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whichcouldmeannothing · 6 months

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big big marvey fic rec list

marvey is currently my most bookmarked ship, so trust me when i say i've been around the bend for marvey content. i have dug through a lot of it the past few months, so trust that these fics have been highly rated!

fics are loosely grouped, with the summary and my thoughts under the cut :3 no spoilers ofc bc i love you

MY PERSONAL FAVOURITES

A Specter-Ross Affair by @frivoloussuits (15k+, au)

“You ordered an ‘extra-hot, extra-wet cappuccino, single-origin, properly layered, to-go and ready five minutes ago to make up for your service speed or lack thereof.’” In which Mike is a barista, Rachel is a lawyer, and Harvey is paid excessive amounts of money to plan their joyous Christmas wedding.

"Love is just a particularly socially accepted form of fraud. It's a series of increasingly complex and fragile deceptions between two or more people, and, more alarmingly, between each participant and their own deluded subconscious."

i literally cannot recommend this fic enough. this might be my favourite read of the entire year, dead serious. this sounds fluffy but trust me, the pining and the angst go well like salt on a chocolate chip cookie: extremely decadent. everything about this fic goes insane and this should be your gateway drug into marvey, im so serious about this. READ IT. (weddingplanner!harvey)

of all the gin joints by @frivoloussuits (10k+, au)

Hanging around a neighborhood bar one night, Harvey befriends a guy named Mike after realizing they can both quote The Princess Bride on demand. In the law offices of Rand, Kaldor, Zane and Pearson, senior partner Harvey Specter takes on an unusual case, representing his managing partner's daughter as she divorces a Michael James Ross. Harvey sees no connection until it's far too late.

"They’re playing a virtuosic duet with inhuman ease, as if the intoxication has broken their boundaries and blurred them into a single entity."

this. obsessed with fics that really use the law in their plots, and this is a prime example. a lot of chemistry in this one that is described in a way that makes you jealous of the bond they share and there are still lines in this fic that i think about almost everyday but honestly, such a top-tier read. PLEASE PLEASE IF YOU LIKE SUFFERING ANF REALLY REALLY GOOD CHEMISTRY PLEASE

5U175 by Closer (26k, canon-adjacent)

Harvey sometimes moonlights as a Star Trek BNF. Mike might have an attitude problem on the internet. TiberiusGhost is strangely compelling, for a recluse who never goes to meetups, and Harvey's finding this kid Photohead vaguely familiar…

i know that the terminology in this one is hella old-school but trust me. as someone who doesnt read a lot of fandom fics, this fic has changed it all for me (also bc the author replied to my comment hehehe) stick with this fic because the way fandom weaves with the character development is absolutely delicious, i remember saying this in my og comment but this fic was written with love for fandom and you should definitely read it too!!! you'd absolutely love it! (also ben stans rise up ^^)

fics to sink your teeth into (20k+)

needs must by @melthemagpie (98k+, au)

When Grammy needs an upgrade in care, Mike knows that the usual one-off gig as a paid submissive won't be enough. He takes a job he's been refusing for a while - a long-term, full-time contract. He expects his client to be a sadistic asshole. He expects not to like it. He's wrong on both counts.

this is a fandom classic, every fic rec has this on the list (cw for dom/sub and prostitution, so if you're uncomfy please dont read) but i swear there are so many romantic moments in this one that make me swoon and the smut is very good, i usually tap out in long fics really quickly but this hooked me the whole way through twice. thats my ringing endorsement, READ THIS

Lobster and Other Catastrophes by @andthetardis (21k, canon-compliant)

After months of silence, Mike starts texting Harvey again out of the blue. Funny thing to do on his honeymoon, really.

BRO PLEASE. this was so good. angsty and pining-y enough even though it's mostly a text fic. text fics to me are more like comedic, but this one had substance and heart (and funny and enjoyable btw). pulls you in and really makes you want to stick it out and get to the beautiful ending <333 (harvey being soft is probably a category on its own :3)

The Game by @frivoloussuits (27k, hunger games au)

Harvey Specter and Donna Paulsen are efficient and elegant killers. They have trained since childhood, mentored personally by Jessica Pearson and marked for years as District 1's Tributes for the Hunger Games. Mike Ross is an orphan from District 12, a drug dealer, and an underage gambler. After years of scrutinizing the Hunger Games on TV to make savvy bets, he finds himself on the wrong side of the camera, now playing the odds just to survive. Harvey and Mike cannot, should not trust each other. Still, they strike a backroom deal.

"Because he’s clever and quick-thinking and he’s learned her main lesson well– don’t love anyone you wouldn’t be willing to see dead. Ideally, don’t love anyone at all."

I READ THIS WHEN I WAS REVISITING HUNGER GAMES AND OHHHHH THIS HAS THE ANGST. absolutely riveting. ths is the third fic im reccing from them bc i love frivoloussuits. i would die for them HHFSHFHKSDGDHFG i love the angst and the life-threatening situations that the hunger games provide and harvey as a career is correct. its just correct. everything here grips my soul

Disaster Stories by agatestones (22k, canon-compliant)

"Hold on," Mike asked, "you made Donna come into work in the middle of a blizzard?" "I don't make Donna do anything. Haven't you learned by now?" Harvey gave Mike a mean little smile, but under that was relief for anyone to see. "You, I can make come into the office in a blizzard."

reads like a novella to me, and it's really good!!! very episodic and you really feel like these are things that have happened in universe. its very slice of lifey and i reread it a lot as a comfort read, its like a big hug to me

Pizza and a Movie by Closer (30k+, au)

In an alternate universe, Harvey's still a lawyer but Mike's not a pot runner -- he's a deliveryman for Rollo's Pizza and Ribs, which happens to be Harvey's favorite pizza place. Once Harvey finds out his pizza guy is a genius, Mike's life takes a few turns he would not have expected...

i swear this is the most rom-commy fic marvey has to offer. i like aus that slap me in the face more with the alternate universe, but this is such a rom-com plot. fandom classic as well and it really reads like a hugh grant 90s movie and if thats not enough to pull you in idk what will tbh

Imprimatur by Closer (22k, au)

Mike was raised to believe Imprint was a life-changing event for those few lucky enough to experience it. Harvey was raised to believe it was a form of mental illness. When it actually happened, neither of them noticed.

this goes absolutely crazy. one of those fics where you read it and you almost want to throw your phone at the wall because the characters could make it so easy if they werent so stupid (but in a good way of course) but the way it was written, you feel the depth of the soulmate bond and why its so important (which a lot of soulmate aus forget to do loll) but goes down like an expensive and delicious dinner :)

afternoon reads (10k+)

Sony SRF-39FP by @frivoloussuits (11k+, canon-adjacent)

Anita Gibbs won’t settle for Mike, not when there are name partners within her reach. She offers only one deal– two years, no other charges against anyone else in the firm, as long as Harvey Specter turns himself in. And even as Donna and Jessica and Louis and Mike beg him not to, he jumps on the grenade. “Time to get busy living or get busy dying,” he remarks, and Mike gives a small chuckle. Then Harvey smirks, straightens his suit jacket, and strides into FCI Danbury.

“I can’t believe they’re trying to lock you in a box and forget about you,” Mike sighs as he leaves.

“Well, as long as you don’t forget me, I figure I’ll survive.”

“Maybe you haven’t noticed, but forgetting’s never been my strong suit.

cw for depersonalization and desc of solitary confinement, very very heavy but the way mike is there throughout everything makes my heart twinge. i really dont know how to describe this fic at all but its really good. it makes me cry a lot. also made me start listening to jazz which- uh

Here at the end of all things by @tattooedsiren (10k, au)

When he arrives at the Pearson Hardman building the lights are dimmed and the floor is deserted. His feet carry him to Harvey's office even though he expects it to be empty. Because Harvey probably fled the city via helicopter or teleporter or sheer force of will. But when he approaches the office he can see that Harvey is there. He has moved the couch so that it now faces the floor to ceiling windows and Mike silently sits beside Harvey, joins him in looking down at the chaos engulfing the city below. [Apocalypse AU]

I LOVE APOCALYPSE FICS UP UP UP badass!harvey makes me bark, but im a really big fan of people who find happiness in the worst circumstances and this fic does it so so so well. reminds me a lot of tlou episode like 2? the one with the strawberries. please this is what i revisit when i miss marvey and i dont have a lot of time because the world and the characters are jsut so delicious!!!

quick reads (1k+)

This Love is Silent by kim47 (8k, canon-compliant)

She should have known. She had known, that something was off, at least. She knew he was hiding something. She just never imagined it could be this. Despite Harvey's warnings, Mike tells Rachel the truth about everything. She's shocked, naturally, and more than a little angry, but she agrees to keep his secret, and even to date him. So when they break up, Harvey goes into damage-control mode.

RACHEL!! HELLO RACHEL!! im always up for smart and discerning rachel (this shows up in of all the gin joints too btw!!!) this runs realistic to me because it shows that rachelxmike arent some hopelessly wrong for each other couple, they have good and bad times. this feels more real to me than other fics bc its not like the world conspires for marvey to be apart, its just life. i know this makes it sound so sad, and it is, but trust me: this is really really really good i love this so much

an archive of harvey specter's expressions by @frivoloussuits (2k, canon-compliant)

Five old expressions that Mike rediscovers in new contexts once he and Harvey are (finally) together, and one that he sees for the first time. Alternatively titled “An Ode to Gabriel Macht’s Face.”

this was written for me. this is literally me. writing fic because gabriel macht is too pretty, like this fic is literally for me. a lot of peering at him to get this fic as masterfully written as it is, and i thank you author everyday for it. to me, this reads like it's been written with love and care and true adoration (Truly, like Mike)

Coffee-Cart Client Privilege by @frivoloussuits (7k, au)

Mike runs a coffee cart. The coffee cart.

"Why not? They're too big and dense to be a snack." So are you, Mike thinks, and yet.

IM SORRY I KEEP RECCING FRIVOLOUS SUITS THEYRE MY FAVOURITE WRITER IN THIS FANDOM HFBKABFDKHFBHKDSA this has the hand-wavy logic the show has itself but mike's internal monologue in this one is one of the best ive ever read and the way mike's integrated in the offices is just so well-done ahhhh

Objection by yeah its frivoloussuits again i feel bad tagging them like 7 times (2k, canon-adjacent)

When Mike announces he’s leaving, Harvey plans to hide the jagged pieces of his broken heart deep inside, where no one will ever find them. His heart would like to object.

BIGG fan of physical hurt/comfort!!!! also big fan of people absolutely freaking out in the hospital in fics, it makes me bounce of the wall!! very short but the angst and love really hits you quick and leaves you on the floor gasping for air. very good (also cant prove this but im very sure this is a scrubs reference.t hanks)

Excerpts From The Gospel of Harvey Specter, edited by Michael "Forever Awesome" Ross, 2011, 1st Ed, by @rcmclachlan (7k, canon compliant)

Mike can totally read people. Well, most people. Some people. Or maybe just Harvey, who's pretty much an open book.

this one's really funny! it doesent follow direct prose and instead plays a lot with the setting its in (where mike's a documenter of harvey) and its just so funny and adorable. has a lot of heart too, it isn't just crack or anything but you really feel everything mike does as he writes all this, read this!!1

One More Sleepless Night by @sal_si_puedes (9k, au)

Soul Bonds are one-sided – there’s usually mutual affection, but only one party feels the crippling need to be together as often as possible. If separated at length from their love, that party becomes crushed by longing, panic, and sheer hopelessness, and so it is illegal to forcibly keep Soulmates apart. Some days, Harvey Specter hates the Bond that skews his judgement and weakens his resolve, and he fears what would happen if anyone in his world ever discovers he is so compromised. He certainly never planned to disclose the Bond for the first time in the middle of Anita Gibbs’ office, in a last-ditch attempt to invalidate the deal sending Mike to prison.

HSDGFHSDKGHRLKGHK THIS FIC. i love fics that use more than just prose to tell their stories (see above fic) and this does my favourite thing that soulmate aus do, which is where they integrate in-universe explanations for the phenomenon. the amount of work and dedication put into this fic makes it absolutely sing and was absolutely lovely!!

also pspspsps

golden like the daffodils by @mini-mart (2k, canon-compliant)

Poetry holds meaning, for anyone who reads it. It obscures and dances around the literal and metaphorical, because it’s imbued with so much of something that it overflows out of any definition. It can make someone mad, or lovesick, or aroused, and the reactions would be absolutely warranted. Mike is poetry, to Harvey. - Harvey Specter could be a good politician, as he believes in pragmatism over poetry. He won't let his progress fall apart, won't let someone knock it down. And then someone unceremoniously cracks open a suitcase at his feet. Or: Harvey, pretty boys and poetry.

yeah yeah i wrote this yeah yeah self promo smth smth

there's a lot more that isn't here but i'll probably write a new one when i go for a deep dive through the ship tags again :3

^^ ao3 etiqutte applies! if you like the fic, kudos and comment and bookmark!! show your love! happy reading marveys! my gift to u :3

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yoongiseesawmp3 · 1 year

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masterlist

ATEEZ

series

church boy series

frat boy series - links to come

idol series

hongjoong

marigold (m) - 12.7k

part of the frat boy series. annoying frat boy!hongjoong. your best friend and the bane of your existence is probably the love of your life, and you’re not sure how to tell him. your mutual friend seonghwa knows about your true feelings for hongjoong, and he does everything in his power to get you two together. one halloween party, one rainy car ride and one emotional rollercoaster later, you finally get a taste of what you’ve been waiting so long for.

bla bla bla (m) - 15.6k

part of the idol series. idol!hongjoong x staff!reader. it’s the thrill of being with someone off limits that pulls you to hongjoong. hushed conversations, discreet kisses, rushed sex. you can’t let anyone else at the company know that this has been going on so long, but the more time you spend with him the more madly in love you fall for kim hongjoong, leader of ateez.

seonghwa

just about perfect (f) - 10.6k

this is NOT inspired by seonghwa saying he watches nevertheless. why would you even think that.

new year (m) - 3.4k

y/n and seonghwa get wine drunk on new year’s eve and get freaky. that’s it. very little plot, but they are absolutely enamored of each other.

amazing grace (m) - 10k

part of the church boy series. you’re spending the summer at home after finishing school and you somehow get dragged into handling the baby nursery at church for the next two months. the only thing sweeter than the babies is your co-worker, park seonghwa.

paradigm (m) - 4.4k

bored, at work, you start to realize your fellow bartender seonghwa is hot. like really hot. after talking, you find out you’re both having dating trouble. how bad would it be if you helped each other out, just a little bit?

paradigm pt2 (m) - 7.2k

is having sex with your coworker really a bad idea? no, right? because seonghwa is quite honestly perfect. perfect, but annoying. a teasing day at work leads to a long night, and a conversation the next day. time to play by seonghwa’s rules.

yunho

killing me (m) - 9.6k

part of the frat boy series. roommate!yunho. after last year, yunho swore he would never live in a frat house ever again. that doesn’t mean he’s leaving the frat, though, so he moves into an apartment just down the street. and you? well you need somewhere cheap and walkable to campus, and yunho is leasing a room. so that’s how you end up living with the human embodiment of sunshine and puppies, but the more time you spend with yunho the more you realize he may have a darker side lurking beneath the surface.

yeosang

san

pop quiz (f) - 2.9k

university student!san. who knew being late to class one day would lead to you kissing the cute ta a few days later? not you. but who’s complaining? also not you.

pop quiz pt2 (f) - 4.1k

after a flirty make up quiz, you’ve found yourself in the early stages of a relationship with your cute ta. san thinks it could be love, but you’re not so sure. you’ve never loved anyone before, so will he be the one to change that?

oh he’s good (m) - 11.4k

part of the church boy series. san, a non-believer, has one of the best voices in the church choir, and maybe one of the best voices in the world. fresh off a break up, you’re not looking for anything serious, and he isn’t either... but someone definitely falls faster and harder than they should.

apple pie (m) - 11.5k

part of the frat boy series, kinda. exboyfriend!san. the cocky frat boy you dated in college might be the love of your life, but you’re not telling him that. if he wants anything from you now he’s gotta work for it, and he’s looking for a 9 to 5 in getting you back.

ceilings (f) - 12.4k

pe teacher!san x single mom!reader. your kid is finally ready to go to school, and you're spiraling. thankfully, you find friendship with your kid's teacher and she becomes determined to become your best friend. simultaneously, she tries to set you up with the cute pe teacher, but you know him from somewhere deep within your past. can the truth come out without jeopardizing your future?

ceilings pt2 (m) - 16.3k

pe teacher!san x not so single mom!reader. now that san knows about his daughter, he's determined to worm his way into her life. and yours. and maybe your home? or, the one where violet's mom and dad fall in love.

ceilings pt3 (f) - 9.8k

pe teacher!san turned new dad!san. your family of three is growing. an engagement, a pregnancy, a wedding? that's a lot. good thing you and san can get through anything together.

own my mind (m) - 10.6k

part of the idol series. idol!san x producer!reader. san hates you, you're sure of it, and the feeling is pretty mutual. are these feelings true, or does he just need to spend some time getting to know you?

u got it bad (m) - 14.5k

baseball player!san x reporter!reader. you've been covering your local team for years. the players, the coaches, everybody knows you. except for newbie choi san. he just joined the team, but he knows you from somewhere...maybe the bar last night?

mingi

wooyoung

smile for the camera (f) - 5.7k

youtuber!wooyoung x reader. wooyoung is best friends with your brother, yeosang, so you get to see him a lot. that would be fine if you weren’t totally head over heels in love with him. now yeosang is onto you and you have to keep him from running his big mouth to wooyoung about your big fat crush.

made for this (m) - 10.5k

part of the church boy series. you’re volunteering for this year’s vacation bible school, and wooyoung’s little brother just so happens to be in your group. is it wrong of him to use kyungmin as his wing man? eh, who cares. wooyoung is just determined to get you to fall for him before the week is over, and he’ll do whatever it takes.

jongho

SEVENTEEN

seungcheol

get you (f) - 8.9k

neighbor!seungcheol. you’ve just moved into your first solo apartment, and seungcheol just so happens to live across the hall. he’s only being neighborly when he offers to help you bring some furniture in. it’s not his fault you think he might be the most handsome and kind man on earth. what could go wrong?

get you, pt2 (m) - 12.2k

neighbor!seungcheol. after your first date with cheol, you just keep falling harder. you start sharing more and more of your life with him, opening up your heart and home to the prince charming from across the hall.

cupid (m) - 9.3k

brother’s best friend!seungcheol. you move in with your brother joshua while you look for a new place, so you finally meet his best friend and roommate seungcheol. you’ve only heard stories, so you’re not prepared for the good looks or the charm that he constantly exudes. after a really bad date, you need someone to save you, and with joshua mia, seungcheol comes to the rescue.

banana pancakes (m) - 12k

when the city girl comes back home for the summer, the cocky diner owner tasks himself with making her feel welcome.

secret (m) - 27k

new boyfriend!jeonghan & ex!seungcheol. your relationship with jeonghan is still new, and your breakup with cheol is still fresh. the three of you used to be close, but time, new jobs, and moving to different countries pulled you apart. now jeonghan is back home, filthy rich and very single. so are you. after some fun at a party, you start dating jeonghan seriously. will cheol’s return send you back into his arms, or will you stand by your man? or, perhaps, a mysterious third thing will happen instead :)

cherry wine (f) - 7.1k

country boy!cheol. a small country town, a kind man with loving eyes, and a beautiful woman who carries around all her memories in a notebook. you're in love with cheol even if you can't admit it, and he has something he so desperately wants to tell you. but you both stay quiet, thinking that's what's best. you have no idea how wrong you are.

jeonghan

secret (m) - 27k

anything but (f) - 8.2k

roommate!jeonghan. you thought living with your best friend, jeonghan, would be easy. fun. like a sleepover every night. but as he watches you struggle week in and week out with crushes that don't like you back or dates that never seem to go well, he decides to take matters into his own hands.

mingyu

all things end (f) - 12.7k

ex!mingyu x childhood friends to lovers. you grew up with mingyu. he was your first kiss. your first boyfriend. the first man you ever loved. some things just aren’t meant to last, but during some time apart you struggle to forget mingyu, and he does his best to get you back. because who could ever love you as much as he does?

BTS

yoongi

brown piano (f) - 8.3k

friends to lovers. yoongi and y/n have known each other casually for a couple years and never intended to take their friendship further than a few study groups together or the occasional dinner with friends. but being in the same applied piano class has brought them together, and their mutual love for epik high bonds them more than they’d like to admit.

candy kisses (f) - 3.3k

(mentions of drug use) yoongi is y/n’s weed dealer, and he needs help expanding his business portfolio. weed brownies, anyone?

jungkook

punch me (f) - 3.5k

daycare worker jungkook invites you, his favorite coworker, to the lake with his friends. why the lake? he wants you to see his new sleeve and whipping his shirt off in the classroom isn’t quite acceptable. plus he just wants to spend more time with you. there’s no harm in that.

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therhythmafterthesummer · 1 year

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Rhythm’s Masterlist

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Stray Kids

Bang Chan

Series:

Being a rebel fighting against a galactic oppressor was no easy feat, but it was something Chan took great pride in. As they took part in a stealth mission, Chan and his friends found themselves on an unknown planet, meeting a mysterious ally; an ally that, over the course of five long months, will help Chan regain hope. [this series has been reworked as of 16/08/2023]

One Shots:

Your best friend has sent her most trusted knight to help you escape your abusive home, an intriguing man with many facets you can’t wait to uncover.

The Room: 3k [Alternative Universe | Smut | Established Relationship | Angsty]

Some nights, you wanted nothing more than to spend them with Chris in your room. Thankfully, once you came home tonight, you were able to do just that.

Two Shots:

As a Princess, all you’d ever been deemed good for was doing what you were told and keeping to your role, something that frustrated you beyond belief. It wasn’t until you met that young wolf in the forest that you finally realised there was more out there for you.

The King of the Forest 02: 2k [WerewolfKing!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Royalty | Mediaeval Setting]

You had one goal: get your husband’s expert opinion. It should’ve been a quick visit to his study… In hindsight, you should’ve known better.

Herbie: 10k [Mechanic!Chan | Smut | Some Fluff | Strangers to Friends to Lovers]

Chris was the best mechanic you’d ever met. He was good at his craft, capable of bringing your dingy car back to life time and time again. He was, also, excellent at riling you up just by existing, which wasn’t the best when you were absolutely convinced he just wanted to be friends with you. But maybe, just maybe, he’d prove you wrong.

Herbie 02: 5k [Smut | Fluff | Friends to Lovers (kind of)]

As it turned out, your hot mechanic friend also had a crush on you. After rocking your world in his repair shop’s office, you wake up the next day on his bed in his clothes, ready to spend a lazy morning together.

Five-Point Star: 6k [Bodyguard/Assassin!Chan | Smut | bit of Fluff | Angst | Strangers to lovers to enemies but lovers?]

With a career like yours, you knew you shouldn’t let yourself fall in love. But honestly, in retrospect, there was no way you wouldn’t have fallen in love with Chris. After meeting him, you couldn’t help but hope that he’d be the last person you fell this deeply for–maybe foolishly so…

Five-Point Star: The Aftermath: 17k [Bodyguard/Assassin!Chan | Smut | bit of Fluff | Angst]

After months of hindering a mercenary’s attempts to get to the person Chris was hired to protect, after months of many fights, injuries, and plotting, he had expected for the resolution to be much more satisfactory than this.

Drabbles/Timestamps:

[23:26]: 1k [Roommate!Chan | Roomies to ???? | Fluff]

You couldn’t sleep, and desperate times require desperate measures.

[02:11]: 1k [Boyfriend!Chan | Established Relationship | Smut | Fluff]

After waking up in the wee hours of the night, your boyfriend simply needed you to warm him up.

MiniSeries - A Mutually Beneficial Agreement

A Mutually Beneficial Agreement - pt 1: 3k [Demon!Chan | Supernatural AU | Smut]

How ironic... to have found yourself entangled with a demon called Christopher, of all things. Some people would’ve made you believe he was taking advantage of you. But you knew better.

A Mutually Beneficial Agreement - pt 2: 14k [Demon!Chan | Supernatural AU | Angst | Smut | Some fluff]

Your favourite demon seemed to be full of surprises, some you could more than get used to, but others that… you weren’t sure you could get used to at all.

MiniSeries - The Realm of Nyaldra:

Purple Flame: 6k [Dokkaebi!Chan | Fantasy AU | Royalty AU | Established Relationship | Smut]

The Firelands’ Gifted Tribes hated each other, especially the Goblin Children and the Dragon Children, but they were willing to work together against a common enemy. Thanks to the war, a pair of star-crossed lovers find the opportunity to end the decade-long feud between the two Gifted Tribes, a goal they’ll strive for whether the Goblin King and the Dragon Queen like it or not.

Whenever Chan held you in his arms again after spending long periods of time apart, he couldn’t help but feel selfish–and even a bit foolishly hopeful. [A sort of pt. 2 to Purple Flame].

Series of One Shots/Drabbles - WereRoommies:

It’s Cold Out: 8k [Werewolf!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Roomies to Lovers | Smut]

Your roommate had been acting weird lately, weirder than usual. It was because of his condition, you thought; and in a way, you had been right, just not in the way you had expected.

Rut: 4k [Werewolf!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Roomies to Lovers | Smut | Fluff]

Your roommate’s rut is coming to an end.

Chris had a dream since he was very young. He wanted to have a pack of his own, to build a safe space for people with views just like his. Once he managed to accomplish that, he would’ve never imagined that his next dream would arrive at his doorstep in a pretty sundress.

It’s Warm In: 4k [Werewolf!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

You try to spend an intimate, relaxing evening with your boyfriend a handful of months after his rut.

Love is Easy: 10k [Werewolf!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

After two years of living among werewolves, of being an important member of their pack, you finally get to partake in one of their most important activities: their ‘monthly camping trip’.

Surprise: 2k [Werewolf!Chan | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

Your boyfriend had been stressed with work lately, so you got yourself a pretty lingerie set to surprise him, hoping to cheer him up.

The aftermath of an argument with a supernatural being was something no one ever prepared you for, much less if that supernatural being was someone you were romantically involved with. You figured it’d happen eventually, you just weren’t aware of how much it could hurt.

Lee Know

One Shots:

Alone Together: 8k [SpacePirate!Lino | Sci-Fi AU | Smut | Established Relationship (kind of) | Lovers (idiots) to Even More Lovers (affectionate)]

Minho was a man on the run, an outlaw. He was always getting himself into trouble, thieving and fighting against the people that perpetuated an unfair system that did nothing but bring pain to those the system considered lowly and unworthy. For his next mission, he decided to ask for help from the person he trusted most in this world, you.

The Taste of Love: 3k [Vampire!Lino | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Some Fluff | Mediaeval Setting]

Every handful of centuries, Minho found himself someone that was willing to let him feed off of them. It usually wasn’t planned, it sort of just happened. This time, that person was you, the baker that had just moved into town. He wanted nothing more than to have a taste of you, in more ways than one.

Drabbles/Timestamps:

Cherry eyes, cherry lips: 1k [Vampire!Lino | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Fluff]

A stroll to the beach with your recently turned friend leads to a couple compromising situations.

Backseat: 1k [BestFriend!Lino | Smut | Best Friends to Lovers]

Unable to wait a single second longer, you found yourself laying in the back of your best friend’s car.

Series of One Shots - WereRoommies:

Minho was your rock, he was your anchor, your best friend, which was why you just couldn’t stop yourself from falling for him, even when he was, essentially, a supernatural being. One ‘camping trip’ might be the last push you needed to finally confess. Or maybe not…

Starting a relationship with the man that had been your best friend since you were a kid was and wasn’t easy in equal parts. It was, because there wasn’t anyone in this world you trusted more than Minho, there wasn’t anyone that made you feel this safe. But sometimes, it just wasn’t. Not only because of the physical distance, but also because of the challenges that posed having a supernatural boyfriend who didn’t like to talk about his equally supernatural problems.

Are You There, Wolf?: 8k [Werewolf!Lino | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Best Friends to Lovers]

Minho had always deemed himself a bit of a weirdo. In his humble opinion, he’d only become even weirder with time, especially after he acquired his supernatural… condition. He’d never cared much about it, not when you’d always been there for him, and hopefully you would always be.

Changbin

One Shots:

Get Used to It: 3k [non-Idol!AU | Slice of Life | Fluff | Mild Smut]

A pig plushie becomes Changbin’s best wing-man - or alternatively - the one where two idiots finally confess.

In the Labyrinth: 14k [Minotaur!Changbin | Mythical/Fantasy AU | Angst | Smut | Fluff]

The Labyrinth was an enigma for most people. Its existence was known, but what exactly happened within it was a complete mystery. When you entered the Labyrinth, you weren’t really sure what you’d have to come face to face with… Not even in a million years would you have guessed just exactly what you’d find in here.

Series of One Shots - WereRoommies:

Changbin was an alpha. He had always been an alpha, but he had a secret. A secret he had only ever shared with the alpha of his pack, a secret he had kept buried as deep within him as he could, a secret he had decided to ignore, until the presence of that annoying omega coworker of his wouldn’t let him ignore it anymore.

Heat: 6k [Werewolf!Changbin | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

With you, Changbin was able to explore areas of himself he’d never even imagined existed. With you, Changbin found himself feeling at home more than ever, which was why he wanted nothing more than to experience your heat with you, too.

The Love I Always Dreamt Of: 5k [Werewolf!Changbin | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

As you and Changbin got to fulfil one of your shared fantasies, he couldn’t help but be reminded that you were the one and only wolf for him.

The Wedding Planners: 3k [Werewolf!Changbin | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Smut | Fluff | Established Relationship]

Planning a wedding was way more stressful than Changbin could’ve ever expected. It seemed so easy at first, like all that was needed was to fulfil a checklist and call it a day, but he realised very quickly that there was a reason for the concept of bride and groomzilla to have been created.

Hyunjin

One Shots:

Blessed: 4k [Incubus!Hyunjin | Supernatural/Fantasy AU | Suggestive | Mild Smut]

Being intimate with someone was something you had trouble understanding. When you steal an alluring, unexpected item, you finally get a taste of what being with someone was actually like.

Felix’s crude reality made it so he hardly dwelled on the fact that he was alone. He never would’ve imagined he’d find a loving family of his own, or that he would be capable of imprinting and finding a soulmate, let alone two. [This story is an instalment of my WereRoomies series. you don’t need to read the other instalments to understand this piece].

Han Jisung

Drabbles/Timestamps:

[00:08]: 1k [Suggestive | Fluff | Best Friends to Lovers]

When you agreed to come to this party, you would’ve never imagined you’d end up making out with your best friend, but you were certainly not going to complain. Not when you’d wanted this for the longest time.

Felix

One Shots:

Seungmin

One Shots:

A Helping Hand: 4k [LabHybrid!Seungmin | Smut | Fluff | Best Friends to Lovers | Roommates to Lovers]

After one too many shots of vodka, your best friend confided in you a little problem he’d been dealing with for a couple of months now. Tipsy-you figured that you were more than suitable to give him a helping hand.

I.N | Jeongin

One Shots:

Odd Eyes: 5k [Demon!Jeongin | Period setting | Mild Angst | Fluff if you squint?]

Being cursed was not something you ever planned for your life–clearly–but now that you were, your demon will help you make the most of it.

#non-rebloggable for now #masterlist

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allwaswell16 · 8 months

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A fic rec of One Direction exes to lovers fics that are in Harry's point of view as requested in this ask. If you enjoy the fics, please leave the writers kudos and comments! You can find my other fic recs here. Happy reading!

—Harry/Louis—

🥀 The Lonely Planet Guide to Second Chances by @1diamondinthesun

(NR, 102k, vacation) the breakup travel fic featuring romantic sunsets, awkward bed sharing, and second chances against a backdrop of some of Europe's most iconic cities.

🥀 a thousand miles away (from the day that we started) by @perfectdagger

(M, 88k, time capsule) Five years after his break up with Louis and ten since they've left school, Harry finds himself hosting a reunion at his family bungalow, having to face his ex again and the feelings he had left behind.

🥀 Perfect Storm by @cherrystreet

(E, 80k, fake relationship) What do you do when your best friend asks you and your (now) ex to be the best men at his destination wedding?

🥀 Feels Like Coming Home by @phdmama

(E, 60k, recovery) The last thing Harry Styles expects when he's hanging out at the Someday Cafe in Somerville one rainy October day is for his ex, Louis Tomlinson to walk through the door, but that's exactly what happens.

🥀 Far Away. by dimpled_halo / @comebackassholes

(M, 57k, musician Harry) Harry returns to London after five years. Stuck in the past with "what ifs" and "what might have beens", he sees that his friends and ex (and possible love of his life) Louis have all moved on with their lives while he finds himself questioning his own life choices, past and present.

🥀 The End Should Be A Good One by bananasandboots / @anylessreal

(M, 43k, art teacher Harry) the one where Harry loses the love of his life on New Years Eve and finds him again, six months later, ready to open some poorly-stitched wounds.

🥀 I Do by @brightgolden

(E, 43k, famous/famous) After moving to Los Angeles when he was just eighteen years old with the hope to be a household name in Hollywood, Harry Styles finally earns himself an Oscar several years down the road. But his new found fame is rattled when he bumps into a certain Louis Tomlinson backstage after four long years.

🥀 Our Sweetest Memorial by @softfonds

(E, 35k, Persuasion au) Ever since Harry was forced to break off an engagement five years ago, he resolved to never marry for the remainder of his life. Now his family must move out of his beloved Kellynch Hall to recover some of their debts that their father had accumulated.

🥀 like a timebomb ticking by @infinitelymint

(M, 31k, canon) Louis loses everything. Harry's still there.

🥀 Bitter Ends Turn Sweet by @allwaswell16

(E, 30k, kid fic) It had been four years since Harry first heard the song his ex wrote about him and far longer since they broke up.

🥀 Cowboy Like Me by Rearviewdreamer / @all-these-larrythings

(M, 29k, thieves) Going legit and starting over in a small town was supposed to solve all of Harry’s problems. That was until a string of robberies in wealthy towns brings him face-to-face with his rouge ex-partner and their dicey, unresolved past.

🥀 Sakura Sunset by MsHydeStylinson / @mizzhydes

(E, 16k, Kew Gardens) Only after Louis has left does Harry realise he made the biggest mistake of his life breaking up with Louis, and he has to live with the consequences of his actions.

🥀 give me things to stay awake by embodied

(E, 10k, alcohol) On Saturday nights Harry goes out and gets so pissed he can’t stand, and when the bartender cuts him off he rings Louis and is in his car within an hour. It’s not a cycle he’s proud of, but it’s also something he can’t resist, and he keeps doing it as long as Louis keeps showing up.

🥀 don't you call him baby by @femstyles

(T, 8k, jealousy) the one where Harry is absolutely doing fine and is definitely not still hung up on Louis. Except he is.

🥀 Truth or Drink by @kingsofeverything

(M, 6k, youtube) Harry and Louis broke up years ago, and they're seeing each other again for the first time to play Truth or Drink. On camera.

🥀 So Paris When We Kiss by cherrylarry / @beelou

(G, 4k, soulmate au) There’s a travel website open that he certainly did not open himself. Niall has been trying to get him to Paris ever since he got his mark.

🥀 last christmas (i gave you my heart) by localopa / @waterloux

(G, 4k, chef Harry) louis and harry are broken up. cue scheming friends to make one christmas wish come true

🥀 Heart that I Let Down by YesIsAWorld / @louandhazaf

(G, 4k, famous/not famous) Where do broken hearts go? Louis took Harry’s with him when he went to LA, now Harry’s on a mission to find him.

🥀 Not yet a breach, but an expansion by theweightofmywords / @lil0

(NR, 2k, soulmates) “I don’t understand why we keep running into each other,” he says as his hands grip his hair in frustration.

🥀 'Tis the Damn Season by zanni_scaramouche / @zanniscaramouche

(M, 2k, fwb) He won’t think about the cabin in the woods again until next December.

—Rare Pairs—

🥀 holiday by narryblossom

(M, 2k, Niall/Harry) Harry almost felt bad letting his mum think he had gotten sick while in the sea, but he knew he would have felt worse if he had gone out and accidentally ran into his ex and all of his friends.

#ficrec #trackinghappily #1dficvillage #ficsfor4am #trackinghome #1dsource #tracksintheam #hltracks

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whenyoucallmelover · 9 months

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everything i read this month! ✷

august flew by as it seemingly always does, but i still managed to read a decent amount! no smut recs this month…sorry to all of you naughty lil readers hehe, i just didn’t really read much smut this month for once.

(just a lil heads up~ i read a few fics this month that contained some scenes/discussions that may be upsetting to some. i find a lot of catharsis in writing + reading stories that i can see myself in, but i know it’s more triggering than therapeutic for some people! so please, as always, read the author’s tags & warnings!)

✷ under 10k words.

🍎 Ice, Ice, Baby, @beelou (1.1k) tags; tooth-rotting fluff, figure skater harry, pining, no smut

🍎 Hold On Tighter, @hellolovers13 (1.4k) tags; no romantic relationship, coming out, trans harry, angst and feels

🍎 A Beacon of Hope, @justanotherghostblr (2k) tags; girl direction, non-traditional a/b/o dynamics, insecurity, nesting, alpha/alpha

🍎 The Elf Who Saved Christmas, @ladyaj-13 (2k) tags; meet cute, christmas, mall elf harry, sweet big brother louis, fluff

🍎 listen to me, butterfly, wherewestood (2k) tags; a/b/o, alpha louis, omega harry, nesting, emotional hurt/comfort, established relationship

🍎 Take the Moment and Taste It, @hellolovers13 (4k) tags; strangers to lovers, first date, footballer louis, singer harry, fluff and smut, cheeky harry

🍎 Running Over Thoughts That Make My Feet Hurt, @enchantedlandcoffee (5k) tags; a/b/o, baker harry, little league coach louis, dad harry, omega drop, confessions, kid fic

🍎 The Scent Of Grapefruit, @red-pandaaa (5k) tags; fluff, no smut, demisexuality, coming out, established relationship, lots of cuddles

🍎 Sex Drunk Suckerpunch, @thinlinez/@gaygodlou (7k) tags; reverse sugar baby, sugar daddy harry, sugar baby louis, but! harry is louis’ baby, escort louis, fluff and smut, stubbornness, banter and humor, tw: brief mentions of death, age gap (25 & 39)

🍎 Your Secret's Safe With Me, @lightwoodsmagic (7k) tags; online friendship, secret identity, prince harry, friends to lovers, first kiss, fluff

🍎 In Shining Armour of Trackie and Trainers, @ladyaj-13 (9k) tags; bad dates, strangers to lovers, famous louis/non famous harry, fan harry, protective louis, tw: non-con elements (read end notes for more info!)

✷ over 10k words.

🍎 Been Here All Along, @bravetemptation (10k) tags; college/university, american football, mascot harry, first kisses, mutual pining, quiet harry, jock louis, secret identity (...? kinda?), tw: panic attacks *absolutely adored this one! i found this to be a great representation of what social anxiety feels like to me and i really appreciated it! x

🍎 It's A Start, Anonymous (10k) tags; neighbors, angst and fluff, first meetings, hate to love (ok, hate is a strong word…annoyed neighbor-to-lovers?), protective louis, hurt/comfort, tw: past abuse

🍎 tread lightly on my ground, @lookslikefairytale (20k) tags; a/b/o, mpreg, miscommunication and misunderstandings, touch deprivation, omega drop, angst with a happy ending, mutual pining

🍎 (Gimme a Solution and) Watch Me Run With It, @lululawrence (21k) tags; famous harry/non famous louis, friends to lovers, sharing a bed, assistant louis, emotional hurt/comfort, lovely sweet caring louis, harry styles needs a hug, touring, tw: panic attacks

✷ multi-part.

🍎 Take me, Take Mine, @likelarryfics (54k, 5/5) tags; a/b/o, boudoir photoshoots, photographer louis, slow burn, healing and recovery, angst with a hopeful ending, tw: discussions of past abuse *favorite of the month <3

🍎 Just a Flower Boy, Larryruinedme (70k, 15/15) tags; highschool au, popular louis, openly gay harry, jealous louis, secret admirer, first time, discovering sexuality, tw: mentions of homophobia *a classic fic that i just read for the first time…a lil late to the party; love a cheesy old fic tho!

don’t forget to leave a comment and kudos for the authors & reblog their fic posts! ･ﾟ*｡･

#there’s a lot of a/b/o this month…i fell down a rabbit hole oops #monthly wrap up #trackinghome #trackinghappily #tracksintheam #hlficlibrary #thelarriefics #hlsource #larry fanfiction #larry fanfic #larry fic rec #larry stylinson #harry styles #louis tomilson #28th appreciation #(on the 29…so close)

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williamprattz · 8 days

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EDANCY FIC RECS

↳ user williamprattz all time favorite edancy fics

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don't, don't, don't throw it away by roykentt [Completed]

Teen & Up • 72k words

Everyone in Hawkins, Indiana knows of Karen Wheeler’s three rules for raising her three children. Rule number one: No dating until college. Rule number two: Everyone takes care of Holly. The third rule, the most important rule, is to never go to bed angry. The first rule is rather infamous. What happens when Mike Wheeler wants to date one of the new kids in town and the only way to do that is to make his older sister, Nancy, date? Well, naturally, enlist the help of an unlikely student to be the one to try and tempt the angry and elusive Nancy Wheeler out on a date. The only thing Mike and his two best friends have to do in return is make sure that Eddie Munson graduates this year. It shouldn't be hard. Right?

[LINK]

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be my nightfire (while i close my eyes) by sunmaiden [Completed]

Teen & Up • 2k words

What if Nancy Wheeler agreed to join Hellfire club in Lucas’ absence the night of the game?

[LINK]

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Don't look at me like this by Kat_Of_Dresden [Completed]

Not Rated • 1k words

Robin thinks there might be something going on between Eddie and Nancy. Sure they are "just friends".... For now.

[LINK]

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marked for death by paranypmh [Completed]

Explicit • 10k words

better known as the edancy pirate au where they have far too much sexual tension in their sword fights to deal with like normal people

[LINK]

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the princess and the pub by mcplestreet [Completed]

Teen & Up • 16k words

When Steve proposes a plan of escape Nancy is forced to face whether or not the comfortable life she's always known is worth giving up for true love and her best friend.

[LINK]

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When you're near me darling can't you hear me SOS by fandom4fandom [Completed]

General • 2k words

Nancy realizes she's absolutely in love with Eddie Munson.

[LINK]

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The princess and the rockstar by Thecricketsarecalling [Completed]

Mature • 42k words

A slight twist on the series of events leading up to Season 4 of Stranger Things. Nancy knows things are ending with Jonathan, and out of nowhere...Eddie Munson walks into her life and changes everything. Maybe there's something else she's trying to protect when Venca strikes months later.

[LINK]

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can i waste all your time here on the sidewalk? by paranypmh [Completed]

Teen & Up • 3k words

Mike said he would be out of his Hellfire Club meeting at 8:30. Nearly an hour later, Nancy is done waiting for him and goes to find out where the hell he went.

[LINK]

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Sing me to sleep by Kat_Of_Dresden [Completed]

Not Rated • 2k words

Nancy can't sleep, Eddie helps her with his soothing singing voice.

[LINK]

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Pretty Eyed, Pirate Smile by roykentt [Completed]

Mature • 60k words

I know Eddie. He used to DM in Hellfire. Remember? She didn’t. She didn’t remember Eddie Munson or any of the other members of the band. But she knew the story. She knew that the moment their drummer and bassist graduated, a few years after Eddie had, the band started to gain momentum. It took them four years until they were breaking out into the scene in a big way. Like playing on MTV during prime hours big. Like selling out Madison Square Garden for two back to back nights big.

[LINK]

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School Bell Rings by fandom4fandom [Completed]

General • 3k words

Nancy Wheeler tutors Eddie Munson to help him pass his third senior year of high school. Along the way, feelings develop.

[LINK]

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one of a kind (of mine) by paranypmh [Completed]

Teen & Up • 2k words

nancy needs a shirt to wear, and eddie's got plenty.

[LINK]

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waking up to you by mcplestreet [Completed]

Teen & Up • 1k words

The morning after Eddie's first Corroded Coffin gig post-spring break he wakes up not only with a hangover but with a girl in his bed. Though he never expected her to be there he doesn't think he minds.

[LINK]

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pursuit of truth (no matter where it lies) by paranypmh [Completed]

Teen & Up • 9k words

The five things Nancy Wheeler knew about Eddie Munson, and the one thing she didn’t.

[LINK]

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Eyes Outshine the Horizon Line by fandom4fandom [Wip]

General • 22k words

Nancy Wheeler is the oldest of Queen Karen's children and the one with the biggest thirst for adventure. One night Nancy rescues the self-proclaimed "pirate" Prince of Hawkins, Eddie Munson. Doing this, Nancy quickly falls for him and longs to find a life on land. The sea warlock Vecna may be able to help her with that.

[LINK]

#my post #stranger things #strangerpairs #stranger things fanfiction #st fic #edancydaily #edancy #nancy wheeler #eddie muson

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lauronk · 5 days

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Hi I need you to know that your bad things happen bingo 'knife to the throat' fic absolutely wrecked me!!

It was such a perfect like canon divergence and was written so vividly that I felt like I could imagine everything as it happened

I really hope one day there's a follow up to how things change and then Tommy and Maria seeing what happens, but if you don't plan to, do you have any headcanons or ideas about how things would change?

Thanks again for giving me the perfect fic to read over the weekend!!

first of all thank you so much this is so unbelievably kind

second, i am kind of toying with writing a follow up? because honestly this is one that i could have written another 10k on and i made myself stop where i did. but if i do it'll be a minute because i have [pause for counting] three other things i'm actively working on rn

BUT i will share some follow-up ideas/headcanons under the cut (mainly in case anyone wants it to remain a surprise if i ever get around to it)

they wait out the winter in jackson, so they miss the entirety of silver lake (i haven't figured it out yet, but i still want david to die because [kim kardashian voice] it's what he deserves)

during the months they spend in jackson they have some nice sort of chill time, both of them getting a sense of normalcy

joel still kind of freaks out about tommy having a baby but it's not quite as bad bc he's also not in the headspace of forcing ellie to go with tommy, her being abducted has already sort of pushed him into the well i guess i have a kid now sort of mindset

but he is still fully struggling with the i'm too old too slow can't protect her gonna get her killed sort of feelings that have only been amplified by her getting abducted and him not being able to stop it

would love for joel and maria to have a good heart to heart because i will always support the j&m besties agenda, i love maria so much

when the weather clears they leave for the university and of course find nothing there

possibly? find remnants? of silver lake? but most everyone has died? idk on this part yet but there's no joel getting stabbed and ellie getting locked in a cage

continue on to salt lake city, get there and find it abandoned because marlene et al have since given ellie (and joel and tess by extension) up for dead and think their attempt at a cure is over

because they left as opposed to being killed, there's not much left behind in terms of their plans or anything, and j&e can't find indication of where they've gone or anything (oh no how sad 😐)

takes some doing but joel convinces ellie that they need to go back to jackson, promises to keep an ear out for any potential leads in the future for a cure

ellie of course has Feelings about not being able to save the world, joel does his best to help her through them

they go home

golf averted

the end

so, more or less, another massive fucking section lmao honestly i didn't realize how much i had in my head for it until i started typing it all out here haha

#did i say another 10k?#i guess i meant another 15-20k #lauren write something short challenge - failed every time #joel and maria besties agenda #thanks for the ask!#this could either break my heart (or bring it back to life)#the last of us fanfiction #tlou fanfiction #joel and ellie #fanfic struggles #lauronk answers #the last of us #just enough canon divergence to avoid a game of golf

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heyitssashag · 7 days

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Happy Sunday!

I was out every day this week and it really affected me. I. Am. Tired.

The cleaners came on Friday so at least my house is spotless.

I was supposed to run a 10K race, today. Picked up my race package yesterday and was planning to be at the start line at 8am. Unfortunately, I woke up at 4am completely sick to my stomach. Took a Gravol and an Ativan. Heard the pouring rain and wind, outside. Then adjusted my alarm clock to sleep in. As a result, I didn’t make it. Which sucks but… 🤷🏻‍♀️

In the past, I would have forced myself to go or I would have severely beaten myself up for it. Today, I didn’t. It was out of my hands. I’ve been feeling both beat down physically and mentally this past month. I don’t feel well. I’m slowly making progress when it comes to giving myself a break.

Yesterday, I also visited one of my comedy friends (from Vancouver) at a local cafe. We are hoping to do an open mic together later next month.

I also visited my Aunt and Uncle, cousin and another friend.

My DNS (did not start) shirt and race bib. Maybe later this week, I’ll put on the shirt and walk the 10km if I’m feeling up to it. ☺️

I completely cleared this week from any outside appointments, meetings, gatherings, kid’s volunteering at the aquarium, etc. — Aside from a few volunteer health coaching appointments (30 minutes over the phone) and my counsellor appointment (over Zoom), I have tried to make this upcoming week as easy as possible for me. I’m not adding anything. I’m saying “no”. I’m going to be a slug at responding to emails, texts and phone calls. …Well, except for on thing:

My article was approved to be published in the upcoming Body issue for a Breast Cancer Magazine! I’m so thrilled they like it! I have to submit a bunch of stuff to them by tomorrow. I’m really excited for this issue. I really tried to interject more humour but was also pretty vulnerable with my feelings around my body since getting cancer.

This week I plan to focus on my health:

Eating healthy. (Grocery delivery is coming in an hour). Limiting sugar and starches - upping the greens.

Meditation (Using the Balance app).

Sitting by the ocean & deep breathing.

Nature power walks or hikes.

Reading in bed.

Upping my water intake.

Avoiding/limiting screens as much as possible.

Light weights and band exercises.

Going to bed by 10pm.

I don’t know why I fall off the wagon with this stuff. I know when one thing goes, the rest go out of whack. I absolutely have to make this list priority if I ever want to feel like I’m human.

Connection is so important to me but if I don’t look after myself, those connections end up draining rather than “fuelling” or fun.

I hope you all can find at least one nice thing you can do for yourself this week, too. Maybe a new little habit that contributes to bettering your health. Start small - just do it every day!

Ideas:

List 3 things you’re grateful for.

Floss your teeth.

Plan to eat a vegan meal.

Go for a walk.

Get a massage.

Take some deep breaths.

Say out loud an affirmation you resonate with.

Listen to an inspiring podcast.

Read a fantasy.

Watch a comedy.

Or maybe do something nice for someone else. Extra points if it’s done anonymously. 😉

I hope you have a wonderful week! …and remember:

You are enough.

You are worthy.

You are loved.

#metastatic breast cancer #fitblr #self care #self compassion #saying no #health coaching #chronic pain #running #life update #blogging on my blog

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thevioletcaptain · 9 months

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I have my first class in the writer's program today!

It's just a short, free, single day seminar that isn't for credit, but seeing as it's been so long since I went to university I decided it would be a good way to ease back into things before my actual graded classes start next month.

I know I already posted a thank you to everyone who chipped in, shared my fundraising post, or messaged me with encouragement a couple of weeks ago when I was trying to add a class to my schedule, but I just wanted to say it again:

Thank youuuu 💚

I really can't overstate how much it meant to me. Beyond just helping me scrape the cash together in time to enrol in the extra class, just seeing your kind words about my writing gave a huge boost to my creative energy.

Because of that... I posted two >10k oneshots and completed one long-standing WIP yesterday. And I've got more that I'm hoping to post in the next few days. I'll make actual rebloggable promos for each of the things tonight after I get back from the class, and I'm going to go in and edit the older chapters of the longfic soon, seeing as I wrote them... uh... nine years ago.

In the meantime, you can find the fics here:

Humble (formerly titled "Risen") Rule!63 DeanCas Pastry Chef AU | 38k | E

When she hangs the help wanted sign in the front window of her cafe, the last thing Deanna expects is to end up employing an inexperienced, socially inept ex-actuary as her new pastry chef. Or maybe that's the second-last thing. She absolutely doesn't expect to fall head over heels.

Frisky Business Established Relationship Casefic with a side of Dom!Cas | 13k | E

In which Cas makes an observation, and Dean's just along for the ride.

Kind of a Buddy of Mine Canonverse Crack Treated Seriously | 14k | M

It’s been sixty-five days since they left Alliance, and Cas is still seven inches tall. He's the one thing that Jesse Turner didn't put back to normal before he took off for greener pastures, and Dean figures he's holding a grudge. On some level, he can’t really blame him. Cas did try to kill the kid, after all. Still, it does seem kinda harsh to have left Cas looking like G.I. Joe’s Corporate Cousin for the rest of forever. With the apocalypse looming, Dean is determined to find a solution.

#cass says things #cass writes fic #really i can't thank you guys enough for helping me #looking forward to posting some other stuff soon #possibly even as early as tomorrow #i've been on a roll this week despite having work and a pain flare up

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whatspringdoestothecherrytrees · 8 months

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The October Make-Over 🎃

Hello Girlies, this is my October Makeover - feel free to join me if you want! And to customize to whatever you’re working on! (And that could be rest and recovery too!) @mamabeatnik @anolderlove @2pretty @abeatingheart @alicedowntherabbithole-blog

Hyperfocus October: 🍁 🧠

Keep a running distractions notepad.

Put your phone in airplane mode +/- Do not Disturb.

Keep phone in a drawer/bag, different room, etc.

NO TEXTING BEFORE 5pm UNLESS CRITICAL/EMERGENCY (only exception is texting brother and spouse)

List your distractions. (For me: non-critical busywork tasks, email, depressive states, baby stuff, fighting, gossiping, thinking about my traumatic past lol, worrying about the future, finances and budgeting, low self esteem thoughts, having too many metaphorical “irons in the fire”, not exercising and then having lack of focus/energy/positive mood, Fear of success)

Action October: 🍁

Go live with that project you’ve been putting off. (For me it’s my music Youtube channel. Find an equivalent project for yourself! What are you afraid of doing but want to do? Is shame holding you back like it is for me?)

Remember: You will never be perfect to your standards! You just have to do it. Perfectionism is a form of fear.

Take action on that thing you’ve been complaining about/feeling trapped about. (For me: Actually hire a sitter to have actual date nights/mornings/etc! Rather than mentally complain that “you never get time with ur spouse anymore blah blah”.)

Accountability October:

Make a physical, visual workout tracker for the month to see your progress and consistency over time

Have Friday evening check-ins for a budget, calendar, admin

Zero gossiping!

Zero negativity! Say 3-5 positive/grateful things for every negative/critical thing you say.

Love October: Per Ed Mylett’s Power of One More concept.

Give your sweetie a hug, and then one more!

If you normally give them a greeting kiss, give them one more! Spend a minute hugging, then one more! etc.

Give them a compliment, and then one more!

Go on a weekly date night, and then a little extra time!

Nature October:

Leave the windows open at night!

Enjoy fall candles

Air duvets on balcony overnight

Eat outside as much as possible

Weekends October:

Pumpkin patch trip

Bonfire

Feed the homeless

Make cards for kids in the hospital

Actually go to church events (ie for me cookouts at least once)

Actually take a sabbath (i’d like to do zero chores! Cook/clean ahead). Give yourself the gift of a day completely off!

Make apple pies

Spending $$Sober October: 💵 🍁

NO AMAZON PURCHASES unless absolutely critical

Grocery budget: no fancy vegan foods like vegan cheese, burgers, brats, etc. You can do without that for just a month!

Grocery budget continued: Consider picking fresh wild flowers when possible instead of buying flowers! Or 5$ pretty carnations!

Create a financial goal: ie, house, car, laptop, iPad, 10k savings. Something not too big so it is still attainable. Mine: 10k in savings by January; $$ so I can get Thermage at dermatology!

October Fallcore Hard-Core mornings: Level up from the 5am club!

Get up an hour earlier than usual by the end of October: Wake up 15 minutes earlier each week. (Ie: week 1. 4:45a. Week2, 430a, etc.)

Morning ice bath (or cold plunge outside)

More time reading Bible/praying

Selfcare October:

Weekly clay face mask

Weekly steam/ice facial

(Daily skincare routine should go without saying! It does for me. Cleanser, Vit C + SPF am, retinol + moisturizer pm. If you’re not already doing this, you need to fix your life!)

Weekly epsom salt bath

Daily green juice

Weekly intensive journaling (for me: jordan peterson’s selfauthoring suite)

Fitness October:

30 days of Yoga (YT Yoga w Adriene)

Zone 2 cardio > 3x/week (for me - running, swimming)

Stretching afterwards, side splits (TLB on YT)

Pull-ups on Tuesday and Thursday

Weekend warrior: extra long run or swim

Inspire October:

Meditate daily > 15 minutes

Spend time riding your bike > 1x/month

Get rollerblades again! Skate > 1x/week

Let your mind wander for a few minutes daily!

Watch inspiring YT videos (for me, that’s Robin Sharma etc).

Read for pleasure/inspiration > 1x/week!

Grind October:

Get to work/school 30-60 minutes earlier than you usually do

Have at least one day per week where you work insane hours in person (ie big experiment, long project)

Lay out your work outfit the night before so mornings are a little easier.

Professional Goals October:

Have at least one major needle-moving goal accomplished this month in your school/work.

For me it’s:

Submit manuscript

Complete dissertation

Apply to defend dissertation

Defend dissertation

Complete scoping review

Complete meta data analysis

#smart girl #clean girl #glow up #fall refresh #pink academia #separation season #personal #it girl #just do it #actuallyautistic #neurodivergent #studyinspo #productivity #memento mori

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nouies · 1 year

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hello and welcome to the first fic rec of the year featuring works that i’ve read and loved during the past weeks. as always, please check tags before reading. if you liked the fics please reblog their posts, leave kudos and write a nice comment. i was gonna mention how reading was a bit hard for me this month but the long list shows the opposite hehe. rec tag | more rec lists

— harry/louis —

໑ Netflix Original by allwaswell16 / @allwaswell16 (T, 1k, strangers to lovers, neighbours au, netflix) this was so cute. i love the fact that the story came from the title only, that’s very creative.

໑ The Final Countdown by cherrylarry / @beelou (G, 1k, established relationship, new year’s eve, marriage proposal) this was the very first fic i read this year, and it was so sweet! a lovely way to start my readings from this year!

໑ (Route)r To My Heart by hazzahtomlinson / @itsnotreal (M, 1k, strangers to lovers, neighbours au) very funny and cute! i wish all neighbours could be as comprensible as them lol

໑ Bless You! by Neondiamond / @neondiamond (G, 2k, established relationship, kid fic, fluff) absolutely adorable! couldn’t stop smiling the whole time i was reading.

໑ Stole My Heart by haztobegood / @haztobegood (NR, 2.8k, strangers to lovers, uni au, chicken nuggets) such a fun and cute story! it’s kind of like a meet-cute but with an oops element? a meet-oops. it was so entertaining honestly, and goldfish Oli was the perfect touch!

໑ Ho Ho Hopefully by safetyfilm / @larrieblr (T, 5k, strangers to lovers, christmas au, elf harry) very cute and lovely fic. perfect for Christmas but also when you’re in the mood to read a fluffy, magical story with a happy ending. also! i didn’t mention this under the fic but i didn’t read the tags and it didn’t click to me that Nicholas was Nick lol.

໑ Wanted: Dog Walker by YesIsAWorld / @louandhazaf (G, 6k, strangers to lovers, neighbours au, dog walker harry) very sweet! i love how Harry was with Clifford, and i enjoyed so much the developing of Louis and Harry’s relationship from employer/employee to friends to something more. their texts were so lovely.

໑ Unleashing Adoration by hazzahtomlinson / @itsnotreal (E, 6k, strangers to lovers, dog sitter harry, filthy rich louis) this was so cute! Clifford being enamoured with Harry was so relatable. and i loved all the domesticity than came with Harry being at home regularly.

໑ Under The Paris Sky by BoosBabycakes / @boosbabycakes28 (NR, 7k, strangers to lovers, fashion influencer louis, photographer harry, paris) this was a lovely meet-cute! i love them bumping into each other, and what a better place than Paris.

໑ Behind closed doors by bluegreenish / @greenblueish (E, 10k, friends to lovers, a/b/o university au, omega louis, alpha harry) this was so entertaining and fun, couldn’t put it down. i even made my own theory as to what had happened and the moment it was debunked, i grew more interested!

໑ Midnight by kingsofeverything / @kingsofeverything (E, 10k, friends to lovers, a/b/o au, new year’s) loved this so much! the story takes place in less than 24 hours but there’s so many details about it, the scents, the clothes, the emotions.

໑ No Easy Love (Could Make Me Feel This Way) by allwaswell16 / @allwaswell16 (E, 17.7k, exes to lovers, a/b/o au, childhood sweethearts, midwest) so if you’re lonely in Chicago you could call me maybe… hdkdhdjd i couldn’t stop thinking abt that during the air conditioner scene. god, this story made me so sad bc they only wanted to love each other, but it has a happy ending so all fine!

໑ Days of Our Louis (series) by homosociallyyours / @homosociallyyours (T, 18k, includes a Liam/Zayn part) 𓂅 The World It Turns, No Matter What (NR, 1k, friends, coming out) 𓂅 These Days I Don't Even Know Myself (NR, 2k, friends, toxic relationship) 𓂅 Half of the Story (NR, 4k, established relationship, football coaching) 𓂅 I Believe It This Time (liam/zayn, NR, 6k, established relationship) 𓂅 All I Could Do Was Think About You (T, 3k, established relationship, marriage proposal)

໑ Here where you should be by lunarheslwt / @lunarheslwt (G, 19k, strangers to lovers, a/b/o au, christmas) this was so sweet, so comforting, so full of hope. it’s a perfect fic for Christmas time but if you’re in the mood to read about the goodness in people’s hearts, this one’s for you!

໑ a day at the game by jessicamcqueen (E, 20.8k, strangers to lovers, a/b/o au, kiss cam, baseball game, professor louis, lawyer harry) this was so lovely! from the moment Harry appeared at the baseball game, i knew Louis would be in trouble. i liked it how the both of them came from different circumstances but were still looking for the same thing.

໑ life will not always be by reliablyimperfect / @mmm_kat (E, 31.6k, established relationship, sequel, the conjuring au, kid fic, read tags and author’s note) oh my god, this fic. THIS FIC!!! author doesn’t have tumblr so she’s probably never gonna see this but i loved this! it’s obviously a dark fic but there’s so much domesticity that you forget about it for a minute and then BANG! anyway, please give it a read, it’s the sequel to another fic and both are worth reading!

໑ Set the Sky Alight, Oh Holy Night by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup (T, 33.8k, strangers to lovers, roommates au, advent fic) this was A RIDE! i feel bad for not reading this as it was posted because i bet it would’ve been a lot funnier than it already was. i should warn you that if things like mince or clowns scare you or make you uncomfortable, there are some mentions of them but they’re not part of anything major.

໑ My Other Half Was You by lululawrence / @lululawrence (NR, 35k, strangers to lovers, grief, dreams, yoga instructor harry, acrobat louis) i fell in love with the format of this fic. even the titles of the stories tell you the story, it was amazing making my own theories. as for the fic, it was painful at times but so comforting at others. i’m starting to love reading Lewis in fics lol.

໑ I Keep Looking For Magic by lululawrence / @lululawrence (NR, 36k, strangers to lovers, fake/pretend relationship, actor louis, advent fic) very lovely reading! there were very specific things that made the characters get closer and closer, and i think it’s in the small details that you can see the chemistry of two people. i especially loved how the author used christmas songs to name the chapters.

໑ now i think that i could love you back by maroonmoonlouis / @maroonmoonlouis (E, 42k, enemies to lovers, a/b/o royalty au, prince louis, prince harry) what an exciting story! the tension was palpable from the first moment. it was one of those fics that i kept screaming at the screen as if the characters were going to listen to me lol definitely check it out if you enjoy a fun rivalry between characters.

໑ Invisible String by BoosBabycakes / @boosbabycakes28 (E, 85k, strangers to lovers, a/b/o pack dynamics au, supernatural elements) this was spectacular. the world building was honestly amazing, especially bc it included a dialect. if you like pack aus and you enjoy supernatural elements, you’ll love this one!

— rare pairs / categories —

໑ Winds Blowing Westerly by LadyAJ_13 / @ladyaj-13 (niall/louis, G, 655, friends to lovers, canon compliant) definitely loved this one! it made me think of several scenarios that led them to that point. very cute!

໑ Home With You by foreverfanficaddict / @chaotic-bells (liam/zayn, G, 760, friends to lovers, fake/pretend relationship) very lovely and adorable! Liam was so cute not wanting to lie but being the one who first planned it lol.

໑ Damn it, Let Me Cuddle You! by LadyAJ_13 / @ladyaj-13 (niall/louis, T, 920, established relationship, cuddles) their banter was so fun to read, and it just make me want to cuddle both >:)

໑ Candles and Clocks by LadyAJ_13 / @ladyaj-13 (niall & louis, G, 1k, friendship, canon au) aww my heart felt a bit sad and then felt warm again. this was so soft and cute!

໑ Baking Spirits Bright by cherrylarry / @beelou (liam/harry, G, 2k, established relationship, christmas au, youtube video) i loved the concept of the fic, it was incredibly endearing. and very, very sweet (although spicy at some point and not for the right reasons lol). perfect word count as well!

໑ Odd Dogs by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup (niall/zayn, G, 3k, strangers to lovers, dog rescue, dog adoption) absolutely loved this one. all the characters were lovely and fun, especially June; she was perfect!

໑ sun and summer wind by thedeathchamber / @louehvolution (louis/oscar isaac, E, 4k, strangers to lovers, archaeologist oscar, journalist louis, guatemala) this was fantastic. the chemistry between the two of them was so deliciously written. i kept wanting more and more.

໑ house of stone, your ivy grows by edensrose / @holdingthornsandroses (louis/mads mikkelsen, E, 16k, strangers to lovers, a/b/o royalty au, queen louis, doctor mads) last month i said i’d like to read more abt this pairing without knowing this fic existed. i’m glad i found it bc it was so incredibly enchanting; all the secrecy, the tension, the betrayal…everything was told perfectly.

#28th appreciation #1dficvillage #hlficlibrary #hlcreators #ficsfor4am #tracksintheam #hljournal #*#*rec

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Excuse you very much, I love the Belgariad! So nostalgic.

#41 and #55 for the writing ask pls.

hey, I'm not saying the Belgariad's not fun! But it did ruin fantasy for me as a genre, lolol. Oh, look a Chosen One orphan on a farm who falls for the sassy magic princess? With a wise older mentor to boot? Like --

41. what is the weirdest story idea you’ve ever had.

oh man, I feel like either my definition of weird is completely broken or I'm really just not weird at all. Probably b. I guess as far as strange-for-fandom there's the idea I had where Bobby had been SAed by his deadbeat dad as a kid and had some wires crossed as a result, and now was doing his absolute best not to follow those same patterns with Dean. It's one of those fics that absolutely no one wants to read, lol. So weird on that front. Similarly a J2 fic where Jared had a heavily disabled kid and the stress made him get divorced from his wife, and he was now the 'deadbeat dad' and meets Jensen and they have a lot of sex about it but primarily it's about stress and grief. No one wants that either, haha. Why can't I have fun weird ideas like "and then tentacles fucked him in exciting and mysterious places"? That would be way easier.

55. do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?

oh... lots. I guess a common feature is being longer than traditional one-shot length -- like once something gets over 10k, I start to get really diffident and self-defeating about the amount of effort going in compared to perceived return. Like -- I'm stressing about this for an hour every night for three months and what's likely to happen is 200 people maybe clicking and maybe 20 of those people clicking the heart button and one person going "loved this!", haha. (I know you're supposed to "write for yourself" but if anyone actually did that they'd keep it in private diaries. Let's be real here.) I also get VERY mired down when there needs to be a legit Plot. The plot should always just be "and how did they fall in love? oh look they did! aaah big kissies time muah muah the end." Once you have to build in intrigue -- ech. I am not John Grisham, let's put it that way. ...Like in a number of ways I am not John Grisham.

#the belgariad might as well be star wars i'm realizing #they're all the same ;-;#although i also just remembered the sparhawk books... i wonder if those hold up #anyway ty ty <3 you are Sweet and Lovely #i have graduated to day drinking and i think this is a great choice #right? surely #answers #ask meme #writing meme

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jake-whatthefisgoingon-kiszka · 6 months

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Well I got a little carried away again… part 10! There’s so many moving parts to this now, but hopefully everything will be coming to a tipping point again soon. Here’s part 1 of you need some reminders of what’s happened so far.

Pairings: Sam Kiszka x Danny Wagner, Jake Kiszka x fem OC ***more Christmas slash

Warnings and tags: absolutely no minors!! 18+ only please!!, m/m sex, oral (m rec), hand jobs, smoking and drinking, brief talk about deceased loved ones, slash of course, slight jealousy, third person POV Sam, Jake, Danny, and Kim, restaurant AU, if I missed anything please let me know

Word count: 10k

“Coffee?” An angelic voice broke through Kim’s crippling headache. She peaked her eyes open to see Jake offering a paper cup filled with the piping hot liquid gold.

“Thanks” she groaned, but carefully took the cup in her hands and settled back into the corner of the couch she had found herself sunken into ever since Jake picked her up from her apartment at the crack of dawn and brought her back to his. “You sure your brothers don’t mind me coming along?”

Jake scratched the back of his head as he searched through his small weekend bag, making sure he had all the essentials, toiletries, extra underwear, phone charger. Even if he did manage to forget something, he was sure his mom had stocked up on everything in anticipation for their arrival.

Truthfully Jake hadn’t really thought through what it meant inviting Kim along with him, Sam, and Danny on their trip back home for Christmas when he’d made her the offer. He’d had quite a lot to drink last night, same as Kim who was now currently fighting for her life through a hangover, and he might have gotten a little caught up in the moment after the display of affection he’d put on.

“Well Sam did have some reservations at first” he thought back to the heated conversation they’d had last night.

“You’re a real hypocrite, you know that Jake? Gave me so much shit about Savanna and now here you are inviting the chick you’ve been banging for less than a month to our family Christmas!” Sam unleashed on Jake right in the middle of the dance floor as soon as Jake broke the news.

“That chick is Kim. She’s a friend to all of us. Don’t act like she’s just some random person” Jake spat back, unsure why Sam was so on guard and defensive all of a sudden.

“Yeah” Sam scoffed and rolled his eyes, “and we all know how you treat your friends”. Jake’s eyes flashed to Danny who had followed Sam over, but just stood back while he and Jake hashed it out. Danny was uncharacteristically quiet, distant, and distracted. Jake couldn’t put his finger on it, but he was more used to seeing Danny stepping between them before they could all but break out into a fist fight like they would when they were kids versus whatever this act was.

“What the fuck is your problem right now?” Jake turned his attention back to Sam since Danny was being no use. “We’re taking my car to Michigan tomorrow. I wasn’t asking your permission to invite her; I was telling you she’s coming”.

“Right, cause we all have to act and feel the way you think we should all the time! We’re all just pawns in Jake’s little world. Fucking hypocrite and a narcissist”.

“Sam…” Danny finally piped up, though still very mello and hollow with his tone. Sam was taking his frustration out on Jake, and he knew it wasn’t just about inviting Kim.

Danny hadn’t said anything to either of them about what Kim had told him. That she had seen Sam and Savanna kissing while everyone was opening their secret Santa gifts. He had once tried to imagine how he would react if Sam and Savanna hadn’t gotten over each other, but he stopped himself before he could get too far thinking he was just being over anxious. Now that he knew his fears were true though nothing could have prepared him for how he really felt. His entire world inverted in on itself and he was trapped inside his own head while everything else slowed and blurred around him.

“Jesus Danny, you need to do something with him before he fucks up”. Jake gave his last input and stormed off leaving Sam still fuming and Danny there to heartlessly calm him.

Yeah, he did need to do something because Sam had already fucked up. For some reason though Danny didn’t feel anger like the other two did. He felt like an idiot. He felt like he should have seen this coming and that he didn’t blame Sam for slipping up, as pathetic as that sounded. He loved Sam and he resolved himself to believe that this didn’t have to ruin everything.

“He will get over it though, he just had his head in his ass for whatever reason last night”. Jake shrugged it off. He’d had plenty of fights with his brothers over the years that he’d learned to not take anything to heart that Sam especially said when riled up.

Kim shrunk down further into the couch as she tried to sip on the coffee and wake up a little. A lot had happened last night. Jake being her secret Santa and the sweet gift he gave her made her lips pull into a smile at the memory of it. Then there was what she had seen and accidentally ratted on. She thought about the past few breakfast dates she’d had with Danny where she mused on and on about being with Jake, and not once did Danny ever mention that he was in turn dating Sam, her friend's ex.

She wondered if that was the argument she had seen, though it seemed weird that Sam and Jake would be the ones fighting instead of Danny. Regardless, she hoped they were able to reconcile last night before they all got stuck in a car together for the next nine hours. Not to mention, their childhood home for the weekend.

Jake’s phone buzzed on the table in front of the couch and he leaned over to place a reassuring kiss on her forehead before checking the notification. “Alright, they said they’re ready. Let’s go”.

Danny slid into the backseat next to Kim with a merciful smile as he took in the state of her. She was bundled in the buggiest fluffiest sweater she could find in her closet this morning. A pair of what was obviously Jake’s dark sunglasses perched on her nose, hiding red baggy eyes.

“Party a little too hard last night?” He chuckled as he got situated, buckling up and angling his knees towards her so he wasn’t so scrunched up.

“I’m hanging in there” she gave him a faux excited thumbs up but jumped at the sound of Sam hopping into the passenger seat and slamming the door shut.

“Oh, my bad” Sam gave Kim a hardly convincing apology when Jake shot him a dirty look. “So, passenger gets control of the radio right?”

“Sure, just don’t play anything too loud for now. It’s still early” Jake replied as he waited for Sam to connect his phone to the Bluetooth before he started to back up and officially hit the road.

“Come on! It isn’t a Kiszka road trip without a little jam session. Isn’t that right Danny?” Sam looked through the rear view mirror, he and Danny making eye contact for a brief moment before Danny looked away. Kim watched as his chest rose and fell in a silent sigh.

Kim set her nearly empty coffee cup into the cup holder on the back of the console between her and Danny and sat back, leaning her head against the window and letting the vibrations of the tires against the rocky asphalt lull her to sleep.

Kim woke up to her head bouncing again over a patch of bumpy highway. Only this time instead of leaning against the cold hard glass she was resting on a shoulder. She’d expected it to be Danny’s shoulder she was snuggled against, he was the one who had been sitting in the back seat with her at the start of the trip.

When she opened her eyes she saw Danny instead sitting behind the steering wheel. One hand was focused on driving, and the other was laying against the console where he had his elbow propped, his fingers laced together with Sam’s still sitting in the passenger's seat. Looked like they were out in the open now as well.

With Sam and Danny in the front, that only left one other option for who she was now sitting with. “Feeling any better?” Jake whispered, his fingers gently brushing a lock of hair off her forehead and tucking it behind her ear.

“How long was I asleep?” Kim asked, sitting up and trying to take in the unfocused landscape flashing by outside the car to attempt to discern where they were.

“Three hours” Jake replied.

Kim rubbed her sore eyes. Sometime in her sleep, maybe during the stop when the seats were switched, Jake had stolen back his sunglasses.

“Are you hungry? We can stop again and get some lunch”. Kim nodded her head and everyone collectively agreed to pull over in the next town somewhere between the border of Kentucky and Ohio.

After food and more fuel they all piled back into the car. Jake stayed in the back with Kim and this time it was Sam’s turn to drive.

The next five hours went by pretty smooth, and Kim was surprised that Sam was able to finish out the drive with only one more quick stop. She was thankful that she was fast asleep for the first good bit of it, because by the time they finally breached Michigan territory the three boys were jumping in their seats with excitement and dying to get out of the car.

She was glad she was awake for this last part though. When they arrived in Frankenmuth she stared out the window with wide delighted eyes. Jake had told her about the place he grew up in, and she’d googled it to get an idea of the picture he was painting from his memories because she never thought she’d actually have a chance to visit herself. Yet here she was, and it was exactly like she’d seen in the pictures, a real magical place.

“We’re dropping Danny off at home first” Jake leaned over and informed Kim once the car started to slow to a roll through normal looking neighborhoods compared to the intricate Bavarian designed buildings of the town itself. Eventually they parked in front of a house right in the middle of the block. “I’m going to take over up front”. Jake hopped out of the car and helped Danny get his bags out of the trunk.

Sam got out too, walking around to the other side of the car to give Danny a hug before they parted ways for the evening.

“Tell Lori I said hi” Sam requested when Danny squeezed back into the backseat to grab a few things he’d left in the seat back pocket.

“I will” Danny replied, haphazardly stuffing his things into the front pocket of his bag, clearly eager to get inside and see his family again.

“Lori? Is that your mom?” Kim was suddenly reminded that she was an outsider here. That they all grew up together in this funny little town and all knew each other's families inside and out.

“Yeah” Danny looked up at her with a fond smile “when we come over tomorrow, I want you to meet her, and my Dad, and my sister”.

Kim smiled big in return. This was going to be so different for her, spending the weekend with not only one, but two functional families that all loved and cherished each other. It made her heart ache for her family that didn’t see her as a valued enough member to ever stop and include her in holidays or celebrations.

“Have fun at the Kiszka household! If you need me to come save you just text” Danny waved bye one last time and started his walk up to his house.

Once he’d disappeared safe inside Jake backed out of the driveway and they made the short drive over a few blocks to their destination. Their neighborhood was similar to Danny’s, though their house was near the end of the block. It was a two story house, though nothing extravagant, definitely a home for a big family with a wide yard and a detached garage at the end of a long driveway.

“You guys go ahead inside I’ll start carrying in the bags” Jake offered as they pulled in. Kim wanted to say that she could help, but as soon as the car parked Sam threw the door open and jumped out. She figured it would be best to follow him and let Jake do his thing.

“Mom!” Sam hollered into the open home the second he stepped through the front door.

“Is that another one of my babies?” A sweet and warm voice called back from somewhere inside.

“Only your favorite!” Sam replied, following the direction of the voice, Kim trailing behind. “Did Josh beat us?”

“You bet I did!” Sam’s oldest brother jumped out and attacked him with a hug and a rough ruffle of his hair. Sam returned the favor by wrapping Josh’s head in a lock until he was tapping his side to surrender, repeating “not my hair!”.

“There you are darling!” Their mom rounded the corner to find two of her boys already roughing each other up. “Hey you know the rules, if you’re going to fight do it outside”.

“Later?” Sam let Josh go and he agreed “later” both backing down so that Sam could give his mom a hug next.

“Where’s Jakey?” She questioned, knowing that he and Sam drove together.

“Oh he’s getting the stuff, he’ll be in any second now” Sam replied, throwing his arm against the banister of the staircase and leaning back.

She shook her head and turned around, suddenly noticing there was an unfamiliar face in her home. “Oh, you must be Savanna!” She smiled and held her arms out in a welcoming hug.

“Umm, no” Kim awkwardly glanced between Sam and Josh for help in correcting their mom who both just shrugged and started their own little conversation. “I’m Kim” she meekly introduced herself.

She looked over at Sam in confusion who didn’t seem bothered enough to clear anything up. “I’m sorry sweetie. You came in with Sam so I just assumed”.

“Actually mom” Jake stepped in to join everyone, setting down all the bags at the foot of the staircase “Kim is with me”.

“Well isn’t that lovely” she smiled and reached her arms out again, offering another hug to which Kim accepted before quickly pulling back to let Jake get his turn.

“I had no idea you were bringing anyone Jake, you should have told me!” She smiled as he spoke and squeezed her arms around her last son indicating that she didn’t mind at all.

“Thanks for having me Mrs. Kiszka” Kim tried to be as polite as possible hoping to ease her own embarrassment.

“Mrs. Kiszka! Oh my I haven’t been called that in a long time. Please, call me Karen, or mom”.

Kim smiled and nodded and Jake moved to her side, taking her hand in his own.

“Kim and I have been dating for a little while, she didn’t have anywhere to go for Christmas so I invited her to come along”.

“The more the merrier!” Karen gleamed, “come on, I’ll show you around while the boys get settled”.

After a tour, and a speed round of questioning about how Kim and Jake had met, how long they’d been dating (which really did only sound like a short amount of time when said out loud) they all settled into the living room just as the sun was starting to go down.

“You all must be starving, I didn’t cook anything because I didn’t know what time you’d all be getting in, but we have plenty of leftovers from closing the restaurant this morning”.

“It’s fine mom, you will be cooking all day tomorrow we can handle ourselves tonight” Jake replied.

“Well let me go warm some things up at least” she stood up and left for the kitchen, Josh knocking Sam on the shoulder as soon as she was out of range.

“Go help her!” Josh ordered to which Sam rolled his eyes but got up anyways and followed.

“So Kim, it’s good to see you again, and with my brother nonetheless” Josh turned his attention to her who sat alone in a chair, still trying to quietly take in all her surroundings.

“Yeah, I’m glad you remember me, I wasn’t sure if you would”. She replied, speaking about the time she had met him at his going away party.

“Of course I remember you” he flashed a toothy smile and chuckled, “I also remember us having a pretty intense conversation about philosophy while high off our asses that night”.

Jake butt in leaning over the armrest of the couch to whisper over to Kim, “You didn’t tell me you smoked? I have a surprise for you later then”.

Hopefully Jake was insinuating they could have a little smoke sesh later, because that would certainly relieve some of the tension she felt.

Everyone was extremely nice and welcoming. Even their Dad whom she spoke to for a moment during the tour with their mom, but still she couldn’t shake the feeling that she was a little out of place.

Once Sam and Karen had set the table Kim took a seat next to Jake who began a long conversation with his dad about all the new dishes they had started at the restaurant since the last time they talked.

“Jake’s always been just like his father” Karen leaned over and spoke to Kim who was enjoying just sitting back and listening.

“I can see that” she replied, smiling over at Jake who was now arguing with Josh over the benefits of organic versus locally grown. “He’s a really great guy, you raised him right. All of them”.

Kim really was thankful for the opportunity to meet such great encouraging parents. Karen actually reminded her of her mom a little bit in the way she always smiled and called everyone sweetheart, darling, my baby. That was making it easier to get comfortable interacting with them.

It was a breath of fresh air compared to the couple of intense and uptight dinners she’d had with Courtney and Paul who only ever wanted to talk about politics or which investments he was making and why. Only one person talked at a time at their table, usually Paul who demanded attention more than gave it. The Kiszkas weren’t like that, the sound of laughter and multiple different conversations happening simultaneously filled the dining room and made sharing a meal together feel less like a chore and more like an opportunity to enjoy each other's company.

“Come with me, I want to show you our hang out spot” Jake whispered into Kim’s ear, wrapping his arms around her waist and placing a kiss behind her ear. She relaxed into his touch, they were alone in the kitchen right now, and she breathed a sigh of relief at his touch.

“I was going to help your mom with the dishes” Kim replied, leaning back against his chest, completely giving up on the glass she was drying with a towel she’d found hanging on the oven.

“That’s Sam’s job” Jake turned her around, examining her expression for a moment. “You hanging in there? You’ve been quiet”.

“Yeah, I’m fine” she knew that was probably the worst response she could give him, but she didn’t really want to get into all the feelings she was having right now.

“Well let’s go, maybe this will make you feel better”.

She knew exactly what that meant, and when she followed Jake out the back door and through the yard to the garage they found Josh already waiting inside, meeting them with the familiar smell of a freshly lit joint.

“So this is where all the cool kids go?” Kim gladly took the piece from Josh, and plopped down onto the old raggedy couch next to him taking one long hit before passing it to Jake who pulled out a folding chair and propped it up in front of them.

“Yep, this was the spot back in the day” Josh replied, kicking his feet up on a crate, already having had a few puffs alone. “Jake and I used to stuff a tarp under the garage door and hot box this whole thing. You remember that?”

Jake laughed, taking a few hits then passing it along. “We thought we were being sneaky but mom knew the whole time. Told us as long as we didn’t light the place of fire and didn’t let our grades drop then she’d keep pretending she didn’t know”.

“I used to smoke with my mom” Kim started on a story of her own. Everything about the evening reminded her more and more of the last few months they shared together in their small two bedroom rental house at the edge of Nashville. “When she got diagnosed, it was already stage four, she tried chemo for a while but it wasn’t working so she stopped after just a little while. Shortly after that she started smoking to control the pain”.

“Damn” Josh exhaled, Kim quickly realizing that he didn’t know that about her.

“Sorry if that sounds like I’m being a downer, but I’m actually really happy every time I think about her”.

Josh pat her knee and shook his head, “no you’re alright, you want to tell us more about her?”

She looked over at Jake, making sure she really wasn’t ruining the mood, who smiled and sat back in the chair making himself comfy.

They shared one more joint between the three of them, all getting sufficiently high as Kim recounted stories of Christmases and new years, birthdays and even just any old day, living alone with her mom. Needing no one else, just the company of one another.

Jake and Josh shared stories of their own in between, even some about Sam and Danny joining them in the garage, or past flings whom they’d shared their first kiss with on this very couch.

After it started to get a little too cold, the garage door not doing much to keep out the frozen Michigan air, they headed back inside and regathered with everyone in the living room.

Kim curled up on the couch this time next to Jake, Josh taking the chair instead, their mom and Dad sharing the loveseat and Sam must have already headed upstairs to his room.

“I think she’s about ready for bed honey” Kim barely heard Karen mention to Jake. Her eyes were heavy and unfocused as she leaned her head against Jake’s shoulder and stared ahead at whatever they were watching on the TV. “I’ll go get some extra pillows”.

Jake helped Kim up, taking the stack of mismatched sheets and blankets that had already been set out. “I hope you don’t mind, but you will have to sleep on the pull out in the basement”.

“That’s alright, I know I was a last minute addition”.

“Don’t be silly, we’re so glad you’re here, but if you guys have a September baby then I’ll at least know it wasn’t at my house”.

“Mom!” Josh groaned, oddly enough being the one freaked out about the comment while Jake just blushed and smiled as he took the pillows from her and showed Kim the way.

The descended the carpeted stairs which took a turn at a 90 degree angle about halfway, revealing a fully finished room which looked like it had t been touched since the early 2000s.

Jake went to work on the couch, pulling out the bed and fixing the sheets onto the thin mattress as Kim walked around and took in all the pictures hanging on the walls.

“Is this you?” She asked, pointing to the first baby picture she saw.

“No, that’s Josh” he chuckled, gently grabbing her shoulders and guiding her a few paces to the left. “That’s me” he pointed at another picture. A little boy no more than two or three holding a toy guitar with a huge smile on his face.

“You were cute” she giggled, staring at the picture with a tired grin.

“I still am” he teased and pulled her away, guiding her now to the set up bed. “I’ll see you in the morning. Sleep well because tomorrow will be a lot”.

A lot it was. From the moment they all came stumbling out of their rooms, wiping the sleep from their eyes drawn to the kitchen with the smell of breakfast already filling the entire house, it was game time. After breakfast they each took a shower and got to work preparing for the party Kim learned that the Kiszkas hosted every year.

Jake helped in the kitchen, Josh decorated just like a professional, and Sam was the errand runner picking up last minute ingredients from the store. Kim helped anywhere she could, mostly trying to not be in the way of their systematic way of working together.

The Wagners arrived at the party first, followed by a few other friends of the family, each of them so thrilled to be seeing all the boys home again.

“Here, this will take the edge off” Danny snuck up behind Kim who was leaning on the door frame just outside the living room that was filled with unknown people. He handed her a wine glass and placed his hand against the small of her back, guiding her away from the busy room and over to a quieter area.

“You guys do this every year?” she sighed nervously, taking a sip of her wine glass wishing it was a cup of one of the stronger cocktails she’d seen Josh mixing up earlier.

“Usually they have the party at the restaurant but I heard they’re doing a few renovations next week so they’re hosting everyone here instead. It is kind of a lot of people for one house” he agreed, drinking on his own glass of sparkling white.

Truthfully he wasn’t in the mood for a party today. Danny enjoyed his time at home yesterday. He always missed his family terribly when he was away for a long time. He hadn’t had the chance to talk to Sam yet, but his Dad had pointedly given him a few ideas for jobs after graduation that involved him moving closer. Graduation was just around the corner, and he was anxious that neither of them had talked about what their plans for the future were.

Sam had actually been on his mind a lot since arriving home. Danny had hoped that he would have enough distraction to not think about what had happened at the Christmas party in Nashville, but he found that the turmoil in his mind was too strong.

Now being in this house again, surrounded by Sam’s family and friends, his things, the memories of their past, it was all coming to a sharp point pounding against his forehead. He needed to do something to stop the pain, and soon.

“Hey, there you are” Danny heard Jake’s voice from behind him. He turned around to greet him, but quickly realized Jake wasn’t talking to him, but to Kim.

“Talk later?” Kim asked Danny before taking Jake’s hand and letting him pull her off to some other part of the house, leaving Danny alone.

He slipped unnoticed in and out of the kitchen, trading his wine glass for a green plastic cup full of what he’d heard Josh call his secret Christmas punch.

The liquor was helping clear his head, one cup having been enough to get a buzz going as he walked around the house and took in all the familiar furniture and frames.

“Miss it yet?” He heard another familiar voice speak up as he stood in the hallway waiting to use the guest bathroom.

“Miss what?” Danny asked his sister who leaned against the wall across from him, taking a break from socializing for a moment to check in on her big brother.

“Being here” She motioned around to the house they were in, Danny’s second home away from home for the majority of his life.

She had known something was up with him last night, and after they had dinner she had done a good job at wringing the truth out of him.

He confessed to her that he and Sam had been dating for a couple of months, but that he was afraid Sam wasn’t over his ex.

“Sam broke up with her for you right?” She’d asked, trying to get all the details in place before she offered her words of advice.

“Yeah, but kind of told him to”.

“No, you gave him an ultimatum. Her or you. He chose you. Sam has always been there for you whether you see it that way or not. I know you think you are the dependent one in the equation, but I think it’s really the other way around. If Sam did something to weaken your trust in him then I don’t think he did it on purpose”.

Danny had been thinking about what she’d said last night all day. He didn’t do it on purpose. He believed his sister's intuition, even though he knew it was maybe a little stupid and naive of him.

“I think you should go find him and just talk to him ok?” She suggested, kicking his boot with the pointed toe of her heel before leaving him be.

She was right and he knew it, he wouldn’t be able to go on much longer sulking like this before other people started to pick up on it too. Only he had another idea in mind that after getting Sam alone wouldn’t involve much talking.

Sam had been stealing bites from the kitchen periodically throughout the day, so by the time the party started he wasn’t even hungry. That left room for him to drink while he mingled around the house with all the people he hadn’t seen in at least a year.

By the time he saw Danny making his way through the crowded living room he was already feeling pretty drunk off of Josh’s popular cocktails.

“Where have you been all night?” Sam tried to ask nonchalantly when Danny finally stood beside him. He wasn’t sure why, but he’d had the suspicion that Danny had been avoiding him since he arrived.

“Around” Danny replied, taking Sam’s halfway finished drink from his hand and setting it on a random nearby surface. “Do you want to get out of here for a bit?”

“Are you not having fun?” Sam pouted, obviously not picking up on the insinuation of getting out of here.

“No I am” he lied, “but I could use a little fresh air, go for a drive. You won’t believe it but my parents got me a car for Christmas”.

“A car! I want to see it!” Sam exclaimed excitedly, drawing some attention with his raised voice.

Danny shushed him and grabbed his hand, pulling him towards the closet that held their coats. “It’s parked outside, let’s go I’ll give you a ride”.

“Where are we going?” Sam giggled loudly while Danny continued to try and hush him as they made their way out the door.

“For a drive, you said you wanted to see the car”. Danny replied, clapping his hands on Sam’s shoulders and pushing him along.

“You do not want me driving right now” Sam joked as he was marched down the sidewalk leading from the Kiszka’s porch to the end of the driveway where the sleek black car was parked last. He let out a whistle when he saw it and Danny wedged his elbow into his side to shut him up.

“Are you trying to let the whole neighborhood know what we’re up to?” Danny was speaking in a hushed tone, like any of the neighbors were going to leave the warmth of their colorfully decorated homes to come outside.

“You sound like we’re up to no good. Thought we were just going for a drive Daniel?” Sam wiggled his eyebrows but finally obediently got into the car. How in the hell did he know? That Danny was indeed up to no good.

Danny got into the driver's seat and backed out of Sam’s driveway, letting the small drive ahead give him the courage and control he needed to follow through with his plan.

Sam stared out the window, starry eyed at all the glittering lights hanging from the rows of houses on the streets they grew up on. Danny stole glances in his direction every chance he got. He beat himself up over how much he’d let himself be negatively affected when he knew he should really be spending his time cutting loose and having fun with family just like Sam was.

Sam looked over at Danny when he started to recognize the next street Danny turned down. “Why are we going to your house?”

“No reason” he tried keeping up his calm indifference, but the ruse was slowly fading as he actually started to grow excited. “Just want to show you a few things”.

Danny pulled the single key from the ignition and stuffed it into his front pocket, making a mental note to attach it to his keyring before he lost it. Sam had already flung the door open and threw his legs over the side so Danny hurried over to offer his hand, which Sam just cocked an eyebrow and took with a roll of his eyes. Danny closed the door behind him and they held hands as they walked up to the front door.

“Okay, wait right here for a second” Danny stopped before unlocking the door, positioning Sam to stand across from him on his porch.

He took a step back, not even worrying about checking to make sure the street was empty, just looking over at Sam who was standing there with a confused grin, staring back at him with glazy doe eyes.

He took in Sam’s entire figure, from his messy lopsided bun that he’d thrown up at some point during the party, to the way his facial hair had grown longer in the past few days since he’d been too swept up with everything to care about trimming.

Around his neck was the scarf his mom got him last year, he hardly took it off once the weather turned cold enough. He was wearing an old corduroy jacket over his sweatshirt, probably something he’d found at that flea market when he’d gone back to see the lady they’d bought their rug from.

That was just one of the special things about Sam. He cared so much about any and every little thing that even the most uninfluential or unexpected people he met became another thread in the weft of his ever-loving personality.

“Can I?” Danny asked, bringing his cold numb fingers up to the thick elastic in Sam’s hair and carefully pulling the long chestnut locks free to fall around his shoulders.

“Hey” Sam welcomed Danny with a smile when he stepped closer, letting one of his hands linger on the back of Sam’s neck cradling his head.

“Hey” Danny smiled back, chuckling a little at the way Sam ran a hand up his chest and started to play with a twist of Danny’s hair in return.

“Can I?” Danny asked again, looking down at his lips to insinuate the reference to his question this time.

“Stop asking so nicely and just kiss me already” Sam’s hand shot up to pull him down, but Danny reached around with his free hand and wrapped it around Sam’s, bringing it back down between their chests.

Danny eased into the kiss, hardly grazing his lips over Sam’s, nudging his nose against his cheek with each gentle pass until Sam was shuddering underneath him. Sam inhaled a shaky breath and before he could exhale Danny’s lips were attacking his. Danny took command of Sam’s bottom lip, slotting it between his own as he continued to cradle the back of his head in one hand and Sam’s hand in the other.

When Danny pulled back he was suddenly transported in time. He opened his eyes and the Sam that he was holding onto wasn’t the Sam he’d been so upset with up until now. In his place was his younger self, with his smooth baby face and chin length hair, oddly straighter than when it was long but choppy after the fresh cut.

His eyes were the size of saucers, the creamy whites as crystal clear as milk glass.

This was the Sam Danny had fallen in love with. Created a whole fantasy in his mind of what it would be like to be lovers like they were now.

His vision blurred and he closed his eyes again, fighting back a few tears as Sam freed his hand from Danny’s grip to cup his face.

“I wanted to kiss you right here” Danny began, keeping his eyes screwed shut so he could revel in the image his mind had tricked him into seeing for just a bit longer. “When I told you I was going to Nashville with you”.

“Really?” Sam responded, now picturing it in his mind as well. It was the week before Christmas then. He’d made his routine walk through the snow to Danny’s house who was outside checking the mail when he arrived. They walked together to the door when Danny stopped in his tracks and opened a letter. He’d been accepted into the same university as Sam, and although they hadn’t talked about moving together yet, Sam was so excited to hear that Danny had even applied and better yet gotten in.

Sam had no idea about his feelings at the time, and Danny had just been coming to grips with it himself.

When Danny opened his eyes again Sam was back to normal. Gone was the image of the boy he once was, and gone was the grief Danny had been holding onto along with it. He let go of Sam and turned to unlock the front door, holding it open for Sam to take the first step.

Once inside they shed their outermost layers, leaving Danny in a sweater and Sam in his sweatshirt.

“So what else did you want to show me?” Sam stood awkwardly at the door, like he’d never been in the Wagner house before. His eyes flicked around the house, remembering how warm and inviting it had always felt. The house wasn’t cluttered like his was with three boys all living under one roof, but it was still filled with years of love and use.

“Come on, in here” Danny waved Sam on to follow him through the front of the house and into the cozy living room. The remnants of a fire from the night before still sat in the fireplace, leaving behind a slightly smoky, almost cottagey smell.

He took a seat on his couch, patting the spot next to him for Sam to join him. “Remember that first year Jake and Josh couldn’t make it back up for the holidays, so you spent nearly the whole week here?”

Sam nodded as he took a seat himself. A little far at first but then scooting over until their thighs were flush against each other.

Danny reached behind himself and pulled out a quilt, the same one that sat in his family’s living room over the years, ready for anyone’s use. He didn’t unfold the blanket, just set it in Sam’s lap, letting him feel the fabric and remember the time he was referring to. “Yeah, we watched movies every night in here until I’d fall asleep and your mom would offer for me to stay the night”.

“I’d tell myself every time that I wouldn’t let you fall asleep. That once you started looking tired I’d stop the movie so you could get home. Then each and every time I’d see you relaxing underneath that quilt and I wouldn’t say a thing, because I wanted you to stay”.

“I wanted to stay too” Sam admit. Though maybe it hadn’t been for the same reasons then, he wanted to be sleepily drug off by Danny to his room. His childhood bed had never been quite big enough to fit the both of them, especially not when they grew into themselves, but Danny never once complained about sharing.

“I wanted to kiss you here too. Every night when you fell asleep I’d watch you and try to keep myself from imagining if you’d wake up if I tried”. Danny leaned over and gave Sam another kiss, this time letting his tongue glide along the crease of Sam’s lips until they parted and let him inside.

Sam sighed into Danny’s mouth, the quilt falling to the ground as he moved to sit on the edge of the couch, wrapping his arms around Danny’s shoulders and squeezing.

Danny grabbed Sam’s hips and lifted as they stood up together, never breaking the kiss. He backed Sam out of the living room and down the hallway towards his bedroom. Sam’s feet remembered where they were going after all the years of making the same trek without him having to even think about it.

His back was being pushed up against the door while Danny fumbled with finding the doorknob.

Sam took the momentary halt to claw at Danny’s back, digging his fingertips into the plush of Danny’s knit sweater and pulling it up and over his head.

Danny managed to get the door open and reconnected their lips as soon as his sweater was discarded onto the floor.

They found the bed quickly, Sam bringing Danny down on top of him as he fell back onto the old worn in mattress. “Did you want to kiss me in here too?” He teased, making a little joke out of the sentimental story Danny had been trying to tell. He appreciated the extent of love Danny had held for him for so long, but it was also a little overwhelming at the same time. So like usual he used his humor to mask his nerves.

Danny’s form loomed over him as he smirked and shook his head. “I wanted to do a lot more than just kiss you in here”.

Sam took a steadying breath, his blood was pumping quickly, still feeling warm with alcohol, or maybe the warmth was coming from Danny who had his entire body laid out flush against his.

Without another word Danny snaked his hands between their bodies and lifted the hem of Sam’s shirt. The cold air in the still room hit his stomach, making him squirm as Danny lifted it the rest of the way over his head and down his arms until it was falling to the floor.

“Let me know if you want to stop, okay?” Danny’s voice was hushed now, putting the point in just how far he was willing to go by grinding his hips down against Sam’s.

“No!” Sam’s hands frantically flew down to grip Danny’s hip, guiding him to put more pressure again which elicited a small breathy moan from above. “No, I don’t want to stop” he repeated again with a little more reserve and control.

Sam was surprised with how narrow and delicate Danny’s waist was in his hands. He was used to being the bigger person in his relationships. Though he was skinny and lanky most of his life, his limbs grew like a tree from the moment he hit puberty, quickly surpassing his older brothers. He always had his broad shoulders, large hands, and long strong legs, at least compared to a woman’s physique.

With Danny though he was matched. His hands traced up Danny’s arms, twisted around dense bones were thick ropes of muscle, only visible when he flexed like he did now holding himself up. His hands continued their exploration, arms connected to vast wide chest, smooth along the edges then decorated with coarse patches of hair as you reached the center and trailed lower… When his fingers met the front of Danny’s pants he paused, remembering the last time he’d tried to undo his pants in a hurry only to be stopped before he could get very far.

Danny didn’t move to ease him this time though, just watched with slightly hooded eyes as Sam’s deft fingers popped the button open and pulled the zipper down exposing the large bulge in his boxers. His breathing quickened as the feeling of panic started to spread and consume him again. He knew Danny was well endowed, Sam was pretty gifted in that department as well, but what was the dynamic here? Like he said, he was used to being the bigger person, the lead, but with Danny, and especially in the position he was currently in pinned to the bed on his back, he felt like he didn’t have any control.

“Can I be on top for a bit?” Sam spoke, his voice sounding loud and out of place.

Danny smiled fondly and flopped down onto his bed next to Sam, waiting patiently for his counterpart to sit up and roll over on top of him. What was it with Kiszka’s and always wanting to have the upper hand in the bedroom?

Sam flipped up and onto his knees, sitting at Danny’s side as he took the opportunity to look him over, matching what his hands had felt just a moment ago to what he could see in the dark room.

He knew Danny’s skin was slightly tanned like his own, the result of all the time they spent outside walking to class or just trying to soak up as much nature as they could when they could.

With the only light being the moon hanging just outside Danny’s window, his skin actually glowed. His eyes were dark though, like raw jewels, muddy with longing desire as he stared at Sam watching to see what he would do next. His hair was dark as the shadows of the room, mixing into the faded navy of his blanket.

In slow testing movements, Sam reached over and started to tug at the waistband of Danny’s pants. He lifted his hips in response, helping Sam as he guided the pants down his thighs. Sam abandoned them once they fell loosely around his knees, but crawled down the the edge of the bed and gripped at the hems around his ankles instead, pulling until Danny’s pants came sliding clean off.

“Take yours off too” Danny requested, propping up a leg to try and hide the fact that he was palming himself over his boxers.

Sam stood up off the bed and undid his pants too, easily dropping him down to his feet where he stepped out of them before rejoining Danny on the bed.

Danny sat up quickly, meeting Sam midair and clashing their lips together. His fingers tangled in Sam’s hair, leaning back to ease them down into a lying position again. Sam fumbled, trying to watch where his knee fell for fear it might land somewhere sensitive, but Danny only chuckled into the kiss, finding Sam’s clumsiness endearing and cute.

“Don’t laugh at me, I’ve never done this before” Sam pouted, ending up with one leg between Danny’s, their hips asymmetrical to each other.

Danny reached up and tucked a lock of Sam’s hair that he’d tousled behind his ear. He was kind of glad that they weren’t doing this for the first time without either of them having any experience, otherwise it might’ve proved to be an awkward and exhausting ordeal.

“Don’t act like you’ve never had sex before Sam” Danny teased, letting his hand wander down his back and around his side, it was his turn to explore Sam’s body.

So this is what we’re doing. We’re having sex. Sam finally got the answer to his question from when they pulled into the driveway. Danny brought him here to have sex together for the first time.

Sam experimentally rut, his hardening length sliding from behind his tight underwear into the groove between Danny’s hip and pelvis.

Danny groaned his approval, lifting his knee again causing Sam to fall further into him. He let Sam hump him for a bit. Although he wasn’t getting much friction of his own from this position, he was enjoying the choked whimpering sounds coming from Sam and the way they turned him on even more.

“Tell me what you want Sam, I want to give it to you”. Danny knew what he wanted. To bend Sam over this tiny bed and give it to him. He knew that would be too much for Sam right now though, so instead he resolved himself to letting Sam make all the decisions this time.

Sam slowed his movements, thinking about Danny’s offer for a moment before he got the right idea in mind. “Do you want to, I mean, would you give me head again?”

Danny smiled and pulled Sam into a tight hug, kissing him a few more times before his mouth got busy somewhere else. “Do you want to lay back down then?” He asked when Sam’s lips were nice and swollen and glossed with spit.

Sam nodded, dazed and out of his mind with need. They traded positions again, Danny waiting for Sam to get nice and comfortable against the pillows before he started to peel back his underwear, removing them completely.

He kissed all along Sam’s hips and the tops of his thighs, trailing inwards until he placed the last right against the tip. He watched in awe as Sam’s dick twitched in response.

“Sam” he whispered, getting his attention before he began. When Sam looked down they made eye contact and Danny held it as he started to gently stroke with one hand. Sam sighed and let his head fall back. “Sam” Danny called him again, more depth in his tone this time.

Raising his head they made eye contact once more and Danny started back up, waiting and hoping that Sam had gotten the memo eyes on me before he focused on his task and took him into his mouth.

After a few minutes of sucking and swirling his tongue to his best capabilities his eyes flicked up. Saw was propped up on his elbows now, but his eyes were closed, mouth hanging agape. Danny stopped once more and Sam's eyes sprung open. With a raise of his brows he started over again starting with his kisses, then a few more barely there strokes.

“You like getting sucked off don’t you?” Danny teased, running his lips and just the tip of his tongue up and down the side of Sam’s shaft.

Sam groaned, bucking his hips up against Danny’s mouth but retreating quickly when Danny pulled his tongue back and let his teeth just barely graze him next. “You like your body being worshiped, and I like being the one doing the worshiping”. His grip tightened and the stroking became more serious, more calculated, as his mouth moved lower until he was kissing and licking at Sam’s balls.

A moan fell from Sam’s still parted lips, but this time he kept his eyes obediently on Danny, now knowing what would happen if he didn’t watch.

“You know, there are a lot of ways I can worship your body. Like sucking on your pretty little cock, and…” he moved his thumb underneath his balls and pressed deeply, trying to angle his massage in just the right spot.

Sam had likely never had his prostate stimulated before, so Danny definitely felt the pressure to make this as gentle as possible and hopefully a mind blowing experience for him.

He replaced his hand with his mouth, freeing up his fingers to continue their work while he bobbed his head up and down.

A moan got caught in Sam’s throat, turning up in pitch as he fought to control his voice. Danny wanted to tell him to let it go, to let him hear his desperate noises, but he was too busy tasting salty precum.

Danny rocked into the mattress, he was throbbing. The last time he’d done so well in controlling himself but this time he was aching to receive some attention himself.

He pulled off Sam, but this time not to his alarm. In fact he breathed a sigh of relief because he’d been so close to cumming already. Danny moved to a sitting position between his legs and extended his hand in Sam’s direction. “Come here” he implored, his own voice losing its strength as he descended further and further into the pit of his own body’s hunger.

Sam took his hand and Danny pulled him forward, wrapping the other arm around his waist and sliding him into his lap. He hadn’t even stopped to remove his own boxers yet, but that didn’t matter at this moment he could deal with that later. He just clung onto Sam’s body like a wet rag, arms wrapped around his waist and chin resting on his shoulder, listening and feeling Sam’s breaths return to a normal pace.

“I love you Sam”. He squeezed tighter. “I want you- I need you to know that I love you”.

Sam hugged Danny in return, patting the back of his head and smoothing his wild curls. “I know Daniel, I love you too”.

Danny felt like his heart could stop and he worried that his mind had made up Sam’s words like it had when he saw the younger Sam standing with him outside on the porch. Sam nudged the shoulder he was resting on, getting Danny to pull up and look at him. Once he had eye contact again (something that was a lot easier to hold without Danny having his dick in his mouth) he repeated his words so Danny knew they were real. “I love you too”.

Sam leaned in for the kiss first, not shying away from letting his tongue glide into Danny’s mouth. He didn’t think Danny could hold him any tighter, but he didn’t mind at all.

“Now” Sam pulled back just the few inches that Danny’s iron grip allowed him to, “say something filthy again”.

“You liked that did you?” Danny chuckled smugly like he wasn’t even surprised. He moved his kisses to Sam’s collar, working on sucking tiny light pink bruises he hoped would last at least a few days so he could remember this moment every time he saw them.

“I never knew you had such a dirty mouth” Sam giggled as well, partly from his juvenile use of ‘dirty mouth’ but also because Danny’s kisses were tickling him.

“There’s a lot you still have to learn about me Sammy, but I know you. I know everything you’ll like even before you know you’ll like it”. He sucked one last love bite into Sam’s chest and leaned back to admire his work. “Just like you’re going to love this”.

Sam smiled wildly, eager to see what Danny had in store next. He’d all but forgotten that he was sitting naked in Danny’s lap, that was until Danny dropped his head and let a trail of saliva fall from his mouth onto Sam’s still hard length.

His strokes had intent this time, no longer worried about anything other than getting Sam, and himself, to the finish. One hand worked Sam while the other slipped under the waistband of his own boxers.

“Here, let me” Sam reached over and tugged the waistband down, exposing Danny’s hand and his erection in its full glory. He wasn’t panicking anymore, only worried that he could make Danny feel good too.

How hard could it be though? He knew how to make himself feel good, all he had to do was apply the same techniques and surely that would do the trick.

So he reached forward, taking over for one of Danny’s hands, stalling a second to let his mind take in all the subtle differences between Danny and himself. He squeezed a little tighter, the way he liked it, and Danny inhaled in then exhaled a moan as he mimicked the same grip on Sam.

The room filled with the combined sounds of heavy breaths, moans, and sloppy open mouthed kisses until Danny gripped Sam’s ass hard enough to elicit a surprised yelp from him and pulled him closer until he could get his fingers around himself and Sam at the same time.

The feeling of their heat pressed together as Danny pumped sent a slur of thoughts that short circuited Sam’s mind. Like how could this feel so good when all they were doing was essentially jerking each other off? Or how he never expected himself to be having sex with another man, let alone Danny. Yet here he was leaning back onto his hands and thrusting his hips upwards into Danny’s fist.

“That’s it Sam, don’t stop, fuck you’re so sexy”. Danny abandoned himself for a moment and wrapped his hand fully back around Sam, running the other up the expanse of his tight stomach. Sam thrusts stuttered and he let out one more cry before coming undone and falling back onto the bed.

Using his cum slicked hand Danny continued to finish himself, shooting hot ropes of milky white across Sam’s sore thighs.

Spent and tingly all over Danny laid down next to Sam, their shoulders touching since they hardly fit side by side.

“That… wasn’t what I expected” Sam spoke up after a few minutes of catching their breaths.

Danny’s stomach flipped. He knew that wasn’t exactly the Earth shattering orgasmic sex that either of them were capable of, but now that the door had been opened it could only get better from there, right?

“I’m glad we waited” he blindly reached around on the bed at his side, finding Danny’s hand and giving it a squeeze. “You were right, the build up was worth it”.

Danny let out a gust of air followed by a trail of laughter, catching Sam completely off guard. “I thought you didn’t like it”.

“I’m covered in jizz, what’s not to like about that?” Sam jested then drug his fingers along the mess and smeared it all over Danny’s stomach. “There, now we’re even!”

“Sam! What the fuck!” Danny shoved his shoulder and Sam overreacted like he’d tried to push him off the bed. He rolled over, over correcting until he was practically on top of Danny again and attacked him with kisses.

Although all Danny wanted to do was lay in bed naked with Sam for the rest of the evening, he knew their time alone would need to be coming to an end. “Come on, let’s go get cleaned up and head back”.

“You think anyone noticed we left?” Sam questioned as he followed Danny across the hall and into the bathroom.

Danny flipped on the light and Sam got a good look at himself in the mirror, his eyes immediately zeroing in on the necklace of hickeys. “Oh absolutely, Josh doesn’t miss anything”. Danny came up from behind him, and pressed a kiss into his shoulder.

Sam smiled, not only because he had proof of their little shannagains, but also at the thought that if Josh knew, then Jake probably did too.

After a speedy shower, trying not to get their hair wet so that they wouldn’t be too suspicious when rejoining the party, they got redressed in Danny’s room. Sam was chatting away like he was entirely unphased about what had just happened, but Danny couldn’t help but get lost in every single detail.

Once he got his pants pulled up and his sweater back on he stopped to take it in one last time. He felt like everything had finally come full circle. He’d fallen in love with Sam here, back in the living room on his couch, on the front porch. Here, everywhere, at home. It only seemed fit that he sealed his love in the flesh here in his old bedroom.

And he shut the door behind him.

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