So, I was looking for patterns that looked similar to the one Dasein has on his suit because it is complicated, and I'm physically incapable of drawing a pattern if I don't have a reference to go off of, and after a while I found one that looked similar, but after comparing the two, I realized that I had found the ACUALL pattern kingsisle used and-
It's a stock photo
Straight-up recolored stock photo. It's TapkiMonkey's Geometric pattern in bright color blocks. On multiple stock photo websites that had the user TapkiMonkey on it, so was the pattern, and this just seems so bizarre to me because they would have had to pay with an extended license to use it. Why???? Why did they do this??? It feels so weird—but not out of character for them to do...
idk if it is the fact that I am getting my period soon, or that there it gets dark by 6pm now, but I've been feeling so meh and low and unmotivated. for what feels like, absolutely no reason?
I'm dealing with personal drama from a best friend I have had since highschool (let's call her B), who has seen me through thick and thin, and it's honestly so draining. B and I have been saying for months that we are going to go visit my other highschool best friend who moved two hours away from us (let's call her S), (we're basically the three amigos). I have gone to visit 'S' many times before, made the drive up to go see her handful of times without 'B' because she was not available or always busy. well, I went to go visit 'S' this past weekend and posted on social media (cause it's my life and I can), and 'B' messaged me, basically attacking me and ripping me apart for going to visit our other friend.
For context, 'B' and I had last texted about going to visit this friend in August, and the dates just weren't working, the last message from B was suggesting 'what about October?' I didn't end up replying to that text cause, well, life happens. My mom started radiation and I was gearing up to begin grad school, so it was the furthest thing from my mind, and B and I texted about other things since then. When I posted the pics from my visit with S this past weekend, B called me out and texted me being like 'thanks for the invite, you know I wanted to go with you.' I got defensive because why is it my responsibility to keep messaging her and providing dates that don't work for her? I told her she doesn't have the right to make me feel bad about going to visit S, and that she could have also texted S about coming to visit her. Cue B calling me a bad friend, a bitch, condescending, telling me that I have my head in my ass and a bunch of other shit. To which I say, it isn't that serious?
She refused to see my point of view and kept going on her tirade, saying I was talking down to her like she was dumb or didn't know how to make plans of her own. I honestly don't know what got into her but she was acting psychotic. And I'm sick of getting the brunt of it and having to justify myself and my actions. We're all adults, we can make plans without needing approval from one another, like ?????
This is just a rant at this point but I'm pretty fucking hurt and upset that my so called friend from highschool days would go to such lengths to attack me. And by the sounds of it she doesn't regret lashing out like that. Anyone who knows me in my personal life knows that if you cross me, you'll never hear from me again, cause I don't do second chances and I absolutely do not hesitate to cut people off who have hurt me. I'll be really sad if a 12 year friendship ends over something so small and trivial as this but I'm at the point in my life where if you come at me with any sort of hostile energy you better prepare to deal with the other side of Nicole that comes out.
If you're a good person only so you can be considered "a good person" and not being thought of one means it's "all for nothing" you are not a good person.
Right okay I see your point but, consider, then what makes you a "good person"?
This is so unbelievably subjective and such a weird thing to argue. If I'm doing objectively good and kind things for purely the sake of I want to be a good and kind person, what difference does it make? A praying mantis that I rescue off of a store kiosk and put outside on a tree doesn't care why I did it, only that it's safe. A homeless man that I give $10 or gloves or a scarf to doesn't care why I did it, a friend that I help move doesn't care why I did it, coworkers that I do favors for without them asking don't care why I'm doing it. Motive matters so much less than action does because a motive is intangible but actions are real things that have real consequences, both good and bad.
I also think your wording is a little unfair here, because I didn't say it was all for nothing if I wasn't seen as a good person, I said it was important to me to be seen as one. Why is that bad? My goal is literally to put good into the world, too influence lives I come into contact with in a positive way, and I'd like to think that those people remember me and think well of me. Is it because I said I can't feel empathy? Because, let me tell you, I'd much rather be stuck with someone with no empathy who's helpful than an empath who's a dick. Or is it because I defended people with mental illness who have "bad thoughts"? It kind of doesn't matter what you have going on on the inside, it's what you do that matters. And I work hard to do nice things. If you dont like that, that's fine I guess, but it sure is a weird ass take, especially considering the post it's in response to is about being kind to people.
It's kind of funny though, you claim I'm not a good person because of my motives, but at least I don't go into people's inboxes anonymously and tell them they're a bad person strictly because they defended people with mental illness and/or my own hangups. Can you imagine being that type of person?