#type of shit i've been on lately

[suiker]

what if we went camping together and you drove me to a campsite on your motorcycle and we experienced nature together and we sat by a fire together talking until late into the night and then we slept in a tent together. but we were both girls... if you even care

#type of shit i've been on lately #🫂

[desertdragon]

Spell out your URL using song titles that can describe your muse, then tag as many people as there are letters in your URL.

D : Délit / Amel Bent

E : Everything Must Change / Nina Simone

S : The Soulforged / Blind Guardian

E : The Edge / RWBY Vol. 9 OST

R : Reach Out and Touch (Somebody's Hand) / Diana Ross

T : Trapdoor / RWBY Vol. 9 OST

D : Distorter / Tekken 7 OST

R : Rumor Has It / Adele

A : Answers / FFXIV OST

G : Good Beat / Deee-Lite

O : Obokuri-Eeumi / Ikue Asazaki

N : Nurse Cafe / Susumu Hirasawa

tagged by: @pettyeti tagging: open

Lol get 'Ma Philosophie' 'd

#type of shit i've been on lately

[biracy]

I can't remember if I've posted abt this before but regardless: I'm sorry but I really and truly cannot get behind the idea that there is any wide-scale societal "pressure for trans men to be feminine" or "to be twinks" or whatever. You are either conflating a very small online community's beauty standard (usually some kind of transmasc pseudo-appropriation of "femboy" aesthetics, which yes, are often Bad and regressive and fetishized and etc.) with Mainstream Society, or confusing society not wanting trans men to transition with "wanting trans men to be feminine", which are certainly not the same thing. Ultimately if a cis person believes there is any validity to the concept of being trans (i.e. not a Posie Parker-esque "there's no such thing as a trans person" type), they are more likely to think that trans men should be like as masc and buff and hairy as possible or whatever bc that's what cis people think men look like and it's easier for a lot of people to recognize someone who Looks Masc as a man. It is difficult sometimes to see derision of trans guys who are Too Feminine and Not Hairy Enough or whatever (which is not always something someone has control over btw) as anything but "this is Skye who I think is a confused little girl because Skye does not pass" slightly restyled for 2023 "filthcore fagdykes" or whatever lol

#and btw 'twink' is not synonymous with 'skinny' that's not all it means i am so so so tired of seeing it used that way #i am also tired of like Positivity Posts for 'bears' needing to be based on derision of 'twinks'. get over that! #open mick night #lgbt #gender #god this is like that post where op is like It's sooooo hard being a trans girl who wants a vagina bc that's not the mainstream :pensive: #is it not? mainstream society decided women can have dicks? since when? #let men be masculine or whatever #sorry i know i've been talking abt this a lot lately but yknow it Is difficult. given the way i look and all that #like people keep saying that elliot page tweet was Actually About Body Type but like. is it? or is it about I Don't Think Elliot Page Passe #also tbh people say the same shit abt cis men. 'people are okay with Fem Queers(tm) but not Masc Queers(tm)' wow are they? since when? #and are the people telling men they're not allowed to be masculine in the room with us right now

[scoliosisgoblin]

yo, @bennydunbar, check this out

#he tried dying his hair blue on his own for the first time. he went to professionals all the other times #ignore the fact he doesn't have lip piercings in the bottom three #I forgot them and it was too late to draw them #plus who fucking cares I'm the boss around here hehe uhm um actually he took it out because he felt like it #these are simple designs but fun to draw nonetheless #also I've been doing these types of backgrounds lately because I'm too lazy to figure out how to do a proper one #sue me #I draw shit late at night when I've got shit the next day #keeps me entertained #that and also I always feel so inspired during the worst times #but that's a different story #HOPE YOU LIKE THEM BENNY <3 #I will DEFINITELY draw you another design if you send me on you wanna see him with :3 #my art #your boyfriend game #yb fandom #yb game #yb peter #yb fanart #yb art #yb #your boyfriend peter #your boyfriend fanart #your boyfriend #peter dunbar #peter your boyfriend #peter yb #ybg peter #ybg #I don't think I like the heart dyes actually but oh well. I'm already at 30 tags

[muzzlemouths]

why yes, I do write stories. why do you ask?

#muzz mumbles #i am so fucking envious of people who don't research shit #they just type up what they want and go ''eh nobody's paying for perfect'' like GOD #what i wouldn't give for your power #alsosorry if you sent me a DM lately and i haven't gotten to it yet #I've been doing. this #I have TWO DAYS to finish FOUR STORIES #and I am handling it in a totally normal and sane way (lying)

[da-proti-toku-grem]

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#gonna whine and be annoying in the tags again 🙂 #i've only slept like 3 hours total in the past 2 days #i usually don't sleep much but it's getting worse lately and idk why bc i thought it was bc of school but apparently not #i've slept so little that my eyes burn like when you've been crying the whole day #i feel like shit and i don't want to do anything rn #and on top of that i'm omw to the psychiatrist for the first time ever and i have to see her in 10min #and my social anxiety has gotten so much worse lately that i think that i'll cry my eyes out the moment she asks me one question #i probably won't bc i'm so sleep deprived that i don't think i even have the strength to cry #but the fucking pang on my ches and the lump on my throat tell me otherwise #i've become so familiar with these anxiety attacks that i look completely normal rn sitting in the back of the car #so my parents probably think that i'm just texting someone or something when in reality i'm here typing this and thinking that #i want to throw myself out the window 😀👍 #oh and on top of that i'm also on my period bc of course 😀 #i'm wearing my comfort hoodie but i'm wearing it so much lately that atp it's not even giving me comfort :/ #oh well gotta go now...... #venting #maca speaks

[edwardallenpoe]

If someone got me a dog tag I would kiss them on the mouth

#Bonus points if it has their number on it #Like if I get lost that type of shit #dog kin #therianthropy #therian #caninekin #I've been so shifty lately idk how to feel normal anymore

[quick-drawn]

VERSE: WHISKEY & NICOTINE ↪ modern.

he never liked the idea of retirement. he's estranged from the deadlock gang — but gun running was all he's ever known, aside from drinking and smoking. so he bought that shady biker bar at the end of 5th street and opened the high noon saloon.

a young colton cassidy is found strapped for cash after the passing of his father and late stage diagnosis of his mother's cancer — following in the footsteps of his main verse, he finds a quick fix in GUN RUNNING. he recruits a team and makes DEADLOCK a very well known name in the business throughout the american southwest. so it doesn't take long for the LAW to get word of a new player in the streets.

they're assigned to a task force specializing in dismantling nationwide gang operations, who watches him and the gang very closely over the next few years, compiling all evidence needed to greenlight a sting operation on what was believed to be the gang's headquarters.

it's considered successful at the time, after partially disbanding the team and taking the then 21 year old colton in for questioning and holding. impressed with skill and mental fortitude, as well as vast knowledge on their current subjects, they offer the kid an ULTIMATUM: join up or lock up.

he chooses the former.

he works on this specialized task force for a little over 10 years. they have their ups and downs, but they get by and get the job done. shortly after getting word of the resurrection of the DEADLOCK GANG, the team is hit hard — assumingly by the aforementioned gang.

the force crumbles — half dead, the rest severally injured, the team's disbanded. colton, having paid his dues, hits dirt and goes into hiding, roaming from town to town for the next several years.

as the heat finally dies down, an investment opportunity lands in his lap. an old, shoddy bar in a middle-of-nowhere town full of nobodies — perfect for a nobody with nowhere to be.

he buys the bar and rebrands as the HIGH NOON SALOON. with a little help from an old friend, bars, in the kitchen, the place is brought back to life, quickly drawing in the locals and travelers alike — and all the TROUBLE that comes with them...

#✯ — [ ʷʰᶤˢᵏᵉʸ & ᶰᶤᶜᵒᵗᶤᶰᵉ ] ⨯ modern #✯ — [ ᵃ ᵐᵃᶰ'ˢ ᵍᵒᵗᵗᵃ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ʳᵘˡᵉˢ ] ⨯ psa #this doesn't go in my psa tag #but i don't have one for detailed verse posts yet smh... #i've been messing around in modern a lot lately and i feel like it'd be a lot easier for some of y'all to interact in this verse than ovw. #i mean...it's very similar but #not. #it's also very flexible. i made this verse for ease of interaction with my non ovw mutuals so PLEASE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT. #i can also tweak things to fit your verse from here #so if you have any thoughts or ideas when plotting with me please don't be shy #give me all of them. thank you. #but this is also open for my ovw mutuals. it's fun to mix things up a little bit sometimes. #and this gives more opportunity for that...simple domestic life stuff y'know — #i live for that shit. #but also i finally typed this up because i've had to explain it to like #three different people here lately and wouldn't it be easier if i just #had my shit together and sent y'all a link to this instead ?? idk. #anyway i've gotta go to the bf's concert here in a bit #but i'll be around later tonight for things i think. #i didn't proofread this —

[silverselfshippingchaos]

he <3

#big bro <3 he's cool! but is he as cool as best boy t.orgal? hmmm thats up for debate #ash feeds him treats and gives him lots of pets!!! pat pat pat pat pat #ash rambles 💚 #i've been doing nothing but study so brain is mushy #but c.live! brother! and t.orgal! friend! #f.f16 and m.ass e.ffect are keeping me goinf ajdhqjdh i love them #my first fucking post about c.live hasnt popped up so screw it! i'll make another! #also fellas i think my crush on g.arrus v.akarian is much more than that- may or may not have two fankiddos #ahskjqkdjq i've been seriously going through it as of late with school and shit but at least theres hot aliens 😳😳 #but yeah. ash isnt actually blood related to c.live! thank fucking god- i freaking hate his mom LMAAOO #she's just a close friend who he starts to see as a sibling type #especially since shes the same age as his actual little brother #theres about 5 yrs between them so ash is around 28ish! a wee bit younger than her gf v.ivian #big bro is cool :D #... i still like his dog better- #(that was a joke. mostly.) #so much studying.. so tired... but we must persist #once the horrors pass i shall finish m.ass e.ffect 3! muahahaha! #a while back my friends and i decided to go out this weekend. and me being busy as shit is not gonna stop me from dancing it up LMAO #so we're on the study grind 😎 #also on the freaking brainrot grind oh my god- m.atthew has been on my mind all day!! and ofc g.arrus and the two fankiddos i'm working on #also an old crush AJDJAJJSJQ i need to finish h.aikyuu since a.kiteru has my whole heart #okay yeah thats all #everyone look at t.orgal and how cute he is :D! and ig c.live too #my screenshots too! me and f.f16 photo mode are besties :D (i have spent an embarrassing amount of time zooming up on my gf v.ivian)

[cactusdodes]

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#my anxiety is having a flare up #i don't think you really use 'flare ups' in the context of anxiety bc it doesn't work that way really but that's what it feels like for me #lately #like i feel like in general my anxiety has gotten a lot better lately. i still have a slight hum of underlying anxiety but i've been pretty #good at ignoring it and getting over it the last yearish but sometimes it's harder to ignore and gets a lil worse for short periods #esp when it comes to my relationships/interactions with people #bc i have no reason to think that the person i'm seeing 'n' has lost interest in me #but they haven't been texting me as much as they usually do the last few days and my anxiety is picking up and ignoring all the #very logical explanations and very extremely likely reasons #they're moving this weekend and didn't really start packing until last week so i know they're busy with that #ontop of everything else they do and work and everything. i know they're super fucking busy rn #and i was also out of town on a trip and they're def the type of person that was probably thinking they don't want to pester me on my trip #(they wouldn't have been) #and also like. they stopped by my job the night before i left to bring me my contact lenses and they were so smiley and excited to see me #even though it was just for a couple minutes #and they facetimed me right before my friend and i left for our trip just to talk to me for a bit and see my face #and they were again so smiley and really seemed like they liked me #so yeah.. logically i know i'm overthinking it and they're not annoyed with me #i know it's just that they're busy. the few other times they've been a little dry with texting was when they #we're super busy/going through some shit #so like i know that's all it is realistically #but my stupid anxiety and self worth issues always automatically going to 'you annoyed them. you fucked something up. they finally realized #you're not actually cool or hot and hot over you but are too sweet to tell you' #which i know is dumb #it's also not fair to them to assume that #it's not fair to them to think that of them #i just like them so much 🥺 but i do know they like me back #they've told me and they act like it #i just get scared #blake says shit

[vvanessaives]

me doing completely normal things vs. my mother telling me to not do them since i was 5 y/o bc "that's smth men do"

#rena.txt #well maybe i'm a girl i'm a boy i'm a squid in this giant aquarium called earth!!!! #and i'm talking about such normal things. when i was 5 she gave me shit bc i really liked a movie we had on videotape that in her opinion #was 'for boys'. it's crazy how some things of your childhood stick with u forever it's like i can still hear her say 'you shouldn't watch #that it's for boys'. it was a silly movie about robots or smth like that. and to this day she still gives me shit for my hair and says #they are too short. when i was 17 she said 'with hair like that you look like a boy. no man will ever want you' WHO TF CARES!!!!! #i've been dipping into randomly using he/him in italian for myself lately. he/she/whatever the fuck bc we don't have they in italian. yea #idk what's up with all of that and tbh i'm scared of a journey about discovering gender just as i was scared when i began discovering my #sexuality. like gun pointed at my head if you asked me to pick a pronouns i would tell u to pull the trigger. that's why i don't have any #on my profile/bio but the absence also makes me upset bc then i'm scared that ppl will just assume i use she/her and like. tbh i don't mind #any pronouns but the idea that someone would immediately pick she for me makes me sick. i don't feel like a woman i don't feel like a man i #feel like nothing at all but also much more than the stupid gender binary shit. idk i'm scared of calling myself nb i'm scared of discovery #ok i began crying after typing this i guess that i care about this more than i thought ops lmao

[jaguarys]

Absolutely nothing more infuriating than someone rbing your post and adding just absolutely the worst take in the tags. Get outta here scram that's not for you! Taking the post away until you learn how to behave

#someone rbed one of my posts talking about a character's development saying like 'ugh yeah isn't it so annoying they're messing him up like #that' NO i was appreciating the development! shush! #OK i'm so sorry i've been complaining about shit lately lmao sometimes ya gotta #personal #fandom: none #type: other

[godnectar]

You seem to enjoy doing art. I always get fascinated by artistic and creative people. Especially how their mind works. I respect people who do art. That takes a lot of commitment, because I myself couldn’t bring myself to finish an art work. When my art has abandonment issues /hj 🥲

Do you play games too?

-🧁

Thank you so much, my love 😖💋 even if I actually empty my head when painting it's really nice to hear words like these from anyone <3

#nectar's rambling #anon message #♡ anon #🧁 anon #and yes! #i do play games #only UNO if u refer to those type of games 😜 #but i probably play too much videogames 🥴 #lately i've been addicted to visual novels and IFs #but growing up with GTA #i also adore shit like Cyberpunk or RDR2 #i also started with genshin some days ago- 👀 #but wbu babe??

[laviethepooh]

have i become a yoimiya main 🤔

#lavie.exe #i've built her decently and she's my only character with decent crit stats #and i've been using her the most lately #i won't abandon chongyun but my wife keqing #i struggle to stay loyal to her when yoimiya is there #they're the two ends of my types in terms of personality #she got me to 10-2 abyss before i rage quit bc everyone has shit artifacts #but maybe i'm gonna become a yoimiya main???? idk!!!!

[analyticallymindedaa]

thinking about jemma, how she's very much not into the whole one night stand/hookup thing, very rarely ever does it, except in the ~year(-ish) after she first leaves shield. she's never been particularly great at dealing with things like emotions and trauma, so she looks for distraction, anything to keep her mind off of what she's seen, been through, what she's left, especially as it all comes crashing onto her after she left and she doesn't have all of shield to keep her busy.

so sometimes she goes to a bar, goes on dates that she doesn't plan on turning into anything serious, and will end up going to a hotel with some guy. sometimes it will turn into a recurring thing, but she only ever plans for it to purely be a distraction, something that will get her out of her own head for a little while.

she's entirely aware it's an unhealthy coping mechanism (especially given it isn't even something she particularly likes to do), but for a while it's the only thing that she can think to do that isn't even more self destructive. however, with the biggest things she's looking for in these interactions being the distraction that it provides, the way it can silence her brain for a while, and the validation it can bring, it can lead to less than healthy dynamics, since she's not great at looking for red flags in the first place, and even more so when she doesn't intend on it becoming anything being serious.

by the time she starts settling into a more permanent place, is no longer so transient (roughly around a year after she's left shield), she's largely left this behavior behind as she is actually attempting to more actively deal with everything.

#this is not at all where i planned on this going #this is kind of a mess and a wordvomit and i'll probably reread this later and hate it and delete it and rewrite it but #long story short jemma deals w shit bad and wants to turn off her brain #you were made of galaxies with nebulae coursing through your blood and meteors in your eyes – headcanon. #this ofc doesn't apply in verses where she's in a relationship w someone when she leaves #(or leaves shield w someone in general; not even necessarily a partner) #idk i've just been thinking abt this a lot lately #they also tend to not last very long bc uhh if it does she gets Attached #which is why she doesn't usually do this type of casual thing in the first place #so ig if anyone wanted to meet her that way and see her being a bit of a Disaster #who gets attached to people entirely too quickly and then becomes genuinely attracted to them #ngl tho i do kinda want smth like that #let her have sb she hooks up with several times and then ends up getting Attached

[thesisthehomosexual]

having the worst fucking luck ever lmaoo why of all times for me suddenly explode my brain did it have to be a testing week

#doesnt help that i got like #the weakest fucking sickness ever #i honestly feel a little bad for it because of how shitty it is at its job #its just making me cough and giving me a runny nose #which is only running. DURING THE FUCKING TEST #and every time i want to go to the bathroom during the test like 5 FUCKING PEOPLE GO #ARE YOU MOTHERFUCKERS COORDINATING THIS SHIT OR SOMETHING??? #YOU BITCHES WENT LIKE 3 TIMES IN 2 HOURS ARE YOU OKAY?? #joys of state testing #very tired lately too #and i've been having trouble with accurate typing and spelling for some reason #probably because im tired #oh also now im getting my eating monitored a lot more because a few weeks ago i blacked out #annoying as fuck since i have no appetite or sense of hunger until im like actually fucking starving #annoying stuff aughhh