darlingcatscradle

[darlingcatscradle]

You look into my eyes

I can tell there is love

You are searching for me

The person I was is gone

The person I have changed into inside is broken

You can only see the past

You cannot see what has changed

You only accept that I am here now

You don’t beg me to stay

You don’t tell me to go

The person I am is distant

I still care for you

You deserve someone who is there

I am gone

Mentally, physically, gone.

It hurts to reach out when I know I cannot give you what you need

I am useless 

I only deserve me

You deserve more

I need to run away

[darlingcatscradle]

Summers Kiss

I want to lay next to you

lay and watch the sky turn blue

lay and remember you

and how the summer smelled so sweet

the suns warmth dancing on our lips

your hand grazing my hip

touching so softly

fading in and out of time

this memory will always be mine

you can cherish it too

as long as I can lay next to you

lay and watch the sky turn blue

lay and remember you

and how the summer smelled so sweet

the suns warmth kisses our lids

my hand rubbing your chin

touching so softly

fading in and out of time

this memory will always be mine

you can cherish it too

as long as I can lay next to you

[darlingcatscradle]

My heart is like a hallow bone

Never beating always creaking

I pull my skin right off my face

I throw it down I can't escape

I put on a new skin for each reaction

The bones in my body just start collapsing

I feel my muscles stand at attention

Holing up my best intentions

Dont shown them your hollow inside

Try to wear these bones with pride

We are nothing but skeletons

We are nothing but skeletons

It doesnt matter what you have

As long as these bones are fed

As long as these words are read

I will continue to hang my head

Becuase I am nothing but a skeleton

Hollow

Shallow

Dead

[darlingcatscradle]

The more mundane the task

The farther I fall down this hole

Down to where part of me is dead

Down to where it's all in my head

I want to climb out

I want to see some thing new

A new light shining that you never knew could be true

And you sprint and you run

To a new life ahead

You arent sure what you left was better instead

But you leap with faith and dig into the ground

This new life could be nice

Your old life is good too

What's the worst that could happen

It's all up to you

So keep your head high

Your dreams in your head

Follow them from end to end

Otherwise you are just a clone with someone else's eyes

Someone's else's soul

Being pulled into the mundane

Being pushed around in your brain

Thinking

You aren't good enough

You have to stop trying

Just do what your told and keep on crying

Because you'll never be good enough to leave this place

You are the one keeping you in this place

Pull yourself up

Try to stay strong

Their is nothing worse then the end of a song

[darlingcatscradle]

I cant handle these thoughts when I'm alone

The only time I'm normal is when your home

I put up the walls to try and stop it

I space off my brain is like a rocket

Hitting each and every asteroid of doubt

Hating myself just trying to figure me out

I feel like I dont deserve to be happy

All of these things around feel like their collapsing

You dont deserve this

You arent good at anything

You can never make up you mind you will just keep

Wasting time and grinding down

Until you feel like theirs no way out

You miss being sad its like a blanket that drives you mad

Hold you close and keeps you down

This is why you're the fucking clown

Keeping everyone up because they deserve so much

You crumble

You fall hard

Hurt yourself so much that it leaves scars

I don't even want to drive my car

Where will I go will I " BREAK"

I will cry at the wheel singing songs that make me shake

This burden is to heavy when your not home

I wish I didn't feel so alone

I wish I could be stronger and stand taller when you aren't around

Pull my self up but I just fall down

I fall and a drown when none else is around

I let it swallow me up

It's time for me to shut up

#sad poem #poem #mypoeticways #greatnuffin

[darlingcatscradle]

Red to Dead

My eyes are wide

Red flashing lights

All I see is red

I only wish to be dead

Seat belt hugging me tight

I won't be in your arms tonight

They lifted my body like a burden

I'm to much to carry

The red consumes them

I want to be buried

The cold breeze wraps me up

My lungs freeze

Its taunting me

The red is haunting me

We roll away and I can't breathe

The things inside no one can see

I crashed my car

I ruined my dreams

The monotone red perceives

Everything that's dead in me

#red #dead #dead inside #deadly #haunting #snowing #cold #haunted #greatnuffin #poem #song #car crash #seatbelt

[darlingcatscradle]

Happy Halloween

I've lost track of what you've done to me

I've lost track of all that's left to see

I want it back

I want my eyes to see

What life lacks

You are dead to me

Like a skeleton

Hanging from my rafters

Like a ghost

Floating along the pasture

So a loaf

I'm fleeing threw these halls to leave you

Down in the basement so dark

So I can't see you

I can feel you

Like a cold, stiff brezze

I can smell you

Lifting up your shirt

Breast so smooth

God this fucking hurts

Your stiff body, wraps me close and tight

I feel so naughty

Like a skeleton

Hanging in my closet

Like a ghost

My heart so very haunted

I feel you slide between my thighs and I scream

Happy Halloween

#poetry #horror #song #skeletons #skeleton #love #love poem #deadly #haunted #happy halloween #halloween #ghost #float #mysterious #greatnuffin

[darlingcatscradle]

Theirs something in the dark

Brewing up a fright

I can feel it in my soul

Hes come for me tonight

I dawn my shearest gown

Let my hair lay down

I slip on some boots

Start walking out the door

The deepest deathy howls

Fill my awating ears

I walk slow

Over come my fears

Tick tock tick tock

Why is there a clock

Animals cannot tell time

They only measure thing by fear

Now that I'm out here

I suppose that's what I'll do

Remember this feeling

Measure it too

One.. Two.. chills run up my back

Three.. four.. tickels on my neck

Five.. six.. limbs stiff like sticks

Seven.. eight.. heart heavy like a weight

Nine.. ten.. tick tock again

Awooo goes the howling of the trees

The branches shake like my knees

Theirs a fire in the distance

Giant shadows can be seen

I want to be a part of them

I have to build up stength

One foot after the other

This will be my fate

Getting closer now

I can smell your lust

I open up my gown a bit

Breathe in all your musk

Growling fills my ears

You lift me by my throat

My gown is torn away

You look like a goat

[darlingcatscradle]

Drifting Away

Pictures of you

Pictures of me

Hanging in my house just up the street

We used to laugh

We used to sing

Dance in the kitchen baking things

Now we hardly talk

It hurts to think

The last time we washed my hair out in the sink

You were my best friend

You held my hand

This is something you wont understand

How much it hurts to watch you drink

I've held my hand out a million times

You push me away

So far away

You're a sinking ship and I'm sailing away

Goodbye mom

Goodbye dreams

Of ever having what used to be

You were my best friend

And it hurts to say

My love for you is no longer the same

#alchoholic #tw: alcholism #mother #poem #sad poem #poetry #hurt #anguish #drifting #look away #pain #greatnuffin

[darlingcatscradle]

Today's The Day

If you go out in the woods today

Your sure to see a surprise

If you go out in the woods today

Prepare to open your eyes

Because a sentient being with arms so lean will be gathering up souls for all of his means

Today is the day the satanists have their picnic

#greatnuffin #song #poem #satanist #picnic #todays the day #surprise #poetry #sentient #teddybearpicnic #satanism

[darlingcatscradle]

Painted

My heart is too heavy

A weight I can hardly carry

Every action or choice of words ringing in my ears

I fear to open my mouth

Something terrifying is bound to crawl out

My skin is rippling with the waves of intention

I'm listening for your voice

My words are a wreapon

I can shut you down or lift you up

I fear my soul has givin up

So open your eyes and look far ahaead

The past is crumbling

I cant get out of bed

My body can no longer stand it

I pull out my scissors and start to hack it

Hair falls to my sides

As I attack and attack it

Tears fill my eyes

Hand begin to shake

Leaving the past behind feels like an eathquake

Hair washes down the drain

I contemplate if what I have done is sane

You can't control what me

I am me

I run my hands through what is left

I rub my face and pull my lip

The meat on my bones starts to slip

Nothing can change

I am nothing but a drip

A drop on paint on this world

Starting to dry

Refusing to be swirled and caught up in it all

A lonely splatter

A tremendous fall

#painted #painters #dry #lifeless #poem #poetry #fearfull #lost #vulnerable #attack #hatred #dark #plain #swril #forgotten

[darlingcatscradle]

Jaybird

My sweetest little bastard

Laid upon the alter

As naked as a jaybird in the spring

His screams could be heard for miles and miles

That didn't bother me

My sweetest little bastard

Laid agains me crying

As his blood washed over me

His screams could be heard for miles and miles

That didn't bother me

My sweetest little bastard

Revealed the biggest harvest

My hubby was so proud of me

The fields could me seen for miles and miles

That didn't bother me

My sweetest little bastard

Brought the mildest winter

The ground stayed soft like spring

The ranchers could be seen for miles and miles

They never bothered me

My sweetest little bastard

Never got any older

My stomach began rising

The butchers could be seen for miles and miles

This was my offering

My sweetest little bastard

Laid upon the alter

As naked as a jaybird in the spring

His screams could be heard for miles and miles

That didn't bother me

#jaybird #spring #offering #altar #laid #bluegrass #folk #greatnuffin #song #original #mine

[darlingcatscradle]

Hash pipe dreams

Burning and turning around these woods

Are we lost or are we wood

We become trees while whistling

Smoking these hash pipe dreams

Burning and turning around these tracks

Are we lost have we come back

We become steel while whistling

Smoking these hash pipe dreams

Burning and turning into your arms

Are we one are we apart

We start to sing while whistling

Smoking these hash pipe dreams

Burning and turning into the wild

Are we feral so meek and mild

We become free while whistling

Smoking these hash pipe dreams

#hash pipe dreams #meek #mild #wild #free #dreams #poem #song #bluegrass #greatnuffin #whistle

[darlingcatscradle]

Satan's Whisper

He pulled me closer into the dark

A little lamb lead astray

The night covered me like the coolest blanket as my soul got washed away

He pulled me closer to the fire

A little lamb held so dear

The way he touched me made me believe that nothing bad happens here

We danced and danced all through the night

No clothes no worries no fears

We prayed that satan would take us away

Get us the hell out of here

He pulled me closer into the dark

A little lamb lead astray

The night covered me like the coolest blanket as my soul got washed away

He told me to gaze into the fire

Look towards the future ahead

Dancing with satan on top of our graves

I'd do it all over again

He pulled my closer into the dark

A little lamb lead astry

The night covered me like the coolest blanket as my soul got washed away

#satans whisper #blue grass #greatnuffin #poem #song #original #fire #closer #lamb #asteay #blanket

[darlingcatscradle]

Sunday

Pacing the kitchen floor

I keep my intentions at bay

I have cut myself wide open

Taking a swig of beer

All I hear is Death Cab

Playing in a room so near

I am starting to get dizzy

Every urge brings a trance

Cracking open another beer

How long will this last

Back and forth

Back and forth

The yearn to run

Enhanced

A battle within myself

Will only cease

When I am no longer alone

Alone

#alone #sunday #beer #cuts #poem #music #passion

[darlingcatscradle]

The Ramblings of Sundays

I cannot plan an instrument

So I will sing a tune instead

the click of my keys take me far away

I just want to leave this place

So many things I have to do

I just simply cannot choose

Follow me into my world

We lock eyes and start to twirl

We can have tea and toast for two

I just want to be with you

I cannot play an instrument

So I will sing a tune instead

The click of my heals takes me far away

I want to disintegrate

So many things I wont do

I just simply can’ t leave you

Follow me into my world

I lost my keys

I’m going to hurl

We are going to be stuck like glue

I can’t stand me

How can you

I cannot play an instrument

I have no real talent

I should quit.

#poem #poetery #song #greatnuffin #instrument #quit #sunday #ramblings #disintegrate #You #keys #tune

[darlingcatscradle]

Endless Snow

Here we are yet again

Pulling your head out of the toilet

The smell burns my nostrils

The music is thumping through the door

I can hardly think

Your hair is tangled in my fingers

I lean against the bathtub

You continue to vomit

My whole body feels as tho it is on autopilot

I want this night to end

I glance over at you again

Finally passed out

Grasping the sink I struggle to stand

What a damn fun house of horrors life can be

You lean and weave in and out of fun and terrible situations only to die in the end

Life should have a profound meaning to some but me

I hope I make it to the next day alive

I’m not saying that I’m reckless

I’m saying you are

We all are damn

Sometimes our lives just crash together like cars on a slick midnight road

Where will we all go or end up

Day after day

God damn

I need another fucking drink

Time for you to think