#and for someone that has always needed to appear independent that hurts

[rexalogy]

rawring 20s

#not about really people drawing in this art style and more so the general current trend of bringing it back how little it is explored tho #i have more thoughts on this but this is first and foremost. my other problems are more personal and have to do with #being repulsed by my childhood #the conflict between “this is me liberating my cringe” but not having its own voice to stand on is a core theme in explorerz. that you need #somebody else's language before you can construct your own #and for someone that has always needed to appear independent that hurts #in general this attachment to a homogenous facsimile of history upsets me #i love the art style i really do but something sick arises in my chest when i draw in it #was this art style even ever regarded as cringe? or was it because it was the main one we attached to as kids and we were criticized for #expressing ourselves at all? is it really the art style #also I consider nostalgia an evil #so many disjointed thoughts with no place for #them

[loveemagicpeace]

👑Astrology Notes👑

🥤This is just my opinion but I think that signs that you have in your 2nd , 3rd , 6th house you will feel the least. Because these are houses that are not so much connected to you, but more to everyday life, material things, etc. They are more houses that indicate what you need. And you won't have as much romantic contact with these people. The same goes for the 7th house -this house represents your ideal, which would be the most suitable for you. But it doesn't mean that this is the sign you feel the most or want. A lot of people actually don't like a 7th house sign because it's a sign that is the opposite of who you are.

🍒Aries travel alone at least once in their lives. They are a very independent sign and easily do things on their own. They don't look at other people that much. That's why they do things on their own and can have fun on their own.

💡Venus in Taurus- Many times I notice that they are in love with money haha, and many times I also notice how they wear a lot of jewelry, it's usually bigger. In particular, I often notice thick necklaces on men. They can be very stubborn in love. They almost never make the first move.

🌿A lot of times, Geminis seem like people with multiple personalities and appearances. I swear they always have at least two looks that make them seem like two different people. And it's actually kind of fun because it looks like you have someone next to you who has two different looks and it makes them seem like they have a completely different personality.

🍃Mercury in Gemini- I like how you can talk to them about things even if they are not always that deep. They know how to communicate and their words come across beautifully.

🫧Uranus in 1st house - you make an impression on people everywhere you go. People remember you even when you least expect it. You always leave an impression on people. People always remember you for something.

🧸Taurus moon- I have never delved so deeply into this moon. But I noticed that many times they want things to stay the same. They do not like to change the environment. Even their feelings can be the same for a long time. Because this is a stable moon and they like things from the past to stay the same. And I also notice that their emotions are not so visible and are quite stable. They hide a lot of emotions inside themselves, but they don't share them with others.

Leo venus & mars people are devoted only when they have mature energy. If they have childlike energy, they have a hard time bonding or staying serious. I feel that they like to have fun and have a good time. And they can't imagine life without it. But it seems to me that when they really love someone, then they will do everything for that person. This can be quite selfish and tricky placement.

💕Cancer moon- this moon is very emotional, caring, compassionate and often makes a positive impression on people. Many times you can bring out other people's emotions or their warmer side. With you, people can feel at home and like you really care about them. People don't even know how much you can impress them because you have an understanding inside you that others don't have.

🧚🏼‍♀️When you share the 12th house with a person or both have planets in the 12th house you may feel like you have a different understanding than you do with others. You can create your own magical world in which you live. It's all based on imagination. A connection out of this world. They do things that are unusual like (they have a wizarding school or they play games that are more related to imagination and fantasy).

🌊Water signs feel so many things that they cannot be described. They feel everything magnified like other signs (anger, emotions, sadness, joy, happiness). They put all or nothing into something. They cannot feel something or give something that is half-hearted. If you hurt them then you will see their other side. I really like the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind because it reminds me of how strong emotions can be. This is water energy and water signs can only stop feeling when they erase something from their mind.

🌁Of all the earthly signs, it seems to me that Capricorn is the sign that knows what a hard life is and sees the cruelty of it. I think they will understand you best when it comes to such things. But I would say that cap and taurus are similar in that they both want to be strong. Neither of them wants to appear weak. Taurus are quite emotionally stubborn - sometimes it's hard to know what they feel because they don't show it outwardly.

🎆Pluto in 6th house- You may feel as if someone is always on top of you or controlling you. You have to achieve your strength through your work, routine and things that bring you happiness. Pluto in 7th house- many people can betray you. You may feel that the relationships you have are never completely honest. In this life, you are looking for someone you can trust without holding back.

🏡Having placements in 4th house can make you a person who worries too much about what others think. Especially when it comes to your home or family. You always want everything to be tidy and beautiful. You don't like to talk to others about family or anything.

👄8th house synastry can make you a person who has a lot of reservations about a person. You feel like you doubt a lot or have trouble trusting this person. But you can have a very intense relationship with this person, you feel as if the emotions are coming but you don't know where. A person can have feelings for you and hide them. This is actually very tricky synastry because both people can hide their true feelings, desires, needs and jealousy. And then they can have a wrong idea about each other.

-Rebekah🧸💕🦋

#astrology #energy #zodiac signs #planets #my notes #astrological houses #astrology observations

[mamayan]

Dear Yanny,

I am desperately humbly requesting a yandere Giyuu being yandere, very very yandere, with a relatively willing darling AFAB/fem reader and a side dish of bedroom spice.

I am in tears.

Sincerely, Desi <3

Let’s do a yandere profile then for Giyuu! I’ve been wanting to try out this format for a minute now.

☆Giyuu Tomioka★

YANDERE PROFILE || OPEN TEMPLATE!

cw: NSFW • Obsessive/Possessive Themes • Implied kidnapping/imprisonment • Yandere • AFAB! Darling

Type

Overprotective!

This yandere type is obsessive and possessive of their darling, but they believe that their actions are justified in the name of protecting their darling. This yandere type may infantilize or cross boundaries their darling lays down. They intentionally or unintentionally take away their darling’s independence.

Giyuu is constantly in a state of worry for you, he’s thinking of you at nearly every second of the day and when you don’t consume his every waking moment, you appear in his dreams. Did you sleep well? Have you eaten? Did you eat enough? Have you gotten sick? Was someone rude to you? What if you’re hurt?

This type of obsession leads to tailing/stalking/monitoring. He watches you at any and every moment he can, and when he can’t then someone he trusts is. Giyuu learns all your habits, likes and dislikes, fears and dreams, and will insert himself into your life. He doesn’t need to be loud or boisterous, in fact his calm demeanor and presence allow him to seamlessly blend into your world without raising any alarms.

This leads to possessiveness forming. His attachment deepens over time and a sort of ownership forms. It stems from his detailed knowledge of you and even your private life which you’ve never shared with him personally. He sees himself as someone who knows you completely, thus making him the most important character in your life.

He doesn’t understand why you’d spend time with anyone else but him. Those “friends” don’t know you hate that food, but they ignore your indirect ways of steering away from eating it. He knows you dislike it, and he’s happy to eat your favorite food with you, even if he doesn’t love it personally. He’s unafraid of stealing you away too, pretending nonchalantly to have been just passing through with a bag full of your most adored goodies, inviting you away from whatever situation you find yourself uncomfortable in.

Giyuu is a gentleman, even in his most unhinged state of watching you sleep at night in your home you were sure you locked up tightly before bed. He’s not going to be mean or hurtful, his yandere tendencies stem from lack of control in life and deep loss.

Breaking Point

Once “danger” threatens their darling.

Giyuu’s instability would worsen over time, not immediately. It would coincide with his feelings for you. The more he falls in love, the more he begins to stress about that love being taken away in some tragic accident. He’s lost his best friend and sister, how can he lose you too? He’s always being protected by those he cared about, shouldn’t he be the one to protect you then?

Giyuu would ponder and even be consumed by guilt once he realized how powerless he truly is to keep you completely safe. You had a life to live, how could he be so selfish as to tie you to him by a short chain and never let you go?

He won’t take action until a threat is posed… even if that threat is only within his own mind.

It could be a demon nearly harming you, a person that is mean towards you, or even you being clumsy and hurting yourself which could set this trigger off. The longer he waits, the more the line of danger becomes skewed. In the end, he’s giving in to his own paranoia. There’s no way to truly escape this break.

Lucidity

7

Giyuu is actually fairly aware of how wrong his feelings for you have become. What was once innocent and pure has become warped and twisted into something entirely off. He shouldn’t think of you 24/7 nor should he be keeping such a detailed account of your life. It’s completely wrong of him, illegal, invasive towards you, and he feels immense guilt for it.

At first.

At first, he’s consumed with anger and disgust towards himself. He’s one hundred percent lucid at this point and fighting back against his urges and desires. He loves you, how can he be thinking and doing these things?

As time goes on however, his fight with himself becomes a losing battle. He wants you, needs you, has to keep you close. It’s more than he can take really, and in the end, isn’t he pitiful? Won’t you stop struggling? He adores you, he truly only desires your happiness and safety…

In his arms, of course.

Perception of Darling

Complete adoration!

Giyuu is not the sort of man to worship his darling in a religious sense, because humans are flawed and he wouldn’t truly love you if he ignored your flaws right? He loves those too, so Giyuu falls under the category of adoration.

With complete adoration is how Giyuu views you, his beloved darling.

He struggles not to constantly pamper and even mildly infantilize you, though he doesn’t view you as incapable. It’s the opposite in fact, shouldn’t someone as capable and smart as you be spoiled more? He thinks so at least. He wants to take away all your worries and struggles, all of them, because he wants to keep you safe from more than just outside threats.

He wants to protect you from the ones inside too. He knows what depression and anxiety feel like, how they can destroy you from the inside out, and he doesn’t want you suffering from the same thing.

These feelings are pure but his actions can reflect something different.

In his quest to rid you of all troubles, he can unintentionally make himself a trouble, one which he can sadly not rid you of. His simple solutions may even complicate things, like telling you to quit your job and rely on him financially when you complain of a co-worker. He struggles to listen at times, in his desperation to keep you happy at all points in time, and this can be frustrating.

Whether you are screaming at him in rage, crying in fear, or trembling with anxiety… he still thinks there’s no one more adorable and lovely than you. It’s difficult for him to feel anything but love and patience for you, even if he’s the cause of your outbursts.

It’s not that he believes you can do no wrong, it’s just that he could simply care less. As long as you don’t harm yourself, or try harming him (though he understands that much more), then there’s really not much that would cause his perception to waver.

Love Language

Words of affirmation

Giyuu enjoys words of affirmation the most from you. He enjoys all other love languages too, but in a way he somewhat forces quality time (stalking or kidnapping), acts of service (you breathing), receiving gifts (your presence). Physical touch would be a close second, but Giyuu can actually go without it should you not like it.

It’s your words though he cannot receive without you willingly giving it to him.

What he wouldn’t pay or do to hear you tell him “I love you” or “I forgive you” because he does feel guilty taking you. The guilt just doesn’t outweigh his overprotective instincts which drove him to take you in the first place.

Tell him he’s wonderful, compliment his hair or eyes, or tell him you’re grateful for his presence in your life. All will make him melt, his heart softening into silken tofu by your sweet words.

He also loves your voice, so you speaking at all makes his heart flutter. When you decide to utter kind words with that voice?

He’s gone.

Ability/Danger Level

10

Giyuu is as dangerous as he is pretty. Not to you of course, but to any and all who may or may not pose a threat to you. This includes family and friends too. He’s not above harming or even killing for the sake of protecting you, though he’d never reveal his actions out of his own volition.

He likely will get blood on his hands, especially since it becomes easier to take people out without you noticing once he’s kidnapped you. How can he allow someone who has harmed you to continue living and breathing? Even if the damage was only psychological, he views it as a trespass against his own and it will be met with violence or some similar horror.

He really doesn’t feel any guilt either, though he does have a strong moral code, especially for children. But that weird man who tried sexually harassing you?

The world can go without that sort of scum.

Punishment

Light/Non-scarring

Giyuu is likely one of the most patient yanderes out there, but he’s not without some temper. The quickest way to find yourself over his lap with your ass in the air is to try escaping or harming yourself.

His punishments, even when he’s in the worst of moods, will never be anything terrible. The worst you can expect is isolation.

This will seem fine at first, even enjoyable if you truly wish to get away from him, but over time it will wear you down to a sort of fragility you wouldn’t expect. It’s horrible being alone, maddening to a point you may break down and beg. He’s not able to bear hearing it, so he’d either lift the punishment as you having learnt your lesson or hide away.

A lesser punishment he might use is spanking or privilege revoking. He might ban you from the garden or walks you enjoy or put you over his knee and make your poor bum burn for a little. He’d never hit you anywhere else though, and of course, never use anywhere near his full strength in spanking you. It’s honestly little taps to him, but you might disagree when it hurts to sit later.

Giyuu may even be inclined to deny you sexually/or an orgasm if you are sexually intimate.

Reward

Constantly

How can he not? He wants to spoil you rotten, so much you can’t even fathom living without him and all he provides.

Giyuu absolutely rewards you with freedoms as his darling too, and you’ll learn to truly appreciate them as time goes on in captivity. The more accepting and loving you are towards him, the more freely he takes you out and allows you to do things. He doesn’t think you incapable as a human, which means he doesn’t mind TV, books, or entertainment as long as you aren’t using them to escape.

He’s not stupid and proves rather difficult to manipulate. He may let you play your game to let his guard down, but know once you make a move he’s showing you how futile the act is.

He’s happy to spend money on you though, whatever you like too. He’s a simple man and doesn’t really spend much on himself besides the basics and necessity, so he’s actually happy he gets to use his money for something besides collecting interest. Let him decorate you, or get all the fancy tools for your hobby you’ve always wanted. It’s not hard to get him to “reward” you. In fact, it’s harder to make him stop.

Style

Kidnap!

Try as he might to resist it, he wants nothing more to chain you to his side. That’s not possible though, he’s got obligations to attend to, but he can lock you in a gilded cage.

Treatment

A delicate flower~♡

He’s actually a bit hard to read when you first meet him, but he melts like ice on a hot summer day in your presence. Others may complain about his personality, or lack thereof, but you wonder if they’re talking about the same Giyuu that you know.

He never shuts up? He’s always bringing you fresh bouquets, sweets and snacks, any and all items that catch his eye which he thinks you’ll like. He’s detailed and incredibly considerate, and this doesn’t change when you’re taken captive either.

Though he won’t allow you to leave him, he can still give you… space. Your own room if you request it, a little garden, your space, as long as it doesn’t involve straying too far from him.

He’s not controlling in a sense of depriving you of basic human abilities, like cooking or using tools. He knows you are capable of taking care of yourself, and he’s careful not to make you feel otherwise.

He really tries. It’s not always perfect though. When you’re cooperative and willing, he has an easier time letting go of the reigns, but when you aren’t? He’ll lock doors and drawers like one might with a small toddler, his mistrust will show through his actions.

Intimacy

Sexually attracted~

Giyuu’s feelings for you are pure in a sense, but he’s a man with wants and desires…that just happen to all be directed at you.

He craves to hold and caress you, and he’s a bit embarrassed to admit he’s done so while you’ve slept. Your defenseless sleeping expression invokes both envy and adoration. He wishes he slept like that and also wishes you’d never sleep any other way. It’s intimate to him, cradling your slumbering form in his arms, pliant and sweet for him to gaze at until the sun rises. His anxiety for you is quenched when he holds you like so, and he enjoys the peace it brings him emotionally.

If you reject his physical affection, Giyuu is surprisingly one of the few yandere types to respect that boundary.

Don’t be mistaken though, he’s not above manipulating your feelings if there is a chance you’re only rejecting him due to the circumstances you’re in. It’s understandable to be frightened in the beginning, he’s not pushy in asking for anything from you that you aren’t willing to give to him.

But he knows he’s an attractive man, and feels nothing walking shirtless before you, or training while you can see. He’s seductive in how he’ll speak to you, lowering his tone and softening it, making you lean in closer to hear him. That’s when you’ll smell him, a clean and masculine scent that will confuse your mind and body because how can someone evil smell so good?

It won’t be hard to succumb to his advances if you’ve been intimate before you’d been taken. He’s detailed, remember? Confident he knows you inside and out, and that includes your weak points. Where to whisper or breathe to make you melt, where to touch to have you gasping, and how to deep he needs to thrust to make you scream. He’s well aware of how much pressure and time he needs to spend between your legs, how to lick your drooling cunt to have you shake and spasm, where to curl his fingers to make you tear at his locks.

No, Giyuu would never force any sort of intimacy on you. He makes it terribly difficult not crave it in fact.

Freedom

Minimal to none—

While in his presence, feel free to ask for walks, dates, or shopping sprees. He’s fine with taking you out so long as you act normally too.

Otherwise expect nothing. No freedom. Your cage may be luxurious and beautiful but you will never leave it, not without his supervision. He won’t budge either, there’s no convincing him something is safe or acceptable. It’s one of the few times you will see him stern and unbending with you, nothing you do will make him cave.

Begging and pleading may even irritate him enough to punish you as well. Why do you want to leave so badly? Is he so terrible to you?

Habits

Sleep watching

Giyuu spends an abnormal amount of time watching you sleep, even at the expense of his own rest. This won’t ever actually affect you, as he never outright tells you he does this, but if you figure it out or wake up unexpectedly to catch him… it may make you nervous to fall asleep.

Sexual Kinks (for non-platonic yandere)

Marking/Praise/Edging&Overstimulation

Giyuu felt these urges mildly before he met you. He’s aware he likes being told how well he’s performing, holding off an orgasm for him or his partner, or making both himself and his partner a mess with overstimulation.

It’s so much worse now though. He can’t help how desperate he becomes with you, how needy and near feral it makes him to just think of filling your pretty pussy up with his cum. It’s sad almost how you turn him into such a pathetic man. He wants to brand himself on you, it wars with his need to never hurt you too, so he settles by sucking bruises into your skin and occasionally biting you. He’s vocal when you’re both intimate, he tells you how much he adores you, what he adores about you (everything), and how good you are for him. His precious pearl, his ocean and entire heart, he’s not the least bit ashamed as he grits his teeth and cries your name as he comes apart. Giyuu loves teasing you and himself too, working you both so close to the edge before stopping, leaving you both whiny and desperate for one another. He needs you to cling to him, to beg for more, to take it too.

His kinks aren’t one sided. He wants you to mark him up, in the way he wishes he could bring himself to do to you. So drag your nails across his skin, make him wear a collar of your bites and kisses around his neck, pull his hair and bruise him. Anyway you show ownership of him is welcomed, though the amount of dominance he’ll accept from you is dependent on your acceptance of your new life with him. He’s less inclined to release the reigns of control when you’re still adapting, cautious and fearful it may be a ruse to trick him and escape. He’ll relax eventually, and even begin to crave the times you tie him up and torment him like he does to you. Deny his poor aching cock again and again, make him beg for you and worship your sweet cunt as you ride his face, and then deny him again just because. He’d even accept if you just stopped there, leaving him painted red and panting, exhausted but not finished. He’d be entirely grateful if you took mercy too, rode his pretty thick cock until he became delirious and keep going even after he’s cum, moving your hips like a goddess on his lap while he pleads for rest and mercy. He can cum multiple times, but it borders on painful after the third, he won’t complain much though if you test his limits.

He’s happy to return the favor, but Giyuu’s favorite way to overstimulate you both is deep hard sex, holding your gaze as he fills you over and over, your pussy oozing his white hot load each time he pulls out to put you in a new position, before he plugs you right back up. Giyuu likes to cum pressed as firmly against your womb as he can, and he likes when you cum around his cock. It feels to most complete to him, and he cherishes the pleasured look on your face.

If it ever becomes too much, a quick way to make him finish is to praise him too. Tell him how good he makes you feel, how beautiful he is, how you like what he’s doing. His hips will always stutter in surprise, blue eyes widening as he gasps and tenses, cock twitching and threatening to spill just from your lovely voice complimenting him.

Boundaries

The front door—

How can he protect you if you run away? He draws a solid line at the doorway. You will not be crossing it without him or else.

Leniency

Strict

Unsurprisingly for an overprotective yandere, Giyuu is incredibly strict.

You’re health and safety are top priority for him, so from when you wake up to when you fall asleep, he’s got all of it tracked.

Your daily needs are monitored like your exact location in his home. He likes having eyes on you at all times. He won’t enforce specific meal plans, but he makes sure you are eating enough, you’re getting enough vitamins and nutrients, and doctor visits are regular. He even knows your menstrual cycle.

You will be asking him for any and all things, he keeps that under tight control. If you want to bake bread or grow a garden, it will all be done through his means.

Overall Rating

89/100

Giyuu Tomioka is an incredibly dangerous yandere!

While he poses minimal threat to you as his darling, he’s a risk to the outside world and your surroundings. He’s sure in his carnage in the name of protecting you, and he’s lucid about it too, which makes him quite threatening.

You’re chance of escape is little to none, and the punishment following it will surely make your teeth ache.

Snippet

“You’re trying to leave?” His tone is soft, no true indication of his mood to those unfamiliar with him.

You were familiar with him though, and his words made your blood run cold. You weren’t trying to leave, you had only wanted fresh air in fact, but the position you were in now made that difficult to believe even to your own eyes. Balanced on the flat surface of the kitchen counter, you were struggling to open the window due to the cold having frozen it outside. Once you had gotten it open, like an animal you’d stuck your head out immediately. It was an instinctive reaction in all honestly, you just wanted the cool air on your skin.

You should’ve gotten him to do it though, he would’ve, you knew, but you’d wanted to do it yourself. To have the little moment all to your own. A foolish goal in the end, as this was where it took you now. He’s not looking at you, just leaned against the entryway with his arms crossed and a cool expression painting his features, head tilted slightly down.

“I’m not!” It’s too quick a denial to absolve you of suspicion, especially as you scramble down with a face appearing impossibly guilty. “I just wanted to open the window,” you explain, but the nervous rise of your voice and the way you look frightened only make his eyes narrow a fraction. He doesn’t believe you. You need him to believe you, because your punishment for escape is always his silence. It’s damning to your senses that crave company and interaction, his patience greater than your own.

“My love, I swear, I really, truly wasn’t,” you stepped closer, heart rate picking up as anxiety tickled your senses. “I would never leave you,” you whisper, coming up to him even as he gazes down at you with eyes pooling with disbelief and suspicion.

He’s unable to resist pulling you into his arms though, wrapping you up close to him and appreciating your softness in his grasp. It helps as you wrap your arms around his neck, press yourself impossibly closer, and whimper in his ear. His grip increases a fraction, a shiver going down his spine while one hand slips further down to cup your ass and lift you.

His strength amazed you at times, and terrified you at others.

You wrapped your legs around his waist, whispering promises of never leaving his side and loving him forever against his lips before he silences you with a kiss. His soft lips warm and coaxing as he takes you out of the kitchen and towards your shared room in the house. His hold becomes a bit too harsh as you’re laid on the bed, his weight blanketing you. His eyes are darker than usual, deeper pools of blue you worry might drown you as he slips his hands beneath your skirt, calloused fingers running along the soft flesh of your thigh as he spreads them. A burning need deep in his gut to remind you where you belong.

“Who do you belong to?” It’s so light against your lips you nearly miss it.

Until he tears your underwear off, a yelp elicited from you at the sting on your flesh from where he tugged and tore them.

“You!”

He easily slips between your legs, fingers sliding through your folds, finding your puffy nub and applying pressure until you’re moaning.

“G-Giyuu…”

“That’s right. You belong to me, don’t you pearl? All mine,” he’s pressing into you, two fingers opening you up despite your entrance weeping for all of him. Still mostly clothed you grip his sleeves, whining because it’s not enough, his lips hushing you again. He swallows all the little noises you make, tongue invading and stealing your ability to think as he fucks you with his fingers. Each shlick of your pussy has you heating further, the lewd wet noises he elicits making your legs tremble around his waist.

He breaks the kiss, rubbing and stretching your gummy walls before curling his fingers and vigorously attacking your poor g-spot, his lips tugging into a smile as you shatter for him.

You’re left limp beneath him, the orgasm he tore from you too quickly made you dizzy as you pant and gather your mind again. Giyuu is already sliding the tip of his cock through your slick before you can recover, pressing forward once he’s lubricated enough to slip past the tight first ring of muscle into your warmth. His cock spreads you perfectly, opening you up and leaving you gasping for air due to the sensitive inner walls being stimulated further.

It’s desperate and messy how he fucks you, intertwining your fingers and pressing them beside your head, kissing and marking your neck up while repeating under his breath how you’re his.

“Mine too—!” Your airy cry has him sinking even deeper, a groan coming out at your own claiming of him.

“Giyuu—,” he wants nothing more than to brand your soul with himself.

“Yours,” he nods, looking into your eyes as he bullies his cock against your poor cervix, using his thighs to press you up further, almost in half while he fucks you.

“All yours,” he moans, burying his face in your neck while he stuffs you full, the room heating as you did, your core tightening around him while your body edges on the beginning of another orgasm.

He stops just before you can cum. His weight and warmth immediately leaving you as you cry out in denial. Your wide gaze on his cooling expression, his jaw taunt with tension.

“Giyuu…?”

“Not till you learn.” Your confusion must show on your face.

“That you’ll never be safe unless you’re by side.”

He didn’t believe you.

“But I—,”

“Shh… I know, my sweet pearl.” He’s blanketing you again, warmth returning to your body but his eyes remain cool.

“You’ll learn eventually.”

Something dark swirls in those depths, your gut telling you to run but…

There’s no where to go.

Dividers hand drawn by @benkeibear !

#Yan answers #not proof read lol #Giyuu Tomioka #Giyuu Tomioka x reader #Giyuu Tomioka x reader smut #yandere Giyuu Tomioka #yandere Giyuu #yandere Giyuu smut #Giyuu Tomioka smut #yandere kny #yandere kny smut #kny smut #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #yan loves her mooties #yandere profile #yandere profile Giyuu Tomioka

[hephaestuscrew]

I want to talk about the significance of which characters defeats the different antagonists in the Wolf 359 finale: Kepler kills Rachel (and vice versa), Jacobi kills Riemann, Minkowski kills Cutter with the help of Lovelace, and Hera and Eiffel wipe Pryce's memories. As I'll argue below, none of those combinations are incidental.

Jacobi and Kepler each get to dispatch an adversary, but, since they've only recently and - perhaps reluctantly - aligned with our protagonists in their aims, they each deal with more minor antagonists. Rachel and Riemann are ultimately following orders rather than giving them, so their defeat - while important - doesn't have the same emotional weight as that of Pryce or Cutter. This is also why the confrontations with Riemann and Rachel each conclude significantly before the confrontations with Pryce and Cutter. (Cont. below cut)

I'd argue that Riemann is the least developed character in the show (of those that are voiced and appear in more than one episode). He's nothing more than a Goddard henchman, and that's deliberate. Jacobi’s investment in this fight is practical, rather than emotional. There's no personal antagonism between the two of them. And this works for Jacobi as a character - his job has always been to “make very big things blow up” and he's only recently started properly putting his own independent thought into who he wants to be blowing up. So Jacobi and Riemann face off against each other in a locked room, with a fistfight and then an explosion.

In contrast, Kepler and Rachel do have personal antagonism between them. It's clear that they have a history of professional dislike. In Kepler's backstory episode, Rachel clearly takes a great deal of glee in mocking Kepler about “Operation Gigantic, Humiliating Screw Up”, and Kepler certainly doesn't seem pleased to see Rachel when the Sol arrives at the Hephaestus in Ep55. Although there are obviously other motivations involved, their petty interpersonal hatred gives an interesting extra significance to them killing each other.

Another way to frame it is that Kepler and Rachel are two people at a similar middle-of-the-hierarchy level who've both been faced with a degree of undeniable evil even beyond what they've previously encountered from (and enacted on behalf of) their employer, and had to decide what they are willing to go along with. Their mutual killing of each other is the result of a conflict between two contrasting potential decisions in that situation. 

It's also notable that while the minor antagonists are each defeated by a single character on their own, the major villains could not have been defeated in this way. The two most significant confrontations in the finale each involve a pair of characters who care deeply about each other standing together against someone who has personally hurt them. 

After killing Cutter, Minkowski acknowledges she “couldn't... have done it... without you, Captain”. Similarly, the way Eiffel and Hera defeat Pryce required both Eiffel's sacrifice (it is important that wiping the mindspace is his idea) and Hera's abilities (it takes a lot of mental and emotional strength for her to enact that plan). The ethos of the show all comes back to that quote from Eiffel in Ep25 that needing help from others “is called being a part of a crew. You ever meet anyone that could get things done all on their lonesome?”

It's important that Hera confronts Pryce - she gets the chance to stand in defiance against a person who has caused her so much pain. Hera gets to assert herself as her own person against the first person not to treat her as one. While I certainly don't think anyone should feel responsible for confronting those who have personally hurt them in real life, it would have been narratively unsatisfying for Pryce to have been defeated without Hera playing a central role. That confrontation is necessary for catharsis and resolution of Hera's character arc. But it's important that Hera doesn't have to do it alone. It's important that she does it with Eiffel, the person she is closest to, by her side. And what's more, in that mindspace, he's by her side in a more literal direct way than he has ever has been before.

Terrifying as Pryce is, it's Cutter who has been our 'big bad' throughout the whole series, the one that we've been aware of since we became aware of larger sinister forces at work in this narrative. And so it's apt that he's defeated by Minkowski, the Commander, with the help of Lovelace. Our two protagonists who have at points been defined by their leadership positions defeat the villain who has been defined by his leadership over them. Our two Commanders defeat the person above them in the chain of Command. 

If Minkowski has a personal nemesis, it's Cutter (as I argued in my Minkowski harpoon essay). Now that Hilbert's gone, the same could probably be said of Lovelace. He's the one who recruited them (and their respective crews, assuming that he was involved in the recruitment of the other members of Lovelace's crew as well) into the hellscape that is the Hephaestus. He's the one basically all of their pain and turmoil ultimately comes back to.

Minkowski & Lovelace's confrontation against Cutter, and Hera & Eiffel's confrontation against Pryce, are both about the harm that's been done to them as individuals. And about the harm done or threatened to their loved ones (including the friend they each stand beside in this particular confrontation). And about their principles and themes around control, autonomy, personal agency, and identity. And about the desire to protect people in general on a larger, global or even galactic, scale.

And all of those resonances work particularly well because of the specific choices made about which protagonists should face off against which antagonists, in order to provide the most effective culmination of the character arcs that have been built over 61 episodes.

#Wolf 359 #w359 #There's more that could be said #but there's always more that could be said #and some of this I've said before but not all together #so it felt worth putting together like this #I don't like not having more footnote-esque thoughts to add in tags #In my brain the post feels incomplete without them #But actually I think on this occasion all the thoughts I wanted to express are above #wolf 359 spoilers #w359 spoilers #the empty man posteth #I cba to tag all the characters #They're all there

[itsclydebitches]

I know there's a lot to unpack in James' new interview but I am feral, FERAL I SAY, over this fucking line right here:

"His need was to be loved, and his tragic flaw was the belief that he was unlovable."

Back before Season 3 hit and Tedependent became ~trendy~ (not actually lol) I was heacanoning and writing Trent as a pretty anxious individual, someone with a ton of internalized self-loathing whose "whole vibe" was more of a mask than legitimate self-confidence. At the time I worried about him coming across as too OOC because really, what did we have to support this? Ted Lasso's prevailing theme of men discovering love and support when they previously had none? The lovely parallel of Trent struggling with many of Ted's own flaws, but presenting in opposite ways (cutting cynicism vs. endless optimism)? The then—far less developed—comments from James that Trent might have a rough relationship with his father? It felt unsubstantiated, unpersuasive, built more on my own interest in those kinds of characters and the occasional awkward moment from Trent than actual canon. Even into Season 3 I questioned whether my reading of him as struggling, significantly, with the care Ted offers wasn't just a result of my own, imagined inner life for him.

But NOW.

I'm sorry, hold up, can I just re-confirm that TRENT'S TRAGIC FLAW IS HIS BELIEF THAT HE'S UNLOVABLE? Unlovable??? Thank you, James Lance, for validating every reading I've had of this character since he first appeared on screen. Do people realize the depth this adds to every interaction Trent has? Particularly with Ted? Unlovable Trent Crimm starts off this relationship with a sincere compliment on his style ("I like your glasses"), something that Season 3 will present as a core part of his personality, something he's largely hidden away. Unlovable Trent Crimm grappling with the fact that yes, Ted enjoyed spending time with him. Him. WHILE he was playing the part of the asshole journalist. Unlovable Trent not being rejected when he admits, in moments of vulnerability, that he "Loves [their] chats." Unlovable Trent having his father's (likely snide) "Independent" comment reframed as a fun pun + advice to follow his "bliss": you have support, Trent, no matter what you choose to do. I don't care if you're successful covering a masculine-coded sport, I care if you're happy. Unlovable Trent committing the ultimate betrayal and being forgiven for it, immediately. Unlovable Trent being forcibly integrated into the Richmond family; actively accepted rather than passively tolerated: yes you should work here, yes you're a Diamond Dog, sit your butt down, Trenthouse Magazine, you will never be excluded again.

I'm sorry for the rambling post but I'm just so!! Insane about this!!! So much of Trent's hesitance could have been written off as a result of his career. That is, it might have been merely a learned reaction after decades of deliberately pissing people off. Of course they dislike him, but take him out of that environment and everything's fixed. Yet James has confirmed that he played Trent as intrinsically believing this. The career was a result of that unfounded fear—Might as well keep people at a distance before they hurt me first—as well as, simultaneously, a desire to somehow achieve the love that should have been unconditional from the start—Maybe my father will like me if I can be that "alpha male man's man" in print. Because this isn't just a flaw, it's a tragic flaw, a literary term that denotes a deficiency that leads to the character's downfall. This belief is so entrenched that it has led to Trent actively self-sabotaging his chances of being loved in the first place; a horrible self-fulfilling prophecy. He NEEDED someone like Ted—a fucking love sledgehammer that forces people to accept his care in the least subtle ways possible, even when they're acting as their own worst enemy—and by god, he got him!

Aside from Nate, Trent has always felt like the most isolated character to me at the start of the series (and even Nate has a good relationship with his mother and sister). What we've learned in Season 3 and James' interviews has only reinforced that reading for me: he was closeted in his marriage, unintentionally hurting his daughter, he's suffering under his father's expectations, he hates the press persona he's created to survive, he's bored at his job, footballers and other potential interviewees despise him—and not without reason (Roy). He has no friends that we see pre-Richmond and he's reached a point where the simple act of someone saying that they liked spending the day with him—again, while he's actively TRYING to piss them off and keep his distance—has him in such a state of shock he runs for the door, pens an uncharacteristically hopeful write-up, and is well on his way to upending his entire life for that man.

Because of course he is!!! From Trent's perspective Ted is a fucking impossibility shaped into human form. This is a man in his 40s whose greatest lifelong fear—now all but a certainty at his age—has been dismantled in a matter of hours. I'd write a book-length love letter to him too! And RIP to finale!Trent, but I would have run fucking Rom-Com style after the man who not only changed my life, but my entire sense of self-worth. (Ah fuck, but there's that tragic flaw again, keeping Trent hesitant. I now stand by my reading of the "I'll leave you be" scene as an unrequited goodbye.)

But finale aside, the man who'd convinced himself he was unlovable fell for the man who was love incarnate.

If that's not the most romantic shit you've ever heard idk what is!!!

#Ted Lasso #Trent Crimm #Tedependent #mymetas #don't worry everyone I'm SO normal about this🙃

[suniverseastro]

ASTROLOGY OBSERVATION #6

Teachers who have Leo/5th in Sun/Moon/Mecury/AC often come up with and help new fun games in their lessons and children often love this.

Mercury Pisces/12th may have difficulty expressing their thoughts, their mind often has difficulty focusing on imperatives, they are cheerful communicators, humorous, fond of art, but after a period of activity, they need some alone time to recharge

Mecury Aries talking to Mecury Sagittarius = lol really really entertaining, mecury Sagittarius love to speak all their thoughts honestly, frankly with different themes and stories in the world and Aries mecury likes new things, they are comfortable, fun, honest communicators

Aspect Moon-North Node in the synastry chart can talk about the predestined relationship in this life of two people

Mercury Virgo: they are really detailed, analytical, have moral standards, they think a lot about everything, this helps them to be more delicate in handling problems with others and things that require precision. They could be easily stressed, may criticize themselves and others when they do not achieve the perfection they want

People with the Ascendant who have many difficult angles may have difficulty finding love because they feel self-conscious about their appearance, they have many obstacles when approaching others, so their love story may be late

The position of Pisces and Virgo both needs encouragement. These 2 signs both have their own low self-esteem, Pisces is often sensitive, dreamy and easily overwhelmed by their surroundings, their mind easily strays from the material world, or daydreams and is very spiritual creatures. With the influence of Neptune, dreams, intuition, high sensitivity, cosmic energy that makes Pisces' energy pick up waves, combined with the extension from Jupiter makes them want to learn about everything things happen in the spiritual world and find answers, they easily dissolve into energy fields so their own identity can also be challenged causing them to become confused know " Who am I?"

Virgo are quite discreet, careful people, they also often hide their shortcomings, they always try to make everything more perfect, so they tend to put pressure on themselves, thinking that they are not always good enough, they may always be dissatisfied with themselves and others

+ So encouragement with these 2 signs help them raise believe in themselves, encourage them, help them stabilize their spirits, and have faith in them will help them feel more confident.

The position of Sagittarius and Gemini, they need people who stimulate the mind, talk, open, interesting entertainment, give them their own space.

+ Sagittarius is quite independent. They love to have fun, travel, explore and learn. They seem indifferent and it is true that they are less interested in outside bullshit and trash on social media. They like to hang out with friends, spend quality time with their loved ones, sometimes they are sad and lonely but that often keeps it to themselves.

+ Gemini love to talk and debate a lot of different topics, they are good diplomats, is the sign affected by Mercury makes them feel like the thoughts running through their heads make them need to expend energy this by talking to someone. When they are stuck with a problem, it is easy for them to think too much, leading to imbalance

+ Both of these signs are passionate, freedom-loving, laid-back, fun to be around, they can be intimidating and scary when someone hurts the people they love They need help too. A solid fulcrum to help them relax, always ready to be by their side and encourage them

An interesting thing is: Sagittarius likes to feel secure when being with Cancer

In big 3, if 2-3 positions all share the same quality, it will make them feel confused and conflicted with themselves (sun square / opposite moon) or what others feel about themselves (AC square/ opposite Sun/Moon)

The air sun seems easier to approach and get to know strangers but they can be very cold. If you don't communicate with them regularly, they will automatically withdraw from the relationship

The Libra Sun is actually quite difficult to identify, they can be pleasing and transforming themselves to harmonize with others, love to be complimented and impressed by their appearance and fashion sense. they may take a long time to think before making a decision. In a love relationship, they can stick around and watch their partner often, they want their partner to share everything with them, communication is important with air signs

#leo placements #5th house #sagittarius placements #gemini placements #cancer and sagittarius #virgo mecury #virgo #pisces #virgo and pisces #sun square moon #sun-moon aspect #sun #moon aspect AC #mecury pisces #mecury 12th #sun libra #air sun #astrology #astrological observations #natal chart #aspects

[theheirofthesharingan]

So people rightfully address that there's subtext that Orochimaru is a pedo, but I feel like there's similar subtext (although with different intentions) for Danzo? Orochimaru's predation is clearly lustful but Danzo's seems power/control oriented, especially since we know that's a big part of his character (the need to demonstrate power because he feels inadequate). These are all mixed together for me tbf, but there are things like everyone in the village knowing he "takes a child from every great family" to the point where Shino's dad offers an orphan instead of Shino to protect Shino, in general his "recruits" are orphans or otherwise vulnerable children with some sort of isolating power, and they're made to have personal hero worship and unfailing loyalty/fidelity to him OR are deeply manipulated to stay fearful enough of him to obey him. He literally has a "don't talk or I'll hurt you seal" on his people. In Itachi's novel you're also meant to experience the same disgust/fear when Danzo appears that I felt Orochimaru gave in Part 1, and they're the only 2 people in the property depicted that way.

I feel like this is different from yakuza, mafia, or even other military organizations because those are typically formed out of brotherhood and their own honour code. The format of the ROOT is more similar to independent militia in warzones, and these organizations are well-documented to use sexual abuse of boys as a control tactic. In film ( a lot of asian films actually ime) whenever institutional or ritual abuse is a plot point, there's always a character that is severely injured by the SA they experience and then go on to commit suicide over it. Shisui fits this role in Naruto.

I definitely agree with you on the similarities between Danzo and Orochimaru. They worked together and shared extreme ideals to the level of unhealthily obsessing in the things they believed in. They both took advantage of the vulnerable children to carry out their agenda, and to them both ends justified the means.

Danzo and Orochimaru are two similar, twisted kinds of evil but with different flavour to their malevolence. Orochimaru, later in the story, has some sort of epiphany, by which he realizes he doesn't want to incline himself towards evil anymore; Danzo, on the other hand, ends himself thinking he was right all along. Of the two, Danzo is more dangerous for the reasons you mentioned, and also because with the help of more knowledge you could defeat Orochimaru. Danzo just seems invincible.

He's cold, manipulative, adamant, persuasive, and makes himself sound the most reasonable of all. He seems to have problems for all solutions and solutions to all problems. The extremities someone would want to avoid, Danzo doesn't care about it at all. He's resourceful, all the things achieved by the ugliest means possible. His Root/Foundation is symbolic of the literal foundation of Konoha (and Shinobi world in general) that had evil embedded in them from its advent. Danzo not only flourishes on this darkness, he also causes it.

Honestly, I'd never thought of Shisui being one of his victims. It was always Itachi, because the two interacted more. Even if Anbu reports to the Hokage, Danzo clearly had put his leash on Itachi enough to manipulate him, and keep him in check enough to bend Itachi to his will. I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks this way even though novels don't exactly hint towards the SA and manga definitely can't.

However, considering this is Danzo we're talking about, no theory is outlandish because he is the personification of irredeemable evil in the series. Thanks for the ask because it was fun looking into it.

#itachi #shisui #itachi uchiha #uchiha itachi #shisui uchiha #ask #anon #anti danzo

[ceapa-mica]

Family Life: Childhood 🎀 - a Thrawn headcanon

I thought today would be a good day for a new family life headcanon, and here I am feeding you with new content! ✨

This one is a fluffy SFW hc.

Reader's gender is not mentioned.

Taglist: @bingbongooo @dance-like-russia-isnt-watching @ele-millennial-weirdo @enaelyork @jesslove23 @thrawnalani @thrawnsboots @twincesskorisoka @generousblizzardchaos @davesrightshoe @shoe-bag @tearyeve @blackddarling @obbicrystaleo

The days of changing diapers and baby formula are over. You and Thrawn are now parents of a bright eyed six year old girl…

Thrawn wants to be actively involved as a father. Among other things, he learned how to braid your daughter’s hair. He's become quite good at it.

He actually likes to join her roleplay games, like tea party or supermarket, when he has the time. Watching them play makes your heart melt.

You speak a decent amount of Cheunh at this point since your daughter often speaks a mix of both Basic and Cheunh.

She is so full of energy, you can't keep her confined to your quarters 24/7. You allow her to roam designated hallways of the Chimera as long as she doesn't keep anyone from their duties.

She knows she has to return to your quarters asap when the Chimera gets involved in a battle.

The crew has to get used to an unsupervised child wandering the hallways first. Your daughter is polite and respectful though, in fact she got most of the crew wrapped around her finger.

She's independent for her age and always seeks answers to anything. She's very curious and wants to learn everything there is to learn about the Galaxy, the Chimera, the Empire and the Chiss Ascendancy.

As for the latter, Thrawn regularly tells her stories of his people. She can't get enough of them.

Every now and then you spend a day together as a family. Whether on the Chimera or at the cottage Thrawn bought a few years ago, you always have a good time.

There are days where your kid follows Eli around. He doesn't mind answering all her questions, and he's patient with her. He actually loves having her follow him around like a little duckling.

You and Thrawn agree that you never would have thought about some of the things she asks you about. She's the smartest kid you've ever known.

There will be a time where every child starts nagging their parents about a pet, and your daughter is no exception. A child on a warship is one thing, an animal is something else. Thrawn thinks about it and eventually sends someone to Myrkr to catch a young Ysalamir for her.

It's an uncommon pet to have. She loves that hairy lizard instantly and they become great companions. You rarely see her without the ysalamir sitting on her shoulder.

Your daughter is now the right age to attend school. Since you don't live planetside permanently, she takes holonet classes. Via holocam she can see and talk to other students and teachers.

She LOVES school and the teachers are amazed at her vast knowledge about the Galaxy. Due to her intelligence and eagerness to participate in classes, some kids are being mean to her.

She claims that she doesn’t care what they say, but you see in her crimson eyes that the words of those kids hurt her. Thrawn knows what it's like being treated differently and gives her good advice.

As for your love life, Eli has turned out to be better at babysitting than any droid could. He looks after your daughter when Thrawn takes you out for date night.

Thrawn is determined to keep his family away from Imperial affairs. He never mentions either of you to the Emperor or Darth Vader and doesn't take any of you to public appearances like Imperial balls or other official events. If he has to attend, he goes alone.

Your daughter loves drawing on flimsi for her dad. He keeps her art in a drawer of his desk, admiring it when she's at the cottage with you and he feels lonely.

When your little one gets sick you make sure she gets the care she needs. I might add that despite being half Chiss she's not immune to human infections and viruses. She's still part human, so you make sure she gets all necessary vaccines humans get too.

Thrawn thinks it's important to teach her basic survival skills from an early age. That includes swimming, how to make a campfire and find shelter, and basic self-defense. You find the time to teach her together. In a dangerous Galaxy it can't hurt to be prepared.

Being the little whirlwind she is, she ruined a few pieces of art from Thrawn's collection either with paint or broke them while playing. They're irreplaceable and Thrawn was angry, but also understanding. You're dealing with a playful child here after all.

Your daughter has changed your life for the better, that you and your husband agree on. You never would have guessed you can love someone as much as you love your little girl. Every day with her is a new adventure.

Thrawn toys with the idea of sending your little one to an Imperial elite boarding school for girls, where many high ranking Imperials send their daughters. He wants her to be more disciplined like Chiss children her age usually are, and he thinks a good education might help her find her way in life. Before you can make any decision on that (or argue if you’re against it), an incident involving purrgils occurs while you're all aboard, getting you exiled into an unknown far away Galaxy with apparently no way home…

Yeah I'm leaving that at a cliffhanger. 😈 You can probably guess that the next family life hc will be about your life in exile on Peridea. You better prepare yourself for more fluff and some angst. 😉

#thrawn #grand admiral thrawn #mitth'raw'nuruodo #thrawn x reader #thrawn x you #thrawn headcanon #blue man hot #thrawn fanfiction #dad thrawn #star wars rebels #ahsoka series #star wars

[rinatic]

Jaehyun as a boyfriend

You two met thanks to a mutual friend

At first, jaehyun sees you as a normal person, he doesn't feel attracted to you

But as days go by and you two hang out a lot more

He starts to feel something

He'll be so annoyed with his feelings, it makes him vulnerable and weak, that's why he'll fight with his heart for weeks

He wants to stop those feelings, but it becomes more difficult when you're present

Has a fear of rejection and trust issues :(

Please save him from the "what if-" questions

When he finally accepts his own feelings, he'll keep his eyes on you

Every time you two interact, he'll pay attention to how you act

Boy just wants to make sure you like him back

Or he'll never confess

One day, a big dose of confidence hit him and that's when he decided to confess

In this stage, he doesn't care if the feelings are mutual, he just wants to get it off his chest

He won't be awkward at all when he confesses, he'll be charming as hell

And you do like him so why not?

When you two started dating, jae won't know what to do at first and how to act like a boyfriend

While he doesn't make the biggest effort ever, he's still a gentleman and is trying to be better

He might be skeptical at first, but as time goes and he adapts to you being his girlfriend, he'll get better

The first thing he'll do is taking you to dates in places you've never went to

His love language is definitely quality time and actions of service

So he basically wants to 'show you the world' and make you explore it with him

And he'll keep a cam with him so he can take pics and have memories with you

Is an attentive boyfriend

He forbids you from doing any work when he's around

Also, when you say you want something, it magically appears in your room the second day

He's also that kind of boyfriend who fixes everything, no need to call someone to fix your broken lamp when jaehyun is here

Wants to teach you stuff, like how to take care of things when you travel or when he can't be with you

He doesn't really like to reveal much about himself, he's more of a listener and is always willing to listen to you

He has walls built up around him, and you're the only person who knows his secrets

That's because you gained his trust, and once you trust him too, he'll never let a single person know about your secrets or the things you wish no one knows

You two understand each other without saying a single word

And you two barely argue, he's so understanding and knows how to control his emotions well + he HATES arguments

Unfiltered conversations

He's not sensitive and will speak his mind + doesn't like sugarcoating

Sucks at giving affection, only gives awkward hugs and pats lol

So you'll have to initiate affection with him first

And if initiates it first, which is RARE, it's cute because he actually wants you two to be fair and equal lol

So he's not into pda, yet makes sure everyone knows you're his

Surprisingly, hand holding 24/7 is a thing (bro thinks he's slick)

He also sucks at expressing himself, sometimes you'll think that he doesn't love you but he is actually worshiping the ground you walk on

Just doesn't know how to show it

Poor boy

Isn't controlling at all, lets you do what you want as long as you don't hurt yourself, he likes independence and is more of a hypeman lol

Knows that you like hearing him speak english so he secretly studies it more to show you how fluent he is

And he talks in a deeper tone just to hear you simp over him lol

Always shows off his body in front of you 'accidentally', like after working out, he wipes his sweaty face using his shirt instead of a towel

Highkey enjoys receiving praises and compliments from you that's why he does this

When he's away, he makes sure to send you a playlist that he made specifically for you

"This is only for you, y/n." With that cute smile of his

Ugh

Okay

You better listen to the playlish 3953728294 times daily and don't you dare question his music taste, better than yours ofc 😊

#nct jaehyun #nct fanfic #nct imagines #nct scenarios #nct x reader #nct fluff #nct 127 #nct #nct u

[eviebyme]

Hello Evie, I really like your page! Can I request who in Stray Kids is the clingy needy type of boyfriend? Thanks 💖

Hi there! Thank you so much 😊! Thanks for your request!💘

Who is Clingy in Stray Kids

Clingy

Hyunjin, Jisung, Seungmin

Hyunjin values alone time with you and will want to be considered a special person to you. He can definitely give you space when you need it but will need assurance every now and again. When you’re out spending time with your friends he’ll remind you he’s your boyfriend and deserves time too. Jisung cares too much. He will want to solve every problem in your life, no matter how small. If you look like you’ve had a rough day he will want to know EVERYTHING that happened and will think through possible solutions. Even if you just want to unwind and be alone, he will worry. He’ll give you space but will overthink things until you talk about it. Seungmin just likes doing things with you. Whenever he finds something he wants to do he automatically thinks of you and will invite you along. His relationships tend to become very intertwined and he is the type to take on characteristics of his partner. It’s not on purpose but he enjoys sharing parts of his life with you and vice versa.

Not Clingy

Lee know, Jeongin

Lee know trusts you and is off doing his own thing. He understand you have a life of your own and doesn’t mind space in your relationship. Since he is very introverted and skeptical, the fact that he’s even in a relationship with you means he 100% trusts you. So, he is pretty low maintenance - but he also expects his partner to be the same. Jeongin is a very laidback guy. He values his independence and prefers drama free relationships. Sometimes he is too trustworthy and gets hurt, but he is always ready to open his heart to someone.

Lowkey Clingy

Chan, Felix, Changbin

Chan is naturally easy going but he has a firm line for certain things. One of those things is the boundaries in his relationship. He has standards which he upholds and finds it very disrespectful if someone goes against them. If his partner receives attention or gives their attention to someone else he would think this goes against the boundaries of a relationship. It will definitely irk him, but he is very easy to talk to and he will give you space if you need it. Felix is sensitive and internalizes his feelings. He does get anxious when he’s away from his partner, but he doesn’t want to burden them with his neediness. From the outside it seems like he is secure enough to give his partner their freedom, but inside he’s battling his insecurities. Changbin wishes he was easygoing. In fact he tries to persuade people he is - but the hard truth is he’s not. His ego won’t allow him to relax. Similar to Felix, he will want to appear calm but will feel threatened.

Requests Open!

✨Masterlist✨

#stray kids #bang chan #lee know #seungmin #hyunjin #changbin #Felix #jeongin #stray kids reactions #stray kids imagines #stray kids preferences #stray kids scenarios #stray kids drabbles #han jisung

[firespirited]

everywhere but here, I am the mom.

not the 'mom friend', not fun aunt or godmother, the big sister type you go to when you're at the end of your tether and you need a mom to clean up something nasty, kill a spider, unload on someone who can handle it and not make it about them, help you pull the trigger on a hard decision you've already taken but haven't accepted. I make things happen, I connect people, I do mediation and emotional prep; I tell people their full options and help them weigh it all up. You were pondering it for a while but you left here with a lawyer's appointment and a loan we both know is a 'pay it forward' gift. I carry the secrets and the bad memories so it makes sense you move on without me when all's well. The big sister thing means I feel like family and shelter but not really like an everyday friend

Here, I get to be Saffy, bit of a klutz, silly brained with a childlike wonder for creatures and well-designed things who can talk about fear of crowds, slowly healing the relationship with my own mum, I watch horror and post about my dog. That's who I want to be, a large facet of who I am internally buuut life rarely fits the idea we have of ourselves does it?

Part of repairing the imbalanced relationship with mum was letting her do some protective mothering so i can fill the desperate ache to have one person in the world who has my back, while making my support of her more streamlined and unspoken. You know the concept of the toilet paper fairy who makes loo roll appear and always knows when to buy more, that but for groceries, electronics and paperwork, and big decisions we carry together but it has to be very businesslike and unemotional: she's as much a big sweetheart as she is fiercely independent (and ashamed/angry her daughter had to carry half the load). So now she's the one who notices or who I go to when the world has asked me to be The Mom again.

I imagine it's a lot like gay penguins: there's an ecological vacuum of big sister-mom types and some of us just have the vibes.

This winter I've done a metric ton of non-judgmental, non-condescending temporary 'parenting' of women with parents who are gone or who can't handle it and friends who aren't friends-for-that-kinda-thing. I'm really good at it, at weathering a storm for someone and being an anchor. It doesn't hurt any more because mum can be an emotional mum to me.

but I'm never sure how to talk about it here between dolls and shitposts and if i'm not specific... I mean... "chronically ill/special needs person currently or previously in abusive relationship with parent/partner who takes a while to realize and accept abuse isn't just fists but sleep depravation and symptom minimization and all sorts of tiny things that add up to life-threatening injury to the body and mind" applies to many of us dollblr folks as it does like 80% of my social circle offline.

and there's no way of saying that being around some folks is like experiencing a slow motion train wreck without sounding like an asshole.

I am that asshole.

I am goatsed out and want to be a hermit.

Did I tell you guys my doctor vented for 45 minutes about having to put her "dumbass hysterical" sister (deaf and never put in school) into care and the paperwork involved in getting disability (the thing that took me 14 years and she got her sister's transferred in 3 weeks). and I truly empathize but that wasn't very professional and your sister is a person. please.

and I can't cut M out of my life now that her kid is, as predicted, like her (and the facebook-chosen not-yet-divorced deadbeat-dad of 3 special needs kids), an adorable barely verbal two-year-old. She won't be able to navigate special needs care alone but she's still staunchly anti-vax and had a diatribe of ableism mixed with mystical pseudoscience for me, interspersed with thanks for being more family to her than her sister in helping her know how to leave a bad relationship. hokay not making this easy.

S is going to be on the hook for tax evasion if she stays with the shady useless guy she's been babying (and resenting) for 20 years solely because she doesn't like to do activities alone. three times now I've been cornered for the vent sesh. I am sitting on the floor the next time, I need blood in my brain to emote properly. and that unneutered bulldog living in the south is a crime, it can't breathe it can't think, it's all hormones and anxiety covered in fur, of course it's a nuisance around the house.

and there's more but i'm tired of typing and thinking.

#saf #rambling #rants #personal

[elysiansparadise]

Hi angel <33 appreciate the way you interpret the uranus in the fifth placement sm!!!

I would deeply appreciate a mars in the 12th house interpretation from you :D if possible~ as I’ve been struggling to deal w/this placement for years now :/

Hello Angel! Thank you so much for your words, I would gladly give you my takes on this placement. 🤎

Mars in the 12th house

The inner world of these natives is not very simple as their calm and almost indifferent personality may reflect, they are people who feel things very intensely, perhaps more than they would like. This feeling of inner war in them fills them with anger and frustration with themselves, for feeling that they cannot resolve those turbulent and confusing tides among which they feel they are drowning. A fear of being vulnerable in the eyes of others causes them to project both consciously and unconsciously as a person who has a very well placed wall between themselves and others, it is difficult for them to appear vulnerable with other people and they always seek to appear as someone who should not be with mess with, all as a defense mechanism against the feeling of not being powerful that others might want to instill in him. These people are strong, brave and powerful, we find people who naturally emanate that strength that they hardly feel they have. As many posts say, these natives tend to internalize their temper and anger, but what is not explained is that in various scenarios, they take it out on them themselves. 

Despite wanting to be strong in the face of whatever life throws at them, they do not see rudeness and cruelty as synonymous with strength, you will never see them being aggressive or rude to other people, in fact they avoid making others feel that way, because they empathize with the effect that these attitudes can have on others. They are very empathetic people, especially if they violate, assault or insult people who do not deserve it, they are capable of courageously facing any executioner. Although it is very likely that when they were young they felt that they had to repress this confrontation to avoid unpleasant experiences. These people will always prefer to resolve a conflict in an assertive and rational way, because they hate feeling that they have lost control or that with some emotional outburst they could see themselves as unstable or worse, hurting someone they love. These natives may prefer to work on their own or feel that things can work out better if they do it independently, but deep down there is a fear of being alone. But the tendency to isolate comes from the fear of being hurt or attacked by others again.

We have complex lovers, because as time goes by you will discover deeper aspects of them, and the more you discover, the more addicted you will become to them. To have a full sexual relationship, these natives need to feel something genuine, that excites them and at first they don't understand why, they need you to captivate them with love and delicacy, things that they may not admit they like at first, but it drives them crazy. In return, they will give you the most pleasant experience of your life, they will take you to another world through their warmth, the touch of their hands and the sensation of their kisses in every corner of your body. Sex with them is something magical, it's something almost indescribable, but it's something that definitely exceeds every idea or fantasy you've ever had. Your pleasure will be their pleasure, and theirs will be yours, a sensation of having had a unique experience will invade you and leave you thinking of them always. A true dream lover. They want to make you feel weak about them, because most likely you make them feel that way. They will deliver every last drop of energy to their partner until both are exhausted and more united than ever. Their attractiveness is something worth noting, as their aura is beyond powerful, magnetic and fiery. They will attract the eyes of whoever. Something that is key in this placement is that they unconsciously make gestures or actions that seem attractive to others even if they don't see it that way, from something as simple as adjusting their clothes.

-> Go back to the masterlist

#mars in the 12th #mars #12th house #astro content #birth chart #natal placement #mars in the 12h #mars in 12h #mars in 12th #astrology #natal chart #astro observation #astro note

[ambrosiaheights]

Character Profile: Emmaline

Art by me (main: @diabolical-blue)

Emmaline is the main character of Ambrosia Heights and the only POV character (the story is told exclusively from her perspective).

Appearance: Emmaline has blond hair, green eyes, pale skin, and is 5'8" tall.

— 🌹 —

Emmaline’s family and friends would describe her as quiet, reserved, even shy. However, that surface-level passiveness masks a headstrong, stubborn spirit and a fiery temper which only emerges in dire circumstances or in cases of disturbing injustice. When particularly provoked, she can even be prone to violent outbursts, but she bottles up her more explosive emotions to keep these at bay.

Her socially reclusive background and sometimes hard-to-love personality are not the only obstacles standing in the way of what she wants more than anything else. As someone with no desire for physical intimacy, but a deep desire for an emotionally intimate and committed lifelong partnership, Emmaline has faced misunderstandings and hurtful assumptions her entire life - leaving her feeling like her dreams of companionship will never be more than a far-flung fantasy.

She wasn’t always this cynical, though. From a young age, Emmaline possessed a deep love of the sort of fantasy stories and fairy tales where everything works out in the end. In fact, when she was ten years old, she thought she actually met someone who came from a world much like the ones in her stories: a blue-skinned elf child who needed help finding his way home through a portal hidden on her grandmother’s estate. Unfortunately, the ensuing twenty years of complicated family drama and a miserably unfulfilling adult life has led Emmaline to wonder if most of that magical childhood experience was just her imagination - until the night of her thirtieth birthday, when she finds herself unexpectedly transported to that very world herself.

— 🌹 —

Random facts about Emmaline:

Though not particularly confident with her own social skills, when Emmaline is interacting with someone who is even more shy and reserved than herself, her instinctual reaction is to take the lead for both of them, giving her the false appearance of a naturally confident or even dominating person.

Emmaline has no interest in fashion and dresses herself solely for comfort. In her own world, she’s most commonly seen wearing a t-shirt, jeans or shorts, and sometimes a plaid flannel shirt. She doesn’t usually feel comfortable in dresses or skirts and tends to avoid them if possible. The most consistent part of her wardrobe is a silver necklace with a rose-shaped pendant she received as a gift on her tenth birthday.

She has had a special interest in technology from a young age. Though no “tech genius” by any means, she still enjoys figuring out how electronic gadgets work and even taught herself how to repair her own phone.

She is pretty attached to her smartphone and keeps much of her favorite content offline - movies, songs, video clips - especially when preparing for a long trip which might involve unreliable Internet access.

From a young age, Emmaline fell into the role of “keeping the peace” between her parents, who oftentimes didn’t get along. Her mother in particular would use Emmaline as her confidante and would vent to her about her troubles in an oftentimes inappropriate capacity.

Emmaline is an only child and had a very lonely and isolated childhood. She was homeschooled, never attended a traditional school, and never really made any friends her own age. She took comfort in the fictional worlds of her favorite books instead, and would often daydream about befriending the elf boy she thought she met when she was ten years old.

Emmaline has a religious background due to her parents' beliefs (particularly her mother's), but is undecided about where she stands on many of those beliefs personally now that she is older and living independently.

Her parents were apocalypse preppers who believed the end times were imminent, and prepared their off-the-grid homestead accordingly. Although Emmaline wasn't always sure if she believed them, their beliefs still had a significant impact on her development, leaving her feeling disillusioned and unprepared for an adulthood she wasn't even sure she was going to be alive to see.

— 🌹 —

An excerpt from chapter 4 in which Emmaline ponders her frustrations about her upbringing (third-person narrative observations, not first-person internal thought):

So she would do what she was told, because she didn’t have a choice. She wouldn’t express her anger when she got upset. But she would still feel it. Every injustice, every hypocrisy she witnessed, every freedom that was limited or taken away from her, every hopeless tear shed as she pondered her grim future under her parents’ unrelenting control – it was just pushed deep down, shoved into the far corners of her soul, ever boiling and festering but utterly ignored. Like a volcano rumbling, rumbling, rumbling in the background, spewing the occasional bout of steam or ash, but never permitted to fully erupt.

#can you tell her anger issues are going to be a problem in a world which utilizes the emotions-influence-magic trope 👀 #i'm not always one to stick tropes in for no reason but this meshes well with the character arc i have planned so that's why i'm using it #btw these outfits are sequential she starts out in the 'real world' before entering the world with the medieval fantasy aesthetic #emmaline #character bio #character profile #asexual #acespec #writers on tumblr #writeblr #writblr #writing #original fiction #my art #ambrosia heights

[teamfortresstwo]

There’s not a specific name for what ares and Hannah experience because it’s dependent on their skills, but I’ve always considered it a branch of schizophrenia, because it certainly draws ideas from real and existing ideas. The main difference between the 2 ideas is how it’s caused/the initial onset, but most symptoms ares experiences are near identical to schizophrenia and any medication that would work for it would still work. <- sort of a disclaimer almost? I always feel a need to clarify.

Hannah’s hallucinations are mentioned to have occurred while she was with aion, but got severely worse after aion disappeared. This is because the symptoms don’t start during periods of high stress or even just in normal daily life at normal. Hannah’s symptoms started at possibly 22, while for ares it started at about 30, which is also nothing to do with how it develops. With how this specific disorder works, it exclusively starts when someone experiences times of extended lack of stress or an odd calmness. Hannah’s emotional stability balanced out when she started working with aion, because the lack of nervous or daily stimuli caused her skill to create new patterns of thought to make up for this. It’s almost like how allergies occur, the immune system believes something normal to be dangerous and tries to attack it, but the mind has a confused response to heighten relaxation. This fortunately means it only shows up when someone would likely have comfortable time and support systems to deal with it; Hannah coped well enough to keep working perfectly fine with aion until aion disappeared. The signs remain stably “uncomfortable to live with but certainly liveable” until someone falls back into stress without support, when it gets MUCH worse; causes Hannah to lose most ability to live independently. It’s much harder to recover from this point onwards.

With ares, he was never really even fully calm after he met dolos because the knowledge that people were looking for him and that they could technically bring oulixes back was always there. He was happy and capable of having a really nice life, but didn’t reach a baseline of actually fully calm enough for signs to start. After he drowns oulixes though, he feels genuinely as if no one could hurt him for the first time in his life. Without context it’d be easy to assume it’s having seen Oulixes’ corpse speaking or threatening him that did it, but it’s not. It’s how safe he felt after that was done. Now, logically, ares has support systems. He has dolos and Lilith and friends who care about him and people he can go to. It should not have hit him as hard as it did. But unfortunately, 2 key things stopped him. 1. ‘Oulixes’ convinced her that the people she cared about had limited patience; she should be better now and she’s not and soon they’re going to get fed up and stop caring. He also created a fear of appearing like Oulixes should she panic and lash out. Wrath was originally much crueler, per se, than ares, and oulixes used him as a “This is how everyone sees you. They all think you’re just like me”. 2. Ares remembers how Hannah was manipulated by oulixes because she suffered from the same thing. He only ever saw her like that. He has a very instinctive fear of telling people he suffers from the same thing because he could be manipulated, he could lose any control he has, anyone could trick him, maybe he just can’t trust anyone, even if they care they could probably do it by mistake- the fear is mainly nonsensical but with how he saw Hannah his entire life, it’s completely understandable.

yeah . 👍

Wait so: Does stress make the symptoms worse or was Hannah purposefully deprived of stimuli ?

OHHHHH . Okay yeah that’s . Really fucked up man . God that’s - yeah . Fuck .

My guys literally cannot catch a break . What if schizophrenia worked like an appendix that actively hated you .

Shit…. At least he has Zephyrus ? I appreciate that Ares goes to him because he doesn’t care about what he thinks so he’s allowed to be annoying and run his patience thin . I hope eventually he realizes Dolos and Lilith will support him anyways, especially since Zephyrus eventually runs away to America with Lucifer, hypothetically .

[dnangelic]

Which type of love interest would you be in a dating simulator?

The childhood best friend who's been in love with the main character their whole life .

You're a loyal person to the core, and probably a hopeless romantic as well. You're full of love for those you care about, and that's both your biggest strength and weakness. You would do anything for them, even if it means hurting your own feelings. You will hide all your pain and your needs as longs as that means the rest gets to be happy. You biggest struggle is to clearly communicate your feelings, and you'll always try to avoid those conversations or pretend everything is fine (when it isn't). Remember you deserve to receive the same love you give.

The sarcastic fuckboy who secretely has a heart of gold.

Upon first meeting you might seem insufferable, but it's only because you don't have time for what others might think of you. You're independent, confident, and you know what you want. That intimidates people, and you know it. But deep down you know it's all a show. You desire to be loved as much as any other person, but you don't want to get hurt and thus it's difficult for you to appear vulnerable to others. You'll try to mask your feelings with humor and aggressiveness when you feel someone might be getting too close to home. But those who have the patience to endure your cold exterior will be rewarded with the most caring and loyal person in their lives. You're the ride or die kind of type, and once you fall in love, you do it deeply and unconditionally.

tagged by @foolshoujo thank u x2 !!!!

#TAGMEME. #i mean anybody could've seen these from a mile away. right #im writing shoujo charas-

[sioraiocht]

Which type of love interest would you be in a dating simulator

Tony Stark

The sarcastic fuckboy who secretly has a heart of gold

Upon first meeting you might seem insufferable, but it's only because you don't have time for what others might think of you. You're independent, confident, and you know what you want. That intimidates people, and you know it. But deep down you know it's all a show. You desire to be loved as much as any other person, but you don't want to get hurt and thus it's difficult for you to appear vulnerable to others. You'll try to mask your feelings with humor and aggressiveness when you feel someone might be getting too close to home. But those who have the patience to endure your cold exterior will be rewarded with the most caring and loyal person in their lives. You're the ride or die kind of type, and once you fall in love, you do it deeply and unconditionally.

Steve Rogers

The childhood best friend who's been in love with the main character their whole life

You're a loyal person to the core, and probably a hopeless romantic as well. You're full of love for those you care about, and that's both your biggest strenght and weakness. You would do anything for them, even if it means hurting your own feelings. You will hide all your pain and your needs as longs as that means the rest gets to be happy. You biggest struggle is to clearly communicate your feelings, and you'll always try to avoid those conversations or pretend everything is fine (when it isn't). Remember you deserve to receive the same love you give.

tagged by: @mistrdctr ❤️

tagging: @defectivexfragmented (Clint!) @emeraldxphoenix @qapsiel @vvolfstare @luminescenc1e (Ginny!) @mugglebrn @id1eyouth (Zach!) and anyone else who'd like to do it!

#steve and tony getting called outtttt lmao #;steve headcanon #;tony headcanon