#I’m feeling so much right now

[titanbabyeams]

I have been trying to stop thinking about ‘oh, but if readers prefer this—‘ or something similar when I’m trying to write, and to focus solely on writing what I want to write.

Which is great, yeah! I love it! I’m trying!

But it also leads to entertaining brainrot (/pos) ideas like Single-Dad Edward Elric moving to Japan and ending up with Hawks and Winry.

It’s the image of Hawks and Edward casually hanging out, getting close, and then Winry appearing. Winry, who unashamedly hangs off of Edward and teases and argues with him, like they’ve been married ten years but they’ve instead known each other their entire lives. The image of Hawks seeing their interactions and simply being… curious about the depths of it, of what exactly he’s missing about Edward Elric.

It’s the image of Winry instantly mothering Edward’s child, and Edward doing his best with said child, and Hawks being able to openly observe the growth of decent parents. Of Winry and Edward having a too-close, not close-enough relationship, that they’re still learning how to navigate the boundaries of in adulthood.

Besides, how do you think Hawks would react to having their overwhelming about of love directed at him? Gosh. I love brainrot sometimes.

#fma #fanfic #edward elric #ao3 #child fic #bnha #edwin #edhawks #mha #I think Winry and Edward have an overwhelming capacity for love and forgiveness #Winry may be more obvious about it than Edward #but they share that #they share in their ability to live and breathe as the purest form of unconditional love #and they have so much to share #especially with someone like Hawks #I’m feeling so much right now

[hannahhasafact]

Currently losing my goddamn mind regarding the new D20 season announcement

#ramblings #9.23.23 edit: turned off reblogs because why are ppl still reblogging this is old now #dimension 20 #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dimension 20 spoilers #this is all jokes but in all seriousness I literally stumbled when I saw Freddie IM SO EXCITED #but mainly!!! this cast!!! is so good!!!! I’m super excited #like tbh Danielle was like my fave part of misfits she was so funny??? and I feel like she didn’t get much time to shine #and I think Trapp is so fun like he was so good as sokbarr #and Siobhan is always a treat #literally only one person I don’t know in the cast but I’m excited! #also the theme seems right up my alley

[thatorangedrank]

Little is Alyx 👎🏻

Little is Penny 👎🏻

Little is a reflection of Ruby in Vol.1 and is a physical representation of “healing your inner child” 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

#like seriously Little reminds me more of Ruby than Ruby herself right now #I relate to Ruby so much in just needing to be ok for everyone all the time for things to be stable #when WBY is talking about how they bring her up by saying ‘we count on you’ and ‘you can do it’ and that’s basically what I heard growin up #my therapist once told me that you have to be the friend and caretaker for that little girl who always had to be ok #that she is still inside of my heart and that I’m the only one who can be there for her now #and something about… making sure my inner child feels safe reminds me so much of Ruby’s relationship with Little #also Little’s mannerisms are just … so v.1 Ruby it’s just uncanny #’I want to help even though I may not know how’ #that’s blind Ruby optimism if I’ve ever seen it #rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 #rwby volume 9 #rwby ruby rose #rwby v9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #rwby theory #ruby rose

[agrebel18]

friendly reminder that the hexsquad was initiated because of three kids of color who found love and acceptance in each other after being considered ‘freaks’ especially adding that they all got mistreaten by the very limiting school system

#and they’re all VERY neurodivergent coded people (luz more than the other two but still) #and luz and Willow are canonically queer plus I think Gus is too #i love amity and hunter ESPECIALLY after they joined the squad but I’m feeling the nostalgia right now #anyways. their friendship means so much to me <3 #I’m missing them right now #willow park #luz noceda #gus porter #hexsquad #hextrio #toh #the owl house #og hexsquad

[w1lmuttart]

Found an old design I made of star boy back when everyone was rewriting the movie Wish lol

Went with both their true form, as well as a human form to blend in on earth. Anyway I like this guy so theyre mine now :)👍

#thought it’d be fun to use blues for the star colors rather than yellow #both to enhance the cosmic feel but to also create a contrast w the human appearance which is much warmer #blue stars are hotter than yellow stars right? so it feels fitting #I feel like this ver of star could very easily develop a wish on their own to be a fully actualized person on earth #rather than being a cosmic entity who can only passively interact w the wish makers #if we go w the idea that each person has an assigned wishing star then this could maybe be Aisha’s star #and she’s never made a wish til now and star boy has been growing restless #I thought it’d be cool if one of the villains was a star coming to earth as well. and the wish granting is to maintain their place on earth #then we could have parallels between our heroes and villains. the human wishing to keep their star w them #idk man. I’m trying to work w you movie #anyway rewrite lore is done for now lol #wish movie #……….although I’m stealing this design from it so uhhh #w1lmutt’s ocs

[sapphicstacks]

I think there is a lot to be said about Imogen trying so hard to meet Laudna where she is at emotionally post-resurrection.

It’s first obvious in the moment Pike doesn’t find Delilah’s spirit. Imogen is taken, for the briefest of moments, by joy because this is what the two of them have been working on for years together. From the very beginning, Imogen was in the conservatory looking up how to separate Laudna and Delilah. “We’re going to get her out of your head,” was Imogen’s reassuring promise to Laudna after the FCG fight. So, Imogen shows unabashed excitement for a split second.

However, Imogen also just made a new promise to Laudna. A promise that she will meet Laudna wherever she is and be there for her. So, Imogen uses her hands to cover her smile, steels herself, and matches Laudna. And we watch her do this over and over again that day in Whitestone. She takes every single cue from Laudna.

Laudna needs a hand to hold on to? Of course.

Laudna needs a promise that Whitestone is real? Imogen crosses her heart.

Laudna wants to touch the Sun Tree? Well, get up here.

Laudna is excited about a newly alive Pâté? Imogen has never giggled so openly.

Laudna can’t eat lobster? Luckily, potatoes are Imogen’s favorite food!

I can’t help but be impressed with Imogen in those moments. Imogen hasn’t had as many chances as Laudna to be the caretaker in their relationship but she will be damned before she neglects that duty now. She recognizes that Laudna will be in the place that Imogen was when they first met, and there is not a moment where Imogen doubts her ability to step up and be there for her. Imogen, in all of her self-doubt and anxiety, knows for a fact that she can keep that promise to Laudna. There is a confidence in Imogen’s love for Laudna that has never been more obvious.

#i’m always so intrigued by the facets of imogen we only see in her relationship to laudna #laudna saved imogen’s life and you can tell by the way they interact #imogen feels honored by the chance to provide any support for laudna #god it’s just so good #they love each other so much #AND laudna knows she can trust it! #at least right now she chooses to trust it #imodna #critical role #cr3 #cr spoilers #critrole #laudna #imogen temult #critical role spoilers

[millenianthemums]

parents of disabled kids will be like “we know our kid is disabled but we just won’t tell them about it. we don’t want them to think they’re less valuable than other kids. we don’t want them to feel limited by their disability, we want them to know they’re capable of anything.”

meanwhile those kids are growing up thinking “why is everything so much harder for me than it is for everyone else? there’s no reason i shouldn’t be able to just do this. i guess i’m just a failed, broken person.”

#text post #ableism #like if you don’t want to get your kid diagnosed with something then that’s one thing #but not KNOWING what’s wrong with them isn’t gonna make the problem just magically disappear #and just personally speaking. SO MANY things i do that i used to feel such deep shame about? #i now realize they were because i’m autistic #the meltdowns the social awkwardness etc #and i feel so much better to know i wasn’t just being whiny or difficult or weird for no reason #i feel like my whole life i’ve been gaslighted into not knowing what i really feel #because everyone always told me i was being ‘dramatic’ or ‘too sensitive’ and eventually i decided they must be right #so now i literally can’t tell what i’m feeling sometimes #because i dismiss my own feelings as stupid and wrong

[kellyinawheeliebin]

I just want to say one more thing for now, to anyone who is struggling right now because the Bad Batch has been your comfort show but how they handled Tech has potentially ruined that for you, you’re not alone. I know that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with, but you aren’t alone.

#the bad batch #the bad batch tech #tbb tech #star wars #i also want to say to people who are struggling with themselves right now because of it that you’re also not alone #i’m in a spiral because i’m so angry with myself for being so upset about something fictional #(that’s not a reflection on others it’s because i struggle badly with being ‘abnormal’) #and that i’m so upset about something fictional when there is so much going on in the world #i feel pathetic for it #so if anyone is feeling even remotely the same #i’m with you

[fyepertine]

Something to Cry About, Part 2

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Part 1

#degrees of lewdity #dol #dol fanart #dol comics #comics #artists on tumblr #dol whitney #whitney the bully #dol pc #mallory the rapier #cw: implied abuse #i mean what do you expect from this game lol #joy feels so much better after angst am i right #so I’m actually writing mallory’s polyamory fanfic and the first story is about whitney and him #it’s pretty fluffy #but mallory is hmmm complicated #anyway their dynamics with each other is consensual challenge/fight/submit #it’s a funny rom-com right now #but it wasn’t that way at first #anyway #third part next

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

[sosilliest]

here’s a little sketch of something i rlly wanna finish but i know i never will 😔

i’ve never drawn jetfire before…

#sky fire #jetfire #tomato #tomatoo #Ya Know #transformers #maccaddams #maccaddam #YAYYYYY #lalalala #god i feel so sick right now i think i’m #gonna die #Auuuuuu #this is Okay #also i reached 250 total likes today #thank u so much???? #i appreciate it ?!??? #and i have so many cool mutuals #i appreciate it U guys #thank u so much …. #starscream #screamer

[myfairkatiecat]

not my friends being 400x less supportive about me being Christian than I am about them being atheist

#losing my mind right now #we were literally all just talking about a trip the senior class goes on #I said I didn’t want to go #cause I kinda hate the camp #and this girl responds to my message about hating camp #and goes HAHA I HATE CHURCHES #haha get it cause that’s how I feel about churches #and I’m like??? you knew what you were doing when you randomly changed the topic to that directly off of one of my messages #this is a pretty minor example too #it’s just the one that’s sending me over the edge right now #I’m so fed up with it #I’m over here treading on eggshells and trying to not mention religion too much so I can show my respect for your beliefs #and all you want to do is constantly change the topic to how much you hate my religion #but if I say I can’t be friends with someone because of that #then IM the intolerant one! #there’s no way to win. #I wish people were just not like that

[gothicayomi]

What if All For One is Tomura’s grandpa AND Izuku’s dad

#I’m in the break room right now I just choked a little #just in general I’m so scareds #would this match the timeline btw #idk cuz I didn’t read or watch mha tbh but I’m scareds #dad for one #izuku midoriya #tomura shiragaki #all for one #hisashi midoriya #boku no hero acedamia #my hero academia #mha #bnha #I always feel like a clown when I tag so much shit tbh #my bad y’all

[franklyimissparis]

“if paul was bisexual/queer why wouldn’t he just come out by now?” why WOULD he tbh 😭😭 like idk i just think at 81 years old it’s probably not something PR man paul particularly feels the need to share publicly

#especially since he’s married to a woman - knowing paul i feel like he’d probably (incorrectly) think it’d be a betrayal to nancy/linda #i get the vibe that for paul it’s a bit ‘out of sight out of mind’ #like yeah i’m not with a guy right now so why tell people #who knows maybe he’ll shock us one day but it seems like despite him clearly having some unresolved feelings and pent up guilt abt john #he’s also content with leaving things as they stand - continuing to emphasise how much he loved john without making a statement #all of this is assuming that he’s even cognizant of his own queerness which is doubtful at times 😭 #paul mccartney #the beatles #john lennon #mclennon #john and paul

[leopardom]

it’s definitely not the right time to do this but it’s bugging me so much i need to ask

would anyone still be interested in reading more analyses/interpretations about Damon’s photoshoots with Nace/Jan and Jure after many days or maybe i shouldn’t even bother to write them?

#if this post comes off as me searching for validation then for better or worse yes. yes i do #i still feel insecure af about whatever i wrote about Kris’ and Bojan’s photos and what i have in the drafts for Nace so far #i see everyone writing and i wanna write too because i’m ✨thinking✨ but then i’m like #“who cares you’re late and you write shit. not interesting. move on” #but yet i won’t be home until Monday #and i don’t have time to write right now so this is getting pushed back more and more #and if i do end up writing stuff i don’t want it to end up hitting a wall and just. go unnoticed #and i’m so sorry for bringing this in the band tag but as i said it’s bugging me so much…… #this is emma speaking #joker out

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

it does something incomprehensible to my little writer’s soul whenever alex articulates a phenomenon of the writing process i’ve always picked up on and then goes on to describe it in exactly the same way

#when i first heard him say this when i was watching the interview i legit had to pause the video for a moment #because it was like he’d actually taken my words straight out of my mouth #literally for years i’ve been fascinated by the little timeless pocket between dusk and dawn where there’s so much freedom #to explore creativity uninhibited and unobserved and without fear of consequence #the way it allows you to create things almost as if they don’t really exist #or like the rest of the world doesn’t #and the magic of that freedom #like if you create things on the cusp of dreams it’s almost as if they don’t count #they’re liberated from any usual self doubt or self criticism that invades the imaginative space during the daylight #why am i making myself sound like a creative vampire 😭 #i’m going to stop rambling in the tags now sorry #i fear absolutely none of this makes sense #kudos to anyone who’s read the whole way through this #the gist of what i’m trying to say is that it’s such a special feeling when someone whose writing you adore and connect to so much #puts into words elements of the process that have always resonated with you #and this is just one example too #right i’m going to stop rambling now #but one last thing before i go #on a more superficial note: can we appreciate how softly spoken and soft fluffy haired he is here?? 🥺 #alex turner #humbug era #arctic monkeys #alex vid #lulu posts