#No but like I am actually shedding tears and my family is worried

[thatringboy]

No one talk to me right now I’m in a random apartment in Venice sobbing over a bird named after pancakes and if i meet dana it’s on sight

#No but like I am actually shedding tears and my family is worried #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #the owl house #toh #toh s3 spoilers #Maybe I need therapy #I had just watched the new roleslaying with Roman episode and was bouncing with joy and then boom #insert shinji meme

[seunmong-in]

🌅Sunsets in Sydney🌅

Genre: Fluff, childhood best friend to lovers, Idol! Felix x Reader, Humor, slight cursing, she fell first but he fell harder. 

Words: 2.1k 

Summary: After being on tour for a whole year, Felix is finally back in Sydney for a well-deserved break. While he is ecstatic to be with his family again, there’s one person who he wants to see most. His childhood best friend and crush, Y/N. 

A/n: Okay, can I start this off by saying, Holy crap… Thank you to all who like or reblogged my first fanfic with Han!! ( click his name if you wanna read it ! ) I honestly thought it wasn’t that good since I wrote it in a very sleep-deprived state, lol. But y’all proved me wrong🥹❤️‍🩹 That said, I hope you guys also like this story with Felix! Like always, if you have any feedback or want to make a special request just DM me!! Here’s also my latest one with Seungmin as well 🫶🏼

P.S Does anyone else have “that’s not very nice” stuck in their head too?

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365 days. 

That's how long Felix has been away from the place he calls home. And no, he doesn't mean his actual home back in Sydney. He means being away from his childhood best friend, Y/n. 

Felix and Y/n have been best friends since grade school. They have always been there for each other, from performing in talent shows to caring for each other when one falls ill. They are like two peas in a pod; wherever one goes, the other is sure to follow.

On the day Felix had to tell Y/n that he was leaving Sydney to become an idol in Korea, he broke down crying. He was worried that being thousands of miles away from his closest friend would strain their relationship. As he was about to board the plane, he turned around to see Y/n waving goodbye to him with tears streaming down her face, and he couldn't help but cry, too.

Surprisingly, Felix and Y/n's friendship didn't end after that day. Instead, their bond grew even stronger. Y/N would constantly update Felix through text or calls, sharing the details of her day and making sure he didn't miss out on anything important. While Felix enjoyed receiving these updates, what he loved most was the pictures his mom would send him of Y/n with his family on small family trips. Seeing her smile and taking selfies with his sisters always warmed his heart.

He had already surpassed the stage of simply developing feelings for Y/n. Felix adored her. He loved her. Whenever he watched a video of a couple on TikTok or Instagram, he imagined how to recreate the same videos with Y/n by his side. His heart skipped when Y/n surprised him at one of his earlier concerts with Olivia and Hannah, Chan's sister. The memory of her dancing his part of God's Menu while Hannah danced Chan's part on the big screen was something he would never forget. Since that night, Felix had been planning to confess his love to Y/n, and he decided to do it under the sunset in Sydney.

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Under the hot summer sun, Felix's freckled face is lit up with a big smile as his family rushes to greet him. Olivia is the first to embrace him, screaming, "Oh my God, do you even know how I miss you, Lix?!"

Felix laughed, embracing his youngest sister and repeating, "I miss you more." He noticed that Olivia had grown a bit since the last time he saw her and that her hair was now dyed at the ends. Noticing her brother staring at her hair, Olivia mentioned that Y/N did it a few days ago at one of their usual girls' nights. His mom and dad were the next two to hug him tightly, with his mom shedding a few happy tears.

"I say this every time, but I am so happy to have my baby back home."

Felix wraps his arms around his mom, hugging her as he says, "I am happy to be back home to Mom."

Felix was sitting in the back of a car, his mind preoccupied with thoughts of Y/n. He was waiting for her message, asking if he had reached home safely, but he had yet to receive any message from her. Although this was unusual, he assumed she might be busy.

Suddenly, Olivia abruptly interrupts Felix's train of thought, "So, are you finally going to ask Y/n to be your girlfriend while you're here, or are we still sticking to the whole 'she's just my best friend' excuse?" The unexpected question catches Felix off guard. His face turns red with embarrassment as his mother turns her head around from the passenger seat, waiting for a response.

Avoiding eye contact with his mother and sister, Felix clears his throat, allowing himself to find the right words.

"Um.. what makes you think I even have feelings for her?"

Olivia stares at her older brother, scolding him with his earlier response, "Felix be so fucking for real right now. It's obvious you have feelings for Y/n. You look at her as if she is your whole world, your face lights up with a smile whenever she texts you, and you always seem to find a way to talk about her when we talk on the phone. If that doesn't scream, "I am in love with my best friend," then I don't know what does. Oh, and before you go and argue with me about this, even the boys agree that you are completely strung up on her. So do us all a favor and tell her how you feel, will you?"

Felix sighs as he looks up to see his sister's gaze. He knew he had to come clean now before his plans got ruined. 

"Have I mentioned how much I dislike you sometimes, Liv?"

"Yeah, but I'm your favorite sister, so start spilling before I call Hyunjin and have him tell Y/n to you." 

During the last five minutes of their car ride, Felix confided in his family about his plan to ask Y/n out when they reached the house. He made them promise not to say anything to Y/n about his plan since he wanted to create a memorable and private moment between them.

As Felix's father pulled into the driveway, Felix noticed Y/n's car parked across the street. His heart raced as he jumped out of the car, ignoring his mother's yelling about not going inside yet. 

Felix barges through the main door and stops when he sees the handmade "Welcome Home Lixie" banner that Y/n was struggling to put up. He chuckles softly and leans by the living room doorway, watching as she gets on her tiptoes to hook the string onto the nail.

"You know, I could've helped you put up the banner, sunshine if you would've waited a little longer."

Y/n turns around to find Felix smirking. Blushing, she runs to him and hugs him. He hugs her back, lifting her up and spinning her around.

Trying not to cry on his shoulders, Y/n ever so softly whispers, "You have no idea how much I missed your hugs, Lix."

"Me too, sunshine, it's been way too long."

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After returning home and having dinner early, Felix went upstairs to his room. There, he discovered a welcome-home basket in the center of his bed. The basket contained his favorite candies, face masks, a small chicken plushie, and gift cards to his preferred places. Felix smiled, realizing that it was a gift from Y/n. She was always the type to spoil others with gifts, even if it was a small occasion. Looking through the gifts in the basket, he heard a soft knock on the door, and Y/n walked in. When Felix looked up at her, they locked eyes for the second time that day. Time seemed to come to a standstill, and after a while, Y/n was the first to break the silence.

"I hope you like it; I saw it on Tiktok late last night and thought I should make you one."

"I love it a lot; thank you, sunshine." 

He gives her a soft smile and motions for her to sit with him on the bed. She walks over and sits beside him, watching him unwrap more gifts. Y/n can't help but laugh as Felix brings the chicken plushie up to his face, jokingly asking, "Do you think it looks like me?"

"As much as I want to say yes, I feel like I am going betray BbokAri, so I must lie and say no."

Felix and Y/n laugh as Felix places the plushie back on the shelf behind him. The room lights up in a golden hue, indicating the sun is about to set. Without wasting more time, Felix takes Y/n's hand and leads her out of his room and towards his car.

"Lix, what are you doing? Where are we going?"

"I was hoping we could watch the sunset together again, just like we did as kids. It's been quite some time since the last time we did, and let's face it, we're not getting any younger. Before we know it, we'll be as old as old man Chan."

""I'm going to tell him you said that," she says, laughing as she follows him to his car. They both jump in and drive to the nearby beach.

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As the car pulled onto the sandy shore, Felix practically flew out of his side to open the door for Y/n. She beamed with delight as she stepped out, feeling the warm sand under her toes. Felix swiftly closed the car door and took her hand, leading her towards the beach. The sky was ablaze with a breathtaking display of pink and orange hues as the sun descended below the horizon.

"I forgot how pretty the sunset could be when you can see the reflection on the water."

"I know, but it's even prettier with you beside me," Felix responds. 

Y/n stands before Felix, unsure if he is joking or serious. He chuckles as she becomes flustered.

"You know that's not very nice."

"What isn't sunshine?"

"You saying that to me and not explaining what you mean," Y/n states as she turns away from him. 

Felix grabs Y/n by her waist and spins her, holding her close. Y/n's face flushes a deep shade of pink as she catches her breath. They've been close for years, but something feels different about this moment. There's a palpable tension in the air, a feeling of unspoken love that's hard to ignore. Felix looks deep into Y/n's eyes, examining how the sun's warm glow illuminates them. The sound of waves crashing against the shore adds to the moment's magic. Fighting the urge to kiss her immediately, Felix takes a deep breath as he stares into her eyes. 

"Do you remember why I decided to return home for a break instead of staying in the dorms with the boys?" Puzzled by his random question, Y/n nods her head, looking back into his dark brown eyes. 

"Of course I do. It was because you wanted to be with your family since you were homesick, Lix."

"You're right. But there's something important that I need to tell you, something that should've been said from the very beginning. Y/n, I like you. I'm in love with you. I love you so much that it hurts not to have you by my side most days or even to call you mine. The night before I left Sydney, I intended to confess my feelings to you, but I knew it was bad timing since I was leaving, and I didn't want to end our friendship. So, I kept it to myself for years. However, seeing you with Liv and Hannah at our concert earlier this year, dancing and singing to our songs, made me realize that what I felt for you was more than just a simple grade school crush. Y/n, I'd be lying if I said you weren't the person I want to spend the rest of my life with because I do. I want you to be mine, my only sunshine. And if you don't feel the same way, I understand..."

Felix was toward the end of his sentence when Y/n suddenly cut him off by pressing her lips against his. It was a bold move, but she had been crushing on Felix for what felt like an eternity and couldn't hold back any longer. When they finally pulled away, Felix looked at Y/n with a knowing smile, pressing his forehead on hers. In a very soft voice, Felix finally finishes his sentence. 

"I cannot imagine spending a single day without you by my side anymore. Will you do me the greatest honor of all and be mine forever?

""Until forever stops existing, my love."

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[leclerc-s]

a paddock family christmas

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nataliaruiz, penelopetrevino, isabellaperez, maejonesverstappen, maxjonesverstappen posted new stories

baby's first christmas, tears were shed shoutout seb for getting reindeer this christmas and hosting us! churro is not loving the snow taking my auntie duties very seriously this christmas seb's banned her from helping with tree decorating. it's very unfair. who can say no to her?

danieljonesricciardo, freyavettel, mickschumacher, charles_leclerc, and zoyatorres posted new stories

next up: christmas tree farm by my wife! 'tis the season 💞 mon coeur (my heart) according to logan, i'm officially a disney princess

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one thing i will ever do is let this picture die. happy holidays! i have been entrusted with baking. hope i don't let seb down. moments after he threatened to yet again steal max's cats and to force daphne to adopt him so he can terrorize daniel 24/7 looks like someone is coming for charles' ferrari seat.

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nataliaruiz the easiest yes of my life

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sukiwaterhouse congrats! wishing you two so much love and happiness.

↳ nataliaruiz thanks babes, you're still my #1 don't worry!

↳ sukiwaterhouse i better be. that french fuck has nothing on me

↳ charles_leclerc I'M MONEGASQUE! YOU KNOW THIS!

↳ sukiwaterhouse i couldn't care less

zoyatorres still can't believe i got to witness this with my own eyes. however, no one cried more than arthur.

↳ arthur_leclerc STOP TELLING EVERYONE MY BUSINESS!

danieljonesricciardo welcome to the club! i call best man!

↳ pierregasly i think the fuck not! you already got to be best man at mae and max's wedding.

lorenzotl officially welcome to the family, although you've been an unofficial leclerc since 2019. love you, merry christmas to you and little star

↳ nataliaruiz love you enzo!

freyavettel MOM AND DAD ARE GETTING MARRIED! I AM A CHILD OF ENGAGED PARENTS!

↳ mickschumacher reminder, your actual parents are married.

↳ freyavettel shh mickey!

isabellaperez AND FOR ONCE LANDO DIDN'T SPOIL IT!

↳ landonorris THAT WAS ONE TIME ISA! LET IT GO!

mrsamclaflin i see he finally got the hint. goodbye mrs.dunne, you were the best fake wife.

↳ nataliaruiz he did! and goodbye to you mr.dunne, you were an amazing fake husband!

rileykeough i can't believe i lost my wife to a french?

↳ charles_leclerc I'M MONEGASQUE!

↳ rileykeough i don't care? you speak french = you are french. end of story.

sebastianvettel always knew you two were in love, even before you did.

↳ nataliaruiz no, you didn't! how could you know when even we didn't?

↳ sebastianvettel easy, he looked at you the same way i look at my wife. he was as the children say 'down bad'

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charles_leclerc pour toujours

translation: forever

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carlossainz55 felicidades cabrón!

↳ charles_leclerc thanks mate!

alexalbon he finally got the hint!

maxjonesverstappen1 it only took you 6 months to get the hint

↳ charles_leclerc i'm not as clueless as you all think! i was waiting for christmas!

↳ landonorris um, why christmas?

↳ charles_leclerc when we were 10 she said she wanted to get engaged on christmas with the people most important to her present. her dad and brother couldn't make it so i settled for all of you.

↳ georgerussell63 wow really feeling the love sharl.

↳ charles_leclerc i'm kidding, thank you for clearing you plans and making it out for her.

scuderiaferrari congrats to the happy couple!

↳ nataliaruiz build him a better car next season or things will get ugly

↳ scuderiaferrari ma’am you are scary.

zoyatorres PARENTS ARE GETTING MARRIED!

mrsamclaflin well congrats to the happy couple! it's about time!

↳ nataliaruiz why thank you mr. dunne!

↳ mrsamclaflin anytime future mrs.leclerc!

↳ charles_leclerc we were going to have problems if you called her mrs.dunne 🤺

rileykeough she's married to me leclerc?

↳ charles_leclerc you wish

↳ rileykeough oh you know she is.

rhysjones lightning mcqueen finally got his sally to say yes to marriage!

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¡leclerc-s speaks! merry christmas to those of you who celebrate! and to those of you who don't i wish you a very wonderful day. now, someone had to engaged or married on christmas! they are all my babies and i have to make them happy for christmas.

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

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this might have a twin piece later on... we'll see how that goes

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tw vampire whumper, threat of murder, some imaginary gore and death, fear of death

Beck yelped as he was roughly slammed against the wall of his building by a particularly eager Helle. They pinned his wrists above his head, much like that first time, their face already buried in his neck but not yet biting. He had no idea what this was about, why Helle was so riled up, whether it was even him who had done something to deserve treatment like this or something had just come over them–

"I could kill you so easily," they breathed, and Beck was definitely glad that the vampire had some restraint. It really did feel like that, though... like they had to restrain themself... disturbingly so. "I could drain you right now, I could turn you, I could take you and never have to worry about trivial things like the human lifespan."

Beck whimpered. "But you won't– you won't, right?" The winter breeze that stung his cheeks was nothing compared to the icy fear that immediately filled his entire chest as the threat. An eternity as Helle's sired. There was little else that could've scared him to the point of tears so fucking quickly. "You won't? Please–"

They bit down without another word, and for the first time in a while, Beck actually struggled against it. He thrashed around frantically, looking for a way to dislodge the the fangs from his neck and finding none. He was completely trapped against the wall by Helle's own body, helpless to the whims of the vampire who had just threatened to take not only his life but his death.

"Please," he choked out between sobs, his physical efforts slowly dying down as he began focusing more on persuading them. "Please, don't do this, I can't– I c-can't do this, I can't die, I don't want to die, please–"

Nothing worked. Helle kept drinking, he kept crying, and no one was going to put an end to it. He didn't stop begging for a moment, fuelled by the sheer amount of gore his brain conjured up for him to think about as he awaited his death. His neck torn open, the remainder of his blood gushing out onto the sidewalk as he lay there — maybe Helle wouldn't even actually take him, maybe they'd leave him there for the crows to pick on now that good food was so scarce.

When the vampire eventually pulled away, Beck was still way too terrified to stop pleading. He was convinced that they were about to bite again, drain him dry, murder him right outside his home for all his friends and family to see. He jerked away violently when Helle put a hand on his cheek, weeping with all the heartbreak and devastation of someone who thought there were the last tears he'd ever shed.

"I really scared you, huh? Oh dear..." He couldn't even see if they were being genuine, but he nodded regardless. Any question that went unanswered had been used to punish him before, and this time, he just couldn't afford it. Not with the death threat lingering in the air. "I am not going to kill you, Beck. Listen to me. I am not."

"Why– why would you say it, why would you say so– something like that, why would y-you do this to me, why–"

"Shh, let us not get too hung up on this. Just listen to me when I tell you that you are not going to die tonight. Not by my hands."

"How do you not g-get hung up on– on–"

"Look at me." He shook his head, he didn't even know why, he just knew that if he looked at them he would immediately lose it. "Darling, look at me."

"You threatened t-to kill me," he insisted, and Helle sighed.

"Yes. Now look at me."

He slowly opened his eyes, still shaking with sobs, still panting like he'd run a marathon. He didn't know what he'd expected. They were the same as always, their red eyes soft with something close to sympathy. "P-please don't hurt me," he blurted out again, instinctively, the words tumbling out of his mouth just so he could later look back on it and say he'd tried.

"I am not going to kill you. Or hurt you. I am going to let go of you, and you will go upstairs to your home. Alive." The calm authority with which they were speaking definitely helped. It was entirely different from their demeanour from ten minutes ago; in a good way. "Yes?"

"Y-yes," he forced out.

"Good. Breathe." They held his gaze, nodding a little as encouragement when he tried to take a deep breath. He was way too panicked to actually do it, but Helle acted as though he was doing a perfect job of it. "There you go. You are going to be okay."

Beck kept breathing dutifully, grateful that this was all that was expected of him. Grateful that he could still breathe. It was a nice reminder of the life he still had, even if it wasn't very pleasant at the moment.

"This will not affect tomorrow night, will it?" Helle asked eventually, and his guts churned.

"A-affect what? What– what's gonna happen tomorrow?"

"Nothing. I am simply trying to make sure you will not be hiding under the bed come nightfall."

He couldn't say he wasn't thinking about it. "I... I just want to be– be okay. I just wanna live. I d-don't want to... I don't– I don't–"

"Breathe," they said gently, and Beck did, he was good, he could do what he was told.

"I just don't want to die," he whispered. "Please. I'll, I'll be here, I swear, just– just please, p-please don't... don't..."

"I will not." They let go of his wrists, stepping away and gesturing towards the front door. "Get some rest, dear."

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[sserajeanspics]

sakura weverse update

Thankfully, I was able to spend my birthday meaningfully, so came here late 😭😭 Once again, thank you so much for congratulating me on my birthday, FEARNOT 🥹🥹🥹🥹🩷 Wow!!! I'm 26 years old!!! I've already been an idol for half my life!!🤔Very surprising... It's amazing... When I first started as an idol, I never imagined what the future brings. I always thought life was unpredictable, but I've been able to continue this far because of the people around me who always support me. I'm so grateful for that :) When I was young, my birthday was a happy day when I could receive gifts and eat what I liked. It was a day when I felt like the arrow was pointing towards me, so I always eagerly waited for my birthday feeling excited. After turning 20, I started to feel a bit anxious about birthdays... 😅 Honestly, I felt a little scared that my time as an idol was getting shorter... And recently, especially this birthday, it became a birthday with a slightly different meaning for me. I realized that birthdays are not only about receiving congratulatory greetings, but also about being able to express gratitude to the people around me. It's a bit embarrassing, but for the first time in my life (excluding my school days), I wrote letters to each my family members and gave them as gifts for my birthday this year! I felt grateful knowing that my family was preparing gifts because we could spend my birthday together with them after a long time. I wanted to express my gratitude to them as well. As I wrote about how grateful I am for giving birth to me and raising me for 26 years, many emotions have overwhelmed me, so I was writing the letters while holding back tears... 😅 And seeing my parents shedding tears while reading the letters that i gave, I felt a mix of emotions. At a young age, they've been worried endlessly about their daughter entering this world, living far away where she isn't within easy reach, likely feeling lonely... I felt sorry, but still, seeing my parents shedding tears while sincerely supporting my dreams made me think this way. Latelt, I've actually been feeling that there would come a time when the effort I keep putting in for myself will reach its limit— like the effort, if it's all just for myself, might exhaust me, reaching some sort of emotional limit. But seeing my parents, I started to feel that maybe working hard for someone else could be another way.

If I think that all my efforts are for myself only, I feel like I might lose strength when I detach from that passion, and it would be even harder when results don't come. But when I think about supporting my parents who sincerely cheer me on, and for FEARNOTs who support me as passionately, and for the members and staff who share the same dream, strangely, I feel energized. These are just my thoughts, but I believe that to be able to continue something for a long time, perhaps this kind of mindset is also necessary :) I received so much love from many people on my birthday this year. It made me truly happy to realize that there are so many FEARNOTs around the world celebrating my birthday and supporting me. The online world continues expanding and may not always spread positivity every day, but I'm still grateful for the internet because it allows me to know that there are people who like me and celebrate my birthday😊 I remember my mom saying once on my birthday, "I hope you become an idol who, just like your name which holds the meaning "may good things bloom," receive congratulations from many people.' Following my mom's wish, I was able to become an idol who is indeed loved by many people. I have experienced many failures and I'm learning various things as a person, but I've come to think that I'm happy with who I am now. Everyone has imperfections and areas where they are still immature, but I believe that's how we can continue to grow. I’m still in the process of learning a lot about myself, and every day, I strive to be a better version of myself than I was yesterday, continuing to reflect and improve along the way. The world may sometimes be noisy with negativity, but I still believe that there are many happy, positive, joyful, and precious things in this world. Despite its flaws, I still find this world beautiful. It's not all good, but it's not all bad either. I wish to be the kind of person in your life who brings even a little bit of positivity and goodness. :) Thank you for celebrating my 26th birthday with me, and please continue to support me in the future as well☺️

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🌸 Thankfully, I was able to spend my birthday meaningfully, so came here late 😭😭

Once again, thank you so much for congratulating me on my birthday, FEARNOT 🥹🥹🥹🥹🩷

Wow!!!

I'm 26 years old!!!

I've already been an idol for half my life!! 🤔 LOL

Very surprising...

It's amazing... When I first started as an idol, I never imagined what the future brings. I always thought life was unpredictable, but I've been able to continue this far because of the people around me who always support me. I'm so grateful for that :)

When I was young, my birthday was a happy day when I could receive gifts and eat what I liked. It was a day when I felt like the arrow was pointing towards me, so I always eagerly waited for my birthday feeling excited.

After turning 20, I started to feel a bit anxious about birthdays... 😅

Honestly, I felt a little scared that my time as an idol was getting shorter...lol

And recently, especially this birthday, it became a birthday with a slightly different meaning for me.

I realized that birthdays are not only about receiving congratulatory greetings, but also about being able to express gratitude to the people around me.

It's a bit embarrassing, but for the first time in my life (excluding my school days), I wrote letters to each my family members and gave them as gifts for my birthday this year!

I felt grateful knowing that my family was preparing gifts because we could spend my birthday together with them after a long time. I wanted to express my gratitude to them as well.

As I wrote about how grateful I am for giving birth to me and raising me for 26 years, many emotions have overwhelmed me, so I was writing the letters while holding back tears... 😅

And seeing my parents shedding tears while reading the letters that i gave, I felt a mix of emotions.

At a young age, they've been worried endlessly about their daughter entering this world, living far away where she isn't within easy reach, likely feeling lonely... I felt sorry, but still, seeing my parents shedding tears while sincerely supporting my dreams made me think this way.

Latelt, I've actually been feeling that there would come a time when the effort I keep putting in for myself will reach its limit— like the effort, if it's all just for myself, might exhaust me, reaching some sort of emotional limit. But seeing my parents, I started to feel that maybe working hard for someone else could be another way.

If I think that all my efforts are for myself only, I feel like I might lose strength when I detach from that passion, and it would be even harder when results don't come. But when I think about supporting my parents who sincerely cheer me on, and for FEARNOTs who support me as passionately, and for the members and staff who share the same dream, strangely, I feel energized.

These are just my thoughts, but I believe that to be able to continue something for a long time, perhaps this kind of mindset is also necessary :)

I received so much love from many people on my birthday this year. It made me truly happy to realize that there are so many FEARNOTs around the world celebrating my birthday and supporting me.

The online world continues expanding and may not always spread positivity every day, but I'm still grateful for the internet because it allows me to know that there are people who like me and celebrate my birthday. 😊

I remember my mom saying once on my birthday, "I hope you become an idol who, just like your name which holds the meaning "may good things bloom," receive congratulations from many people.' Following my mom's wish, I was able to become an idol who is indeed loved by many people.

I have experienced many failures and I'm learning various things as a person, but I've come to think that I'm happy with who I am now. Everyone has imperfections and areas where they are still immature, but I believe that's how we can continue to grow.

Im still in the process of learning a lot about myself, and every day, I strive to be a better version of myself than I was yesterday, continuing to reflect and improve along the way.

The world may sometimes be noisy with negativity, but I still believe that there are many happy, positive, joyful, and precious things in this world. Despite its flaws, I still find this world beautiful.

It's not all good, but it's not all bad either.

I wish to be the kind of person in your life who brings even a little bit of positivity and goodness. :)

Thank you for celebrating my 26th birthday with me, and please continue to support me in the future as well. ☺️

#le sserafim #weverse #le sserafim sakura

[xxladyballadxx]

Always In Your Heart

Vash x (Wife) reader

⚠️SUICIDE AND SELF HARM ARE INVOLVED IN THIS FANFIC. PLEASE DON’T READ IT IF IT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE⚠️

During an exhausting day by doing bounty hunting with his good ol’ pal Wolfwood, he decided to go for a drink with him before heading home to his wife, (Y/n). Speaking of (Y/n), Vash wondered if she’s managing alright at home by herself. He insisted on calling Meryl and Milly over to spend time with (Y/n) so she doesn’t get lonely. However, (Y/n) wanted to be alone at home. 

Each day and week, Vash’s concerns for his wife grew extremely high and is worrying for her wellbeing and health. Saturday he noticed recent scars on (Y/n)’s arms when he came home from grocery shopping. Vash wished to talk to her about it but kept losing the chance every time (Y/n) changed the subject.  

There was just one time Vash heard (Y/n) sobbing in the bathroom, he comforted her and asked what’s wrong. He held her close while she talked about what’s bothering her. 

Vash managed to talk about the marks on (Y/n)’s arms, he talked her out of it and pleaded with her not to do it anymore. (Y/n) and Vash cried together in an embrace.

‘Whatever you’re going, please know that I’m here for you. No matter how big or small it is, you can always tell me anything.” 

Those words from Vash made (Y/n) cry even more. She calmed down afterwards and fell asleep in the bedroom, resting her mind while Vash lay down next to her. 

~-~-~~-~-~~-~-~

“(Y/n), babydoll, I’m home.” As Vash returned home, he knew something was off. Awfully quiet in the house, (Y/n) didn’t respond to Vash when he called out to her. 

Vash called out his wife’s name multiple times. Still no response. He jogged upstairs to see if (Y/n) was in the room. “(Y/n)..?” He slowly opened the door as it made a creaking sound. 

He entered the room with his heart shattering into pieces, spotted his wife lying down on the floor…dead. A spilled bottle of pills was found on the floor, beside (Y/n)’s right hand. 

“(Y/N)!!!” Vash bewailed, he rushed to her and bent down, holding his wife in his arms as he shed tears, “(Y/n)...why?” His face swelled with grief and sorrow, his head hurting from shedding a lot of tears. He can feel himself falling apart. Witnessing his wife who took her own life….is gone.

Suddenly, he noticed a folded piece of paper in (Y/n)’s other hand. Vash slipped it away from his wife’s cold hand at a slow pace and started reading it, small teardrops dripping down on the letter from his blue-emerald eyes as he read it…

To my wonderful, loving husband Vash

I’m so sorry I did this to myself. I couldn’t stand being in this cruel, harsh reality anymore. I kept hearing voices in my head saying that I’m not good enough, Even my family who left me in the dirt. I can hear them saying horrible things about me. You as well…

Just know that it’s not you, it’s me. I kept having negative thoughts about myself. All this time, I thought no one could ever love me. Never. Until you came into my life. I had no idea someone like you would fall for me.

I said to myself once that I could never be with someone who is warm-hearted, so sweet and so kind…

Keep on living, Vash…for me

No matter how many people are against you just for who you are or what you are, know that I am always here in your heart. Even though I am gone…I will always be watching over you…

I love you so much my dear, I am very glad to have met you, so glad to have you in my life…

Thank you for accepting me,..

Thank you for everything…

From your loving wife…(Y/n)..

Vash’s hands were shaking in despair, he wept and held the letter close to his heart. He screamed out a cry along with his heart screaming along with him…

Vash The Stampede…

A hunter of love and peace…just lost the most precious person in his life…

(A/n)-I actually cried while writing this...💔💔

#trigun #trigun x reader #vashthestampede #vash x reader #vashxreader #Vash the Stampede #trigunxreader #vash the stampede x reader #vashthestampedexreader #angst #trigun angst

[maestro04yayyy]

So some times ago i posted here the start for my antivillain au fic, today I continued it a little, i am not sure if I will leave it like this when and if I post it on ao3, actually i think this is where i should stop the first chapter, i think it is a good point but I wanted to do longer chapters and this is kinda short(1268 words).

This aside please if you want read this and comment or give me tips or insult me I don't know

“remember to eat at least four times a day”.

“yes chloe”

“and to drink lot of water”

“yes chloe”

“and if roger says anything stupid to you just call me, i will give him a piece of my mind”

Sabrina smiled sadly, eyes blinking quickly to avoid shedding tears before throwing herself against Chloe to hug tightly her best friends,  “thanks Chloe” she hiccuped sometimes before stating,”I will be very lonely while you are away…”.

Chloe's heart clenched painfully hearing the sadness in her voice and once again cursed herself for not having been able to skip the family trip, but right now Sabrina was the priority.

She hugged her friend back and started drawing circles in her back to help calm her down, in other circumstances she wouldn't do that in public, especially where her family could see them, but now it wasn't important for her.

“Hey Brina, don't worry, it's just for a month and you can call me anytime, no matter the time or how many times a day” Chloe stated while kissing her friend's forehead, not caring that tears and snots were ruining her clothes.

Sabrina just continued to cry, not letting go of Chloe when Chloe had an idea.

“Hey Brina, why don't you try to hang out with our classmate while I'm gone? i am sure that adrien would be happy to do it if he is free, Alix too and ugh dupain-cheng would immediately throw you some kind of party with the whole class, this way you wont feels as lonely”

That made Sabrina pause a little, enough to stop the tears at least, as she moved her head slightly to look at her friend's face while still resting her chin against Chloe's chest.

“it wouldn't be the same, they aren't like you….” she said that but Chloe could see in her eyes that her friends were still thinking about it.

“Of course they aren't like me, nobody is even near my level of perfection, beauty, confidence and humility,” she said with a smile on her face.

It made Sabrina laugh, initially it was just a smile, then a chuckle but after that she had to use Chloe for support while she bends over laughing.

Chloe gave her a playful shove, “what's so funny? i am only saying the truth”

Sabrina pulled herself together after a good minute, still smiling widely and while clearing her face with her sleeves she simply said,”yes, you are”, and Chloe felt her eyes watering a little.

“CLAUDIA!!! what taking you so long! come here immediately or we are leaving you here!” audrey yelled from the base of the plane, a public one, andre didn't want to use a private jet so near to the next elections, something about complains about the environment or social classes, chloe doesn't really know, she didn't listened to his explanation just like she did not listened to audreys loud and useless complains.

Chloe frowned a little at the name but also rolled her eyes, “if only she could actually do it” she said with a sigh.

she kissed the red head one last time on the forehead, “give it a try Brina, you got nothing to lose” she then added with a soft smile,” i will be back before you say supercalifragilisticexpialidocious”

Sabrina tried to repeat the word but fumbled on the second sillabe, she blushed a little but gave Chloe her goodbyes anyway.

Sabrina goes back to her father, who is waiting for her inside the airport while Chloe turns her back and hastily takes a few tissues from her bag to clean herself before Audrey can notice and complain about her getting dirty while she walk inside the plane.

Thankfully that woman didn’t seem to notice or care about Chloe's appearance once she got inside.

so she just get to her seat and put her violin case in its spot and sit, dropping her bag one her legs.

she rest her head against the seat while taking a deep sigh

“ehm…hi chloe” chloe just glances to her side, to the seat next to hers, and just sees the nervous and fidgeting figure of her step-sister or how she likes to call her “the liar”.

“hello” she deadpans

Her very unenthusiastic reply seemed to only increase Zoe's discomfort and nervousness until she went completely silent but kept fidgeting with her hands.

Chloe glared at her and she finally stopped moving.

A few minutes later the plane took off and Chloe was really really glad her parents were on the other side a few seats away, she doesn't think she can stand being near her mother for so long.

if only the liar would stop moving so much…..

“god zoe, why are you so fucking nervous!” she stated, pointing her index finger at her.

That seemed to do the trick since she went completely still. but Chloe just stared at her until she finally opened her mouth to answer.

“You and Sabrina are really close” she blurted out and Chloe had to take a moment to process what she said since she didn’t expect that answer.

she eyed her cautiously but agreed,” yeah we are, ever since we were three”

“oh” was all the damn liar said and Chloe could feel her blood rushing a little faster as she clenched her hands on the armrests of the chair.

she glared at her, “you are avoiding the question” she declared, already frustrated.

This made her look away and Chloe had half a mind to hit her but after a couple of deep breaths she looked back at her and said, “it’s….” She paused and looked away again, her eyes darting everywhere in the plane besides Chloe but finally she continued, still looking away from her and her eyes blinking rapidly, “it’s my father….i..i don’t know if i am ready to see him again….”

Chloe's eyes softened a little at that, “ how is he? Audrey's level of asshole or Andre's level?”

“Andre isn’t so bad” Zoe immediately defended him.

Chloe just rolled her eyes and prompted her to answer the question with a not so gentle elbow to her side.

“hey!” she complained but after seeing chloe’s glare answered the question, “ he isn’t as bad as audrey…..i think, i-i never really saw him very much” Chloe could relate to that but said nothing.

“ He just dropped me off at that boarding school. full of snob, rich brats as soon as he could…... .the only memories of him that i have are those of my childhood but…”

“ There isn't much even there right?” Chloe finished for her.

Zoe just looked up at her, “yes…”

Chloe took a long look at her…..sister and sighed, “you know you don’t have to see him right?”

the wide eyes she gave her made Chloe chuckle a little,” why are you so surprised? this trip is only because ANDRE wants to meet him, you or i can do whatever we want and just avoid him” she said smiling.

“Are you sure chloe?” she asked with such earnest and hopeful eyes that Chloe couldn’t resist the action to pet her head affectionately.

“yes, i am. and even if he shows i will just punch him in his shitty face” she said confidently, making her laugh.

Chloe smiled a little wider at the sounds, she looked just like Adrien a moment ago after all and Chloe would do everything to protect him.

but the moment passed and went away and Chloe spent the rest of the flight listening to music and ignoring The Liar.

#antivillain! chloe #miraculous ladybug #chloe bourgeois #antivillain au #sabrina raincomprix #zoe lee #andre bourgeois #audrey bourgeois #this is probably chapter one #but i thought about making the whole new york trip one huge chapter #so i don't know

[mischievouschan4]

📢 Fic Rec Friday (for Thrawn Fans)

I just finished reading the Belonging series, and *ahem* please let me (woefully) attempt to capture just how much this story has affected me. I am DESTROYED ☠️ Completely flayed raw 😫 Absolutely STARSTRUCK ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 It’s so amazing that I literally cannot contain my urge to shout about how spectacular it is into the void.

“Belonging” is a Thrawn x Eli Vanto found family saga (with kids!!!!!) that spans everything from domestic fluff to military drama to kidnapping and rescue. The plot of each individual story is always excellent, but the ✨CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT✨ is actually out of this world. It’s so insanely good and natural and heart-wrenchingly poignant that I found myself relating to multiple characters in every single fic. Were tears shed? Yes. Unlimited tears.

UGH 😩 part 8 Granular literally felt like a stab into my chest with a knife that kept twisting and twisting after. But worry not, I could never recommend something that didn’t make me smile, and the rest of the series is the textbook definition of pure happiness 🥰 Like part 14, If You Asked Her??? Are you kidding me??? So beautiful! And of course, part 1 Home! Sweet and cute with a twinge of angst. How can you go wrong with tags like ‘enemies to father daughter’ and captions like ‘Thunhe adopts a dad (Thrawn)’?

The answer is: you can’t go wrong 👏🏼

Belonging is as much a coming of age story as it is a romance, and the vibes (excluding the aforementioned part 8) are impeccably warm and fuzzy, like a hug from your favorite person. Everyone, please do not walk or even run to go read this, sprint.

Thank you for writing this amazing series, @amukmuk 🙏

#thrawn #eli vanto #thranto #fic rec Friday

[mama-qwerty]

https://www.tumblr.com/mama-qwerty/746868988369387520/hi-ill-be-graduating-from-college-in-may-and-im?source=share

Hello. Same anon here. I appreciate your guidance. I'm shedding actual tears while typing this.

Yes, I am scared. 110%. I'm not expecting some sort of "attention", or making people feel sorry for me or that case.

My parents, more specifically my mother, have always compared me to others my age. Especially as I got older. I'm 22, turning 23 this year, my mom has always told me that I, as a woman, I had to do certain things because, guess what? I'm a woman.

My parents, again mostly my mother, has always forced to do things that I do not want to do, then blame it on me.

Anyway. My mom has always told me that you have to have everything lined up for you when you graduate college and/or high school. I do have a boyfriend, I've known him since we were in high school together. Due to how unreasonable housing is right now, as soon as it becomes affordable, I'm planning on moving in with him.

I feel like I blame myself all the time. To not have everything figured out, while my parents think that I should have everything figured out. Besides my boyfriend and my grandma.. I have no one else to tell my worries to. My family constantly emotionally draining me, so I'm always emotionally tired.

Your family is lucky to have someone like you. I, for one, would have loved to have a mother like you in my life. Anyway sorry for this being a bit long.

Thank you again,

A random follower

Ps. For those who wonder, the date is May 4th. Yep, the Star Wars day, "May the force be with you"

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. 💕💕

It sounds like your mother may be trying to get you to conform to possibly the same gender roles she herself was forced into. It was what was expected of her, so she maybe thinks that's just the way things are. Maybe she herself didn't like it either, but just grinned and beared it, so she thinks that's what you need to do, too. (Obviously I'm purely speculating, here.)

That's not to say it's right or fair of her for expecting that of you. She should not force you to do things you don't want to, simply because of your gender. Full stop.

I don't know how old your mother is, but the problem I see with the older generation (mostly Boomers but I've encountered a few Gen Xers like this, too) is that they don't seem to realize that the world is so much different than it was when they were younger. (I say 'they' but I am a Gen Xer myself. Shh, I'm still cool and hip, though. 😎😆 )

Anyway, I know the job market is so hard right now. Back in the day, you could simply walk into a business and practically get hired on the spot. Not so today--you're competing with dozens, if not hundreds of other applicants. Businesses don't want you to call or walk in now, instead funneling you through an online application process that could take the better part of an hour, and boils down to answering sometimes a hundred questions in a pre-made form that doesn't really do anything except waste time. And you get to do this for every job you want. It's frustrating and downright disheartening.

So having that job 'lined up' isn't as easy as it once was.

And this isn't even touching on how much more expensive everything is. The housing market, as you yourself know, is NUTS right now--rent is skyrocketing, and house prices have gone through the roof so much it's pushed out any first-time buyers. There is absolutely no way a kid fresh outta school could afford to move out without help.

I'm just gonna say it - your parents are being unreasonable. The world is so different now than when they were your age. It's more complicated, a hellovalot more expensive, and a lot less stable. To expect you to have everything all figured out and planned to perfection is delusional. Up to now, your biggest worry was keeping up with your studies. Now they expect you to just jump out into the real world, with everything all sorted?

It's very frustrating when parents pull the "When I was your age" stuff. "When I was your age, I was living on my own/working full time/married with a kid on the way." Yeah? Good for them. You're not a clone of them, and the world isn't the same as it was then.

When I was your age, I was still living at home, working as a cashier in a grocery store. That's it. I had no relationship, and no plans or ideas about what I wanted to do with my life. And to be perfectly honest, I can't think about the future. It's just a blurry speck on the horizon. I can't think in terms of "In 5 years I want to [blank]." Because it's just all so abstract to me. That's a long time in the future, and there is so much that can change between then and now. I can't plan to [blank] if I don't know what next week will hold.

It's something that drives my husband batty, because he's a big picture guy. Always asking me what I want to do with my life, what I want to accomplish. And when he does, I just get overwhelmed and feel tired. Because I'm not a big picture person. I'm a detail gal. I focus on the minutiae. The here and now. The things that matter in the immediate future, not the far off abstract future. (Probably why I'm a pantser, honestly.)

I totally get being emotionally drained by someone. It's exhausting and leaves you feeling so low, so down. You wonder if they're right, if there really is something wrong with you because you don't think like them, because you don't see the world the way they do. And especially if others around you seem to know who they are and what they want. What's wrong with you that you don't?

Here's the truth, hon. There's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with being scared of the future, or not being able to really figure out where you're going. This is a big step in your life, and it's completely and totally normal to be scared shitless at it. Your parents should be encouraging you, helping you navigate it so you succeed, not brow-beating you because you don't automatically have all the answers.

I'm glad you have your boyfriend and grandmother to help you stay sane. Don't freak out that you don't have everything all lined up nice and neat the way your parents want. They seem to want to know what the layout of your new house is when you haven't even found land to start building on! One step at a time!

Don't worry about the length. Write as much as you need.

And I can be your internet mom if you like. Because I'm so proud of you for finishing school, and reaching out to talk about something that's a heavy burden on you.

Sending you more hugs. Take care of yourself. 💕💕💕💕💕

#ask me #anon help

[loveless-scribes]

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Oh, wow! That's a bunch! Thanks so much for sending the ask, let's dive right in! <3 ✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉 This is hard, especially right now because I'm really struggling with my writing. My ideas aren't clear and I feel like they don't line up with one another or that the tone shifts abruptly because the way I'm feeling has changed between one writing session and the next. I guess I hope that my writing makes people FEEL things. That's my main goal most of the time. And I think I'm pretty good at surprising people, too. So, to put that in compliment form I think I'm alright at conveying emotions and I have a knack for those plot twists. XD 🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc. I feel like I'm always writing about death even when I'm not planning to, it just kind of works its way back in there. Also, I guess another common theme would be the deep connections that people can form with one another, against all odds, against their better judgement, and sometimes even to their own detriment. I guess that's a hopeful theme in a way, people staying even when you're sure they'll walk away. Also, my protagonist needs to be a little messed up in the head. Anything else is hard and boring to write. I love writing crazy people and then humanizing them to the reader. 👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please! Barring AM spoilers, and the Sukuna fic I teased about on my alt, I want to write a short story about a world where voluntary self-elimination is both legal and readily accessible. The idea's been floating around in my head for a while - what that would look like, what the logistics around it would be, how friends and family would react, the inevitable desensitization towards death. I do hope to get that one down sometime soon because I'm really inspired to write it. 🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels? I think I hinted at this already, but I love it when one character is sure the other is going to leave them, but they don't. Not even necessarily in a romantic sense. It could be a friendship, or a parent-child relationship or what have you. Just that feeling of, "I've gone too far, it's over" but it's not, because that person would never leave. Staying by each other's side whether or not they understand the full context. Not even necessarily needing the context to know that they're on your side. I guess that's why it's a recurring theme in LS's relationship.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write? This used to be an easy "Levi, hands down - all day, every day." But lately, Slayte has become my favorite. Especially with her current struggles in the story, I just have a soft spot for her and the stuff she has to go through, I guess. She's also the character that most meets my "crazy protag" criteria, so there's that. 🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success? When people tell me I made them cry. It sounds mean, but there's no better feeling. That's when my inner critic has no choice but to shut up because OMG THEY SHED REAL TEARS. (I've defo cried, too, while writing AM so no worries.) 🌞 Do you have a preferred time of day to write? When everyone is either asleep or out of the house. Early mornings are the best, but work always gets in the way. I would be better able to answer this question if I wasn't so tired all the time. ^^

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride? I think it's the Sukuna darkfic duology on my alt @azureashes. It's just so crazy and out there. Idk if I would consider AM a "wild ride" since it definitely has its wholesome and comforting moments. I actually think hurt/comfort is a huge theme in AM. Maybe we should add it to the tags. Thanks for the ask, Anon! <3

#emoji game #loveless answers #fanfic #writing

[tiffanylamps]

hi hello sorry this is so random but my beyond evil brain rot has been increasing because of the rain and i just need someone else to talk to about the intense gazes that dong sik and joo won give each other through the whole show. like…..why are you looking at each other like that?? you don’t need to be that close to someone to talk to them and can we also talk about the amount of times joo won actively initiates touch between them— it’s a ridiculous amount. like sir keep your hands to yourself you don’t like touching people remember??? i just… i can’t with the both of them but it’s literally all i can think about so here i am… bothering you about it. 🤷🏼‍♀️

hey hey hey!! Never apologise for talking to me about Beyond Evil!!! I will forever be happy about discussing this show and jwds (who are otherwise known as the BIGGEST lovesick losers) I was looking at other people's posts about them today and actually got so emotional because their relationship means so much to me. I may have shed tears (life's great. everything is fine.. there's no reason to worry about me lol)... You're so right, what the hell is up with all of that???

I know it's a thriller! I know they want it to be suspenseful! I know it's meant to be dramatic! BUT WHY are Han Joo Won and Lee Dong Sik this bloody intense? Why do they treat each other differently from other people? Why are they always up in each other's faces?? Can they even see each other or is their vision blurry???? Seriously!! I just-

I have met people I don't trust or like. I have been in heated arguments before. But personally, I have never met someone I dislike that much and still want to be all up in their face. I just haven't! I think it's very common with the majority of people that if you don't like someone, you don't spend time with them.

You don't think about them 24/7 You don't take pictures of them or print said pictures out and bite your lip as you gaze at them Nor do you flirt with them and tease them Or turn up at their house uninvited You most certainly don't whisper seductively in their ear YOU DON'T USE SEXUAL INNUENDOS ELUDING TO "RAMMING" THEM WITH YOUR "HORNS OF JUSTICE" AND "BITING" THEM You don't forgive them after they accuse you of murder and insult your friends and family. multiple. times. YOU don't PINE after them and want them to be healthy, happy, and safe! making sure that they're eating and looking after themselves You don't stand up for them and abandoned your family to save them from further pain You don't go on dates! You don't promise your life to them! You don't enter a house with the knowledge that you could die because you want to keep them safe you don't eye-fuck on national TV!!!! (bringing some interesting kinks to the workplace) (in front of their dad!!!) You don't make promises and you don't keep them. You don't use those promises as a way to prove your sincerity, love and devotion. You just don't!

Unless.... you don't dislike them at all... not even a little bit... not in the slightest

In regards to Han Joo Won... I wish I could sit him down and get some answers. Cause, OH BOY, is he odd. He doesn't like touching people and doesn't feel comfortable around others. Fine. He chooses not to have friendships and only wants his life to be a give-and-take, easy transaction-kind-of-dealio. Less fine. Joo Won clearly has a lot of emotional issues and scars. He probably has some sort of mental health disorder (that I'm not going to diagnose right now). But that boy struggles with relationships! He wants to be guarded and cold... and then... Lee Dong Sik comes along and ruins everything.

I think Joo Won was so surprised that after spending 9 months obsessively investigating this random guy, he meets him and is thrown off because he's not what he expected. He didn't really expect to be impressed by him (Dong Sik quoting the criminal code off by heart) and in my opinion, I don't think he expected to just like Dong Sik as a whole. I think it takes him a very long time to work through those emotions and even longer to accept them. But when he does, oh BOY, he's all-in!!

Dong Sik, however... I want to hug him and watch him live a happy life. We all know how badly and for how long Dong Sik has been hurting. I think he's in a major emotional rut (I like to think of Manyang as purgatory), stuck between phases of his life. Joo Won is harsh and brash and at times, unkind. But I think he's the perfect person to unstick Dong Sik; to push him into the next phase of his life... to help him MOVE on! Dong Sik likes Joo Won so much! He cares so much! I'm actually so happy for Dong Sik that Joo Won came into his life. "Han Joo Won, my saviour, who came to ruin my life." HELLLOOOOO SCRIPT!!!!!! IMAGINE IF THIS LINE HAD BEEN IN THE SHOW!!

They mean so much to each other. Their story is one of acceptance, growth, family, loyalty, kindness, justice. It's about treating someone with a passionate, ruthless but gentle and beautiful devotion. It involves growing past your pride and your prejudices. It means putting them first because their happiness means the world to you!! It's about knowing when you're wrong and making up for your mistakes AND BEING FORGIVEN!! and forgiving yourself!! It's about knowing someone so well and on such an intimate level that you walk miles in the rain to be with them at 1am, you give them the gun, you arrest your father, you uphold your promise. Even if it hurts. Even if it hurts them in the short term. You put their needs before your own because they matter so much to you.

It's about being partners.

It's about love. Beyond Evil is about love.

(and it's also sharing clothes, teasing and loving spending time together, getting up to some interesting things in that basement, conversing without words, planning and scheming together, TRUSTING EACH OTHER)

IIIIIIII just can't! I can't with these two. They're so much. I adore them!!

I know you don't need this but I am going to shamelessly self-plug for anyone who might want to read more about the topics discussed:

Beyond Evil: The Romantic Rain trope Han Joo Won: the 'I don't like touching people' boy and his manhandling victim. Lee Dong Sik does have a type Han Joo Won and Lee Dong Sik: 27 Episode 6: Dong Sik is a good man Han Joo Won wants a partner and suspect. Han Joo Won Returns: he is a softie Thank you for sending your thoughts my way. You encouraged me to think about these losers and I can't thank you enough <3 I wish I could write something more meaningful or eye-opening but we all know... we know what's up

#answered #beyond evil #jwds #beyond evil analysis

[anika-ann]

So I love your criminal minds / MCU crossover as I’ve been honestly procrastinating to catch up on the chapters you released. But I’ve been buying a lot of marvels avengers and it talks a lot about a day and got me thinking. How would Steve react to finding out after that traumatic event of a-day that your parents disowned you and cut all ties with you just because of all that I am dead or whatever organization you want it could also be after Civil War. Like your The famous partner of the war criminal. But even after their name has been restored their family still treats them like dirt for no reason except for being petty. this is totally up to you if you want inks or fluff either way works and it could be both or it could be a completely different direction

Hello sweet 😊

I'm delighted you like Love on the Brain - thank you for letting me know you enjoy it💕 whatever reason you have for procrastinating reading the series further, I shall hope will cease to exist 😁

Honestly, I have no clue about A-Day. Sorry...

I would also love to take this as an opportunity to remind people that I don't take requests. I have my hands and mind full of the WIPs that I already have and they're stubborn little Steves Rogers that don't bend to my will - and I'm the one who CAME UP with them

So. I do not take requests. There.

...however 😅This ask caught me in the wee hours of the morning and my brain somewhat latched onto it. See what I mean?? Zero control.

You shall receive angst and fluff. Later.

Excerpt under cut. And thank you for reaching out 🥰

A/N: Canon divergence. Probably not an actual part of the series post Love on the Brain, but starring GG and Sparkles✨

...

It does work now.

You let it all out, until you have no tears to shed anymore, until the raft of emotions settles at a shore, safely brought back home; home built solid from cells, tissue and blood instead of bricks, roofed under a beautiful soul the world tried to tear to shreds so many times.

Steve gently combs your hair back as he feels your breathing change, your tension melt away. As you tip your head back, finding the sea of his eyes glassy with an unshed tear, he finally speaks.

“I’m sorry, sweetheart."

You’re sad; you’re outraged. You’re in love, still.

A small smile plays in the corner of your mouth as you squint at him, a little playful.

“Don't you give me that face, GG,” you reprimand him softly, causing the worried wrinkle on his forehead to deepen, before his right eyebrow arches.

“What, I cannot be sorry that you're hurting?”

There’s an unhappy note in his teasing. You brush your fingers over his creased forehead, long fingers catching your hand to cradle it gently.

“You, GG, can be anything. Even mine.”

He sighs, gaze tenderer than before, a promise – and he seems to think it is more of a life sentence – on his lips.

“I am. Always. And I am sorry,” he whispers and it would be foolish to doubt the truth behind his words.

You know this.

You understand.

But you don’t fully agree.

People who turn their back on you like your parents did do not deserve to weigh on his already heavy conscience. 

Yep, Steve kept the beard for this btw. I don't make the rules🤷‍♀️😇

#asks #reply #anika replies #anika writes #steve rogers x reader #steve rogers angst #steve rogers my beloved #fought the world sneak peek #nomad steve rogers

[leogichidaa]

The Love We Can Afford

Wrote some more of this AU inspired by @artemisia-black's post

“I almost wish he did hex me. At least then I could hate him properly. It would be simple, it would be clear,” Astrid said with a sigh. She sat on the couch, only her tear-stained face visible under the mountain of blankets she had wrapped around her. 

Regulus sat across from her, clenching and unclenching his fists. “If he raised his wand to you, I would kill him.”

“He did not, so you can calm down. And you would only be proving his point, you know. What better way to demonstrate that I am indeed a spoiled little princess than having my older brother fight my battles?”

“How dare he say such things to you? He is not worthy of being your house elf, let alone your boyfriend, he should be grateful you give him the time of day.”

Astrid sighed softly. “This may be where people get the idea that I am spoiled. You say things like that…”

“Because it is true!” Regulus exclaimed. He caught the look in his sister’s eye and sighed. “You deserve better than that loser, Astrid, surely you must know that.”

“You have said that about literally everyone I have ever shown interest in, or who has shown interest in me. Or who you thought might have been about to show interest in me. It is meaningless at this point.”

Regulus frowned. “I maintain that I was correct in all instances. In this particular situation, though, the evidence bears out what I tried to tell you before you started dating him: he is a worthless, pathetic man. You deserve to be treated better than that.”

“Do I? Have you and Sirius not called me a spoiled princess as well?”

“That is obviously different. And mostly Sirius’ doing.”

Astrid rolled her eyes and wiped the tears off her cheeks. “How is it different?”

“It is our duty as your older brothers to let you know when you are being a brat. It is Anderson’s duty, as your romantic partner, to pretend that you are perfect.”

“I do not think that is how relationships are meant to work, actually.”

“Of course it is,” Regulus said, affecting an air of knowing precisely what he was talking about, as if he were not himself perpetually single, to the continued distress of their mother.

Astrid buried her head in her knees and let out a muffled scream. “Men!”

-

“I told you from the start that we should have done away with the idiot, but you insisted we give him a chance, and you see where that has gotten us! I will make him bleed for every tear she shed for him.”

“Well, that seems a tad dramatic,” James piped up.

Regulus turned to stare at James. “What are you even doing here?”

James shrugged. “Preventing the two of you from committing murder?”

“Don’t worry, Prongs,” Sirius said, a dark edge to his voice. “We won’t be committing murder. Murder is too good for this bastard.”

Regulus nodded his head vigorously. “Loathe as I am to agree with Sirius, yes, precisely. This is clearly beyond your comprehension, Potter. You are an only child after all.”

James raised his eyebrows and glanced pointedly at Sirius. Regulus caught this and his lip curled. “Why have you brought him here, Sirius? This is supposed to be our meeting place.”

Sirius waved his hand, shooing away his brother’s concerns. “What are we going to do about Anderson?”

“Melt his skin,” Regulus replied, without hesitation.

“That’s truly fucked up,” James replied. “Pads, why are you entertaining this?”

Sirius glanced over at James and gave him an apologetic look. “You really wouldn’t understand, Prongs. You don’t have any sisters.”

-

“Your brothers should be chucked in Azkaban.”

Astrid looked Otto up and down. He had scratches and bruises on his face and neck, his arms were covered in welts, and his eyebrows were somehow missing. He looked ridiculous. She almost laughed. 

“I told you it would be a mistake to provoke them,” she replied coolly instead. “Perhaps you should have listened.”

Otto clenched his jaw repeatedly. “I don’t want you or your awful family anywhere near me again.” he snarled.

Astrid looked on impassively as he turned on his heel and walked out the door before she collapsed on the floor, unsure whether to laugh or cry, and ending up with a hybrid of hiccupping sobs.

-

“You absolute moron,” Astrid said, shoving her eldest brother roughly. Her eyes were lit up with fury and she held her wand in his face threateningly. “Do you have any idea what you’ve done? I was winning him back! It was working! He was starting to soften and you—you—I could kill you!”

Sirius looked shocked. “You were what? Astrid! Why were you trying to win that idiot back? He was awful!”

Astrid narrowed her eyes to slits. “He is not awful, he is the love of my life.”

Sirius shook his head in disbelief. “I know how he treated you, Astrid, and you deserve better. I don’t understand why you would want to go back to that.”

Astrid gave a sharp laugh and shoved him again. “The nerve of you! You have a full plate in front of you and you look at Reg and I and you ask us why we are begging for crumbs of affection. So we don’t fucking starve, Sirius! It does not matter what I deserve. I am holding on to what I can afford.”

Sirius’ face shifted from bewildered to sorrowful. “You can do better than that, both of you. If you didn’t write off the majority of the population as beneath you…”

“No you don’t understand!” Astrid said, her voice cracking into a near shriek. Sirius had never seen her look quite so incensed. It reminded him suddenly, awfully, of their mother. “You always got first pick of everything and Reg got the scraps and I got nothing. And the little I manage to tuck away for myself, you take that too! Stay out of my life.”

She gave him one final shove before turning and walking towards the door. “Regulus helped too, you know,” Sirius said, a hint of bitterness in his voice.

Astrid turned and shot him a scathing look. “I know,” she said, before muttering under her breath, “he is trying to get crumbs of your affection.”

#my writing #Regulus Black #Sirius Black #the love we can afford

[katsukikitten]

I need you to understand that at multiple points reading the third chapter, mind you, I started reading it at like 2 am, I, out loud, said “nooooooooooo” on multiple occasions. This is easily the most painful chapter yet. First, poor Kirishimas as a family, but then poor Kirishima specifically. I felt so bad for him this entire chapter because that poor man was going through it like it hurt so much. And even though technically he’s doing the “right” thing by upholding his promise to take care of you and respecting your wishes, he also is unintentionally hurting his friend. Also, Bakugou, this chapter? The coffee and the hydrangeas???? Pain, nothing but pain. I’m both excited and terrified to see what happens when he finds out everyone has been lying to him even though they were doing it for his supposed benefit and when he finally gets to interact with Daiki.

Also, I tried to give Momo the benefit of the doubt, but fuck that, this is a Momo hate account in the fic at least I love canon Momo, but I absolutely agree with that other anon her taking advantage of him like that is just so wrong.

I think this is one of maybe three times in all my years of fandom that I’ve shed actual tears reading a fic, and it was during the conversation between Mitsuki and reader and later Daiki because, wow, did that hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. Overall so amazing as usual, and I can’t wait to see what you come up with next!

-❤️ anon

I know Kirishima is really being put through the ringer. 😭 Bakugou will lose his shit one way or another since we know he hates lies. 😭

To be honest I was worried that I wouldn't be able to convey what I wanted for Mitsuki's section. Just a mom putting aside differences for her son. Sitting down to talk to reader about trying to get Bakugou's memories back but more aggressively this time. If Mitsuki had known about her grand baby. About the child she KNEW her son wanted to have with YOU so badly. She would have made sure Bakugou knew everything so he'd be caught up by the time you were delivering that baby.

But I see I got some of it across by your comment so thank you.

I thought it would be cute that Mitsuki could talk to her grandson and tell him about some shenanigans little Bakugou had gotten into 🥺

#kitten chats 🖤🐈‍⬛ #♥️ nonny

[living-d3ad-gh0ul]

Sunday 25th December 11.32pm

I had come here last night to post the first picture I've put on the end of this post. The handwritten thing. But before I was going to do that, I read your post from Christmas Eve. Please don't apologise for posting late, it's absolutely okay. I understand you may have been busy or needed some time to process things after your doctor's appointment.

I read everything you said about when you were sick and in hospital. I am so so sorry you had to go through that all. That all sounds so terrifying and really bizzare how it just happened like that. I really hope you are feeling at least a little better now and I'm glad that the clots are gone. I will admit, I did worry a little about you. Just as long as you're okay and it's nothing really serious or harmful. As long as they can do something for it and help you or at least make you more comfortable. I am however glad that it helped you figure out some other things in your life and I am truly so thankful that they managed to make you at least a bit better now. I know the prospect of surgery might be scary, but if you need it, it could be the best thing for you. I wish I could be there to hold your hand through every appointment, every test, all of it. The MRI part does not sound fun at all and I would have been annoyed and frustrated with that too. Can't believe they made you sit about for 20 minutes doing weird breathing shit and didn't even make sure they had the most important stuff done first!!

My Christmas party was a lot of fun. I ended up meeting some friends at a pub nearby after and we had a great time too. I will say, I did get a lot of compliments on how I looked that night. It made me really shy and giggly because I'm really not used to it. Reading you calling me beautiful made me blush so hard. Especially when you said about my eyes maybe being more beautiful with my glasses haha. I always think I look nerdy with them. I think my heart actually skipped a beat too, when I imagined you saying that I'm beautiful in your voice. Is it weird that I sometimes read your posts in your voice? Is it weird I still remember exactly what you sound like? I don't think my memory would ever compare to the real thing though..

I did however find out the day before the party that unfortunately I'm going to be laid off as of 6th January. I was really upset about it, but it's not just me. There's lots of other people who will be out of a job too. I guess they are cutting back on staff and trying to save money, which really sucks. But I've been doing my best to apply for new jobs and try and secure something soon before my current job ends. It's sad that it's happening, but maybe a new beginning is what I need. Maybe a new start in the new year will do me good. I do have a job interview on 4th January actually, my neighbour (who is a really cool person) actually helped me get the interview as they work there. It's just an office job taking calls, but it's more money than what I'm earning now and they said it's a not bad place to work. Even if I take it for a little while and then find something else that I really want to do while I'm there, just something to pay the bills and help me save money. I have my London trip planned for August, but I also have a few other things/places I would like to go next year too, so I need to keep money coming in to be able to do those. And pay my rent/bills lol

My Christmas was okay. A family member said some things I don't think they realised was quite hurtful to me. But I'm not letting them get to me. They're not worth the energy of me getting upset over it. I did however get to spend time with my younger sister and my niece and nephew. I really enjoyed that part of the day. And I got some new boots and some Jack Daniels too! Haha. I'll post a picture of those too, so you can see them.

Your post was an amazing Christmas surprise for me. I smiled the whole time I read it, even if I maybe also shed a few tears. I really hope you can manage to find a new job that's suitable for you in the new year. I remember you telling me years ago that you really loved space and that you thought about doing astrophysics before. If that's what you want to do, I say go for it my darling. I think you'd be amazing at it. I'm so proud of you for taking the initiative to try and do what you want, even relearning things you need to again and doing it all on your own. I'm so fucking incredibly proud, you've no idea. Of course I keep up with all the news, you know I enjoy space and all that too. I actually have a huge tapestry in my bedroom of the moon and some of the constellations and galaxies on it. Believe it or not, but it's actually ones from the southern hemisphere. I only realised that a few months ago and I've had it for a couple years now nearly. Fuck it, I'll post a picture of that too. I dunno, I just feel like showing you things today. There's so much I wish I could show you and tell you and do with you.

Being a mixologist sounds like fun! I bet you were really good at it too. I'm really sorry that you can't return to it, but you're going to do so many more great things and have so many more passions and things you're good at. I'd absolutely love if you made me a cocktail one day hehe. I have a few favourites that I'd probably consider, but I'd probably just tell you to make me anything you like, something you really enjoy making. And I bet I'd love it. I think just being in your presence would be good enough for me. I'd just be pleased at that and wouldnt ask for anything more. I'd probably just watch you make it for me and have the biggest grin on my face the whole time haha.

I hope your Christmas was good too and that you had the most amazing day, filled with all the laughter and happiness you deserve. And I hope you spent it with people who cherish and love you as much as I do.

I am still totally in awe at how well you know me and remember things about me..

That when you wrap me round your fingers baby... And you make me do that shit I never do... And you pick me up on Sauchiehall Street... I know I want you to myself again

(P.S the second picture of my tapestry where it's all lit up purple from the LED's on my TV? I just took it right now. Its exactly what I'm looking at right now as I type this..)

#him