#why you gotta do this to me D:

[fluorescentbrains]

society if we boarded planes back to front window to aisle in an orderly fashion instead of splitting up the boarding groups based on ticket class and esoteric customer loyalty rankings

#why does first class even WANT to board first. why do you want to be stuck in that thing a minute longer than necessary #d #standing around in the aisle while the people in front of me struggle in and out of seats and hunt for bin space #has gotta be one of the worst aspects of airline travel #meanwhile you can see nobody has even made it to the back of the plane yet. bc all the people in the back are at the back of the line. #makes no damn sense I hate it so

[lightningidle]

Fig's line "I don't think I'm an artist, I think I'm just a good friend" has not left my head at all. Just...

You're Fig Faeth and your horns came in over the summer and you pick up the bard class as a form of adolescent rock 'n' roll rebellion, and it works! It's exactly the outlet you need! You give a guy you just met drumsticks and you start a band and it's good enough that within a year and a half you're touring. You are, in every sense, good at being a bard.

And then, finally, your junior year, you start to take it seriously. Your art goes from an outlet and a form of rebellion to a practice. A discipline. (Can rebellion exist within a discipline?) Your classmates know what they want to do with their work. They all have a thesis statement. And yeah, there's cohesion in the music you make, but you've never had to think about why you make it. You've never sat down and dissected what it is about bass that speaks to you. You've never poured over your lyrics to pick at any deeper meaning. Why should you? You don't play music for a grand design, you do it to... huh, why do you do it?

(Your art is the one form of self-expression that feels as safe as Disguise Self does, because even if you're pouring your heart onto the page and then screaming it in front of thousands of people, it's not like you're really making yourself known. You can sing I'm lonely, I'm scared, I'm furious, and your fans will sing it right back, and there will still be the distance between performer and audience to keep your heart safe.)

Now you're being asked to look inward to explain the artistic choices you're making, and you can't help but recoil at that, because you'd rather do anything than look inward. Meanwhile, your classmates have no problem with it, so you start to wonder if you're a real artist at all. Can your art be authentic if it only exists to bolster a thesis statement? Has your art been unauthentic this whole time because you've never really thought about a thesis statement before? Is that what makes it art, and not just the next track on somebody's teen angst playlist?

You can't think about yourself— acknowledging your own existence makes you want to puke. So if your music is an extension of yourself, (and it is, even if it's just because the spotlight reveals only what you want it to,) you can't think about your music. You can't. You have to. Your grade depends on it.

You're Fig Faeth, and you keep multiclassing because you'd rather be a good friend than a great artist. If introspection is what great art demands, then fuck it. You must not be a bard at all.

#Dimension 20 #fig faeth #fhjy #Idle Chatter #my last two years of college were when I started to get more and more nauseous about my own art #because I wasn't being taught how to make the art I wanted to make #the whole curriculum's focus was on gallery art #which infuriated me! I wanted to make art that didn't have to involve twelve layers of meaning and metaphor to be considered good!! #so I drove myself into the ground time and again trying to make (miserable) work that I thought would fit the criteria of a Real Artist #anyway it's been 4 years and I'm just now picking at why I don't enjoy creating anymore so Fig's whole arc has hit home in a major way #ALSO. AAAAALSO. THE ADHD STRUGGLE WE SEE WITH BOTH FIG AND KRISTEN. LOVING SOMETHING BUT STILL STRUGGLING WITH FOLLOW THROUGH #BEING TOLD YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH WHEN IT'S SO FUCKING HARD JUST TO GET WHERE EVERYONE ELSE IS AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IT'S HARD FOR YOU #it was easy and now that the rubber's hit the road it's hard for you but not for others so it must be YOU that's the problem #you must be lazy or stupid or just not suited to this after all even though it's part of a pattern that has been happening all your life #if you were good enough or cared enough then surely the discipline would come easily to you! the way it comes easily to all your classmates #SCREAMS I gotta stop before I write a second essay in the tags. I'm so normal you can trust me to be normal about D&D characters

[keeps-ache]

little soup cans are some of the neatest things we have, wish there were more soup-can-like things in this world

#just me hi #though canopeners need to stop being deadly weapons to some degree before that hfhs #'they're not deadly tho ?' well usually yes. but did you know that they can age Badly? i did not! #and the one I was using was dulled to an extent that it would Skip over a part of the can #(nearly the same spot every time lol) and when I thought I'd managed to fool it and had only #the tiniest bit of metal between me and some beans (pretty sure it was beans) I thought #'ohh I'll just pull up the can lid :)' Well the lid snapped off completely towards and Into my hand #and I had a bean-can wound on my pinky for about a week or so. I do not know how long it's been lol #//but soup cans are pretty cool I feel like they're kinda underappreciated !! #you can just have Soup ? Whenever ??? and it's Normal !! wow :D #sure making soup is pretty great. but that's a process man. and we're not even associates #[<- 'a process I am (not) intimate with'] #like there is a little can of menudo in the pantry rn - medunito they call it isn't that just !! - and it's just there. it can be made in #like 10 minutes. is this Not the best thing ever ! ? #//I've also gotta figure out this sleeping thing that I've got going on (everybody has it going on) #I was maybe half a week into actually have a consistent thing going but the night I stopped was bc I am a sucker of a storyteller and we #were up til about. I think 4-6 a.m. #that's on me yes. my siblings vs. my desire to tell stories and rubber willpower hfbdh #a deadly match truly #and also I lost my snoopy watch (RIP snoopy watch you will be missed (I can't find it send help Waough)) and that was the only clock I had #in this room so now if I wanna know the time I have to go the living room - which is like a whole dang thing lemme tell you about it #/first I've gotta get up - easiest thing by far - and get to the door - assuming I don't get KO'd by my siblings' belongings on the floor - #get to the door. the door Is broken to some extent. opening it means a loud THDPD noise is sent throughout the entire house lol. and you #have to yank on the thing to get it open - so double effort there - and then you step out into the hallwayish area where you can then enter #the living room - oh so easy! but No! you then have to either turn on the kitchen lights and wake everyone with their door open or sleeping #in the living room for whatever reason Orrr you have to clamber over chairs pots perhaps a cat if you've got real bad luck that night to ge #up nice n personal to the clock so you can read the dang thing and see it's 11:23. which is like nothing so you stay up Anyway and do not #check the clock again because not only was that a hassle but also you released every creature that was in the room with you (that's a lot o #noise). but Yea the clock situation is ongoing hfbsh #'why don't you get a clock' that would be much too easy loll :) (last one disappeared and we keep forgetting lol) //ran out of tag space so

[caliburn-not-calculator]

Starting some redraws of old art and oh boy perspective is a bitch

#rolling with difficulty #painful #maxim you’d look so cool from this angle why you gotta do this to me #also redoing that sad MR-SN and VR-LA art >:D

[deus-ex-mona]

save me mona-chan

#j u s t realised that the flashes of text after the the first 2 chorus parts are text quotes from the idol sengen manga w A I L I N G #yujiro’s ‘what are you even doing here’ made it click for me lmao #g o d i should get back to idol sengen… maybe if i have enough energy tomorrow… this work week had been absolutely h o r r i b l e #the only way i survived was by looping meoto for like 5 hours every day all through my shift lmaoooo #well ​t h a t and the fact that my pay came in along with my bonus~~~ my takehome pay was more than twice my regular pay so im very happy lo #not looking forward to next week’s audit though. why do the auditors always come during my morning shifts smh am i cursed or sth #oh well. work is monday me’s problem. rn i gotta i d o l s e n g e n v o l 4 auauauauauauauaaaaaaa

[andy-clutterbuck]

9x01 | A New Beginning

#💕 Fuzzy Daddy 💕 #Rick Grimes #* #rg #S9 #stupid chair or whatever get out of the way #you're blocking the view #Papa Bear 🐻💕 #richard why ya gotta stand like that #you met porch dick well this is deck daddy #why do pushed up or rolled up sleeves have so much power #H A N D S #still want to rub his head like it's a crystal ball and i'm a cheap ass fortune teller at a county fair #it's been 4 years now it was the first week of may 2018 when this look appeared #check.....check.....yep this look still has me open like Motel 6 #one second i'm fine and then there he is and i'm like fill me to the brim #HELLO MY GORGEOUS OLD MAN

[despairforme]

#[ noooo it's snowinggggggg ] #[ overnight the world turned white ] #[ me: wtf ] #[ i mean i knew it was gonna happen bc of the weatherforecast but ] #[ STILL ] #[ WHY ARE WE HEADING STRAIGHT INTO WINTER WHERE IS MY LOVELY AUTUMN WEATHER ] #[ anyways --- i once again have A LOT to do ahaha ] #[ so many drafts and asks uvu exciting! ] #[ also wanna draw today and do chores around the house AND ] #[ gotta carve a pumpkin !! ] #[ busy busy busy ] #[ hope you're all doing good guys! :D ] #[ hope it's now snowing where you live xD ] #toby post. ╱ out of character.

[crickwater]

I don't have any strong feelings abt matt mercer dming for d20. I am enjoying seeing the intense reactions of everyone else tho

#matt mercer doesn't need this publicity I don't get why they did it #my feed is full of people both hating on matt mercer and loving him #my interest in this season is entirely dependent on the players and setting #like I'm not a huge matt mercer fan cause I don't have 5 free years to watch cr #but I don't hate him. I liked him on eftbk and pirol #this move feels v like. idk fan servicy? giving the people what they want #which makes me wonder if they are going to kinda lean into the oops all dms idea that has been around for years #and have like. aabriya brennan and murph as some of the players #I mean I'm 100% sure down to my bones that brennan will be playing it would be crazy of them not to put him there #I also do wonder if they'll maybe bring some lesser known players and use matt mercer drawing in people to like. give them some publicity? #I will say. I have seen people be like #and acting like it's some moral failure on the side of the show and that's. fucking crazy to me #like. d20 can still value giving platform to smaller creators while collaborating with Matt mercer #it's crazy to act like every single new dm has to be a smaller creator #plus even if you hate matt mercer you gotta acknowledge that without critical role d&d and actual plays wouldn't be where they are now #like it v much brought it into the mainstream and a new level of success #like I can't see a world in which d20 and exists without critical role's success paving the way

[alices-halcyon]

HEAR YEE HEAR YEE,

LISTEN TO WHAT I SAY.

….

I want to ᶠᵘᶜᵏ the pickle man.

The stinky bastard.

#murdoc niccals #gorillaz #2 d gorillaz #murdoc gorillaz #I hate that I love you #why you gotta do me like that #pickle man #2-D Gorillaz #the pink cult #forever cult #Stuart Pot #Gorillaz 2D #noodle gorillaz #russel hobbs

[pebblezone]

I want her.

#talkingcore #how is up for reader interpretation 🫶 #currently undergoing ✨rain immersion✨ #gotta turn out all the lights and open the window I won’t go outside because it’s late and if I don’t have to get wet I won’t #but night rain >>>>> day rain. I need the sun or else I’ll explode but I like Wet. wet smells good #one of my professors mentioned soccer moms and ever since I’ve been experiencing like a sick soccer fantasy #I don’t really have an opinion on it and I don’t think I Enjoyed having to drive around for my brothers BUT #I am craving like Wet dirt I need to be a cleat in dirt not mud I don’t want mud that’s too wet just Damp Soil #the tension rn between me and getting some wet dirt is craaaaaaazy fr 🦭<— me if I got some wet dirt rn (I’m posing coquettishly) #🦭🦭🦭🦭this emoji is so silly I’m adopting him. why do you look like that :D #going to eat trail mix before I explode 💥💥🔥💥💥💥🕊️✝️ #OMG THE LIGHTNING IS GOING CRAZY NOW AHHHH YAY YAY it looks insane i am peaking right now #feel like the fucking Barbie dogs I’m gonna become one of those like plush red blood cells that exist on keychains

[distantsonata]

@staff is actually the ones making the girlbots because they know how easy men are to extort

#thoughts #I mean #look at their fucking ads #they're insane #they know exactly what they're doing at all times lmao #within hours they had an ad ready to rip at Twitter for not including them #but the porngals? they gotta stay #they're here for #uhm #literally 10+ years #they've been here as long as me D: #and I'm not saying that it's as easy to do #but 10+ years? #you could figure out a little bit of code to autoshadow-ban/delete bots right? #if 'sexyhotgirlname43' makes an account why don't you just send them to fucking hell?

[novelmonger]

top 5 insects

I dun like bugs :< Here are the least-offensive ones I can think of:

Butterflies

Ladybugs

Roly-polies/Pill bugs

House flies

Black ants

#ask and you shall receive #x-i-l-verify #ask games #why you gotta do me like dis D:

[keeps-ache]

woke up with the feeling that 'something has been irreversibly changed'

#just me hi #which doesn't make any sense because i didn't really do anything yesterday lol #but then i got hit with that very accepting 'so this must be' feeling so i have No idea what's going on with my internals hfvsfhaj #though i Have been feeling odd‚ maybe it's turned over #i dunno! feelings are like magic is so many ways #/maybe that's why people like to tie it to Actual magic. something physical #because it's a way to see it‚ to understand it‚ to prove to other people it's there #but real magic is very hard to understand and sometimes even to imitate and sometimes people don't like to see it at all #which is sad because it's so pretty‚ and when you feel it in like your actual Body it's wonderful #but it showed how Physically strong you were then you aren't being awful in some way. then you're Scary and Powerful #but that's just awful too. they don't realize it until someone awful does it but they forget everyone else is like that too #i'm having Just Woke Up thoughts bfhvsbhfv #i want to like. just Be but things are kinda complicated you know? #like magic.. #lol! #//anyway #gotta finish this comic for REAL #truly really seriously !! #i'm almost done with the inks and i KNOW i can do it today i can do it i can do it !! #couldn't yesterday (idk why lol) but i Can today so i will :D #do i shall see you again soon! tooooodles

[notsodailycake]

So i went to look up bout luis a bit more (mostly for his birthday if i could) only to see this-

LITERALLY THE FIRST AND MOST EASY INFO OUT FOR HIM AND I DIDN'T CHECK

When i was writing him i, for some reason, like and idiot, didn't think to check the wiki page talking about him specifically and only look through his emails- BUT IT WAS THERE AS WELL

There's no going back from my mistake now

All i can do is pretend ness by the time she mentioned his job, said "he worked" in the IT department or somehow make it as if he went back into the IT department but that be a bit tricky given the reason why he doesn't work there anymore

#fuck no i gotta bring him back #it's plot important #hhhhhhh fuck me- #this is why you do you're research correctly before making a damn comic and getting a fucking d u b of it #cake talks #home is where freddy is #fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #security breach #fnaf luis

[ahsterism]

honestly thank god the fact that i’m probably going to be way too busy to excuse it is stopping me from making a michael blog bc if it weren’t for that i’m still scared of reaching out to new people anyways-

#a thought i’ve been beating down with a hammer but for good reason i think workload is not going to be easy i fear lmao #it’s not portrayal anxiety bc fnaf is such a by interpretation series that i think it’s pointless to do anything but ignore and move on #when you see a different take .. like who cares! fan interpretation is what makes the story more interesting anyway! #but ooohh my god i feel like im going to die at the idea of reaching out to people for?? WHY??? #not that that’s a Requirement for a blog ig but i know me i would be upset im not included in Any rpc i’m fixated on LMAODHSKD #there is No Reason For This I’m Sure :D #anyway i gotta go to class JDKDHDK #✧ ooc

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

I'm worried that the post office may have lost the package that D sent me, because the tracking says it's been in town since Monday and it still hasn't found it's way here 😭

#i want my pretty handmade custom diiiiiiiiice #and the imperfect castoff dice that I'm gonna make jewelry out of #and whatever other goodies he put in there #probably nothing dirty but a faye can dream #dang post office why you gotta do me like this #my date with sweet d