#ugh god I'm feeling feelings

[astarioffsimpmain]

Okay so I just watched the cutest couple get ready for a Ren Faire together and OHMYGOD just- just imagine it for a second... just imagine letting Astarion pick out your outfit for you and get you dressed for some event. He'd love it. 😭 He'd go all out, too. He'd have you trying on different things, a very serious focus-pout on his face as he tries to decide which corset would look better with the dress he picked out for you.

"Oh no, darling, I'll have to hem that. It's much too long, you can't walk like that."

And you let him do your hair and he gets lost in brushing it and running his fingers through it for a second because wow, it's finally hitting him that he's never been in charge of someone else before. He's never been given the opportunity to make these kinds of decisions with the only motives being love and care, and suddenly it feels so much more special.

And he puts your shoes on for you because "Darling, you can't ruin your hair after I spent so long on it!" And he's so proud of his work when you stand up and give him a little twirl because that's his love that he dressed up and you look so damn happy and how could he not be happy when your trust in him is so evident and it's so obvious how much you love him? How could he not feel safe and more loved than he's ever felt in his life?

#ugh god I'm feeling feelings #do not perceive me #I need to lie down #*is already laying down* #I need to lie downer #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #astarion x tav #astarion x reader #astarion ancunin #astarion x f!tav #astarion x f!reader #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate 3 #astarion headcanon

[hajihiko]

Sonia and Komaeda getting along well enough to room together is so good honestly. Even if its mostly bc she takes no shit, Komaeda was still like the only person to stand up for her when Teruteru was trying to get frisky about her naiveté in the prologue/ch1.

I kind of suspect she was acting more unknowing than she really was then, to suit her role as a princess, but he had no way of knowing that then. Plus, if she was aware then, it might be easier for her to recognize the side of him that isn't all hope n murder? Since outside of the killing game he's pretty polite (if self effacing) and generally not down for creepy behavior.

If you've got any more thoughts on these two's interactions postgame, I'd love to hear.

I dont think it's perfect by any means (nothing on the ship is!) but its proooobably the best quick-solution scenario?

#God I dont even wanna tag this as art ugh #An art #FOR ORGANIZATION #Its true Nagito wouldnt try shit with Sonia or be creepy (also he gay) its just the things that he says #And Sonia is firm on her boundaries there but also patient about the rest. She's the expert diplomat after all #They're both Perfectly Civil after only a little bit and even get friendlier #(and Nagito is probably somewhat glad at least one person outwarly calls him a friend) (more of that to come ofc everyone ends up friendly) #Sonia: you're my friend! #Nagito: I'm sorry you feel pressured to say that. As expected of a princ- #Sonia: PARDON BUT DID I STUTTER. #Nagito: are you sure about rooming with me? It's rotten work. #Sonia: yeah it really fucking is actually. I'll do it though. #Ok I'm done sorry the doodles are unusually shitty it's not cooperating today #'It' what? Yeah

[lunarharp]

the flash and the flood

#witch hat tag #orufrey #god this is so scrappy..ugh.. -_-'''' uagh.. ability to draw drains away when im tired..UGH..i prefer drawing soon upon waking. #i wanted the last 'page' to be them looking back at each other but im too tired..i dont think qifrey can look at anyone rn anyway. #maybe this is the first time oru seriously burnt himself. maybe this is the first time qifrey truly cried. #i think of him in this era as non-responsive and unable to process emotion correctly after all. #so qifrey taught him what fire feels like - oru taught him what it feels like to create water #i like you because you feel safe - i'm scared because the depth of this feeling is unpredictable and can hurt me. can hurt you

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

my experience with maxing out the twins' friendship is just-

Hawke: So, Carver, my dear baby brother who I love and adore, I only need +10 more points to max out your friendship. I've done the grind; through gritted teeth I've kissed templar ass so that we don't raise suspicion. I've supported and defended you and let you take the lead whenever I could. You're my favorite warrior. I took you to the Deep Roads with me because you desperately wanted to go and then made you a warden and you found a place, a purpose. I've practically written my own guide on how to earn as much friendship with you because I love you and it's totally worth it so can I please please have the last +10...? Carver: Hawke: Carver please I'm begging you Carver: Carver: +5 Friendship Hawke: AAUUGGGHHLKSAJDLKAJSDLK-

Hawke: So, Bethany, my dear sis- Bethany: +50 Friendship Hawke: Bethany: :)

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #da2 #bethany hawke #carver hawke #i love them both they're my favorites #but oh my god the grind of maxing out carver's friendship because it's absolutely worth it and then playing another run with bethany #where i blinked and suddenly her friendship was maxed out was a wild experience sksksk #and it's interesting to think about how carver is 'difficult' when it comes to getting friendship whereas bethany already starts with +50 #so it's easier to max her out just by being kind to her and doing her quests early #but after act 1 carver becomes so much softer when your friendship is high with him BUT bethany? i'm leaning more toward making her a warde #and i know she's going to be so resentful of me for it despite having maxed friendship like that's so fascinating?? #how the twins start off on such opposite ends with different attitudes toward hawke?? and how after act 1 they switch?? #well for the warden routes anyway... i refuse to let carver join the templars and i really REALLY don't want bethany to go to the circle #she won't be happier there no one can convince me she's happier as a circle mage... 'accepting your place' isn't the same as being happy #carver can find a place he's content with whereas bethany is screwed over either way since her magic isn't something she can just let go of #like yes both twins are bitter that they didn't survive the deep roads but carver's always worn his bitterness on his sleeve #whereas bethany felt she had to hide hers because she felt she had to be grateful for the sacrifices her family made for her #and now they are both trapped and free at the same time... carver just happens to thrive but bethany feels she traded one cage for another #ugh the hawke twins THE HAWKE TWINS Y'ALL #I just want them to be happy and loved and alive... why is that too much to ask for??

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#This is about the last thing I could have imagined happening to me but. #A girl just slid what pretty realistically is a love letter under my door and. I really don't know what to do about it #God. I like her a lot but I also really just love her as a friend?? #I don't. I have no idea what to reply because on one hand if I said something like #“yeah every second we spend together is precious to me too I love you <3 ” I would probably. Definitely come across wrong #But at the same time I can't just reply coldly I don't want to be rude. I do enjoy the time we spend together. #I just feel that if I don't reply with the same love and dedication I will come off as rude and make her sad and I really don't want to #But also I'm like. 100% sure I'm not into her romantically #It's just. The way she talks to me in the letter makes me feel... Odd in the bad way. #She spent words of admiration on me I really feel like I can't own you know. #She seems to look up to me a lot and I don't think I should be looked up to at all. #“You're a wonderful‚ very strong‚ and intelligent person” HOW DO YOU EVEN REPLY TO THAT. #“Uh I disagree but you're entitled to your opinion”... ? #Thank you? #This is. Ugh. I'm really not fit for this kind of stuff. #I LOVE exploring characters being in love and putting them in awkward ridiculous situations that make them miserable. #I HATE to be in such situations #As if exams weren't enough. How do I deal with that #Posting this just in case anyone has genuine advice btw. How do you reject a girl you actually like a lot #And how should I even write her back. Because she said to and I'm the WORST at writing back #Sis this is stressing me off so much. I want to dig a hole and disappear in it. I'm not getting out of my room for the next six months. #(For context we live in the same students dorm) #random rambles #I'm so distressed right now this is the absolute worst. #Like I was pretty fine with where we were at but now I feel like I really don't want to spend time with her again for a long time. #Deleting this soon hopefully

[theabbystabby]

You know how people get seasonal depression? I'm getting, like, reverse seasonal depression. I'm depressed because I live in Minnesota and there's no snow. There hasn't BEEN snow. Just rain, fog, and dead leaves.

Christmas is my favorite time of the year. I love everything about it. And the snow ties it all together with a neat bow. Yeah, sure. It's a pain in the butt when we get A TON of it, and when ice comes into play. But we live up north. It just comes with the territory. It's not only beautiful, but it's something we need environmentally. It's super unsettling that we've only been dusted with snow twice and it didn't stay for more than two days.

It's made it really hard to enjoy the things I love most about December. Lights and decorations don't dazzle me as much, the brown views are so hard on the eyes, hyper awareness of the state of our environment weighs heavy on me, and it's just... Soul crushing. This year has been awful for me for a lot of reasons, and this feels like salt in the wound.

It's going to be a sad, dreary Christmas. And I don't know what to do.

#Vent #My Art #Never have I ever been so fucked up around Christmas #This is the worst #I feel like I'm in hell #I rarely look forward to anything more than Christmas each year and its been stripped #I can't even Christmas shop like I want to #I have so many friends I want to spoil and I can't #I was barely able to get my brother anything #The only thing I look forward to is maybe spending time with him #But he's been working himself to death and needs rest #I wouldn't blame him if he wanted to have that day for himself #ugh #please let there be snow on Christmas Day #Even just a bit #That's my Christmas wish #If we don't get anything (or god forbid it RAINS) I'll cry #No joke #Sorry for being so dramatic #I'm not feeling good

[le-velo-pour-dru]

My mom is frustrating me so much rn oh my god‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

#dru speaks #dru vents #screaming as loud as possible into a pillow. btw #and i don't even know how to cope with it like. what do i even do to stop feeling like this #oh my god i'm so frustrated AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH X'D #ugh. whatever i'll be fine later it'll be fine i'm just. augh </3

[felizusnavidad]

i'm going home tomorrow & i'm so excited to see my family, i really missed them

#also my mom told me some time ago that i'm really brave & i shouldn't give up #but i don't feel brave i feel tired #so basically i had three different jobs this year #first one i quit because i hated it & it was too chaotic #i got fired from the second one after over a month because apparently i was too nice #now the third one i know is just temporary because it's similar to the one i quit last year #and it's only because i need money so i can't stay jobless #my situation is kinda fucked up because i live here alone so i have to pay rent #and i really don't want to go back to my parents #i know i can but i wanna stay here #i've been working so hard to move to my favourite city and i want to start studies here this year i just can't give up #so i just took the job i didn't want #and i keep looking for something i might actually like #but god i'm tired #i feel like the biggest fucking failure #i just need a normal fucking job jesus why is it so hard #i don't want to work with customers anymore i hate people #and i also want to earn a little more money because trust me it's not that easy to live fucking alone #i mostly spend my money on food cause unfortunately i have to eat #but i'm not interested in just surviving i really want to start feeling alive again #ugh #talking shit for the hell of it*

[aelswiths]

AELSWITH IN 4x10 Part 2

#the last kingdom #sevenkingsmustdie #tlk aelswith #GOD #G O D #G O DDDDDDDD #the way once that door shuts she completely breaks down #I'm #I'm crying #the mask falls and she's a mess #I- #I'm going #INSANE #she makes me INSANE #your honor I love her #just UGH #her children and her family are her strength #they're her whole world #losing them leaves her adrift #in s4 she's so lost because her family doesn't need her #and she doesn't know what to do with that #and just #ugh #I have #so many thoughts #and feelings #and emotions #and I'm crying #I love her so much

[running-in-the-dark]

there's no rage like the rage I feel when I'm working on a painting and it looks like shit.

#like ughhjhjjh it makes me so mad!!! it's so ugly! #I hate painting I hate colours I hate everything about this!!! *keeps doing it for 5 more hours anyway* #I'm not good at this and it makes me so mad but also I need to do it and it's the only thing that makes sense #ugh #and like it's just. so much worse when it's a portrait! it feels gross! what am I doing?! no he doesn't look like that! he's pretty and this #just looks like some kind of demon 😩 it's so ugly oh my god #maybe I need to keep painting just other things. like those damn hands. they also look horrible but it doesn't make me want to punch myself #quite as much. #maybe I should like. read a book. about how to. paint. #since I don't know shit. #maybe that's the problem #no no I'm the problem it's fine #personal

[theodoravery]

i'm playing the love is blind game and i HATE HOW FAST THIS MOVES!!!!! i'm so fucking torn between nico and zayid, and zayid is already giving me an ultimatum on our second date like !!!!! brother i love you but i'm indecisive!!!!!!

#and nico is like. so fucking perfect for my character #my god this has me so stressed #i'm already planning to replay but i feel bad letting zayid go #ugh what should i do. die #love is blind the game #cami.txt

[bi-vexual]

if you love vaxleth and/or yasha/zuala i need you to listen to every fallen feather by shayfer james rn

#i completely forgot abt this song and then it came on shuffle just now and now i'm Feeling Things. #god this man is so fucking good words UGH #critical shitposting #vaxleth #yasha x zuala #z

[grusinskayas]

complaining every day about how the month is going on forever and you can't wait for it to end and you want to kill yourself because it doesn't end, only for you to say the same thing again as soon as the next month starts is NOT going to make time pass any faster. but most importantly it will not make you any more satisfied either. it seems people on tumblr dot com still gotta understand that deliberately harvesting and feeding into negative feelings is actually very detrimental to you. it will not make you feel better and, in fact, it will only make it worse. time will pass anyways as it always has and sometimes you do gotta look at the sky and take a walk outside and eat some soup and take a deep breath you know.

#i can't stand this! #every day my dash is filled with 10k text posts of 'ugh i hate X month' 'ugh i hate Y month' 'ugh i'm going to kms this month doesn't end' #my god people. no offense but go take a walk #also if you feel attacked by this post idc so. go look at the sky and don't come at me with 'well actually it's because' #but i should say i don't mean this to apply to continuously straining situations which make life difficult outside of anyone's control. #like financial ones and such. it's all in peace #personal

[hazmatazz]

realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me

#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again #or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. . #so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude #i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me #(<- guy who's been friends with it for years) #like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that #like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr #and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf #this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend #so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow #i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise #i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3 #godddddd #🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always

[lorephobic]

idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?

#live with my best friend in the whole entire world who. honest to god makes me the happiest person alive. #like im always waxing poetic about her in the tags on posts about platonic love #and i talk about her like she put the stars in the skies because for real it feels like she did for me #she is. the most important person in my life #and every day i feel grateful just to come home and sit with her #like honest to god i cannot imagine a future that is better than this #if i have a bad day i get to come home and my best friend in the world will make me laugh #what more could i ever ask for #but tonight we talked and she made it abundantly clear that. even if i do everything right #even if i'm the perfect roommate and the best friend i can be #in just over a year #when she's making enough money for it #she plans on moving into a place of her own #which like. makes sense for her. of course we were going to get to this point. #but i just. don't know what i'm going to do. #and it kills me that we're on different pages because for some reason i thought this was a long term thing #i thought we were going to move into a house together #i was just telling my coworker this week that we need to move into our forever home soon which was partially a joke #but also. even if i was making a million dollars a year. #i would still want to be here. with her. #or somewhere else. with her. #like it's so hard to imagine a future without her. it breaks my heart and scares the shit out of me. #and i know i can't afford it here. and i can't move in with strangers. and i'm working my dream job but i'm scared that i'm going to have t #give it all up and move back east because. i can't do this alone. and she's all i have. and all i ever wanted. #and she's leaving. #she doesn't want to be with me. #sry this is so fucking. ugh. idk. i just don't know what to do. #for real might just drop everything and move to chicago if it comes down to it ksdkfljdfs #its what sufjan would have wanted #fucked up terrible no good week

[orchideae]

1) Opens up drafts with my head empty, ready to be flooded, not knowing where I'll go. 2) 30 seconds later: Okay but I will go feral any day of my life over Perilous Trail, and the fierce dichotomy of Xiao and Yelan. While they're far from being 'the same', they both view themselves as soldiers in one way or another (it's a very difficult word to use for Yelan, so I'm using it very liberally and very loosely), they have both suffered losses on the 'battlefield' and carry the burden thereof in their own ways. And yet they stand so firmly in opposition throughout the entirety of that questline up until the very end of the 'the end of the line' conclusion of the quest. Yes, I know that she offers him her gratitude in its aftermath and it is genuine, but she still never agrees with him and the decision that he made moments earlier. It simply 'worked out' because of Zhongli's interference, he's the only reason it worked out. And it's because of that, that she doesn't give him a hell of a hard time (obviously she can't go down there, but imagine the inner frustration of severe extents; when you condemn someone who you can't even see anymore). In the same way that she would do to anyone who would sacrifice themselves for others, but in this case, I think it's 'beautiful' that it's to Xiao; the one who seems most adamant to do so (which honestly, fits into the contract that the Yakshas chose to sign with Morax; 'the ultimate sacrifice' to protect for Liyue; 'for Liyue', and Liyue has always centered itself around its people), the one who everyone reveres (and so does she, as she notes in her voiceline, 'if I ever have the honor to fight alongside') and respects for good reason, she stands against him, because in that moment, regardless of his status, he makes a call that she considers wrong. And he doesn't even... fight her on it very fiercely, and that's what actually hurts me the most, it's as if the following line hit the nail directly on the head?

"Besides, if you were really so determined to end it all, you wouldn't have given us the opportunity to share our opinions."

#[ mini study. ] that which hides inside her… that constant calling; it is the blood of heroes which has been howling for 500 years. #[ and then shortly after 'the point is: it's not time for drastic measures yet.' ] #[ /shakes ven into another dimension. ] #[ i thought the ost at the end of perilous ruined me enough. but tale of the yakshas may actually ruin me more. ] #[ also i love how i typed up the bit of the contract and 'for liyue' and zhongli in my head isn't rattling at bars but-- ] #[ he's sipping his tea (the equivalent). one day ven. i /promise/ you. one day you'll get him from me. ] #[ he'll likely be the 2nd genshin blog to run alongside yelan if/when i get to being able to run two again. ] #[ but until then. can we talk about the dynamic of xiao and yelan until we're blue in the face? i'd like to do that too. ] #[ i type this as if i'm perfectly chill but i'm not. i'm really not. the concept of self sacrifice and sacrifice as a whole. ] #[ BETWEEN THESE TWO. drives me /insane/. and part of me sits here and goes-- ] #[ god. what happened with yelan and her team down there? we know that despite every plan she ever made and prepared-- ] #[ their enemies (WHAT WERE YOU FIGHTING??) were too powerful and more specifically-- too smart. too calculating. ] #[ ... and too strong (okay literally what on earth were you fighting? are we talking the khaenri'ah soldiers? like what? or abyss mages?) ] #[ (but abyss mages don't exactly entirely fit the description in her story. ugh. UGH). ] #[ any way-- it was her and her team. /they/ all died and she didn't. yanfei describes it as... ] #[ 'knowing that your life was saved when others weren't'. surely the millilith didn't intervene or happen to arrive. yelan must've... ] #[ gotten away? or something? but that doesn't feel quite right. but i'm just sitting here left with the idea of... when you lead a team. ] #[ you bear the responsibility of even their lives. and yet despite bearing that responsibility; she's exactly the one who lived. ] #[ the only one who did. that has to be a /stupid/ burden. it's like the captain who has to go down with the ship but is the only one... ] #[ who gets to live. only one who gets to survive. i just. ] #[ i didn't think i'd love a character as much as this one. where did she come from; jesus christ. ]