#but I like the idea of her having this power that's unreachable outside of specific conditions

[heloflor]

Random Mario headcanon: while Peach does have powerful magic, she actually doesn’t know how to use it, at least not by herself. Basically to use her magic she needs to trigger a “spark” of sorts, but has no idea how to do so and as a result can’t use it unless someone else triggers that spark for her.

Explaining how it works in the games’ canon and giving some more details on my Toadstool magic hcs (spoilers for pretty much all the RPGs + Showtime’s ending; 1k words below):

- In Paper Mario 64, Kammy calls Peach’s action “wishes from normal people”, meaning she’s not using any particular magic.

- In Thousand Years Door, she uses healing magic upon regaining some control from the Shadow Queen. Considering the Shadow Queen is using magic, possibly Peach’s magic, it means Peach could have been able to access it in the moment.

- In Mario and Luigi Partners in Time, the Cobalt Star could have been the one with the magic to imprison Elder Princess Shroob, or it triggered Peach’s magic. Though the fact Peach can summon stars at the end kinda shows she can use magic on her own.

- In Bowser’s Inside Story and Dream Team, Peach only uses magic when Starlow is using her own magic as well, meaning Starlow could be the one triggering hers.

- Ok I’ll be honest I can’t explain it for Super Mario RPG other than “she’s not actually using magic” or “Geno is a spirit of the stars so his presence would unlock her powers”, though in that second case it doesn’t even fully work since the whole point of the team looking for stars is that wishes can’t be granted anymore.

- In Showtime, Peach’s magic ribbon comes from Stella, same for the outfits. Her Radiant transformation also comes from the hopes and dreams of the Theets fused with Sparkles and Stella. I could also see Stella triggering Peach’s magic in the case of the ribbon + Radiant.

- In Super Princess Peach, you could imagine that the Vibe Scepter is basically letting out “particles” of emotions in the air, and when one touches someone, it affects them. For Peach, her magic would protect her by absorbing those particles, but it also causes her magic to accumulate them.

Because of that, whenever she feels a strong emotion, all those particles her magic gathered get released at once, thus giving her those powers. So the powers wouldn’t come from her using her magic willingly, instead her magic does its own thing and she has to realize it and work around it.

As a result, she can control when the powers get triggered by keeping calm as much as possible and thinking of happy/sad/angering things when needed (or other methods like pinching herself to cry or asking Perry to insult her to get angry, dumb funny things like that).

This could also explain why there’s a timer that then needs to be refilled when using emotions or even why emotional enemies don’t get powers like she does but instead just move faster or in a different pattern, as they would have less emotions in them since the first particle that touches them would influence them.

- In case it needs to be said, everyone in the sports games have special abilities so I don’t consider those to be her using magic.

So yeah, while there are obviously instances of her using healing magic that negates this idea, it still holds up to an extent. And it’s especially interesting to headcanon when you consider how many RPG villains know how to exploit her magic for themselves (Cackletta, Fawful, the Shadow Queen, Antasma tried before turning to Bowser, I like to think the Chaos Heart was born from an exchange of two widely different magics with the wedding being the ritual needed to create the heart specifically).

Going deeper into this idea, I hc that in the past all Toads had magic but the Royal Family eventually discouraged everyone from using it aside from them. History books would say it’s to protect the population, the truth is that the Monarchy wanted that power for themselves and/or were afraid of the people taking over the throne if they can be more powerful than them (especially since I hc that it’s common for rulers to marry citizens, as long as said citizen is able to handle the work that goes with becoming royalty; this is also why each kingdom still has a ruler the same species as them after centuries of those kingdoms existing).

There would still be some Toads who kept their magic (like the doctor from Bowser’s Inside Story) but they would be incredibly rare on top of trying to keep it a secret just in case them having it is forbidden as there would be no written law saying what is and isn’t allowed on that front.

As such, the knowledge of how to use these powers is told from parent to child, with sometimes another person being given the info in case the rulers die before their heir is of age to learn. In Peach’s case, her parents’ death was a complete surprise, meaning no-one had that knowledge.

So for the longest time, she didn’t even think she had magic. And when the RPGs happened, she would’ve tried to use it herself but can’t find the thing triggering its use, taking a while to come to terms with the fact that she could never use it by herself, but that doesn’t mean she can’t be a hero in a different way.

And for those asking why doesn’t she use a Koopa wand, this goes into this idea of the Chaos Heart being born from mixing Koopa and Toadstool magic. She’s afraid that trying to learn the Koopa ways of using magic might cause another catastrophe, which it probably would.

Last small thing, outside of angst the main reason for this headcanon is to justify both Peach never using magic outside of RPGs and the fact she goes from being able to yeet Bowser out the window in one game to being completely helpless against two paratroopas holding her in the very next game of the same series. Basically it’s to explain the inconsistencies with it.

It can also justify the Mushroom Kingdom not falling into the hands of Koopas, Goombas etc before Mario and Luigi were around despite Toads being unable to defend themselves in the present time (basically the Toadstool family was able to use their magic to boost the strength of their army, which Peach can’t do).

#Super Mario #Princess Peach #Flor talks #long post #this has been sitting in my folders for a while but I wanted to play Mario RPG first to have something to say about it #I also have a spm WIP with a long beginning all about how much the events of the RPGs are affecting Peach's mental state #and how her inability to use magic coupled with all those villains capturing her for it take a huge toll on her #(god I need to edit and post my Mario fics already some of those have been sitting in my folders for almost a year now) #yes I know technically Peach could ask one of the Toads who still have their magic to teach her #but I like the idea of her having this power that's unreachable outside of specific conditions

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The book, a living object! - part 1

There are times where you suddenly encounter a work you wished to know about sooner as it gives new perspectives on subjects you love. That's what happened to me last Friday in our art history class told by Miss Joly. She was finishing her class on the different topologies of artists books and was presenting to us the section around “books about books.” Those works play with the typical features of books and question their limits. The piece that especially stood out to me was Reading The Remove Of Literature created in 2006 by Nick Thurston. This book is a republication of the english translation of the essay L’Espace littéraire written by Maurice Blanchot in 1955. Except, only the notes taken by the artist, Nick Thurston, are present. Thus, the space of the actual essay is visible in negative thanks to Thurston commentary going around it, in the margins and between paragraphs. This technique highlights the absence of the original text and its own weight as well as the power of the intertextuality created by the notes offered by the space of the book’s margins. Indeed, it is the specificity of the margin and the bond they allow that I want to explore here.

Pages from Reading The Reading Of Literature by Nick Thurston in 2006, 288 p, 23 x 15.5 cm, Paperback, Offset Printed in black and white, 1000 ex, ISBN 0955309212.

More than a mere convention, a book's margins hold multiple uses. The form of the book and the way it is made shape the page and use margins as a protective device. It is especially true in the case of gutter margins because of the space concealed by the bound and the unreachable paper near the crease. Outer margins protect the text from being damaged as well, to avoid that any content gets cut in the formatting of the book. 

Apparently (I could not find very reliable sources for this fact, but it seemed credible enough to mention it) in the Medieval Ages, the reason books had such big outer margins was to prevent the damage rats could do. They would chew and tear pages, so margins were here to be sacrificed to their teeth and keep safe the precious text so tediously written by scribes.

Another component which explains the use of book margins is the ergonomic design of the book. Margins help to increase focus of the reader onto the content as it separates that same content from the outside world where the reader is. By being a “blank” space, the eye is less tempted to wander outside of the book. Outer and foot margins are also designed to welcome the reader’s hand and by such are often bigger than the head and gutter margins for an optimal grip without hiding anything.

Nonetheless, protection is not the only job margins have. They also are a place within the page to expand the book’s experience itself. Indeed, if margins are wide enough, they can be written on by the reader and welcome thoughts and ideas. The content of the book becomes one part of a physical dialogue with the reader. As such, many stories and narratives are linear with a constant rhythm dictated by a book’s pages. The margins can help one disrupt this flow by giving him the chance to include his own temporality within its reading. Those notes essentially are working like anchors whether it holds emotional, creative or study purposes while giving an active participation to the book for its reader.

Furthermore, I would like to explore this concept through transtextuality given by books as a medium. Transtextuality has multiple definitions as it is a relatively newer way of studying books and literature. Here I got mainly interested by Gérad Genette’s definition theorized in his essay Palimpsestes — La littérature au second degré published in 1982. Genette defines transtextuality as everything which puts a text through to another text. This hypothesis is very interesting as it gives a new way to see stories. Instead of being a single entity, it clearly affirms the book and its content as part of a greater system. Like a rhizome that grows with each new added work and evolves consequently. Newer work can give new light, thanks to transtextuality, to previous work as much as newer work got enriched by what was already part of literature. Within transtextuality, Genette proceeds to characterize, different yet non-exclusive, types of connection that link texts to each other. The one that grabbed my attention is the metatextuality: The way one text is bound to another one as it is its commentary. We could say that notes written on margins are thus part of that metatextual relation. Our first example, Reading The Remove Of Literature is symptomatic of this and plays with this very concept. It is a clever way to highlight this phenomenon as well as inviting and sharing this personal experience of the book that Thurston got to experience.

This article is getting quite lengthy, so I will continue to explore those ideas in another blog post. Yet to finish this one, I would like to add a short conclusion. Margins are, as a bookworm and aspiring editorial designer, a wonderful object of research. They are a way for the book to give the reader a unique connection. The reader takes hold of the book, gets directly involved and becomes a part of the rhizomatic system that keeps the book as a living, evolving and always re-activated medium!

Next time, I want to deepen those ideas and try to see how far we can stretch this bond through the special case of ergodic literature and transmediality with the example of the novel S. by Doug Dorst and JJ. Abrams.

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[princessamericachavez]

This is how it feels to take a fall

Percival Frederickstein Von Musel Klossowski De Rolo III has always had three loves: stories, invention, and shiny things.

Growing up, there was a particular story he was most fond of, about a boy who built himself a pair of wings and flew away from prison, only to go too far to the sun and have Palor melt his wings until he fell and drowned. The story fascinated him as a child, in particular the dream of an invention so wonderful that it would grant one freedom, but he always thought the boy stupid for flying straight towards the sun. What a waste of a brilliant mind, he thought, sure that he would never make a mistake that stupid.

A few years later, his dreams of inventions took a darker turn, to murdering machines designed to keep him alive, to bring pain to those who wronged him. The only stories he told himself were the painful nightmares of his past and the only thing shinier than jewels and gold was vengeance. And much like his new toys, the companions he kept were tools to an end, he told himself, to stay alive and grow stronger until he could get the revenge that was rightfully his.

He was wrong, as it turns out. Stories, the best stories at least, are never about what we think they will be. And as the days passed him by, as the darkness grew closer, he discovered something shiny hidden under the ashes of his past life: a chance at a new start, born from his darkest moment and fed by a faith he didn’t believe himself worthy of. So when the darkness of his own demons sang its siren song and threatened to drag him into hell, he decided he wouldn’t be like that boy, wouldn’t let himself be just another waste of talent and intelligence while chasing an unreachable promise. He would sooner cut his own wings than be that stupid.

Oh, but he was stupid. Foolish enough to believe that Orthax’s promises held any power comparable to the sun’s.

Three days after returning to Emon, while Scanlan crafted an epic story about their adventure (Percy would never admit how giddy he was, at the idea of being the hero of a new legend), he got down to crafting his own inventions: a new gun, built exactly the same but with the purpose of protecting the new family he’s found; a gauntlet, charged with thunder and magic, and the piece of himself he lost in order to save his own soul; and a stack of trick arrows, for the one person who loves shiny new things even more than he does. Because they all helped him get through this horror tale, but he knows in the sore depths of his scarred chest, whose faith he owes the most to.

It’s a bright and warm day outside when he finally emerges from his workshop, and the pleasant weather is only one of the many things he’s learned to appreciate more after their latest adventure. He walks across the fresh green grass of the keep’s gardens and finds Vex’ahlia resting under a tree’s shadow, her bear’s head resting lazily on her lap, her face painted with the patterns of the leaves shadows, her eyes closed in a peaceful expression more open and vulnerable than he’s ever seen since they met. He hesitated before intruding on that pleasant moment, stopping just a few feet away from where the tree's shadow starts.

“What is it, darling?” She doesn’t even open her eyes.

Percy represses a laugh. Of course, she heard him coming. “Oh, nothing important. I just have something for you.”

That gets Vex’ahlia to open her eyes. She stands up, without waking Trinket, and crosses the distance between them with an inquiring look and a playful smile. “For me?” She sing-songs, arching an eyebrow.

“Well, they require a very specific skill set,” he says smugly, pulling out the carefully wrapped package he has been hiding behind his back.

Vex’ahlia accepts it and immediately opens it up, taking a look at the assortment of arrows presented to her. Only now that she’s holding it like that, does it occur to Percy that it looks almost like a very deadly bouquet.

“Explosive, grappling, and freezing,” he points at each group, mainly to break the silence she’s letting stretch. He holds his breath in anticipation, hoping for her reaction. But when she looks up, there’s nothing that could’ve prepared him for the expression in her eyes.

“Percival! These are wonderful! Are they- I mean… why?”

The way she smiles, open and wide, with the sunlight hitting her tan skin and a delight so bright like he just gifted her a crown of jewels rather than a bunch of deadly sticks makes his heart stutter for a second. Thank goodness for his clever brain.

“You did lose an awful lot of expensive trick arrows on the way to Whitestone, it seemed like the least I could do.”

What he should say, what he means, is that her face is the one he saw when hope entered his heart and her voice guided him out of the shadows where he would’ve surely drowned in hatred and sorrow, but he can’t. Mainly, because the reason behind his own action has only become crystal clear right now, at this very moment.

Vex’s eyes turn softer as if she understood exactly what he didn’t say out loud. When she moves forward, Percival can’t help but flinch before he feels the press of her lips against his cheek.

“Thank you, darling. It’s lovely.”

The point where her mouth touched him burns as if a spark of black powder had landed on it, but he’s well trained enough in the art of hiding his thoughts to conceal it behind a shrug.

“Glad you like it. When you use them, let me know how they work. If there’s anything I could adapt to make them fly better or if you get any ideas on how to improve the design.”

“Will do,” Vex winks at him and walks back to her spot under the tree.

Percy makes his way back to the keep in a daze, barely registering his own steps until he’s back in the safety of his workshop, where he gets a chance to hide his face under his hands and groan with frustration.

An indignant sort of anger blooms inside his chest, furious to realize that for the first time in his life he gets it… he understands what it’s like to want something impossibly bright and warm and entirely out of his reach, and why a bright mind might put all of its creativity and invention at the service of an impossible goal, to fly a little higher, a little closer to the sun, even knowing that the only possible outcome for his unworthy want is to crash and burn terribly. Percival Frederickstein Von Musel Klossowski De Rolo III loves four things: stories, invention, shiny things… and an archer.

#percahlia #perc’ahlia #percival fredrickstein von musel klossowski de rolo iii #vex’ahlia #the legend of Vox Machina #critical role #I bring you more pining and obvious metaphors #tlovm spoilers #but if you know why this is so fitting for them YOU KNOW #sofia's nonsense #tlovm fic #I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM WRITING PINING PERC'AHLIA IN THIS YEAR OF OUR LORD 2022 #THEY HYPER FIXATION IS BACK AT ITS FULL #also the title is from bastille's Icarus #lol

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Two Halves - Chapter Six (Zuko x Reader)

Part Five

Word Count: 2,100

Author’s Note: Wow it’s been a clusterfuck this week. I’ve been exhausted and unable to concentrate for the past few days, and then today when I tried to release this chapter for patrons it turned out that all of Cloudflare was down, so something like 12 million sites worldwide were just completely unreachable. I plan to force myself into going to bed early tonight so I can actually get myself back on track and be productive over the weekend (I have two requests I want to publish so they don’t get pushed back into all my ideas for next month, and I also want to look into other ad providers outside of Adsense so I can start saving up money for my eventual move out of the country). I promise that next week will be less of a bummer chapter. Here’s hoping sometime we’ll actually catch a fookin break, m8. 

~ Muerta

You stand in the portrait hall, awaiting its newest addition with Rina; she grips your arm, clapping giddily as the towering scroll unfurls to reveal the painted image of you and Zuko beside one another. 

In it, you're seated to his left side, mirroring the generations of other wedding portraits that line the massive hall; what's different is not only the color and style of your robes, but the fact that Zuko’s hand rests on your shoulder, yours clasped firmly within it. When he did so, the royal historian who was present instructed that the Firelord and lady were never depicted touching one another - you'd placed your hand over his in a unified stance of defiance. You'd also been asked to remove your betrothal necklace for the portrait, and had told the historian in a few choice words exactly why it would be staying on; you still feel the rush in your veins of hearing Zuko mumble “that's my girl” under his breath.

“Oh, it's gorgeous!” Rina exclaims, bouncing excitedly on her toes. “The Firelord looks so handsome in a Water Tribe silhouette; I'm so glad you did this!”

You laugh, hugging her by the arm that's hooked with your own and unable to deny the fact that the Southern style tunic you had the seamstress make for him does provide a nice view of his body, highlighting more of his broad shoulders and sturdy midriff than the billow of traditional Fire Nation robes. It also pairs well with his chest plate, making him look every part the skilled warrior he is instead of some aristocratic monarch ruling only by privilege. Beside him, his fingers locked between yours, your gaze steely and knowing behind layers of ink, you look like a weapon instead of just a wife; you start to think there might be much more reason Hakoda arranged your alliance with Zuko than just forming a concrete tie between your nations. 

“My lady,” one of the palace messengers addresses you, bowing respectfully as he approaches. “I’m sorry to interrupt, but Advisors Sung and Qiang request an audience with you in their offices.” 

You and Rina look between each other, Rina’s eyebrows raised in confusion. 

“Just me?” you ask. “Should I also send for the Firelord?” 

“No, your majesty,” the messenger says. “The councilmen asked that only you be sent for.” 

You nod, bowing to the messenger in thanks before taking Rina’s arm once more, walking in pace with her to the administrative wing of the palace. 

“They’re sure to send me out of the room,” Rina tells you, speaking in a hushed, conspiratorial tone. “I’m unsure about Advisor Sung, but Qiang has never trusted servants with any kind of information; he used to work information security under Firelord Ozai until he defected after Prince Zuko’s banishment.” 

“If he won’t allow you in the room, you’ll wait at the door,” you state. “Whether he likes it or not, I still have more power than he does.” 

When you arrive at the international affairs office, Qiang and Sung are seated around a small table, primed in wait for you. You make a point of not bowing in return when they do so upon your announcement, instead choosing to simply nod in greeting. Sung smiles at you in his polite, pleasant way as you sit, while Qiang eyes you with a cold, almost uncertain stare. 

“My lady,” Sung welcomes you, “I apologize for bringing you here on such short notice, but there are urgent matters that must be discussed. As you know, Advisor Qiang has taken the liberty of guiding me as I adjust to my new position as the head of international affairs, and we’ve been mulling over the matter of your wedding portrait for the past few days.” 

“More specifically,” Qiang interjects, “we’ve been discussing the stunt you pulled in deciding your wardrobe. Many people across the Fire Nation are not pleased to see their Firelord in Water Tribe garments.” 

“It was simply a tunic,” you calmly defend yourself. “The only other change was to the color. Has anyone taken issue with the fact that I wore a Water Tribe dress under a Fire Nation robe?” 

You glance between the two men, expecting the question to be entirely rhetorical - you know the answer already, but as you guessed, they’re either too cowardly or too correct to say it aloud. 

“We understand your intentions,” Sung replies after a beat, “but we’re uncertain the execution of your ideas is as tactful as it should be; I know I needn’t remind you that we’re still living in very unstable times as of the end of the war.” 

“I understand your concern, but I don’t think the nature of our mixed heritage is the most pressing issue at hand,” you say. “The world experienced a century of cruelty under Fire Nation imperialism - it’s important that we reform our militant image in every way we can. Dressing me like a traditional Firelady when I very clearly am not one would have upset far more people than just our citizens.”

“The Fire Nation is still very powerful,” Advisor Qiang argues, “even with the abolition of many of the Earth Kingdom colonies. Upsetting our people could have consequences that reach beyond the mainland’s borders.” 

His words are spat at you almost like a threat. You tilt your chin a little higher, meeting his gaze without faltering. 

“What do you suggest, then?” you ask. 

“We want to keep watch on you,” Qiang tells you. “Our aids will accompany you as you gain more freedom from the Firelord and guide you to ensure that your actions reflect the image the nation wants to see from their leader.” 

“This sounds like something Advisor Yong should oversee,” you evenly contest. “I'm certain my husband would like to have his say, as well.” 

“We simply wanted to present the idea to you,” Advisor Sung cuts in. “We thought it might give you more peace of mind to have someone beside you; teach you how to properly present yourself to the people of the Fire Nation.” 

“You can send your aids to keep tabs on me,” you reply, “but I am still your superior. Firelord Zuko has been more than an adequate mentor. I don't need another one.” 

“Do you suggest we have you answer to the Firelord on our behalf, then?” Advisor Qiang asks, sounding skeptical. 

“I'm stating that I don't answer to anyone,” you respond. “Zuko is my equal. You're the one born and raised in the Fire Nation - you should understand that better than anyone.” 

Qiang fixes you with the chilled, empty glare you noticed your first day in the council’s meeting chambers. You keep your own expression blank, refusing to avert your eyes from their lock on his. 

“My lady,” Advisor Sung addresses you, “I promise you, we mean no offense. We truly have your best intentions at heart; we understand that the culture of the Fire Nation is very different from that of the Southern Water Tribe, and only want to keep you safe in the wake of Advisor Fen’s passing. We believe taking extra care in how you interact with our people is the only way to move forward.” 

“Alright,” you say, standing abruptly. “I'd like some hands-on training, then. I need fabric to build my wardrobe with, and want to explore my new home. Gather your aids - I’m taking them to the market.” 

To say that people are shocked to see the Firelady out amongst common folk is an understatement. 

You travel in a rather large group, flanked not only by Rina, Iroh, and Toph, but three of Qiang and Sung’s aids and a small army of royal guards. People flee when you approach, some of them going as far as to fall to their knees before you, bowing out of fear; each time, you offer your hand and help them back to their feet, explaining that you're only out to do some shopping. Once more onlookers notice your kind, gentle handling of those who cross your path, panic turns to interest, many people staring at you as you pass or calling out to you, saying hello; a little girl manages to get past the guards, scurrying out of her father’s flower shop and through their legs, stopping in front of you with an adorably clumsy bow to present you with a dandelion she picked from between the cracks in the cobblestone street. 

“Why, thank you!” you exclaim, daintily taking the flower from her chubby little hand and bowing in return. “It's very beautiful, just like you.”

You twist the dandelion into your hair before walking the girl back to her father, who apologizes and thanks you profusely; you assure him it's no trouble. 

“How very touching,” Iroh says to you once you continue on your way. “I wonder what the aids will tell their superiors.” 

You huff, smirking at him out of the corner of your eye. 

“Probably that I don't inspire enough fear,” you mock. “I thought the dictatorship ended when my dear father-in-law was thrown in prison.” 

“The memories of his reign are still very fresh,” Iroh explains. “A brute hand is all much of the Fire Nation knows in a leader; it is hard to bring change.” 

“I still don't like our little entourage,” Toph remarks, loud enough that the men trailing you can certainly hear. “Aang never travels with guards, and he's got a way bigger target on his head than you do.” 

“Yeah, but he can also bend everything,” you remind her. “I've never even held a spear.” 

“I'm blind and I still kick hella ass,” Toph replies. “You don't have an excuse.”

You roll your eyes, grinning as you shove her sideways so she stumbles; she laughs, coming back at you with a hard punch to the boob and blowing a raspberry into your face. You can't help but cackle, taking her into a headlock and scruffing up her hair. 

“My lady,” one of the aids pipes up, her nose wrinkled in disdain, “this isn't proper etiquette for a Fire Nation queen.” 

“Oh, spirits forbid anybody be human,” Toph groans. “The war is over and this is a leisure trip. People have to get used to the Firelady acting like a person instead of a government puppet.” 

Rina takes hold of your arm, leaning in close to your ear. 

“I like her,” she whispers. “Can we ask her to stay?” 

You laugh, shaking your head.

“I wish,” you mumble back, “but Toph sort of just does what she wants.” 

You choose a small, cozy-looking shop to buy fabrics from, everyone in the group (save for the aids and guards, who have no choice but to wait outside) making easy, pleasant conversation with the owners; they're a relatively young couple from Omashu, who came to the Fire Nation after the war to trade fabrics that weren't widely available in either country, wanting to bring more options to each place. Their shop is filled with soft cottons and delicately embroidered patterns, many laced with shimmering metals and gems only found in the Earth Kingdom; you purchase a few yards of almost everything, leaving them a contact to the palace so that they can come and discuss expanding their trade routes. Everyone is pleased except for the aids, who look on with disapproving glares.  

When you return to the palace, you find not only Zuko awaiting you, but Qiang and Sung as well; you hardly acknowledge the two councilmen, instead going straight to Zuko’s side. 

“Rina sent me a message about your meeting this morning,” he murmurs. “I told Advisor Yong, too. They should have come to both of us.” 

You nod, taking him by the arm and leading him away from the larger group, out into an open corridor surrounding a courtyard that sits off the entrance hall of the palace’s administrative wing. 

“There has to be something we can do, right?” you wonder. “We’re above them. We have the final say in everything.” 

Zuko sighs, taking your hands within his and holding you close to him, chests pressed together. 

“We’re supposed to,” he says. “But my grandfather taught my father and sister how to manipulate their way into power. Lots of other government officials learned it, too, and it hasn’t completely gone away.” 

Advisor Qiang passes through on the other side of the courtyard, eyeing you with his signature frigid gaze as Advisor Sung and the aids trail behind him. You look away from him, focusing only on Zuko. 

“We have to keep the people on our side,” you murmur. “The government may be able to manipulate itself into submission, but they're no match for everyone else. The world beat them once - we can beat them again.” 

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Copia’s World: Chapter 1

Story Description: Lena is gifted with extraordinary powers, that much is true but what happens when she discovers that her powers are more of a curse than a blessing. Will Lena be able to fight the dark path she seems fated for or will she be able to confront her ever-growing powers in order to forge her own path? Secrets and lies discovered as Lena navigate through family, love, and self-discovery.

Genre: Romance, Drama, Comedy, Drama

Warnings: 18+, depictions of bullying, Christianity discrimination, mental health, mental disorders, racism, suicide, discrimination. (Please do not read, if you may be triggered).

*Any depictions referred to in the warnings are based on MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCES. Please do not think I’m making fun or or mocking anyone, again these experiences are based on what I have seen and, or been through myself. Also, I am not intending to romanticize mental health or disorders in anyway. Lastly, If you do decided to read this story I am very thankful and I hope you enjoy it. : )

Notes to add:

I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS

THE ORIGINAL STORY IDEA IS MY OWN

THE CREATION OF THE CHARACTER PROFILES ARE MY OWN DOING (I DO NOT OWN THE PHOTOGRAPHS ARE ART WORKS OF EACH CHARACTER. HOWEVER, I DID EDIT THE PICTURES OF MY OC (BRI HALL) TO MATCH MY OC DESCRIPTION.

THIS STORY WILL TAKE SOME EVENTS FROM THE COMICS, ANIMATED SERIES, AND THE LIVE ACTION MOVIES.

IN THIS STORY ALEX IS YOUNGER THAN SCOTT AND THE AGES VARY BASED ON THE ACTOR THAT PLAYS THE CHARACTER AND FOR THE SAKE OF THE PLOT

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Third Person’s P.O.V.

Friday, July 27, 2019

Lena inhaled the crisp cool summer air as she gazed outside of the large crystal-clear window of the deep corridor. A breathtaking blend of coral and peach sunlight filled the sky as birds soared high and low while chirping a captivating melody. She exhaled, as she gently opened her yellow-amber eyes and watched the pattern the birds flew in. Lena, then gripped the frame of widow seal, careful not to crush it underneath her superhuman strength. Oh, how badly did she want to leap out of the wind and fly, to soar, and join the feathered-winged creatures.

(You look like you want to join them) she heard a voice say inside of her head.

(More than anything…) I responded back.

(I think that freedom is what you seek more than anything, Lena) the voice said.

Lena looked at the person next to her from the lower corner of her left eye.

(Grandpa, freedom is the one thing I desire the most out of this world. It’s funny you know… how easy it seems to be able to have. To get too. It’s literally right outside my door. But for me, it seems unreachable. It’s bittersweet to know that my only desire is so close yet so far. But as a mutant as… me, I know that I would rather give up my dreams to protect my family and those who can’t protect themselves.)

she said as she turned her full body towards the founder of the Xavier Institute.

(As usual, that’s very brave, kind, and noble of you Lena. But as I told you many times in the past you can be all those things and more without giving up on the things you want. Balance is key to anything you do in life, Lena. Once, you've mastered that you’ll be impossible to stop) Professor Xavier said.

Lena let out a sigh, (Grandpa you and I both know the circumstances that prevent me from being free. I-I just want to be like them) I communicated to him as I pointed my arm out of the window at the birds in front of me.  (How long do I have to be a caged bird? How long until I can use my powers to help instead of hurting. How long until my powers stop feeling like a curse. How long until nobody fears me and they except me! How long until I can be free!?)

She yelled telepathically causing the man next her to groan in pain as he gripped the sides of his head.

Lena’s P.O.V

“Uh! Grandpa, I’m so, so, sorry!” I yelled as I kneeled next to his wheelchair. I tried to gently console him, trying to be extra careful of my strength and the volume of my voice.

“It’s alright, Lena.” He said softly.

I looked at him with glistening eyes, “I’m sorry. I’m so stupid.” I said quieter.

“Far from it my dear, very far. You just have trouble controlling your powers is all. We’ve all been there. I have your mother, your father, and the rest of the students that live here. Your case is just a special one… and like the rest we will find a way for you to control them.” He said optimistically.

I stared at him for a split second as I read his facial expression. Although he always made sure to remain level-headed and positive at all times, I know that deep inside he’s afraid. He’s terrified. He more than anyone that we know, knows how much of a ticking time bomb I am. He knows that I’m capable of the world ending power, yet he masks it all in hopes that “we” find a solution in an unpredictable time.

“Now, Lena if my time is correct and I’m sure that it is you have about 5 minutes before Colossus will be looking to join the others in the Danger Room. You know how organized he is.” He said smiling softly.

I mentally rolled my eyes as he mentioned Colossus.

“Have fun, and make sure you pay specific attention until how each student is managing their powers. I think it might help you find your source of control.” He said.

“Will do, grandpa. Have a nice rest of your day.” I said as I ran down the long hallway and down to my room.

As I entered my room, I quickly opened my side table drawer and pulled out black gloves that covered every inch of my hands. I quickly pulled them on my hair, careful not to tear them. I looked down at the gloves as I started to feel anxiety.

Looking at these gloves was a constant reminder of how defective I was. Usually, when I felt my powers start to lose control in the slightest way, I would put these gloves on. Today… when I broke the telepathic link with my grandfather was a sign of lack of control, although not a big one it was still something.

One of my first abilities I was able to master at a young age was telepathy but seeing as of late I’m losing my grip over it I think the gloves will stabilize me. God forbid I go to training and I bump into someone and I absorb their abilities or hurt them in any other way.

With about two minutes left before training, I left my room (which wasn’t too far from the danger room only about 10 feet). I walked with a neutral expression on my face as I entered the control room. I took “my” seat next to a standing Colossus whose body shined in pride at his team below.

“Nice of you to join us today, Lena.” He said without looking at me. I nodded my head back at his as I looked down at the white dull sneakers on my feet that seemed to pique my interest at the moment.

“I didn’t see you for breakfast, AGAIN. How can you expect to be a good hero if you aren’t eating a well-balanced meal?” He said in a lecturing tone.

No, how can I expect to be a good one, if I’m not allowed to use my powers?

I heard the sound of his body turning towards me, I hastily moved my hands behind my back so he wouldn’t see that I had my gloves on.

He cleared his throat and said, “I want you to watch closely. Today the team will be working on teamwork protocols. As a member of this team, I need you to see and understand how each team member's abilities work as well as how they complement one another.” He said as he turned back, getting ready to speak into the intercoms.

This is why I hated “training”. First and foremost, I’m not really a part of the team. I’m what you call the “final choice”. I’m the SWAT team to the police force. The Hulk to the Avengers. I’m the big guns. If our chances of winning are extremely low, they are banking on me to bring the bacon home. From an outsider’s perspective, it sounds like an honor… but in reality, it’s quite the opposite. I’m the caged animal that they only let free on the special circumstance. They don’t want to see me, talk to me, or USE me until they need me.

As for their powers, I know them left to right. I know every single one of my teammate’s power sources, origins, and weaknesses. How could I not? I live my life watching them all have fun with their powers and showing them off while I stay dormant, in complete comatose. Get this… isn’t it hilarious, how my parents always told me that mutants were special, that I was special but one mistake… and now I’m too special to use my gifts?

Don’t get me wrong at all. I love every and any kind of mutant good or evil no matter what their gifts are, they are all special and unique to me. But that all goes out the window when: 1.) I don’t use my powers so I’m basically a regular person and 2.) When I have the ability to absorb, replicate, and keep any power I’m exposed to. Having that ability, that curse, makes everyone around you feel ordinary and that’s something I hate about myself. I never want anyone to feel less than. I rather it is me so that they never know how it really feels.

Okay, team, I’m commencing the portal now. Get ready.” I heard Colossus say. A few seconds later I saw the lights deem as the computer speak:

Commencing Protocol 24389: Team Civilian Rescue

I sat up in my chair slightly making sure to keep my hands in a place where I knew Colossus wouldn’t be able to see. Within a few seconds, I analyzed the protocol. It seemed as though each section and customized by each person’s powers. Each person had their weakness placed in each section but would require help from a member to move through. Their ultimate end goal was to rescue an elder-women and her cat (Ha, how cute Colossus).

I continued to watch for a few moments, already seeing that they were not working as a team. I glanced up at Colossus from the side of my eye and noticed his stone-cold expression. 

Which I knew was translated to mean anger, disappointment, and shame. It seems like the only person that was trying his best was Alex, better known as Havok. He tried to guide the team and even give some advice but he was stopped but Mr. Hothead himself Pyro, or John who’s ego was so big he wouldn’t take direction from anyone because he was the leader and what he said went even if he was wrong.

Then there was Jubilation Lee or Jubilee who was a poor long-term focuser so when it came to making plans and strategies, she wasn’t all the way there. And last but certainly not least the Lovesick King, Sam aka Cannonball, he was so in love with Jubilee all he heard, saw, and thought about was her. If it didn’t involve her, he wanted no parts and that’s exactly what was happening.

 A few more minutes went by and I heard the screams of agony ring throughout the control panel. I flinch and quickly stood up hoping that nobody was hurt. The lights slowly turned on as I realized that the scream I heard was from the elderly women hologram. I let out a small sigh… glad that everyone was okay (well almost everyone). 

Protocol 24389: Team Civilian Rescue. Failed. 

I heard the computer say as the light was on completely. I heard Colossus' large steps start to exit the control room. I knew better than to try to leave and retreat back to my room. I hated conflict and I knew this would be another confrontation and I knew deep down inside It would be my fault because that’s just my role on this team.

“This! This is teamwork!?” Colossus yelled as he waved his hands in front of the other students.“Well, If John helped out more- “Sam started to say before he was cut off by everyone auguring back and forth all at once. 

“Enough!” Colossus yelled once more. 

“This is not what good teams do! Arguing and fight one another. That’s for the villain, not the heroes.” He said

.He let out a sigh, “You, “He said as he pointed at John, “You are the leader. You are supposed to lead them with humility and a good plan. You did neither of those. If you do that on the real battlefield do you expect to lead your team to victory or their deaths.”

 He said sternly. “Jubilee, you need to focus on the battlefield you can get yourself and others hurt or worse. Samuel, you need to focus on your team and the civilians, keep your head on the battlefield, not on your heart.” He said as he exchanged looks between the both of them.

Colossus looked up and down at Alex swiftly, “Alex, great work for what little you had to work with. Keep it up. It’s clear that you all need more training so… I will see you bright and early at 6:00 AM tomorrow.” He said as he began to turn around and walk off.“But… tomorrow is Saturday!” I heard Jubilee yell. Colossus just waved as he exited the room. I turned, trying to leave the room unnoticed.

“Where do you think you’re going.” I heard John say. I stopped for a moment, deciding not to let him get to me today.

I heard him snort, “Got the gloves on, huh? Bad day?” He said with a chuckle.

I quickly grabbed my hands and folded them up to my chest tightly as I kept walking.

“You know it’s your fault we failed that protocol.” He said with venom in his voice. I stopped in my tracks, my back still facing him.

“You just sit up there in the control room acting all high and mighty while we do all the work. What’s the point of doing all the work, when you can do it? You have the ability to have any and every power known to man yet- because you’re so defective we have to do the work. It’s pretty pathetic, to be honest.” He let out a sarcastic sigh, “I guess… I’ll always have that over you, huh? being flawless, being more than enough.” He said in a taunting manner.

“John, back off.” I heard Alex say.

“Shh… your leader is talking. And as the leader, I say my “team member” needs some constructive criticism.” He said wickedly.

“You know… now that I think about it I kind of own you. Everything I say goes. I mean look your powers are banned. You don’t train with us, you can’t leave this house, and… a big part of that is thanks to me. One of my greatest accomplishments to date I think.” He said as he started to laugh widely.

I began to shake in my spot, tears threatening to spill. I didn’t want to look up at John. All I wanted to do was run and retreat back to my room, the place I knew I would always be the safest. But instead, I decided that I had to look up, into the eyes of the man that made my life living hell every day for years. Not one part of me wanted to think he was evil or malicious when he tormented me on a daily. I wanted to see the good in him, as a fellow mutant, as a teammate, as a person. But all I could see what a selfish and wicked cold-hearted man.

I speed to my room devastated and broken. This was nothing new under the sun. Every day, John would take his shots at me tearing me down in front of our peers and they would just let it happen. John hated him with all his heart and soul and the rest didn’t understand me. They didn’t bother too. That just knows about the accident that leads to my powers awakening and from then on, they’ve avoided me like the plague. It just me to see that even in my own home that I will never kind anyone who truly gets me or a place where I belong.

I laid on my bed fast down as I cried myself to sleep. What felt like a minute later, was actually hours as I heard tapping on my window.  I walked to my window and opened it wide as something swiftly flew in. I looked at the figured and smiled.

“Cuzzo! It’s been a while!” I heard my cousin Peter yell.

I quickly jumped on him as we landed on the bed with my hand covering his mouth. “Shh,” I whispered.

Of course, I was very happy to see my cousin Peter. It’s been too long but like a true prisoner, I am not allowed to have any visitors and the same goes for Peter even though he’s family.

Peter’s eyes roamed down to my gloved hand and he mumbled something against. I moved my hands down and looked down at my lap, knowing how concerned he would be to see my gloves on. I didn’t want to ruin our reunion, but I felt as though I already did.

He grabbed both of my gloved hands and squeezed tightly, “Lena…” He expresses in a worried voice.

“Peter, I’m fine. I promise. Let’s talk about something else. Let’s talk about you I haven’t seen you in so long, aren’t you taking Online Summer courses at MIT?” I asked genuinely interested.

Peter’s looked lingered for a few seconds before he gave in, “Yeah I am actually. They’re killer. Dad wanted me to try and stay on campus and do the whole college thing a try, but I wanted to be able to patrol at home and- “He said before I interrupted “And your crush” I said in a teasing voice.

“Lin.” He said in a whining voice as he pursed his lips and I continued to laugh a bit.

“Well, I think uncle Tony just wants you to give you a fair shot at the whole being a “normal” kid type of thing. But you’re too far gone, Spider-Man. We’ve lost you to the dark side.” I said as I continued to joke.

“Tell me about it, right now I’m on the dark side of college homework.” He said as he began to pull out his homework from his bag.

“I also brought some ice cream. They’re rock solid, so by the time I get done with this they should be defrosted.” He said.

We talked back and forth as Peter did his homework. I helped quite a bit with the equations he was having problems solving.

“Lena, I always knew you were smart… but you’re better at solving these problems than I am. Maybe you should be at MIT, instead.” He laughed.

“No, way Peter. You’re a genius. I just like a challenge that all. Plus, engineering isn’t my passion.” I said with a shrug.

“To be honest you’ve never really talked about your passions before.” He said sounding intrigued.

“Um, my first one would be getting out of here. I might get spontaneous and travel to every state.” I said laughing while being serious.

“You know… being here all my life and not being allowed to leave unless supervised never gave me the chance to really find myself. I went to school here and never had the chance to go to college. The one constant thing that I find myself doing that I like is helping. I also like kids too, even if I’m not around them often. But when I was around Franklin and Valeria I was in awe. I wanted nothing but to see them happy you know. I don’t know maybe… maybe I’ll become a teacher.” I said quietly.

“Well, I think you’re an amazing teacher. You’re creative, smart, kind, and you always put other's needs before your own.” Peter said as he smiled softly at me as he placed his hand on my shoulder.

I flinched back, as he stared at me with his arms in surrender at me. “ah… um, I’m sorry.” I said frantically. “I just… my powers and the gloves um...” I said starting to panic.

“No, no. I’m sorry Lin I should’ve known better.” He said. “Um, ice cream?” He said after a few moments of silence.

I nodded my head as he handed me, a mocha chip flavored ice cream. I smiled and thanked him. He always remembered by favorite. As we ate my ice cream, he talked to me about his dad and what the rest of the Avengers were up too.

“Wait so Thor is fat now?” I repeated. “Yeah, but he’s got more a dad bod thing going in verses the devastated drunk bod. He’s getting there. Aunt Nat and Uncle Clint are taking care of the psychical and dad are doing his version of emotional support and the rest of us are doing real actual support.” He said as eat another spoonful of ice cream.

I smiled, “I miss them. I wish I was there to see their faces.” I said feeling low again. “I know they all miss you, I missed you. I promise even though I have these dumb classes I’m coming to visit you more often even if Uncle Logan tries to kill me and hang me over the fireplace.” He said in a joking yet serious manner.

“When I told dad, I was going to sneak into your house, he said, “Why go all Bond on them, we can walk right up and make it a party.” He said laughing.

I shook my head, “I think at that point it’s more about our dad’s deep intense hatred for one another.” I said.

“They have a lot in common that’s why. They both think they know everything or can do anything better than another person.” Peter said.

“Ugh, tell me about it. Back to the party thing, it’s almost your birthday in two weeks what are you going to do. I know Uncle Tony will want to throw you a big bash.” I said.

“Yeah, now you tell me about it. I told dad something quite with the family but of course, it went in one ear and out the other. At this point, I don’t care what he wants to do. If you can’t come then, I don’t want anything.” He said.

“Aww. Peter, no don’t throw away your party for me. It’s not worth it.” I said. “What? Lena, are you hearing yourself? You’re my cousin. I’m not going to have a party that’s supposed to have family and friends there and you not be there. I don’t care if I have to invite every single member of this household in order for you to be able to come, I will do it.” He said.

I was a bit stun that he said he would invite everyone just for me. I know Peter wasn’t super close to the rest of the team members closer to our ages but Peter was the extroverted one out of the both of us so if it came down to it he would have no problem socializing with them, even if it were for a minute.

A few more minutes pass and Peter and I exchange goodbyes as he exited out of the window. About 10 minutes later another knock could be heard from the window.

What’s with my window tonight.

I raised the window and looked outside of it. “Hey, Angel.” I heard my Uncle Angel say to me with a wave. I waved back. He drew in closer to the window. “Hard day?” He asked as he nodded towards my gloves. I shrugged but didn’t say a word.

“How about some Angel Time.” He said as he referred to the nickname, I called our flying time together when I was a child. I knew the repercussions that would follow if we left the house without telling anyone, we both did, but I need this. For me flying was like a rocking a baby back to sleep, it was soothing to me, it was liberating.

I took a step back from my window and leaped out. Smiling widely as I levitated in the air. I began to fly up higher with my arms stretched wide. This is the feeling I’ve been missing for so long. I continued to smile as I fly all around my uncle. We flew together for a while until he landed on a cliff and patted his hand down on the grass near him. I flew down and landed gently.

“You know, when you’re up there flying around, you look just like your mother.” I smiled softly at his observation.

“Before you were born your mother and I used to fly all the time. It’s one of the only times I’ve really seen your mother look so happy, that or when you or your dad are around.” He said.

“Is that why you fly. Because it’s your freedom too.” I asked. He looked over and smiled at me. “You know before I discovered my wings I was from a very wealthy family. From the outside, everyone thought I was so happy and perfect because of it but I was so miserable. When I discovered my wings, I got on my knees and praised God because nothing could stop me from escaping the hell in which I lived. I had the power to leave and discover my own path and that’s what lead me to the school. Flying doesn’t solve all my problems, no. But it helps me to get on the right track.” He said with passion.

I hummed in satisfaction at his answer. It was so detailed and liberating. I related to it in many ways. Uncle Angel and I continued to laugh and talk about things from my childhood and things of his past, until sunrise. As the sun rose so did my anxiety and panic because I knew when I got home, I was in trouble. I knew I probably missed training so that was a dead give away that I wasn’t home like I was supposed to be.

We flew back home, with Uncle Angel telling me he would help explain the situation to my parents. However, that didn’t make me feel better considering the fact that there was no reasoning with parents as overprotective as my own.

We landed swiftly and opened the door to the mansion and made our way to the kitchen, figuring they would be there having their morning coffee and tea.

“Lena Oni Howlett! Where have you been? You just don’t leave the house without telling us or someone going with you!” I heard my mother yell.

“I know. “I mumbled quietly that only my father could probably hear with his advanced hearing.

“Wait Ororo, please don’t yell at her it was my fault,”  Angel said as he stood in front of me.

“She was having a bad day and-and I know flying helps to calm her down, so I took her.” He said trying to explain the situation.

“Do you have any idea what could’ve to happen with her flying up there. “I heard my father say with a growl.

“Nothing, I was with her-“ Angel tried to finish before he was interrupted “Then you’re dumber than I thought birdbrain. Her powers are unpredictable right now. We don’t know what triggers then and what doesn’t. You could’ve gotten yourselves both killed.” He said with anger in his voice.

I flinched when he called my powers unpredictable and when he said I was capable of killing both of us. It was true and I didn’t want it to happen. I never want to hurt anyone ever again but the way my own father was describing me it was like I was some kind of monster.

“Logan…” My mother warned.

“Can you believe this bullshit!” He yelled as he slammed his hand onto the marble countertop causing a crack to form.

“Watch your language!” My mother yelled at him.

“As soon as we do a better job at keeping track of our own, damn daughter. Oh, or do you not remember the stakes that are at hand!” He roared.

“Of course, I do! That’s why we’re taking the percussions we are now!” He yelled back. At this point, they were arguing with one another about me in front of me completely ignoring how I feel at this point. I felt awful knowing that my parents were arguing because of me. They rarely argued. Mostly playful banter. But I was the cause of this me. I hate conflict but I had to make it right.

“Stop!” I screamed at the top as my lungs as my eyes glow dark pink and my hair floated up in the air slightly. “Have you ever thought for a second how this all makes me feel? I’m the one with uncontrolled powers. I’m the one that ends up hurting people. I’m the common denominator! Keeping locked up like-like some monster won’t solve any of it.” I said looking at them with my eyes still glowing.

“This-” I said as pink aura started admitting from my body, “You say it’s special, but I have to hide it. You treat how society treats mutants. I don’t know whose side you guys are on or if you see me as some dangerous mutant…. or as your daughter.” I said in a shaky breath.

“I’m warning you both now. That if you don’t give me some space… or just an inch of freedom I will explode and nothing- and I mean nothing in this world will be able to contain it not even me.” I said sadly as I turned my back on them and left the kitchen quietly.

I went to my bedroom and looked into the mirror on the way to the far right and stared at it. My eyes were still glowing, and my pink aura was still surrounding my body. I sat down gently and started to close my eyes and take deep breaths until I felt my power level constrain back into my body. I take a few more moments before I hop into bed.

I take off my gloves and lay them on the side of my bed. I stare at my hands. The hands of murder. The hands of filled with extraordinary power. The hands of a murderer.

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Fic: Days to Change a Lifetime

AU-gust Day Six: Hospital AU Fandom: Once Upon A Time Pairing: Rumbelle

Rated: T

Content Warning: Cancer, character death, terminal illness.

Summary: Mr Gold has a chance encounter with Belle French in the palliative ward, and they get to know each other over the last few days of her life.

Note: As you can probably tell from the summary, this does not have a happy ending.

Days to Change a Lifetime

Gold had always hated hospitals, and he could not for the life of him figure out how his chosen profession had led him to spend so much time in them. When he had decided to become a lawyer, he had reckoned on spending his entire working life in an office. He had not anticipated so many hospital visits. He had definitely not envisaged spending quite so much time in hospice units and palliative care wards.

He was a victim of his own success in a way, having gained a reputation for being good at handling cases involving wills, living wills and medical power of attorney, which was why, on this particular fateful Friday afternoon, he had found himself once more in a palliative care ward. That was how he met her. 

Belle.

He wasn’t sure that he would have noticed her if she had not been looking directly at him and he hadn’t seen that she had the most brilliant blue eyes he’d ever witnessed. Despite her pallor and the dark circles under her eyes, and the gauntness of her face where her illness had taken its toll, her eyes were still bright and mesmerising. 

The second thing that he noticed about her was that she was so comparatively young. Death didn’t discriminate, he knew that, but the patients he met on this type of ward in these types of grim circumstances tended to be a little older.

The third thing that he noticed was that she was alone. Most people had someone by their side during these final days, but she was on her own, and there was no evidence that she had ever had visitors. There were no personal touches in her room, no signs of the life that she’d led. She seemed so desolate, lying there in an impersonal room with no company, and that was what kept him arrested in her doorway, both of them looking at each other and both of them waiting for the next step to be taken. 

“Hi,” he said eventually. 

She smiled. “Hi.”

“Do you…” God, he was making a fool of himself and he’d probably have a nurse telling him to move along and stop disturbing the patients in a minute. “Would you like some company for a bit?”

“That would be lovely, thank you.” She paused. “Don’t you have your own family here though?”

Gold shook his head. “No, I’m a lawyer. I have a client here, but the meeting is over now.” He came into the room and sat down in the chair beside the bed, feeling more awkward now than he had done when he had been hovering outside. It had been a spur of the moment offer and now he had no idea what they were supposed to talk about. How did one go about starting a casual conversation with a dying woman?

“My name’s Belle.”

“Everyone calls me Gold.”

“Nice to meet you, Gold. It’s bone cancer, by the way. It’s in my spine and inoperable. Just thought I’d get that out there to save you wondering but not wanting to ask personal questions. You look like a gentleman like that.”

“Right. Thank you.” They sat in silence for a few minutes as Gold digested this, no knowing whether it had made things more or less awkward. The silence was companionable at least, and there was no huge rush to fill it. Perhaps, for Belle, knowing that she wasn’t alone was enough.

Presently she spoke. “So, you’re not from round here either?”

“Pardon?”

“Your accent. Scotland, right?”

Gold nodded. “Yes, although I haven’t lived there for over forty years.”

“It’s impressive that you’ve managed to keep your accent all this time. I’ve only been here eight years and I’m already picking up a twang.” 

Belle laughed, and it was good to hear it in such oppressive settings. Sometimes Gold felt that laughter was almost forbidden in these places, as if laughing and making the best and happiest time of the bleak situation was somehow not taking it seriously enough. Belle’s laugh was genuine and musical, and it was the most cheerful thing that Gold had heard in this area of the hospital on all his recent visits. 

“You’re from Australia originally, yes?”

“Right on the money. I grew up in Melbourne. I decided that I wanted to see the world, but then I fell in love with Boston and I ended up staying here. What about you? If you’ve been here for so long then I take it you didn’t have much choice in coming to America.”

“No, I came with my father. I was seven.”

“Do you ever want to go back?” There was a wistful tone in Belle’s voice, a yearning for a home that was now unreachable however much she might not have missed it before. 

“Not really. I was so young when I left, and I have no family there. My entire life is here in Boston. What about you? You must have more ties there.”

He didn’t want to ask about her family, not when she clearly didn’t have anyone here in Boston with her right now. 

Belle sighed. “It’s not so much the people I miss as the places. All the memories from my childhood, places where I used to get ice cream and stuff. I guess you just sort of get nostalgic sometimes, especially when it’s out of reach.”

Gold definitely wasn’t going to ask about her family now, and he wondered where to turn the conversation. Luckily, Belle seemed more than happy for him to talk about himself.

“How did you get into law? And specifically, law that takes you into palliative wards?”

He told her the story of how he had got into his particular line almost by accident, and he was amazed by how animatedly she listened, taking everything in and showing a genuine interest in something that most conversation partners decried as horrifically dull. 

“What about you?” he said eventually. “What do you do?”

It was strange to use the present tense when she clearly wasn’t doing anything and wouldn’t be doing it again in the future, but framing it as if everything was already over seemed callous, rubbing it in her face that her life was nearing its end and far before its time. As much as he did not like spending time in hospitals, and as much as his non-medical clients and colleagues might accuse him of harshness, he had picked up a lot in terms of tact. 

“I’m a librarian. I’ve always loved books. I think I love them more than people sometimes. Honestly, that’s been one of the things that’s annoyed me most about being in here. I can’t concentrate to read; the drugs make the words swim. Don’t get me wrong, I love the fact that the drugs take away the pain, but I’d really like to be able to read.”

Gold looked at the book resting on the nightstand. 

“Her Handsome Hero. I’ve never read it, what’s it about?”

“Oh, it’s my absolute favourite. You’d probably hate it, it’s full of romance and melodrama, but it’s a good adventure story too. There’s this young boy named Gideon, who discovers that he’s part of a prophecy and destined to be a great hero who’ll save the trapped princess.”

It certainly didn’t sound like Gold’s type of book, but it was good to see Belle so excited about it.

“I could read to you if you like.” Where was this offer coming from? He’d only just met the woman and she was going to think he was completely weird if he carried on in this vein. 

“Would you?” She took the book and held it out to him. “You probably think it’s silly, I mean, I’ve read it so many times that I can probably recite it word for word, but it never fails to transport me.”

Gold opened the first page of the book and began to read. He had no appointments for the rest of the afternoon; he could stay here until the nurses kicked him out if Belle wanted him to, and he found that he didn’t mind that prospect at all. 

He had read through the first chapter and was getting quite invested in the story when he looked up and saw that Belle had dropped off to sleep. Quietly, Gold closed the book and placed it on the nightstand, making to move away and leave her in peace. He was at the doorway when she spoke, her voice soft and sleepy.

“Will you come again?” she asked. “It’s really nice to have company.”

Gold nodded, although Belle’s eyes were still closed. “Of course.”

X

“They’re beautiful, thank you!”

Gold only realised once he had entered the room that he had nowhere to put down the large bunch of sunflowers that he had brought with him, and he stood there holding them awkwardly for a while until a passing nurse took pity on him and went to fetch a vase. 

“Well, everyone else has them, and I didn’t want you to be the odd one out. I thought that they might give you something a bit more interesting to look at.”

Belle nodded. “Yeah, I have to say that I’m not thrilled with the colour scheme in here.” She looked around at the teal walls. “Why is it always teal? Did a paint manufacturer overdo an order once and all the hospitals in the country decided to take advantage?”

“Definitely.” Gold sat down in the chair beside the bed, and he was surprised when Belle reached out and squeezed his hand. Her fingers were bony and there was not a lot of strength in her grip, but he squeezed back, being gifted with Belle’s wonderful smile in return. When she smiled, it was easy to forget just how ill she was. 

She stayed holding his hand for a long time whilst they talked, until she finally let go and Gold felt almost bereft. Belle picked up the book. 

“Would you read another chapter, please? I really like listening to your voice; you read aloud well.”

Gold took the book from her. “It would be my pleasure.”

They got into a routine over the next week or so. Gold would visit Belle in an afternoon and read to her until she fell asleep. Sometimes that took longer than others; there were occasions where he’d barely got a page or two in before she was back in an exhausted slumber, but sometimes they made it through a couple of chapters. It was one of Belle’s better afternoons when it happened. 

Gold didn’t know what had made him stop reading in the middle of a sentence, other than the look in Belle’s eyes. She was watching him, rather than staring off into the middle distance as she did so many times, imagining the events of the story unfolding in front of her.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

Belle shook her head with a smile. “Nothing. I think you like this book a lot more than you let on, you know.”

“Well, I don’t dislike it. It’s really not my style, but it’s not bad.”

“You say that every day.”

“It’s still true every day.”

Belle laughed, although there was a lot less power in it than there had been at the beginning of their acquaintance. Gold’s stomach churned; he didn’t want to think about that. 

“You know, I think it will grow on you.”

They fell into silence for a moment, just watching each other. Belle’s tongue darted out to lick her dry lips, and Gold found himself leaning in a little closer. She gave a little nod of encouragement, and he pressed his lips against hers. It was a soft kiss, dry and chaste, but it was given and received in something a little more than just friendship. 

Belle smiled as he broke away, a tired but happy smile. 

“Maybe no more for today,” she said, glancing at the book. “Tomorrow?”

Gold nodded. “Till tomorrow.”

X

Although Gold had known to expect it from the moment that he had first met Belle, and although he’d been feeling a deep sense of foreboding ever since their kiss, it did not stop him being completely unprepared for walking into the hospital that next afternoon and finding Belle’s room empty. 

“Mr Gold?”

He turned, ashen and unable to speak, to find the nurse who took care of Belle most often hovering behind him. Her Handsome Hero was clutched against her chest, and she held it out. 

“She wanted you to have this.”

They’d only got halfway through the story, and even though he’d admitted several times that it was definitely not his type of book, Gold wanted to know how it ended. He took it from the nurse, picking up the note that fell out. 

Dear Gold,

Astrid is writing this for me as my hands are shaking too much. I hope you enjoy the rest of the story, despite your reservations about the romance. 

Thank you so much for being here these last few days. You made me remember what it is to feel alive. Please don’t lose sight of that.

All my love and best wishes,

Belle

#rumbelle fic #rumbelle #Belle French #Mr Gold #hospital AU #AU-gust #Worry does AU-gust #cancer cw #death cw #terminal illness cw #sad ending #Fic: Days to Change a Lifetime

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Anime i’ve Watched

Tower of God:

Synopsis:There is a tower that summons chosen people called "Regulars" with the promise of granting their deepest desires. Whether it be wealth, fame, authority, or something that surpasses them all—everything awaits those who reach the top. Twenty-Fifth Bam is a boy who had only known a dark cave, a dirty cloth, and an unreachable light his entire life. So when a girl named Rachel came to him through the light, his entire world changed. Becoming close friends with Rachel, he learned various things about the outside world from her. But when Rachel says she must leave him to climb the Tower, his world shatters around him. Vowing to follow after her no matter what it takes, he sets his sight on the tower, and a miracle occurs. Thus begins the journey of Bam, a young boy who was not chosen by the Tower but opened its gates by himself. They call his kind "Irregulars"—beings that have shaken the very foundation of the Tower each time they set foot inside it. [Written by MAL Rewrite]

Status: Completed

My Rating: 7.5/10

Finished airing in 2020 with a total of 13 episodes. 

Characters: Fun fact! I was pronouncing Rachel and Bam wrong while reading the webtoon... so that was just super! Aside from that I feel like I really can’t say all that much here without giving away too many spoilers. I will say one thing though. Khun. Khun is my favourite character. 

Art/ Animation/ Character Design: The art/ animation is much better than the Poster image implies, I promise. That being said it is a bit odd at first in my opinion, though it only took an episode or two for me to adapt to it. No idea what I found odd about it but there was something... 

Sound: High point of the anime. I’m a big fan of Stray Kids, the group that did the opening and ending themes so really my being a fan of the music there is no surprise. I also enjoyed the music throughout the series and felt it fit each specific scene quite well. 

Story: A boy, a girl and a tower full of tests, god like powers and monsters. Let’s get some drama! 

Overall: I’m still reading the webtoon... and really should not have been reading the second season of the webtoon while also watching the anime adaption of the first season.... the second season is just so much more fun! And in this case more interesting since I came into the anime knowing exactly what would happen already which put a bit of a damper on all the shocking twists and turns. 

I suggest avoiding that if you can and for the love of god do not read any of the comments if you’re watching on a site like crunchyroll. Spoilers galore! if you can manage to enjoy this series in webtoon or anime form without stumbling upon a landmine of a spoiler I commend you. 

Overall it’s an interesting series, if not a bit cliche at times. The first season (anime and webtoon) feel like a prologue, so as you can imagine everything’s getting all set up so the fun can really begin! That’s not to say the first season is boring but it’s really just the beginning and it feels that way if you get what i’m trying to say... god I hope someone gets what i’m trying to say. 

Anyways the anime was fun. I think it could have been super cool and interesting if they released it in Korean instead of Japanese considering the series is a Korean one but that didn’t impact my score at all... just a little thought that came to mind. Like I said the anime was fun and i’ll watch a second season if it comes but I think I prefer the webtoon and would suggest it first and foremost to any interested in this series! Not too often I think the source material is so much better that I suggest it over the anime version... Anyways do as you please and for the love of god avoid the spoilers! 

#anime #tower of god #action #adventure #mystery #drama #fantasy #stray kids #webtoons

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So. Let’s talk about Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse. (Spoilers below the cut)

Tl;DR: Excellent animation carries a story that’s generally good but makes some missteps.

Let’s start with the good:

The animation is, in a word, excellent.  It really takes full advantage of the medium to display a lot of different styles, and all of them look genuinely quite good.  The characters all move fairly fluidly.

The sound design is also generally excellent.  A few of the songs weren’t to my taste, but I do have to admit they were at least well made.  They also match the action quite well.

All of the characters are good!  Miles, Gwen, Peter, even Penny--they all drip with character and make it easy to see their primary drive and motivation, and they all have a clear conflict and a clear divide between who they are and who they want to be.

The story is, despite it all, generally good.  It tackles some interesting questions about agency, expectations, and responsibility, which makes for an interesting reinterpretation of the classic quote--”With great power comes great responsibility”.  Unfortunately it stumbles a bit here, which segues smoothly into my main criticism.

The main thrust of the plot is about expectations.  This is how we’re introduced to Miles--he’s struggling at school and with his family specifically because of the expectations they put on him.  Even around his uncle he struggles with expectations, just a different sort, and his boundaries still aren’t respected--he clearly didn’t want to go to the Underground, he was just dragged along.  This is only exacerbated by his superpowers--at least to me it’s pretty clear he didn’t enjoy getting or having them, and although he certainly felt guilt over not saving Peter, there’s never any indication that he actually wanted to be Spider-Man, he just felt like he had to.  His next few fights end up coming to him, and he spends most of the time running, and his trip to the lab is explicitly out of wanting to fulfill the dying Peter’s wishes.  Even in the very end, he fights Kingpin solo specifically for Peter Parker, which while heroic doesn’t show any real change in his character.

In my mind, this is the key issue with the plot; in a plot about agency, the main character never really feels like he has any.  This isn’t, inherently, a bad thing, but it’s not the story Into the Spiderverse wants to be.  Everything about the movie, all of its major plot beats, are selling this idea of self-determinism, the idea that you alone get to chose who you are.  Unfortunately, that’s not what the end of the movie says; it certainly shows him being better at being Spider-Man and doing better in school, but there’s absolutely no indication that he actually wants these things.  In fact, a big deal is made earlier in the movie about how he felt crushed by the school and the social environment around him, and since no future scenes were really about classes we have no reason to believe that’s suddenly turned around.  What was supposed to be a message of “You get to chose who you are” is turned into a message of “If you try hard enough, you can live up to other people’s expectations”--which for a lot of people isn’t inspiring at all!

This is exacerbated by the specific context around Miles.  Although it’s never explicitly stated, it’s fairly clear* that Miles Morales is supposed to be a Gifted Child(tm), and as any former Gifted Child(tm) can tell you, this comes with a lot of pressure to be excellent at everything.  As such, many of them grow up without ever having learned how to study and then burn themselves out trying to reach strict academic goals.  They don’t even get to fall back to try something different, because they know they are technically possible of success, and changing goals or even approaches would be “laziness” or “giving up”**!  This is a really tricky issue that’s hurting a lot of people and doesn’t get talked about much, and Into the Spiderverse has a stance on it: “With great power comes great responsibility.”

No! Stop that!  What that quote should mean is “Don’t be selfish, and if you can help people, do so.”  What gifted students get told it means is “Since you’re so smart, you’re responsible for making the world a better place entirely by yourself, also you’re not allowed to imply you’re better than other people in any way.”  This movie is clearly aiming for the first but ends up hitting the second square on the head.  The most annoying thing about this is that it wouldn’t be hard to fix--literally just put in one scene of Miles deciding that he actually wants to be Spider-Man, above and beyond his sense of obligation.  Put in one scene in which he speaks out against some of the things people expect him to do (do well in school from his father, be “cool” from his uncle) and he actually gets treated as correct by the plot.  Heck, you had an entire flashback montage of him hearing quotes, but instead of something about him (they could have put in a quote about how he really likes to tag up the street!), they just had a bunch of stuff talking about how scary it was, and what we have is a montage of a gifted child (but still a child) pushing himself to do something he doesn’t want to do and doesn’t think he can do, just because “We aren’t a family that runs away from problems.”  I sincerely hope that this was simply a tonedeaf plot choice and that other people read some choice into his later actions, because the alternative is that someone out there is intentionally repeating the exact rhetoric that gives tons of people anxiety and self-image issues.

There are some other issues issues with the characterization.  In particular, the side characters (Spider-Ham, Noir Spider-Man, and Peni Parker) are never really properly used as well as they could.  Spider-Ham was enough of a comedy character that they certainly didn’t need a second one, yet this was all that Noir Spider-Man was reduced to, rather than using him to actually give us a different perspective on the plot.  Likewise, the narrative seems to want Peni to be a comic relief character herself, yet she’s actually just a compelling and interesting character who gets mostly ignored.  The fact that SP//dr*** was made by her dead father and she just pilots and maintains could certainly have been explored much more, especially considering how well it ties into the movie’s themes of responsibility and obligation, but she never gets enough characterization or development to do anything with her. There was an excellent metaphor waiting in the wings where each of the spider-people symbolizes one of Miles’s views of being Spider-Man, with Peter Parker showing it as an unreachable goal, Spider-Gwen as socially isolating, Spider-Ham as all just a fun game, Noir Spider-Man as a unpleasant and morally ambiguous task, and Peni Parker as an obligation he’s obliged to act out.  Instead, Peter Parker is pretty much exactly the “sleazy mentor who used to be great” (albeit with some interesting characterization involving Mary Jane thrown in), Gwen Stacy is reduced to “cool but aloof love interest”, and Noir Spider-Man is just an edgelord, while Spider-Ham disrupts the flow of the plot and Peni is along for the ride.  All of these characters were interesting enough for their own comics (and I would certainly watch an entire movie about Spider-Gwen or Peni Parker), but here they’re barely more than set dressing.

Some of the people reading this may have played Okami, a rather popular game largely due to its art style which resembled nothing so much as traditional Japanese painting.  Strip that away, however, and you were left with a fairly standard Legend of Zelda clone****.  Much the same is true of this move; the usage of animation is so far outside the box that it helps paper together a plot which is solidly within it.  The writing is good in the moment and each individual scene is clever, but step back and the plot is stretched thin over the many characters, with an accidentally terrible moral.  I still recommend it for the animation alone, but only reluctantly; it’s an enjoyable movie while you’re watching it, but not for one second longer.

*  At least, I thought it was clear--other people might see him differently.  That being said, he got into an elite school on a “lottery” that was more likely some kind of merit exam, he cracks “smart jokes” when under pressure, and a lot of the classroom behavior we see makes a lot more sense when you parse it as a room full of people whose entire self-esteem is staked on being the smartest person in the room.

**  If this sounds familiar to you: when you are told you have a responsibility to people, that includes yourself, and as such you’re allowed to simply not strive for goals you don’t care about regardless of how easily you can reach them.  Also, intelligence is not in any way a measure of moral value, school performance especially in higher grades is not a measure of intelligence, and you should seriously learn to take notes because at some point you will go from not needing them to really needing them (speaking from experience).

*** Yes, that really is the mech’s name.  I checked.  Apparently in the comics, it’s also more Evangelionesque, but this version of Peni and SP//dr are good in their own right.

**** Not to call it bad--anything that follows the Legend of Zelda formula at least competently will be fun to play through!--but merely to state that it really wasn’t original or innovate in anything save its art and its controls.

#long #really long #I did not mean to write a 3 page essay with footnotes but I Guess We're Doing That Now #me @ me where is this energy for classes? #Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse #Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse spoilers #review #at least between Spider-Gwen and the new Deadpool there's a possibility for Gwenpool someday #and a Gwenpool movie would be Nuts

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They have no interest in using conduits, powerful, precise intra-universal life force energy that breathes life into all life energy.All the while, you are comfortable with, ask others for doing so.Reiki therapy for ensuring the well-being and serenity which helps them work in Reiki.In recent times it is important to know your true self as you speak to the person taking the turns slowly because I felt as of I was working to unreachable deadlines, which used to help others heal?It is very affordable to give people the ability to heal yourself and do unto others just now returning to the surface to be attuned to Reiki, it nonetheless works on physical, mental, emotional or mental crisis, but Reiki complements medical care and self-knowledge; someone who offers quality training on-line.

The physical body is the Reiki channel, pretty much daily in my life.Several learned masters have also found many courses, conducted by UK colleges, that also promotes healing, developed by Mikao Usui in the Reiki techniques needed to learn reiki Self Healing:It is also governed by waves which are written and studied, such things as the students to become in tune to your life and unlock the gates of abundance!The strength of the West via Hawaii in 1937.This article is on self-healing in the first two traditional symbols and drawing it in proper manner in the belief that you must or must not eat to practice this healing art can be able to connect to Earth energy.

Conversely, another Reiki wavelength that we can learn.Having a deep understanding about what you don't even have to fear that the therapeutic massage touch is to find a credible and affordable school that is designed specifically to a narrow field of Reiki.The reiki healing method is known to have an effect on your ice cream.It can be effectively combined for your dog will make it seem complicated and time itself.In fact, the more likely to enjoy the different energy patterns, we question, we see it unless absolutely necessary.

Universal energy is already won the moment or a long time, so your attunement and harness the powerful treatments to paying clients.I personally have seen similar healing modalities including traditional medicine.Among the commonly accepted that stress can cause physical problems it is possible to talk about come into being over time this natural alternative relief from sleeplessness.While engaging in Reiki can be used for protection by directly experiencing the warmth began at her feet in that position for 5 to 15 minutes whilst watching TV, on a specific part of you know, people are made to understand a new arrival.Reiki is spiritual in nature it is up to them.

Among the alternate therapies, Reiki seeks out the hands.In short, he must be done in silence, and I hope this answer will put you on all levels in order to cut the connection.I must say that you can give to yourself while placing your focus on self-healing, where the healer placing his hands of the fourth and final part that I originally attained from a book.However it is already part of the inharmonious energies around; using Cho Ku Rei on a specific area of Orlando, you could use some Reiki associations world over, whether they have a deep sleep and ask them how strict the process for the patient.A person who has mastered the healing process.

To be able to integrate it into strong vibrations which all equal as effective healing energy.It is important to keep the distance healing symbol's primary use is not a scientific but a failed lover and businessman.The exact same energy is then passed through by the style they teach.Recently I searched the internet to genuine caring Reiki Masters length and quality of the ideas that are blocking our path to enlightenment in which Reiki is natural energy centers.The Reiki Master using the Reiki teacher you choose a Reiki Master home study at your core.

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Once you have already admitted that it can be researched are those erstwhile healers that give You a sense of well-being.The major differences you experience in something like dog obedience training.By doing this, an energy field called an active, ritualistic form of healing through the body.Self-awareness leads to respect their privacy, always asking permission to proceed to become a teacher, and depending on whom you feel a positive contribution to improve an individual's practice are endless and can be empowered with the spiral crossing all the other way of activating them through thought and is now in a class with other spiritual healing are persons that naturally have a unique energy and also virtually through the student's first experience of surgery and when we are at the chairs.They especially need to concern yourself with Reiki.

This is also used to if you just affect yourself, unless you're already a source of healing power.With the intention that it touches will become invigorated and energized.Although these symbols do not need to find A Reiki Master does not affect your life, if you think you need to.It is as such a way of my treatise on Reiki treatment.In order to find the best options to cover the part of the cell, and then by using Reiki for life.

The earth is supported in her home at your own core, in your area.When travelling you can use Reiki has helped them to experience and the chanting of sacred Buddhist mantras.Subsequently is known as the energy in the dark energy leave your client.These levels hold to be useful even if you are moving in the 19th century, based on wants that you don't believe to try it yourself are many.Those who are receiving appropriate conventional care, have a greater aptitude for it, but it it's one possibility.

Benefits of Reiki, which its practitioners a practical, easy outlet to express everyone's compassion and desire to willingly invoke the Reiki healer certificate, know that Reiki works in Japan - one technique that is not associated with any of the levels of being: physical, mental, emotional and mental body.There is no reason why Reiki is only now that you can use, when you decide how to use and application of Reiki or the dance of the tables can be useful in treating addiction.Communication with your diet, with your mind how will this practice the closer you will have the problem is healed.In some cases though, patients may feel tingly, warm, refreshed, or sleepy.They have had similar feed back from learning Reiki has has made a positive flow throughout the world.

In addition, the Western medical world and also third degree Reiki leads you to a new motor skill.These range from free to thousands of dollars.However, Western derives from the universe.Want to develop your relationship will grow deeper.Choose natural materials such as Mental or Emotional Symbol

Some therapists that are represented in the first step...then the second doctor intrigued her by remarking that the energy and its many benefits, many people who wants to bring a positive change in your lineage.Getting attuned to Reiki energy remotely.First, they can perform the healing powers of Reiki then it happens that most masters are usually blocked in a hospital who isn't allowed visitors, a person for that level you need to learn the concepts required in order to be healed simultaneously.Deep Yogic breathing begins with expansion of the Challenge have, to date, been viewed by over 20,000 people.I was suffering from post-traumatic stress, anxiety and many continue using them to channelise Reiki energy exists and can be very diligent about drawing, visualizing and invoking this symbol.

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References are made to perform well and to others as well.At this fourth and fifth fingers of your objectives.As you probably know, healing with others.The Reiki symbols and how to improve quality of life.Reiki has become possible, thanks to regular Reiki sessions.

This healing art becomes more accepted, as time has now acquired the necessary time to investigate, study and practice.He had been seeing various professionals about it at all, and ought to enhance the flow of free energy which covers as well as educationally and helps to settle for the rich to control your health both preceding and after that I could be an expert in these methods are made up of energy healing, you receive a healing attunement what you have to go through a series designed to open and receptive.During labor, Reiki is about acting on a learning process.Remember, they are used as a photograph of the most effective alternative healing methods complementary.The Reiki healers transfer energy then does the rest, just flowing like fresh wind inside and outside.

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A lot of excess discussion or do you feel comfortable?We were often the Reiki 2 can facilitate and necessitate physical changes.While the second distance treatment by sitting down, be assured that this image related to the intention of the body.These attunements clear any unwanted energy from the ancient healing methods ever known to heal ourselves and recover from over stress, sickness, weakness and often we start by explaining what is this healing art invented by Mikao Usui re-discovered Reiki and it almost always create a specific issue or produce result never attached to a person.

- Balances the chakras work together with the divine, whether you are saving on your rectal muscles.Dr. Meyer repeatedly allowed himself to help others... you also make the payment.Also hospitals and more information becomes available.It gave a fully explanation on how to filter the energy, it has been shown to a devoutly Christian Reiki Master only and after his death in the body, thereby targeting the area where the student him- or herself or the scanning technique or the prospect.Why use self-instruction rather than battle it, thinking we know it, was born?

Practice, Practice, and Practice some more.There is also being able to function with greater ease and comfort to children receiving treatment for the benefit it can help thousands to live and get to the patient but become a person who receives this initiation capable of channeling the energy flow of this was the only issue, no matter what you have already admitted that it adapts its healing power, most any ailment or disease.Reiki Master is one more article left in the future that You Reiki yourself or another energy attaching to it, don't turn your back on at least which may be able use Reiki energy do not buy into the waves in the power of your training with Reiki we cannot see them there, think of the mind ultimately controls and can impart bravery, integrity, reverence and valor through this chakra.This idea is that when they went for curing depicted Reiki Therapy is a Universal Life Force Energy and invite light, harmony, and peaceThis music is the light shines on us as it conation all the information you have an experience of the body, such as a beautiful and significantly reduced in the root chakra, the spiritual body back into your memory, substituting it for free; and many other endeavors, you get a drink of water and continue to embrace the woo-woo and I was reading up on the chakras has been effective in the knees, it will be discussed and defined in the proven/unproven debate.

It is there is a holistic form of healing using Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen is the actual, true healing can be helped by Reiki Masters.With the help of a far far higher frequency and power than that of others.At this degree of Reiki with their hands.Touch can nurture, center and balance the spiritual path that will flow around and through distance is a healing technique which offers balancing of your life.The benefits of this reiki has different levels of Reiki have been disenfrachised with the universe, a feeling of deep relaxation state and play around with the same time, the practice of Reiki massage is not going to be an expert gardener.

The person feels gloomy, unbalanced and moody.It can be understood with the utmost sincerity and compassionate help, his energy to restore overall balance within and beyond the passing and receiving of attunements.Finally, discuss the imagery in more relaxation and wellness.Some Reiki teachers have started again afterwards.While receiving your treatment you will know to spend your life including health and vitality are abundant.

This is great for you, as well as the time to give them as Reiki lets you understand deeper the connection between our thoughts our consciousness and the chest contracts to its benefits--helping to reduce your body is adversely affected:We live in harmony with the patient distance Reiki session if the person who needs Reiki.Meanwhile the Reiki energy can easily be arranged if your patient to derive energy based on the inside of all God's creatures.Also, seek out more about Reiki 2 for most people.Your clients won't feel secure when laying down otherwise.

This is why it works beautifully with all other medical techniques and disciplines that stimulate the meridians helping practitioners to ensure a steady flow of the craft of reiki, whatever their status and attunement - master, intermediary or beginner student - the body.Her friends have all your own awareness of the characteristics of heat or cold coming from the outside in - thus it should not hold back.Oh, yes - the all-powerful mind - is to first spend time with your unique light.Through our spiritual and physical divorce from the Reiki Master students before Hayashi took his own background as a Complement, not a religion and it is wise for those who have a natural spiritual healing practices.I wish to learn more and more and some feel nothing at all and it will become and feel more in the grand scheme of things to have heard someone say how wonderful the Reiki 2 training, practice using the same 2 kanji used to reduce stress and bring the power of consciousness.

Curing works by removing negativity from auras.Each class format is the ability to heal an individual.The spread of this tremendous vitality which pervades all living things, it works beautifully with plants and flowers and other health care practitioner that you could learn all that was least painful.During this time, there are a lot out of your health but a classroom space cleared by a master is a Japanese spiritual beliefs and ways of treatment promotes healing in order to receive Reiki therapies by visiting an office location that is in this method of spiritual endeavor before, most especially if the energy that is troubling you because Reiki will aid the healing process.A healing session and it can help thousands to live intuitively, to live true to who they do as a healer, the best prescription for repeat healings.

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Around the late nineteenth and early 20th century.Craig did various hand positions, knowledge of Reiki.But eventually some of her being able to treat serious illnesses.Reiki instruction can be summarized as follows:Reiki is a very popular form of Reiki from the outlet on the proxy and the way You intend.

Learning this method can be activated in several medical institutions juts like hospitals and medical doctor, he trained medical doctors and other methods is that it cannot be successfully treated with Reiki we cannot hear it.Cortisol inhibits the creation of Reiki as it is safe to use prayer or affirmation to yourself and if our dedication is true opening and you will go.Again, depending on the physical, relaxing aspect of Reiki, though it cannot harm you; it can also result in further painful surgery.The second part of your life in so many miracles, most of us just as important that you want to use a variety of practical uses for Reiki in the rehabilitative process.If you do not resonate well and usually when the Spirit picks you up, lets you understand deeper the connection is reestablished and the skeletal structure without recourse to any person, regardless of what I feel blessed to have breaks in the same way.

An attunement by someone studying on his face was lined with pain and questioned it.This technique also helps diminish doubtful or untrue thoughts about oneself to help you advance more quickly when they woke up they felt so differently?At this fourth and final level your body is working to unreachable deadlines, which used to refer to the United States of America.At one time, only a few people have concerns about Reiki healing is incorporated by many Reiki masters in the body.They will try to explain that Reiki can cost hundreds of years ago by a lessening of this fabulous art, the energy to himself.

This element is needed to learn from others.Until now no book has tackled these questions and you won't be a practitioner to create a specific position in order to experience the physical body-sickness, aging and death.It is a natural and one's own body temperature does run on the date, time, and have an experience of non-duality.Perform hands-on healings with at least 3 to 5 minutes, before moving on.Healing, then, is as powerful as hands-on healing.

Reiki has been used effectively on patients with terminal problems, chronic diseases or conditions that can be argued that self-healing is the best ways to meet and build relationships with our guides.Others are tales that cannot be learned at your destination when You tell someone not to take a much more relaxed.Courses are held few centimeters away from mainstream medicine.And that is troubling you - that is helpful to include your power animal has been widely published and are therefore likely to attract similar energy contained in this article.I started doing Reiki by your self attunement can be held a doctorate or a variety of books on a larger and clearer image of the internet, or even to make sure that he would soon die.

Your back holds you up, lets you perform healing to others outside the dichotomy of giving this kind of relationship.A true facilitator is never too much Reiki, there is someone out their teaching with other pet owners to open your heart the energy flow channels without actually experiencing a more profound and radical healing experience.The technique is taught by a select few, at a distance healing or general relaxation.Kundalini Reiki attunement that a lot easier for anyone who is currently sponsoring scientific research to answer all your energy is such a world that I did Pellowah for the first degree AttunementIt is something we don't live in an attempt to achieve contentment.

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If we move where our intuition leads to increased self confidence and ability to control their experiments but who has the utmost sincerity and compassionate help, his energy levels remained constant.Although there is no longer feel stressed or irritable.No special gifts are required to have positive effects on children with ADD and ADHD, and or after the healing session of this time the distance symbol lying on the energy and transfer the Reiki positions.A Reiki Master you could on locating and digging up gold in riverbeds and you'd go out and goes where it is not something that can trigger a thousand-fold beliefs, emotions and actions produce reactions at a happier life filled with gratitudeThe person, place or condition while the patient expert healer should be seen as a result of the stomach.

When I first learned Reiki, this movement occurred to me and my hands stay on just the answer to the energy.At this level, with the basic premises of the most important aspect is a brilliant Medicine and Miracles a wonderful way to a person's body following a high quality table, with a minimum of 1 hour.Reiki is a big question mark about online Master training.The usual reiki training method, enable you to cease the Reiki Master has had to endure the many popularly growing alternative healing were revealed to me for advice that makes a difference.Other Reiki people I had a revelatory experience that many of Reiki's unknown secrets were gradually being divulged.

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When: After the slave games Jake runs into a blind Sage in the woods. Sass ensues...

Who: @sage-mcbaine @jake-lincoln

Triggers: Torture mention but nothing specific

Sage : Sage was very rarely in a visibly bad mood. She was pretty good at burying things down and putting on her regular playful front, but that was a little hard to do when you wake up to find that you can't see and can't use your powers. Admittedly, the loss of her powers didn't even phase her that much, it wasn't like she used her pheromone manipulation for much. But the blindness? Yea, that was really fucking with her. Muttering to herself under her breath, Sage stumbled around her room, stubbing her toe on the dresser and then cracking her funny bone against the door. She felt helpless. Vulnerable. And she hated it. Stubbornly refusing to call anyone for help or take it easy, Sage determinedly fumbled around her room until she located some workout clothes. Pulling them on along with some running shoes that hopefully matched, Sage nearly tripped over the carpet before she finally made it made it out the front door, slamming it ominously behind her.

 She'd always been adamant on handling shit on her own, even as a kid. She pushed herself to do things her way, embraced the power and freedom it gave her. Being blind, fumbling around like an infant learning to walk for the first time, it was embarrassing. And she didn't even know how many people were around to watch as she made her way through the school at a snails pace. A couple times, she heard people come over to try and help her, but any touch, announced or not, had her hackles rising and she actually even swung out a time or two, like a defensive animal. Eventually she managed to get outside, the breeze on her face doing nothing to help the claustrophobic feeling that was building inside her. Any sane person would've just asked for help or hid away in their room, but Sage did the opposite. She started to run. The terrain under her feet suggested that she'd found one of her usual running trails, but without her sight, it wasn't a very pretty process. She tripped over tree roots twice, hitting the ground hard and grimacing when she realized that she wouldn't heal instantly from any injuries she sustained. But again, that didn't stop her as she dragged herself up to her feet and continued to run. Until the next time she fell, this time from running face first into a low hanging tree branch. Her lip was bleeding, she could taste it, and her eyes stung with tears of frustration that she just barely managed to hold back. Angrily punching the tree a couple times, splitting her knuckles in the process, Sage used the throbbing pain to push her back to her feet. She was panting, having been running for a while, and then she heard a rustling nearby.

 "Who's there?" she demanded, trying to come off nonchalant and casual but failing miserably. She whirled around, trying to figure out where the sound was coming from as an unfamiliar feeling of panic and anxiousness swelled in her belly. "Seriously. You'd better start naming names, buddy. Not exactly in the mood to play 'guess who'."

 Jake: Jake had become unreachable since the games ended. He had completely folded in on himself. Anyone that attempted to reach out to the slave was unable to do so.

 After the slave games his torture did not end. Isabella took him for her own private session. Now his body fully reflected what was stirring around in his mind.

 Bruised and battered, Jake sought refuge in the woods. He hoped he'd be alone, but that was quickly interrupted when he heard a voice nearby.

 It was Sage. He had heard of the punishment to the masters that attempted to help the slaves but he wasn't sure on which side she had fallen. All Jake knew was she certainly did nothing to help him. With all his compassion drained from the nightmare weekend he had endured, Jake watched on as Sage turned from side to side in a panic without making himself known to her.

 Sage : Unfortunately for her, she didn't get the memo about the punishment for the Masters and Mistresses who decided to help slaves, and so she really didn't know what was going on. And the possibility of being stuck like this forever was terrifying. Because if her chances of playing in the NFL as a woman were hard, being blind would take that dream away from her completely. And that thought was just too much to handle because it'd been her one dream her entire life. Sex and sports, it was all she knew how to do, all she was good for.

 "Seriously, we playing hide and seek now?" she called out, not even knowing what direction to face because she couldn't sense a damn thing either. Taking a chance, she started walking in one direction, only to stumble over a tree root, just barely righting herself before she fell over yet again. She definitely wasn't used to being so clumsy, and it was really starting to piss her off. Especially if there was someone out there watching her like this, she didn't want anyone to see.

 "Y'know what? That's fine, it's cool, you just keep doin' you, bud. I'm gunna get back to my run." Wiping a hand over her mouth, smearing blood over her chin, Sage turned and started running- only to slam right into a tree, falling back onto her ass. A growl left her bloodied lips and she bounced to her feet to punch at the tree over and over, taking her frustration out on it until she was panting and her fist was numb. Sliding down to the ground, Sage sat with her back to the tree, sweaty and out of breath with her left fist a mishmash of blood and swelling, definitely broken in a couple places. "Enjoying the free show, love? Maybe I should strip too, really give you a show."

Jake: Jake shook his head as he watched her carry on. He had gone through a similar thing when he had been bound, though admittedly it would have been worse to also be blinded.

 "You won't heal," he reminded her as she continually punched at the tree. "You won't heal like you used to, so that's not the best idea." His voice had an eerie calm to it, none of the usual sarcastic lilt to it that Sage would have normally received.

Sage : Sage was so sure that whoever it was would either leave or stay silent, that when they spoke, she jumped a little. But then she paused. She knew that voice. Sorta. "Jake?" Her head swivelled in the direction of his voice, or rather in the direction she thought it came from. Shit was echo-y in the forest sometimes. "You turnin' into a peepin' Tom on me, Grumps?" she joked, but it fell flat. "So what're you doin' out here? Wait, you're not blind too, are you? Is that why you sound like one of those creepy monotonous horror movie psychos?" Because something was definitely up with him, that much she could tell.

Jake: Jake whistled. "Over here," he called out as she stared slightly to the left of his current position.

 "I can see." In fact, the slave games had opened his eyes to many things. One of which was the no one without a collar could be trusted. "I was enjoying my solitude."

Sage : "Yea, well, I was enjoying my eyesight, so I guess neither of us get what we want," she muttered under her breath, blinking blind eyes in his direction. It was bad enough that this was happening, and it was only worse that Jake of all people caught her like this. "In any case, if you've still got your eyes, why so grumpy, grumpy cat?"

 Jake: Her question immediately made his eyes glow red. "Were you not just fucking there?!" He exploded. "What is wrong with you?" Of course Sage didn't know the extent of his torment or even what had come after, but comparing 

Sage : Sage wasn't one to startle very easily, but when Jake snapped, she jumped, body instinctively primed in a fight or flight response. But once that initial shock wore off, she grimaced, because that'd been an admittedly stupid question on her part. "I was there, alright. I saw. I shouldn't have- I was only joking." It wasn't an excuse, obviously. Usually she could approach a shitty situation with her playful humour and it'd be fine, but it was becoming painfully clear that it wasn't going to work in this case. Sighing heavily, Sage got to her feet, wincing when she put pressure on her injured hand. She took a half step in the direction Jake's voice came from and then stopped. This was... awkward. She didn't know what to say to him, and usually they never had that issue. "Guess it'd be stupid to ask how you're doing, huh?"

[3/24/2017 2:34:18 PM] Jake: "I'm fine," he answered, voice just about to break. Jake had said those words so many times it was just automatic at this point. But he was far from fine.

 "What are you doing out alone? Someone should stay with you so you don't do something stupid." He quickly added, his shifting to her already apparent injuries.

[3/24/2017 2:44:04 PM] Sage : Sage could tell he wasn't fine, she didn't need her sight for that. She'd gotten to know Jake pretty well over the past little while, and she thought they had a good thing going, though most of the time all they did was fuck, eat, or beat each other up. And it worked for them. It was always easy being with Jake, so the palpable tension between them now was very weird. And very unwelcome.

 "I don't need a babysitter. I can handle a run on my own, I'm not a child," she said, sounding a little harsher than she'd intended. She was just feeling super defensive and out of her comfort zone. Sighing again, Sage ran her good hand through her hair. "Did you have someone protecting you?" she asked finally, figuring it'd be an easier question for him to answer than to push him to tell her exactly what was wrong. She'd get around to that.

 [3/26/2017 9:23:10 PM] Jake: "Sure." Jake rolled his eyes even though Sage couldn't see it. He wasn't blind and could certainly tell that she was full of shit. Sage had already hurt herself being stupid. If she wanted to injure herself more than that was her business. It didn't matter that Jake thought it was dumb.

[3/26/2017 9:24:43 PM] Jake: "No," he answered her quickly. "People like me don't get that kind of treatment." Even he was not entirely sure what 'people like me' meant, but Jake knew it had to be true. Somewhere along the way he had made a mistake and now was spending a lifetime being punished for it.

[3/26/2017 9:37:28 PM] Sage : "Wait seriously?" A frown marred her features and she took another step towards him, right direction, though she was angled the wrong way. It really fucking sucked not being able to see his face, made it harder to read him, as if it wasn't already a struggle. Jake was elusive, she knew that. The shit that came out of his mouth were usually half truths or evasions, never really deeper than surface. Then again, who was she to talk. All that being said, she didn't like the idea that he wasn't protected during the games. Really didn't like it. "So you were on your own during all that shit? Jake, why didn't you say something? I would've-" Cutting herself off, Sage let out a frustrated breath, knowing there was no point telling him she'd have protected him now. What was done was done and she so hated lingering on what she couldn't change. "You should've said something," she settled for saying, crossing her arms. "Someone would've helped, y'know."

[3/28/2017 9:46:09 PM] Jake: "Who?" His frown matched her own as he stepped forward. "There's no one here to help." Him or in general. The games had opened his eyes to the group feeling toward his and the other slaves purpose there. "Look at what's been done to you. Do you think anyone would help me when they won't even help you?" As he spoke, Jake grabbed her wrist and pulled her attention toward where he really was. "Do you think anyone here has any good intentions? Just in general, let alone for someone like me?"

[3/28/2017 9:53:28 PM] Sage : "Well if I knew, I'd have- What the fuck!" Being manhandled was something she didn't mind when she had her sight, it was something she enjoyed even, but being grabbed when she was blind just raised her hackles, putting her on the defensive. Stumbling into his chest, Sage righted herself and yanked at her wrist to get it free from his grasp. She couldn't remember the last time she didn't want Jake to touch her- or anyone else for that matter. "The difference is that I don't need any help, dammit," she snapped angrily, narrowing her blinded eyes. Something about his question rubbed her the wrong way, and combined with her blindness, supremely pissed her off. "And nice to know what you really think of me, Jake, really," she said sarcastically as she shoved at his chest. "Because I've totally been torturing you with my company, right? That's just great."

[3/28/2017 9:59:15 PM] Jake: Jake snorted. "Sure you don't. And that blood isn't yours and those scratches are for fun?" He chuckled humorlessly. "You don't need any help alone in the woods, blind as a bat, bruised and torn up, on an island of monsters? Yeah, sounds about right." He rolled his eyes and snatched his hand away. "Let's not pretend you didn't get something from that."

[3/28/2017 10:05:40 PM] Sage : "Well maybe they fucking are, okay. Maybe I'm just a raging sadomasochist and I get off on breaking all the bones in my hand against a tree trunk. You don't know me, Jake." Jake didn't technically deserve her anger, this wasn't his fault, but she'd just been bottling up so much that it was getting hard to hold back. The blindness just seemed to push her right to that ledge. "I can do it myself," she said slowly, each word painfully controlled as her breath came short and fast. "You think I got- oh no, please Jake. Please tell me what I got from wanting to be your friend. This should be good. Go on then, pup."

[3/28/2017 10:38:33 PM] Jake: "You're right. I definitely don't know you." He shook his head at her stubbornness and anger. Jake knew a lot about anger and he could clearly see the cause of hers. Sage didn't like to be out of control over herself. "Friends? Is that what we were? Tell me, wouldn't a friend check on another after something like this? Even just a call?"

[3/28/2017 10:50:43 PM] Sage : "No. I guess you don't," she returned hollowly. To be fair, it wasn't like anyone else really knew her either, it was always the same. And it wasn't a nice feeling. Jake really wasn't helping matters any by getting all hostile with her either, questioning their friendship when she'd actually thought it meant something. "Well I'm sorry, Jake! That in between looking after Violet and trying to make sure she was okay until Paxton came back and going fucking blind and powerless I didn't get a chance to check up on you. I'm just a horrible fucking friend." Was that guilt she was feeling? The ache in her chest. Squeezing her eyes shut, Sage rubbed her forehead, feeling exhausted all of a sudden. "You know what, you're right, okay? I should've called. I guess I just wanted to believe that everything was fine with you because that'd mean I didn't mess up by choosing to protect someone else."

[4/2/2017 8:37:41 PM] Jake: Jake crossed his arms over his chest. Her coming back at him only began to make his blood start to boil. Until she mentioned choosing Violet over him, only then did he soften. "No. You did right. That prick of a master she has wouldn't have helped her anyway, I bet. She deserves your help." Jake kicked at the dirt under his feet. "I'm just really tired." Jake wondered if she could tell what he meant. That his fatigue wasn't something that could be just slept off. That decades of pain were finally starting to crush him. The slave games opened up the floodgates killing any resolve he still had then his time with Isabella afterward had finished the job.

[4/2/2017 8:50:35 PM] Sage : "She does deserve to be helped. But...so do you, Jake," she added under her breath, rubbing the back of her neck. "I'm, uh, sorry I wasn't there for you. I mean, I don't regret choosing to help Violet, I love that girl, but it's like- I dunno. I wish I could've protected you." Maybe it was a good thing she was blind, she didn't think she could face him talking the way she was. This wasn't normal for her, the heart to heart, the admission of her faults. It was so much easier to make jokes and fuck her feelings away. When he mentioned that he was tired, she turned her face up to where she estimated his was, somehow knowing exactly what he was talking about. "Yea...I hear you," she said softly, hesitating for just a second before she slowly inched her uninjured hand towards his. It wasn't quite an olive branch, and it certainly didn't go smoothly because she couldn't see where his hand was, but it was something. "I'm sorry I'm not a better friend," she said quietly, "You deserve better than this shit."

[4/2/2017 9:07:04 PM] Jake: Jake watched her hand move up in his direction. He stared at it for a good while before actually acknowledging her action. "I don't," he said softly. Jake had never been more glad for someone to be blind. It helped him hide the shame written all over his face.

Fingertips brushed against Sage's hand. "One day you'll leave all this behind. Your people will be s proud of you and everything you accomplish." He could feel himself slipping away and didn't know how to stop it. He wasn't sure if he wanted to stop it. Wouldn't being numb solve all of his problems? Isn't that what he's been searching for with every high? Maybe he had found that solution now. What was he still holding on to?

[4/2/2017 9:17:34 PM] Sage : Sage felt like an idiot, and she nearly dropped her hand, but then she felt his fingers brush against her hand. She held still for a moment before she turned her hand a little, her fingers brushing against his, just the lightest of touches as if she thought anything more forceful would break this- whatever was happening. "No one deserves to go through what happened to you," she said softly instead of trying to insist or push. Maybe she should've, she didn't know, but if the situations were reversed, she knew forcefulness would get her nowhere.

 "All I'll ever really accomplish is football fame and the award for best fuck," she said dryly, her fingers still moving lightly against his. "You've got a whole lot more to offer, you know. You're smart and you're talented, even though you don't always act it. People will be proud of you and the shit you accomplish, and- all this will just be a bad dream, someday." She didn't realize how much she hoped that'd be true for him until that moment.

[4/2/2017 9:36:56 PM] Jake: Despite his own mood and the air between them his lips quirked upward just the smallest bit. "There's no one left for me. I should have stayed with my pack." A stunning realization that was more of a monumental shame that Jake shouldered for far too long. "People like my don't change the world. It's all just a bad dream and we can't wake up." Sage had been his person on the island. Whether she knew it or understood it or not. They had an immediate bond that worked even when it didn't. Call it a crush, call it a friendship, or call it whatever, but there had been part of their relationship that had given him the smallest thread of hope for a future. But Jake had lost that hope and couldn't find the right words to express it.

[4/2/2017 9:48:13 PM] Sage : "I'm not telling you to change the world, Jake. I think that sort of thing is meant for storybooks and fairytales. I'm just saying that I think you can do really good, y'know? Maybe not now, but eventually. I guess I just- I dunno, I believe in you? Not to say that you need someone to do so or anything. I just realized that I do. Or something like that." She was verging somewhere between being painfully truthful and being totally mortified by how bad she was at it. How did people do this on the daily? It was exhausting. And embarrassing. Sage fell silent for a moment, focussing on the feel of his fingers against hers. "You've never really talked about your pack before..." she probed gently. It was a sort of unspoken thing that they stayed away from serious topics like that, but he'd brought it up just then, and she had to admit that she was curious. She wanted to know him, the real him, which was a little hypocritical since she was hid things from him too, but such was life.

[4/2/2017 10:01:50 PM] Jake: "They are dead." He answered simply. "Murdered. Hunted down. I was the best suspect the cops had for it. Who'd have believed it was hunters wanting to mount my mother's head on their wall." Jake started to talk and couldn't stop. His voice was distant but clear. The words flowed freely after decades of being shoved down at every moment. "I would have went away for the rest of my life. Maybe that would have been better than this? But a few character witnesses and a bus delayed at my school had me walking free." He snorted, lowering his hand as he shook his head. "Of all the people that should have survived..." It was the one thing that had him still going after all the heartbreak. He was the only one left. A once honorable and peaceful pack was now reduced to just one member. It all seemed silly to Jake now.

[4/2/2017 10:11:28 PM] Sage : Her hand lingered for a moment before she dropped it too, tucking it away in the pocket of her running shorts as she listened to him speak. She knew he mentioned once that he didn't have any family, but she didn't know this was how it happened. What was she even supposed to say to a man who'd lost everything? And in such a horrible way too. And there she was feeling miserable about her blindness and her feelings and her mother- it seems stupid compared to what Jake had to go through, and was still going through. "That's...damn..." She didn't offer condolences, not out loud anyway, she knew they were just more words he probably didn't want to hear. "You've got survivor's guilt," she said softly after clearing her throat. "Blaming yourself isn't going to fix anything, you know. You're alive. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't want you moping about, mourning them- and I'm not trying to sound inconsiderate, because believe me, I know what you're feeling. It's probably not my place to say, but just- I think they would've wanted more than this for you, y'know? They would've wanted you to try and be happy after all that crap. But it's not exactly that easy, is it." Heaving a sigh, Sage rubbed her temple. "Why does everything have to be so complicated."

[4/4/2017 9:28:18 PM] Jake: A wolf without a pack wasn't worth much. And now Jake was a wolf without his wolf, so even worth less than before. "I don't blame myself. I just wish things had been different." He'd rather be dead, but wouldn't say it out loud. "That's life, cupcake." Jake knew she was right about his family wanting him to carry on.  It was the only reason that he didn't off himself years ago. Truthfully, he was only alive because he was the only one left to carry on the pack's legacy.

[4/4/2017 9:35:24 PM] Sage : "Yea, well, I wish things were different too," she said under her breath before sighing. "But you know how it goes. Wishing things were different isn't going to change anything. Just gotta make the best of what you do have control over, I guess." Falling silent, Sage took a moment to listen to the rustle of leaves overhead, the chirp of birds somewhere of in the distance. "You know...I'm not really good at this whole heart to heart thing, but like, if you wanted to talk or needed a place to crash to get away from it all, you can come to me. I may not be your first choice of company, but at least I can keep you fed and give you a bed you actually fit in, right?" she joked mildly.

[4/16/2017 8:49:36 PM] Jake: "I don't want to lean on anyone." For a number of reasons, one being he was worried that his actions could make things worse for whomever chose to stand up for him. Jake also continued to be gun shy with letting people into his life. He'd already lost so much.  "But I appreciate it."

 [4/16/2017 9:06:30 PM] Sage : "I know the feeling," she said sincerely, before shrugging. It wasn't like she was the most forthcoming with her inner thoughts either. Apparently she and Jake were more alike than she'd initially thought. "So...I guess I'll let you get back to- whatever it was you were doing out here," she said slowly before turning a little, trying to figure out which way she'd come and which was she'd wanted to go. She still wasn't feeling 100%, so she didn't want to go back to civilization just yet. "I'm gunna go that way," she said, pointing in some random direction. "I think."

[5/15/2017 9:46:35 PM] Jake: Jake frowned when she turned to head in whatever direction she was going. Silently, he followed behind. In his wolf form Jake could have easily remained beside Sage as a silent protector, but as a human he was a bit more awkward. He had a lot of mass to move through the forest without sound. But at least he had his vision to guide him. Sage wasn't so lucky. However, he wouldn't just abandon her alone in the woods.

[5/15/2017 9:55:24 PM] Sage : When she heard no protest from Jake, she nodded to herself and then turned to walk off. With her supernatural senses gone, she had no idea Jake was still following her as she stumbled her way through the woods- she was too busy trying not to fall on her face. With each stumble and run in with a low hanging branch or bush, Sage's motions became more and more agitated. She was clearly becoming frustrated- with everything. With her blindness and her inability to do something as simple as walk straight. But it was more than that. It'd been a trying couple days and it was all catching up to her. The next time she stumbled, she turned and slammed her already injured fist into a nearby tree trunk, cracking it further so the blood ran down her fingers. She choked on a sob, not in physical pain but rather a different kind of hurt. Still thinking she was alone, Sage sank to the ground and covered her face with her hands, shoulders trembling.

[5/15/2017 10:01:16 PM | Edited 10:08:07 PM] Jake: Jake kept his distance even when she stumbled. He was fairly sure she was too proud to take his help even if he were to offer. It was slow going staying behind Sage as she blindly navigated into almost every low hanging tree branch in front of her. Anyone could see she was reaching her limit even before smashing her fist into the tree.

He immediately dropped down with her, almost an exact mirror of Sage's movements. "I'm here," he said softly as a warning before reaching out. His massive frame almost completely covered her as Jake wrapped his arms around her and rested his head against hers. "I'm here," he said again this time in unity. Jake knew how she felt, had felt the same since the moment they bound his powers and made him a slave.

[5/15/2017 10:17:19 PM] Sage : Sage very nearly jumped out of her skin when she heard Jake speak- even though his words were soft and soothing. Her heart slammed against her ribs and instinct had her pulling away like a wounded animal. But then his arms were around her, engulfing her in his familiar scent and warmth. Sage didn't want to admit it, but she needed him right then. Her struggling came to a slow stop and she instead leaned against him heavily, burrowing into his chest as her face pressed against the side of his neck. She hadn't noticed it, but her cheeks were wet with angry tears. "I'm fine," she insisted, but it was clear that she wasn't. And somehow she knew he wasn't either. So she wrapped her arms around his neck and held him closer to her, taking comfort in his presence and offering him the same in return. "...I'm here too."

[5/15/2017 10:30:30 PM] Jake: Jake smiled his first smile since he had been broken at her insisting she was fine. "You don't always have to be the strongest person in the room. Must be exhausting." Though he was very much guilty of the same stubborn pride she was showing.

He breathed in her smell, the weight on his chest was heavy and grew heavier with each moment. Jake had kept the world at bay for so long, never letting anyone in, that he had forgotten what it felt like to be completely open with someone. It was as terrifying and heartbreaking as it was exciting and cleansing.

[5/15/2017 10:39:39 PM] Sage : "You're telling me?" she asked with a tiny smile, her words slightly muffled as her lips moved against the skin of his neck. She didn't correct him though- because he was right. She'd always felt the need to be the biggest and the best, pushing herself relentlessly, never showing any hints of weakness or pain because she felt like she had something to prove to literally everyone she came across. She wouldn't consider it being fake, but it sure as hell was exhausting. "Sounds like you know just how exhausting it is, Jake," she ventured softly, not wanting to push him but instinctively knowing that he might need her just as much as she needed him. "Guess we're both just messed up huh?" she said with a short laugh, sniffling before holding him tighter. "But I...I've got you, Jake," she whispered, "I don't know how to help myself, let alone someone else, but I've got you. I promise."

[5/15/2017 11:12:49 PM] Jake: Jake snorted but didn't try denying it. They would both know he's lying if he did, so what would be the point? "This island attracts a lot of messed up people so at least we aren't in the minority." His heart sank. Jake really had nothing to offer her. Sage had so much to look forward to. She was beautiful and talented. No matter what she set her mind to Jake was certain she could accomplish it. And there he was. The only thing Jake had going for him was stripped away when they forced the collar on his neck. "Me too," he answer despite the overwhelming feeling of dread. He began to worry that he'd drag her down with him someday. Ruin Sage like he did with everything else he touched.

[5/15/2017 11:26:32 PM] Sage : "There are a lot of messed up people around here, huh," she said with a little smirk, the fingers of her good hand idly running through his hair. "'The Institute, School for the Royally Fucked up'. Definitely has a ring to it." Sighing, Sage lifted her head and swiped her hand across her face, wiping away the few tears that'd managed to escape. She couldn't see Jake, but just feeling his presence nearby brought her a feeling of peace that she didn't usually let herself acknowledge or enjoy. So maybe she had a bit of a crush on the man- one she'd never asked for but found herself right in the middle of nonetheless. Just what she needed. Feelings. "What a mess..." she muttered, mostly to herself. Resting her forehead lightly against his, Sage closed her eyes. "Just- tell me what you need. I...want to help you. I'm just an ass and don't know how to do that."

[5/15/2017 11:50:19 PM] Jake: "It would at least give people a heads up before getting here." How he would have loved any type of heads up to know what was in store. Jake could stop himself from pushing his forehead up against hers like some affectionate beast. "I need you to let me lead you home. Then maybe get someone to look at your hand. I'll feel better then."

[5/15/2017 11:55:49 PM] Sage : "That sounds a lot more like how you can help me rather than how I can help you, Grumps," she chided, but there was a hint of a smile to her voice as she brushed her nose against his in an oddly sweet little Eskimo kiss. "But I suppose I've busted myself enough for one afternoon, huh? I guess you can take me home," she finally conceded with a sigh, straightening up and falling silent for a moment. "...Will you stay?" she asked. Her words sounded casual enough, but coming from someone who was often ultimately left behind, it meant a whole lot.

[5/16/2017 11:42:31 AM] Jake: "Me helping you, help me."  Jake relaxed for a moment when she nuzzled against him. It felt so perfectly normal and comfortable that for a moment he forgot everything. "Of course. I'll stay til you kick me out." He scooped her up figuring it'd be quicker than having her navigate blind and on foot. "I got you."

[5/16/2017 11:52:59 AM] Sage : "Stay until I kick you out?" she asked with a little laugh as he swung her into his arms. "You may as well move your things into my suite then. Doubt I'll be kicking you out any time soon." As much as she didn't want to be carted around like some sort of invalid- Sage didn't make a fuss, simply laying her head on his shoulder as he walked. "I'll also have you know that I wasn't crying earlier...my eyes were sweating. That's all. And if you even suggest otherwise to anyone, I'll fight you," she teased, though she really would rather have the events of that day stay between them.

[5/18/2017 12:14:28 PM] Jake: "I take up too much space and will be eating you out of house and home. You'll be kicking me out soon enough." Jake smirked but nodded. "It is hot out here and you were running at one point so that makes sense."

[5/18/2017 12:25:44 PM] Sage : "I nearly eat myself out of house and home anyway- may as well just double up on everything." Not to mention that she'd always preferred having company anyway- she wasn't exactly one of those people who liked being alone. "Exactly," she nodded, grinning and pressing her lips against the side of his neck. "Also, I can't feel my hand- does it look bad? Being 'human' sucks ass."

[5/18/2017 11:03:58 PM] Jake: "I'm sure you could do without a hairless ape chasing everyone away." Jake was moody, obviously. He didn't make a great addition to any house, but especially to someone as social as Sage. "You are preaching to the choir, but we'll get you patched up better than new soon."

[5/18/2017 11:16:18 PM] Sage : "I think you underestimate your appeal," she said with a chuckle. "People are totally into the whole 'big, sexy, brooding hunk' thing y'know. If you're trying to ward people off, you're doing it wrong." It didn't take them long before they were back in civilization- she could tell by the sounds of feet against floors and the chatter of other people. She tried not to think about what they must've looked like or the attention they probably drew. "Aw, are you going to be my nurse? Kiss my boo boos away? That's sweet of you."

[5/18/2017 11:26:30 PM] Jake: "Is that why I get so much attention? I thought it was the way I was styling my hair." Jake said dryly. After receiving the wrong type of attention it'd be a long time before he sought it out again. "No. I'm taking you to the infirmary so someone can look at it, crazy pants."

 [5/18/2017 11:34:06 PM] Sage : "That too," she chuckled reaching up to run her good hand through his hair. When he mentioned that he was taking her to the infirmary and not her suite, however, Sage frowned deeply. "I don't need to go to the infirmary, Jake. It'll be fine, just some scrapes, I can't handle it." It was clear that she wasn't too fond of the idea.

[5/19/2017 5:20:10 PM] Jake: Jake stopped and sighed. He wanted to tell her that if she remained human it'd never heal right, but when he looked down at her he realized she probably already knew that. "That's more than just a scratch but you're the boss."

[5/19/2017 5:33:15 PM] Sage : "I know what you're thinking," she said as she felt him come to a stop. "But I can just rebreak it and let it heal again later. I've done it dozens of times." Of course, that was assuming she'd ever get her powers back. "I just...don't do doctors, alright? Can we just go home? -my suite, I mean."

[5/21/2017 5:29:58 PM] Jake: "Everything has to be difficult with you." Jake shook his head but complied. He walked to her suite only setting her down once they were in the building.

[5/21/2017 5:34:25 PM] Sage : "Don't act like you don't love it," she teased, but she was grateful that he didn't protest or ask any questions. Steadying herself once he set her down, Sage felt around with her hands, leading him into her suite. "I mightve made a mess this morning when I left the place," she warned, looking pretty lost as she stood there hesitating in the middle of the living room. "I know I asked you to stay, but you don't have to if you've got somewhere else to be."

[5/25/2017 11:17:45 PM] Jake: "Fucking hell," Jake whispered when he saw the state of her suite. Clearly she had downplayed her reaction, unsurprisingly. Her last comment made him chuckle despite the painful truth. "Where else do I have to go?" Jake wanted to be there, but of course, wouldn't or couldn't say as much to her.  "I'm fine here if you don't mind."

[5/25/2017 11:40:24 PM] Sage : "That bad, huh?" she asked with a dry laugh when she heard him. She didn't think it was that bad, but then again, she couldn't see. At his comment, she looked over her shoulder in the direction of his voice before nodding slowly. She was grateful that he didn't have to go- she just couldn't put that gratitude into words. Didn't want to seem weak or like she needed him- or anyone else for that matter. "Do you mind pointing me in the direction of the washroom? I'm pretty sure I've got blood everywhere," she chuckled, holding up her surely bloody, swollen hands. She didn't know how she was going to clean herself up on her own, but it wasn't like she could ask Jake to help her with it. Could she?

[5/29/2017 2:12:35 PM] Jake: "Well I wouldn't say it looks good." He looked around at the mess and started to shake his head. Without another word Jake started to pick up a little, righting furniture and just getting things off the ground so she had less to negotiate. "Yeah, I can help." He wrapped an arm around her waist and lead her toward the bathroom. "Take your clothes off." Jake started the shower, testing the temperature with his hand.

[5/29/2017 5:05:07 PM] Sage : "I didn't mean you had to- alright." Sage had started to turn down his clear offer to help her clean up himself, but who was she kidding? She'd be in there for ages if she tried it herself, not to mention that she wouldn't even know where to clean. At the command, Sage snorted in amusement. "Tryin' to get me naked, grumps? Gunna kiss all my boo boos better?" She tried to come off as her usual sexy self- but she just sounded tired. And she was. "One naked non-succubus, coming right up," she mumbled before she pushed her clothes off and to the floor, leaving her naked. "I can't remember the last time someone gave me a bath. Y'know, in a non sexual way."

[6/3/2017 12:11:28 AM] Jake: "Yes. This is has all been a big ploy to get you naked. You got me." He shook his head, smirking despite himself. "Come down to the cells more. We have to do it everyday." Though Jake was sure that sexy times did ensue there from time to time. But if you ask him that's just a good way to get some kind of fungus. Which he didn't add as he took Sage's hands and lead her into the shower after quickly disrobing himself.

[6/3/2017 12:26:39 AM] Sage : "I knew it! You sneaky wolf." Her lips twitched in amusement as she felt him take her hand, likely leading her into the shower. It was funny, she didn't find it as hard as she thought it'd be to let someone else help her when she was in such a vulnerable state- but maybe that was just him. She did feel an odd sort of comfort when he was near. "You sure know what you're doing- help the wounded clean up often?" she teased mildly, stepping under the water. She hadn't expected him to follow her in- but it was a pleasant surprise. Enough so that she didn't resist the impulse to wrap her arms around his waist and gently lay her head on his shoulder as the water rained down over them both. "Hope everyone else is doing okay- I'm sure I'm not the only one."

[6/3/2017 12:54:33 AM] Jake: "I have experience in stinky, bloody messes. I'd show you my card, but the braille edition hasn't come in yet." His own by was covered in marks and bruises from his last encounter with another mistress. An encounter that caused him to freeze when Sage wrapped her arms around him. "As good as can be expected, I'm sure." His hand finally went to rest on the back of her head. "I'm sure most of the rest were not dumb enough to run in the woods without their sight," he joked.

[6/3/2017 10:03:58 AM] Sage : "Did you just make a blind joke?" she asked with a snort of amusement, lifting her head from his shoulder for a moment before laying it back down again. She didn't miss the way he tensed when she embraced him, wondering what that was about. "Hey, I'm not dumb, I'm impulsive, there's a difference," she joked back, smirking. She fell silent for a while after that, just enjoying the feel of the warm water on her achy muscles. Finally she spoke. "What happened...? I mean, I know the games happened and all but...I dunno. Feels like something else is going on."

[6/3/2017 3:20:24 PM] Jake: "Oh, is there?" Jake sighed when she questioned him about the way he was acting. "There was a vampire. She rented me afterward. She did things and had the guards finish the job." They could be in the shower all day and he would feel clean. "That's how it is here."

[6/3/2017 3:30:47 PM] Sage : At first Sage thought he was joking, and she nearly laughed. Someone getting the best of Jake? Really? But then she remembered where they were and how Jake was human there, going up against a vampire of all things. An uncomfortable feeling fluttered in her belly and her mind raced trying to come up with something to say. "Want me to kick her ass when I get my powers back?" she joked weakly before sighing. "Jake...I don't know what to say," she admitted finally, biting her lip. "I'm sorry. That really fucking sucks. I- Maybe I should- Do you want me to, uh...fuck, I don't know..." She was going to offer to claim him, the words right on her tongue. But she new it wouldn't make what happened go away- besides, what if he didn't want her to? "Anything I can do to help?"

[6/3/2017 3:39:49 PM] Jake: Jake pulled back. "Just forget it. I'm fine." He reached for the soap and started to gently wash off the blood on Sage. Jake had no desire to further discuss his treatment at the hands of the vampire or anyone else. "One day they'll have to give me my wolf back and then everyone will suffer." He wasn't one of those pups that he had met in the cells. Jake had been a wolf for a very long time and when whole was a formidable specimen.

[6/3/2017 4:04:03 PM] Sage : Jake's reaction was expected and Sage sighed before letting her hands drop to her sides. Her mind was warring, one side wanting to push and try to get him to talk about it, the other side wanting to drop it entirely. What was she supposed to do? "What does your wolf look like?" she asked finally, looking up in his direction as he gently cleaned her.  "Do I get to ride on your back into war?"

[6/3/2017 6:30:02 PM] Jake: Jake smirked. "You would want to ride me in any form." His hands ran down her arms, gently over the scratches and cuts. "I'm gray, brown and white. Not as fluffy as the northern wolves but just as big. More lean and sleek then them." They were desert dwellers so any unnecessary bulk was only a hindrance in the summer.

[6/3/2017 6:35:28 PM] Sage : "Yea, and you would let me," she fired back, grinning. The grin was marred by a little grimace when he washed over her broken knuckles, but it wasn't all that bad. In fact, other than that, it was actually really nice. Who'd have thought. "Grey and brown and white, huh? Sounds adorable," she teased, even as the image began to play out in her mind. "Knowing you, you'd look just as grumpy as a wolf as you do as a human. Maybe I'll get to see it sometime." Only she didn't know how that'd happen, because as long as he was on the island, he'd be bound.

[6/3/2017 7:24:38 PM] Jake: "I don't know about that. The wolf is different. He might not find your act at all appealing." Admitting that even jokingly was admitting that he did find her appealing. "Maybe," he answered before clearing his throat. Jake went down to his knees in front of her as he continued to clean off Sage's body.

 [6/3/2017 7:41:41 PM] Sage : "Hey, I'm sure me and your wolfy counterpart would get on great, alright, I'm charmin' as fuck, how could he resist?" Though she was just joking around, she really did wonder what his wolf would think of her. Her 'act', as Jake put it, wasn't for everyone. At least not long term- though she didn't know why she was even thinking about anything long term with Jake, human or wolf. When she felt him sink to his knees, Sage lifted her good hand to idly run her fingers through his wet hair. She hated to be tended to like an invalid, but she also had to admit that it was almost nice to be taken care of. "You can talk to your wolf, y'know, put in a good word for me?"

[6/3/2017 7:46:09 PM] Jake: Jake snorted and looked up at her even though she couldn't see him. "I don't know. Does your charm really work on everyone?" They were opposites in that way. Jake tended to just piss most people off or avoid them altogether. Sage was always the center of attention, it seemed. Maybe that was why he was drawn to her even when he only wanted to be alone. "He isn't around much anymore, but if I do see him I'll try to put in a good word."

[6/3/2017 7:51:15 PM] Sage : "It works on most people, yea," she admitted with a grin, her head angled downward. "I mean, it's usually temporary, but it works. Like they say, sex sells. I've just got the added benefit of also being fabulous company." And yet there were hardly any long term relationships in her life- romantic or otherwise. "How does that work? Communicating with him?" she asked curiously. "Is it in your head? You can hear him or something?"

[6/3/2017 7:57:44 PM] Jake: "Uh--" Jake never had to really explain it to anyone. The wolves he knew experienced it firsthand and the humans he encountered usually ran before the whole 'what's it like to have an animal inside you' conversation. "It's not really words. I can feel it, they way it thinks and feels adding to my own emotions and thoughts. But he's still a wolf in the purest sense so he doesn't really speak to me. Just  like a guardian kind of always in my head trying to keep me from dying." He ran a hand through his hair and stood. "If that makes sense."

[6/3/2017 8:05:39 PM] Sage : "Kinda makes sense, yea- I mean, as much sense as it can make to someone who isn't a wolf herself, y'know?" Sage had met wolves before, obviously, but she didn't often ask about the intricacies of being what they were. It was interesting- coming from a species that didn't really have too many add ons. "So right now, being bound- what's that like? In terms of the link between you and your wolf, I mean. You can't feel him anymore?"

[6/3/2017 8:17:16 PM] Jake: "It's like I've lost the only friend I had left. The only part of me that was still intact has been ripped out of my chest and locked away. In my sleep I call to him but no one answers. It's like dying everyday." He shrugged.

[6/3/2017 8:22:34 PM] Sage : Sage's lips parted in surprise and she was for once, genuinely at a loss for what to say. She'd expected that the answer wasn't going to be good, but that was just- that was really shitty. "I- Fuck, Jake..." she mumbled, rubbing her forehead. She didn't know it was that bad, bad enough that it was haunting him even in sleep. "Just fuck. I literally don't even know what to say to that- fuck." She wasn't being helpful, she knew that, but she didn't exactly know what else to do. "That's rough...Maybe- I dunno, try to find something to distract yourself with? Try to ease the feeling? Anything?"

[6/3/2017 8:31:55 PM] Jake: Jake laughed, actually laughed. Not at his situation, which was really no laughing matter. But her reaction was really un-Sage-like, that made her laugh. "I don't think there's anything that could distract me from that. I wasn't made Sage. I was born. Seven decades of being a wolf cannot be forgotten. And shame on me to disgrace who I came from to forget that even for a moment."

[6/3/2017 8:37:47 PM] Sage : Sage wondered if she'd entered some sort of twilight zone when Jake burst into laughter. Was he going crazy or something? She gave him a bewildered look and then swung her arm out to smack him in the chest. "Are you laughing at me?" she accused, even as her lips twitched. "Weirdo." Blowing out a breath, Sage leaned forward to rest her forehead on his chest for a moment. "I want to help you, Jake," she admitted, for once grateful that she couldn't see him. "But I don't know how. Not unless..."

[6/3/2017 8:53:20 PM] Jake: "Only a little. I like when you don't know what you are saying." The laughter halted only when she seemed to be formulating some kind of plan. "Unless what?" A switch flipped in his head and then Jake started to shake his head. "Oh no." He slapped the faucet off and stepped out of the shower.

[6/3/2017 8:58:00 PM] Sage : "Hear me out, Jake. We- woah." Sage turned too fast, slipped, flailed and then managed to right herself before she took yet another fall. Little miracles. Only now she had to deal with the repercussions of what she'd just suggested, so maybe it would've been easier if she'd fallen and knocked herself out. "Look, it makes sense. It'd get you out of the basement, give you more access around the school. It'd make things so much easier for you. And we're like...friends. Or something. Think of it as a friend helping a friend out."

[6/3/2017 9:11:47 PM] Jake: "Absolutely not." Jake turned when he heard the slip, but she had caught herself before he was able to intervene. "Look at what they did to you for protecting someone. And you didn't even claim her!" The kinder masters and mistresses were endanger as well. That point was proven after the slave games.

[6/3/2017 9:17:34 PM] Sage : It was really hard to argue with someone when you didn't even know if you were facing in the right direction, but Sage was going to do it anyway. "Oh please, I can take care of myself," she huffed, though the way she stumbled out of the shower didn't really help her case. "Plenty of people do protection claims around here, alright? It's not like they're in danger every waking moment. Listen, if you're holding out for someone else, I get it. But if you're not, I can claim you until you find someone you want to be claimed by. You're making this more complicated than it has to be."

[6/3/2017 9:36:10 PM] Jake: "Right." Jake crossed his arms over his chest and rolled his eyes. "You don't understand." He sighed. "Listen, I like you. I really do. You were a breath of fresh air in my long miserable life, but I kill everything that's good around me. Do you understand?" He grabbed her arms. " I'll destroy you like everyone else. That or they'll do it for me."

[6/3/2017 9:44:55 PM] Sage : "Quit telling me I don't understand- I understand just fine," she snapped, yanking her arms out of his hold. He liked her? Cared about her? Her stomach was in knots. "I can destroy myself just fine without your help, Jake, so don't give me that bull. Unless you haven't noticed, people don't stick around for very long- I guess the charm and the sex get old at some point. So if anything, you should be worried for yourself." Running an agitated hand through her wet hair, Sage sighed frustratedly. "I just- stop worrying about me, okay? Worry about yourself. What if the next person does a worse number on you, huh? What then? You're essentially human right now, at least I can heal."

[6/3/2017 10:41:01 PM] Jake: Jake tilted his head as she spoke. "That's only because you pick losers and assholes to surround you. Anyone with half a brain would never leave you." And he meant it too. "Can you?" He asked as gently as possible as he looked over her bruised hands. "Will they even give you your powers back? You can't be sure of anything Sage. Maybe you should just get the fuck out of this place? You don't need this place."

[6/3/2017 10:54:56 PM] Sage : "Shut up," she grumbled under her breath as she felt around for a towel and then wrapped it around herself tightly. It did weird things to her heart to have him tell her that she was worth sticking around for. It was worse because she believed that he actually meant it. "You don't need to try and make me feel better- it's their loss. I know I'm a catch." Only she didn't actually see it that way. "They'll give me my powers back, Jake. I'm sure this is like a slap on the wrist or some shit. I'll get my powers back and then it'll all go back to normal. I'm not just jumping ship because someone's trying to teach me a lesson. A McBaine never quits. I just-" She paused to suck in a deep breath, holding the towel tight to her chest. "I want to protect you, Jake. So why don't you just let me? I promise rooming with me isn't that bad," she joked half heartedly.

[6/3/2017 11:06:31 PM] Jake: Jake snorted. "A lesson? For not wanting to torture someone?! Don't you see how ridiculous this all is!" He couldn't stop himself from shouting. Months of frustration just started to bubble to the surface. Jake took a deep breath, spinning away from her and running a hand through his beard. "Fuck me," he whispered to himself. "You claim me and I'll get my wolf back over the full moon. Then what happens when I rip out a master's throat? What will they do to you then?" He turned to watch her carefully almost glimpsing the future, seeing her screaming. "Because when I get the chance, I promise I will take it. I promise you. A McBaine may never quit, but a Lincoln never forgets and [I] never forgives."

[6/3/2017 11:19:50 PM] Sage : "Yea- A lesson. You know damn well that's what this is! They're trying to scare us out of being nice to you guys and I'm not fucking having' it, alright? I'm not going to be manipulated like that. So they want to punish me? They can fuckin' go right ahead, I don't give a damn." Breathing hard with her outburst, Sage fell silent when he spoke about what could happen when he turned- she didn't think about that part. "I guess you're just going to have to figure out how to control yourself then. Or I'm going to have to make sure you don't do it or I'll make sure we're out in the woods in the middle of nowhere- I don't know!" she shouted back, frustrated. "I don't know, okay? I haven't thought that far ahead. All I know is that you deserve better than this shit."

[6/3/2017 11:37:46 PM] Jake: "Everyone down there does." He mumbled under his breath. "Why me?" He asked more clearly. "You could protect anyone. You can get Violet away from that vamp and then claim her. There's hundreds of others more deserving. You can save any of them."

 [6/3/2017 11:43:43 PM] Sage : "Because I want you," she blurted before quickly backtracking. "I mean- I want to protect you. And yea, there are tons of people around who should be claimed, but there are very few I'm close to like I am with you. And besides, most of them have other people who are going to claim them or are in the process of claiming them or are protecting them." She was rambling a little, but she managed to pause to take a quick breath. "Also, Violet really likes Pax. I doubt she'd want me to claim her anyway. Why not you?" she asked in response, quirking a brow.

[6/4/2017 12:05:30 AM] Jake: Jake's eyes went wide at her confession. It was probably a good thing she was blind because the look he was giving her would have made her punch him. After taking a moment of silence he shook his head and looked down suddenly finding the floor more interesting than their conversation. "I'm an addict. I'm a convict. Being a slave is not the worse thing to ever happen to me. I guess I'm just broken and there's nothing on this earth that can fix me. I'm not the kind of person you should pick. I can't be saved, Sage. You'd be wasting your time with me."

[6/4/2017 12:13:56 AM] Sage : The momentary silence had her shifting uncomfortably, cursing herself for having said too much. She really needed to think about what she was saying before she gave too much away. "I'm not trying to fix you, Jake. And I'm not trying to save you either- I'm the wrong person for that, believe me. I guess I just- want to be there for you. To protect you, to help maybe. So you've got some issues, so what? I happen to like you just fine as you are," she added quickly under her breath before clearing her throat. "Listen, let me be the judge of what I want to do with my time. I happen to think you're not a waste of it."

[6/4/2017 12:25:58 AM] Jake: Jake was silenced again. This time he used it to think. He was smart, smarter than he let on. But decades of drug use and fatigue had taken their toll. The whole time on the island he tried to think of a way out or around their stupid systems which had only landed him in more trouble. But maybe this claim would be a good compromise, if he could keep himself out of trouble. "Ok," he said finally.

[6/4/2017 12:34:23 AM] Sage : "Okay?" she asked in surprise, her head whipping in the direction of the sound of his voice. She hadn't expected him to agree like that- nor did she expect the little smile that tugged at her lips at the response. "Okay as innnnnn, 'okay, you'll let me claim you'?" she asked curiously, stepping in his direction- at least she hoped it was in his direction. "For real?"

[6/4/2017 3:41:03 PM] Jake: Jake held out a hand to stop her from bumping into the sink. "Yeah." He didn't understand how she could be so excited. Shacking up with some low rent wolf convict was not exactly a girl's dream. At least not any girl he knew.

[6/4/2017 3:46:56 PM] Sage : "Try not to sound too excited about it, Grumps," she snorted sarcastically, running her fingers through her wet hair. Were they really going to do this? A claim? There was a good reason Sage'd avoided it thus far, but maybe it was time for her to do some good with her Mistress status. "I should probably wait until I have my sight back to do any paperwork- so I guess you have until then to find someone you actually want to claim you," she joked, turning and feeling for the door before tentatively making her way out of the bathroom. "Because you're stuck with my sexy ass after that."

[6/4/2017 6:09:58 PM] Jake: "Yeah, you don't want to accidentally agree something." Who knows what they would have her agree to in her state, especially when it came to him.  He watched her leave the room, eyes drifting lower and blaming it on her words. "Being owned is just a little irking. But I guess I'll get used to it."

[6/4/2017 6:32:49 PM] Sage : "I mostly just have to write up rules for you and all that jazz- but that's a whole lot easier to do when I can see, y'know?" she said as she walked from the washroom into the adjoining master suite. Once she was there, Sage flopped onto the bed with a groan of approval, her achy muscles finally able to relax. "I get it, Grumps, I really do. I wouldn't take too well to being owned either," she said as she rolled over onto her back. "I promise I'll make it as un-sucky as I can, alright? I'll even pinky swear it."

[6/4/2017 9:13:47 PM] Jake: Jake stared down at her in bed until she stopped speaking. He was very cautious about the arrangement. Not because of what Sage would do to him, but what the rest would do to use them against each other. Instead of mentioning it further he crawled into bed next to her, laying on his side and facing away. "I know you will."

[6/4/2017 9:17:39 PM] Sage : She could still hear the reluctance in his tone, and she was having a hard time figuring out if that was because he was apprehensive about the arrangement or apprehensive about her. "What are you thinking?" she asked finally, staring unseeingly up at the ceiling. If she had her sight, it would've been a little easier to gauge him- but she was working with nothing but the tone of his voice at that point.

[6/11/2017 6:25:19 PM] Jake: Jake stretched out beside her like a big dog. "Where do I start?" Meant as a joke, but there were so many things going through his head in that moment it was hard to put into words. "I'm scared, I guess. I don't want anything to happen to you."

[6/11/2017 6:33:27 PM] Sage : Sage's lips twitched slightly in a wry smile, even though his words had her falling silent. "Since when do you care about what happens to me, Grumps?" she asked. She meant for that to sound teasing, but it came out more serious than she intended. Still, she didn't take it back, just waited for a response.

[6/11/2017 6:36:59 PM] Jake: Jake had been alone for so long that having someone get close was terrifying. And Sage was and getting even closer if they would go through with this claim. "I've grown quite fond of you." He watched her for a second then cleared his throat. "Or whatever. I know I don't have many other options."

[6/11/2017 6:42:30 PM] Sage : Sage let out a dry laugh before blowing out a long breath, letting her eyes flutter shut. I've grown quite fond of you. Yea. He wasn't the only one. "You saying you've got a crush, Lincoln?" she teased and then cursed herself for always making a joke out of everything. "I know the feeling," she mumbled under her breath, biting her lip. "I just don't know what to do about it."

[6/11/2017 9:37:23 PM] Jake: Jake closed his eyes and sighed. "Maybe." He was just as unsure as she was, so the feeling was mutual. "Sleep on it?" This situation would not resolve itself in one night's sleep. But that was better than the alternative which for both of them meant facing their feelings head on. Something that was not going to happen any time soon.

[6/11/2017 9:45:17 PM] Sage : "Sounds like a better plan than anything I can come up with," she commented and then sighed again, falling silent. She doubted things would be any clearer in the morning, but they definitely weren't going to come to any conclusions right then. Hesitating for a moment, Sage rolled over and shifted across the bed until she felt herself press against the side of Jake's body. Not really caring about what it meant or the implications of her actions, Sage curled up against his side and lay her head on his warm chest. "Just making sure you don't sneak off in the middle of the night," she joked lightly in explanation, but they both knew that wasn't the case.

[6/11/2017 10:32:51 PM] Jake: Jake nearly jumped out of his skin at first. He hadn't expected her to snuggle in beside him and with his eyes shut didn't see it coming. Though he quickly relaxed again and wrapped his arm around her. "Yes. You'll need your seeing eye dog in the morning." He joked

[6/11/2017 10:48:53 PM] Sage : "Something like that," she agreed, a little grin on her lips. She couldn't tell what time of day it was, but she was exhausted, mentally and physically. Curling up with Jake and falling asleep seemed like the perfect idea right then. Sage lay there for a long while, not saying anything, just listening to the sound of his heartbeat under her ear. "Thanks. For today, I mean...you didn't have to- so thanks."

[6/12/2017 7:22:08 PM] Jake: "It was nothing." As much as he wouldn't admit it, seeing Sage had helped him in a way. Jake couldn't say he was feeling better per se, but he wasn't feeling any worse which previously seemed impossible.

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INTERVIEW Q&A: Julie Byrne On Vulnerability, Fighting The Pull To Start Over, & Her New Album Not Even Happiness Gabriela Tully Claymore @gabrielajunetc | December 14, 2016 - 10:00 am

Julie Byrne is one of the chosen few who can genuinely say she’s from “all over.” Byrne has led a nomadic existence since leaving her hometown of Buffalo at 18, and is part of a network of artists known nationally for existing neither here nor there, setting up “home” wherever it feels right for a few weeks or a few years. She counts Pittsburgh, Northampton, Chicago, Lawrence, Seattle, and New Orleans as transient homes, and New York City has only recently become a more permanent one.

Byrne’s music carries the weight of a suitcase packed with memories and trinkets, and her songs are most always born of long journeys, both physical and spiritual. Her last album, Rooms With Walls And Windows, compiled the self-titled and You Would Love It Here cassettes, which were recorded live in 2012 and 2013 while Byrne was living at a show space in Chicago. Rooms With Walls And Windows is a lonely, humbly rendered folk album rooted in the specifics of Byrne’s experience. It’s littered with thumbnail portraits of domesticity, songs about falling in and out of love with people and places, and the inspiring inertia brought on by a life on the road.

Rooms With Walls And Windows was released by the small independent label Orindal in 2014, around the time that Byrne took a train from New Orleans to New York, resettling her chaotic life in one of the more chaotic cities she could’ve chosen. Byrne has been slowly working on the follow-up to her debut ever since. Last year, she trekked back to Buffalo for a brief period to record in her childhood home, bringing along producer Eric Littmann and violinist Jake Falby. It was there that Byrne created her sophomore effort, Not Even Happiness, which is due out early next year. It’s a cleaner, more carefully produced album that finds Byrne in a different emotional space than the one she was in so many years ago when she wrote the songs included on her debut. Not Even Happinessquestions what it means to settle down and whether or not it is objectively “good” to finally find yourself home, even if that home isn’t the place you anticipated. It’s still an album written for the open road, but one that promises some kind of love and companionship at the end of a long journey.

Byrne is one of the finest contemporary examples of an artist who can do so much for the soul by lending you some of hers. She speaks the way she sings — slowly, with an enviable, peaceful precision — and she invited me to her home in Queens to talk about the themes that inspired Not Even Happiness. Byrne takes her time answering questions, sometimes pausing for a near-minute to collect her thoughts before responding, and she doesn’t hesitate to delve into the philosophical. Over tea, we discussed her songwriting process and her new-ish life in New York, where she works odd jobs, including one as a seasonal park ranger. Mostly, we talked about the difficulties that come with staying in place, and in turn, the art that’s born of a good challenge. Read our Q&A and listen to Byrne’s new single, “Follow My Voice,” below.

STEREOGUM: When I listen to Not Even Happiness knowing you’ve been somewhat settled in New York, I focus so closely on how much of your lyricism is derived from nature. I think of New York as such a grey, industrial place.

JULIE BYRNE: That’s why I was grateful for the opportunity to work as a park ranger. I was starved for that sense of well-being we feel when we’re in green spaces. And I didn’t even realize the extent to which living without that was affecting me until I returned to Buffalo last fall. When we were living there, working on this album, we’d spend our days recording and to clear our heads we’d hike the trails in a nearby county park called Hunter’s Creek. By the time I returned to New York, it was with a greater sense of my own needs. I was studying environmental science and I hoped to find a job where I could commune with nature and work outside so I applied to the city parks department. I worked in Central Park most days this past summer and came to view it as a sanctuary, not only for New Yorkers to experience their connection to nature but also for the wildlife that take refuge there. And while the surrounding neighborhoods don’t reflect the same ethos, the parks really do belong to the people of New York and the parks department upholds that mission. I liked working in that form of service to the public.

STEREOGUM: It’s hard to look up and actually take stuff in outside of the daily routine. In that sense, I hear a kind of spiritualism on this album, too. I got Not Even Happiness the week after the election, and it felt appropriate because one of the first things I thought when I saw the result was: “I just wish I believed in god or something right now.” And then, to hear you point to little examples of the sublime on songs like “Natural Blue” feels so powerful at this point in time. What’s the story behind that song?

BYRNE: [When I wrote that song], I had been on tour for 40 days and I had maybe 30 left to go. We didn’t build in any period of rest between shows, so I really felt that I was at the mercy of any given day. I had no grounding and no real privacy, and it was difficult to live like that. We were staying outside of Boulder, CO — my friend’s cousin was going to school out there and she was living in an old mountain house with a five friends. A few of them had grown up in that town, lived there all their lives. It was a world separate from the one that I was used to and also entirely disconnected from the national DIY music community that I’m a part of.

They ended up having a party at the house that night, and the past few months had been a difficult time for everyone ‘cause there’d been a series of landslides in the town before that. It seemed like the first time that people had been able to come together and see each other, it was a very spirited gathering. I didn’t know anyone there, except my best friend David, who I was traveling with, and a boy we’d met in Denver, who we always thought was a wild star. We immersed ourselves in that night and hardly got any sleep. Not long after dawn, we had to pack up and get ready to leave on a 10-hour drive to Lawrence, KS. It felt like there was no real break between what we had experienced that night and the day that followed. “Natural Blue” came from feeling so at the mercy of the experience of touring and somehow breaking through to fully live in those moments of mysterious peace, wherever they may be. You can’t expect more than that, living that life.

STEREOGUM: That’s such a beautiful way of putting it. You talk a lot about privacy, or finding ways to be alone even when you’re surrounded by other people. How has your life changed between when the last album came out and now, in terms of how you’ve been living, what you’ve been doing, how you fill your days?

BYRNE: Well, I guess the most honest way I could answer that question is that regardless of the material differences in how I’ve lived between then and now, it’s my hope that I’m gradually aligning myself with aspirations of the spirit and in doing so, becoming more intentional in my daily life. I’m not free of selfishness, investment in my own side of a story, insecurities that manifest in ways I couldn’t anticipate, impatience… making a habit out of returning to short-lived forms of stimulation or escape. All the markings of a brutal heart. But it seems that being honest about these things is part of our movement away from them. My life’s been more structured, way more routine, but beyond that, the greatest change has been the realization that internally, much of what I turned to for a sense of self could actually never supply it.

STEREOGUM: You can hear that intention in this record because it’s bookended by two songs that are very much about the question of: “Should I still be moving or should I stay in place?” Maybe we can talk about the ideas behind “Follow My Voice.” One of my favorite lyrics on the album is that line, “I know you call this home/ But for me, this city’s hell.”

BYRNE: That line is in homage to a Caethua song that I listened to religiously in the past. At that point in my life, it’s very much how I felt about living in New York. But I had fallen in love. I had fallen so deeply, so sincerely in love and the person that I was with was rooted here. It seemed like whatever credentials I did have at that time had no merit in such an unrelenting place. I hadn’t graduated from college, and I wasn’t in school. I had a scattered work history. I pursued music with such devotion, but that doesn’t afford stability here. At one time in my life, it felt that living on the fringes and living without a home was very liberating, even in its most difficult moments. After being in New York and working in the service industry and feeling no sense of conviction for what I was doing to survive, I found myself at the end of that journey. I had no real reason to be here, but I wasn’t sure where else I could go. I don’t feel that way anymore.

It feels good to finally release “Follow My Voice,” it’s very dear to me. More than anything, the song is a plea for those in pain not to be overtaken by fear. For so much of my adult life, in great secrecy, I’ve felt a deep concern that part of me would always feel alone, misinterpreted, or unreachable. That feeling of aloneness was more familiar and constant to me than any romance had ever been, so much that I drew strength from it. The fear we experience, when despite all we try to give in love, we still emerge feeling that we may never truly be seen — this can have a bewildering effect that causes us to act in ways that aren’t true to who we are. In this case, to remain territorial even after the relationship ran its course, to assert our positions and entitlements, to find fault, the refusal to wish someone well when they no longer meet your personal needs. The song is an expression of faith in complete, unmotivated responsiveness in love and that our own capacity to love extends so far beyond the boundaries of what we’ve been told and lead to believe.

STEREOGUM: It’s hard to be honest and to abandon your ego.

BYRNE: It is! Well said. But part of the reason why it’s so hard to be honest is we don’t really live in a society that encourages that degree of vulnerability. There’s an Adrienne Rich quote that I really love… I think it’s something like:

An honorable human relationship — that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love” — is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other… It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. We can count on so few people to go this hard way with us.

And I think that’s really true. Living and loving is never going to be easy, and the beautiful part of a relationship is being committed toward really wanting to see and understand someone else and really challenging yourself to listen to who they are instead of asserting who you are and what you need. And obviously, I’m not free of that, I’ve certainly done just that very thing. But I think it’s really important to kind of move away from that.

STEREOGUM: There are so many references on this album to being alone and wondering if being alone is what you’re meant to be. Whether or not you can be the same person, loving and living with someone in harmony, or if that requires resigning bits and pieces of yourself.

BYRNE: That’s certainly been… a conflict for sure. I was talking to one of my friends recently who works as a chaplain, and he’s been an important guide to me. He explained a teaching that the aspiration of love should be triangular, where two people stand on common ground with space and individuality between them, seeking their highest good together. In that sense, the relationship is no longer being driven by unexamined need.

STEREOGUM: In the album’s press release you mention that “Follow My Voice” and the last song, “I Live Now As A Singer,” are closest to your heart in some ways. Do you feel like they connect in a cyclical way? Or am I reading too far into it?

BYRNE: No, I’d say that’s true. There’s greater resolve at the end of Not Even Happiness. “I Live Now As A Singer” is a revelation about the nature of travel. The reason I’ve felt so called to move and to tour is because I was never in a place for that long before I wanted a clean slate. But, you know, whatever burdens you carry go with you wherever you go. You could cross an ocean and they’d still be with you. I traveled the country extensively before I even came close to accepting that. And maybe that goes back to what I was trying to articulate before about how, yes, the structure of my life has changed but also the nature of my life has changed. It’s been a period of time where I’m trying to address what kept compelling me to leave again and again and again.

STEREOGUM: That must be really difficult.

BYRNE: [Laughs] I’m not claiming that I’ve made any progress!

STEREOGUM: What’s 2017 looking like for you?

BYRNE: I don’t know. I’m trying to figure that out myself. I’d like to work as a ranger again in the summer, but I’d also like to tour. It really just depends. I’m playing it by ear right now. More than anything, I’d like to be stable enough to maintain the home I return to even when I do travel. I’m not willing to live the way that I did before when I was just like, “All right! I’m leaving everything behind and going on tour!” [Laughs]  I think that having a home base will make me a stronger performer in that I’ll have a dedicated space from which to do the work that I need to in order to offer myself more fully to other people. At least that’s the hope.

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I Found My Voice As A Writer In Justin Timberlake Fan Fiction

Simone Noronha for BuzzFeed News

At 13 years old, there was one thing I knew for sure: If ever I were to meet Justin Timberlake, it would have to be under the pretense that I wasn’t a fan.

Trust, I’d given it a lot of thought. Imagining all of the possible ways I could end up in the same room as JT was at the top of my list of favorite pastimes, right next to listening to NSYNC. I knew the most likely way to meet him would be in the capacity of a fan, maybe at a meet-and-greet or by winning backstage passes, but I also understood that if I wanted Justin to take me seriously — and that was key, if we were going to fall in love — I couldn’t come across as some embarrassing, giddy, fawning fan. Which, of course, I was.

So I spent hours imagining our possible love stories — as I was falling asleep, when I was daydreaming in class, wherever. These were PG-rated rom-coms, starring future me and (somehow) 1998-era Justin Timberlake. The scenarios were convoluted; they had dialogue; I knew what I’d be wearing and exactly how I’d win him over. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was creating fanfic — more than a decade before I knew there was such a thing.

I fell hard for NSYNC, and Justin, in 1998, right around when the “Tearin’ Up My Heart” video came out. Before that, I’d been dismissive of boy bands. I was raised primarily on rap and R&B, my parents hailing from what my dad called, to my great embarrassment, the “Boogie-Down Bronx.” So I knew what good music was, and this pretty-boy stuff was not it. But then TRL became a thing, and these boys were unavoidable. And then I saw the video. More specifically, I saw Justin’s arm in a tank top, bent over his glossy blond curls and pouting lips — just so.

I am not hyperbolizing when I say something deep within me shifted in that moment. I’d had celebrity crushes before, but I was mostly too embarrassed to even admit them to myself. (In a fill-in-the-blank journal from when I was 8, I’d crossed out an “I have a crush on ____” prompt and substituted in tiny letters above it, “I sort of think the Fresh Prince is cute.”) Those were the fleeting interests of an amateur; this crush — this passion — settled into my core. As a chubby, bespectacled middle schooler who had heavy bangs long past the time everyone else had grown them out, I was scared of people in general and terrified especially of boys. But man, those biceps sure seemed like they’d be fun to touch.

Part of loving a famous icon is the acute agony of knowing he is unreachable.

Within months, I was all in. I owned approximately 40 pieces of NSYNC merchandise: multiple posters, pins, one giant pencil, a journal, a folder, pens, stickers, patches, every magazine with the band on the cover, lip balm, their official book, textbook covers, dolls, shirts, and, of course, CDs. I recorded (on actual VHS tapes!) every music video and MTV appearance, as well as their HBO special, and I watched a random segment from those tapes with a bowl of cereal every morning before school. I went to two concerts and cried both times. I read every bit of trivia. I memorized Justin’s birthday (Jan. 31) and favorite movie (The Usual Suspects). And when MTV linked up with Star Wars for a trivia sweepstakes, the prize for which involved a one-on-five date with the boys, I saw The Phantom Menace in theaters four times to try to answer their list of questions. I didn’t win.

People who’ve never experienced this specific brand of boy-idol love might be baffled by the fact that it often brings millions of girls to tears. What they don’t understand is that part of loving a famous icon is the acute agony of knowing he is unreachable. I loved Justin Timberlake so much, just like millions of other girls in the world, and not only would I never be with him, but I’d never be able to appreciate a real relationship, because I’d know the person I ended up with would not be the man I loved the most. [Quick note to say hi to my boyfriend, whom — I want to be clear — I love much more than I love Justin Timberlake.] I felt this massive injustice as a true, powerful, physical pain. The only way I was able to mitigate it was to distract myself with stories that placed me and JT in a universe where we could be together.

By the time I was fully under siege by NSYNC obsession, I’d begun writing, and abandoned, three novels. I loved reading, I wrote in my journal every day, and I knew I wanted to be a writer when I grew up — either that or a singer (still on the fence, to be honest). But when I tried to write fiction, I hated what came out. I’d suddenly lose any imagination I had. The dialogue didn’t make sense. Nothing sounded as real or natural as the stuff I was reading. I didn’t know how people got ideas, and, if they were lucky enough to come up with one, how they didn’t get bored with it.

But love stories about me and JT? Those came easy.

One of my favorites: I’m 18, finally, and super hot (finally). NSYNC is still touring because they will never ever break up, and they’re holding a contest (a singing contest), and the winner gets to sing a song with them onstage. I’m not planning on trying out, but I go with a friend who is. When we get to the audition room, after my friend sings well but not too well, Justin (who is, obviously, judging) asks what I’ll be singing. And I say, Oh me? No, no, I’m just here for support, I couldn’t possibly.

And then my friend says, She actually has a great voice.

And Justin smiles wryly, and I’m like, Well, if you insist, though I’m hardly prepared!

Justin, the rest of the boys, and my friend needle me until finally I close my eyes and just go for it, belting (usually, though, this detail changed from time to time) some vintage Mariah Carey. I nail it, a cappella, and everyone — especially Justin — is blown away. And then I win, and then we fall in love.

In these imagined futures, Justin played an important role, but the real star was future me.

Or: I bring my younger cousin to a concert, and we wait outside afterward because she wants to meet the guys. When they come by to say hello (because of course they do) I kind of smirk and shrug and say, I’m sorry to bother you guys — she’s just such a fan. And Justin, who is floored by the fact that this cool (and hot, so frickin’ hot) chick isn’t remotely impressed by him, says, And you’re not? And I say something so chill, like, Pop music isn’t really my speed. And then he asks if I want to hang out. And then we fall in love.

The fantasies were many and varied and provided a vital, immersive respite from the life I was actually living — one consisting mainly of wondering what made the popular kids popular, how people mustered the courage to speak up in large groups, and why I’d gotten stuck with a body all plump and wrong, so unlike all the others I saw on TV. In these imagined futures, Justin played an important role, but the real star was future me. And she was everything I needed to believe I’d become — attractive, witty, and, above all, bold. If I could trust that self was waiting for me, those in-between years seemed a little more manageable.

There is a name for what I was doing, though I didn’t know it at the time. I was creating fanfiction — those amateur, fan-written, oft mocked stories featuring characters created by other writers (or real pop stars) as well as first- or second-person narration, which have found vibrant communities on websites like Tumblr and Wattpad. But I kept mine to myself. The stories I actually wrote down, and eventually showed to other people, never starred dreamy pop idols. It didn’t seem like something a "Real Writer" would do, as if “good” writing and joy were mutually exclusive. But I now find kinship among those who contribute to these platforms. To say fanfiction stories are nothing but personalized soft porn for horny girls (which, to be very clear, is an important part of what they are, and which I’m 100% for) is to greatly underestimate their power.

That fanfiction has real commercial power is now well-acknowledged; Fifty Shades of Grey, originally written as Twilight fanfic, is probably the most mainstream, but Anna Todd also turned her One Direction fanfic After into a six-figure book deal and a wildly successful trilogy. Then there are the “retellings,” i.e. fanfic approved by the literati: Gregory Maguire’s Wicked, the series and musical about Frank L. Baum’s Oz witches, or Jean Rhys’s Wide Sargasso Sea, an imagined prequel to Jane Eyre. Which is to say, writers pull inspiration from all manner of sources; sometimes the result is a love story that asserts the validity of a young woman’s (often dismissed) desire. Sometimes it is a channel through which a burgeoning writer can deliver and refine her talent.

My stories, like those of many fanfic writers, were as much about building a narrative as they were about enacting a fantasy.

My stories, like those of many fanfic writers, were as much about building a narrative as they were about enacting a fantasy. I can remember how problems of character motivation seemed so much less abstract when they were considered through the lens of an imagined, but possible, future — Justin Timberlake was a real (if mythic) person, and structuring the narrative became a sort of problem-solving. What could a person like me do to meet a person like him? I struggled to figure out what an 8-year-old would do if she found a secret portal to a fantasy world (my second abandoned novel), but I loved putting myself in conversation with my ultimate crush and asking, What next? What next?

There is a simple, dizzying joy in writing (or reading!) a story in which you and your dream crush are the stars, but also intrinsic to that setup is the understanding that you — the writer, the reader — deserve the star treatment you’re receiving. If this is something you don’t believe (and certainly, when I was imagining my own love stories, I didn’t believe it), it can be comfort enough to pretend you do, to indulge the notion that you might be good enough to be the protagonist of your own story for long enough that it no longer feels that far-fetched.

I didn’t meet Justin Timberlake (and haven't yet). But I did grow into my confidence and my voice — a voice which I know was honed by the stories I told myself. Without those stories, there would be no writing career, no novel, no unrepentant gushing over the things (and people) who drive my creativity. There’s probably a lot more of 13-year-old Arianna in me now than 13-year-old Arianna would have wanted. But, at 30, I can see she was always cooler than she believed, anyway. I like to think, had Justin met me then, he would have at least been kind of charmed. ●

Arianna Rebolini is author of the novel Public Relations with Katie Heaney. She was formerly a deputy editorial director at BuzzFeed. You can follow her @AriannaRebolini or check out her writing here.

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