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dontcallmecarrie · 3 years

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Hey, I vicariously live in my imagination to escape from the reality.

So, I have been wondering about the Rogues reaction to Tony defeating thanos, the IronSmaug, taking over the world etc...

Have a go at it, if you are interested.

It's also fine if you dont.

thanks, I really, really needed the distraction. it's been. an interesting week. not in a good way.

tbh, the whole 'what does Team Cap think about this mess?' thing in TWiFFON is...something I had originally been torn about, and everything that's been happening ever since means I keep finding myself going "do I have the energy to tackle this? lol no".

For some context, because you probably know my stance on this sort of thing but I prefer redundancy just to make sure we're on the same page: once upon a time, I honestly, genuinely did like the Avengers. All of them, and yes, that included Wanda [...for less than an hour, but still].

Back when I still had faith in the writers, I was constantly going "...okay, so when are these guys going to stop acting so OOC? Where tf are they planning on taking these character arcs?" and just being disappointed at each turn— but I stuck around because I liked the potential. Steve "what do you mean punching fascists isn't cool anymore?" Rogers, Natasha "my past is a tire fire and I'll just leave it at that" Romanov, Clint "where's Loki? Let me at him!" Barton and the rest of the group had their good points, and I gave myself a headache trying to figure out wtf was their thought process when the time came for them to do their thing in TWiFFON.

It wasn't fun, I only did it because it was absolutely necessary... and I still ended up receiving complaints.

Look: for me, character bashing is exhausting. I have enough going down in my life that I don't have any interest in writing it, and over the past few years I've seen more than one of the fandoms I follow/lurk in become salt mines that have me going "...okay, if you hate it so much, why are you even here?"

When I write, I try my best to emphasize the 'actions have consequences' thing I learned long before I hit puberty; but that doesn't mean I'm up for anything beyond that. Again, I used to like these characters, so seeing the levels of suffering canon— and some writers— put them through just has me stepping back for a moment.

But TWiFFON attracted a lot of people who were pretty far out there in terms of what they wanted, some of whom got very very pissy when it wasn't the story I wanted to write, which is...probably like 99% of the reason I'm still burned out on that AU. Apart from the recent personal life bs that means I am Not Up To Dealing With any hypothetical rando that shows up in my inbox, because normally I could not care less about what people think but my energy levels are. Um. Not great atm. Not sure I wouldn't bite anyone's head off if they wanted to start something right now, tbh, or just ragequit writing for a while because I have way better things to do with my time than deal with random internet assholes.

...apologies for the tangent, but now you know why that situation is one I'm normally kinda reluctant on tackling.

As for what I'd originally headcanoned:

Back before things hit the fan, I'd originally planned to have some little interlude snippets of what Team Cap's been dealing with. Mostly, it would've forced them to acknowledge that for all none of them liked or trusted Tony, he was basically just the personification of what the rest of the world thought of them.

Nobody respects them, anymore, or trusts them; Clint'd be in very hot water and sleeping on the couch for a while, and Hank Pym would never let Scott hear the end of his involvement in this whole thing because Hank hates the Stark name and the English language cannot concisely articulate just how pissed off he was that he had to publicly thank Tony.

Team Cap overall would also start to fall apart at the seams as more and more stuff came out and ey, turns out the leader they'd trusted and broken international laws for had lied to them.

By omission, sure, but honestly— do you think that'd go down well? The "oh yeah, I've known my brainwashed friend killed his parents since DC but I am not going to tell him unless I'm forced to" thing?

I don't know about you, but I for one highly doubt Sam Wilson would be okay with that. Or Clint, for that matter, and the list goes on because the more time passes, the more stuff keeps coming out of the woodwork and for the first time in years, they're forced to deal with it.

One of the things I planned to include in the sidefic can basically be summed up as "the curious case of Bucky Barnes": that is to say, what'd happen after he's taken into custody, and poke lightly at the clusterfuck we're unpacking here. Tony, feeling bad for losing control in the bunker, would basically go "shit I fucked up but I also never want to see him again but he's an even bigger mess than I am, that's a whole lot to unpack so you know what? I'm just throwing out the suitcase entirely here, have all the resources for support and help and if I ever see you again, it'll be too soon".

...to sum up, it's messy af. SI Legal would feature heavily because his particular case means he needs a team of lawyers, what with the 'former POW who's trying to recover from All The Trauma' thing, and the 'so I literally was just trying to buy some damn groceries when you guys dragged me into this', and Tony basically went "hey, so if anyone wants to help him, uh, I kinda have some interest in this one. Fair warning, dude probably killed Kennedy while mind-controlled, with our luck".

And along the way, there'd also be some of that one subplot I'd cut due to pacing issues: specifically, the one dealing with prosthetics.

Remember how Miriam Sharpe said her son would never walk again? Yeah, we'd be revisiting that: her family'd get a letter or something inviting them for clinical trials, and meet Rhodey in passing as he's using his own leg braces to get around because he's still healing. Bucky would get a few design offers for a free replacement for his arm, and it'd probably end up being a collab with Wakanda because T'Challa feels bad for his role in that mess as well.

So Team Cap would be seeing this, seeing how everyone's acting and reacting, and the way one of their own is getting all the help and support Stark Industries has to offer and realizing that yeah, they messed up. Big time.

...depending on my salt levels and how close we're sticking to canon, I was thinking this'd go one of two ways.

Either they'd double down and just go "ugh, Tony is a supervillain and we can't do anything about it!" while TWiFFON marches on and then later go "...you mean he did it by accident?!", or...

Well, canon's proven character development and continuity isn't really in their writers' vocabulary. So my original idea of 'they're forced to deal with the reality of the situation, acknowledge they messed up and slowly move on with their lives' would've been very unrealistic.

Again, most of this is intentionally vague, I had not been keen to tackle that mess in TWiFFON in the first place and the way things exploded on me means I really, really don't have the energy to do so now. Not when there's far better things I could do with my time, like mess around with AUs where people actually get along, or knit, or— well, the list goes on.

#The War is Far From Over Now #From the Other Side [A Terror To Behold]#thinking aloud #I got an ask!#Naught replies #replies #behind the scenes

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olruggioofthetorch · 3 years

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sorry you know me I like to ask a million questions so here it goes- Tinsel:5,18,20,27,31,39,40 / Nila:13,28/Roman:11,6,7/Benji:4,19/Saoirse: 20,25,27 /Fionn: 6,7,10,33/ Scone:21,23 - sorry can’t remember the other siblings off the top of my head and these are the major ones anyway right haha? and this is a lot of questions anyway soooo

Ooo we're getting into the selkies tonight

Tinsel

5. What was their childhood fear?

Being alone or left behind. It was definitely a threat when they were a kid like "if you aren't on the caravan before we leave at noon, we're leaving you behind". I don't think their parents would have actually left them behind when they were small but it was enough of a threat that they and their siblings listened for the most part. Its not so much a childhood fear as it is a regular adult fear now.

18. If they could live or visit anywhere, where would they go?

Tinsel really likes where they live but they do have dreams about living on a sunny coast with their partners when they all settle down. Idk if there's anywhere specific they want to visit? They just go where the adventure leads them. I think they would like to visit somewhere to meet up with their family, tho.

20. What did they dream of "growing up" to be?

Oh man, Tinsel wanted to be an A List celebrity actor. They wanted to be lead role in blockbusters. It was a big goal for them but they were sure they could do it.

27. Have they achieved any of their childhood dreams? Are they still trying? Have those dreams changed?

They've gotten some of their childhood dreams! They moved to Holly Bay and made tons of friends. They got to act in live theater. They were almost in a movie! They got some notoriety from adventuring and were on TV for it. They got to kiss their childhood crush. They didn't quite make it to the A List after getting blacklisted but they're def still trying.

In regards to how they changed: I don't think they changed too much but they did see how hard it was to achieve them. Plus, they started dreaming about having a family when they were with Bast so that's definitely something they want now.

31. Who are they when they aren't with the party?

When they're not with the party, Tinsel is way less open about themself. They're a master of either talking around a question or lying by omission and they use it when they don't feel comfortable sharing. Pre-adventure, they didn't really even tell their closest friends the entire truth about their backstory (which is honestly buckwild and hard to believe anyway) or their relationship with Bast or really anything about their love/sex life.

I think it's bc they don't think Kira and Zona will judge them.

39. If someone could tell them anything about the future they asked, would they want to know? Would they ask?

I think they have actually, they asked if they were going to get married. I don't think they would want to ask something super serious because they aren't going to listen to a no.

40. What sets them free?

A good support system. Tinsel's very talented and driven but they need the power of friendship to keep them from burning out.

Nila

13. How do they like to spend afternoons free?

Nila likes to paint. She dipped her toe into art forgery for a little bit but decided it was more fun to steal the real thing and do her own work on the side. She has one of those cute little travel watercolors she uses to paint landscapes when she gets some time alone. Absolutely no one knows she has this hobby.

28. If they could change their class(es), would they? To what?

I dont think she'd change her class from rogue but she would def take some wizard skills.

Roman

11. What were their teenage years like?

He was a horrible teenage boy, mostly bc he wanted attention. He started off with red hair but occasionally made it redder when he got teased about it. He activated the Cain instinct in a lot of his siblings but I think Tinsel tried to kicked his ass the most purely due to how close their ages are. He shot them with an arrow by accident once and never lived it down.

His mom taught him archery at around 14-15 and he got very good at it to try and impress her. He left home around 18/19, picked up some odd jobs/repaired archery equipment professionally for a few years until Nila called him up like "hey bro miss you let's do this heist together".

6. Did they grow up with siblings? What were those relationships like?

Yes lmao my boy has 9 siblings. I sort of talked about this in the last question but yeah he liked to stir the pot for attention. Even though they tried to kick his ass, his siblings still love him. Him and Saoirse always got along really well and I'm p sure she stopped him from actually getting murdered as a kid lol. He really doesn't have a bad relationship with any of them, though, besides still owing Scone a bunch of money. Rome's a lot of fun and he's the kind of guy who will give or share anything with you. He is just A Lot.

7. How were their relationships with their parents/guardians growing up?

He def knew he wasn't the favorite child lol. I think once Knox realized why his kid was acting up, he made sure to spend some extra time with him every once and a while. And once he showed promise in archery, his relationship with Fulki got better too. I think he has an okay relationship with his parents right now but he definitely would never live with them again.

Benji

4. Who was their childhood hero?

Their dad! They're very similar people and he looks up to him a lot.

19. How does the high noon sun make them feel?

Sleepy... It's too darn hot. He's 100% not interested in going out at high noon so he's either taking a nap or hanging out somewhere shady with Folsom.

Saoirse

20. What did they dream of "growing up" to be?

I don't know if Saoirse had one specific dream. What she did know is that she didn't want to get married and she didn't want to have kids. I think she went through a bunch of phases on what she wanted to be when she grew up until she landed on being a wizard. When that stuck, she just leaned hard into it.

25. What is their comfort item/habit?

She's definitely one of those "make a hot beverage when I'm stressed" kind of people. She's also a stress baker... Which used to be a "make potions and light stuff on fire" habit but she realized she gets muffins if she bakes instead.

She also has a bunch of stuffed animals in her room, purely because she's an adult wizard and no one can tell her not to have stuffies.

27. Have they achieved any of their childhood dreams? Are they still trying? Have those dreams changed?

Oh, she totally achieved the wizard thing and now she's a real Howl Pendragon figure. She got bored being by herself so she applied to get some apprentices, but due to a clerical error, she wound up with a couple of brothers (Max and Arseny) who were way too young to be apprentices. She's basically raising them as her kids (they call her mama and the Townes all consider them grandkids/nephews lol) but Saoirse insists they're still her apprentices in public.

Fionn

6. Did they grow up with siblings? What were those relationships like?

Fionn was the golden oldest brother! He and Saoirse were basically 3rd/4th parents so the rest of the siblings came to love/respect him. He was really good at keeping the peace. Dude would have made a fantastic diplomat. The siblings especially liked when he told them stories about life before their family left the Muirs or stories about knights/heroes. It was a rough day when he disappeared and the siblings that remember him really miss him.

7. How were their relationships with their parents/guardians growing up?

Very strained. Like, he was def the favorite child, but Fionn really had some childhood trauma from The Fall that they couldn't help him with bc they also had it. He sort of resents that he got put into the auxiliary parent role on top of it. I think ultimately they expected way too much out of him so it was only natural he'd disappear and be feral.

10. When did their childhood end?

I don't think it was a definite ending, more of a gradual thing around his early teens when he realized he had a lot of responsibilities.

Scone

21. How did they become an adventurer?

Scone's best friend Latte (a Yuke who's good with magic) sent her a letter that suggested they'd make a good caravanning team. She was itching to leave the family caravan (she was tired of bailing her siblings out and knew that adventuring was good money) so she agreed!

23. What is their role in the party? Not just their class on a meta level, but among the individuals who make up the party?

Imagine a buff accountant and you have Scone lol.

Like Tinsel, Scone is the tank in combat. However, unlike Tinsel, Scone is weirdly responsible. She makes sure all the supplies are stocked and in order, makes sure everyone takes care of themselves and she keeps track of their earnings. She can be outgoing but she prefers to let her team do the social leg work.

#This is a big one omg but I loved it #Thank u Marlo #Gwen asks #Tinsel T Townes #Nila Townes #Roman Townes #Benji Townes #Saoirse Townes #Fionn Townes

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aliveahahafuck · 3 years

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Summary of my first session of my first ever dnd campaign, the party consists of me, a tiefling rogue, and my friend a tiefling rogue:

TL,DR: we're both dumbasses and oh my god my character has the worst luck lmao

5 minutes in and my partner is free balling. Nobody knows where their pants are.

Finish talking to an npc, turn to my friend: "wait, are you still not wearing pants?"

"SHIT YOU RIGHT"

I lose one of two daggers by throwing it at a rat

In an effort to get up and away from said rat I jump on the giant gear mechanism of the windmill we're in.

SURPRISE THE RATS CAN JUMP

I get bit, SURPRISE AGAIN THEYRE VENOMOUS

I kick and yeet the rat across the room, simultaneously dealing 0 damage because I have a -1 strength modifier :)

I yeet off the gear as the rat tries to get on to bite me again, rat gets caught in the moving gears.

"GREAT. it can stay there" as me(player not character) to the dm

While I'm being a dumbass and that's going down, my partner has injured one rat and got bit by the other

"I get bit one more time I'm down for the count"

"Same"

Rat in the gears gets crushed by them, Us 1:Rats 0

I get bit again after missing my strike

I go down

Friend gets bit, they go down

Rats 2:Us 1

Dm has to save us by sending in the npc who employed us to kill the rat and a half we didnt\

I got nagged at by said npc because I went to go get my dagger from the basement where I lost it

“you’re still here...”

“well, I wanted my knife, its a nice knife”

“Get. Out”

Get sent back to town with a shipment for the local heroes guild and a letter, "Let's just not give them the letter..."

Spend the night at the inn, where absolutely no one is phased by my friend, who is naked from the waist down

Npc: "yer late. What the hell took you"

Me: "the giant ass rats."

Npc: "you lost to... rats?"

Friend: "did we mention they were venomous? Because they were venomous."

Npc: "Aye, the shipments all here, but there should be an invoice"

Me: “ I pat my vest as though looking for the letter” *rolls a fucking 9 including my +5 proficiency AND with advantage*

Npc: *unamused glare as he pulls the letter from the crate we just brought back*

Npc: "how about this time we send you on a quest a bit more your speed: go pick up this shipment from the next town over and bring it back here. Got it?"

Friend: "kill big evil bad guy and come back. Got it"

Npc: *face palms* "what the fuck. When did I ever say go kill? Just go get the fucking package" *walks out and leaves us in the meeting room by ourselves*

Me, as we leave the room after being paid: "well, what the hell did he expect? I'm a fucking con man, not an exterminator"

Friend: "yeah, and I'm just a dancer"

Npc, standing across the hall reading the letter: "What. The. Fuck?????"

Shop keeper npc: "dont touch anything, I'm very peculiar about how everything is set up."

Me: "hey how big is the store?"

Dm: "I'd say about 20ft square with a little just out where the counter is"

Me: "and would she be able to see me from where she is everywhere in the store?"

Dm: "shed have to crane her neck, but yeah, if she’s paying attention"

Me: "Awesome. just because she said don’t touch, I'm going to pretend to look around and move things, not like pick them up, but just rotate them~" proceeds to roll a natural 14 and does exactly that and leaves before she notices

Spent all but 9 gold in a different store

Rolled a 4 on survival check, ate some poisonous berries rolled a 6 for the constitution save, 1 exhaustion point for the next day

Friend rolled not 1 but two nat 1s, leading us 10 hours off course.

Find some random ass tourist attraction mine and friend makes the Receptionist flustered by saying: "no, I will not sleep with you" as soon as the topic goes to him being a stripper

Finally get to where we're going and I force my friend to pay the person who had to guide us, because they got us lost

Friend crosses river just fine

I on the other hand slip, fall in, and get carried 60ft downstream. The opposite direction we need to go.

"You see lanterns lighting the halls, hanging above your heads on pulleys"

"I want to reach up and see if I can touch one. Just because"

"You can and you pull your hand away quickly as you burn yourself on the hot glass"

*laughing at my idiocy* "I immediately grab my vest because I'm assuming I'm still dripping wet"

*dm laughing too now* "yes, you are"

"alright, here you go, the shipment for the heroes guild. Say while you're here, do you mind doing us a favour?"

"I mean- I guess? I dont see why not?"

"Great, so we had a problem, and the problem had babies and now we have an infestation of flesh eating buckets"

"What?" "Wait, what?"

Friend kills a bucket, I get bit buy one, they get bit by one, the Npc gets bit by one, i get bit AGAIN

"While this is all going down, I'm just swearing at the bucket that just bit me"

"I'll use my sword and hit it, then try to stab it with my dagger, then yeet back over *here*" *rolls stupid high*

"Fair enough, 13 hit?"

"Miss"

"You get away unharmed, anything else you want to do?"

"Yeah, I wanna yeet the dagger in my hand at it" *rolls stupid high and did enough damage to one shot it from full health, but it only had 1 left -.- and died immediately*

"Well that was a waste of a throw"

"You're telling me. I walk back over and pick up my dagger."

"So you see the bucket approaching the npc, what do you do?"

"Know what? I'll just yeet my dagger at it."

"You're just gonna throw the one you just picked up?"

"Yup" *rolls stupid high again*

"Alright, as you casually stroll over to your knife on the ground, pick it up and get ready to throw, the npc behind the bucket notices and panics, immediately dropping to the ground as your knife gets embedded up to the hilt in the throat of the bucket, want to do anything else?"

"Yeah, I'll just walk up and hit it with my sword" *stupid high again like wtf?????*

"You hear the clang of your sword on the stone and for a second you think you missed, before you see the two halves of the bucket shrivel up and disappear before you"

"I jump up and yell FUCK YEAH"

"Everyone else just hears muffled yelling over the waterfall"

"Why did you shoot a bucket?"

"Because I wanted to make sure it wasnt one of them"

"I told you it wasn't"

"Well it's not like I could hear you over the waterfall now could i"

"Fair point"

Friend rolls a 23, a 27 and a 21 for performance checks and puts on an amazing show for the inn we're staying in, getting us a free room for the night

I proceed to be sketchy and walk around the town in the middle of the night for no reason other than wanting to know more about the town.

#dnd #what is this luck #shenanigans #dungeons & dragons #dnd rogue #we're absolute dumbasses #Journey and Delight

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rainecloud020604 · 4 years

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Hey,how many angel/demon ocs to you have? Could you please tell us about them,please? it's fine if not,i understand ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

alrighty take a seat and lemme start with my angel ocs uwu

Universo - so far my fave out of the angels- shush! guys been through a lot and honestly so far other than dealing with a target on his back he and Anthony are engaged now and currently taking care of both Penn and Daisy. (well i mean- guess its Daisy at the moment ROSE)

Damion - Universo’s older brother, kind hearted guy who messes with dreams, currently living with his father and mother along with his fiance, guy aint the fighting type like his brother. more of a healer than a fighter

Nicolas - a small warrior angel who spends a lot of his time running around the place hunting rogue angels and making sure they are removed of their wings, guy is very polite and is really kind and happy for someone who believes he lacks a real purpose.

Josiah - kind guy who used to be in a trio with Nicolas and Christine, nowadays he sticks with Christine out of fear of her turning on him like she did Nicolas, calling him a traitor and is after him. currently stressed and honestly just wants his friends to get along again, hes not really the violent type

Christine - hates, absolutely LOATHES Nicolas’ existence, she wants to cut off his wings for just leaving the group and going on his own, she thinks he’s helping the enemy and is up to something. She’s currently at risk of losing her own wings and doesnt believe it.

Elizabeth - a gal with a pure heart, ages and ages old. She has a whole bunch of small flaming rock creatures that she keeps close because of an old friend of hers is embodied in them, so she’s never alone, a motherly figure that once she sees you need help, good luck convincing her you dont really need it

Suisei - a blind angel, a certain demon gouged his eyes out and nowadays is terrified of everything, he’s scared of leaving heaven, but who knows, sometimes when you cant see you end up tripping, and falling...

Marrisa - she’s a rogue angel which constantly taunts Nicolas for not being able to do his job right, she still has her wings and goes in the angelic class, she was a guardian angel but....that all changed when she didnt do her job and allowed for someone to slaughter the family she was watching

demon oc time:”D

Lieutenant Hugs - mainly has a human appearance but in reality is a demon that appears to look like black essence, where her extra arms come from at times, she has abandonment issues, behind that smile and open arms is a lot more than sunshine and rainbows

Rainecloud - a staff wielding cat demon who honestly can kick ass! but recently retired as a mother so its rare to find her fighting like she used to, she used to go to other dimensions to fight because she liked it, used to be a heavy drinker as well, nowadays she likes to leave her past behind and keep her friends and family close

Rainie - Rainecloud’s other half so to say, an axe wielding psychopath who enjoys killing, finds it to be a game, very playful gal, a smile that never leaves and grows at the sight of a dead body, she honestly aint one known for showing mercy

Skye - Rainecloud’s sister, this lil pupper gal being sweet as can be and highly energetic and happy all the time, she is very sweet until you cross a boundary, then the sword comes out

Charles - he’s a bit of a hothead, honestly has a past he’d rather just let rot there, hates other demons, after being forced into a war, paying a high price for leaving it, its very clear why, nowadays he spends his days with his husband and daughter as a family, sometimes visits friends in other worlds, pretty rare though

Cheese - a gal who honestly has a personality made to drive you away, has so many wall built up, sold her soul for a complex revenge plan against some people and ended up being cheated out of it, it killing her best friend and the moment she spoke out against it she was turned into a demon, hates her home being inkwell, never wants to go back

Beat - friendly guy, a music demon who is found at bars and stage performances, just wanting to hear what he is tied to, his job is to well, drag people into hell when they play a certain song for too long...

Keith - absolute prick who smokes, past he likes to keep shut, can turn into a monster at the sight of blood, a best friend he pushed away a long time ago because something in him made him try and forget emotions, emotions make one weak you know?

Yami - a super hyper and sweet demon gal who honestly doesnt know what she is capable of, she is about 1′4′’ ands honestly the moment she decides your shoulder is comfortable good luck getting her off, she sticks to everything, super fast, super strong as well! she cant fly yet due to how underdeveloped her wings are at the moment but one day she might be able to, at the moment she is happy with Troy and Artsy, her family now.

Hallie - gals been through a lot, abusive mother, horrible treatment, luckily she’s away from that all now, happy that she’s free! happy she feels safe with Teekee.... smokes occasionally, always wears long sleeves, a kind and happy gal, a bit of a flirt with who she chooses

Trebble - daughter of the devil, sweet as can be and suffered a lot of abuse and neglect from her father, luckily being in a better place with her godfather Anomy whom she likes to call dad, lots of connections with people, kind of heat but you’d be surprised what she does in her free time, just what her dad does you know?

Alphie - this little guy being Tricia’s underboss is known for being that lives off of flesh, Tricia lets his dispose of the bodies and take care of special cases she doesnt handle herself. he honestly hates Rainie, they both have a small fued between each other and when it gets in the way of business it pisses Tricia off

Judith - a drug dealer who has a thing for murdering customers, she has a certain obsession with an ex and detective Milo who put her in prison at one point, unfortunately for Milo she isnt behind bars anymore and is back with her usual business.

Myrina - a formal demon warrior who currently fled home with her son Otoko and went to a place that would be safer for him instead of him being taken from her because he “held her back” according to some demons, she’ll do anything to protect her child so dont try anything.

Otoko - a small bab who is about a year old, bright and cheerful and just loves his mother

Riku - an earth demon tribe leader, currently at a young age and is responsible for leading his small and shrinking tribe. he luckily isnt stressed from is and has time to be a kid but with what is to happen soon, who knows how that could change him

of course there are the kinda demon i guess?? list;

Hood - half demon, basically a host, battling memory loss and fighting for control. she’s a vigilante who is talented as all hell with a bow and arrow, nimble and agile as can be. just back away when she loses control.

Lime - he aint aware that he’s part demon, his father was a demon, a guy who’s had it tough, hates authority with a passion. and interdimensional thief who has a thing for shinies

Rob - guy might have angel wings but i promise you those arent his. a demonic shapeshifter. a cross breed, the guy is really sweet and kind, unaware of what he used to be...luckily

Sketch - a demon mimic, gals got a tough past, abused to the point where she forgot how to feel emotions and lost the ability to feel touch and pain. nowadays just trying to find a goddamn job after she stopped working for a gang.

Tricia - a gang leader who absolutely lacks a heart in the slightest, no redeeming her, a huge dislike for children leading her to abandoning her own child and wanting to kill her niece Trebble. currently trying to get back her test subject Artsy and working with another being Sonya...

ocs that were mentioned but do not belong to me!

Anthony, Troy, Penn and Daisy - @flowerrose14

Anomy - @elementalgod-aj

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chibikuroneko13 · 5 years

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If you want more, I'll ask 29, 30, 32, and 39 for D&D asks >:)

YESSSSS thanku :3333

29. Have you ever been drunk playing d&d?

Nope but i really wanna. Our main dm doesnt drink so ehh. Ive been mildly tipsy playing before cuz we play in a pub for adventurers league so a few malibu and cokes later im just..... yeah

30. Homebrew or prewritten?

i dont mind either tbh. Ive not played in a prewritten one yet. Unless you count Ravnica which is just the world tbh. but anythings good fun XD

32. Most memorable NPC you've encountered in a game you played in.

Boi lemme tell you about Oasis Starborne who is as obnoxious as his name sounds. We first met him entering a tavern we were lurking in wearing glowing white full plate armour, a giant flaming greatsword and yknow that rich kid smirk that they have like they own the place. Absolute dickhead, as soon as i got sending we messaged him “HEY OASIS, EAT SHIT OASIS, I HOPE YOU FALL OFF YOUR BIKE”. We love to hate him

39. Favorite villain you've defeated?

This is kinda long so here we go XD

Ok so. This doesnt technically count as defeated but this is like one of my favourite things thats happened involving a villain.We’re in the good world of Ravnica, the balance of power is very very very fragile here. Im a Dimir (sneaky bastard information stealing guild) Rogue whos undercover in the Orzhov (religious mafia with ghosts guild). We were tasked with retrieving this shield for the Boros (big military stereotypical paladin guild) that the Orzhov stole by blackmailing a high ranking Boros Archangel. After some shenanigans we meet the guy responsible, have an awkward dinner with an empty cloak sitting next to the guy, he tells us to see him preach later at his cathedral.We scout the place, find the shield in his office up at the very top. Plan was for me and the ranger to sneak in and grab it while the cleric and paladin caused a distraction outside.we did that well enough. Until we got into the cathedral, the Ranger failed a stealth check, so i went up alone (mistake)I rolled a 2 on stealth (9 total) for peeking through the keyhole to see if hes in there, door creaks open and he looks up at me, smiles, “Welcome. Please come in. Take a seat. :)” Me internally: *PANICPANICPANICPANICPANIC*i cant exactly say no because im literally on the like 6th floor, and there were guards downstairs. so i sit down and he begins interrogating me like “So... Youre here to “free” the archangel? You are aware that as an Orzhov member- you are Orzhov correct?” me: *pulls out insignia i have cuz im undercover* ummm yes“Well, good. As an Orzhov member I am free to do with you as I wish”At this point im like. proper internally screaming. He tells me to grab a book from the shelf for him. So I do. And i stealthily take out my dagger to try and stab and run.Then theres a voice from behind me. “Id prefer it if you didnt stab my puppet” The room was seemingly empty besides from me and him. Then i noticed a cloak. what was on a coat rack now floating ominously. Ok time to go, i can maybe make it out the door right? so i stab the guy out of spite, double dash to get out the door.Then the DM says “Make a Charisma saving throw”And then my dice betray meNat 1So now i have a ghost in my head. And suddenly my character is much more stingy about money for some reason. And because i went in alone, none of my party members know about it. The ghost was pretty smart about it cuz he was like “hm what would be the most natural thing to do here” and was like. Here take the shield back to the Guildpact and then theyll not suspect a thing

Curse my +8 to deception.

Thank for more asks :3. I can and will yell all day.

#answered #xeno #dnd

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mrbingley · 4 years

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session two and three of my dnd campaign!

i forgot to make a post for the second session so i’ll retell what happened in session two first:

having successfully found the cult grounds, they started roaming the area. the area looks like a huge crater, all sand of white and clear and gold specks with buildings chipped/sculpted into the sides of the crater. there are people lying on the ground in an intricate circle all staring up as though counting the stars. i ask the players if they look up. they all say they do. they make wisdom saving throws. two of them pass. one of them doesnt. that person, the aasimar, is under the spell suggestion and has to start counting the stars with the others. the other two players tug her along while they keep the area. b/c the assimar is under the spell, she cant do much of anything else but she does get the chance to learn more about the religion/history/insight on why these ppl are doing this and whats going on. she learns she rolls well and learns shes counting the stars for a reason. and that, due to the intricate way these ppl are lying down, it doesnt look like they were, like, forced to be counting. theyre all laying down comfortably, like they chose a spot to lie down and willingly looked up. theyre counting the stars and specifically the stars that are constellations of gods, like theyre keeping track of something.

they meet a gnome who lives in an obvservatory who previously lived underneath this land until w/e made the crater destroyed her home. she never left the underground and is now infatuated with the stars and is watching them. she isnt wearing the garb of the cult members. the gnome player talks talks to her in gnomish and learns shes not apart of the cult and they let her live here and let her have this observatory so long as she keeps official documentation and observation of the stars for them. the gnome gets so enraged by this he tells her how shes letting them use her free labor and they stole her home and land from him and this isnt fair. she doesnt quite see it like that but she hasnt talked to another gnome in awhile so she takes this into consideration. the two hit it off well.

the other two players are standing to the side watching these two speak in gnomish and cant understand a word theyre saying.

they leave to the main building and are stopped by art, a strong female guard with armor and the cult garb. she tells them they cant come into this building w/out the official garb b/c it’s a sacred building. they try to sneak in and it doesn’t work. they ask how they can get the garb. art tells them the only way you can get the garb is by doing the initiation. none of them want to do that.

they steal a robe from a person counting the stars, careful not to obstruct any of the ppl’s vision or ability to count b/c what may happen if they do could be very bad.

the assimar has good rapport w/ them b/c she also is compelled to count the stars. one of the ppl offer them her robe when she says she lost hers.

but they still need the hat.

third session:

the gnome is a rogue and stealths their way into the middle of the star gazing circle (they insight check and get a high roll and realize that the ppl in the middle have been there the longest and will likely have the spell wear off the soonest and can thus get a hat from them more easily w/out stopping them from counting). they persuade the person to guide them to where the initiation entrance is and he does. it’s much more private here. they enter a tunnel that has a tube spinning around them with constellations on it and red markings on certain constellations. they learn that the fallen gods (different than dead gods, whose constellation stars just go out) all have red markings on their entire constellations and some of the constellations have a couple of red stars: like hades, the god that the assimar worships.

the gnome distracts the cult member by talking about how back in their day there werent nearly as many constellations as there are now.

the assimar rolls a relig check to see if she can learn more based on the details in this entrance tunnel. she gets advantage b/c the gnome stole a book on constellations in the second session and gave it to her. she rolls well. she learns that this cult is documenting the changes in the stars. that they know gods can die and when they do the constellations just go out. but very recently stars of constellations have been falling and that is different than death. those constellations are marked by red etchings. they learn athena and clothos have both fully fallen constellations. hades has some stars that have fallen. and several other gods have partially fallen or fully fallen, but they dont know who. whether these ppl are merely documenting the change or having a hand in the change, they cant tell. it does seem these ppl are the most knowledgeable on the phenomenon.

the tiefling cast charm person on the cult member and rolls and the cult member rolls a nat 20 and notices they tried to charm them and turns to them and the assimar charges at them and rolls initiative. they knock this dude unconscious and steal his hat and robe. he’s small so it only fits the gnome. the tiefling rolls a medicine check to help the guy and rolls over 20 so it helps stabilize him but he’s still unconscious and will have to make saving throws (the check gave him two successes).

the gnome is allowed into the main building. he rolls a nat 20 to get into the leader’s quarters and sees that the statue that he is after is in the center of this room w/ wires attached to it and those wires are attached to a metal conductor and also to the sandy floor. the room start to thrum and hum and vibrate. they investigate the statue and notice it is the same statue from the auction (the one he is supposed to bring back to the high elf) and that it is hephaestus, the god of fire and weapons and sculpture and the god who made weapons for other gods. they roll for religion and do okay and know that hephaestus has some kind of history with athena. the gnome notices there is a velvet curtain with someone behind it. they unplug a wire to distract them so they can go behind the curtain and see what’s there.

they roll low so they dont really know. they just know the leader isnt just trying to learn something theyre trying to do something.

they roll a nat 20 to investigate the person and realize he’s the leader of the cult and is wearing gold ears (the same as the ones missing from the statue in mornstead) and has a scroll in his back pocket. they also can tell that he was once a cleric for athena, one of the fallen gods. and they had previously learned this spot used to be where a shrine for athena was. he is still wearing the clerical clothes you wear for athena despite her having been one of the fallen.

the gnome comes out from hiding and introduces himself and doesnt roll well on any of these rolls and the leader tries to get him to leave b/c this is his private area and he doesnt have much time to get this done. the gnome says he can help and tries to use his tinker tools to give the leader more time to do w/e it is hes trying to do. he rolls a nat 1 and makes the time go down to twenty secs.

the leader hurries to try and get this done. the conductor short circuits but before it does wind starts swirling around the statue and sand gusts around it, it’s familiar to what happened to the statue in mornstead (the water fountain statue fountain that ppl threw coins to and made wishes that had the chance to come true). the gnome notices the familiarity and tosses a coin at the statue and makes a wish. nothing happens (lol). before the conductor short circuits the sound of a ring fills the room. whether it is literally the sound of, like, a bell ringing, or the word itself (ring) is unclear. the gnome tries to steal the leader’s scroll. he doesnt roll well enough. he rolls to just investigate the scroll. he rolls p well and can see on the scroll it’s like a list with things like “lied today, worshipped another god, didn’t give your god a gift”. the gnome interpreted this as a burn book on the other cult members. the leader banned them from entering this building again.

he reports back to the other two players waiting outside.

they all go back to the guy they knocked unconscious and try to help him. he rolls saving throws and is okay. the gnome, the only one on good terms with him (b/c he didnt fight him), takes him back to his house and lets the gnome sleep in his house for the night.

the other two lie where ppl are lying on the ground counting stars and go to sleep there.

they decide they’ll do the cult initiation in the morning after a long rest.

#J: text #J: dnd #this is so long but honestly im having so much fun documenting how these sessions are going

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myfuckingfanfictionblog · 7 years

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THERE WAS A SEQUEL TO RED BULL PENIS

dallons in the hospital. he was diagnosed with osteoporosis.

he would be leaving the hospital the next morning after spending months in intensive care. they found socks and red bull in his bones and had to remove them. now he’s boneless. hes just skin and muscle.

like chicken nuggets.

but theres one body part u dont need bones for ;)

ur ears.

when he is released from the hospital, they tell him he has to pay 20 million dollars for all of the water he consumed during his stay. he ignores them. he puts on his sparkly pants and exits.

hes only wearing his pants. no shirt. no sexy lingerie. no socks. he hasnt worn socks since the… Incident.

he has nightmares about the Incident every single moment of his life, even when hes awake.

they had to amputate his leg and his dick stump too. he got a prosthetic dick but no leg. he has a peg leg now. just a stick glued to his leg. sometimes he likes to sit and chew on his stick. then he is reminded of the Incident and cries until he falls asleep.

he shakes away his memories and walks into the hospital parking lot, barefoot and shirtless, wondering what to do next.

he sees a strange vehicle in the parking lot. the door opens and zack hall exits. dallons heart races, he hasnt spoken with anyone associated with panic since the incident.

“fuck you dallon” zack says. he throws a cigar at dallon and drives away. the cigar hits dallon in the face and he falls over. his peg leg snaps in half. hurriedly he shoves it up his butthole, no lube or condom.

he pulls out his cellular device and contemplates who to call for help in this crisis while the peg leg leaves splinters inside him. he knows that brendon is probably smoking with zack, laughing at dallons misfortune. he scrolls through his contacts and suddenly he is hit with an idea. his one friend through everything. his main man. the guy whos never left him for anything. his bro.

he calls josh dun.

josh answers after a few rings with a confused “dallon?”

“hey josh please help me im in a parking lot there are splinters in my rectum”

“ok dallon im coming im bringing tyler” josh says and hangs up.

josh sighs and grabs his keys, giving tyler a nod as he quickly rushes to his skateboard. josh gets on his skateboard.

tyler quickly goes to sit on joshs shoulders. “onward mighty steed” tyler yodels and kicks josh in the ribs. josh screams in pain and starts obediently skateboarding.

they skateboard to the hospital gracefully and spot dallon laying in the parking lot. “ew is that dallon” tyler says.

“stop being rude” josh says

dallon cries as tyler picks him up

tyler holds him bridal style on joshs shoulders. josh cries because dallon is really heavy. tyler doesnt know what to do so he sticks his toe thumb up dallons ass.

dallon cries and smacks tyler, causing josh to wiggle and swerve. everyone shrieks. josh skates over a pebble causing tyler, dallon, and tyler’s toe thumb to fall over. josh gracefully backflips off the rogue skateboard but tyler and dallon smash into the pavement.

the peg leg is jammed deeper into dallons rectum and tylers toe thumb is still in his butthole. tyler gets a splinter. everyone is getting splinters.

josh is lying on the ground dead

tyler screams and pulls his thumb out, crawling to his dead band mate. he puts his thumb in joshs butt, but josh is already dead. tylers efforts are useless

tyler buries his face in joshs chest, mourning his lover when a car pulls up. the door swings open and two high heels drop down, and they see breezy. breezy stomps on dallon. the kids are shouting from the backseat about minecraft and fnaf.

breezy throws a grenade into the car, killing the children instantly. it hasnt detonated yet. she leans close to dallon and whispers “i fucking hated your kids anyway” then she gets up and steals a random car and drives away. dallon sobs and looks over at tyler

tyler is convulsing on the ground

before getting very far, breezy crashes into a juice bar and dies, cursing the one thing she ever loved for killing her as she takes her last breath

another car pulls up

dallon whimpers, he just wants help

a greasy kenny appears in the window

dallon sighs. he would rather have anyone else to help. kenny presses his face against the window and dallon can see the glass fogging when he breathes.

“r u ok” kenny shrieks. “is that a toe having a seizure over there”

dallon yells “fuck off kenny”

kenny gets out of the car and slips on his own grease puddle. he breaks his hip. “i am an old man” he cries “i need a hip replacement”

“ya i need one too you fucking grease whore but do u see me complaining no go shove ur dick in a pumpkin” dallon says. kenny cries and begs dallon for help but dallon just crawls over and starts beating the shit out of him. this is all in the hospital parking lot and nobody is helping

“not even my guitars can save me now” kenny says

“u can shove ur guitars up ur greasy butthole” dallon says. “at least u have natural lube"he adds

tyler is still having a seizure on the ground. foam starts to drip down tylers cheek as his body shakes and convulses

"hey tyler do u want some taco bell” josh says

tyler screams. josh is a zombie. rest in pepperoni.

“JOSH UR BACK” tyler starts violently fucking josh in the ass in celebration.

“tyler stop i just want some taco bell ur a bottom anyway please stop” josh says

tyler is out of control at the moment. there is no telling what he can do.

dallon crawls over and tries to join. tylers dick kicks him in the face. josh seems to be okay with a threesome, but tyler punches dallon in the throat. dallon rips joshs hair out in clumps. josh cries.

“my luscious straw locks. what have you done” he laments. josh now looks like tyler.

“tyler can we please get taco bell” josh says. tyler ignores him and keeps going. josh shits himself. tyler moans even louder.

“how did u know my kink” tyler says. josh cries and runs away. tyler screams.

now that josh is gone, there is only one other person to turn to. dolan. dalon. dallon.

tyler pees on dallon. “golden shower” he says. dallon screams.

another car pulls up, crushing tylers legs under its wheels. the door opens and smoke pours out.

josh comes back and beats tyler with a stop sign.

brendon and zack get out and walk over. zack gets lung ccancer suddenly.

brendon starts throwing weed at dallon. clumps of weed hit his face. everyone stares at zack as he dies of lung cancer. rip zack. sarah urie is sitting in the car drinking a smoothie and angrily tweeting fans. “bee kind” she yells from inside the car. brendon ignores her

brendon whips his dick out. its not a snake dick anymore.

“shove a bee up ur asshole!” tyler yells. tyler pulls out his toe thumb and gives them a thumbs up.

jenna joseph crawls up out of the sewers and flashes her wedding ring to everyone. tyler takes the wedding ring and eats it. jennas ugly eyebrows fall off in shock. breezy comes back from the dead to repair jennas fallen eyebrows even though her own are shit

“tyler can we get taco bell now” josh says

breezy spits on dallon and kicks the shit out of him. brendon begins eating zacks corpse.

there is still a peg leg in dallons ass.

tyler and josh come back with taco bell holding hands. sarah and breezy scream

“UNHEALTHY!!” they both run away and probably fuck in some grass

dallons ass gets an infection and he speed shits out the peg leg and all the splinters onto tyler. tyler spits his chewed up taco on dallon.

tyler moans as the peg leg pierces his nipple

jenna sees tyler nutting then cries and makes a noose with her shirt. breezy makes a green vegan gluten free extra protein smoothie shake. josh sees jenna and pushes her back into the sewer. shes gone

breezy makes some minecraft snacks and brings them to the squad. they eat the ugly torch pretzels and vomit everywhere. kenny gets up, broken hip forgotten, and roundhouse kicks her in the face. dallon swallows a pretzel stick torch whole then proceeds to drop dead

dallon says “werent the pretzels for knox and our failed abortion child amelie”

kenny drops dead

breezy says “ya but i killed ur dumbass children”

dallon puts on socks because hes cold. he cries and chews on the peg leg that was in his rectum. he has a flashback to the incident and screams. dallon stares down at the socks, the whole world slowing down around him. breezy shoves an icing pretzel torch up his butt. he cries.

brendon starts singing bohemian rhapsody in the background, demanding attention. nobody cares.

dallon lifts his foot into his lap, peeling the sock back slowly exposing the hair on his toe knuckles. he presses the warm sock against his cheek, taking a long whiff. he starts to eat the sock. he closes his eyes in bliss, remembering the moments he had with socks. he moans. his prosthetic dick has never been this hard

brendons eyes turn black as he notices, scales covering his limps. his dick starts wiggling. it elongates, until it is a wriggling tentacle.

he crawls over to dallon, head spinning around and limbs cracking.

someone drinks a diet pepsi. it is not known who.

the tentacle pokes dallons ear. brendon shoves it in dallons ear, literally fucking his brains out. dallon, still nutting to the sock, is dazed and confused. dallon nuts twice at the same time.

his brains spill onto the pavement. the pavement cracks open and ground beneath them splits, opening the underworld. tyler jumps in eagerly.

zack crawls back from the dead and mutes dallon on twitter. “you are muted. idiot” zack says then jumps into the abyss. the underworld sucks everyone in. it sucks in a mild sauce packet from taco bell, and josh cries and jumps in after it. the underworld is filled with socks and mountain dew

dallon floats up off the ground. brendon grabs onto him, afraid he will float away like a balloon. a dalloon. but brendon played himself, as dallon does not stop floating. they float until they reach space. brendon feels the gravitational pull of uranus

screeching, brendon pulls dallon into the core of uranus, where they are vaporized instantly

the end

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decodervon · 4 years

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Call and Response.

The fact that you admitted to hard drug use after a death and have the gall to tell ME how to use my drugs is pretty bold. I told you a long time ago that the closer you got to Burlesque you got, the more hard drugs you would imbibe. I even quoted Coke. I haven’t had coke since my first time. Focus that worry on yourself, because you’re still finding reasons and excuses to do it. So do not preach to me unless you’re willing to practice. I also don’t like that you’re blacking out on different drugs. I did know you can black out on Molly. Did you know you can DIE from Molly? I’m glad Hollie is taking care of you, but you shouldn’t find yourself in these precarious positions to begin with. Grief isn’t an excuse and you can ask ANYONE who’s fallen to alcohol or drug use after a death. I’m happy your shared, but very disappointed at your continued path towards harder drugs.

Its... interesting to hear about the new guy. I need to calm down a little from my previous paragraphs, since I’m still a little upset at your hard drug use. So yeah. All of this sounds like more or less what I gathered. Anyone new could’ve filled the void of needing a new person to cleanse your pallet after the last few years. I’d say it sounds like bad news to mess with someone living with an Ex, regardless of when they move out, but for the type of relationship you’re trying to have, I don’t think it matters. They say that for Evil to succeed that Good Men have to do nothing. That’s in relation to you knowing how that relationship is going to end with his ex. It’ll be fire and sadness and he’ll look to you to pick up the pieces and that’ll be that. That’ll be the time where exclusivity is talked about and the actual relationship starts. You have a lot of experience, but I’m not going to try and give any advice. To be honest, I want it to fail. Not because you dont deserve someone nice or because I’m mad. But because I’m petty. I wish it was still me you came to and I can make my peace with it. There will always be another guy in line ready to dote. Sorry, I am a little bitter. I shouldn’t be, but I’m honest here. I feel better after talking. I know what you’re getting out of it and I know you’re completely guarded. With all the strength you’ve gained through your new identity, I’m not sure even I could pierce them without a great plan. so yeah. i know what you’re getting out of a casual relationship. i expected as much. still hurts. still expected. and i don’t... really know if you fully get the ramifications of who I’m seeing. like. if it was anyone else in my Rogue’s Gallery of Exs and women, shrugging them off would be totally warranted. But we both know that Kat isn’t one of them. She’s a totally different level. A level that’s persisted for damn near a decade. I don’t want to freak you out, but I take my dealings with her deadly serious. Much more than anyone else. As I mentioned, it’s on a Caitlyn level. And she was not the one that asked me on a date. I broke that off.

She’s... too good to me. She’s exactly like what you need, but I don’t have to stay guarded. It’s... shocking, to be honest. All she wants to do is watch anime and play video games together and just... lay around. Its a godsend after all the anger I’ve felt lately and all the mixed up feelings. i’m so scared i’ll mess everything up, because thats what i do. sometimes it takes a while, but i always push people away sooner or later. thats why i’m keeping my emotional distance. i don’t.. i don’t want her to fall into the pit that is me without understanding how damaged i am. i don’t want to lie to her or trick her or push her or anything. it’s all strange and shocking and i still don’t... really believe it. why would she want me. why am i what helped her change back to guys? it’s... a lot of pressure. i’m... not great. i know in my heart i would still meet up with you if given the chance.. probably. but i know if i was seeing anyone else, itd be a definitely yes, instead of a maybe. and THATS why i think this makes it much more serious in this scenario.

sorry. i’m in a weird place. this isn’t normally where i write from and i feel kinda confused and weird.

on a different note..

you have a headstart on anyone, due to the fact i shared some... very intimate shortcuts with you. (and i mean. i think im kinda into it. i do like hearing you be a dom.. i really liked that time where you forced me to fuck you.) and yeah. i know your guy doesn’t mean anything to you emotionally. mine is.. i’m trying not to open myself up too fast. thats why i’m taking things slow and why things aren’t official in any capacity. i’m not ready for it like you’re not ready for it, it’s just a lot harder for me to stir up something casual (much like it would be harder for you to stir up something serious, kinda our polar opposites.) and I hate to put the ball in your court, but you’re the one with the busy life and schedule. even during the time i tried to win you back, you barely had time for me. you work a full-time job, have a full-time hobby/lifestyle, and don’t stay up past midnight. you could throw a dart and hit some free time for me. your freetime is a bull’s eye. you’d have to be the one to ride your bike through the winter winds to come get me. which.. saddens me because.. it’s hot, but its not realistic. you barely did things like that when i asked, expecting them out of the blue is... irresponsible. but i can’t tell you what it’ll actually be. thats up to to you. i can’t be the creepy ex showing up around your house. hell, maybe even a seedy motel middlegroud is the answer. idk.

and i worked hard to make you cum. i learned your body from scratch and knew it better than anyone. i could’ve made you cum no matter how you felt. sick as a dog, sad as hell... it didn’t matter. i could suck the life out of you over and over if you’d let me. i like hearing you say that though. i like it a lot. i.. always wished you spent more time and learned the same stuff about going down on me.. but thats something /you/ have to decide and want to do. just something that was there to practice on. i could’ve helped. whatever. nevermind. doesn’t matter.

and... ill never have... good body self-esteem. it’s part of me. its what i search for in others. that praise for my physical body. its the easiest way into my thoughts and heart. and i hope it doesn’t scare her. >_< i’m not... worried about that so much. sex is.. a lot to me and i don’t want to throw all that on her anytime soon. if i laid with her... that tryst would be as good as dead. which is why anyone else other than her would be whatever. they wouldn’t mean anything. its why i’m scared. its why i want to take it slow.. i dont really know how long i’m on the market for.

this all scares me.

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shinozaki-ayumi · 6 years

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Please answer all the things from the ask thing I can't decide what I want to know most :'''(

omg thats ok!! this’ll be a long one then lol

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

its my boyfriend, so i’d probably be just like… “oh hey, that’s cool”

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

he’s my boyfriend lol

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

yeah mostly because i don’t want to associate myself with it and i’d also just be really concerned about their health too? like weed isn’t bad but anything else is a no

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

nope. exactly 6

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober bc i don’t drink lol

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

the only person i’ve ever had a crush on is my current and only boyfriend so no

7. What does your last received text say?

“pack up your stuff”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

too many times over the past three years to even begin to count

9. Where was your last kiss at?

about 20 mins ago at my boyfriend’s front door

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

i don’t have a sister, but i have a brother and i saw him 2 minutes ago

11. What do you drink in the morning?

tea or milk

12. Where did you sleep last night?

in my own bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

not really because if you are really meant to be with someone you both will put in the effort to make sure you are respectful of each other. i do think it’s probably difficult to find a partner though, especially in high school bc those almost never last.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

not really honestly lol. this year has been pretty decent.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

nope. it would prooobably be pretty awesome actually

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy! i love rain so much. it’s so relaxing to listen to and watch.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

no. my middle name is Jean, so i don’t know many people with that as a middle name. i don’t think it’s very popular.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

pajama pants :D

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

hell yes. my boyfriend and i have been together for three years already and are more stable and loving than we ever have.

20. Does anyone like you?

not at the moment i don’t think, but i have known about several guys who have liked me. aside from the current bf, they were all… gross….

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

my boyfriend’s name is Stefan lol

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

nope, he’s straight as can be

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

SO MANY. SO SO MANY.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

absolutely! i want something simple (like a triforce or something) on my wrist or ankle.

25. In the past week have you cried?

this morning lmao

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

mutt/mix/hunting dog thing. idk what she is. her name is hazel and she is my boyfriend’s dog.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

mix of both? lol

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

no none of the football players at my school are even remotely attractive to me

29. Do you think you’re old?

…im 16, so no

30. Do you like text messaging?

it’s ok. but honestly, in comparison to the past few years, i just prefer talking in person or on skype

31. What type of day are you having?

GARBAGE but its ok because its getting better as it goes :)

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

no… the only piercings i want are more ear piercings.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

cold. like, mid fall weather.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

i would literally die to save my boyfriend from suffering

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

relationship; flings/one-time things are not appealing to me. i like friendship and emotional bonding.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

complicated, but i don’t think anyone is really “simple.”

37. What song are you listening to?

none, my computer just decided to turn volume up to 100% for some reason without me pressing the buttons and now my ears are ringing. nice.

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

depends who i’m talking to and whether or not they deserve it39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

a girl? ya, but only one. i only have a few female friends. most of my friends are boys lol40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

i had a dream that they were sleeping in my room and the next day at school i almost threw up when i saw them. good times.41. When did you last receive a text message?

about an hour ago42. What is wrong with you right now?

TOO. MUCH. HOMEWORK. 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

she’s my mom, so pretty well i think lol44. Does anyone disgust you?

a variety of people. pro-life people especially disgust me. also any religious zealots and closed-minded people in general. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

no, way too dedicated to my actual boyfriend.46. Are you in a good mood right now?

i’ve been better but my current mood is far better than my mood yesterday/this morning!!47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my mom48. What color shirt are you wearing?

black49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yeah… it’s pretty personal though. not gonna talk about it.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

not currently but in the past year or two, many people51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

not in the slightest

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

not sure if this means in a relationship or not but platonically yes. that friendship ended in far shittier ways though, so sometimes i sort of regret it. don’t think it could’ve ended any other way though.53. Do you like rain?

I LOVE RAIN 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

yeah because if they are a huge party animal who wants to drink all the time and loves being drunk all the time i am NOT compatible with them. casually drinking once in a while would probably be fine though.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

the only person i’ve ever liked is fully aware that i like him lol56. Do you like to cuddle?

YES. SO MUCH. I LIVE ON CUDDLES.57. Are you shy?

yeah but i’m growing out of it a bit!!!58. Do you get along with girls?

not really59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

currently dating60. What do you carry with you at all times?

phone, pencils, sketchbook61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

I’D DO IT FOR FREE 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

it’s been three years in my current one, so yes lol63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

you all know the answer to this64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

yes i love when he does this. its gentle and reassuring65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

idk. not cute, but i had some nice moments with my bf. mostly just laying on my bed and talking about “deep” stuff while playing fire emblem

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

theres only been one and he’s 17

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?

do them myself but i haven’t done my nails in years 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

can i say neither69. Do you have any stickers on your car?

i dont have a car but my family does not70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

….can i say neither? 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?

iPhone 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?

ages ago because my town’s only Pizza Hut closed years ago 73. Do you like diet soda?

no those cancer-inducing chemicals can stay 5000000 miles away from my body74. What color are the walls in your room?

dark yellow-y tan 75. Are you 16 or older?

i’m 1676. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?

no, tried, not a fan 77. Do you have a job?

no and i am dreading it. i’d like to take commissions instead lol

78. What are your initials?

EJC 79. Did you ever have braces?

yes and they are long gone. i am grateful80. Are you from the south?

nope, upstate New York! best state

81. What does your last status on facebook say?

i don’t use facebook82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

lol 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?

my mom84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?

neither 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?

i genuinely do not remember. i think Rogue One 86. Do you smoke?

HELL no 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?

flip flops88. Is your phone touch screen?

yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?

straight90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?

no91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?

pool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?

yes93. …Had sex in a car?

no lol 94. Are you single or in a relationship?

in a relationship 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?

sleeping

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?

fourth of july on Saratoga Lake 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?

its much better than my last one, but still not the best. i have a 5s 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?

nope 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?

never drank 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?

not on facebook, but on instagram yes 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?

yes even though it was 99.9% irrational. i’m tokophobic lol. thank god for the pill 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:

i cant even name one 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?

HAHAHAHAHAHA i’m of british and german descent (aka about as white as they can come) so my skin burns, never tans 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

absolutely not

#oof that took a while lol #sorry if im boring but thanks for the ask!#emma talks #Anonymous

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