It just… does get easier. It’s not like anything changes it’s just that time and inevitability guide you out of the real dogshit jobs and you become a more complete person who is better able to defend and describe their needs in a way that authority figures can’t resist or overlook.
In my 20s I had like £100 a month after rent and bills, and I didn’t think I’d be able to make it. I just applied for jobs and changes of environment out of spite; you have to burn energy you don’t really have to get there, but it’s worth sparing it in order to end up out of those shitty office drone jobs and with money and a home you love and I promise you.
I promise you.
You’ll get there.
Aw thanks, this is encouraging to hear!! I'm glad you are doing better now and I'm sure one day I will too. I don't know if I ever expect to own a home and I've not managed to find an office job yet, but who knows! I'm sure one day I will at least find a way to make more money and have more consistent hours. For now, I'm at least managing to support myself on my own without going into debt, which is new and exciting. I'm sure it is all a part of the process. Thanks for sharing!
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So to recap the last 11 days I've:
- caught covid
- hyperfixated on superbat
- read about a million words of superbat fanfic
- watched my first DC movie (Injustice)
- somehow gotten even sicker
- finally gotten back to watching season four of Gunsmoke
- came up with no less than three separate superbat fic ideas that I cannot write because I'm still too sick
- gone to the ER because y'know covid (I'm fine btw, I promise! I'm back home now)
- came up with a Gunsmoke/DCU crossover fic that is so far beyond my current capabilities I swear on the karking Force
- started reading my first comic books (Injustice: Gods Among Us)
- written a superbat fansong because of said Gunsmoke/DCU crossover fic
- I'm still sick btw
- girl help?
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One thing I fucking hate about my sleep is that I'm exhausted the entire day, but as soon as the lights are off and I'm in bed I become restless, literally.
I am thinking too hard about things, rotating like crazy to find a semi comfortable position to sleep in, thinking too hard about my past again (tell me it's shit, please, I need people to heckle at it with. I am being a hater alone and that's not fun), having to physically not move for twenty minutes in the hopes of falling asleep, my entire body goes numb because IT does, but not my brain. Then it's not good, so I have to move and thus undo the last twenty minutes of trying to fall asleep to find another position and try again.
All that and I go to bed at midnight and only fall asleep at two in the morning, my sleep is absolute shit and truly I want a refund
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