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antiendovents · 16 days

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The way people are harassing me for my post on why endogenic systems aren't valid and claiming I'm spreading misinformation, then I look at their damn blog and they're pro endo. Like yeah, argue with the wall mate, I linked many sources and when I go over I can't see any genuine misinformation. If I made a mistake I'd like people to correct me kindly, but all I see is pissy pro endos trying to claim endogenic systems are valid.

#May or may not be crashing #idk man #I'm pissed off #Personal vent #Personal vents #anti endo #endos dni #did #did system #plural #actually did #system #alters #endos fuck off #did osdd

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annnoel · 7 months

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Something I hate is how obsessive I get over people I used to be friends with or have hurt people I know

There was a point where I would continually check a person's Tumblr to see what they were doing because of how they hurt my sister in the past. Luckily I haven't done it in a good long while but its wild how obsessive I got

And now I have an ex friend who's been on and off neopets who's on the art chat, and whenever I see them I just get a visceral rage in my chest. I end up thinking about telling them off, telling them how much of an awful person they are and how they didn't end up manipulating me, imagining them trying to talk to me as I tell them to fuck out of my life.

But I don't think I'll ever be able to do that. All I can really do is just watch as they chat with unsuspecting people on the boards. My friend doesn't give them this much head space, why do I? It's just frustrating, I wish I didn't get so visceral upon seeing them

#Vent #Venting #Personal vents

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greyramblings · 10 months

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#incandescent rage #followed by soul crushing depression #followed by absolute exhaustion #I don’t feel like a person right now I just feel numb and tired #it was a very very very bad day #and at the end of it all I still couldn’t sort out my telescope problems #so I got no new photos #I did see a falling star at least #personal vents

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vilea777 · 2 months

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sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

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lastoneout · 6 months

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Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

#hply fuck y'all I haven't felt like this?? ever???#tryinf to be gentle with myself #but I truly feel like I'm made of glass #personal #negative #vent #cw suicide mention #ask to tag

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reikacchan · 1 year

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don't give up

#idk if i should tag it as vent art but?? it's a vent...#vent art #self encouragement #art motivation #Edit November 2023: Please do not refer this post as a political matter #it's my personal vent art and I don't want it to become something related to politics

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gayvampyr · 11 months

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no offense but you guys need to learn the difference between someone implying their experience is universal and a post simply just not being about you

#i’ve seen people respond to my personal posts venting about my own experiences and say that it’s ‘not universal’ or ‘needs more nuance’#like??? no it doesn’t ?? it’s a vent #i don’t need to pass it through peer review #text post #10k #top posts #15k #20k #25k #30k #40k #50k #60k #80k

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zer0ghostz · 1 month

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idk waht to write for this one,

#my art #art #digital art #personal art #vent art #this isnt really vent art i just draw more “emotional” drawings soemtimes lol #illustration

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antiendovents · 2 months

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breaking the queue I already set up to vent. Probably gonna put it under the cut because GOD DAMN I am angry. Dont worry, the queue will be back to normal soon ((yes I queue posts, don't question me, I will cry))

Uh, also I think I'll add a tag for my own vents, so you can block them if you wanna (#personal vent / #personal vents <- two because I'll probably forget to add or get rid of the "s")

I HATE ENDOS. I am like barely holding myself together, I am sick and tired of trying to find xenogenders, labels, ect, for me and my headmates only for them to be made by endos. Even when I see pro endos with like "oh, DNI if anti endo, but you can still use my terms so don't reclaim them" it makes me pissed off because I DONT WANT to use an pro endos term. I shouldn't have to. Am I going to reclaim it? I DONT KNOW. I want to but I have no motivation, only fear and anger. I am sick of my disorder being treated like a game. I have literally lost years of my life. Years, months that I can't remember. All of it gone. I question whats a trauma response and what's not constantly, I don't know if the trauma I remember is all that happened or if there's more I don't know about. Yet endos can just sit here with their little roleplaying accounts, pretending to have the disorder that makes my life a living hell. I can't make friends, I'm so fucking scared of people, of the outside world, so I come here to the internet and everything is so much worse. FUCK SAKE WHY CANT I JUST HAVE A SPACE TO BE ME. I am so tired of endos taking over safe spaces.

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honeypleasejustkillme · 11 months

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therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd shitposting #bpd #bpd problems

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teaboot · 5 months

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You know being transmasc after a life of growing up as the sole "girl" in male-dominated areas gives you a weird and complicated relationship with gender identity.

Like... being told straight to your face, "you're naturally bad at this cause you're a girl", "you're naturally weaker cause you're a girl", "you can act tough but you'll always just be a girl", "stop acting like you can keep up with the men", and even the well-intentioned, "Yeah women are like that, but you don't count, you're basically one of the boys"...

It leads you to this weird space where it's like. "Fuck you, women kick ass," and then busting yourself up to prove that you, a woman, *can* keep up, and not only keep up but do it better than anyone else, and taking pride in your femininity because it's not a fucking weakness, but at the same time knowing that... You're not a woman.

You're not a woman. You're not a girl. People just see tits and curves and decide that nature made you delicate, and then all of a sudden it's your responsibility to prove that you're not fucking weak, women aren't weak, while also saying, "I'm not a woman, though."

It's... bizarre.

I'm not a girl. But so long as I'm interpreted as one, I'm still gonna be held back by the same stereotypes. But if I ever stop being interpreted as one, then all the hard fucking work I put in to excel in my field is going to go down the toilet as "just something you can do because you're a man".

And fuck that. That's stupid, too. Guys shouldn't have their effort taken for granted like that, and it stings extra hard because you remember people just naturally assuming you suck and earning respect only to lose it immediately the second you step over to the "man" side. Because you've worked your whole life for something that as a man you'd just be expected to have naturally.

You SEE that shit staring you in the face, and worst of all people still walk around you in plain view and still talk about how women can't do shit and conveniently forget that you've BEEN ONE. "Because you were a man all along" or "because you overcompensate to prove yourself", whatever they think of to justify the cognitive dissonance that keeps their narrative going.

Nobody seems to consider that I'm not really different from women OR men, because those differences don't exist.

I'm not "naturally better" than women because I don't identify as one, and I'm not "worse than" men because I wasn't assigned the title by a third party. I'm just a person. We're all just people.

I'm just tired, man.

#Rambling #Idk #You can reblog if you wanna but it's just a personal vent

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vilea777 · 2 months

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sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine

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psychopathicfreak · 13 days

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I fixed iiit ~ !

#cluster b #borderline personality disorder #borderline pd #actually borderline #bpd #bpd vent #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #bpd things #aspd #antisocial personality disorder #aspd vent #aspd feels #actually aspd #narcisssistic personality disorder #npd #homicidal ideation

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rainywhispersblog · 6 months

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evilkitten3 · 1 year

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extremely unsexy of adhd to make me both very annoying and very sensitive to the concept of being perceived as annoying

#personal #actually adhd #vent post #mentat illmess strikes again smh #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #kill meeeee

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antiendovents · 2 months

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more venting ... Eep kinda, I'm so sorry y'all put up with me , not exactly endo related tho, big TW in this one, please check tags for appropriate TWs

I don't really understand what's happening, am I crashing? Am I having some kind of melt down? I don't know. I just feel bad. Horrible. Like the entire world is so horrid and dark and that I'll never be able to be who I want to be. I don't understand this place and I don't think I ever will. I don't understand why people hate me, why they want me dead just for being me. I'm so scared. I feel like someone's going to kill me, like I will die before I even get the chance to be.. me. And everytime I tell someone they just fucking laugh at me, or try give me "logic". But I know that logically it is possible. I could get murdered and it's scary. I do not want to leave my house anymore. At all. It's literally my birthday and all I can think of is how fucked everything is and how I'm going to end up dead.

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