#which was terribly frustrating

[canisalbus]

Currently suffering an ear infection and all I can think is how you said Vasco is prone to them. Does he get miserable and exhausted from the pain or is he more the type to get short tempered and cranky?

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#I'd say a little bit of both but he tends to get more testy than dejected #because there aren't really any effective treatments for ear infections #he's gotten very careful about cleaning and maintaining his ears and trying to make sure they never stay moist for very long #and that has helped somewhat but he can't avoid them completely which frustrates him greatly #Vasco usually manages to react to adversities with prolonged and stubborn optimism #he generally takes setbacks as a challenge instead of a personal failure #but after his patience and good will finally run out he gets upset #he gets angry but usually in a constructive way and it gives him another boost of energy to attempt to fix things #Machete gets paralyzed by sadness but Vasco rarely does #he just doubles down #answered #werewolfteaparty #Vaschete lore #ear infections are terrible I hope you feel better soon

[onebizarrekai]

I've been playing beta minecraft for reasons

bonus: windowed mode obliterated color glitch

#minecraft #random stuff #I had to do an entire tutorial and get the prism launcher to fix that glitch #I was telling my brother. when I started playing it it felt like playing a horror game version of minecraft #where it's pitch black at night and you can't run and can't passively regenerate #now it just sort of feels like Smaller Simpler Minecraft. with some functionality problems #in some ways it's less frustrating to play #in others it's like oh. I definitely see why they fixed that. like bows which are terrible in this version #I see people talking about how old minecraft had so much more busywork in it #but modern minecraft is just. villagers. #once I get all the items I was thinking about updating it to the prereleases so that I can finally sprint #it is nice to not have to constantly eat though

[veiyn]

his design caught my eye in the beginning but when i actually met him in game..

#yomi #yomi hellsmile #rain code #master detective archives: rain code #mdarc #rain code fanart #IM IN LOVE WITH HALARA NIGHTMARE #guys i have to be studying for the sat rn I CANT PLAY RAINCODE BUT I NEED TO PLAY RAINCODE i js got the chapter 4 investigation but #i cant play again until i take the sat WHICH IS IN A WEEK UGHUGHUGHUGHG #i have like mixed opinions on Certain.. things but i think its pretty standard story content wise for a spike game LOL #the music is so good tho and im having a blast playing even tho SOME mechanics r a little frustrating to me but that might just be bc #i have terrible depth perception.

[variousqueerthings]

the nature of being a johnny lawrence fan, is that it is often indistinguishable from being a johnny lawrence hater, and I don't think I have that with any other character. usually I'm very protective of my faves (including in cobra kai, daniel, sam, kreese, and tsilver), but johnny, I very much enjoy reading all the reasons people dislike his character, nodding along like "yeah what an inconsistent mess, you're so right, carmen pls u deserve better narrative to work with, terry silver was telling the truth when he mocked his fatherhood abilities, but alas the writing will never support it"

#johnny lawrence fans 🤝 johnny lawrence haters -- wtf is going on with johnny lawrence's character in s5???????? #johnny lawrence #cobra kai #ck #i can write miles of text about the queercoding of johnny lawrence #and also about how terribly inconsistent the writing for him is due to a sexist notion that he must be a Badass #actually i think johnny lawrence is one of the most interesting case studies of this phenomenon #obvs most famously archetyped by dean winchester -- but i think jlaw is even More That #1. literal 80s character so all these people read him through a particular nostalgia lens #2. in a show that is possibly Thee most trope-filled nostalgia show i have ever seen be that way Accidentally #(riverdale was doing it on purpose -- stranger things... yeah maybe but i think cobra kai is even more on the nose actually) #3. played by quite a sensitive actor actually who deeply cares about the nuance of the character #which appears to be at constant war with the intentions of the narrative he has to appear in #4. and like. the writers Know about the queercoding because they've interacted with fans (nicely actually) #but they have literally no idea what to do with it but ALSO have lampshaded it occasionally #it's... it's fascinating.... #they want so badly for him to win but they're going about it the wrong way -- the narrative continues to be circular/an inward spiral #nothing has changed except for the reactions of other characters #jlaw must remain static because of our nostalgia but also be important to the story somehow #the Tension of it all is personally delicious to me but man is it frustrating as well

[skeletoninthemelonland]

BTC definitely talks to himself. Like while he's working on his projects or walking around, all the while muttering away about what parts he needs or where he needs to go next.

that, my fellow tumblr user, is actually 100% canon! He does it ALL the time throughout the series. He also gets so focused he ends up forgetting where he put his things (and gets angry at himself for it)

#You know when you're looking for a pencil you can't find until you realize it's still in your hand? like that #There's a certain level of anger and frustration artists feel when they are creating something that doesn't meet their expectations #which drives them forward into the creative process. coming up with better ideas or creative ways to fix an issue #thinking things like 'not good enough' and 'something is missing' or 'this is terrible' #then a second thought 'how to fix it?' #I may or may not have portrayed Springtrap as a character that enjoys tinkering with things until he finds a solution #you go closer and he's smiling. like he is born to fix things #imagining it makes me feel happy for some reason ksjsjskwdbwh #btc springtrap #off btc ask

[wonder-worker]

"The newly widowed Elizabeth (Woodville) was exceptionally vulnerable. Several of the trustees responsible for her jointure refused to hand over the manors that were meant to sustain her in her widowhood. Moreover, her brother-in-law, Edward Grey, had seized estates that her son Thomas should have inherited from his paternal grandfather, while her mother-in-law’s new young husband, Sir John Bourchier, had prevailed on Lady Ferrers to settle her principal properties on them jointly for life, ensuring that Thomas would have to wait far longer for this inheritance too. Rivers and Scales were pardoned in July 1461 and swiftly moved into the Yorkist establishment, which perhaps explains the success of the chancery suits Elizabeth launched to regain her jointure. Her son’s inheritance proved harder to recover. By 1463, Rivers was often in (Edward IV's) company and on his council, but Elizabeth needed someone with much stronger influence over the King. She turned to a distant kinsman, William, Lord Hastings, the King’s chamberlain. Hastings drove a very hard bargain for his aid but it was probably amid these negotiations that the King’s desire for Elizabeth was kindled."

-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: the Knight's Widow", "Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, and Dynasty"

#historicwomendaily #elizabeth woodville #Elizabeth really had terrible in-laws #And these people weren't even the worst of them - that particular award goes to Richard of Gloucester #As complicated as her first widowhood sounds it was a breeze compared to the literal nightmare she went through during her second. #Honestly though: part me wonders what Elizabeth's first marriage was like because we know absolutely nothing about it. #The marriage itself is a blank slate but the fact that her husband's parents & siblings were so indifferent and uncooperative #to her - and their own kid-grandchildren?? - after he died indicates that his family may have been rather dysfunctional imo? #Certainly they (or most of them) don't seem to have cared about the wellbeing or dignity of his young and newly widowed wife which #doesn't exactly suggest closeness or support during the marriage itself from their end. #Elizabeth doesn't mention John Gray in her deathbed will either though she mentions Edward IV. She may have thought it was #'inappropriate' to mention her first husband beside her significantly higher-ranked second husband...but she DOES mention her son by #her first marriage - which would have drawn attention to it anyway - alongside her royal daughter so that's unlikely to have been a reason. #Maybe it was simply the passage of time? She and John had been married for very few years and she lived such a different life after that #So it's possible that her first marriage simply seemed very distant and faraway to her. #Alternatively it may have simply been undivided affection for Edward IV (her husband of 19 years who she married for love) #which fits well into the relatively personal nature of her will. #Of course we don't actually know anything about any of this and this is all pure wild speculation on my end...but I'm curious. #It's really a shame how little we actually know about Elizabeth's life - made worse by the very limited primary records of Edward IV's #reign and the fact that his chamber records don't survive. And it's even more frustrating that this is so rarely actually acknowledged #by historians. I'd argue we know far more about the life & interests of most other 'prominent' women of the Wars of the Roses #(sans the Neville sisters) than we do about Elizabeth Woodville.

[lorillee]

you know they werent kidding when they said the best art advice is to become obsessed with something

#i was literally thinking ‘’it is a bit frustrating because i want to draw expressions #but like 90% of kakashis face is completey covered . which is not terribly conducive for doing that ‘’ #and it was at this moment i realized. i will now finally be forced to learn human anatomy #and how to portray emotions via body language and gestures. THE HORROR OF IT ALL! but i will do it. for kakashi #lorillee.txt

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

why is everything (showing other people respect. being patient and kind. not flying off the handle about stupid things. emotional regulation and self-control. et cetera.) so easy when I'm not around my parents and so so so so hard when I AM around them?

#this is a genuine question btw I need advice bc I'm STRUGGLING. idk why everything makes me frustrated and angry #when I'm around my parents and it's SO hard to be kind and respectful to them and my sister #but so easy literally everywhere else #I hate that I'm like this I wish I could genuinely be a nice person but apparently the person #I REALLY am is the horrible selfish lazy brat I am with my parents. #even though it feels 100% easier otherwise APPARENTLY the real me is the one I revert to at home #but being nice away from home comes so naturally?? so is THAT the real me??? idk what to do I'm so frustrated right now #Lu rambles #can my mutuals please weigh in bc I feel like a terrible horrible emotionally illiterate person rn #bc of a conversation in which I fought with my mom over the fact that I have a hard time respecting my middle school aged sister #bc I don't want her (bold. confident. sometimes a little bit of a brat as well bc humanity) thinking she can walk all over me #the way she acts always makes me feel like she thinks she's better than me but maybe it's just my mindset. bc I KNOW #that my middle schooler sister IS better than me in most ways and I HATE that. how can someone #so much younger than me be better than me at basically everything she sets her mind to? #and how can I ever have confidence in myself when I know that's the case??? it's so frustrating!! #ugghdnfnsngsmkgnskfnskd I need advice and prayers. and probably to go to bed early tonight.

[lambsprout]

#mspaint #paintcats #ms paint #cat #idk exactly what this is about #a buncha things #like how even the most horrible terrible frustrating days you probably won't remember if its just an ordinary type of horrible #in three years i will forget how i stubbed my toe getting out of bed and ruined my whole day #its also like about how we are echos of ourselves #my past shaped my present which will shape my future yknow? #but not like directly...its subtle #its woven together into a tapestry that is me #and through that messiness its okay #its okay to have a bad day or a hard year because overall it doesnt matter- you're still you #you always have been and always will be

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I think I’m gonna have to ask for an extension on this paper but i hate doing that so much I might drop out instead

#and I need the extension bc I’m so swamped grading #which is a self created problem and I’ve been behind on grading all semester which I feel terrible about #It’s my fucking job and my like obligation but I can’t fucking keep up and I know I’m not meeting even a low bar for timely feedback #executive dysfunction makes me want to kms sometimes #I’m so frustrated with myself I cannot put this feeling of self disgust into words #I’m like if a girl who found poor self discipline a loathsome trait had awful executive dysfunction

[iirulancorrino]

Long before Roe was overturned, providers’ desire to avoid risk—from professional ostracization to picketing to shootings—shadowed abortion care. This is why medical schools often refrained from offering training in terminating pregnancies, and why abortion procedures were not regularly performed in the vast majority of public hospitals. Since Dobbs, some medical institutions have gone further, hesitating to provide care to women such as Christina Zielke, who was rushed to a hospital in Painesville, Ohio, last September after experiencing heavy bleeding from a miscarriage. Instead of performing a dilation-and-curettage procedure to remove the pregnancy tissue from her uterus, the hospital staff discharged Zielke, apparently in response to a six-week abortion ban that had been passed by the Ohio state legislature. Zielke was soon lying in a bathtub in a pool of blood, wondering if she would die. After she lost consciousness, her family called 911, and paramedics eventually took her back to the hospital, where a doctor performed the procedure.

Such horror stories are a predictable consequence of the fear that criminalizing abortion has spread through the medical community. For fifty years, Roe protected providers from legal risks like the ones taken on by the Jane Collective, an underground network of women in Chicago. Collective members arranged more than eleven thousand illegal abortions in the late nineteen-sixties and early seventies, until a team of detectives raided their makeshift clinic and charged them with multiple counts of “conspiracy to commit abortion.” (Just before their cases went to trial, the Supreme Court legalized abortion.) Arguably, providers face greater legal dangers now than they did before Roe. Carole Joffe, a sociologist who has written about the history of abortion, told me that doctors who performed illegal procedures in the past “typically received sentences of a few years,” whereas physicians today face “an aggressive anti-abortion movement that, in some states, is calling for life imprisonment.” Abortion opponents have also targeted organizations such as Planned Parenthood with spurious lawsuits and violent attacks, in an effort to shut them down.

Planned Parenthood’s motto is “Care. No matter what.” These words suggest an uncompromising commitment to serving patients. Yet some pro-choice advocates feel that the group, along with other large organizations that have shaped the modern abortion-rights movement, has lately seemed more focussed on self-preservation than on taking bold risks. Tracy Weitz, a reproductive-rights scholar who directs the Center on Health, Risk, and Society, at American University, told me she is worried that these groups are being guided too strongly by attorneys whose priority is to shield them from lawsuits. The mission of Planned Parenthood is not “institutional survival,” Weitz said. “Their entire goal, their mission, is to serve patients.” If caution supersedes this goal, she warns, not only will patients suffer but the pro-choice movement will fall into a familiar trap. “One of the critiques of the abortion-rights movement is that we put too much faith in the law, believing that it would protect the right to abortion,” she said. “I think it’s ironic that all of a sudden we have turned over this movement to a whole new group of lawyers—not constitutional lawyers but risk managers.”

In the fall of 2021, a preview of how these dynamics could play out in a post-Roe era unfolded in Texas, after Governor Greg Abbott signed the Texas “heartbeat” bill. Better known as S.B. 8, the law banned abortion after six weeks of pregnancy, and it offered a ten-thousand-dollar bounty to any private citizen who successfully sued someone involved in such a procedure. In the view of some analysts, S.B. 8 was plainly unconstitutional—Roe v. Wade was then still federal law—and designed to intimidate both patients and providers. (Indeed, Planned Parenthood joined the A.C.L.U. and other groups in a lawsuit to block S.B. 8.) One might imagine that Planned Parenthood and other large pro-choice organizations, including the National Abortion Federation, which funds and supports many independent clinics, would have responded to this threat by urging providers to continue offering care and by pledging to defend anyone named in a lawsuit. Vicki Saporta, who served as the N.A.F.’s president until 2018, believes that such a strategy would have been both feasible and effective. “There could have been a legal-defense fund set up to pay out various ten-thousand-dollar suits while S.B. 8 was being challenged, and, in the meantime, care could have continued to be provided,” she said. Planned Parenthood and its affiliates, whose net assets exceed two billion dollars, have “the wherewithal to raise the legal-defense money,” she added.

Instead, Planned Parenthood’s South Texas affiliate instructed its providers to stop performing all abortions, even before six weeks. The affiliate’s apparent anxiety about lawsuits was shared by Planned Parenthood’s leaders and by its attorneys in Washington, who warned that Republicans in Texas could weaponize S.B. 8 to try to bankrupt the organization. Meanwhile, the N.A.F. announced that it would stop funding any providers and patients who didn’t comply with S.B. 8—and even pressed clinics to perform a second ultrasound after patients had endured Texas’s mandatory twenty-four-hour waiting period, in case a heartbeat could be detected then. Many Texas doctors refused to adhere to the N.A.F. directive. In fact, some physicians had the impulse to publicly flout S.B. 8. Shortly after the law took effect, Alan Braid, a provider in San Antonio, published an op-ed in the Washington Post in which he acknowledged having performed an abortion after the six-week limit. He explained that in the early seventies, while completing his ob-gyn residency, he had seen several women die from illegal abortions. “I understand that by providing an abortion beyond the new legal limit, I am taking a personal risk, but it’s something I believe in strongly,” he wrote. Braid told me recently that, at the time, he’d talked to several physicians who shared his feelings and who, like him, were willing to defy S.B. 8. If doctors were willing to fight, he wondered, why were institutions designed to protect women’s rights capitulating?

#what I'm reading #abortion #planned parenthood #reproductive justice #this was an absolutely maddening article but reified a lot of things I have been frustrated about over the past year/years #and intersects a lot with some stuff I've been thinking about wrt how disastrous the ngo-ification of feminism has been for women #and how the medical field (for many reasons understandably) and large organizations writ large and inherently risk averse #which means they are terribly positions to fight back against the anti abortion movement in this political climate #it's super frustrating...the way pp markets itself (and raises millions of $$) as the vanguard of the resistence vs what they actually do #feels super disingenuous and gross #*are inherently

[thedroloisms]

also i have to say there's smth consistently eye-rolly about the idea of going "oh you can't blame me for leaving her there !! i thought they were good people !! i didn't think they would do anything bad to her !!! that's why i left her there i thought she was safe !!!" as if "they" even broke that trust. according to literally all accounts the incident in question happened before you left and nothing progressed further after you were gone. accusing "them" of being horrible nasty people when again, the only wrongdoing alleged at all was on the part of one of them ???? like you can just say that while drunk you didn't make the right judgement call and once you woke up sober you checked in with your friend because thinking back you were worried abt her comfort levels without crying wolf about how you simultaneously "thought they were good safe people" and they took advantage of that after you left (by doing nothing after you left, because the whole incident being described here happened with you in the room) and also knew she was uncomfortable which is why you checked on her immediately (which is somehow being used to blame two people who had zero access to the texts asking her if she was comfortable at all and therefore made the assumptions that she was comfortable based on what they themselves saw)

#like no one took advantage of your trust after you left the whole thing did in fact happen while you were in the room #if they /were/ the monsters you feel like painting them as then yeah it would've been really bad for you to leave her in that environment ! #but uh things literally never progressed further than they did while you were in the room #like at first i thought you didn't know the same way dr eam apparently didn't know #but no the narrative now is apparently that you knew ? but didn't do anything? and assumed she was okay? but that she was uncomfortable? #or whatever? #which is like. cool you can just say that your drunk brain didn't really ring the alarm bells as much as they shouldve #when you apparently noticed in the moment that she looked uncomfortable and didn't do anything #that doesn't change anything abt what discomfort other people might have perceived as Not Her Best Friend #and that also doesn't mean that you were somehow betrayed bc you trusted them not to be terrible people when you left her there #bc . nothing. in fact. happened . after you left her there. #and the whole 'incident' being described in this whole situation happened WITH YOU RIGHT THERE . #anyway excuse my frustration

[brw]

All the fucking racist clowns talking about "ugh they're RUINING Wonder Man" is genuinely so hysterical because absolutely fucking nobody thought about Wonder Man before this show was announced. I know this because I searched like a fucking dog trying to find an actual community of Wonder Man fans. There was a CBR thread and absolutely nothing else. It was me and that weird homophobically gay cosplay video where he's played by an Australian against the world. Do NOT act like you know what the fuck you're talking about saying they ruined Wonder Man. He hadn't been on a consistent team in going on a decade by the time the show was announced.

#brieuc.txt #NOT TO MENTION he was black in the ultimates. which granted is a terrible version of simon because it IS racist but fixing it makes sense #someone tried to argue the Ultimates version isn't an iconic version of him and like bro 616 simon isnt an iconic simon. simon isnt iconic. #hes d-tier. nobody thinks about him. shut the fuck up. #there's just so many idiot trolls to deal with now. very frustrating. especially because again simon did not have an established community #or fandom before then. he was very much so a fringe character mentioned only in relation to wanda or vision or hank and MAYBE carol #anyway dont search wonder man on Instagram youll want to kill someone #mcu wonder man #ask to tag

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad #bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young #and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder #but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small #and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible #grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing #and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is #probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a #fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong #with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality #and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever #as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun #its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to #read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like #yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess #i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she #clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate #unrelated

[bluejayblueskies]

turns out i'm still mad at how everyone in t/ma treated jon actually

#like. okay. #without getting to far into discourse bc frankly it's not worth dragging that all up again out of the depths of hell where it belongs #and because i have thought about the other characters' motivations and about the nuances of how a terrible situation impacts all involved #etc. etc. #there really was no reason to go so hard on the 'jon is The Embodiment Of Everything That Has Ever Gone Wrong In The Podcast Ever' thing #it got to the point where it was actively frustrating to listen to especially in season five #((and tbh listening to rq commentaries only made it worse bc it made me realize 'oh they. they don't think that the way jon was treated #is actually as bad or as big of a deal as i did' #which kinda turned me off canon tma content for a while)) #anyway. idk i just sometimes question whether or not the other characters acting the way they did toward jon was actually #necessary or if it was just a remnant from when jon was supposed to have a corruption arc that was never corrected for some reason #discourse #tma discourse #(if this shows up in the tag i'm sorry i just. hghhhhh. if tma2 starts pulling the same nonsense i am quitting immediately #and retreating into the arms of male/volent my beloved)

[daydadahlias]

Ashton seems like the type of man to be so dramatic if he gets sick/has the most minor inconvenience. If he burnt his tastebuds he’d be like “I think I have third degree burns.”

it's his repressed theatre kid gene tbh

#pigeon #anon #he was soooo a theatre kid #i mean a terrible one but #he was #he's such a drama queen (affectionate) and i love him for that #but what makes it even more frustrating is he probably IS like this for minor injuries #but then with major problems like getting eye surgery he's like 'what if i dont tell my closest friends about this' #he refuses to actually seek help #which makes me love him <3 #but also baby please