when you didn't trust me, then decided I was going to vote with Eve to get rid of you, revoted to seal your fate and called you out on a tribal call like 'if anyone wants to apologize now would be the time', but i don't think I NEED to apologize because, we were equally wrong.' Someone please explain to ME how exactly it is that we would be equally wrong when everything I did was to protect myself, and everything he did was because he had other people he could trust over me. Now that Juls is gone and he kind of showed his ass, he's now saying hey haha let's work together again though! I haven't decided if I want to do that, AND now I have a lot more options because people saw how kick ass I could be :) Speaking of the comp, it kind of grinds my gears that coming back in the last few messages before I entered again were Emma and Landen actively rooting against me. Landen, I understand. Emma...who even are you? Why do you hate me? lmao. Okay I may still be a little bit mad. Ben also as I'm typing this messaged me "I wonder why you're not liked", which is like hurtful but accurate. Anyway....I'm making at LEAST f15 now (bc my gold medal) so that's very fun, A+ content. I think we are swapping after this THANK GOD bc I have to get AWAY from this tribe. I hope I get to stay with either Jacob or Kevin, and maybe even get swapped with Jordan Pines or Karen so I can feel some semblance of security. I'll make a confessional about it next round bc :) im back :) hehe

anyway so this ugly ass tribe lost again. The only good thing to happen over the last few days is that nicole is back ugh I wasn’t ready to lose on of my allies skdjfkdjfj anyway so juls is gone and it’s down to me tommy Darcy beck caeleb and Ben, 4/6 of us are in an alliance and then there’s cae and Ben sjdjjddnjd obvs Ben is the choice to vote but also like bc it’s so obvious I’m scared that he’ll know and play an idol /: scares me bc I’m not 100% sure who he’d vote and he’s shown that he’s willing to vote for me at any moment so I’m just debating whether I should throw a vote at caeleb just in case to tie it or if I should let one of my alliance members potentially get voted out. Best case scenario if Ben plays an idol is that he votes for beck bc I don’t trust that hoe at all wkendkdndndn but yeah I haven’t had time to really talk to Ben so it’s prob too late to probe into his plans. Ugh I hope this tribal is quick & painless /: 

hello. confessional #472. i've survived another round so that's fun! i feel rly solid about the bonds i have with people right now so i know a tribe swap is incoming but that's for the best bc i'd rather not vote out anyone on yushu rn… so we'll see! 

Really mad I got voted out, feeling pretty betrayed by my tribe rn. 

I wish em didn't have to get voted out, but I'm pretty confident she'll fight tooth and nail to get back into the running..

Tribal just happened and we voted out Ben again in a unanimous vote. It was an easy vote I think either we are swapping into 3 tribes of 5 at Final 15 or 16, but if it's Final 16 the Gold Medal winner will be exiled. If we don't swap I think Ben will win the Gold and Beck the silver medal so we have a good chance of winning immunity incase there's another round before we swap. I'm really just trying to maintain get close to Caeleb because he's probably still skeptical about the whole Juls vote which I'm happy she's out because she's a threat but on the other hand she was so sweet it was sad she had to leave early. At this point I'm trying to maintain good relationships going into a swap and hope I get a good tribe that's strong and will leave me in the majority going into the merge. Also, at this point once Emma or Ben is officially voted out we'll be down to 9 returnees and 7 newbies so I really don't care if some of these returnees start hitting the road and going home. It's gonna come down to who wants to take me to the end and that's who I'm with. 

It's the end of the round, you know what that means? LAST MINUTE JORDAN PINES CONFESSIONAL TIME! It's america's favourite game show where Jordan Pines quickly makes a confessional at the last possible moment to not recieve a strike and tries to make his thoughts sound coherent. Let's Play! Whew this round was awful compared to every round so far in every aspect. First we get a challenge and I'm like... Oh Shit we can win this! and I work my ass of coordinating, doing most of the work for the tribe getting list ready in shit. And guess what it worked, we had the best scores over all and it wasn't very close... until you remember that each member of a tribe getting 20% on a challenge like this is basically a guaranteed win unless you are absolutely garbage. So we lose! Here we are and I have 4 people on my tribe including and I want to go far with all 3. Like I was at a loss. Not to mention the fact that I was having the day from hell where I could only be on for a minute like for the whole day. It ends up being emma and that fucking sucks cause emma is an icon. She has now won the duel and thank god I had some common sense not to blindside her and give her a heads up so that I can repair the relationship. Let's see how she feels about me tonight, but like I stand by it that I quote it here, in an ideal world i would go as close to the end with emma, shes iconic and i trust her a lot. I hope I havent damaged this relationship too badly! LET ME SWAP ALREADY!

I am tired of losing!! we’ve been attending tribal nonstop and it sucks. All these people are amazing. The vote was between Sarah and Em, Jordan was quite busy and didn’t care who left so it came down to my decision unfortunately. I decided em should go because I just don’t have a relation with her like I do with Jordan and Sarah. Luckily she won and is still in the game and got us gold <3 Jordan’s gonna try and do damage control with Em to keep her on our side. We’ve got a few advantages rn  and have been leading these tribals so I hope we stay in a good position. 

#zestypowerfuluniqueflavorfulhealthy #confessionals

[melodygardella]

8, 10, and 15 please!

thank you so much!!

The fic in question: An Ideal Truth

8. What was the writing process like for this fic? Did you write it all in one-go, over the span of many months etc.?

I write it in real time, updating chapter by chapter! It’s not consistent, but it’s convenient for someone as busy as me!

As far as my writing process goes, I tend to outline for about 2-3 chapters, embellish the outlines until I feel like I’ve reached a good place to end one chapter, and then save the remainder of the outline to embellish later for the next chapters. I hope that makes sense gkjfsdkl

10. Was there anything that gave you inspiration to come up with this story?

yes! quite a few things inspired me actually! obviously pokemon bw and bw2 inspired me to write a fic based on their plots, but i was also inspired by pokemon sm/usum, coming of age literature (specifically catcher in the rye, the bell jar, and the house on mango street), music (especially lana del rey), my creative writing classes, and, believe it or not, feminist theory (specifically decolonial feminism)!

15. Do you have a favorite comment on this fic?

I can’t pick just one! So here are a few ;)

mElody holy shit how you’ve improved? I finally got to reread this and jesus christ i am so impressed!

The story is so perfectly balanced with both serious, emotional moments as well as the light hearted humor mixed in. The way you’ve written the characters to have their own clearly established different personalities is so admireable! Omg I wish I had something to “critizise” as that’s what I know we all rly want for our feedback but tbh at this moment I’m just in awe sorry I just love this so much :“”)…Can’t wait to follow this story again! ;u;

AND

God damm I love this fic so much! Finally got around to continuing, and since it’s been a while I figured out I’d reread the whole thing lmao it’s so goooood…I just love what you’ve done with all the characters; making all of them three dimentional and I love the relationship each character has to each other!…Also the backstory of Andrea- or rather the whole deal with her father aaaah I’m so intrigued and excited to see where you’re taking this…Keep on writing this Melody it’s fantastic️

-Hella Monetza, fanfiction.net

these are two reviews from one of my best friends! she was actually a reader of the first version of the fic i wrote from 2011-2012, so these reviews in particular mean a lot to me bc they show how much i’ve grown as a writer!

I like Andrea, your interpretation of the protagonist. I’m not HUGELY well versed in the various interpretations but her thoughtful side and how sympathetic she is to Plasma’s rhetoric makes her stand out for me, and the way that she bonds with N over how they both question the status quo makes for an interesting dynamic. (Dear Andi seemed a little starstruck, almost- she really HAS been missing that sort of connection, hasn’t she? And if N’s background here is much like the canon one, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s having similar feelings. But I expect poor Andi’s going to be very hurt by the eventual Reveal.) Regardless, the Shadow Triad may call her “not particularly intelligent” but she definitely balances out her impulsivity with a thoughtful side…Lots of Mysterious Pasts looming on the horizon. That’s gonna be interesting to watch it play out. N, Ghetsis, and the Whiteleas seem to have a connection that certain parties are as of yet in the dark about.

-Rhijana, fanfiction.net

this review is so thorough; it’s clear they really paid attention to my story and are intrigued by it! what more can an author ask for??

(I’m going to shorten the next review bc it’s very long!)

…Well. Let’s get started then, shall we? To start with, I really can’t put into words how much I love that opening poem. However, the opening needs more than JUST the poem to be effective. It would have been much better if the poem was above the opening chapter, rather than separate from everything. It’s a hook, but it’s a hook with no real edge, if that makes sense. A punch with no impact, if you will…As for chapter 1… wow, there’s nothing there. I was frankly bewildered seeing it on my tablet just now as I write this. I hate to be so harsh, and I know you wrote that (presumably) over two years ago, but that was unacceptably short. Oh, and the whole “more chapters that cover less” thing? Bad. Idea. VERY bad idea. Quality over quantity, ALWAYS. Plus, having short chapters where nothing much happens would be boring…Chapter 3 (or would that be 2..?) is much more like it, to the I’d argue chapter 1 doesn’t really need to exist anymore. In fact, just combine the poem and chapter 3 together and you’ll have a damn good opening. Again, this chapter is fairly short, but we get some really great dialogue from great characters, with a nice cliffhanger…

-rylek196, fanfiction.net

despite the critical nature of the last review, it was very thorough and persuasive; in fact, it encouraged me to delete a whole chapter, and i feel like my story is much better because of it! this review also inspired me to write longer chapters

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