#why does this one hit different

[shadeswift99]

Thinking about how the players of Double Life immediately started subtly being more careful because of the soul bonds. Thinking about how even though this is a death game, even though the goal has always been to stay alive at all costs and take as little damage as possible, I heard so many variations on "I'm going to have to get used to taking care of you, too" from so many of them, followed by them taking much better care of themselves. Thinking about how out of their way they go not to take small amounts of mundane damage from falls and drowning because the harm feels different when it isn't just you suffering it. Just...thinking a lot about that.

#double life #It's fascinating to me #just....the difference in thinking it makes to imagine a person outside of yourself coming to harm or inconvenience from something you do #vs when it's just yourself #the extra vigilance that in the end doesn't really make much sense #because aren't all of them just people? aren't you also a person? #why does it feel different to take a hit alone than to share it with somebody else? why does that make us more reluctant? #it's very interesting and i think it might actually help all of them to last longer in the series #it's like the life series equivalent to being given a plant to take care of for your mental health #or like. one of those egg babies from home ec classes #because suddenly it's not just /you/ #i can't wait to see how that'll play out #(but also. if you're reading this maybe go get a glass of water if you're thirsty) #(eat if you're hungry，get a blanket if you're cold) #(because i bet you would if you had a friend soul bound to you who could feel the same things) #(and are you not soul bound to yourself?)

[designernishiki]

i keep asking my friend why majima no majirock Exists and he always just says “well kurohyo needed karaoke songs” and when I follow that up with “that literally explains nothing, how and why does majima have a popular rock hit that’s technically canon because kurohyo exists in the same universe as the mainline games” he just casually says “i don’t know. it’s just there.” needless to say I have no answers and the enigma of majima no majirock just sits in my brain eating at me indefinitely

#what IS it. why is it THERE. why does it SLAP #why do you occasionally hear it on the radio in stores or in the taxi in various yakuza games #and no one ever addresses it. it’s just. there #ITS KILLING ME. WHAT IS THE LORE. DID HE HAVE A VERY BRIEF CAREER AS AN IDOL. IS MAJIMA A ONE HIT WONDER #rambling #majima #everyone’s idol goro is real but his outfit is extremely different than whatever he both started and ended his career in #probably more leather involved #and yes I see how this could tie in with mirei which makes it even more fucking wild #this man’s done every job on the face of the earth #ohhhhhhhhhh actually imagine a visual kei sorta look….. #that’d fuck so hard man

[finitevariety]

have to say I really loved how Shiv brought up the waiter. Does she give a shit about him, or that Kendall killed him? Nah, not really. Will she weaponise it to appear more moral in the moment? Yeah, absolutely.

It's like she said to Mencken: she's flexible. She LARPed as progressive to get her career in politics and genuinely believed she believed all these things--it's easy to believe you believe nice things, when the shit you actually do care about isn't in conflict with those beliefs. But then she wrangled Gil and Logan into a handshake, and she played her card as a woman to silence a victim--and, by shooting the one with her head above the parapet, many more victims--of institutional sexual abuse. She has even hurt herself by sailing too close to the wind in her girlboss liberal lean-in shit sometimes, with her dinosaur cull comment at Argestes, or with overplaying the hand she thought she had at Tern Haven.

She was viscerally angry at having to take the photo with Mencken, and perhaps angrier still when ATN called the election for him. Not because he's a fascist, although he is, and not because she dislikes him--although she does! She was angry primarily because the photo nuked any chance of a political career for her going forward, and because the call for Mencken hurt her chances with Matsson.

Did she ever make any of that clear in the moment, though? No. She talked about fascism and morals and things do happen, Rome. It is easier to wear that cloak that sometimes helps her--the woman cloak, where she claims to care for the group that she belongs to and steps upon its members at the same time--than it is to admit personal rage or vulnerability. That would be hysterical, and grasping, and not CEO material.

Shiv's relationship with womanhood is like Peter Pan's with his shadow. She used to be able to cast it off, or feel like she could, and now it is sewn in to her very fabric: it's everywhere she fucking walks.

She hates that there is not a play she can make that will separate her from the group of women-who-experience-misogyny. And still she makes use of that group, because it's one of an increasingly limited set of options she has. She was never allowed to gain experience--so she's inexperienced, and implausible, and shut out. It's the treehouse, again, Kendall up there playing king of the fucking castle. Shiv must have spent some holidays like that: Roman might have stayed with his mom in England on shorter breaks from military school, and Shiv was left to snotty, whickering horses and fucking tennis, throwing rocks up at Kendall whenever she saw a limb emerge from a window or doorway.

Anyway, if Shiv can't have the high ground, at least she can try to claim the moral one when it suits her. That's what I see as the context for her jab about Andrew Dodds.

#succession #shiv roy #there's a bigger thing here about like. shuffling through things that are true and using them as the face or reason for a bigger truth #that is less virtuous or more painful to admit #and that's shiv all over too: s1 'we're adults' instead of actually even attempting to talk it out #that WAS her attempting to talk it out #'love is bullshit' and 'box set death march' instead of getting into why she's so afraid of vulnerability #i love shiv so much lol #and also: KENDALL DOES THIS TOO. #fuck the patriarchy! he shouts #playing rape me on the speakers #it just hits differently for obvious reasons and is miles more transparent and manic. #roman is the only one who's not doing the dance

[andy-clutterbuck]

SDCC | 2017

#me @ me: was this necessary #me @ me: yeah #Andrew Lincoln #* #andygifs #it's me hi i'm the problem it's me #M A G I C #so cool that he's next to the word Handsome in the dictionary #forever a bit miffed that the year he wore a nice white tshirt instead of a black one was the year they didn't do anything #the white tshirt hits different as the kids say #do they even say that anymore #AND THE BEARD ON HIS CHIN WAS AS WHITE AS THE SNOW #excuse me but The Nose™ #i love arm #why does this hypnotize me #making these two videos look similar wasn't fun they were vastly different colors #YOUR BONE STRUCTURE MY GUY #the actual face that launched a thousand ships #take a seat helen #even his elbows are nice I hate myself

[harvestmoth]

heres my one page thesis on why hinomori mafuyu real

#back on this again. apologizes but the newest event hit me across the face #they found her in a wet cardboard box all alone… #also all of l/n call her babygirl its just that mafuyu only knows this from kanade who in turn has only heard honami say it #anyways heres my thoughts on the hinomoris and why they should get to keep mafuyu #uh. #so everyone knows how mafuyu has the mask she puts on yea. but i dont really see people mention how shiho and shizuku. also have that #in different but still similar ways #with shizuku putting on a perfect act where shes always smiling for her idol job and as to not worry her friends and shiho #while shiho puts on her act of not caring and pushing everyone way so they dont have to deal with her or the people who target her #so as we can see here. they both put on a mask and are self sacrificial about it for the sake of others #mafuyu does that too but instead of doing it for her friends and those that actually care about her. she does it for her mom who does not #idk. anyways something something these three have a similar way of dealing with things by bottling it up until they no longer feel it #do you get me #do you understand what im on about #if not idk i might be making it all up i havent had a chance to watch all of the events and ive been kind of skipping around on them #like watching the newer ones first which is probably not the best idea #okay im done now i just want others to see the vision and do my work for me #project sekai #mafuyu asahina #shiho hinomori #shizuku hinomori #oh last thing. shiho and shizuku absolutely beat up asahina its what they all deserve #asahina mother i mean. not mafuyu. they beat each other up in the losing at card games way while they beat up asahina mom with a steel chair

[oofuri2003]

I know I said mizutani was next but...here’s shinooka!! one of the most fun ones yet tbh

#oofuri #my art #shinooka #hashtag the power of women or something #ik i did a bad job at conveying her slight muscle toning. you are allowed to throw rocks at me about it #tbh my chiyo does not differ That Drastically #also sorry i hit the colors with a warm tone beam on the right that is just my habit lmfao #and ik farmers tan chiyo is also canon but only in that one scene so i made it real permanently #i have mizutani umm partly done he was giving me trouble thats why i defected to chiyo. after him ill prob do hanai!

[k8epot8e]

#one piece #goodpanels #roronoa zoro #zoro #he’s so cute #screams into my palms #why does he hit different in whiskey peak #I had this panel printed out in my locker 15 years ago

[void-of-unparalled-chaos]

Idk who needs to hear this, but if you think you are annoying and that no one likes you, just be glad you aren't my Earth Surface Processes professor who is so awful at his job and so hated by his students that we had an insult tally on the whiteboard during our 2 hour study session.

(Do not feel bad for this man. He absolutely deserves it.)

#regarding our midterm (worth 20% of our grade) alone he: #1a) randomly moved it from in 2 weeks to in 9 days claiming it was department policy #1b) This was apparently a LIE as stated by a different geoscience professor who then encouraged us to complain to the higher ups #2a) released the exam study guide a day late #2b) Study guide was poorly worded with repeat questions/grammatical errors/run-on sentences/conflicting information #2c) got a bit annoyed when we asked about the conflicting info #3) Responded to yes or no questions with “sort of” (Ex: will we be provided the equations) #4) decided to add a new question onto the exam and guide 2 days before the midterm #5) negelcted to teach us how to solve one of the problems until 2 days before the midterm #6) was not present for his own office hours (never told us that he canceled or anything he just didn't show up) #and like i said this is regarding the midterm ALONE #Some insult highlights: #“Why does he love soil creep so much?” “Because that was his nickname in high school.” #“*Student* has been teaching us the content in the past 30min better than *Prof* ever has in an hour and 15.” #“I am not convinced that *Prof* is a human being. I think he's a robot piloted by a hamster.” “Actually its a swarm of fruit flies.” #“I would destroy him in a fight.” “Hes a twink. Anyone could.” “He is NOT a twink no one would EVER hit that.” #collegeblr #college #geoscience

[hella1975]

something specifically shitty about IN THE MOMENT as the conversation is happening knowing you're in the wrong and you're being a cunt and continuing to do it anyway

#like yeah im being a bitch. im lashing out because of an insecurity. i dont know how else to be though #hiiii im dadposting again <3 i feel bad bc YES i have so so much bitterness towards my dad #but he is genuinely a nice man. like i had this thought the other night that he is such a good kind soft man. he just isn't a good father #and the tragedy is he COULD HAVE BEEN if he'd just SHOWED UP but he DIDNT and that's that im twenty childhood's gone #we're never getting those years back my brain has developed without a need for him and now im angry. whatever #but he's still good. he's still kind. so he'll do stuff to try help me and i just am so horrid about it #and i FEEL myself doing it i literally have a voice in my head going 'i know you've interpreted this as him condescending you #but you know that isn't the case so stop lashing out' and i literally CANT because id rather be angry than insecure #bc it all goes back to pride and shame with me EVERYTHING always does #like im so convinced my dad thinks im stupid and useless and can't do anything myself at my big age etc #which is why im SO hard on myself when shit goes wrong like not just bc of my dad like i have a general fleabagesque position in my family #of being the trainwreck one that fucks up all the time so when shit goes wrong (like my rent or my walls) it hits me 10x harder #than it logically should bc i can just FEEL my dad and sister going 'yeah well that's hella for you' #and my dad got the autistic ticky boxy numbers brain neurodivergence and i got the adhd scatterbrained neurodivergence #so for admin stuff he tries to PARENT me bc he's my DAD but i just completely reject it even though i KNOW he's not being mean #like he literally just said to me in his nervous as fuck voice bc he doesn't know how to talk to us #'remember to sort phone chargers out because the sockets are different in america' that's it. that's all he said. just looking out for me #tell me why i BARKED OUT 'i KNOW dad it's MY TRIP stop hounding me about things ive got it sorted' #in the SHITTIEST tone you ever heard. ugh i cant even be too angry at myself bc he has blame here too but it's a shitty feeling #to know i always have that propensity for cruelty even now. idk. im just thinking thoughts idkkkk hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii #hella goes home

[cleo-serotonin]

indiana evans’ rendition of no ordinary girl is objectively the worst. and it’s not even entirely her fault, they auto tuned it in such a weird way, by layering her voice a bunch. but like,,,,, if she can’t sing that’s not really gonna help. it’s just not giving the cunt ellie & kate alexa’s versions give :/

#girly did not hit a SINGLE note #why make Bella’s one character trait being a singer then hire an actress who’s not a singer?? #also no hate to indiana i love her they set her up fr #also this has to be the only show where a different singer does the theme song each season? #h2o just add water #indiana evans

[orchideae]

I have so very much to catch up on, my sincerest apologies, seriously— there's been mental madness going on behind the scenes, including this weekend. Please, let December be the month where normality starts and stays.

And on a more IC note, I often talk about solitude and isolation (and its origins in a very specific kind of loneliness) that is chosen and accepted, but I don't know if I ever talk about what that looks like exactly, and why, quite frankly, it's a little... for lack of a better word, concerning. Do me a favor, if you're in Genshin, turn your clock to nighttime, then go out into any of the cities, villages, camps, footholds and look up, no matter the nation you're in. How many characters are able to do that, and see a night sky that is nothing but void of any and all bounds and limitations? How many of them see that endless array of stars that illuminate it, and how many feel the cool fresh air that tickles their skin? For many, they can leave the four walls that house them, and experience that sight and sensation, because all of us to an extent, crave that. And honestly, so can Yelan— but she also, if not more often so, chooses to see something else. And the unusual concept of choosing that, is a driving force to my decisions for her and why I deem them so incredibly important: it's about the state of mind, it's about the mental that drives her.

On many days and nights especially, this is what she sees, and this is only if she doesn't descend further into the Chasm (which we know that she does), closer to the Abyss and to the Celestial nail itself that rests at its heart. And yes, it is beautiful in its own way, a pathway illuminated by the light of the moon and the nail, but it's also a cruel reminder of just how far the surface, and humans that live there (that she is by all accounts a part of, of course), are. But then, when she returns her gaze to the ground, her surroundings are void of light and dare I say, void of hope. The Chasm isn't just one of the places where you can get the closest to the Abyss, but it also consists of ruins of more than just one civilization. We see glimpses of Khaenri'ah (which we explore more closely through Dain's quest), but we know there is 'fauna' down there, even deeper, that is referenced as belonging to an even more ancient civilization that predated it. The Chasm is surrounded by reminders of death, ruin, and in that, it feels as if it's the direct foil of the world above it. The Chasm was almost the end of Liyue five-hundred years ago during the fall of Khaenri'ah, just as it had, apparently, once been to a civilization before it (please remember, the impact of the meteorite/fallen star that created the Chasm occurred roughly 6000 years ago), and its creatures wouldn't have stopped at its borders. The Chasm is the engulfing darkness in direct opposition to the light of life overhead, and the hope that humanity holds in the palms of its hands. It's dark, it's grim, and it's cold in more ways than one (See one, two, three, four).

And this place is a choice that Yelan makes to venture to and stay in, yes, yet calling it a choice is where it gets so interesting. Once upon a time, long before she got her vision, she was part of a team that surveyed the surroundings of the Chasm, and like many others before them that have descended into it, all members of this team, excluding her, died. The circumstances aren't clear, but following Yelan's line to Ning, I'm lead to believe that the Chasm's surroundings, which are all rather clearly threats to non-vision holders in specific (which Yelan also was at the time), were directly responsible for their demise. I'll note my hypothesis on what could have happened to them in a different post in the future, as I don't want to go far off-topic, but despite having likely witnessed what occurred to them, seeing the ruins of the Chasm, the threat of the Abyss and barely understanding what the Abyss even is, she continues to venture down there because the possibility of what could happen to the people of Liyue, is more important than her own existence and/or survival. And this bears even more weight following the events of Perilous Trail part 2, where she witnessed just how much the Chasm is capable of. Is this walking engima of a woman also drawn to equal or greater mystery than herself, much like a moth to a flame? I think that's part of it, but I definitely think it's infinitely more multi-layered.

Mostly, I think that this plays into the heart of what Fontaine has shown us that 'hydro' seems to represent: it's not merely a sense of responsibility (and/or justice) or selflessness, but a semblance of self-sacrifice either during the duration of one's life or at its end, either literally or figuratively. But keeping that in mind, what I really want to shine a spotlight on, is what kind of self-sacrifice seems to be the case with Yelan, and the way in which she seems to not just be at peace with it, but has truly accepted it almost as something akin to normality. And more importantly, note how this isn't normal behavior. An acceptance of solitude in such depressing surroundings is incredibly saddening, because it's not something that we ever crave by any means or should ever come to crave. Any regular individual, even most vision-holders surely, would find what she does insane to some extent. And yet, she walks the depths of the Chasm, of all places, with a similar routine as a Millelith guard patrols the outskirts of the harbor. Regardless of her clear reason for it— god, I have difficulty explaining what I'm trying to say; how does someone get to a point where they no longer do something so depressing out of necessity, but because it's... normal? That's her. The Chasm isn't... as eerie to her as it is to others, even if she knows better than most what these surroundings are; the Chasm it isn't as dangerous, even if she knows that it is and it's why she's there in the first place, to her as it is to others. Perhaps it's simply an acceptance that regardless of its dangers, that her fate lies in those depths as it did for her ancestors, that the Chasm's ruins will include her own legacy one day. But again, how does one come to terms with that? How do you come to make the decision that you will sacrifice yourself for others, especially when it means resigning yourself to a place like the Chasm, a place that is home to a pathway to the Abyss, which inherently holds the power to drive mortals to madness and death. Many wouldn't do this, or rather, many couldn't do this, not until they had no other choice and even then, think of Boyang, and even Bosacius, granted the latter had lost his mind by then. And that's where I think she's unique, because she technically has a choice, unlike individuals like Xiao whose... direct 'responsibility' and contract it is to do what he does. She could walk away tomorrow if she willed it, but she doesn't. Yes, responsibility plays into it, but the Chasm really hits differently when you tie it into that.

Now, I do need to note that I firmly stand against any believe that she a death wish or is thoroughly depressed. She isn't going down there over and over because she seeks an end to her life in some way or because she believes her life to be worthless. Quite the contrary, actually, and one could argue that the reasoning for that lies with her survivor's guilt. But all in all, before I get sidetracked again: Yelan embraces solitude to a rather extreme extent, and yet she doesn't seem to harbor a dissociation from the rest of humanity or dislike of it, but she does seem to place a firm line between non-allogenes and herself (and others who hold a vision). But what I mean with embracing solitude, is that while she is social, and she understands the laws and diplomacy of social behavior, she isn't one to always engage in it, simply because many don't seem to quite... share her headspace.

#[ meta. ] the chances are if i open this door; there can be no witnesses left alive. is that a sufficient reason for you? #[ honestly this is the biggest mess; but i've wanted to touch on this for a while even while this is a mess. ] #[ it's just the concept of-- there's a difference between dynamics where this on surface-level doesn't matter so much. ] #[ but it does explain the differences beween /some/ dynamics and most. xiao and yelan is one of them-- ] #[ but with xiao there's arguably the concept of karmic debt and how dangerous it is to non-allogenes. ] #[ and this sense of solitude is inherently ingrained in him in vastly different ways. but there /are/ some similarities. ] #[ but all in all-- this for example also plays into why i can only ship yelan at present with wriothesley. ] #[ and it's mostly because of the way his life seems to have led him to make a similar decision of likely staying in the meropide... ] #[ for the rest of his life. that's a specific type of decision to make that i think many couldn't make as easily. ] #[ not saying he made it as easily-- but it's this concept of... i think the only ones who really would understand are the ones... ] #[ who are able to make a similar decision or have already. i don't think every characer's 'loneliness' should be supplemented... ] #[ or 'fixed' by another's or someone who's the opposite. it needs to hit right; it needs to click just right for me. ] #[ and this one does. ] #[ it's the similarities with /just/ enough differences that you create a balance in which there's a semblance of peace. ] #[ but a peace that isn't constant. ] #[ i don't know how to word-- i just. 😭 one day you guys will get a proper meta from me on this. ]

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

gundam wing is really a very different show watched in perfect sequential order as an adult and not like three times through on whatever episodes you happen to be home mondays at 5:30 for when you’re twelve. like as a tween i really did not clock how long a stretch of plot is covered by a series of events best described as “the gundam pilots take L after L after L.” almost halfway through and as of right now three of them are in OZ secret space jail with varying degrees of purposefulness and getting the shit beat out of them by the world’s buffest mad scientist and one was last scene laughing maniacally with his sister’s corpse in his arms while vowing revenge for his father in a prelude to perhaps the most iconic set of events that ever happens on the show. trowa, who bored me as a tween but is emerging on rewatch as a dark horse fave not least of all because he’s clearly the smartest one by a mile, is having the least terrible time hanging around undercover as an officer for his sworn enemies.

#i’m also softening on the prequel manga partly bc i learned they wanted to include it in the show but didn’t have time #and partly because actually from what i remember #it does explain why the gundam pilots are ‘four teenage boys who are completely bugfuck insane in different ways #and trowa a stone cold professional with the demeanor of a hit man and the training of a clown’ #trowa is obviously insane in his own way. but. #again. four of these dudes are trying right now to hurt OZ. he’s the only one not sitting in handcuffs about it. #which ofc makes it even more incroyable that [redacted spoiler for nick who i talked into watching with me] #gundam wing

[sailforvalinor]

In other news, my church sign has been hit by a car for the *checks notes* fourth time

#my dad says he’s starting to take this personally lol #also The Boy is calling me Friday. less nervous than before but still nervous #I think the thing I may have figured out as to why I’m feeling panicky about this is that (at least currently) it doesn’t feel intense at #all. like does that make any sense? maybe this is because I’m not a teenager anymore but like #he’s smart he’s funny and makes me laugh we share some interests but are also fairly different he’s easy to talk to but I don’t feel like #I’ve been hit in the head with a frying pan? does that make any sense?? #argh. and he literally has said nothing about feelings like at all #which is chill with me on the one hand but on the other I have NO IDEA how he feels about me #I mean the fact that we text all the time and he talks to me for hours on the phone kind of says a lot but he’s literally said NOTHING #like he’s probably just waiting until I’m not on the other side of the globe that makes sense and I like taking it slow but also THE #UNCERTAINTY GIRLIES #I love the friendship and the fact that we jive so well as friends but though I may not seem like it in-person I AM A ROMANTIC HELP

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

The fact that you work retail makes a lot of sense actually

Customer service is truly the easiest way to radicalize someone.

#How to be anti-capitalist step one #work in retail #there is no step two #you will hate corporations and the general public’s entitlement so much it’s unreal #When you have to hit a bald white man wearing a confederate flag t shirt and a trump hat with the ‘hello sir how may I help you today :)’ #and you’ll get a glare back or he just ignores you #While his wife screams at you because someone in a completely different part of the corporate web messed up her order #it does something to you I think #especially when you hear them whining about the evil liberals who deny science #when you’re a scientist and can just tell they don’t remember anything from a science class higher than the third grade #anyway #yes #I have been in retail for years and that is partially why I am like this #catharsis of being able to call out absolutely cruel and oppressive dogma when I see it #it feels nice sometimes

[abysslll]

i just spent like 20mins rambling to my dad about the latest chapter but like the inability for me to tell him about dazai and chuuya's love for each other makes it all seem so insignificant in a way

#like ''two rivals with intertwining fates face off and one kills the other while under control of another'' #hits so much differently than ''dazai was confessing his love to chuuya and chuuya shot him before he could finish saying it'' #like both are good in two very different ways but just UGH #why does my dad have to be homophobic why cant i tell him about soukoku <///3