#why do i ache for you

[sherbetstudios]

CAN WE TALK AB THE NEW TNV CHAPTER PLEASE

CH 21 Spoilers ahoy

Sorry @sugarpasteltmnt i guess im just gonna be clogging your activity for now (SORRY)

#the neon void #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leo #My hands #ny fucking pinky ACHES #Why it specifically?? Ion know #Anyways I hope you like it it only took me like 2 and half hours (??? I dont know how i did it That fast) #(Also i was 100% aiming to do the reveal and then I started this And liked it so

[moeblob]

#fe fates #camilla #so i actually drew this a while ago but was gonna shade it and do more emoji things #but welp uh hmmmm im sick and apparently look like I'm dying #which isnt a problem until i sit down to draw and my vision is blurry and yeah thats a problem #so i just attempted to do a doodle and then failed and opted to apply a tiny but of shading to this and give up #but yup uh after a nice of body aches and misery and trying to sleep and failing #i crashed from 10am to 5pm thinking id just rest a lil bit #before anyone says oh you could have taken a day off you know - i technically can yes youre right #however my brain uses art as a coping mech and i need that coping mech really bad right now #which is why i stopped trying to draw something new for today and just went back to a past thing #im not overdoing it i promise #even if my mom and sister think i look like death walking around

[viperbooty]

Back to talking about the Fantasy Fandom and the racism that tends to be part of it!

I genuinely think if Wyll were white he'd get way more attention and love. He'd have sparkle flower crown edits saying "My sweet cornball!!" "My boys got daddy issues!!". Also Warlock is a class beloved by many. And as someone who plays a warlock in bg3 having two of them fucking ROCKED, I always had spells at the ready. So really saying "buh! buh! two warlocks is just bad!" its really not, short rests and cantrips out the asshole really make it easy.

Anyway.

If Gale were black he would be fully ignored and people would, in masses, complain about how annoying he is, how useless he is, how he doesn't really fit in with the rest of the "way more interesting cast". How he's so unbearably straight because all he talks about is his ex.

Lemme keep on this though because if Shadowheart was a Black Person she would have been fucking Crucified for the way she talks about other races, other religions, and just in general the way you have to pull information out of her like pulling teeth. Also if she were a black woman she'd be reduced to "uncaring boss bitch who "dont need no man"" or "unbarable bitch who needs to be Killed"

Am I getting my point across enough?

Wyll was shafted by the game by having literally less content than the rest of the party. Wyll DOES have an interesting story. Wyll is also corny, he's funny, he's so sweet, and his conversations with Karlach are soooo great and yet it's all abandoned because he's generally viewed as "boring".

And by the way. You are allowed to like and dislike characters. But I see a lot of people side stepping the Fantasy Racism to say "but hes just boring thats why I dont like him". Like sure, if you gave Wyll an honest chance and still found him boring then that's your opinion and choice! HOWEVER!! We CANNOT ignore that he is being LEFT OUT of edits, of fan art, of character discussions. When I see posts that are the entire cast MINUS Wyll it tells me everything I need to know about you.

Also one last thing... I cannot imagine being Wyll's VA and seeing how many times you are being left out on purpose. How so few add your character to edits, or fan art. It has to be crushing to some extent, even if you expected it.

#bg3 #bg3 wyll #the color of a characters skin seems to be the measurement of love and interest for the fandom #i genuinely do not understand why people also shove him into “token straight cop” HES LITERALLY NOT. #as a black person it makes my heart ache for the fact he would be absolutely ADORED if he were a fucking white boy #the way people would swoon for him and his cornyness - or explore his background with his pact #feel free to add to this anyway youd like but if you comment BUT HES BORING im going to spear you like an angry caveman #also this is coming from seeing the fucking new wave of hate for a new castlevania black vampire #sure sure you can believe a fantasy world full of magic and creatures but BLACK is where the line is drawn like bffr

[schmweed]

#David Tennant #Alec Hardy #Ellie Miller #Broadchurch #my gifs #Ellie just keeps sparing him any direct eye contact outside of serious work-related situations #And he only looks at her when she's looking away #The way Ellie lights up when she realizes what he's saying. #That 'mostly' from him is the kindest most genuine and delightfully playful way of expressing how much she means to him #Love how she lets him know she doesn't believe he lost his phone and therefore her number and yet doesn't give him a hard time abt it #he's too brilliant a detective not to have memorized her number or found a way to say hi #It's just that she probably thinks he didn't care enough #I think Tess gave him an ultimatum -- stop contacting his outstanding Miller if they're going to make this work or Tess won't try #How many times do you think he looked at Ellie's number when he was alone and ached to contact her in any way #Especially given how concerned he was abt her at the end of S2 #But trying to fix the family came first and honestly he's a wonderful human to do that for his daughter's sake #I think he's relieved Ellie would never in her wildest dreams suspect that's why -- but he still wishes he could tell her. #Complicated doesn't begin to cover it. But he decides basking in her presence for their endless hours of work has to be enough. Oh Alec. #Aww. Look at Ellie's beaming face. #I love them so much! <3

[4suitedplayingcard]

*stares at you with my autistic eyes*

#i wanted to practice my shading skills and all i got out of it were aching fingers and low self esteem #also idk why hes doing the L death note pose. he just is #punch out #punch out!! #great tiger #ace.art #also if you saw that this was posted 2 times.. no u didnt

[bylertruther-moved]

is it just me or does anyone else think it would be more interesting if instead of following the same old tired and sad trope of “small town gay youth falls in love with his seemingly straight best friend during the eighties and ends up dejected and all alone” they flipped the script and gave them a win?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to take the audience’s tired expectations and flip them on their head?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to follow up on the fact that the only person that loves this “straight best friend” the way he needs and wants to be loved is indeed his gay best friend that’s conveniently been in love with him since the very beginning?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to show that the special relationship this “straight best friend” has with his gay best friend was special not only because they were besties but because his feelings were there, too, he just didn’t realize their nature?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to show that there’s a reason why the “straight best friend” effortlessly and naturally treats his best friend the exact way that his girlfriend begs him to treat her?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to finally face and name the reason why this “straight best friend” can maintain his friendships with everyone else while in a relationship except for his gay best friend who has had parallels with his girlfriend from the very beginning?

wouldn’t that be more interesting than ignoring all of the previous seasons and making milkyway, the one dysfunctional and dishonest ship on the show, endgame?

wouldn’t it be more in line with the stranger things shtick to continue to subvert these tropes as they’ve done from the very beginning?

why do people want this to be the one time that they actually fail to do that? like, i know why, but i want to hear them say it.

#byler #like obviously i know my byler brigade agrees. but it's like. the unrequited route would be so boring and expected and sad. #both in the vein of will not ever being allowed to win or be happy AND in the vein of that being hailed as #Super Realistic despite this being a sci-fi show about otherworldly monsters and children with powers. #so it's okay to have powered children and monsters in your show #but when it comes to fantasy you draw the line at gay people being loved and happy? 🤨 #IF they give a shit about a coherent story then they would follow up on it. there has to be a reason why they present all these problems for #milkvan and then in the next scene they show you that mike is perfectly capable of doing what eleven needs him to do he just would rather do #that with will than with her. there has to be a reason why byler don't and have never had the issues that milkvan does. #there has to be a reason why milkvan have been on different pages and lying to each other and so insecure abt themselves with relation #to the other while byler are literally confirming on screen that they feel like equals and are a team and honest to e #ach other always [disregarding the car confession which is... a truth/lie] #like. unless they're baiting or being awful they have to be pointing to one thing here...

[turtlecleric]

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#(huge relieved sigh) #I'm emotional over the little community that I get to participate in here #been on Tumblr over 10 years #been in multiple fandoms that I've made content for #and this is the first time I've experienced this level of interaction and community #first time I've had mutuals and had that actually mean something #I'm still terrified of unknowingly doing something rude or wrong or annoying (which is why I struggle so much to tag people) but #idk I'm starting to feel braver #I'm actually getting emotional thinking about it #sorry I'm just #maybe rereading symphony and noticing how lonely Violist-chan is has got me focused on how lonely I am too #and yeah it's not like I'm anyone's actual friend on here but just being able to interact and participate and be welcomed is... #idk #there's this gnawing ache in my chest all the time but this little community brings me sparks of joy that I haven't felt in a long time #sorry ignore me I'm just #i don't know #I'm trying to express my gratitude but I'm not doing a very good job #if anyone actually reads this just know I'm trying to say thank you for being nice and for letting me be feral over turtles with you #and i hope you're all having a good day

[moe-broey]

Three of them

#fire emblem #feh #DIRECTLY INSPIRED by how sometimes i like to cheat in heroes journey and bring duo al/sharena LMFAOO #two of them and some other guy. idk when it happened it just integrated here. #world is a fuck born to tag along. this applies to BOTH moe and sharena i think. #it is so funny and so important to me actually that 'sometimes there's a third one' applies to both of them #anyways please please PLEASE read into the characterization in the poses bc i'm going to throw up. and cry #like fuck i'll do it for you actually LMFAO like moe is just silly. nosferatu ass. why do you sleep like that. #it doesn't like being touched a whole lot though. it's extremely picky about it. it's easier to hold a stuffed animal instead. #alfonse has a higher tolerance for touch but it's still situational. but when he touches he clings. #also. one hand gripping the plush goat ear. an acknowledgement of moe's boundaries. #and the other hand. lightly subconsciously holding on to a tuft of sharena's hair. #sharena has grown out of being super cuddly w alfonse but she will take any and every opportunity to 'steal body warmth' #she also directly mirrors him. #also i think whenever she shares a bed/sleeping area w someone she's a bed hog. she is pushing you off that thang #if you're not Willing to be smooshed by her. also. which is why alfonse is acting as a barrier here too LMFAO #like it's just a tiny doodle esp cause i didn't have the energy to do more but it made me ache so bad #that i threw up and exploded and died. badly. #fe alfonse #sharena #moe tag #summoner oc #my art

[variousqueerthings]

I truly do love what we cobra kai fans write, because we're creating a fun intergenerational queer text centred around martial arts and americana and colonialist themes collaboratively, the stakes are low, the fun is high, the fanfic and fanart and fanwork is so so sexy

#us working with see spot run: what if... #im mean they do have themes on the show #heavy-handed non-intersectional themes that painfully avoid putting any ism labels on them #but they're the themes we tug at they are there #that and billy zabkas teary teary eyes #and ralph macchio bringing that doe-eyed oh no i bruise so easily teehee energy #and mary mousers constant jaw-aching tension #and peyton list choosing to interpret anger-face as upsetty-face #and xolo mariduena growing into an intensely gifted nuanced actor #and everyone being very very funny #and look i know tig is very good at what he does but my brain short-circuited on also tig lorge #but MY favourite actor of the cast you ask? why that's marty kove for giving me the most unhinged old man energy #cobra kai #ck #billy zabka #ralph macchio #mary mouser #peyton list #xolo mariduena #marty kove #tig #thomas ian griffith #i do wish xolo had more to work with -- i think the subject matter of his future and money and fixing up the car with daniel was so perfect #and potentially his dynamic with robby in the sense of figuring things out #but alas we didnt get as much of that as i would have wished #look at me getting hooked into the thinking about it all again #it getsya it really getsya

[fearandhatred]

i always have to have something wrong with me at all times and there are always about fifteen different factors that could have caused that Something Wrong With Me so i can never fix it

#fearandhatred #for a long while i got sick really easily and i would wake up with colds that would last the whole day (and only a day) #and i could not figure out why #like did i not drink enough water? exercise? did i sleep late? period? etc. #and for the longest time i didn't know what it was until i discovered MOLD IN MY ROOM #and even then my dad kept guilt tripping me saying it was because i never drink enough water #even though i do. and even though my symptoms became itchy throat and ears on top of my colds #and then my mom made me move to my brother's room and all my problems cleared immediately lol. after months or maybe years #see what happens when you listen to your child #wait i went on a tangent but basically now my jaw hurts. like one side is tight #and idk if it's because i'm stressed or i grind my teeth in my sleep or i have a tooth decay or because i keep not wearing my retainers #anyway i always have to have something wrong with me which is funny because if i'm not sick then some part of my mouth hurts #or i accidentally injure myself #or one part of my body aches for no reason #or i'm on my period #genuinely cannot catch a break from this SHIT like bro i'm too young for this #anyway. peace and love

[vintageshits]

amazed (not really) about the fact that the only thing keeping me sane at the moment is shitposting/headcanoning/ranting/fangirling/mentally dating a fictional character from a book that is 158 years old, and that the same things that I find appealing in him are the same things that make me miserable in real life (no job, no money, family overwhelmed by the fact that I am not doing so well, devoted christian partner wanting to show me the way), but he’s so smart, handsome and babygirl, and I am not.

#anya’s nonsense #personal #you know what character I’m talking about #i would die for him #I won’t even tag this where it should go because it’s not even related to the book #what would rodia do I ask myself every night before cry myself to sleep #idk if I need help but venting is the best medicine ain’t it? #maybe that’s why I ache when people talk about love in that certain book #because I can no longer see it as the great thing it should be #maybe I should just get a job lmao #that would fix me

[anonymocha]

my meds kicked in (neg) and it brought back my irrational fear of my art reaching twitter and people making a double-digit pages callout document of me

#mochats #sorry for not replying or doing my homework my tummy aches #twitter makes me anxious #idk why but it feels very alienating to me #tumblr is like a safe space to me? this is a place where i can dgaf and mean it #twitter on the other hand... feels like walking on glass shards #hence why my account is DEAD #my ass will not survive the winter (twitter) #also i hate how there's very little tagging system thete #like how tf do i find my yuri #i hate webbed sites with bad tagging systems #makes it hard to filter things AND find things you like #i also suddenly feel guilty for my lesbianism #one must imagine a gay goy happy #i took my antibiotics wrong and now my brain wants to rot mfw

[aceredshirt13]

my (possibly not very) hot take of the day is that Ted and Ralph is to Jeeves and Wooster as Raffles is to Holmes. in both cases i feel that someone looked at a famous piece of media about two dudes often read as queer and went “all right that’s a great piece of media. but consider: what if it was gayer and more sad”

#red randomness #the fast show #ted and ralph #jeeves and wooster #acd holmes #crime and cricket #why yes I *have* been mired in the british blorbos how can you tell? #anyway if you haven’t seen ted and ralph from the fast show. For the love of God please watch it #it’s hilarious and tragic and aching and sweet and if you have ever loved a gay piece of media you will adore it as I do #apparently it is also likely inspired by Maurice which I’ve been meaning to read and watch for AGES #so there’s that to look forward to

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

hnnn

body hurty :(

#hush n shush wifi #not brainrot #ow ow ow ow #my arm where i got the shot hurts most of all #'you probably shouldn't have painted for like 4 hours today-' #SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP #I'LL DO IT AGAIN. I'LL DO IT TOMORROW #for someone whose body aches a lot i did a lot of work today actually #anyways i'll be back sometime hnnn why do booster shots do this to me

[blodeuweddschild]

Uhhh something about the difference in BBC sherlock and Hannibal in the portrayal of an intelligent crime solving autistic man who’s also an a bit of (or a lot of) a dick

#Hannibal does it good. sherlock doesn’t. I need more time to think on why #but yeah #both Cumberbatch and Hugh Dancy have experience playing other autistic characters. interesting #also they’re both British. for the sake of just listing comparisons now #in tv shows that had 2014 tumblr by the neck #I’d say romantic tension with the other lead charcater but like. they’re not comparable #Hannibal ‘but do you ache for him’ ‘is Hannibal in love with me’ is in no way comparable #to Sherlock ‘imagine if we were gay god look at all the fans who think they’re gay you’re stupid the show runners hate you’

[warriorfujoshi]

good morning everybody… i had a dream i started working on a beautiful document abt envyautumn vn containing character bios, themes, plot points and inspirations… and then I woke up and executive dysfunction exists

#why would my subconscious taunt me like this #heres a dream where you can easily do things that you enjoy. #now return to reality. fucker. #😭 #AND ALSO I HAVE A TUMMY ACHE. #literally waking up every day is like gacha rolling which part of my body hurts #le dies #my dreams #I have been intending to make this document. for like. weeks now #but I can’t do it today bc I have to do laundry #🥹 #the next few days until Christmas are all busy…