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rosenallies · 5 months

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Yess post it pls!!

using this to post it bc<3 why not? also this isnt as slay as I thot so if it sucks just ignore it and pretend it didn't happen😭

Cw/ mentions of kidnapping

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“Rosie, please help me,” Rosé heard Denali’s voice so clear in her head, the pained and scared tone pushing her to be faster, stronger.

Ever since she heard those words from down a darkened hallway to an old abandoned building she vowed she was going to find whoever had hurt Denali and make them pay, so when she found herself at the gym, sweat beading down her brow as she kick-boxed, she imagined the unknown face of her partner’s capturer.

Months ago, Rosé had woken up in their big bed alone, Denali nowhere to be found in their big rooftop apartment. He usually slept later than she did, but occasionally she’d find him in the kitchen making breakfast before she awoke, but he was nowhere to be found. Panic had set in immediately, knowing who she is and what she’d done to people, she knew she always had a target on her back, but not her sweet boy who closed his eyes when she came back from a hit and needed help washing the blood and sweat from her hair. She loved him and for whatever reason despite the line of work her dead brother had thrown her into, he loved her too. Three days of anonymous messages pinged to the burner phone she used for her jobs and finally she found herself sprinting down a dark hallway where she soon came across Denali, thankfully unharmed but wrists bound to a pole crying out for her when she came into view. No one else was to be found and Denali barely had any memory of the days leading up to this, but Rosé wasn’t anything if not determined to protect him and make whoever took him pay.

Rosé finished her workout and headed home, checking in with Denali once more before she could see with her eyes that he was safe. She still never wanted to leave him alone but after a couple weeks he promised he’d be ok and check in with her constantly, which quieted some of her anxiety but it was nothing compared to the relief she felt when she walked in the door and he was standing there waiting for her, with his dimpled smile adorable in some little velvet shorts, an oversized sweater and his favorite matching sweater thigh highs.

“Hi darling,” she cooed softly, kissing the top of his head.

“Mommy, you’re sweaty!” He giggled as she pulled him closer, kissing his cheeks again and again.

“Want to join me in the shower?”

Denali grinned mischievously, pressing a kiss to Rosé’s cheek before scampering away and up the stairs, leaving a trail of clothes behind him.

Rosé chuckled to herself, picking up his trail of clothes as she followed behind him, finding him already naked standing by the shower, the hot water slowly steaming up the room.

“Nice and hot, just like you like it, mommy,” he said proudly.

“What a good boy,” she praised, ruffling his hair, “I suppose you’re fishing for something then?”

He flushed under her gaze, shrinking back slightly. “Maybe.”

“Alright, baby,” she laughed, “let’s get in, mommy will see how you behave, okay?”

As if she could ever deny her sweet boy anything, Rosé ended up on her knees once he’d washed her hair and soaped up her chest, getting a little too carried away.

“Getting worked up there, hmm?” She cooed in his ear as he ran the loofah over her the milky skin of her tits.

She didn’t even have to look down to know he was hard, nodding and whimpering when she’d asked.

On her knees, Rosé ran her hands up the insides of his silky thighs, squeezing the flesh there.

“Mommy’s pretty baby boy,” she whispered into his skin before sliding her hands up to the plump of his ass, landing a sharp smack to his cheek and making him hiss. “Always so pretty and perfect for me.”

She spread him open with her hands, about to start licking into him when her burner phone buzzed loudly on the bathroom counter, interrupting her.

“I’m so sorry, baby, can we continue this later? It’s the burner.”

Denali pouted, squirming under her grasp. “But mommy-“

“Come on, darling, I’ll make it up to you later, yeah? Give you the strap for being a good, patient boy?”

With his throat suddenly dry and his heart suddenly pounding, he nodded, a little squeak of anticipation leaving his kiss bitten lips. “Okay, mommy.”

She kissed him gently. “Good boy. Now let’s get dried off, yeah?”

She turned off the water and helped wrap him in a fluffy towel before turning her attention toward the reason she’d gotten out in the first place. She gasped as she unlocked the phone, a string of photo messages from a blocked number appearing on the screen, each of Denali in various rooms of their home, one seemingly from just this morning. Her breath caught in her throat and panic seized her, making her drop the phone to the ground.

“Rosé, what’s wrong? What is it?”

She continued to stare ahead while he bent down to pick up the phone, gasping when he’d seen what she’d seen, pulling her out of her stupor.

“We’ve got to get you out of here, we’re getting on a plane asap, doesn’t matter where. We just need to go, let’s pack.”

“Wait,” he said, grabbing her arm before she headed to the closet, “if they’ve been watching this closely, what if they follow us?”

Rosé huffed, this wasn’t who she was anyway, she didn’t run from things, she faced them head on and she always had. “You’re right. I have to kill them, make them fucking pay for what they did to you. But I need to figure out who the number belongs to.”

She pondered for moment, suddenly remembering an old friend who could hack into anything.

“Come on, pick up, pick up,” she whispered to herself after dialing the number she was surprised she still remembered. She hoped after all this time the number was still the same.

Finally, after she was sure it would go to voicemail, someone picked up. “Who is this and how did you get this number?” The all too familiar voice said.

“Sasha,” Rosé breathed, “it’s Rosé. I need your help.”

Rosé explained her situation and Sasha agreed to help, though she’d been clean of any illegal activities for years now, she could sense the desperation in Rosé’s voice as she spoke.

“Don’t worry, baby, I’m gonna make everything okay again,” she promised Denali once they’d hung up.

Denali nodded, believing her every word. “I trust you,” he promised, “I just want you to be safe too.”

Rosé nodded once, guilt eating at her. “I always am.”

They quickly got ready, Rosé in her usual work attire, head to toe in black with weapons stashed in secret pockets or in her boot, hidden from plain sight.

“Ready to go?” she breathed, holding Denali at an arm’s length away once they were both dressed.

Though anxiety ran rampant in him, he nodded. “Ready.”

Rosé broke about every traffic law in the book as she drove, finally pulling up in front of a large house, ushering Denali to the front door where Sasha and her partner waited quickly to keep him out of view from anyone who might be watching.

“Rosé, it’s been so long,” Sasha said, air kissing her cheeks, “and of course you remember Anetra.”

“Mmhmm, how could I forget the pining?”

Sasha scoffed. “As if I didn’t watch the same thing when you met Denali.”

The boys shared a look, giggling and blushing before Rosé suddenly turned serious. “Alright, it’s nice to see you both but I need to find this fucking bastard before he could hurt Denali again. You’re still a superstar hacker?”

“Of course, just legally now,” Sasha chuckled.

“Perfect, that’s exactly what I need.”

“Let’s get to it then,” Sasha replied, leading everyone to a room down the hallway that looked like a tech expert’s dreams, computers lined the walls of the dark room, only illuminated by the blue light emanating from the screens.

Sasha sat at the largest computer in the middle of the room, wordlessly gesturing for Rosé to give her the phone as she typed away, zoning out while she worked.

It was taking far longer than Rosé had liked, but finally, it looked like Sasha found something.

“Bingo,” Sasha said under her breath, quickly inputting the coordinates that came up on the screen into her phone, “they’re here.”

Rosé fought the urge to crush her phone in between her fingers as she thought of all the ways she’d torture whoever it was that had hurt her love. She imagined crushing their windpipe under her boot or maybe she should take them too, abandon them in a cold and dark building just like they’d done to Denali. “Nali, baby, I want you to stay here with Anetra, okay? You boys keep each other safe while we handle this.”

Sasha nodded. “Neech, make sure Denali is comfortable. I’ll be back as soon as possible.”

Denali and Anetra obediently agreed, their partners kissing them goodbye on the way out the door.

“Are you okay?” Anetra asked once they were gone down the driveway.

“I guess,” Denali muttered, anxiety churning his stomach just like every time Rosé left to go do a job, “I trust her, I just worry.”

Anetra nodded, squeezing his hand. “I understand. Let’s go nap, that’s always what I used to do when Sasha would go do jobs,” he suggested, pulling Denali up the stairs and into the bedroom where Anetra gestured for him to join him in his and Sasha’s big bed.

“Just relax,” he said softly, wrapping an arm around Denali’s shoulders, “Rosé and Sasha are both strong, they’ve got this.”

“I know,” Denali replied, unsure if he believed it or if he was trying to convince himself but he was suddenly exhausted, the events of the day catching up to him.

“Let’s sleep, by the time we wake up, they’ll be back.”

Fighting back a yawn, Denali hummed. “I hope so.”

Tangled up together under the warm blankets, Denali fell asleep, Rosé on his mind.

Late into the night, Denali and Anetra woke to Rosé and Sasha coming back, laughter echoing down the hall before they entered the bedroom.

“Oh aren’t you two cute,” Sasha cooed, a gentle smile on her face, “Rosie, your boy is so cute.”

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Rosé took Denali’s hand, squeezing it gently. “He is, isn’t he?”

Denali flushed. “Did everything go okay?”

“It went perfect, darling. You will never be unsafe again, I promise. Are you ready to head home?”

Surging forward, Denali wrapped her in a hug, squeezing her tightly like she’d disappear if he let go. “Thank you, mommy.”

“Anytime, baby. I’ll protect you with everything I’ve got, okay?” Her voice dropped to a whisper, “ Now let’s head home, I believe I have a reward for you.”

The whole way home, Denali tried not to squirm in the passenger seat beside Rosé, his tummy twisting while his mind ran.

Back in the house, Rosé tugged him up the stairs, stripping both of them of their clothes before they even fell into bed.

“Hands and knees, baby,” she instructed gently, pulling the harness over her hips with Denali’s favorite toy attached.

He obeyed, shivering when she ran a finger along the curve of his back. “I’m gonna open you up with my fingers, okay? Can you tell mommy if that’s okay?”

“Yes, mommy! Please!”

Lubing up her fingers, she circled his hole. “Eager. It’s okay though, sweet boy. Just let momma take care of you tonight.”

And taking care of him is exactly what she did, pulling two orgasms from him before they both collapsed onto their backs, chests heaving with post orgasm.

“How are you feeling, honey?” she asked softly.

Spent, Denali rested his head against Rosé’s chest, kissing her clavicle. “I feel okay. Thank you for always keeping me safe, but-but why do people want to hurt me anyway?”

She sighed, lacing their fingers together. “It’s because I’ve hurt many people and the only way to hurt me is to hurt you. You’re the only thing left that I love.”

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radgalniya · 1 month

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cowboy carter album review:

this album has so much context i know i’m missing so i’m not going to talk too much about the themes or lyrical backgrounds and just focus on the music. beyonce knows she wrong for not adding liner notes to this album but i digress. also the ratings are on how much i like the song NOT on how good they are because artistically every song is pretty perfect. such high quality and artistry, no shock there.

american requiem: 6/10

love the beyonce choir. makes me wanna go join a civil rights march idk lmao. probably will only listen to this one on a full album listen tho.

blackbird: 8/10

i wish we got more of the other singers singing the main lines rather than mostly just the background, but i still like it. reminds me of butterfly fly away from the hannah montana movie. not my favorite but i’ll come back when i wanna feel like someone’s singing me a sweet lullaby or when i’m maladaptive daydreaming that i’m sitting around a campfire on a beach in an old southern town singing tunes.

16 carriages: 10/10

iiiiiiiii love this song. so much. since it’s been released, i’ve been listening to it non stop. it’s so beautiful and perfect. one of my absolute favorites. what a single. it’s perfect.

protector: 7/10

the acutal lullaby song. so pretty. so soft. so sweet. i like it.

my rose: 4/10

what rose are we talking about beyonce lmao no but anyway this is too short like i hate mini songs pls. but eh i’m not feeling it anyway.

smoke hour willie nelson: n/a

texas hold em: 10/10

so fun, so catchy, the rhythm in this one is so infectious. “this beat is vivacious”. i love every melody in this song. the slowdown is insaneeee. her ability to blend genres in a way that’s actually interesting and unique issss ugh amazing love her.

bodyguard: 10/10

as soon as the song started, i texted my best friend telling her i loved it. i knew from the first beat. this song is so perfect. i could listen to this forever and never get sick of it. i loooooove it. shoulda been a single imo

dolly p: 10/10

okay ik this is just an interlude but the jolene instrumental sounds sooo beautiful in this and the “jolene” sample thing i love it. plus dolly. this isnt even a song but i want more of it.

jolene: 8/10

okay idk how i feel about this cover. i dont like the lyrical changes. it does feel more beyonce than the original but i liked how dolly never put down or shamed jolene. i like the vulnerability and softness in the original. i dont like the harsher approach in this one. HOWEVER if this song was softer like the interlude OR the choir at the end for the whole song, it’d be a 10/10 for me. i’m actually so mad the choir part was so short bc i loooove it.

daughter: 7/10

i’d relisten but probably not as often. it’s beautiful but idk it just doesnt catch me. the opera at the end is beautiful. and the song is so nice. but it’s just not my favorite.

spaghetti: 7/10

controversial opinion but i dont usually like rapyonce. i like beyonce singing on a rap beat but rapping idk. makes me cringe. the more i listen tho, the more i like it. again i do love how she blends genres in this so flawlessly. the ending is my favorite part of the song, so nice also i love the beat.

alligator tears: 6/10

i don’t care to listen to this one again tbh. doesn’t really catch my attention. i like the outro tho. idk y she always makes the outros outros and not just the song.

smoke hour ii: n/a

just for fun: 6/10

will relisten but not my favorite.

most wanted: 10/10

never thought i’d get a miley cyrus/beyonce collab but im so grateful i’m obsessssseedddd. i looooove it. it’s so beautiful. so romantic. perfect in my eyes.

levii’s jeans: 10/10

i hate post malone and i’m mad beyonce chose to work w him rather than idk a black female artist. you let this nigga sing a whole verse but barely let the other black country female singers on blackbird get in a line??? idgi. but goddamit i love the song. so romantic in a kind of sensual way with the country twang. one of my favorites. i cant even be too mad. he ate his part up.

flamenco: 8/10

i love the flamenco in this lol. it’s too short tho ugh i hate mini songsss. idk it’s somehow not my favorite. flamenco and beyonce sounds perfect but this song didnt really catch me as much as id like it to. still like it tho and will relisten.

the linda martell show: n/a

ya ya: 9/10

love the 60s black southern rocker vibes in this. the instrumental is so insane i’m obsessed. so fun, so dancey. you cant not dance to this. and her vocals remind me so much of tina turner.

oh louisiana: 7/10

i actually like this even tho it’s just like an interlude. not much to say about it tho.

desert eagle: 9/10

that BASS?!?! absolutely thank u. too goddamn short!!! like i wish there was more to it. more everything.

riiverdance: 9/10

that banjo(?) lick is so addictive. another fun dancey song. again, love the genre bending. i like this, will relisten. i kept waiting for like a climax tho? idk. i wish there was one.

ii hands ii heaven: 6/10

not my favorite, probably wont relisten to very often.

tyrant: 9/10

another genre bender. i really like it. the chorus is so good and addictive. “i dont like to sit up in the saddle boy i got this” YEA!

sweet honey buckiin: 7/10

genre bender lmao i’m gettin repetitive i know. i just get what she means now by saying this isnt a country album, it’s a beyonce album. not my favorite but i like it some. will relisten from time to time.

amen: 8/10

love a beyonce choir.

overall even tho every song wasnt a hit for me, the songs i love, i love so much that it makes this album a 10/10 for me. they’re so interesting and unique but still melodic and catchy and i loooove it.

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februaryberries · 4 years

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Study (?) tips that you don’t see on every study post

Hi gamers, I just finished my first year at college/university!!

This year was really a struggle for me because I was trying to get the help I needed for my mental health, and I did not succeed until literally the week before finals spring term. I just got diagnosed w ADHD and put on meds (thank god) and I’m excited for the next year to come.

Though this year was absolutely grueling I did discover some little tips that can really help ! This is coming from my experience w ADHD but it could relate to other neurodiverse learners as well ! Even if you are neurotypical some of these might help !!

This post got really long so I’m gonna put it under the cut but, main Idea is bolded w a more in depth explanation underneath ( for those like me who see a block of text and go running)

In no particular order:

If you can/are up for it take a class before noon even if you are not a morning person. I am NOT saying take an 8am when u regularly go to bed at 4am! Bc that is dumb bb pls get some sleep. In my experience once I go to class my brain is like “oh things are happening now, it is actually a day and not just existing in a timeless hellscape.”

Once I am out of bed/out of my room I am at least mildly more productive for the rest of the day. Going to a class before noon means you are up and doing things for the day and early enough that you still have light. This ties into the next one

Start while it’s still light out!! At least for me I gain so much happiness from natural light/sunlight, and it is very hard for me to do things let alone START things once it’s dark out because my brain is like nope the day is over now. Plus in the fall/winter days days are getting shorter and shorter so it’s important to make use of as much daylight as you can. I feel like a plant w how much I rely on light to survive but it really does help!

Put on ‘Real People’ clothes. This is something that really helps me, even if it’s just like, jeans and a turtleneck, maybe tucked in w a belt. I’ve found that when I put on academic-y clothes or like Adult clothes it helps me switch my brain into school mode. It’s kinda like putting on a uniform for work? If I’m in too loose of clothes or like pyjamas for example, I’m much less likely to be able to switch my brain into productive mode. For me especially its when i’m wearing tighter clothing rather than baggy ones? Like i said a turtleneck which like the sleeves are fitted to my arms, and jeans or pants that are fitted to my legs. I think it helps because it makes me more aware of my body in the space? Idk. figure out what real people clothes feel like to you, and then have a couple of go to outfits you can slip on when you’ve been in a hoodie and sweatpants all day and really need to get some work done.

On that note, put on shoes. For me along w the tight clothing, I do better in shoes, specifically ones that lace up and can be tight. Like hightop converse, or boots, or even dress shoes w laces. I think in a way my body needs to be contained so I can focus on something? I’m not sure why I feel like that but i’ve learned to work w it. Putting on shoes for me helps because

1. I’m not distracted by what I’m putting my bare feet on (i cannot stand wearing socks unless im wearing shoes so yes bare feet)

2. I’m not getting distracted by my floor n the fact that hey maybe i should sweep bc there are some crumbs sticking to my feet now.

And 3. You put on shoes when you are going to go outside and go somewhere. It’s like putting pyjamas on to go to bed, you’re brain associates those items with doing something, so putting on shoes can signal to your brain hey we are doing something now, and that something is work.

Talk to your teachers !! I understand sometimes you have a teacher from hell and honestly idk what to tell you at that point but in a lot of cases teachers can be very understanding !! The amount of support I’ve gotten from my teachers this year is absolutely insane and 100% the only thing that made it so I didn’t get kicked out of college. Like reaching out to your teachers shows that you care! if you have to take a mental health day sometimes let them know !! i would always let my teacher know that I really wanted to be in class but I just couldn’t handle it that day. They also can help connect you to resources you didn’t know about !

Look into what resources your school has !! I was talking about how next year is gonna go now that I’ve been diagnosed and such with my friend, and how I was gonna contact the DRC (disability resource center) and she didn’t know you could get support for having ADHD!! Like I know you can get extensions on due dates, attendance forgiveness, and even potentially note taking assistance when you have ADHD and talk to them. even if you are medicated it doesn’t 100% solve everything and there are still ways to get support! Whether its study groups, writing centers/support, tutoring, or even contacting your drc or whatever your school has, it can really help!! I’m definitely going to take advantage of these resources if I can next year !

Find a place outside you can go to clear your head (or have a mental breakdown)

I can’t even begin to count the amount of times i’ve been freaking out over something or stressed out of my mind and my room started to feel to stuffy and claustrophobic and i just needed to get OUT. try to make sure it’s somewhere safe and close that you can go to even at night. (maybe try to shoot a text to your best friend that you’re out and if you don’t let them know you’re home by a certain time to start raising alarm, your safety is the most important) I tend to like to be up high because i’m further away from people, and the streets and I’m closer to the sky.

My go to thinking/breakdown spot is the roof of the parking garage a block away. It has stairs that are easy access and the top levels are usually empty even during the day. It really helps me to just go out and listen to music and collect my thoughts sometimes. My head can start going a million directions at lightspeed and I need to stop and be present, and being outside helps. It’s a good way to regroup.

Spend 10 minutes picking up your desk/work space. I tend to let my room get cluttered and messy and out of control a lot, to the point where I know it’s going to take at least a couple hours to get it clean again. It is also hard to focus when you’re in a messy environment. I would stress myself out and be like “well i HAVE to clean my whole room because I can’t focus if my space isnt clean I cant start until I clean” and then I would put all of my productive energy into cleaning, and get maybe halfway done before burning out and going to bed.

You’re never going to get any work done if you keep in this mindset. So instead just spend 10 minutes picking up the garbage off your desk, put the dishes in the kitchen, and put things back in their place. Then you will have enough space to work on your assignment and that space will be free of clutter so it won’t be as stressful.

DRINK WATER DRINK WATER DRINK WATER

Have a water bottle in front of you when you’re studying/in class. I get fidgety a lot when i’m in class/studying (thank u adhd) and so having a water bottle is a way for me to fidget I guess? Depending on the water bottle, you have little steps you have to do to drink that help u fidget,

for example: pick it up, take off the lid, drink, put the lid back on, set it down.

Or pick up, push button that opens drink hole (?), set back down.

When I have a water bottle on my desk it satisfies my need to do something with my body and comes with the bonus of staying hydrated, without me having to lose focus doing something else. Also you won’t get distracted by a sore throat or the realization that you are really thirsty.

Pay attention to why you’re not paying attention. Not everything that works for me is going to work for you, so you have to figure out what works for you. I started to notice that I would be uncomfortable or feel funny working when I was in baggy clothes and that helped me figure out I needed to wear real people clothes. If you find yourself getting distracted, take note of what is distracting you. maybe try literally making a list of things that distract you, so then you can identify patterns and how to combat them !

That’s all I have for now, I hope some of these could maybe help? All of these have helped me actually complete an assignment occasionally, and somehow keep my ass in college. I just want to say that my experience is my own and things that work for me aren’t going to work on every one. college can be really tough, especially your first year when you’re trying to figure everything out. I may not have all the answers but feel free to shoot me a message!! i’m here for you if you want to ramble about an assignment you’re fed up with or a teacher you hate or anything thats bothering you !! Everyone’s college (and life) experience is different so don’t feel bad if yours doesn’t look the same as the people around you ! Remember to take care of yourselves !!!

Have a good day :)

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benreyplush · 3 years

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ok so

benny is some sort of benrey clone after some weird shit happened when benrey was defeated and made his way back into gordon’s games like payday 2.

he somehow got into terraria and has no memory of black mesa or who he was even based off of. he barely remembers his name and all it came out to him was “benny”

he’s also freakishly tall

when jack (the world’s guide) found him, he was very quiet and seemingly apathetic about his surroundings. didn’t really talk much and jack thought he was an enigma for a while. he did his usual and helped him begin his life there.

but then benny started doing some weird shit that jack wasnt prepared for. enemies couldn’t hurt him. he could freeze time. destroy and create items indefinitely. he has no idea what benny is and the order of the guide never talked about anything like this so obviously he’s very freaked out at first

slowly benny starts remembering some of his old personality and would say things that make 0 sense to jack. jack doesn’t know what “poggers” means.

eventually benny remembers a lot of it and actually feels kinda sad. like he feels like he has to be this “benrey” but he doesnt want to be. hes different.

and jack tells him he’s not benrey. he became his own thing and that was good! and he doesnt have to be like him. benny was very relieved by this and sorta became his own thing. like he was still like benrey but less of an asshole and really just goofed around. he still found himself harassing the new npcs that move in but he never harasses jack. he likes jack.

jack says he wont call him benrey. to him, he’s benny. and benny really appreciates it.

jack always wondered what benny meant by “self aware” when he talked about his memories. benny talked about the “npc ai just getting a mind of their own” and said when he joined this new world, it must have turned everyone in terraria self aware like in half life. so thats cool.

eventually jack like. realizes he might have a lil crush on benny and feels bad about it. because he knows his fate is to be sacrificed in the end and he doesnt wanna grow too close to benny.

but inevitably they end up together and jack is starting to question if he needs to die. like originally he came to terms with it a long time ago but now he’s actually reconsidering??? wow! they have at least one argument when jack actually sits him down and explains the wall of flesh thing.

at some point jack convinces benny to take him on an adventure and they end up in the underworld. jack’s plan was to go through with the sacrifice and almost succeeded but benny grabbed him and told him not to do that again. and jack was like “you have to let me do this” and benny was like “no dude i love u” and then they kissed and it was like. the first time either of them have kissed anyone ever but it was still nice.

and jack is like “ok actually i want to live with you forever lets go home” but a demon appears when they arent paying attention and attacks them and jack gets knocked into the lava and the wall of flesh is summoned. and benny is devastated.

when thats over a new guide shows up but benny wants nothing to do with him bc he is not jack. and benny is mad at himself bc he can freeze time, control enemy spawn rates n shit but he cant bring ppl back to life and he feels worthless about it

so the rest of the story is about benny having to move on and accept his death :(

so its a sad story

but here’s some nice things

benny knows the sweet voice still and uses it on jack all the time. it was confusing to them both when he did it the first time. eventually jack gets used to it and actually really likes it.

jack is supposed to be the helpful npc so he usually keeps himself together but as he grows closer to benny his emotions start coming out more and whenever he’s stressed he can just look at benny and say “sweet voice pls” and benny calms him down with it. benny also uses it to get jack to sleep (”blue and red means its time for bed :)” ) because normally he shouldnt have to but being self aware is tiring.

oh also whenever jack gets burns from the voodoo dolls in the underworld, benny heals them with the sweet voice healing beam :). benny has no idea how he keeps getting burned and eventually just assumes its bc of the furnace and is like “bro stop shoving ur hands in the furnace lol” and jack cant bring himself to tell him the truth so he just goes with it.

benny was the first to confess and he did it by serenading jack with the worst guitar playing that jack has ever heard <3 but it still made him smile. i know he really had to think about it before accepting it bc wall of flesh, can’t get too close, blah blah blah.

plus idk how relationships work in the order of the guide. he probably really didnt expect to get into a relationship and the new guide that comes along probably found it super strange.

anyway this is a lot of text wow im gonna just add on to the post as i think of shit but if u read all of this i am in love with u

EDIT: I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE A HAPPY ENDING

after defeating the moon lord, either the order of the guide or maybe even the spirits of terraria herself brings jack back because benny deserves that after saving all of them.

so benny notices the new guide is gone and was like “weird but whatever” and then he hears someone call out to him. he’s like “ugh what” and turns and its jack and he like. drops his weapon in his hand in shock and takes his eye mask and helmet off to see him properly. like he isnt sure if he’s dreaming or not.

and then he runs to him and grabs him and he’s real holy fuck. so he’s overjoyed and both of them fucking cry (first time jack actually sees ben cry ever!!!) and they kiss n shit and its incredible the end. since the world has been saved, the two live a more domestic life and benny is like “we’re never going to the underworld again ever and also im going to be around u a lot bc i missed u so much and i cant lose u again” so he’s extra clingy but jack is so happy to be back with him that he doesnt care!!!!!

also funny fact but the mechanic was the first npc to move in with them and (i think her name was shayna in my world. will change it if not) was overly annoyed at their constant sappiness before jack was killed. ben was extra affectionate to jack around her bc he likes annoying ppl (except for jack). but when jack comes back from the dead, she still acts annoyed but she’s actually relieved to see benny happy again.

#benny the hero #jack the guide #benguide #im gonna go play terraria now :)#text heavy #holy shit this is so much info

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Out of curiosity, since you're kinda into Lapis now, is there anyone you'd pair her with? Such as Peridot or Bismuth for example?

u know what im just gonna use this as an opportunity to rip the bandaid off and come out with it lol,,

ive been thinkin about jaspis lately. shocking, i know. for some insight, heres the tags from a personal post i made:

#post.txt #what i say: im really picky about the jas//pis i like #what i mean: most of the jas//pis ive seen blatantly frames ja/sper as an aggressor or dominant figure in the relationship #:even though that directly contradicts canon. it also usually has a heavy focus on lap/is’s feelings and pretty much just uses ja/sper as #:a prop in their “relationship”. ive also seen a lot that is uncharacteristically fluffy and happy and portrays ja/sper as someone who #:enjoys being manipulated and controlled by lap/is and has no say in anything herself which is extremely unhealthy #:and is a really toxic relationship dynamic to glorify (which is also how i see most if not all lap//dot being portrayed) #:therefor im beginning to find jas//pis i actually DO enjoy when its framed in a way that makes sense for the characters and has #:a more equal power dynamic between them as well as giving attention and focus to jaspers feelings and seeing her as more than just #:an object or aggressor to place la/pis in a “victim” or “wife” position #so anyway tl;dr its really weird going from being so viscerally uncomfy and upset about a ship to actually enjoying it #when ur around ppl who dont frame it in super shitty ways LOL and like actually care about the character U Care about most #andi know everyones like “draw what u want who cares what anyone else thinks” #but i feel like there would be such a fucking FIT if i drew jas//pis……….. #in a way that makes sense for me and that i enjoy u know? #idk #blehh #its not even like im like “ohhh theyre gonna be romaaanticcc” like fuck no lol but i think they have a rly interesting dynamic to explore #and maybe its something i want to think about #i dunno #lays on the floor #im sick and tired ill deal with these feelings later

basically, the majority of the jaspis ive seen in the past i havent liked, but lately ive been enjoying what i see on twitter and i realized that 100% has to do with the way that its framed and characterized, so i think it might be fun to try exploring again at my own pace (seriously guys, pls dont ask for this or any other lapis ship lol)

all of this is helped immensely by what i said about lapis a bit ago—that i feel after CYM shes much more honest and isnt constantly trying to deceive those around her. my top issues with lapis have always been 1) lack of accountability 2) lack of authenticity 3) lack of loyalty. she ticked off 2 and 3 for me in CYM, so im confident shell take responsibility for her actions in the future. because of THAT, i feel like she can be authentic, loyal, and responsible in her relationships, which i didnt feel she could before. which opens doors to other possibilities within her relationships…

as for my personal headcanons about lapis, i see her as aromantic, so i wont be shipping her romantically with anyone (same as how i ship garnet with others). shes very independent and i cant really see her seeking out or benefiting from that kind of relationship. but friendships and maybe some benefits? sure why not!

obviously things are way more complicated with jasper, but thats part of why ive been thinking about it. theres a lot of anger and despair and bitterness between them, but also i see the potential for a biting, sarcastic friendship with an undercurrent of genuine care once theyve had time to work some things out.

i know some of you might be upset by this, but also remember i am a real person. i have my own thoughts and feelings, and its healthy for people to consider and analyze their feelings and be open to change. it will always be tagged appropriately so it can be blacklisted, and the fact of the matter is youll barely have to worry about it anyway because jaspearl is still my favorite ship lol

anyway those are my current feelings, i figured its better to just. dump all of it out right now in a post than have to explain in 800 tags when i inevitably post an art of it eventually lol

#zgurido #ask #text post #friendly reminder u can see ALL my thoughts and feelings on my personal blog jaskers lol #i answered an ask about it there too n talked a little bit more about it #idk ive been highkey anxious about talking about this and dipping my toes into it #bc i have made my opinions on it very clear previously #and i dont talk about my feelings much here #and now they have changed since then #so i just..... idk lol #feelings and shipping is complicated and weird #and i always have and always will 100% support peoples right to explore ships as they please #obviously assuming its LEGAL lmao i hate that i even have to specify that #so YEAH LOL anxiously posts this at 7;25 in the am #mine

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yfczangel777 · 4 years

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just to vent into the void here;

on the previous post about ppl being offput by a fave if mine...I love this character soso much and like also we are a shit ton alike... like I hardcore self project onto him and GET him cuz our personality and frequently our way of speaking and our handling mental illness is spot on the same. Hasnt always been the nicest or healthiest for either of us but being able to fix and reconcile and learn to handle it better through loving action w him made me happy for him and also had a certain level of self comfort because we basically the same bitch lol. And people were saying how they didnt like when he got into his dark place for a bit and it was 'uncomfy' or threw them off the character as a whole or made him 'problematic' or smth and I'm just here like "um ouch :*) " cuz thats me bitch lol and also like that image of the lady holding the grown man and telling ppl off for that character

And like not to make excuses for either of us but like I dont think he was problematic? Maybe cuz I understand on a personal level? Like he did some things that weren't very kind when he was hurting but they weren't that bad and he did it out of what he felt was necessity and apologized later??

And fr like that wasnt even so bad. He self isolated and told the player "Idc if it hurts your feelings, I cant be close with you" and to stop having feelings for him cuz he wasnt worth it. Like?????

And like once during a literal time crunch life or death situation while also in the heat of his darkest place and having had a lot of fuked up shit revealed to him he purposefully broke a little robot that wouldn't be quiet and that was his own property at the time... not the players... because he hadnt given it to the player yet (later he fixes it and gives it as a gift)

He kept tabs on where you were and got worried if he didnt see you because a man had literally just crashed through your window and tried to abduct you and would have succeeded if he hadnt gotten there just in time. And it was clear that none of this was over and theres a target on your back still. He wasn't being controlling or unreasonable he was trying to keep you safe from very real danger.

Yes he told you off for a bit once meeting face to face. Yes he told you your feelings toward him were wrong and he was going to keep blocking you out so stop trying and just move on with your life and forget him. And if you didnt your feelings would be hurt and that's your own fault cuz he told you to back off.

That wasnt nice if him but it was preserving his own vulnerable heart and also your safety. This character is not your average dude. His lifestyle is literally ACTUALLY deadly dangerous. Hes taught time and again he isnt allowed to have friends ir family let alone a lover. He eludes to the fact that they HAVE forced him to uproot everything and drop everyone and change his whole identity more than once. And due to his field of work people who are close to him can be used against him and are in literal life threatening danger by association. The chatroom was supposed to be arms distance enough but he got attached to everyone there anyways. And then you came and he fell for you hard. It wasnt ever supposed to happen that way so he went all weird and denied it out of panic and nessecity... once you were in danger he cared for you so he had to go help you and you met face to face which was WAY more than he ever intended to happen and also exposed him way more to catching deeper and deeper feelings. But here he was desperately trying to do damage control because he knows that people dear to him get hurt or killed. And he loves you.. so as much as it hurts he has to try to keep you away to keep you SAFE

All of this is literal... like not just that he thinks hes a bad person and will hurt you.... like literally you are in real physical danger from being associated with him. And this is evidenced and proved throughout the story. And he blames himself for ever even letting you interact with them but like... the poor boy is human jesus christ he needs connection he needs love. It's a mistake he beats himself up over. And so he tries to damage control and get you to move on and forget about him. It kills him the whole time and its evidenced the whole time that he hates having to do this.

And the whole time the worst he tells you is he doesn't care if you get a hurt heart because you wont leave him alone when he tells you to. (Spoiler alert.. that's a lie! He cares a lot but you need to be safe from involvement in his dangerous life)

And the whole time I noticed its actually even an EXCESSIVE thing he does(it's a nice thing tho) that he does nothing but call you a good and wonderful person who deserves happiness and that needs to be safe and keep living because you are so good and so bright and so kind

But him and his life will never allow your safety, so you cant be with him for your protection.

He never stops with how nice you are... how good you are... how much you need to be in this world and be safe because you add light to the world.

Even when hes being cold.. even when hes telling you off

It's always centered around this.

As well as that hes "a dangerous guy" and 'cant keep anything or anyone close'

Putting himself down and lamenting who and what he is.

The breakthrough comes when you finally see the extent of him and the struggles and danger he faces and still wear him down and tell him unwaveringly that: ok you see and understand the danger fully now and you dont care and you want to stick by him even if its dangerous because you love him. And that he doesnt have to go through life alone anymore cuz you'll be there for him no matter what.

And you have to wrestle away from him the notion of 'no I cant let her do this because I love her and want her to be able to live and be safe. It hurts being alone and id love to be able to be with her but I cant cuz if anything happened to her I'd never forgive myself and also she's so great she deserves a normal life where she doesn't have to worry.'

And you have to lovingly assert to him that he can think of himself too... that he doent have to go through life alone because you know the risks and you decided you want to be with him anyways because you love him. That you understand he wants you safe but that was your decision to make and you choose him no matter the dangers... that you will help him and go through it together as a team.

And he struggles because all his life he had to be the action taker, decision maker, and the protector (especially with his brother in childhood) but slowly comes around to the fact that you will be partners... shouldering the burden together while enriching each others lives. That he doesnt have to be the solitary protector of things and people he has come to love despite not having been supposed to in the first place... cuz hes HUMAN. That someone else has seen his situation and his soul laid bare and still said I love you and I'm going to stand with you through this. And learn to let go and let them in and let them share his burden despite being so afraid of doing so and afraid of what could happen to them as a result. Accepting that they made their decision and its theirs to make. And dealing with the fear as well as the relief and strange joy of FINALLY having someone in his life to love and be loved by and to go through things //together//

Like I just dont get how ppl can like tsunderes and even yanderes but then this character is like "pls no ppl get hurt with me and I care for you so you gotta stay away from me for your own good" and they're like... butthurt that he wasn't all peppy and sweet like usual because his life and everything he held dear was legit crumbling around him??? That someone with his past and his current job/living situation took a bit before he could open up and spill his guts to them??? At a job where.. to quote the game itself 'even an offhanded joke can get you killed' ??? Like yall are entitled to your opinions... and thank god this character is fictional or else that would be hella f-ed up of yall but... oof.

#me #rant #vent #if ppl know the character its clear who im speaking of lol #or if ppl have seen my reblogs lately lolol #i have a lot of feelings ok? lol

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yokaimatsus-blog · 7 years

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all o f them then

omg thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im glad bc i just wanna talk about oso san all the time so~~~1. Who is your favorite sextuplet?: I actually don’t know if I’ve ever said on here? Huh, i wonder if its obvious? Well, its Karamatsu :^)

2. Who is your favorite non-sextuplet character?: either totoko or chibita, its kinda too hard to pick between those two

3. Who is your least favorite character?: kara’s god damn flower fairy thing, she was barely even in it but her attitude just pissed me off

4. Who is your least favorite sextuplet?: I honestly don’t have one, it used to be todomatsu but he really, really grew on me throughout the series and now i just love them all way too much

5. When did you start watching the series?: november 2015, the day jyushimatsu falls in love aired!! 6. Do you own any merch?: yeah i literally cant stop pre/ordering stuff i hate myself and so does my bank account and im running out of space in my bedroom lmao ;;

7. Do you play any of the apps?: hesowars and tabimatsu! though I only started hesowars like a month or two ago, for some reason

8. Have you seen osomatsu-kun?: a couple of episodes yeah! i wanna watch more but i cant ever find them ahaha

9. Which character do you relate to the most?: out of the sextuplets id say all of them are pretty relatable for me, oso and todo mostly though

10. When first watching the series, how long did it take for you to be able to tell the sextuplets apart?: I think by at least ep 5 i had them down but I can’t really remember ahahaha, but right away it was easy to know choro bc no ahoge, and ichi bc of his eyes :’)

11. List the sextuplets from favorite to least favorite: my order changes a lot but i guess its something like karamatsu ichimatsu, jyushimatsuosomatsu, todomatsu, choromatsubc i literally wouldnt be able to put any 6 of them actually last LOL

12. Why did you start watching the series?: because it seemed genuinely funny, i really liked the voice actors and the art style attracted me. i dont usually go for comedy anime so tbh becoming so invested was a shocker

13. Have you read any of the manga?: ive read all the ones that are translated as far as I’m aware? And I read a few raws too, I plan to buy them soon but I’m lowkey hoping for official translations someday14. What was your opinion of the season one ending?: I honestly really loved it, to me it was extremely obvious they werent going to end a parody anime on a sad note so I was expecting something really dumb, also i think it was one of the funniest eps to me

15. Which opening theme do you like more?: omg i dont know theyre both such bops

16. Which ending theme is your favorite?: the first one, but the version used for the last episode! bc its cute aaaaa

17. What is your favorite episode or segment?: omg i love so many i could never pick one, off the top of my head I really, really, REALLY enjoy choromatsu cant sleep, fappymatsu, todomatsu and the 5 demons, keresone, and ichimatsu incident... ichimatsus inner monologue of him just screaming is such perfection ahahhaha more ichimatsu internally yelling in s2 pls

18. What is your opinion of episode one?: a true cinematic experience

19. Do you like F6?: ehhh idk. theyre okay? i forget they exist until somebody mentions them most of the time lmfao. there was that one scene with f6 kara drinking milk that was particularly great imo

.20. Have you ever made any osomatsu-san fanart?: yeah!! lots!! but its been a while since i posted anything, plus these days i use twitter more, tbh its what made me want to draw more after I fell out of my last fandom, so i guess thats a good thing, but honestly I’m more a writer considering that was my first major hahaha21. Which episode or segment was your least favorite?: i dont know, I guess I just dont care about dekapan bc he creeps me out a little so I think probably the one with him and dayon driving? somewhere? I cant even remember

22. What episode or segment did you laugh the hardest at?: omg idk so many literally had my crying bc i find them so stupidly hilarious, i guess the ones that take me by surprise at the ones that make me laugh the most, also when I rewatch I find I appreciate them even more every time so afjdsgs

23. Did you cry at any time while watching the series?: ive only ever cried laughing, which happened a lot, but of course ep24 and jyushi falls in love are pretty emotional lmao 24. If you could make your own osomatsu-san episode, what would it be about?: AAAAHHH i have so many ideas. but tbh i would just love a musical episode. somebody doesnt understand why everybody is singing and dancing. there are pom poms. we’re all in this together bitches. ALSO i would die if they animated some of the manga chapters, e.g. the fashion battle todo and kara have, and mc ichi and mc todo... and when oso and kara get lost in a mountain and when oso asks if kara has anything to burn for a fire hes like “no these are too important” and its just a fucking handful of candids sslkhdjisfhaifadand isnt there one about a knock off version of pokemon with choro as the trainer? please. pls. PLEASE.

25. How do you feel about multiple seasons of osomatsu-san?: i wish it could go on forever and ever and ever. but seriously I feel they could juice some good content for a fair few seasons, I obviously wouldnt ever want it to lose its charm but I genuinely don’t see why it couldn’t be long running... but for now I’m satisfied with what we get, and season 2 finally getting announced is incredible though and im super happy :))))

#truthfully I would like HUNDREDS of epsiodes #I never want them to go away #but :^)))))#asks #ask meme #Anonymous

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