#an autism epiphany

[venusforfran]

urge to buy a switch and animal crossing grows everyday in this economy

#need escapism #and god the fishing #oh i played some at my friends #it was like i had #an autism epiphany #was incredible #but i only have £900 saved for uni #and I'd like future fran to be comfortable #but god #i needddddd it

[chimeramoth]

babe wake up. ive figured it out.

the reason why neurodivergent people often have bowel disorders is because they're stressed out all the time. every sensory input detail coming into our perception while we're navigating the experience of life. every detail. every detail we are experiencing from how we perceive our outside world, from light frequencies to clothing material to the texture of food. every single detail. is stressful. each time our neurons communicate the most mudane and subconscious information perceived from outside of our person, we produce stress. all those little details building up to casually paint together the picture before us as we navigate the world. things that normally would not be causing stress to others non-divergent. our perception in a constant state of at least mild stress. even subconsciously. and cortisol. upsets the G.I. holy shit

#i had an #epiphany #neurodivergent #autism #adhd #ocd #bpd #who else is under the neurodivergent umbrella #also this post is half joking #i dont know if this is true or not #regardless. i had an awesome autistic stoner epiphany moment and that in itself felt very good #even if i learn that my hypothesis is wrong. #autistic stoner #asd #autism spectrum #spectrum #yee and haw #OH DEAR GOD HOW MANY TAGS DID I PRT HERE

[thejadecount]

Shoutout to all the other autistics like me who didn’t actually realize they were autistic until Rise Donnie showed up like the absolute king he is

#that’s legit how I found out #oh my good #rottmnt #rise tmnt #rise donnie #rottmnt donnie #rise donatello #rottmnt donatello #he is LITERALLY me #WE ARE THE SAME #my god the autistic rep was so good it made me had an epiphany #there’s no way I’m not the only one #homies where you at????? #this explains so much #anyways #“woah he’s so much like me #“he has autism? #*cue life changing montage* #LET ME TELL YOU WAS THAT A HECK OF A JOURNEY

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#oh wow... #i just had an oh shit fuck moment #wow #i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying #if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time #and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted #so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself #because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to #go in myself either way was way worse to me #because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to #''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever #and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in #and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day... #all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed #although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words: #''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in'' #which is ridiculous #but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it? #forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me? #pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread? #panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head? #yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)? #isn't that literally what masking is?! #and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem'' #when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?! #you know what's the best part about all this #that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above] #my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''.... #same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit'' #ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...

[cheesewizardry]

You like goblins huh? Dont you mean

Fantasy Autism

#goblincore #autism #meme #pm seymour #oh thats why i like them #epiphany

[looniecartooni]

I am not a doll.

You can't buy me off the shelf

Dress me however you like

Then display me

One day

You'll put me in the toy box

You'll forget about me

Until your friend finds me

And asks "Can I take it home?"

You will tell them "no- it's mine!"

Then hand me over to someone else

They will play with me

They will take care of me

They will expect me to care for them

And I will do it before we are both worn

But

I am not a doll.

I don't wear as easily

On the surface

Little bits of dust

Unforeseen microbes in my stuffing

Yet everyone will say

"What a pretty doll."

I am not a doll.

You and your friends may take me with them

Pull me in separate directions

Demand I obey the way they tug and pull

Until I fit the standard factory mold

The perfect little sweet toy

The personality they portrayed me with

And not the one I developed

At the bottom of that toy box.

I am not a doll.

Yet I project the personality

Everyone says I have

And breakdown when I don't fit it

I try to break away

Only to receive less of your attention

The same way I was on the shelf

I am not a doll

I don't like to be alone

But I want time to myself

The more I am played with

The more tattered I become

The more I am neglected

The more dust that seeps into my fabric

And the harder it is to scrub

Without getting ragged

I am not a doll

But I do fear being thrown away

When I am broken

But nor do I want to be confined

I do not want a dog to sink its teeth

Tear me apart viciously

And puncture my squeaky heart

You don't want that either

Hence you kept me out of reach

Promising

That I would be safe

On the shelf

Until you need me

To play again.

#original poetry #poetry #dark poetry #autism #emotional abuse #I had a bit of an epiphany and have wanted to make something like this for years #I've felt like a doll a couple times #even when people are nice or mean to be nice #i am unsure of them #vent post #just needed to get this out at least #personal

[parkercore-69]

mm sometimes i just have like URRRGHHH MOVEMENT MOVEMENT HAVE TO LIKE URRRGHHHH SHAKE, WIGGLE ECETERA UURRGHHH

#yknow?? #i jusg #energy surges through me #im like electro just not a fucking loser #i gained my powers via fist fighting and biting eels rather than pathetically stumbling into them grgrgr #is this an autism thing? #parker’s epiphanies

[flaminggarbagecrap]

Gotta love being someone who doesn't use drugs or alcohol cause you'll just have a weird thought and you'll just be like "okay but what if I WAS under the influence?"

#drugs #sober #weird epiphanies #what #shower thoughts #is singing indie like being neurodivergent in the trolls universe? #does gayness present different in different generations? #literally my username originated from a weird thought like this #am i just really tired #hi :) #autism #shitpost

[curelore]

I just realized that life is short and if I make myself watch things in a mandatory/self-imposed order it'll take forever for me to actually watch all of precure so I should just watch them in whatever order I feel like. go princess is now next on the watch list (￣▽￣)

#lore rabbles #is this an obvious epiphany? maybe #but I am tetering on the edge of an autism diagnosis rn so #maybe that has something to do with it lol

[ifihadmypickofwishes]

"I don't think I need to get checked for moral OCD. This can't possibly meet the threshold," says woman who spent a good chunk of the day in a haze of guilt over a hypothetical.

#had an epiphany this evening and the epiphany is that it may in fact be That Bad #not autism

[claw00]

Book: List 5 times you felt truly alive.

Me: *lists 5 concerts*

#I'm reading Unmasking Autism #the intro has already led to many epiphanies

[primrosebitch]

So, I recently had an epiphany. I think I'm autistic, and honestly I'm surprised it didn't occur sooner, cause it was kinda obvious tbh honest. Like when I told my friends about my suspicions one of them told me about how after meeting me their mom asked if I was autistic, and another friend legitimately thought that I already knew and was like officially diagnosed. So I now have an appointment scheduled with my psychiatrist to either confirm or deny my thoughts.

And how did this come about, you ask? Let me answer. I am on TikTok a lot and because I do have adhd I watch a lot of videos related to that, and then the algorithm would give me similar videos, like about autism or other similar conditions, and I related really hard to said videos about autism, but because I am stupid and oblivious I thought that it was just cause I have adhd and it's well known that they are similar, except they aren't THAT similar, and at one point videos of people talking about/taking the RAADS-R test and having their parents take it was popular on that side of TikTok, so I decided to take it just for funsies y'know. I got a score of 131 (which if you're unaware is incredibly high for someone without autism), and even then it only occurred to me DAYS LATER that I might have autism and that I didn't just get a high score cause I have adhd.

And now, looking back on it, it's actually quite obvious, like so much stuff is suddenly explained now (if I do in fact have it, which I'm pretty sure I do). Like to me my behaviors make perfect sense, but now that I realize that said behaviors aren't typical, a lot of stuff suddenly makes sense now.

#autism #adhd #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #epiphany #raads r #autism test #I think I'm autistic #autism spectrum disorder #asd #autistic

[danceinsidelightning]

nothing says autism like powerful electronic music because it scratches our brains hard

#an epiphany after listening to camellia and achine girl #shark rambles #autism

[pixiis-blog]

I was talking to a friend this afternoon and I joked about how I talk too much because we were just hanging and I filled them in on my previous job's DRAMA.

And I kind of absentmindedly went "I'm probably hyperlexic tbh," and stopped only to go "holy crap I'm hyperlexic". Like, no shit bestie I was always told as a kid (and even now as an adult like at my last job) that I talked too much.

So there's some insight into my specific flavor of autism.

#it's amusing to have some of these epiphanies as an adult #like no one really understood autism when I was a kid #especially the way I do now #I was just “a pleasure to have in class” #we all know what that fuckin meant #but yeah this is a little insight into me #pixii speaks

[boliv-jenta]

I just realised that I use writing fanfiction as my own version of Social Stories!

I write similar situations to what I've been through. They play out differently because the 'reader' uses the skills I have when my executive function or my anxiety aren't hampering me.

#autism #social stories #they also play out differently for the drama #or because they're in space #or because they have a hot boyfriend #anyway epiphany

[jessie-jem]

Oh my GOD I just had an autistic realization

For the longest time I've questioned if I was actually autistic or not because I only just started seeing my autistic traits a couple of years ago but OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED WHY

I've always had very obvious autistic traits but I'm only really realizing them now because they've never been an issue before djajahsbshs when I was a kid I didn't have to mask or force myself to do shit because I was just a kid but I'm growing up now and people expect shit from me and now these traits are finally starting to get in the way and THAT'S why I'm only seeing them now holy shit how did I not SEE THIS

#holy fuck #its epiphany time #and somehow my parents still dont see them as autistic traits #im just uwu quirky #dsnajshahahsb fuck man #autism #autistic rant #autistic realization #mind blown #onyx-light