#what happens next is up to YOU to decide

[hypewinter]

The summonings for residents of the Infinite Realms are constant. Across space and time they do not change. They require the same strokes in the sigil from past to present and the same breaths needed to chant from one edge of the universe to another.

Danny has always liked this as it has allowed him to see many wonders of history. And to visit many alien planets. He has met all sorts of people and experienced all sorts of events. But he has never experienced something like this. This time, he is summoned to a dying world. The planet exploding as its core devours itself. This time he is faced with two desperate parents pleading for him to save their son. But he can't. Living beings cannot be taken back through the summons. All Danny can do, is promise to guide their son to safety.

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dpxdc #dcxdp #winter's tales #danny guides a baby kal-el to earth where he knows he'll be safe #does he intentionally leave him with the kents? #or do they just happen to stumble upon the craft as he's deciding what to do next? #does danny remain a constant figure in clark's life? #or does he silently check in on the boy from time to time? #that's up to you

[nelkcats]

Poison

Two new types of poison started being sold in Gotham's underworld; one is bright pink and the other a toxic green, both of which have caused the Batfamily a major headache because no one can find a cure or a reason why it suddenly started being sold.

Unfortunately, many of their Rogues have been using it for their attacks and this product has proven to be deadly.

It tends to act immediately on contact with an individual and cause extreme pain (some have commented that they feel like dying), as well as being effective on everyone it comes in contact with (including mutants, metas, and aliens) and not possessing an antidote. Bruce has tried to analyze it on many occasions but the batcomputer never comes up with results, as if the product is corrupted.

Strangely, it was recently discovered that Jason has immunity, and contrary to expectations, the poison seems to make him stronger? it even affects the influence of the pits!

This, of course, did not please the vigilante, the color of one of the poisons was too familiar for him to pass up so he decided to seek its source directly. Unlike Bruce, who was dedicated to the search for an antidote, Jason felt there was something darker about the whole situation, so he decided to track down the vendors and follow them.

Elsewhere, two halfas look at each other wearily as needles pierced their skin, it's a bit ironic that they let their guard down when the Fenton's declared they liked ghosts and forgot they had other enemies.

#dpxdc #New type of poison is being sold in Gotham #Rogues are using it #The green poison remembered Jason to the Lazarus pits #but it feels different #he can almost hear screams when he got in contact with it for some reason #the poison is Vlad and Danny's ectoplasm #dp x dc #dc x dp #They were captured #and are being used to win some money while the captors investigate them #you decide who captured them #The captors are using anti-ghost technology #Jason is investigating it #ectoplasm carries feelings #if Vlad and Danny felt like dying then the ectoplasm would imitate those feelings #plus ectoplasm is extremely dangerous for any living being #that's the reason it's so effective for everyone as a poison #what happens next when Jason find them is up to you #but it could be #dead on main

[warmblanketwhump]

when A is feverish and has chills in an overly air-conditioned office during the summer, so they just sit and shiver at their desk, trying to keep warm by clutching a hot cup of tea in their frozen fingers.

their desk is right under the vent, so they keep a cardigan wrapped around their shoulders for warmth and to try and shield them from the bitterly cold draft. even so, they tremble from head to toe, teeth chattering so loudly that their next door desk mate can hear them.

they take their lunch break outside and sit in their sun-warmed car to thaw their chilled bones, but it only makes the office feel that much colder and more miserable when they have to come back inside.

after a while, their desk mate pops their head over the cubicle and begs A to just go home. A, who feels awful, promptly bursts into tears.

#cold whump #sickfic whump #summer whump #you get to decide what happens next!!! #maybe they live alone and so they go home and try to take care of themselves #maybe B takes pity on them and takes a half day to take them home #inspired by the many days I spend shivering in my office #and take my lunch breaks outside so I can warm up in the sun

[knowlesian]

something something ed the consummate performer who spent his life tooling his personality and behavior to best manage the circumstances he’s in and people he’s around so he’ll feel safe letting that shit go in e10 to sing his cringe song and wear his robe and getting back “well that was intense but we’re with you, how ABOUT a talent show” only to find himself falling back on fear and toxic familiarity because things you know you hate but can survive somehow feel safer than new ground you can’t predict, hey writers rip my heart out and leave it on the floor why don’t you

#there i did it i put feelings into words outside the gchat yay me #but seriously though this beat he’s not in a healthy spot in e10 but he is in a spot where he was going to start trying new shit #“can’t believe i was living like this” the man says #and then What Happens Happens and he decides better to keep living like this than end up laughed at again #oh ed. babygirl i love you you’ve got a lot going on #maybe next season we try therapy and introspection instead of marooning people maybe

[jils-things]

SKADJKAJFKSFSAA content warning: embarrassing moment during my dinner out... /lh

#so - my dinner party right? while eating - i couldnt help but notice the waiters that attend to our tables were... young and nice looking #SAGFHHJAHJGSDSAGAS LISTEN JUST LISTEN #one of them stood out to me - he just looked.. really good looking #i promise you i dont fall easily irl -- but this guy just caught my attention #he had the whole waiter outfit though it was more casual - i frowned noticing that he didnt have a nametag on like the other workers ASDDJA #everytime i passed by - i would glance at him and just.. idk appreciate him adjsahsjfksfs im so sorry if this sounds weird HELPLASDAWHA #he just kept visiting our table since there were many of us and i would just smile when he pops up #now when everyones done eating - he would pick up their plates and bro. he took one plate in front of me and i was not ready for it SDFGSHF #picked up the dish next to my sister and i was like ASDAHFJSDAGSD (BREATHE) #BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOT WORST? (OR BEST?) #IT WAS GETTING LATE. THE RESTARAUNT WAS CLOSING UP AND THE WAITERS KINDA SLOWED DOWN WITH THEIR PACE #they were moving the chairs back in order. the guy i like decides to sit down. and hes there. just breathing #SUDDENLY HE STARTS TO REMOVE HIS BOWTIE AND I WAS LIKE.OH OKAY OKAY. OH #i thought that was it BUT THEN NOOOO HE UNDOES TWO OF HIS BUTTONS AND I SAW HIS COLLAR BROOO I WANTED TO GO HOME SO BAD #AND THEN WE WOULD ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT WHAT KINDA FUCKIN WATTPAD STORY IS THISSSSSSSS #I WAS SO . EMBARRASSED BUT ALSO LIKE AKSJDAKJFS WHY IS HE SO FINE HHHRRR #i was legit praying to just think back to steven like i dont know how to handle this genuinely ahjdfksafhsfsa #what a day that was...... #~ rambling #man i hope this never happens to me again /lh

[comixandco]

my favourite part of season 5 is still the reveal that Gabriel and Tomoe thought Adrien and Kagami made the perfect pair and wanted them to be together because it completely flips their relationship

Kagami and Adrien sneaking around and finding the slightest gaps in their schedule and giving their bodyguards/parents the slip to spend time together and feeling so clever that they’ve gotten away with it their parents don’t suspect a thing

only to smashcut to Gabriel and Tomoe doing an evil pound it because their ship is canon

#miraculous ladybug #ml s5 #gabriel agreste #tomoe tsurugi #adrien agreste #kagami tsurugi #it’s the illusion of free choice™ #it was a very clever plan tbf like if they told them to date it would be awkward and forced. but put them in the same room together and see #what happens… let them think it was all their idea… boom success! #then the next step is saying ‘yes i only just found out you’ve been dating kagami and i have decided to give you my permission to date her- #what do you mean you broke up a month ago and your dating the baker girl who made a hat for me one time?’ #on the flipside though it probably wouldn’t have worked out in the long run bc kagami likes the thrill of a secret forbidden romance like #that’s partially what drove her to felix imo so if tomoe said one day ‘it’s come to my attention you’re dating the agreste boy. i approve o #of this match and have organised a date for you two on friday.’ you Know kagami would immediately go #‘oh no.. okay um so now i’m kind of feeling that everything about him that was attractive to me before isn’t really there anymore…’ #also on the flipside like looking at it on a more deeper/serious level like it just goes to show how much control tomoe and gabriel have o #er their kids to the point that they would be willing to manipulate them into a relationship and then when #the two of them tried and realised it wasn’t working. instead of admitting they don’t know their children as well as they think they do #or acknowledging that their children are actual people who have their own feelings that don’t always match their parents #or coming to terms that their children aren’t extensions of their legacy and will that they can puppet however they want #instead they say ‘okay we tried the hands off way now we’ll just have to force them’

[roobylavender]

(Really long ask ahead i’m sorry!) I think your thoughts on dick and his similarities vs differences to bruce are so interesting! Personally i’m wondering how much of NTT played an influence on this kind of characterization bc i’ve never fully finished ntt but i read like nearly all the pre-80s batman 1940 issues lol and dick very much was portrayed as more idealistic than bruce in some ways while more no-nonsense (? For lack of better word) in other ways, like when it comes to batman easing up a little on selina for romance reasons LOL. Though ofc dick totally turns into - well, a dick - in team books, as i grow older i find myself far more compelled by a potential story of an 18 yr old who seemed to have the whole weight of the world on his shoulders (by his own perception) and breaking under his own impractically strong sense of duty and sky-high expectations for others, then realizing as he grows older that it doesn’t have to be that way esp after seeing the perspectives of characters like kory, wally, joey, roy, etc. Like personally as someone who never really had a huge interest in NTT anyway, i’m surprised at how desperately people want to hold on to the characterization of dick when he was 18-19 and never letting him grow past that, like it’s so difficult for me to believe that at age 25 he would be the same uptight controlling kid that he was at 19. Maybe i’m biased though bc i was like one of those insufferable INTJ internet stereotypes as a teenager, and while that worldview did bring me achievements i’m proud of like the fact that i’m in med school rn studying what i love, i still know that at age 22 i have changed SO much from when i was 18 and i can’t imagine any reasonably mature or normally-functioning person (let alone someone high-functioning like dick) not doing the same lol. Especially since dick is the kind of person who would literally die if he’s not constantly growing and evolving past his faults bc of his insufferable perfectionism, idk how he’d be willfully blind to the negative effects of his worldview in early NTT and refuse to grow from there. He even has a quote that’s like “i’ve spent years as a student of my own behavior” which i always found highly encouraging bc i know he really does want to improve himself even at his worst. It reminds me of that Marcus Aurelius quote: “if someone can prove me wrong and show me my mistake in any thought or action, i shall gladly change. I seek the truth, which never harmed anyone; the harm is to persist in one’s own self-deception and ignorance.” But what are your thoughts? (Thank you for reading all this 🥹)

oh i absolutely agree! i cannot tell you how many times i think about the person i was a couple years ago and who i am now like i cringe so much omg.. maturity is an ever persistent process even if we don't recognize its effects immediately and it absolutely is crazy to think that anyone would remain in such a static state of mind for several years on end. esp when like you said dick is someone who wants to be better! so despite his several hypocrisies it is nonetheless in his best interests to look internally and analyze and evolve. and i feel like that very much could have happened had there been any actual segue between dick's breakup with kory and his re-entry into the batfam. i don't think there was much of a connection between these two sets of writers at all and so what you got is what felt like two very distinct parts of dick's life that didn't necessarily reveal a bridge point. so it's not entirely unrealistic that dick may grow to be the person (at least to some extent) that bat canon portrayed him to be in the years that followed but i certainly think as it stands it felt unearned and like all of his issues explored in ntt were conveniently swept to the side without any semblance of closure (albeit i do think some of these issues are addressed in outsiders '03 but in that dickheaded way that winick explores things generally. so i'm not sure it's the kind of closure people actually want). it's very sad and ig that's what people cling to more than anything. it's not that they're opposed to him growing to be a better person but that they're opposed to a version of dick who feels like he sprung out of nothing

#ironically enough i Do think dick going back to gotham after the kory breakup made sense #like when something that big happens in your life what are you going to do. seek the advice of the one person you look up to more than anyt #ing right. but marv wolfman complicated things by writing bruce the way he did so rather than bruce playing an active part #in guiding dick through some of his issues and mistakes he instead became dick's burden to bear through extensive post knightfall trauma #and i mean you all know i Love knightfall. i really do it gives me brainworms upon brainworms #but i wish there had been just one moment. like after it was all over. that bruce and dick actually got to talk and like #discuss dick's problems yknow #i get the feeling they didn't delve much when writing prodigal bc they had to set up the next arcs and stuff but it's like #come on. come on. they could've afforded it. if dick really had to come back to gotham for a temporary stint where he tried to find himself #than a proper conversation with bruce about what he was going through should have been a part of that #bc i do think working with bruce's new cavalry of three teen heroes (tim / steph / cass) would have borne wonderful opportunities #for dick to grow as a leader and peer considering his ridiculous expectations of others and how this would measure up against teenagers #but the problem is that bat canon decided he was going to magically gel with everyone bc he was emotionally more well adjusted than bruce #was. like ok. ok. whateverrrrrrrr #like idk it's so funny they were given a dick with a plethora of issues and instead of using any of that ammo they were like nah #we're going to make our lives harder and give him new problems manifested out of thin air. totally makes sense. bullseye #outbox

[theclosetedskeleton]

please please please let my phone not be on its shenanigans anymore. my stupid pleading isnt gonna do shit but i don't wanna confront my parents about my phone being technically broken it stressing me out bad idk if will they'll yell at me

#ughh its making me so scared #what if they decide to not let me have a phone because “You were supposed to take care of your old one” #what if I get punished?? #will they be mad?? shocked?? disappointed?? i didnt do anything to it i found it like this this afternoon idk how it happened #will they listen to me about that?? #who will?? #maybe my mom #idk about my dad #whats gonna happen too?? is it possible to repair?? #probably #am i being dramatic rn omhyg #well this isnt pairing up with the fact report cards are gonna be next week!!! laugh track #theyre going to get mad at me for some reason #theye mad at me theyre mad at me idk why but they are #im doingsomething wrong im doing sm #closet rambles again on tumblr

[aro-aizawa]

me, first watching wtdsik: i will not become a mega fan of kalego i will not. i refuse. yes he shows hints of caring for his students occasionally but--

episode s2 ep 12 kalego' home visit: hi

me: FUCK.

#shut up danni's talking #danni liveblogs #danni liveblogs wtdsik #i knew from the second i saw he'd be their homeroom teacher that it'd end up like this #i adore these characters sm guy you don't understand #i have been v lucky what whatever spoilers never sunk in before i blacklisted the tag #so all of this is COMPLETELY new to me i have no prior experience w this fandom my brain is fkn thriving on the new enrichment #i have to keep stopping myself periodically so i don't go through it all so fast i barely comprehend it #bc then it's a blink and you'll miss it minor hyperfixation that i'll forget in less than a week #its happened before w shows/animes w short seasons/content and sometimes longer ones #those i blitz through and catch up but my enthusiasm burns up before i get to the next installment so i fall behind then forget it rip #back to my original point: kalego and aizawa are so fkn similar i want to chew glass #i can't decide whether they're incarnations of each other or they'd be besties who sit in silence together #and never speak a word to the other bc they have a deep respect and understanding of each other speech is unnecessary #OR if they're somehow brothers or cousins #if it was anywhere near april fools i'd probs just edit my icon to be kelego instead of aizawa #and see how long it'd take for someone to notice lol

[attaboy-art]

day 07: legacy

[Image ID: A darkly colored digital painting done with oil brushes of Alfendi Layton, from Layton Brothers Mystery Room, sitting at his desk in his office at dawn, as seen from the back corner of the room. He is sitting cross-legged with a cup of tea in his hands and he is blankly staring forwards. Behind him is a large window with the blinds half-down showing a grey dawn sky with mutliple buildings and Big Ben in within view. The same wall the window is on also has shelves, newspaper clippings, and a framed letter of apology addressed to Alfendi. In front of him is a messy desk with a lamp, a rotary phone, and a typewriter sitting on top, dimly shining in the light. /.End ID.]

#lb;mrweek #i know im late im sorry im so sorry #i spent tonight and last night looking for my cat up in the park for a couple of hours so i havent had much time to paint #but. I really didnt wanna miss the last day. So #fun fact i started seeing bugs on my ipad while drawing this #anyways. ANYWAYS its time for me to Explain My Reasoning #originally i had a ton of different sketches right. i couldnt choose which one i wanted to do for this prompt #one was of the layton fam greeting al post-game. one was a polaroid of lucy and al posing next to the letter of apology #and the last one was gonna be an abstract-ish portrait of al #but none of them were working with me so i decided. Actually. What do /I/ Think #basically. u know me u know im always on my poor little alfendi shit. #and i was like. well. post-game #post-game hes probably still reeling from everything that happened. Fendi that is but also Al #and hes probably just. like. Holy fuck. Holy shit man #after 4 long lonely years he's finally gotten his name cleared and has gotten an apology from the Nebulous Yard #but. its not like he can go back. Its not like hes going to pretend that none of those years ever happened #he cant forget that ostracization. the alienation. the demonization. The Izations #the wounds of being left behind cannot heal just yet. and thats okay #and its just. What really is al's legacy. He doesnt fight a big robot or save the world. He fought trauma. He fought suppression. And he won #and you KNOOOWWWW my babygirl is a workaholic. you know he stays at the office because its better than being surrounded by reminders at home #AND. LASTY.... dawn is a recurring motif in the laytonverse. dawn symbolizes the end. it symbolizes new beginnings and rebirth yadda yadda #lastly* good lord #so i reallt wanted to capture that feelinf of like. Pulling an all nighter when youre in a fucked up area of your life #and just looking at the grey skies above and thinking sunrise was supposed to be more worthwhile than this #hope u all enjoy. im going to hide my ipad and stylus in a safe for the next week #art #professor layton #lbmr #layton brothers mystery room #alfendi layton

[takitori67]

So sad rn when they said they refund your doll because the number of orders were NOT enough

#ig i will bawl idk what to do anymore man #:) yknow what. im not even sad anymore im just fuming with silent rage and disappointment #next year i will draw a doll board and commission for handmade doll by myself. fuck this. #its bad actually because this particular page just got exposed of their irresponsible behavior today i was so afraid thats why i had to ask #and bam! “sorry the number of orders wasnt enough” well why didnt you tell me sooner? only when i decided to follow my guts did this happen #thanks god though i could live through this if i were staying silent it would only disappoint me more for being too hopeful #i mean this is the first for me. to want to order and have a doll from sites. this page used to be okay until this crap #i could even fault myself for this because i like to stay overly hopeful and too trusting that my faith only ends up getting betrayed #im so very sorry arjuna im broke and stupid i need to cope with something else in the meantime. #rambling and talking

[daisyachain]

list of things that hikaru ga shinda natsu is about that i agree with

supernatural metaphor for when the first person in your friend group hits puberty

fable about wishing for your crush to like you back and realizing that the person who would treat you like you fantasize is an entirely different person from the one you loved in the first place

comment on the widespread idea that gay people spawn randomly in urban environments

clever little deconstruction that asks what truths folk tales ignore in their simplicity

rural high school au of tokyo ghoul

supernatural metaphor for how [miscellaneous] people have no future that they can see for themselves

exploration of how the strict external pressures of school create an environment where kids paradoxically have an amnesty to do whatever they want within those walls, and how integrating with society towards the end of high school/uni can be a cold, cold shock

#kelsey liveblogs manga #manga that could disintegrate me with a glance. #i'm eager to see what happens next if only because it can't get more catastrophically bad for the characters than it is already #a manga that boldly asks wouldn't it just be less awkward if we all killed ourselves and jumped in the lake. #a manga that asks--well now that you've reached rock bottom and actually do wish you were dead. doesn't that free you up to do whatever? #a manga that i hope will explore--if you've decided you want to die now...how will you pass the time until then?

[fischiee]

y’all I am drunk as fuck but i am fed the fuck up. i am like hopelessly into this guy in our friend group bc he is so kind and wonderful and attractive and unfortunately he has decided that i am the one person to trust abt his love life and so i must apparently sit through him explaining his struggles with another girl while i am SUFFERING

like he is just so sweet and kind and YES it is a crush and yes i am putting him on a pedestal but he is nothing but kind and sweet to me and it definitely seems like he is flirting with me sometimes but i definitely cannot tell and he does talk abt this girl that he is very into OFTEN (she is for sure not me) and it’s driving me crazy i am so heart broken

#ignore this #ignore me #anyway yeah im fucking wasted so sorry pals you get me being emo abt a boy who simply doesn’t care about me #and who i am telling all my friends that i don’t care about #but he sits next to me!!! #and draws doodles on my papers!!!!! #and smiles and looks at me and tilts his body towards me and like ajdbfb #all night he let me loop my arm in him and helped guide me but then he literally told me abt the girl he’s in love with #and he was giving me a ride and being. so kind so I gave him advice about how to like date/get w/ her but it simply hurt my heart so bad #im literally bawling my eyes out AUGH #sorry team this is what happens when you follow a theatre manor who has t even graduated #you get someone so horrendously dramatic and emo #AUGH #i can’t even make up my mind abt him but i do know i want him so bad #we were enemies now we just need to get to the lovers part #it’s just so sad that he had decided that he can tell no one else abt his love life and his secret crush except for me #bc like.. girl i want you to fail (just kidding he’s so wonderful and i want him to be happy) #but it does definitely hurt but also bring me such joy for him to be like “oh i only trust /you/ with this. im attracted to someone else. #he literally let me loop his arm in him and let me touch him all night #but the second he was drawing home he asked abt a situation which her and her inviting friends to a hang out with him #and it just brown my hearT #i just #agony #sorry team im feeling emo

[comixandco]

concept: take your kid to work day but you work for The Company

#lethal company #can you imagine though #like it’s objectively going to be bad no matter what you do no matter how safe you try to make it #they’re gonna have a bad time #like even if you tell them to stay on the ship there’s dogs and the possibility of masked men and giants outside #and you and your crew are inside risking your lives and you could all die and the kid is just sat inside the ship waiting for you #and like. if you give them a walkie so you can chat with them they’re going to hear a bunch of grown-ups shitting their pants #and possibly dying #also bonus point in my head i’m imagining like. what if the crew does die?? and they didn’t have enough for quota #so this kid knows they have to arrive with the quota their other parent will be waiting for them at the company #but they know something bad will happen if they don’t meet quota they just don’t know what #so it’s the final day and they decide they have to go to a moon as a last effort to try and make quota to avoid The Consequences #the kid writes the report about it and only gets a C. ‘vivid descriptions and very imaginative. next time write about your parent’s actual #job’

[maraeffect]

started watching hopecore right before bed and MAN. what a life it is we live on this earth.

#it's a lottery every time someone is born!!! people achieve their dreams every day #others die. others bury loved ones. others get married. others have kids. others separate. still others choose to be alone #and what decides your path is largely up to who conceived you; where and at what time #the rest is blindly writhing around trying to change your circumstances and sometimes there's luck #every single person on this planet has their own inner monologue. their own family. their own dreams #we all just wade through our experiences and maybe leave a cascade of small influences around us #and at and time BOOM! you could just crease to exist!! you could walk outside right now and get struck by lightning #and your story is over #i guess no one is ever ready to think about stuff like that. but it's the truth #and the hardest question you'll ever have to answer is 'how do i spend my time in a way that leaves me truly happy?' #i don't think anyone ever knows the answer to that. not quickly at least #but no matter what you do the sun still rises the next morning and the moon comes out the next night #our rocks in space rotate and revolve like they have done for billions of years. and they'll keep doing it #time stops for no one. we all live and die. and no one but you can decide what will make you happy in the end #this weird little science experiment we are. our little self contained world #we're essentially the universe's terrarium. we're the little tiny creatures that live and reproduce and die inside #and what's it all for anyway? IDK. i think we're meant to do as much of what makes us happy as possible #even if there is no ''point'' to earth being the exact right conditions to create human life; we can make our own meaning #we don't all live or suffer or laugh or cry or fall in love for a reason. there's no telling why it all happens #it just does. so we make our own meanings. #crazy to think we all might have ended up here by accident. or coincidence #makes you think or whatever someone would end this with #chatter #uhhhhhh should i trigger tags this???? IDK what to tag #existential #also ignore my abundance of typos I'm literally laying in bed trying to get sleepy lol

[aretrothing]

.

#this is a scream into the void don't read unless you want to #i'm so done and i just want next week to arrive already #i don't know anything about what's happening next week #i haven't been told anything other than get there for the morning #i haven't seen anyone apart from my family really for weeks #all my friends have been busy and my best friend came over just to do induction work #we didn't talk at all #i'm lonely and i miss my friends #it's been three weeks since i last spent any quality time with any of them and i'm used to seeing them every day #to top it all off i have to be in the same room as my ex on monday and the last time i saw them through the window of a coffee shop #it still felt like i was being punched in the stomach and it's been 5 months #i don't know what i'm doing next and i don't know anything and everything was so clearly laid out in my head for what i was doing before #and i don't even know what subjects i'm doing because i still haven't fully decided #the only thing i know is that i'm doing a comparison of birdhouse on the side which will be nice #i just want to know what i'm up against and what's going to happen next #what my general direction is because i have no fucking clue at this point #my head's been a mess since the week before results day and while i'm miles better i'm still not right #i want to know if all of it is going to be worth it #if what comes next is going to be worth all the effort i put into it and i'm going to enjoy it and so many other things #i'm so sorry for clogging your dash with this i just don't have anywhere to put this other than a diary and i don't have one on me right now #vetty talks #delete later #screaming into the void