#and i want that

[fortheb0ys]

I genuinely want to make friends on the internet but I have a fear of acctually reaching out to people :(

#I love when ppl interact with me #but im too much of a coward to do the same #like so many cool writers interact with my page #and i love seeing the bond others have #and i want that #but i think im annoying #which is probably just my pea brain telling me that #sorry its late and my thoughts are getting to me lol #i'll be good in the morning

[saltpepperbeard]

Y’all have no idea how much I want to see Stede and Ed waking up in bed together. The relief of having another body next to theirs, filling a space which had once been cold and vacant. The calmness and warmth in one seeing the other so peaceful, so safe. The unbridled happiness in getting to share lazy snuggles and kisses, hiding away from the rest of the world for a while.

Because in that moment, there would only be their love. It would be them and the morning sun. And I need it.

#OFMD #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #Comes back from a friggin hurricane to cry LMAO #AS PER USUAL #PRIORITIES ARE...GAY #But no listen this is like one of the top things on my wishlist #I just really REALLY want to see them as tender as they can possibly be #DISGUSTINGLY tender #And I think a cute snuggling scene in bed would take the cake and then some #Because idk there's just something so intimate about falling asleep and waking up WITH another person #Like you're trusting them in your most vulnerable state #And so it would just speak so much on safety and warmth and security #AND I WANT THAT #I WANT THAT SO BAD FOR THEM

[cabincryptid51]

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake episode 6 #ice prince #winter king #fionna and cake winter king #I know that I am more like base simon but LOOK AT HIM #he is PRETTY #and I want that #I already got that unnaturally light colored longish hair why can't I have everything else #his magic may be goofy looking but I have been on a funny shaped magic kick

[platonic-qpr-selfshipping]

I'm having one of those "I wish I could just be part of the Astral Express crew" moments

#rambling rambling rambling #i know being part of the astral express would have its own challenges and all but #sometimes i wish i could just be there and suddenly feel safe #i like everyone in the crew so much and I guess anyone in it can bring me comfort somehow so #I crave being accepted and I believe they would do it with no doubt nor hesitation #and my honkai s/i being probably the most similar to me s/i makes it even easierrr for me to wish to be there #because that's basically me #being there and being supported and living happily and having others to rely on nearby and being themself and being loved for it and and #and i want that #ugh the struggle #Welt pls come home #ive had a long evening and tomorrow i'll have a long morning idk what im saying at this point im just tired #i just wanna exist peacefully ig #no rush no judgement no negative expectations #also I wanna share blankets with March and Dan Heng #and Stelle too I love her but almost never add her in my imagines because I think I would join the crew before her soooo i havent thought+ #much about meeting trailblazer and all of that as my s/i #I wanna be in the Astral Express so bad #I wanna look at the stars and share blankets as we continue our eternal travel #together #as nothing more nor less than family #im so tired #n is talking #vent #ig? #cw vent #tw vent

[stackthedeck]

I wanna be a content creator™️ purely because I want companies to send me free stuff

#like I have no interest in making ads or getting ad revenue #but marvel I’ll review plushies if you send them my way #I’m watching jaiden animation’s plushie review #and I want that #I know a couple comic book content creators on tiktok get stuff from marvel #how do I get to that level #i love free things

[gaypiratebrainrot]

it's prob not the best thing that whether or not i have a good day rn is totally dependent on whether or not i have a good writing day, but at least i'm having some good days

#i feel a little bit the fool for being back on my “maybe i can make a living this way” bullshit #after a chunk of years trying to figure out something else #but part of the deal i made with myself is that i have to prove to myself i actually want to write full time #like that i like writing as much as i like the idea of writing #and that i like writing MORE than having written #and i'm proving it to myself #that i really do love the process #even when it sucks #and that i want to do this more than i want to do anything else #bc as long as i love the act of writing #i will keep writing #and as long as i keep writing #with some luck #i will eventually be able to make it my living #and i want that #because writing is what i want to do with the majority of my time #like fuck fame and wealth and popularity #i don't care about any of that #i just want to be a storyteller with the majority of my time #and also be able to pay my own bills

[localdiscountgoth]

“hello. this is all so confusing

but who knew i had such a strong girl living under my roof this whole time?”

when i tell you i started sobbing

#the owl house #camila noceda #vee noceda #i had to pause and take a minute because oh my gosh that hit to close #i never came out to my parents #I probably never will #and heres this fictional mother scared shitless #and has never seen a demon before #and just accepting this child #telling them how brave they are and being so kind #and i want that #screaming crying throwing up #mommy issues #daddy issues #mommy and daddy issues #im a different breed of messed up baby

[prettyboykatsuki]

UM pleek advice i’m turning twenty soon nd i’m scared 🥹💔 ageism eating me alive i feel like i havent lived my teen years because Brown Parents just idk… IDK!!!! im over reacting i think but im crying everyday like my youth was stolen from me cuz abuse and insecurity and pandemic but idk what to do now i feel so lost and seeing ur posts u just seem so smart and excited about life and exploring urself so i come humbly for advice 😞

i know this feeling bc i have the same parents but like i really mean it when i say life doesn't start for a lot of people until they're 25-30+

i was blessed with older siblings and cousins in my life and pretty much all of them say the same thing. my cousins did all the fun teenager things and even so they're all so much happier now then they ever were before.

you're never gonna be 15 again, that's true. but the life you imagined or dreamed of living at 15 isn't the only life you'll ever live and really isn't even that important. you have a romantic idea of it because you never experienced it.

but you have the rest of your life. do you know how long that is? you're only 20. that's nothing. 25 is nothing. 30, 31, 32. you're just starting in comparison to the rest of your life. the only reason you feel that way is because you're suffocated and the idea that being young is everything but it simply isn't. statistically if you only live to be 60, you have 2 entire thirds left to exist.

don't listen to people on the internet who can't fathom being over 17. adulthood is only a curse if you glorify being young. and you're not even an adult. any real adult thinks you're a kid. the only person who thinks your old is a person who's sitting in calculus one who eats lunch at 10am. why are you listening to them anyway?

i don't especially like being young honestly. there's nothing i look forward to more than getting older every year. i want to be 50 with a garden. i want to spend the rest of my life being a good person. i am so comforted by the fact i still have all this time.

you are so lucky to be alive. you must believe that the time you have left is a gift.

being young is only easy for those who come from privilege. but any person with responsibilities knows how suffocatingly lonely it can be trying to care for yourself and make something of your life.

and it's because of that gradual reality that you have to believe life hasn't reached it's potential. that this isn't your limit. if you're incessantly thinking that you've wasted so much time, than how will you grow? if you're constantly chasing at teenage years that you'll never get again, how will you learn to love the fully realized version of yourself?

if you spend your 20's looking back how can you look forward to the rest of your life? is it fair to yourself to ignore all that's made you who you are, just because you missed out on certain experiences?

look at how far you've come. look at how much it's taken you. look at all this life you have left to keep pushing. i know it feels like you're meandering, but the virtue of living is gaining experience. every minute you engage the world is meaningful to your life and this isn't a hope thing but a universal truth. it is the only facet of existence that has been respected since the beginning of civilization. experience that you can only gain now by opening your eyes to whats around you.

life is hard now. you are going to do your best. and maybe your best is ugly. it never feels good enough. it's not as good as what other people do. but it's yours, so solely. and if all you ever do is worry about the life you haven't lived instead of cherishing the life you have, you're going to feel miserable and you don't have to feel that.

you'll never be 15 again not once. you'll never know what that's like and it sucks. i won't tell you to feel fine about what you might've missed because i know and i get it.

but maybe you only want to be 15 because you think it would've changed who you are now. maybe you think the you now isn't good enough.

but you are. and it is. and there's nothing to be afraid of. every day of living despite it's many solitudes is worth it. even the worst of your tomorrows are to be cherished. you are so young. a drop in the massive of sea.

but that means you can go anywhere and do anything. with time, with patience, with struggle, with tears. you have now and tomorrow. between then nothing will change. you will do it a thousand times, and then you will look back and suddenly be so different. this is your finicky existence.

the only way to not be afraid of getting older is believing with your heart that living is meaningful. count your blessings and celebrate your small joys. you have the rest of your life to do that. i think that alone is something worth celebrating.

#return to sender #i think about my past a lot #i suffered a lot #i will never gain those years back #but it's because of that i can wake up and say #im okay. im alright. there's still time #i struggle because i have to do much on my own #i cry a lot. i get sad. i feel miserable #im a human with ups and downs just like you #ill do it again tommorrow #with time i can say look at all the life ive lived #and i want that #i want to look back at myself when im much older and think #look at the poor girl. she didn't know what was ahead and she suffered so much #she went through so much for me. to be here #sometimes you're your own big sister #make yourself proud and hold your hand #live your life slowly and steadily #there's nothing to be scared of and there's nothing wasted #not a single moment you've lived was a waste. not one #you have all this time to be the version of yourself you look up to #your whole entire life to that #i think that's exciting #and i want that more than anything #so i live everday and do it little by little #and i fuck up and make mistakes but i always know there's tommorow and that makes me so happy #sorry this wasn't advice as much as it was me shaking you by the shoulders #but im really passionate because i hate seeing people my age talk with one foot out the door #it's miserable to think you've wasted your life when you haven't at all #don't be an active particpant in your misery

[alter-koker]

time should stop for everyone but me when i want to read a book and then resume when i finish it

#i started morte darthur and it would take 1 million years to finish #and i want that

[katiefratie]

Man 4 sided dive is good but there's So Much going on at all times they really tried to combine all of there shows into 1 huh

#critical role #4 sided dive #weve got like 4 different gimmicks in the question portion itself #and then video games??? #it's just a lot #and i don't really wanna watch the video games portion but they are saying character stuff too #and i want that

[blueboxbeagle]

By LabradoriteKing on Pinterest

#Tutorials & References #Gemstones #Jewels #Art Reference #Writing Reference #Gemstones Reference #If the original marker wants me to take this down I will

[fly-the-pattern]

The dino benches are super cute. The angle is a little weird, though. And there's other seating if you're scared of dinosaurs. Looks like there's non-dino flat benches in the back on the right and a raised stone bench / retaining wall area on the left with grass and trees. I'm a little worried that there's no arm rests on any of the seating areas, though. It might be difficult for people with mobility issues to stand back up. Super cute for in front of a dino museum, though! And I totally want one.

#memes #meme #throwback #lol #funny #lol memes #funny memes #funny meme haha #funny stuff #dinosaur #dinosaur fossils #fossils #japan travel #japan #japanese #fukui #art #artwork #design #i want a dino bench

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

#executive dysfunction #shitpost #every day I get stuck in waiting mode for SO LONG and SO MANY TIMES #that one time I tried adhd meds it fixed it but then I. was like no I am going to be scared and not continue taking it <3 #and also. I simply did not like the psychologist and did not want to have to go back #so. rawdogging the world <3 #man if I could start a task right now...then you'd see...then you'd all see....

[girldraki]

#oh my god????? #txt #STOP FOLLOWING US!!! WE DONT POST LIKE THIS. WE POST JFK RPF #'blah hah hah and everyone clapped' don't you want to live in a world of beauty? with us? #‘why can’t i reblog this?’ Because trads started going He dodged a bullet in our notifications