#which is why i am talking about it on MY account

[jewish-vents]

I can't with this anymore uhhhhhhggggg

"AITAH for creating a private doc to keep notes on what my racist teacher said"

I have this teacher who said a lot of shit (eg. "Ashkenazi people were Europeans forcefully converted by invading Jews", "the Torah mentions Jesus and Mohammed", "Judaism started in Ethiopia because it's the oldest religion and therefore must come from where all people do", "getting angry at Houthis for attacking Israel is like getting angry at a l*nched man for struggling on the noose", etc.). No one cared that she said these things besides a boy she kept deadnaming, a girl who she used as an example talking about slave r*pe, and a kid who she humiliated in front of the class a few times.

When I reported this shit to the dean he was concerned as fuck and 100000% on my side because he's really cool. And to report the stuff, I'd been using a private google doc to keep track of what she'd said. The principal though was overly optimistic and decided instead of talking to the teacher in private, she would hold a class discussion! Yaaaaaaayyyyyyy. I was less than pleased by this, and at the discussion most people took her side. I eventually decided to share the doc with the other three kids so I could get better firsthand accounts.

But then the doc started spreading.

One of the other kids shared it with this boy who she used to mock and throw under the bus, and he shared it with his friend. Who shared it with another friend. Things went like whisper-down-the-lane until someone, I don't know WHO, got a hold of it and shared it to the whole. Fucking. Class. Including the teacher. People started claiming the doc was Islamophobic and didn't elaborate why, and saying we were only "attacking" the teacher because she was Muslim. Or that we only reported this stuff to get drama and attention. The principal herself even said that this was happening because we have varying cultures, which is BS because I have plenty of Muslim friends who have never said ANY of the shit this lady has. That is waaaayyyy more Islamophobic of a statement and I felt offended on my friends' behalf with that one.

I feel bad for the teacher for seeing that doc, but then again, I myself am suffering because someone leaked all my personal opinions to the class. I'm a super conflict avoidant person because I have severe ADHD and OCD and mild autism (ASD1, to be specific), and I hate being involved. I want to sympathize for her. I really do. But when asked to apologize for what she said, she started defending herself and saying we were all closed-minded for not thinking what we previously thought was wrong. My mom wants to take me out of the class to do an independent study project so I can pass the required course without being in that classroom. Because nothing gets in the way of Jewish parents. Especially during Passover.

My classmates are saying she's a sweet lady and it was wrong of us to get upset at her, so are we the bad guys and/or am I overreacting to this scenario.

Anon I'm going to be very honest here. You are absolutely NTA here. And you're not overreacting at all. Your teacher is being very offensive, not to mention historically wrong.

And the doc? If she didn't want to have her offensive opinions called out in front of everyone, maybe she should stop being offensive.

I'm going to say, personally if she were my teacher the doc would be the least of her problems. She would not like me very much.

I hope you're safe tho, you and the other students she's hurt. You don't deserve to be treated like this

-🐺

#jewish vents #antisemitism #leftist antisemitism

[supercalime]

I can’t believe I found people who think about this the exact same way as I do. I don’t get these hardcore buddie stans who suddenly try to make it look like buckTommy shipper are the toxic ones. I haven’t seen a single BuckTommy shipper who was rude without a reason (maybe a bit defensive about their CANON ship). Whereas I’ve seen plenty of incredibly toxic buddie stans who insult everyone who doesn’t ship their ship or share their opinions.

Another thing and don’t get me wrong Im not defending anyone. But I’ve seen many people heavily bullying the marisol actress because she’s apparently homophobic (not saying she isn’t or is) and wanting her to be gone beacause of this reason but totally ignore the alleged racism of ryan (again not saying he is racist or not, i dont know them personally) just because he is part of their beloved ship. By their logic Ryan should leave the show too.

Hey anon, it took me some time to answer your ask (chaotic life stuff lol) but I’m glad to finally have time to talk about this first part with you.

I’ll preface by saying I won’t get involved in actor drama, no matter how true or toxic it is because I don’t have enough information nor am I qualified to talk about the issues they mishandled. I’ll just say that, no matter who does bad things, they should be held accountable.

Okay, back to the main point: yes, it’s very strange how b*ddie st*ns are behaving towards the canon bi!buck thing. Both with people who ship bucktommy but also with the creators and actors on the show. Regardless if they are right or not about b*ddie being canon, this is not how you act with entertainment, specially with the people giving the content.

I hate to bash but it looks and sounds a lot like a toddler throwing a tantrum because they didn’t get a specific toy.

And toddlers only throw tantrums because they are brand new humans who are learning how to behave. They don’t know any better so they react with outbursts and repeated demands because it’s the only way they know to get the attention of the person taking care of them.

If I’m not mistaken, the main audience for the show is 18-45. NO ONE here should be yelling in comment sections “we want buddie! we want buddie! we want buddie!” as if they would immediately get it. It’s not how it works and it’s frankly embarrassing to see a bunch of adults acting like that for everyone to see.

And I can’t stress it enough, I’m not putting myself on a high ground here and saying I’m a better person by shipping bucktommy, as I’m sure there might be a percentage of fans out there being rude and annoying as well. But at least I’m keeping my conscience clear by not acting like me shipping two characters is something big enough in my life to ruin my enjoyment of a whole show in case my favorite ship doesn’t become canon.

I hate how fandoms behave as if they can have control over the content they are consuming. We aren’t entitled to anything and if there is supposed to be ANY discourse about which character was supposed to end with, that should happen AFTER the show ended! The story isn’t over yet! So why are b*ddie st*ns so stressed? If a show is making you this angry and demanding, please step aside a little, give it some distance because that’s not how consuming content is supposed to make you feel.

And I say that last part with sincerity because I too got way too involved with fandom discourse in the past, to the point that I had to distance myself from certain shows because being that involved made me upset.

Im just tired at this point you know. Im trying to protect myself as much as possible. Im not in the bird app, I don’t follow the show or the actors on social media, im avoiding interviews like the plague. All I want from this experience is to watch the show, gather my thoughts, form my opinions, log onto tumblr and reblog the cute stuff I see about my favorite ship without having to worry about whatever the hell is going on outside my pretty little bubble

#lety rambles #ask #911 #911 abc #bucktommy #tevan #firefly #firepilot

[thegeminisage]

whoops, i almost forgot about the star trek update. tuesday we watched tng's "firstborn" and "bloodlines" and last night we watched ds9's "the wire" (honorific)

firstborn (tng):

i was actually bracing for this one to suck ass bc everyone says worf is a bad dad. and i dont think he is!!! like, it doesn't come as easily to him as it does to sisko, and he sometimes forgets to be gentle or kind with alexander because he's so laser focused on how things SHOULD be he forgets to the importance of taking others' feelings into account, but that's how he is ALL THE TIME with EVERYONE not just his kid. considering the circumstances i'd say he's doing well

before we get started, GREAT cameo from the duras sisters. i was initially really annoyed with their tit windows but im becoming rather fond

i really liked "the family protector guy "k'mter" at first because he said all the right things to alexander...like, it's scary not being able to defend yourself, etc. then he also was a dick to alexander and i was really exasperated...but then he IS alexander so that totally fixes it. he's angry with himself and conflicted and just wants a HUG FROM HIS DAD and that FIXED it!!! like when he said "nobody will look at you and see a human you are alone on this ship" initially it felt like racism but it being like, not quite self-loathing but just bitter experience...that's actually so clever

this is the only episode where they brought up alexander's mom kind of hating ""klingon stuff"" and how that could possibly have negatively impacted him and it only got two lines of dialogue but still. i think it's really damning that she hated her own heritage and also brought her kid up to hate it and now he's sort of out here...pretending to be human, almost, to the point where he doesn't want to participate in hsi own culture or even bond with his own father (a klingon). like it sucks so bad for him

i was afraid that the plot twist would be "k'mter talks alexander into wanting to be a warrior after all just when worf realizes he doesn't have to be" which would have been sad but a real "oh shit" of an ending. mixed feelings about them not doing that but i understand why they wanted to properly wrap things up for s7

i almost forgot but rare w for picard for bending the rules a little bit to give worf time to go to the klingon festival with his kid. credit where it is due

bloodlines (tng):

i have never been so BITTERLY DISAPPOINTED.......................

they gave. picard. an affair baby.

THEY GAVE HIM AN AFFAIR BABY!

what have i been saying since farpoint! he has an affair baby! AND THEY GAVE HIM ONE

AND THEN TOOK IT AWAY

what was the POINT OF THE EPISODE

if that's not his fucking affair child

pussy ass little FUCKS couldnt commit to changes...

i can't even remember what else happened in this episode i was so disappointed about this plot twist

oh yeah actually i do remember picard made a bald joke which i THINK was the only time he's done that in seven seasons? i think the only time ANYONE'S done it? please correct me if i am wrong but i was so shocked it got a big laugh out of me. also a rare w for picard. if he made bald jokes more often i'd hate him less maybe

the wire (ds9)

ooohhhhhhhhhhhh my god. oh my GOD. let's fucking...get into it

i rly thot garak was just a guy but not only is he a former assassin he's a current junkie. A JUNKIE! he's just like me fr

also, he can act? like that scene where he was withdrawing and saying horrible shit to julian......i was on the edge of my seat.

i love that he gave us 3 different stories about how he got kicked out. i'm gonna be honest, i looked it up, and apparently we never find out the truth? that is a bold fucking move. a daring choice. we, like julian, will never have any certainty. like, sure, i WANT to believe he released some kids from being tortured, but it's also equally as likely that he killed civilians or did a number of other horrible things

like, the fact that he can lie about it even while under significant distress.........king. like you could say oh that's the true one because that's the one where he was physically unwell but he also referred to "elim" in that one which gives it the ring of a potential falsehood

julian forgiving him anyway, even after all the horrible stuff he said, even after being physically ATTACKED (WHICH WAS SCARY!!! i was scared of him!!!!!) for "whatever he did," just because garak said "i need to know someone forgives me"..........AUGHGHGH JESUS CHRIST

THE FACT THAT HE WON'T TALK ABOUT IT. he won't tell even US what he did. eliot spencer core actually. i am beside myself about it all

maybe he's right and it is all true. maybe he destroyed a ship and framed a friend AND let some kids go. it's literally none of business though like he's not gonna tell us

anyway, i heard the term "brain implant" and nearly died on the spot, so 10/10 episode

honestly, they should have just upgraded this guy to a regular. he is so good

NEXT TIME: tng's "emergence" and ds9's "crossover" AND YES I KNOW THAT'S MIRRORVERSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#personal #star trek blogging #tng lb #ds9 lb

[ganondoodle]

apparently one of main guys directing the god damn zelda movie "aims for it to be a live-action miyazaki"

and i just-

you idiot, you fool, you absolut buffoon

first of all, there is a REASON why all his films are ANIMATED, animation can do things live action will never be able to no matter how much shitty CGI effects you pump into it

secondly, given how any possible ghibli influence in totk is so clearly purely a superficial attempt of copying aesthetics and NOTHING more is making me more convinced that movie will be shit

miyazakis works have been reduced to whimsical childrens fantasy with a specific kind of aesthetic in the mindset of many and i HATE it, its so much more than that and seeing how much totk has been compared to it, again, purely bc of some aesthetics reminiscent of his movies is still driving me nuts

the zelda series, especially the most recent entry, is very clearly lacking in everything that miyazaki excels at and i am not confident that anyone in higher positions whos working on that darn movie understands any of it and will just go for the usual copying of surface level aesthetics tm

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #kinda #yes i am hating on it #i have no hope of it being good #and i have no interest in ever seeing it #especially not fucking live action #and i have accepted that i will have to ignore anything of it #but if you pull one of my favorite works in the entire world into the dirt with it it is personal now #listen princess mononoke is my favorite movie of all time #second is castle in the sky #and i hate how much of both of them have been compared to totk over and over #no shut up they are nothing alike #and now this?? #yes this is a me problem #which is why i am talking about it on MY account #you dare make a live action movie of my game special interest and now you invoke my biggest inspiration AND comfort movies for it too??? #jail for nintendo! jail for nintendo for one thousands years!!!

[zetsubobu]

Adding right to my previous post but little funfact about myself:

The reason I got into art was because there was a certain ninjago artist that I really loved and she had very interesting ocs. Those ocs became like a huge hyperfixation to me (that I still kind of have) and I remember screenshotting so much art of them, making folders, etc. In the end, those ocs inspired me so much that I wanted to create my own (as well as do fanart for them) so that's the reason why I wanted to learn how to draw.

I have always been a huge oc artist supporter which is why I just love learning about other people's ocs because I think that's one of the things where a persons creativity can shine the most.

#it's why I post about my own ocs sometimes because I know that there will be someone interested in them #even if they don't interact (because I certainly didn't #i was too shy) #although I haven't posted too much about them yet except for maybe marvolo #most of my oc lore is hidden on my private instagram account #because I don't want to talk too much here about my ocs and drown out fanart (because that's the reason most of you are following me) #though sometimes I really do feel an urge to just lore drop because I worked very hard on them #the only oc that doesn't have a proper personality and backstory is cece and that's because she's just my persona #she's supposed to represent me #i am always open for questions though #i'm actually working on a proper profile for my characters #some of which are sort of finished but I will only share the link to the website once all of them are #which probably takes a long time due to procrastination school and other works

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[estreitino]

SCHEDULING this post. This art is old, from like 2020 but I still figured I’d post it because I really like how it looks. I miss drawing on instagram! It’s super fun (except when you start getting more strokes and it threatens to crash on you LMAO.) Enjoy a little Baki! Goober.

#pt78 art #NEW TAG YOU GUYS #pt78 btg #pt78 btga #<-the tag SPECIFICALLY if people come onto my account looking for my btg art #baki hanma #hanma baki #baki the grappler #grappler baki #ok i have figured out #i will use spelled out btg for when i post anything related to baki as a whole #instead of using ALL the baki series tags #BUT when i ALSO tag something with grappler baki #it does mean i am SPECIFICALLY talking about baki’s first series #like right now! #platinum unknown fact #those letters are my basic initials! #i actually have 6 but those 3 are the main which is why i said basic #that first letter is an R lol mb if it's ugly #RHJ!

[rosymorns]

genius marketing tactic to start calling it vegan leather instead of pleather. but it is. still. plastic.

#they call me champagne taste rosymorns. on account of my everything. #i did an unintentionally bitchy thing today one of the managers was asking about perfume and im a perfume girlie!! #and she was like 'well my favorite perfume is victorias secret whatever scent' and i was like. oh. okay <3 #i probably dont have any recommendations for you then <3 FJLKFJLKSF #no what i actually said was like 'ohhh i got out of gourmands and into florals but i ordered a sample of roses vanille!' #which i did do. gourmands feel too immature to me but i'm really trying to find one i like #why am i talking about perfume. sorry i was shopping for a new purse and found one i really liked and then it said it was ''vegan leather'' #carly.txt

[fly-away-flynn]

My Emotional Breakdown is over people somehow not understanding that I want them to stop talking about what happened to me as if they have any right to talk about the situation.

#Vague posting about it isn’t helpful. Putting it on websites where I don’t have accounts isn’t helpful #Let. It. Die. #You do not know me nor do you know what happened to me and what I chose to talk about online #I see posts about the situation everywhere that have either blamed me or said that they do not want to take my side which I dont care about #But I am tired of seeing things about it months after I was finally given the freedom to talk about it #Does it not compute to you that It was not an internet friend who I talked to once in a while? I saw this man face to face every day #It was a real man in my actual life who gave me actual PTSD So stop talking about it like I said months ago. #I’m tired and I want to lay this to rest #Just leave me alone I don’t need posts on your sideblogs mentioning what happened to me or how it was addressed #I hate having to plead for a Fandom to just leave me alone because why don’t you get it? Why do you think you can give your opinion on this #I sincerely apologize for this post but I am worn down I am tired and I am in an awful place and there is nothing more that I want than for #-People to understand that I want them to stop #I don’t know how many times this Fandom will not listen to me

[shopcat]

been having the mother of all morality ocd spirals and the only way i can help it slash stop it is SAYING: tldr taikas been dumb but i still "like" him/(mostly ed) (who he plays). with a lot of flashing lights and disclaimers around "like".

And if you can. please like ❤️ <-👍👍👍 this post if you see it. (or you can unfollow me if you like no hard feelings but if you don't read the tags either i do Nawt support slash stand for the dumb shit he as an actor creator whatever says i think he does stupid shit)

#🐾 #i think he makes a lot of stupid comments but also a lot of things get taken out of context and he's targeted unfairly by .. ''the media'' #and twitter. and that does not apply to any of the reasonable criticism against hkm that i agree with #he has been antiblack and supported j*hnny depp however hollowly so and the current things he's been doing/saying #i think he's smart but also stupid and he's done good but also spread unfortunate messages #and people do love to dog pile him as in weird critics and movie fanboys not social media in general #like that thing where he said no one knows who directed casablanca and everyone got SO MAD #as if he wasn't saying it in the context of ''therefore i don't create movies to be known as the director. i do it to create.'' #AND finally the hundred flashing disclaimers are the typical you know me (i hope) i don't do celebrity stan culture etc etc #i don't support the things he says and don't believe in seperating art from the artist in general but do think he is a Good artist #and his work has brought a lot of meaning to me personally. i think he's a flawed guy who is attempting to do right #and says the wrong thing sometimes and should still be held accountable he's not a child etc etc #and his latest comment ie the podcast IS still stupid bc of its insensitivity bc of the current state of the world #and he already made a stance by signing the letter so being asked to clarify is seriously not the drama he may think it is #anyway. that's all i think #it's also not lost on me AGAIN that our flag is my spinterest and i am being a bit selfish here which is why i say you can unf if you like #i talk and think about this a lot sorry 😭 #but i do think in the grand scheme he is pro palestine he is attempting something or other i understand what he was saying even if it was #stupid and annoying but i know how he got there. i don't think there's such thing as liking an unflawed celeb or media #but you do put out what you wish to receive in the world and should support things critically as in thoughtfully #and who and what you choose to show support for can reflect onto you but at the end of the day if people think i personally stand for these #things and therefore dislike me well. that's fine i guess and i don't anyway so i'm also fine with it #sorry if this sounds clinical i feel like i'm reading from a handbook LOL #and of course like always if he ever goes over the line i will be able to extract myself immediately but the layers of weirdness here is #sort of messing with my mind. hence the ocd spiral. And one million tags #also ironically he also has ocd lol #basically. it's disappointing and i hope he does better. much like with anyone who isn't morally reprehensible to begin with #update from the future um. well thank you guys for putting up with my apparent manic breakdowns 😭 i don't even know why i made this post

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

I do know your ao3 but I've only read a couple of your fics...I like the one set at the end of Midnight from Donna's pov. But most of your stuff is either Ten/Rose (not my cup of tea) or Leela/Narvin (I'm not far enough yet to get why people ship them) so... I'll read more at some point!

Unfortunately it seems you are mistaken on knowing my ao3, I have never written an ten/rose fic, though I can’t say I haven’t written any leela/narvin stuff (I haven’t actually finished half of it or published any but it’s written

#I haven’t actually posted anything on my ao3 in a bit #it’s one of my only accounts that has no connection to the boneworms name #which is why I think a lot of people don’t know about it #it’s achilleswithworkingheels if you were curious #I should actually write some fics that I can post #unfortunately I am stuck in writing about my ocs but too embarrassed to talk about my ocs hell #asks

[veloriium]

i always feel weird posting even a little hint of my personal life anywhere but i guess i need to remind others and myself that i am a real person

#- lorii rambles #i lost someone very very close to me 8 months ago and the grief is hitting me strangely hard tonight im not sure why #i guess the combination of music im listening to and those tiktok web weaving things about living and grieving what once was #i guess the combination of those made me think things over #she is in the ground and yet here i am #it feels so selfish of myself #she will never know my accomplishments in life and she will never attend my graduation #i go on for her but i feel like she should still be here #cancer sucks. especially getting it so late in life #anyways . please don’t dm me about anything or talk to me about this lol again i feel weird posting about. y personal life #but i have nowhere else to go which sounds really depressing but i never did get a grief councilor or therapist or something like that #and my family is not a big emotion talker family aside from the few weeks after it happened #and i don’t feel like making another side venting account #anyways ^_^

[bookwyrminspiration]

experiencing an inconvenience which means the world hates me and me specifically

#quil's unholy underworld #listen I love learning asl but my GOD the classes always have the most problems ever in the whole wide world #'upload your digital worksheet from the website where you watched the videos' WHAT FUCKING WORKSHEET #THERE ISN'T ONE #the things labeled worksheets are formatted as QUIZZES #there is NOTHING to DOWNLOAD #WHAT ARE YOU /TALKING/ ABOUT #and it's SATURDAY #because it's due TOMORROW #which means she won't respond to an email in time for me to ASK #WHAT FUCKING WORKSHEET #WHERE. IS. IT #am I being an idiot??? #AND #the site did a weird thing this semester where it made me a SECOND ACCOUNT??? connected to the SAME email address??? #and on one of them i'm enrolled in the course and in the other i'm not. so like. WHY #fuck me I guess

[whenfatecollides]

it's honestly getting to the point that I absolutely don't want to go on my dc twt account anymore why are people on there like... that..... the less time I go on there the less I can stand going on there tbh :/

#at least the majority of insomnias on here are pretty good.... #but idk the way a big part of this fandom talks abt the members is just so disrespectful to me I rly can't stand it #but it's also not rly my problem to change the way those ppl talk/think so i wish I could make peace with it but here I am making a tumblr #post to complain... #I suppose the right thing to do here is just try to ignore it all and do my own thing which ive been trying to for a while but idk #might just stop using my dc twt account altogether for my own sake 💀 #I just rly dont identify anymore with what this fandom has turned into over the last two years #ik all fandoms will change over time etc but it feels like the fandom has gotten so possessive and entitled of them I feel so uneasy about #it #:/ anyway #jt #this is also majorly why I haven't rly been doing much content here? like in a way I just have no idea why I should do it anymore 😭 #it used to be bc I wanted to help dc grow and like while ik they aren't done growing and this is only the beginning it kinda also doesn't #rly feel worth it if the fandom is getting like that 😔 I feel rly conflicted

[supercantaloupe]

good gd i hate arranging travel through a group/agency rather than by myself now

#why is it that when i put my plane reservation number in through the app i got a different person's name on the ticket. #but on the website it's mine. #also i had to dig through the photos of the flight itinerary sent to me to find a number to enter #(said itinerary photos didn't even include the return flight into. lol. ripping my hair out) #for gds sake PLEASE just tell me what my booking number is and which flight i'm taking so i can enter that info into my account #and calendar. and fucking be done with it #pleeeaaase i don't want to just throw my information into the void and hope some stranger at a travel agency or whatever #will take care of it for me. i know this trip is with a youth orchestra but i am a full adult please let me handle my own plane ticket.... #i wanna talk about me

[orcelito]

see the problem with planning out the remainder of the fic is that i have so many thoughts and scene ideas and i have like 3 more months of game time to put them in

how am i supposed to lay all this out? i just now got another scene idea to address a current conflict & this idea didnt exist like 2 minutes ago. it’s Impossible to account for everything i’ll be doing.

#speculation nation #discacc shit #i do think i wanna build up a document tho. for like. recording these things #and roughly placing them in sections. aka planning! #something that normal writers do. which i have Not bc i uhhh idk i just havent needed to #now im just staring at the calendar and trying to place things for the next month in discacc lmao #bc i forgot about the cultural festival. the general events around it will have changed but it's still smth to account for #and it does get in the way of what i had in mind previously lol #..............................oh no #just got the idea of like. uh. having a set calendar that records definite events #which would be great for future planning BUT my brain just went like #'haha what if i went and did this for the entirety of the fic beforehand' and. :| #a uhhh project i guess for whenever my next reread is. god help my soul. #like im talking a whole big document that records every set event onto each day it happens #which i followed the calendar pretty closely so it could be recorded. it would just take a lot. #but how cool would it be to see essentially an itemized list of things that happened in discacc and when they happened #my encyclopedic knowledge of my fic is not enough. i need to be able to hold it in my hands in a Document #perhaps this is a better idea than trying to plan out set chapters of discacc bc that is never going to work lol #oh... why am i like this... #lmao me being Like This tho is what's got us this 467k words fic. so like. could be worse! #uhmm i need to work on my quiz before i can do any of this. cant be falling behind in school too much